#or like some emotional intimacy

[umbratheshadowfamiliar]

I feel so bad for Isaac lovers. That man is so emotionally unaviliable it hurts to hear.

We are on the 9th fuckin episode with this tweed jacket, jumin han, lookin mofo and we've gotten absolutely nothing.

#asmr #audio roleplay #asmr roleplay #isaac roads #his ex bf has left his whole ass job for his M/C #honestly Andrew Marston would never #we take 2 steps towards this bitch and he gets in his fancy fucking car and drives away to my workville population forever alone #babes we just want a kiss #or like some emotional intimacy #zsakuva

[vvienne]

I literally woke up in the middle of the night like God will dark rise is so fucking screwed. The line that’s like. “Everyone wanted to kill the Dark King.” What’s the part where he looks at Violet helplessly, haunted, almost pleading for mercy? But of course he reveals nothing of substance to anyone. Elizabeth is too young to understand but the reader knows what “Her relationship with that boy was…unnatural” can mean. Tying him to bedposts? Failing to strangle him? What else? Never not even once seeing beyond a mythological identity Will himself didn’t know he had? What did he think was the reason? That he was just intrinsically hateful? Of course he says nothing. Of course Violet can’t trust him- he’s given her nothing as painfully real as what she’s given him. So he gives her the sword hoping at least he can die at the hands of someone he loved, but even that doesn’t work out - she gives the sword to a Visander still furious at SARCEAN. The pattern continues; no one looks at Will, who vomits when he realizes what’s happened to James, Will who is much of a liar and killer and sneak as Elizabeth accuses but nonetheless wants to be different. Even when he doesn’t remember his own past. There’s no way out for him that doesn’t hurt. Hope this obsession passes soon given the one and a half years of waiting required for book 3

#dark rise series #dark heir #rarely does a cliffhanger pain me so much #bc rarely am I ever THAT invested in a plot I am sad to say #nona the ninth was so cathartic in of itself I’m content marinating before alecto #BUT PACAT ONLY EVER GIVES EMOTIONAL CRUMBS #have any of these bitches ever known peace fr #maybe this is what reading princes gambit and not immediately having the follow up might’ve been like #honestly it’s possibly damen and Lauren just generally had less problems tho #more than his relationship even with James. will/Violet is perhaps the genuine source of like. I WISH HED GIVEN HER A REASON. #the narration that describes Violet as Will’s star in the night…….. like fuck fine #will can’t reach any level of genuine intimacy with James bc the mess of fraught noncon dynamics is this massive unspoken horrible thing #wills identity is personal w James in a way it is with no one else but James is so fucking oblivious of undercurrents it comes unbalanced #and will knows it. but (as far as we know) violet isn’t reborn has no history with sarcean the dark king she’s literallt just Some Guy #and that almost makes it worse???????? that they are so loyal to each other even as he’s keeping a massive secret? #they weren’t dated or destined to entangle the way will is w characters like James and Katherine #and I think that makes his rship with Violet possibly the realest and truest experience of trust and love will has ever had #like it’s nothing bro. truly she knows nothing about him other than his lies of omission and her faith in him goodness which may or may not #beiltimately justified. but that was probably as honest and close will ever got to anyone. and him to her.

[xxe123spiderfreakxx]

here u go :) if u date one of my buddies u better be ready to accept ur not the only one who gets physical intimacy from them <3

#leznaru post #im feeling very cranky about this topic so heres a silly meme about it #i dont have patience for ppl who try to monopolize their partners bodies/emotions bc they dont know how behave in romantic relationships <3 #if u think im trying to fuck my friend bc i want to hold their hand or lay across their lap ur annoying stop <3 #ace post #aro posting #aroace #arospec #acespec #shoutout to all the annoying (former) partners of my friends ive had to deal with- u were awful <3 #also shoutout to the annoying ppl who werent in the romantic relationship but tried to tell me I WAS the one being unreasonable #like u really believe that? and u would think it's just the cishets no u would be shocked at some of the queer allos who also #dont fucking get it. it's so cringe <3 being aro/acespec is literally so freeing #even if ur not just like abandoning ur preconceptions that romance should pigeon hole ur intimacy to one person or solely ur romantic #partners will fucking set u free... id advise checking urself pls <3 #also as if ur ROMANTIC relationship inherently trumps my friendships or relationships with my queer platonic life partners..be so fucking fr

[justsomeguycore]

i think the reason people think romantic love is deeper than friendship is because like. for a romantic relationship to be good it pretty much MUST reach a deep level of emotional intimacy, whereas a friendship doesn’t HAVE to in order to be a worthwhile relationship. but people mistake the lack of necessity of emotional intimacy for an actual lack of emotional intimacy. and that’s just not true

#and it’s not really about monogamy or commitment though cultural ideas about those things do play into all of it #to some people maybe any level of emotional intimacy is romantic to them #just like to some people no level of emotional intimacy will translate to romance

[lovelyfoolish]

tbh i’m not really a meta person but i’m a bioethicist by training and i thought this could be interesting to discuss 

i think n and m’s routes both have this underlying, unexplored discussion of bodily autonomy (which is what vampirism is all about when you’re a bioethicist. i am not just here for the sexy fangs, i am here for the ethical questions that will give u a headache!) 

and their experiences diverge and parallel and form this complete picture of what it means to be and have a body and it would be really fascinating to see a love triangle route for them because of it

m’s route, with its focus on the conflict between physical and emotional intimacy (putting aside, for a second, the shallowness of the separation between the two, because to be physically intimate with someone takes just as much bravery as sharing your feelings with them, actually), has to place an emphasis on the consent aspect of bodily autonomy, where choices you make about your body require your complete understanding and allowance, free from undue pressure

n’s route has a preoccupation with their vampirism. there’s this psychological concept called moral injury, where you feel like you’ve done something (or acquiesced to something, or allowed something) that is deeply against your morals/values/life, and your moral injury can become a disorder. it’s similar to ptsd (and often walks hand in hand with it), and people who experience moral injury feel intense shame or guilt about it. i think maybe n becoming a vampire caused them some fictional equivalent of a moral injury, especially considering the circumstances in which they were turned 

so n’s route approaches the question of bodily autonomy from the opposite side, when you have no choice but to consent (which is really common with disability, where you have to do things you don’t want to do because you do want to live) because to not consent would be death 

does that make sense? 

it’s like. m’s route is about what you do with a body. n’s route is about what you do to a body

#twc #disclaimer: i have not read book 3 so i don't know if i missed anything i'm just going off memory #if i delete this it's because i decided i was overthinking it #ptsd tw #idk what else to tw about but i am sure there is something so #ask to tw #long post #sorry for the snippy aside about physical intimacy the discourse on emotional vs physical is just. like really tiring lol #they're inseparable one is not superior to the other #anyway just some thoughts i had while i was working on the flutterby fic

[deadendtracks]

going through a period where i feel like i don't have anyone to talk to on an intimate level and it feels pretty bad. my life overall is going really well professionally, I'm happy at my new job, had a great time at the conference, get a long with my coworkers and boss. i just don't have that friendship that allows you to get Really Real and be seen right now and everyone i talk to since the pandemic started just has So Much to Say and Needs to Talk and none of them really seem capable of reciprocating and I miss it, being seen and understood by someone on that level.

#i was basically queerplatonically married and that blew up almost 10 years ago and I've made some friends since but still lack #that deeper level of emotional intimacy #and like 85% of this is because I am not great at making new friends and socializing but some part of that is just #the way people Are post 2020 #idk #i'm not unhappy i just don't feel Seen

[moonsickcafe]

I’m not gonna lie, I just don’t see what people are hating about Artrem’s characterization in the second anniversary. I thought it was pretty true to form.

My only real beef is that it felt shorter and off theme compared to the other 3 cards which is a huge shame and feels gross considering it’s such a momentous canon card.

BUT

Artem in the 2nd anniversary doesn’t feel super out of character.

He’s putting off engagement because he feels paralyzed by the act of telling Rosa what he feels/wants because he doesn’t know how to convey his feelings or propose in a way that matches his own expectations.

He’s being distant and aloof as a result, and Rosa is doing what she does best and hyper analyzing his behavior with wrong conclusions (that reflect more on outward situations than internal, since Artem still isn’t great at being open up about that stuff unlike Vyn who knows how to communicate well but withholds as a concerted choice, for example).

All of his background cards see him bobbing and weaving not just how Neil and his parents have affected him in front of Rosa, but also when Rosa or anyone else hurts his feelings/comes to a wrong conclusion about him/his intentions, with fleeting exceptions.

Master of deflecting further questions or the topic at hand with (mostly work) segues.

He’s still being cheered on and brought to reality by his work big sis Celestine, who is so invested in Artem and Rosa that she views it as a cherry on top to see them engaged after her wedding. Which is so lovely. And very in character for her—she loves to see the fruits of her labor happen front and center and now she can hold this memory close not just in regards to her wedding but in regards to Artem and Rosa, who she cherishes. Especially Artem! (Also the fact that Mr. Rodriguez is so on board….busy body power couple)

This in particular is where I feel people are just beefing to beef. Celestine has ALWAYS meddled. And this feels very in character for her to guide Artem where he needs to go in a way she likes. She does it in almost every card she’s in!

And he is still struggling with his abandonment issues from Neil being gone and his parents not being around as much. He feels SO hard for Rosa and in a moment of high emotion and still a bit tipsy off alcohol he makes possessive comments which is also not out of character.

To me, it’s Artem feeling comfortable and going to the next step physically (and emotionally) by REALLY admitting that he’s insecure and his fears are manifesting as possessiveness ie YEARNING for Rosa and for more with her. He feels secure with Rosa. And he fears losing her just like he’s lost others. And he wants it to feel real. He doesn’t want to lose her to a case (Neil) or a career (his mother and father) or anything else!

He wants to feel like it isn’t a dream. He wants it to be solid, fully grounded in reality, in a way a lot of his personal relationships never get to be. No one could know about NXX and the full extent of his relationship with Neil (or the other members). He actively hid who his mother is and by extension who he is to her. Despite his relationships with Celestine and Rosa, he feels leagues away from his co-workers at large.

He wants people to KNOW that he has a truly personal relationship. He doesn’t want to for others or himself to see a large distance between himself and Rosa—like they’re strangers attached by business (like others in his life have been). Rosa is his partner, in all senses of the word.

Not just that, but it’s been a full year since Artem and Rosa started dating. In what world is it out of character for them to be familiar with intimacy. I kept seeing a lot of people saying Artem was too sexual and all he did was hold her and kiss her which he’s done……a lot, probably. They’ve been dating a year by now! The ending implies what we see is something they’ve done before but Artem would like to go farther. And Rosa is all for that but has never heard him say that before now! Because the repressed guy has been giving her repression.

Is the expectation truly that Artem’s first time making out and feeling up Rosa is this card? For real?

I have no idea what future cards will bring and I’m not interested in knowing until I can pull them in Global, but personally it feels like frustration toward future events is bleeding onto this card. Because what was presented does not feel disconnected from Artem’s side story, cards, or characterization as a whole.

There was just less time allowed to expand on what was presented which I agree is not ideal or even acceptable, especially for the 2nd anniversary. It should have been on par with the 1st in that regard, full stop.

But acting like this card pulled away from his established characterization in other cards in a huge way feels disingenuous. It did not! It was just rushed which I HATE SO MUCH. Like Rosa and Artem felt like they had the least time actually interacting within these 2nd anni cards!

And among these 2nd anni cards a big theme was family. Artem’s parents are certainly not dead so their exclusion from this proposal warranted at least some form of explanation. ESPECIALLY since his mother is someone Rosa knows and thinks fondly of and it certainly would have been interesting to see Celestine and Artem’s mother interact together.

His card lacked time to explore what he was feeling and cohesion to the 2nd anni theme, for sure. Which is really sad considering he is one of my favorite NXX guys. Like there are criticisms for sure but mine are more toward the structure of the card

#tears of themis #Artem shows a modicum of assurance in intimacy and suddenly it’s Too Out of Character #he’s a square not totally incompetent #I think it’s so funny Artem keeps getting knocked for being possessive when he is like far from alone in that behavior #EVEN ROSA HER SELF WAS PULLING IT IN THE 2ND ANNI #very directly with Vyn for example #like part of a repressed character is that when emotions do come out they’re often immature #this happens even in his highly praised cards like The Weeds/Gufeng #in fact the ending was just a more intense version of the The Weed’s main scene but since Rosa and Artem are actually in a relationship #it wasn’t just half hearted mumbling it was Artem full on SAYING his immature desires #also the proposing thing….people literally had me thinking he did it without permission like #I even re read some of my favorite cards to see if I was going crazy but NO #he mumbles or says never mind when he gets close to being open A LOT #and now that he’s being open but it sounds immature is Bad like???? repression in my repressed workaholic? it’s more likely than you think!

[stardustdiiving]

Everytime I tell people who know me pretty well I LOVED Pearl from Steven Universe as a child it’s so humiliating bc they’re always like oh of COURSE you did . I bet you loved her thing with rose quartz didn’t you and I have to admit Rosepearl was an integral part me building an understanding of queerness and they’re like that makes SO much sense. I cannot keep doing this

#fern.txt #its interesting looking back bc I feel SU being good at not making u feel ur being talked down to or talked over w how it goes #into emotions when ur watching it as a kid + the ambiguity of intimacy/love with rose and pearl just rlly clicked for me #bc i had known of gay relationships before but I have always been so obviously aromantic so if u explained them to me only in #the lens of romsntic relationships I just didn’t get it esp in how it could relate to my own identity #but idk I remember I watched rose’s scabbard over some classmates shoulder and was genuinely just so fascinated #with how pearl had all these deep feelings for another woman but it wasn’t just for the show to say they were exes n pearl wanted to get #back together with her or they used to be dating etc it was just her mourning her overall love and relationship w rose #and w my aromanticism I’ve always been able to understand love I just feel I hit a wall n disconnect when it’s romsntic love in the confines #of a conventional romsntic relationship%. so with this I was like wow I really resonate w this feeling of just rlly loving another woman and #I am able to kind of understand how those feelings fe n experiences exist outside of just Wanting To Date Someone #its rlly interesting bc I think it just continues to be a facet to my own queerness to this day #when it comes to relationships specifically I still lean towards n love ambiguity in fiction + my own work #bc I think that lets me resonate between when I jsut have this complete blind spot of being able to relate to anything with romsntic #relationships bc I’m on the aro spectrum OFL

[markcampbells]

"how many ace fics can I have written before the end of the year" and other things i seem to have made a personal challenge

#i have a mckirk one in progress #i ended up in my feelings about harlivy at fucking 2 AM and am trying something #and while my vashwood one is not technically an ace fic it's kinda heavy on nonsexual intimacy idk #i feel like i'm having some kind of moment #also maybe i read two romance novellas recently where i felt like the emotional connection stopped once the sex started #ya girl is kind of a salty bitch #trai's writing life '23

[brookheimer]

do i post my long explanation of empathy vs sympathy re: roman tonight or is that just excessive

#like warning it is Long. will cut it down some bc i wrote it in a mad frenzy at 3 am in my notes app last night but still #tl;dr: roman is intensely empathetic and entirely devoid of sympathy. the seemingly contradictory displays of compassion vs disregard/ #cruelty are not contradictory at all and make complete sense if you understand the actual definitions of empathy and sympathy. i’d argue #that while rome’s capacity for empathy stands out in a show a #of people who are not prone to empathy his complete and total void of sympathy is much more unique in terms of humanity at large. it’s just #a show filled w cruel people so it’s less noticeable that the forms of cruelty he displays are rooted in empathy/lack of sympathy rather #than sympathy/lack of empathy like kendall and shiv (and just most people more generally) #sympathy is predicated upon difference distance and logical dissection of emotion while empathy is rooted in identification intimacy and #visceral experiences of emotion #you guys just literally do not know what these words mean. but that’s fine ! most people do not ! they are frequently confused and conflated #! that just doesn’t mean they SHOULD be. so . maybe i can help w that #also for further reading edmund burke is an absolutely fascinating figure to read esp his writings on british imperialism #although the term he uses is sympathy mehta & other later thinkers who have talked ab him have concluded that his cosmopolitanism of #sentiments/sympathy is much more like the modern definition of empathy (the words have shifted meaning slightly over the course of history) #or rather that the sentiment is empathy but the push to action is sympathy and combining together u get the cosmo. of sentiments #but basically burke is the founder of modern conservative thought basically. he is also the only british thinker who at the time of british #occupation of india actually spoke out against imperialism. this is because he viewed others not from a lens of sympathy/pity (feeling bad #for their plight) but empathy (identifying with their circumstances and placing himself within them) #love burke bc i find it so fascinating how someone i disagree with so frequently also holds a mindset that i value greatly and is anti- #imperialism despite everything else about him #kind of like rome in that sense. except rome’s sense of empathy is slightly broken because a) he doesn’t have any sympathy to supplement it #with and b) his visceral/emotion/gut instinct leading way of viewing the world + the way obscene wealth makes the rest of reality feel #fungible = inability to feel anything towards that which he does not identify #and unlike burke rome is too skewed by wealth and his upbringing to see resemblance in the masses and empathize w them #the other sibs function using sympathy and feel bad for the poor without having to relate to or understand them #but roman doesn’t do sympathy. he doesn’t feel FOR people he feels what people are feeling instead #but only so long as they’re seen as people. sympathy requires hierarchy so not viewing others as ppl v much allows for sympathy. #empathy requires some level of perceived horizontality so rome cannot empathize w that which is not horizontal to him #me: should i post this long thing? also me: posts another long thing in the tags that’s a long short summary of the much longer actual post #anyways. ahem. back to work

[the-mad-prince-of-denmark]

Hilarious statement both for how out of left field it is and because if only one of these two men into dudes, ITS FUCKIN DAN BABY

#literally the way I’ve explained the homoeroticism of Reanimator to several friends/ #the plot doesn’t really make sense and the characters relationship doesn’t really make sense if they don’t feel SOMETHING for each other #that goes beyond traditional heterosexual plutonic affection #and like #there are A Lot of shades of grey within that #there are many ways you can interpret #their dynamic #famously Jeffrey Colmbs. the actor who plays Herbert. reads him as acearo and is kinda… weird about any gay subtext readings #but like. the plot simply doesn’t work I’d Dan isn’t drawn to Herbert in some way #if any and all of their closeness is just total manipulation on Herbert’s part. then that indicated there’s something in Dan that craves #physical connection and emotional intimacy. and RESPONDS to that manipulation. it WORKS on the man #re-alr #live read

[anthromimicry]

sorry, halsey — hopeless fountain kingdom.

#ALL POWER DEMANDS PAIN AND SACRIFICE: musings. #NO SLEEP OF THE INNOCENT. NOT FOR YOU: character study. #it kind of surprises me just how much content there is out there about being afraid of intimacy but then again- #i have heard that that is supposedly one of the most common fears that people have apparently. so yeahhh but of course i do mean emotional- #intimacy here and oh my goshhh. i never realized just how sad parts of this song were until i listened to it again. #'i run away when thing's are good and never really understood the way you laid your eyes on me in ways that no one ever could #i hate to say it BUT that is so misao. she really does feel sooo unlovable sometimes and she has this 'leave them before they leave you'- #mentality that is so saddening to have TBH but i understand why she has it. her childhood kind of left her broken in a way i think- #in ways that can't be easily explained as it was very nuanced and complicated. but GAHHH that doesn't stop me from wanting misao- #to find at least some kind of love from people 😭 like she needs at least one friend or something that she can depend on bc i feel like- #that would really help her and being in a house alone all the time whenever she's not at work can not be good for her psyche. #so petition to get misao a friend or two? JSJSJ nahhh but i am legitimately being serious at this point #she needs someone who'll stick with her through thick and thin and will be understanding of the fact that she's got unresolved trauma so- #that partially causes her to be hyperindependent but i firmly believe that she needs people just as much as anyone else. #maybe more in fact but IDK #and the fact that in this song halsey says that she still knows facts about them even though she hasn't talked to them- #in forever? i'm WEEPING AHHH #that is so like misao as well sadly. she would literally take little notes as to what thing's people like to reference later if she had a- #friend because she 'doesn't want to get it wrong' whenever she gets them a present she says but it's really so that she doesn't forget- #how precious this person is to her and how she wrote down all of their favorite things as a result.

[judasgot-it]

I’m still shock, how can Fyodor be dead? He wasn't my favorite character but he was charismatic. I really can’t believe it

Dude, I don't believe it cuz in the beginning episodes in the play, I saw somewhere that its probably fyodor who was hung on that cross, and Christianity is his whole THING.

Also fukuchi mentioned specifically 500 people being sacrificed?? (Which if jouno is apart of that I'm PISSED I want him back. Where is Jouno?) which might mean something specific

So I think he's going to be resurrected, quite possibly with the power of the book. If there is a "cult" around him (which I think is the case - the V is probably different than what Fukuchi was doing with his world peace thing) then they might bring him back. Also we still have sigma and nikolai - sigma can probably tell us about fyodor cause I know he isn't dead. The mystery WILL unravel around him eventually

And nikolai will either chase after him and use him to bring him back OR will do it himself. OR MAYBE !!! Nikolai will do something else. He's 100% a wild card (who should be arrested but obviously that isn't a top priority rn)

Fyodor's story isn't over just yet - even if he's dead, I think there's a lot more to be said about him story wise at the very least which means more content (I'm holding out hope at least. Like cmon no way he'd die and be thrown out like that nuh uh)

He's too integral to a lot of characters story, so he should be heard about at least !!

#lowkey this episode made me feel for him #heavy with nikolai #cause fyodor has heavy heavy trust issues and nikolai cant attach himself to anyone in a normal way #and it shows in the way that despite barely knowing each other they felt comfort with each other #fyodor liked that nikolai NEEDED him in some way even if it was obviously disturbing in many ways #and he planned to kill him because he truly did hate having people who were close to him #nikolai wanted to be what fyodor was but was really an emotional person #and wanted to express that somehow #and he did that in strange and violent disturbing ways #and for some reason fyodor could accept that #they both are really disturbed and can only be vulnerable in the disturbed #just some fyolai thoughts #but their dynamic was nice #and also i like how it shows how fyodor was scared of intimacy on many levels #dazai is ok with being hurt because he likes it but fyodor cant even comprehend realm of life i think #bsd #bungou stray dogs #bsd fyodor #bsd nikolai

[shastafirecracker]

I don’t hate the fast pacing but the loss of so much vash and wolfwood friendship bonding time is hurting my heart

#trigun stampede #trigun stampede spoilers #being asleep together in a car for like 3 days isn’t gonna cut it #and like I’m excited to see Livio but you need to have established soooo much more emotional intimacy #between Vash and Wolfwood before Livio becomes a narratively important character to redeem #got to go watch quick draw and hang fire to absorb some friendship scenes sigh

[sunset-unbound]

i could simply imagine some dialogue was slightly different, but it's infinitely funnier to imagine the MC has managed to independently date all the Summoners without the others realizing, leading to the misunderstanding of the century after Ch.8

#and somehow it was purely by accident. can you imagine the chaos #i think it's especially funny considering ryota's and kengo's dialogue particularly emphasize the MC having chosen them in particular #cue the Summoners back in Shinjuku Academy and all at once they try doing some move to show emotional intimacy #and just look around like ??? when the other 3 are doing the same thing #sun.txt #housamo #放サモ

[istherewifiinhell]

anyone wanna get emotional about collaborative art with me?

[Mirage 19 Story: E&L, Layout: Eastman, Pencils: Jim Lawson, Inks: Laird, Letters: Steve Lavigne]

ID from alt: Cropped section of the page annotations by Laird, (relevant) text: Page 18 is also the beginning of what I think of as "Brick hell" - Jim drew so many panels with hundreds of bricks in them, and I felt obliged to ink them all in. That was a LOT of bricks." Left is a panel showing Raph running down a curving brick tunnel, the wall is drawn with individual bricks, uncountable amounts of lines that illustrate the curvature.

If not, enjoy brick hell instead (I'll leave, just a doozy of a brick hell image at the end)

(this issue has beautiful layout paneling, which little snippets of could never replicate. great one to check out. imho)

come one come all to the worst barn party of the decade...

[IDS AND ALTS THE SAME]

ID: Jones family barn interior. Mike and Don speaking to Raph (off panel). Mike, in an open gesture: Life is good here... It's given us time to heal, to accept what's happened. Leo's needed this time, too--. Don, by his work table, no mask, wearing an apron. More neutral: We're not the guardians of society, Raphael... we never were. END

ID: Three panels, Raph pushing Leo around, yelling at him. The background moves from uninked, to midtone, to dark tone, as they both get more angry. Raph: No-- You're hiding out here... scared to face facts... And you're dragging all of us down with you! Fun and games are over, Chump... Look at yourself! END

ID: Two panels, Raph looks down to a wooden sword Leo (off panel) has held up in his way. He looks at it, unimpressed. Then looks up, pissed off and says only "Mistake." END

1. Three panels, Leo in the forground, just his leg seen. Raph on the floor against a wall. He whips his chin, saying "You were always good, Leo...". Close up, spit hangs from his mouth, continues "... One of the best..." He stands and finishes "...Which makes life here even more of a crime."

2. Four panels, Leo has Raph in a choke hold, holding him from behind, they are on the floor. Sweaty and teeth grit with exhertion. Leo says "--Do you hear me?!" Raph starts throwing punches to Leo's head, just above his own. As each one land we close in on Leo's face. END

Well. Thats great. Ill eat my own heart out how abouts.

AND ANYWAY. My favourite favourite effect.

ID: 1. Four panels, Leo, Mike and Don, run along a roof top, grab some fire escapes, and make their way to street level, skirting the edge of a street lamp's glow. The entire set is pen inked normally, and washed completely with the mid tone, save the small circle around the lamp, glowing white.

2. Large panel. Raph, 3 point lands, kicking up dust in the center of a spot lit section of sewer. The tail ends of a hood he wears trail up with the motion. Very little double-tone is used on the page, instead the shadow is communicated by increased hatch lines still following the shapes of every object in shot. END

ID: Raph sits in the tattered remains of the turtles lair, his brothers shadowed in the foreground. Raph, not very warmly says "Welcome Home." END

Okay okay. cry forever and every. please for the love of god. read comics. now. more brick hell

ID: Three panels, showing the entrance of a sewer tunnel into a larger area, closed and open pipes along the wall. The shot holds empty for two panels, then with the inclusion of Raph jumping out the exit in the third. If you are to look carefully. You can tell, though the scenery remains the same, in each, the intricate pen inked brick work and shadows have been done three separate times. END

LIKE. I KNOW ITS TRADITIONAL MEDIUM COMICS. But sir.... SIR? Another annotations from Laird specifically. Have mentioned using the copier to place certain things in backgrounds.... i just.... SIR?

#some shit #turbles... #one occassionally gets the impression that. laird is. ehm. a little particular about his work. Id say. well. its good work. #tags now refer to the contents within.... #RAPH LEO FIGHT EVERYONE STOP THE PRESSES IMMA DIE.... #ahhh. the blueprint. god. im ILL. fuck. this. don telling RAPH its not on them. thats. god thats a WHOLE OTHER. ouf. #and then. THE INTIMACY. of the violence. it KILLS THE MAN. thats. one hell of a fight scene. honestly. just. again. the over all pacing #of this issue. tuned to perfection. that is. some of the first time ive very felt panels come like blows. emotional ones. #like. NOT INCLUDED. but theres a moment thats. like down right scary? not horror scary just like. STRESS SCARY. #GENUINELY. feel sick. LOVE IT #i CANTTTT handle it. i love laird turtles inked by lawson but guess i ALSO love lawson turtles inked by laird. #idk. they so emotive and pretty naturalistic expression wise. also makes me think of sophie campbell though i could just be thinking about #the idw leo micro. cause. well. i want (issue) where (they) pass away. not because i hate them becauase i LOVE THEM. #wifi blogs mirage