#or keep trying to talk over each other

[gender-i-hardly-know-er]

thinking about the stanley parable

thinking about sanders sides

thinking about the stanley parable and sanders sides

#sanders sides #the stanley parable #LISTEN #THE NARRATOR IS LITERALLY LOGAN YALL #as much as I hate thinking abt the skip button. the skip button #changing himself for teh approval of others #begging and pleading to be listened to #being a bitch #(affectionate) #needing things to go his way to the point of angry outbursts when they don’t go to plan #autism #they’re both autistic too #I wanna put them in a room and see what happens #they’d kill each other maybe #or have a deep conversation #or keep trying to talk over each other #or end up being besties #idk #having Thoughts tm

[drenched-in-sunlight]

i like ghostflower (hell I draw fanarts for them) but I’ve decided I like the version of them in my head more and will just stay away from the fandom in general cuz I’ve seen some discussion and they just make me go “what on earth are y’all on” 💀💀💀💀

#“miles will immediately forgive gwen when he sees she’s gathered a whole team to save him WHAT #he’ll save himself first then befriend Miles G. and Miles G. will start hissing like the cats when that team comes and Miles looks upset #like I firmly believe miles will only talk to Hobie and Margo after all that cuz they r the two that stand by his side thru whole that #like that take is so insane when Hobie is the reason Miles can run away in the first place and Margo risks everything to allow Miles leaving #AND HE KNOWS #u don’t even need a scale to see who Miles will associate with safety and protection more after atsv #also “miles keep getting up after he’s beaten down cuz that what Gwen told him to do in itsv is ALSO insane cuz WHAT #the thing she said when she and others were berating and crowding Miles for not knowing how to be Spider-Man just FEW DAYS after he’s bitten #?????? #THAT THING???? #not his mom’s words or his uncle’s or idk THAT’S HOW HE IS??? #*walk in the tag* *walk out immediately* #u don’t have to make them the only person in each other’s life to prop the ship up especially in this case cuz it makes no sense 😭 #actually the first point srl piss me off cuz that team was only possible in the first place cuz of Hobie and Margo and Miles laying #the groundwork by just being a sweetheart he is #charming and inspiring ppl so ofc these kids will rally behind him and team up to save him #ykno LIKE IN THE COMIC TOO??? #ppl just have to take the only thing I don’t like in the movie (miles suddenly obsessed over Gwen when they didn’t even interact that much #in itsv) and magnify it x100 in fandom #if she ain’t a gremlin girl that is trying her best to regain Miles’ trust but it’s a slow process and Miles needs space and time first then #I don’t want it

[fatuismooches]

OMG!! THE STEM STUDENT ZANDIK x ART READER ONE HAS MY HEART AS AN ARTIST AND WRITER 😭😭😭 imagine him growing to appreciate art and once you guys are dating you have trouble hiding sketches of him and he finds them..... I imagine his reaction would be priceless and he would tease you when he realises your embarrassed, secretly keeping the drawings of him in certain places of his lab so that he can always remind himself of how much you love him

You started drawing Zandik way before you two started dating, at first you thought he was simply pretty to look at and draw, but it spiraled to the point where you found yourself doodling his bored expression in class on the side of your papers. It was swiftly erased before your friend could find out. But after you two get together you find yourself drawing him way more often, not just him but you two with each other as well. You don't tell him though because you're aware of his feelings about the arts but also because it may seem strange you have a whole book dedicated to pictures of him. However, considering you are dating the eccentricity which is Zandik it probably really isn't that weird.

When Zandik finally finds your secret stash, he finds your attention to detail rather superb and admirable. You probably also end up drawing stuff he likes (Ruin Machines, tools, ... a variety of desserts) which are also quite a sight to see. He knew you had a skilled hand because there were times in the past when it was necessary to sketch for classes, but he never paid much attention to it. Though the arts isn't a subject of much interest for him, he finds himself intrigued by your skill. And also why you didn't tell him you possessed such a skill.

In the Akademiya, his teasing would be a bit more rough when you drew him ("Perhaps you should put those hands to better use and start working on your assignments... however, I am still looking forward to the fruits of your labor.) But now, Dottore would be a lot more forward ("Drawing me again, my dear? One would think I own these hands of yours, from how they're always itching to draw my likeness, hm?)

Even centuries later, Dottore somehow managed to preserve all of your artwork for himself (even you don't know this, it's his little secret perhaps.) He loves to see how much your creations and skills have grown since way back then, and he's truly excited to see how far you'll continue to go.

#smooches talks #dottore love notes <3 #reader has like... a dozen sketchbooks bc each one is dedicated to a segment #they get such big egos over whether they have more drawings than the other so u try to keep it balanced

[puppyeared]

ive made myself more wet and pathetic

#new icon because im SUFFERING. im in HELL #its so bad. i had to sign out of discord so now im both lonely and stressed #because i KNOW im still gonna get dstracted. i just did making this URGH #how good are brains at working around things. i once set a 7AM alarm on my phone with snooze cause i was so sure my brain would #be too lazy and keep snoozing instead of actually turning it off. but nay it either kept sleeping through the alarms and snoozing #or actually managed to turn off the alarm half awake that i barely remembered it and then waking up late #i actually have a track record of climbing out of bed and turning my alarm off without remembering. which is impressive bc i have a loftbed #the other thing is setting fake deadlines so make myself panic into doing things ahead of time. but unfortunately that doesnt work either #because if theres one thing my brain will put all its energy into remembering its self assurance. meaning i WILL be able to remember #the real deadline even if i try to trick myself. cant ask someone to give me a fake deadline either #the only things keeping me going rn is that i have deadlines due at least 1 day between each other and excitement being able to talk with #crow after break. but you can see how well thats going <- ignores long term rewards in favor of short term pleasure #BTW CROW IF YOURE READING THIS IM SO SORRY TURNING OFF MY DISCORD WITH BARELY ANY EXPLANATION #im a huge fucking dumbass and i had barely enough impulse control not to block everyone in my dms because i realized that would send a real #really bad msg. youre not distracting me im distracting myself and i promise youre not annoying me i just really like talking to you and #thats why im just barely stopping myself from signing in. I WANT TO TALK TO U LOTS BUT AT THE SAME TIME IM KICKING MYSELF FOR DOING IT #you can be a little mad at me btw cause i definitely could have done that better but i was all over the place abt how to do it without #making u think im ignoring you. IF THAT MAKES SENSE. SORRY #yapping #doodles #puppysona #edit but last week i tried to schedule and give myself work periods and break periods using my class schedule #and reminders on my phone to tell me when to start and stop. can you guess what happened

[tomato-ace]

karen was going down the slide at the park next to tokyo tower when hikari told her she was going to move to london and they were going to be separated for a long time

12 years later from the top of that same slide karen reached out her hand to hikari who took it and climbed up to stand beside her as they decided to try and win the auditions together

#they make me insane #they love each other they terrify each other they envy each other they adore each other they are blinded by each other they shine brighter #together #fate keeps putting them together and then pulling them apart over and over and over #they are soulmates #what i'm trying to say is #THEM #revstar #karen aijou #hikari kagura #hikaren #revue starlight #tomato talk 🍅

[countess-of-edessa]

the world is so fucked up and i can't help but think the damage is irreparable when i see people talking about how unusual and prudish it is to wait six to ten dates before having sex with someone. ten dates??? roughly like twenty five hours of interaction????? ten old timer burgers and mango iced teas from chilis equals sex?????? the possibility of pregnancy, STDs, emotional devastation, lifelong consequences, not to mention just straight up the possibility of getting murdered, with a STRANGER you have hung out with for maybe like two months???? and that's a LONG TIME???? and if you feel weird about that and don't want to do that that makes you NOT HETEROSEXUAL????? THATS AN ORIENTATION???? BECAUSE ITS SO OUTSIDE OF THE NORM OF HUMAN BEHAVIOR ????? i hate all of you i hate you i hate you i hate you every day i hate and I hate and I hate you

#i genuinely genuinely don't understand how everybody who tries to date hasn't killed themselves yet #I'm not saying they should I'm just saying I don't get how they're able to continue on #i see women on social media talking about how they had to cry for a day because they slept with a man they'd been seeing for a while and #then he never called again #no joke not trying to be dramatic I would just kill myself??? i do not understand how people can keep going after something like that #i mean I would never be in that situation because everything about it is bad but like. still #I hate to kind of agree with the 'women over 25 are too bitter for love' twitter man even in a very roundabout way #but i think men AND women participating in modern dating culture have to in some way become so hardened and kill some part of themself #just to survive??? that sounds so melodramatic but like. I can't understand how else people could continue to function as human beings #when they interact with each other in the way modern dating culture dictates

[drink-tang-gang]

“I’ll touch your cheek / you’ll hold my hand / and only we will understand / not a word need be spoken/ in our language of love”

—-

One of my favorite commissions done for the lovely @LeCatProduction on twitter. I love any excuse to give these two some love. <3

#looney tunes #pepe le pew #penelope cat #still can’t believe I got PAID to draw these two #it makes me feel. idk i cant describe it. I just feel!!! 💓💓💓💗 #in reimagining their dynamic I want to keep them grossly romantic and in love with each other #pepe’s a flirt and a gentleman and toootally swoons over penelope #penelope’s a classy gal and likes being won over. she’s got sharp tastes #and it’s fun to see how pepe will try and ‘win’ her over #in quotations bc. they only have eyes for each other #but also pepe’s so emotional and gets swept up that penelope has to reel him in bfkf #like: they go to a tropical resort and pepe breaks into soliloquies abt how romantic and beautiful everything is #meanwhile penelope is a Bad Luck Magnet so she she tries to see the positives in pepe’s speeches even though #they JUST barely survived a dangerous shark chase AND survived a storm #again ​he’s not oblivious to the situation or of penelope’s feelings: he just gets caught up sometimes. prolly literally lololol #WAaaa i talk too much ok ramble over #✍️ scenery! where’s the scenery? ✍️

[governmentmandatedryujinstan420]

i can't believe i come back momentarily from the dead and it's with more cancerous memes. Two versions bc god had other plans, none which included not having both of these.

#hand jumper #juni chang #ishaan cha #where my juni enjoyers at #did i ever mention i was the qpr ishjun guy i probably should've hung that up in a sign as a warning in advance #i don't f around with these bros they're my little guys they're the scunkledoodles #they're everything and i'll actually fight you on them if i see something egregious or slanderous of them #they're my children they're my little DSM-5 case studies they're my little sillies i keep in the petri dish #whether they beat each other up or talk crap is up to sleepacross tho they my only hope #the fp got me acting up i'm on the delulu cocaina i need to be shot #shot down or shot dead pick one just PLEASE end my suffering #WHO IS THE CELL 3 MENTOR JUST END MY SUFFERING INSTEAD OF HOLDING CELL 3 CRUMBS OVER MY HEAD #AND IF ONLY JUNI IS OVERSEEING THEM OR THEY'RE GOING IN UNSUPERVISED I'LL EXPLODE #STRAIGHT UP. #SHOOT ME DOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOWN #AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAGHHH #sighs #i could've been simping over that one panel of sayeon like everyone else #not the mirror one or the sayjin flirting kismesis ass vacillating btw #you guys should fp just try it i swear you won't regret it #use the magical powers..... #share the burden......... #i as your personal demon that makes rounds around your head approve of this please #consider throwing some coins or 28 for even more brainrot i'm like dying in a corner and WILL die in a corner waiting for tuesday #also i have testing next week too i think hj is just cursed like that #we love to see it though

[wizardnuke]

thinks about the mighty nein. throws up blood

#um you know how they were willing to fucking kill each other to prevent anyone from going down the wrong path. that's insane #from the beginning to the end they were talking about preventative measures and holding each other accountable and making sure everyone's #loved. you are so loved please stay with us. please don't be what your narrative wants you to be you're better than that #from the early days of fjord threatening caleb. beau and caleb and fjord all making pacts with each other. beau and caleb immediately #telling the others when they start having dreams. they want to live. they want to live and they don't want to hurt anyone #but they're so prone to it that they have to make sure someone has eyes on them (ha. haha) all the fucking time #molly died and came back wrong and they chased him down. yasha was stolen and mind controlled and they chased her down. #the FORGIVENESS that is built into that team. yeah you fucked up bad but we love you so much please stay with us we'll do our best to keep #you safe if you do the same for us. we'll kick your demons in the ass and we'll kick YOUR ass if you try to fall to them #do better do better do better #and that belief is so strong that it carried over to essek. he was supposed to be a villain..

[munamania]

real life drama moment eye roll sams apparently struggling bc he wants to move out and is touring this building hes been eyeing but his roommates dont want him to but also apparently theres beef and he just 'doesnt want to be friends with those people anymore' and he was really vague about what that was all abt and his friend group and who he wanted to even still talk to. and well. not my circus not my monkeys....... but im gonna go ahead and keep my feet in two lanes here does that make me a shady bitch. girl i literally dk any details and thats fine but like. idk whatever..

#personally me and ur roommate r fine so gonna just chill there and also thank my fellow dyke they went on a trip with #just for being a lesbian hashtag dyke swag (we met once and high fived over this) #again not my business but all i know is that apparently some of them planned trips even to where hes from over break and didnt talk to him #abt it. and i was like well did any of you just talk about spring break at all and he was like no. so. okay.. and then he talked vaguely ab #doing so much for them to try and make them like him again and i was just like well once again #did anybody in this friend group ever just like have a direct conversation about anything ever. lowkey. i said it nicer than that #and the answer is pretty much no #like ok blames not fully on u ig but if we had unspoken beef and u were adjacently doing nice things idk that id. recognize that..? #esp just with. the busy-ness of sams life. not trying 2 be callous #idk in general that group just needs to fall apart once again why have u known each other since freshman year #go to like. therapy. also. ok im sorry to be bitching abt somebody thats kind of my friend i dont like feeling like a two faced bitch #thats the gemini in me i guess. ahaha everyone laugh. but whatever this is tumblr dot com. also like the fact that he approached this with #ugh.... im feeling Complex emotions... and i dont like it... :(. im gonna keep it real idk that thats very complex #ur just gonna have to talk to them. a general them. whoever. 'well whats the end goal of that' idk dude u have to figure that out hello #abby talks

[np5enkidu]

i need fgo to acknowledge servants horses more

#achilles isn't enough i need to know how each servant is around their horse(s) #i think that duryodhana has two main steeds and would have a hard time controlling them for when he's being petulant #highest ranking older mare (12-16) + her offspring (4-8) the older one would have a stubborn and calm temperament who doesn't respect duryo #and her daughter would have the same kind of chill but would be more playful and curious. dur is talking with his brothers & she trots over #starts nuzzling and sniffing his clothes because she's bored. duryo keeps talking but starts petting her #i also think duryodhana has instinctively good balance and he's good at multitasking so showmanship-like riding comes to him easily #but he's shit at all horse maintenance. especially hoof care; he's convinced his girls are going to kick him and doesn't want to even try i #but he wants good care for his horses so he watches over the servants tending to them. bossy yet incompetent duryodhana 🥰 #we know georgios is a good owner but i think he likes rein maintenance & spends a fair amount of time making sure bayards armor is spotless #lalter gives out snacks more easily than her counterpart (going after the wild hunt takes energy! llamrei is a good girl!) #percival is great with horses in general and he enjoys taking care of them and will help out any other knights if they're having trouble #ashvatthaman is (un)surprisingly really good with young stallions. he's not afraid of them at all and will scold them for their mean deeds #horse tries to eat his clothes or nibble his hair and he's like. oi stop that you bastard. and the horse listens (will eat his hair later) #prince of lanling is very thorough with horses getting enough feed and water and will make sure they're well rested #arjuna is like. the main character of a horse movie. he's emotionally sensitive with them & bonds with horses easily (who sense his worries #works really really hard to be good at riding and wants to leave no room for mistakes. really aware of his posture at all times #we had dogy event please give me hors event... horses cute and underrated<-most biased man talking

[lightblueminecraftorchid]

I love learning ASL it’s so good. Makes me happy to learn it. I’m so glad my university has classes for it with professors actually steeped in Deaf culture.

#blue chatter #am I good at ASL? hahahahahahaha. no. #ASL and English grammar are incredibly different and even when I remember my vocab I am easily clockable as hearing #but I do have some language capacity now. enough to communicate the basics. #and I just. genuinely really enjoy it. it’s fun to learn and engaging in a way most of my classes just aren’t. #and I can. yanno. communicate respectfully w Deaf ppl. and learn about their culture #which is incredibly important given that I want to go into a field where there is a higher incidence than typical of Deaf people #autistic? you’re more likely to be Deaf! #not to mention the fact that sign language can sometimes be a useful alternative to speech for nonspeaking/nonverbal people #depending on the person obvi; some nonspeaking/nonverbal autistics cannot use sign language and that’s okay #but surely at some point I will encounter either a Deaf client or a nonspeaking/nonverbal client who uses ASL #and when that time comes I should have some idea of how to communicate with them #I also rly like the Deaf church by my parents’ house #their community is really welcoming and their services are really interesting #I think it’s rly cool how they take intentions directly from the congregation #they’ll raise their hands and then sign what their intention is from their pew to the ambo #which is rly neat #it is funny bc every time I go the Deaf ppl I talk to will tell each other ‘go slow she’s hearing’ #which is ENTIRELY fair bc. I am hearing. and I do need them to go slower. #but it also makes me laugh bc truly everyone knows within a few minutes. #oh hey the new person? they’re hearing. yeah they’re learning ASL at college. sign slowly for her. #which again makes sense bc a big Deaf culture thing is keeping ppl informed. it’s not gossip it’s getting everyone on the same page. #Deaf ppl do NOT beat around the bush that is like the height of rudeness to them. u say what u mean goshdangit. do not waste their time. #which I appreciate the heck out of bc i don’t have to try and phrase things delicately or w/e #it was also funny bc my mom came w me while I was home for Christmas and they asked her if I was her kid #and she said yes. and the lady running the kid’s craft corner thing was like ‘great you’re doing a craft now’ #and I’m sitting there. visibly over 18 years old. amongst several seven year olds. trying desperately to figure out how to say hot glue gun #I made a v pretty pinecone tree it was a lot of fun ^-^

[virgogonegirl]

Resisting the urge to make even more BG3 characters because I have current BG3 playthroughs (and character stories!) unfinished. But also…the idea of a pretty dhampir monster hunter speaks to me.

#hilarious for astarion to try and hide his vampire nature only for someone to be like oh you’re a dhampir too? for him to short circuit #but also the idea for a slutty pirate character? also there #k talks #I love playing with mods and the character creation screen too much to be stopped #bg3 best value for me of all time. I already sunk over 200 hours into it. what’s a few more? #not to mention characters to romance the other companions #I can’t just keep going after Astarion each time (even if my heart wants to)

[morninkim]

Rise of the Mighty Morphin Power Rangers - Angel Grove High Students

A couple more students that attend Angel Grove High School with the Rangers, meet Angela; as well as some freshman who've just moved up from Stone Canyon Middle, Aisha, Rocky and Adam!

Angela Campbell is an older sister by instinct, but no push over. Since the beginning of their Sophmore Year, she's been enjoying a romantic cat-and-mouse game with one Zack Taylor, always interested in what scheme he'll come up with to earn her affections. Of course, he already has them, but the game's a bit too fun to let him win just yet.

Angela's younger sister Aisha, as well as her two best friends - Rocco "Rocky" De Santos and Adam Park - moved to Angel Grove from Stone Canyon to be closer to the Power Rangers, after seeing the reports on their exploits through the R4ngerN3T ClikClak account. The three of them eventually get recruited by Bulk & Skull to help collect eye witness reports and film fights when possible, getting themselves into more trouble those two already do for a good story. Though impulsive, the trio do have great potential that will not go unnoticed.

#rotmmpr #mmpr #power rangers #aisha campbell #rocky desantos #adam park #mmpr angela #my art #OKAY FIRST OFF I LOVE RISE ZACK/ANGELA I'VE BEEN WAITING TO TALK ABOUT THEM #basically seasons 1-2 take place over one year - six months each #so they'd be a recurring comedy bit for cold opens and sometimes whole early episodes y'know shenanigans #but then they'd get together mid-season 2 but still be very cute and try to one-up each other all the time #and zack tells her he loves her on the night of prom before the rangers gotta go fight zedd in the finale #and he's like ''i gotta go i have umm... i have something i need to do'' and she's like ''i know. go save the world'' #bc she's figured out he's a ranger over the course of mid-2 to end of 3 #basically the finale has a lot of characters close to the rangers finding out their identities - either bc they figure it out #or get told - and choosing to keep their secret #a lot of themes of trust and all that to bring it all together for the big final fight #anyway. stone canyon trio appear in s3 and help bulk and skull with rangernet - sometimes directly with them and sometimes on their own #aisha's the on-camera person usually - rocky's on boom mic - adam works the camera #they rush headfirst into danger and end up finding out the rangers identities after the team get their asses kicked by zedd #after he gets the phantom morpher late into the season #but then there's hijinx of figuring out which sd card they put the footage on and yadda yadda #until they find it again and bring it to b&s after THEY find out the rangers' secret #and it's a cute moment of like. the five of them agreeing they can't publish it for various reasons #and then in the final scene of the show we'd see aisha rocky and adam become the new yellow red and black rangers #after trini jason and zack graduate - they're also the main focuses of the post-series movie #where their big arc is coming into their own as rangers and resolving to be the best they can be #anyway i like them theyre fun - plus i LOVEE aisha's outfit i mashed together her movie look and an overalls look i found and AH she's cute

[aeriedwelling]

apotheosis is so hard to watch but im tryin

#aerie chatter #girl it's. they keep talking over each other #and the party keeps beating each other up #and character personalities don't mesh well?? #and like. they spend half a session just talking about things they've BEEN talking about for like THREE SESSIONS #and peter and rumi go on tangents forever and thanatos doesn't do anything for like entire sessions at a time #the rock gifting thing is cute. and peter/rumi strangers to friends to lovers is cute. #but aaaaugh. this is. raaaar im trying. head in hands i am trying so hard. #it's giving the fated and that was PAINFUL to sit through. i keep zoning out. #raaaaarrrrr. ok. we're goin we're doin this. babababababab

[spamtoon]

(Out of nowhere, you are approached by a familiar lightbulb-headed Cog.)

Ah, it's you, cat. Thinking you're oh-so-slick. Muttering and whispering under those raggedy whiskers of yours... Thinking I am unable to hear it all...

Well, you've simply underestimated my fantastic hearing. You probably want to know the reason why I'm here, taking a 'break' from my incredibly important scientific breakthroughs? It's quite simple, really!

(She gets close, and squints her eyes.)

I know what you are.

Farewell, now!

(She then leaves the way she came from.)

(Spam giggles immensely, covering her face... it always seems like she's giggling, isn't she? This lasts... at least thirty seconds. Longer than usual.)

And I know what I am too, Sparky! You broke through something, that's for sure. Really, broke through...

(She looks down, continuing to laugh nervously.)

You know, I find it odd you Havent tried to bulb blast me into the stratosphere by now. I mean knowing how you acted with Frostbite. Is there something peculiar about me that you perhaps can't quite track? Something about me that you... don't know what I am?

I know, I know, I'm talking to nobody again. But you were there when I had a moment today with the one the only Frostbite The Bravecog. You may be remaining. Lurking in the shadows. Knowing about these thoughts that I'm thinking.

(The giggling resumes, lasting far shorter this time.)

Your brother's a piece of fucking barp, by the way

(She braces for impact for a few seconds, wincing while smiling, before comically looking around to realize nobody's there. She sighs.)

Wow, okay maybe toony superhero show logic doesn't apply in this situation. Cool.

WAIT I JUST FUCKING REALIZED WHAT SHE MEANT but like. Dude if she meant that then what's the point I mean the whole ahh sellbot department barping knows unless you're Really low on the ladder. Heheh... maybe she did mean what I thought she meant.

Oh i'm so fucking screwed. What kind of bitch gets filament fever

#bright spark #<- for finding this again later. haha i called her sparky #the way she talks fucking tickles my brain so much im so . ohguohguohoghog SHE #SORRY THAT THIS TOOK SO LONG you see i was in the mindset that i would do this one little thing and then i would do my work which uh. #that leads to so so SO much procrastination. including on fun things! oh so fun things. #today was an event. #i also spent quite a bit of time ruminating i “would she really say that” is worse when shes literally you #to clarify. she is spam's aunt by like. building standards. not really in her found family. so its fucked up but as i said in discord this #is like. a “your mom's kinda hot” level crush. you know. also sorry i really wanted to say filament fever its been eating at me okay #nothing SERIOUS the way my f/os (and spam's f/os (plural now?? i guess?? if today was a canon event)) are #honestly mark still feels like the only real one with her to me but damn it. if spam's reflecting My Changes then she's Reflecting My Chang #spam in toontown unlike my other sonas is the most “its just you again” out of all of them and thats partially because her main #cog connection... is frostbite. they bounce off each other like we literally bounce off each other and damn it shes been so stagnant on her #own because of it. mark happened and she mirrored that because i kept fucking talking about him while we were in character and ideally #i should TRY to fix her. but also man because i'm not doing Serious lore stuff with her i dont. even know if i want to. #i kinda brushed it over the rug by saying that she relies on her constant entertainment so readily because she herself still doesnt feel #like she has a place outside of cogs only. sure she's in high roller backstage sure she's in allan's family now but shes not Doing anything #with herself the way that her friends are. mole's a ranger. frostbite cohosts. wishes... has chip. and something she doesn't have-- #living and fully growing as a toon. rather than being haphazardly slapped into a world. and in some respects she's envious of frostbite #finding themselves so quickly because she distracts herself because she's still kinda struggling with it. despite everything. yes she lives #happy and carefree a lot of the time but she keeps buying those dumb phones because when she's truly alone... her mind starts to wander. #that's what mark is for. so that spam can dream of a world where she has a purpose. even if its fake and fragile and just nothing compared #to the great friends that she already has. where she feels like its worth it doing something when she doesn't have anyone. and in that #respect. with the goons ma allan parallels in sonboy the spam cathal parallels shine. seeking tv (and to a lesser extent games) as a #method of escapism. even when one's life is already pretty good. because there's nothing else worth doing without friends or family. #the internet isn't just cool. it gives her something to be when it seems like everyone is something but her. and maybe thats a lazy #excuse for why it seems like she doesnt HAVE anything to call her own but that but damn it i'm trying my best to twist it around. #spam has such a HISTORY yknow? even if it feels like i havent established her much. #spam is the hearts to frostbite's spades not just because they're the duo of all time but because spam's fake stupid love keeps her going #sorry i just started rambling in the tags of this post about spam it. happens. she loves her friends so much i need to reiterate that okay