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Chapter 5 Appeasing

Chapter 5 of Sugar

A/N- Such a cute brother and sister relationship, it would be a shame if…

Warning- Swearing, some angst, FLUFF!!, steamy scene, long chapter.

Pairing- Suguru Geto x Gojo!fem-reader

Episode- A small part of 2x01

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“So,” Shoko rolls out slowly and in a teasing tone. “How is it?”

Huh?

You slowly look at her with bewilderment. “How is what?” You probe slowly.

Shoko laughs. “Geto, how is it being with him?”

You blink repeatedly and peer back at the path behind you, at the pond that was no longer visible as you walked down the hill. “Well,” you say as you breathe out. “Since we haven’t been dating long, it’s been good, very good. Suguru is very nice and sweet. We went out on a date the other day.” You glance at her and smile softly. “We went bowling, ate greasy pizza, and talked—”

“Talked huh?” Shoko snickers and nudges you.

You shoot her a pointed gaze and huff out as you gently push her aside. “Yeah. We talked, we got to know each other. And we…kissed…a lot.” You snicker but end up sighing deeply soon thereafter. “There’s only one thing that’s weighing us down…that thing being the fact that Satoru doesn’t know. That’s a real pain in our ass.”

“Surprise him,” Shoko suggests. “He loves surprises.”

You sigh. “Yeah, surprise Satoru, I’m dating your best friend. And your best friend is dating your little sister.” You rub your temple and groan. “Maybe I’ll write it on a cake?” You peek at Shoko, and she chuckles, making you smile and making this stress a bit easier.

“Well once you tell him let me know, I can’t say I’ll jump in a fight,” she jokes. “But I do want to know how he reacts. And if I need to bail you out of anywhere.”

You smile softly at the ground. “Yeah.” You nod. “I’ll let you know.” You proceed to exhale and look at the path ahead with a fading smile.

“So were you planning on not telling me?” Shoko interjects and pulls your attention back to her.

“Huh?”

“Well aren't we girls supposed to tell each other everything?” She explains as she pulls out a cigarette. “Gossip while we do our nails? Or eat ice cream?”

Here you thought she was going to lecture you, scold you for dating her friend. After all she was friends with them first, even if she teases them relentlessly, they’re still her friends, they’re in the same class year too, and when she does go to missions, she goes with them. So you thought she’d be protective of her friends, and were scared of telling her because of it.

“Well,” you scoff softly, and nervously begin to play with your sleeve. “To be honest you kind of scared me too. You’re their friend, I thought you’d be protective of Suguru, so I thought I’d wait to tell you.”

Shoko hums and plops the cigarette in between her lips. “Oh, well, sure they’re my friends,” she says, “but you’re my friend now too. And with Utahime being older, that keeps her away longer now, so I am in need of more girl friends. As you can tell there are a few girls in this damn school, and I can’t tell Geto and your brother everything. Just like I know you can’t possibly tell them everything. So we have to stick together, like you said.”

You sigh with relief. “Well that’s good to know,” you say softly. Plus it does feel good to talk about what went on between Suguru and you a moment ago, you’ve kept it in too long.

“And it’s a big relief,” you continue to say. “I can’t really talk to my other friends anymore since you know they are non-sorcerers, so it’s good that you’re here Shoko Ieiri.”

Said girl smiles and you then hook your arm around hers. “Now,” you add. “What do you want to know?”

Shoko pulls her cigarette out of her mouth and tilts her hand towards you. “Well I do want to know if you can light this for me.”

“Tsk.” However, even with your complaint you proceed to lift your finger and summon fire to light the end of her cigarette. “I do hope that’s not why you want to be closer,” you mumble.

Shoko once again pulls her cigarette to her mouth and shrugs. “What if it was?”

“You’d be an ass, that’s what,” you counter sassily.

Shoko snickers.

“So,” you probe as you throw your arm around her shoulders. “Are you currently pinning on anyone here?”

Shoko drifts her gaze to the side and scoffs. “No. I don’t want to date anyone I live with. You know how painful that'd be? Well perhaps you don’t know, but! It’d be a pain in the ass for me.”

You hum softly and smirk. “Well considering you’re our special doctor wouldn't that be more, I don’t know, easier?” You ask her. “You have to stay here more than anyone, so it’d be easier for you to date someone you live with.”

Shoko shrugs. “Sure,” she says. “But I don’t think I could do it. It’d annoy me. I don’t know how you’re going to do it.”

“Well.” You shrug. “It’s a good thing my brother likes to spend a lot of time with Suguru, right? We’re also in different school years, it keeps us both busy. Plus I don’t mind it much, I think It strengthens our bond…yet if something happens then,” you pause and exhale while you slide your arm off her shoulders to cross them over your chest. “That’d be the real pain. I don’t think I’d be strong enough to face loss like that.”

Shoko stays quiet for a moment before she interjects to assure you. “I wouldn’t worry about that, Geto is strong. Besides, he's always on missions with your brother they look out for one another.”

Yeah, that’s true.

“Plus,” you add and grin at her. “We have you too, doc.”

Shoko smirks and nods. “Exactly!”

You grin brighter and take her arm again to run down the last bit of the hill so you can take her with you to do some training together. However, when you come to the end of the hill, Haibara then crosses your path.

“Oh, y/n there you are,” he says and brings you to a stop with Shoko still beside you. “We’ve been summoned for a mission. Have you seen Nanami?”

You groan and nod stiffly. “Yeah. He should be up the hill with Suguru.”

“Ah,” he says and scratches the back of his head. “I’ll go get him.”

You hum in agreement. “I’ll meet you at the courtyard then,” you let him know, and then watch him as he runs up the hill. Haibara turns as he's running and gives you a brief thumbs up before turning again.

“I don’t understand how he’s always so happy to go to missions,” you point out when he’s out of sight.

“Money?” Shoko suggests, making you snicker.

“That’s true, that’s partially why I do it.” You chuckle.

“What’s the other part?” She asks.

You smirk now. “I get to show off and get stronger.”

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*LATER*

Considering Nanami, Haibara and you are first years, the missions you get sent to aren’t difficult. Well they aren’t supposed to be difficult, but from time to time hard missions slip in because this career isn’t particularly a booming business.

You only hope today's mission is as it was told in your report. It’d be stressing having this turn out to be difficult, you can’t say you’ve fully recovered from that group mission, mentally at least.

Now more than ever you fear what can lurk in the shadows. Now unlike before the tiny hairs on the back of your neck always stand up when you’re out of school, when you’re on a mission. You’re hardly ever alone when you go out just casually, so the fear isn’t suffocating, but when you’re out on missions, even if you have your friends, your fear still crawls up and has a way to make you feel like it’s hard to breathe.

“I still find it pretty impressive that the school has the power to block out entire train stations,” you interject as you walk under the caution tape.

“Well you know it’s not just the school,” Nanami says as he leads the way. “Besides, it’s not hard to lie when people are pretty guilliable. They’ll believe anything.”

You hum in agreement and stretch out your arms upward before you groan in complaint and bend down to squeeze your foot.

“I don’t know why you keep insisting on wearing those boots,” Nanami grumbles, catching you by surprise. “You’re always complaining.”

Aw he’s noticed?!

“I just need to break them in,” you counter and quickly stand back up to catch up at his side.

“That’s what you said last time too,” Haibara points out.

You peer over at him and shoot him a pointed glare. “They’re cute,” you remark to the both of them. “And they’re Chanel.”

“I doubt Chanel had curse killing missions in mind when making those shoes,” Nanami counters. “Next time wear more comfortable boots.”

You grin and throw your arm around his shoulders. “Don’t be such a worrywart my friend. I’ll be fine. Beauty is pain after all.”

Haibara chuckles at your comment and Nanami drifts his gaze to you and groans.

“Not worried,” he mumbles. “It’s just annoying.”

You playfully roll your eyes and peer over at Haibara to share a knowing look. You both know he’s really worried.

“Just focus now,” Nanami adds and makes your arm slide off his shoulders with a gentle push.

You exhale deeply and nod slowly. “Yeah, yeah, I know. We’re looking for a curse that’s messing with the trains here at Shibuya station. Won’t be hard for us!” You exclaim smugly.

“Yes I like the way you think, y/n,” Haibara encourages you. “We’ll make light work of this and get some tapioca drinks after!”

You clap. “Yes! I like that plan. It’s like you read my mind Haibara!” You then proceed to high five each other whilst Nanami jumps down to the train tracks to follow the path that was given to you by your manager. Haibara and you don’t hesitate to follow, but this time, you make sure to wander over in between Nanami and Haibara. It feels safer walking in between them. It gives your mind a calming sense.

“So what are you going to do about Satoru?” Nanami cuts in. “Are you going to keep him in the dark forever?”

Your smile fades and that worry once again makes itself present front and center in your mind. “Well,” you sigh and pull your sleeve over your hand. “No, but I haven’t found the courage to tell him yet.”

“Tell him what?” Haibara questions since he doesn’t know about Suguru and you.

“Geto and y/n are dating,” Nanami just flat out says without even letting you speak. Tsk.

“What?” Haibara asks as he snaps his head to you to look at you with disbelief. “Since when?”

You huff in annoyance. “Since New Years,” you share.

Haibara blinks and stays in disbelief before his lips widen to a smile. “Well that’s good, no? I think we deserve to indulge ourselves in some sort of happiness.”

You can’t help but smile at his comment, but that doesn’t last considering the shadow that casts over you. “Yeah, you’re right, but Satoru doesn’t know yet, so Suguru and I would appreciate it if you pretended not to know. Just until we tell my brother.”

Haibara’s smile fades and his eyes widen with shock again. “What?” He stammers. “Why?”

“Because I don’t know how he’ll react, I need to think of what to say first, I need to test the waters,” you explain desperately. “Just please don’t say a thing. Just for now.”

Haibara scratches the back of his head and looks at you nervously. “I don’t know if I’ll be able to keep it a secret if your brother confronts me about it.”

You shake your head. “He won’t confront you about it if you don’t make it obvious,” you argue. “Just pretend like you don’t know. Like before.”

“Well Geto and you make it obvious,” Nanami points out.

You shoot him a sideeye. “You’re not helping,” you grumble.

Nanami simply shrugs, making you groan before you look over at Haibara to try and assure him with a reassuring look. “We won’t hide it from my brother forever, okay? So don’t worry. Just…pretend like you know nothing.”

Haibara lets out a deep exhale and looks at you nervously. Yet before can assure you Nanami cuts in. “This is the place.”

You had been so focused on other matters that you hadn’t taken note of how dark it is in the tunnel. How eerie it all looks since the walls are tagged, the lights on the walls are dim, and the train is parked in the center before it could even reach its designated spot, making the station's tunnel look haunted almost. Which it kind of is in a way.

“Well this fucker must be hiding well,” you point out as you slowly walk away from your group in search of the damned curse. “I can’t—” you come to an abrupt stop as you then sense it just under the middle of the train.

“Just like we practiced?” You whisper as you creep towards the curse.

Nanami nods in agreement, and Haibara responds, “yes. I’m ready.”

Nanami then proceeds to depart from where he is to get his spot. You look ahead and begin to feel your pounding heart, you feel more chills go up and down your spine. It feels like your throat is only closing up more, but you continue to move forward. You won’t get strong otherwise.

“Little curse, little curse,” you taunt and slowly come to a stop just before you can reach the middle cart. “Where. Are. You,” you say and bend down to look under.

Just like you predicted, the curse is there. It’s an ugly small and red blob with one eye and just two arms.

“Remember no property damage y/n,” Nanami reminds you.

You pout at the curse in response to your reminder, whilst you also hide your hands behind your back. “So you’ve been causing the trouble huh?” You ask it. “Oh well.”

Without warning the curse lunges at you, but you had already been using your technique to summon the air in the tunnel to your hand. So just before the curse can hit you, you twirl the air around your body before you have it wrap around the curse, so you can then whip it over to Haibara.

The curse isn’t weak so as to go down with your air whip like other small curses who get cut in half and die, so all your action does is weaken it some bit.

When it reaches Haibara, he swings his fist and punches the red curse, decreasing the curses strength, so he makes sure to hit towards Nanami.

When the curse reaches Nanami, he just makes one swift swing with his blade and exorcizes the curse once and for all.

However, you aren’t done yet, there’s still one more left. This one is stronger and smarter, it seems since you don’t know where it hides.

Thus you stand up straight, and have your fire lie beneath the surface of your fingertips, making them glow. You then press your fingers against the train's walls and slowly walk down it, hoping to lure the curse out with your cursed techinque.

Alas it takes a while, the curse is well hidden. It’s not until you reach the end of the train that you’re hit with the strong sense that it’s there, lurking somewhere inside the train?

You face the train wall and squint your gaze, you lift your hand to use your fire, but just before you can expel it out you suddenly freeze as you see a pair of wide red eyes begin to take shape on the train's surface. You want to move, react, but you can’t move a muscle, you can’t breathe, you’re stuck remembering how that one curse trapped in you it’s mirror domain.

The curse takes a clearer shape, it’s green, and its long body slowly gets painted on the train's surface.

“Late, late,” it speaks and opens its mouth as it reaches out for you.

You try to move your body so you can at least step away, but you remain stuck there. You watch it as it drags its body out of the train, and feel your memories race faster in your head, numbing every sense.

“Y/N!” You hear Nanami shout.

You gasp and blink as you snap from your stupor at the sound of your name coming out of your friend's mouth. You then manage to throw your hand up and clutch onto the curses skinny neck. Now rather than surprise, along with the fear, you fill with rage, causing a firemade snake to slither out of your palm and wrap around the curses head, before it opens its jaw and sinks its fire made fangs in the curses flesh.

Since your action was sudden and unexpected, born out of fear and anger, you jump back and make the fire-made snake disappear.

The curse swings its claw at you, and tries to float to you, but it stops as it then starts sweating profusely and smoke begins to come out of its head. Instead it begins to claw at its body and looks more confused. But that’s only for a bit because it then looks at you and once again tries to lunge you.

However, this time before you can react, or before it can get you a fist goes through its head, bringing it to a quick stop. You look to your side and find relief in seeing Haibara.

He shoots you a small assuring smile before he pulls his fist out of the curse, causing it to explode and then die.

“Haibara,” you breathe out before you hug him. “Thank you. You saved me.”

Your friend pats your back. “It was a team effort,” he says. “Plus I think you did most of the work, the inside of that thing was hot.”

You pull back and face him to nod. “Yes. It’s an ability I haven’t been able to fully manifest, it only comes out when I’m scared, or angry, sometimes. It’s a fire-made snake; with a single bite it can start to eat away at someone or something's cursed energy while it also boils their blood.”

Haibara looks at you with surprise. “Well that’s impressive.”

You step back and shrug. “I suppose.” You turn and face Nanami as he puts away his blade now that you’re officially done. “I’m sorry, I faltered.”

Nanami lifts his eyes and meets your gaze. “Don’t worry about it,” he assures you, or at least that’s how you understand him to be. “You’re uninjured and the curses are excorized…We’re done here, let’s go get some tapioca drinks before we go home.”

You smile softly and nod in agreement. He’s not one for friendly affection like Haibara or Shoko, but he’s not some emotionless robot either, he cares, he just disguises it by acting all nonchalant most of the time.

“Yay!” You exclaim and feel at ease now.

You proceed to grab Haibara’s arm as you begin to head out. And on your way out of the station you take your phone out and text Suguru first. Usually the first person you text after a mission is Satoru since he tells you to let him know once you’re finished, just so he can know. But this time you forget all about him.

You: Getting some Tapioca drinks on our way home, want one? My treat :)

A few minutes pass and your phone gets an alert, so you quickly check and smile as you see his name. Or the name you put for him. Ha.

Sugar: Sure. I'm fine with what you get. Thanks

You: ;) will be home soon….let’s meet in my room? Can you?

You don’t close your phone this time, you wait anxiously, and feel as if time seems to move slowly. Which is quite painful, but a message then pops in.

Sugar: I can make that work :)

You press your phone against your lips and smile gleefully.

The rest of the way home is a restless one, one message from one person completely got you excited, and awoke a new gush of energy that had been previously drained in that small mission. Once you get past the school barriers you particularly run to your dorm, hoping that Suguru did get to do as you asked, and also hoping that Satoru didn’t run into him. Or doesn’t run into you.

What if your brother is waiting outside your room? Even worse, what if Suguru was waiting in your room and Satoru barged in to wait for you in your room, because he likes to do that shit! He just goes into your room without warning just to annoy you.

Fuck. With that in mind now you actually run. Luckily when you enter your hall the only one you see outside your door is Suguru.

The moment he notices you he pushes himself away from the wall he was leaning on, and slowly begins to smile at you as he watches you walk towards him.

“Hey, you’re here,” you greet him with relief and out of breath.

“I did say, didn't I?” He says.

You offer him a wider smile and once you’re before him the first thing you do is press a gentle kiss on his cheek. “Here,” you interject and hand him his drink. “Your drink, as promised.”

Suguru carefully takes the cup and looks at you with his eyebrows slightly knitted in confusion. “Did you run here?” He asks.

You smirk and turn to open your door. “I was excited to see you.” You flash him a sly grin before you walk in your room. “No, I mean I was excited to see you,” you explain yourself while you walk to the entrance of your room and begin to kick off your boots. “But actually I had this sudden fear that Satoru had found you here.” You giggle nervously. “So I ran.”

Suguru closes the door after him as he hums in comprehension. “I think he went out,” he says. “But that was a while ago. I don’t know. We should be okay though, I just told him to text me when he got home.”

You struggle to take off your left boot, so you put all your force on kicking it off. So when it does pop off you stumble back. Thankfully Suguru is quick and casually catches you, and pushes you back up.

“Thanks, nice catch!” You compliment him before you take his hand, since he quickly slipped off his own shoes, and pull him over to sit on the edge of your bed. “Anyway, sorry am I cutting in between your bromance?” You tease Suguru while you place your drink down on the nightstand. “You can go to him if you want. Wouldn't want you to get all gloomy because you haven’t seen him.”

Suguru scoffs softly and puts his own cup down on the floor after he takes a big drink. “I see him all the time,” he rebuttals. “We’ll be okay.”

You grin and lay on your bed with your legs leaning against the wall and your head hanging off the edge of your bed. Whilst Suguru just leans back on your bed.

“How was your mission?” He asks.

You sigh. “It was short,” you let him know as you rest your hands on your chest. “Not much to it. But I did…” you hesitate and look up at the ceiling. “Freeze up when a curse came out from hiding.” You weren’t going to share your lack of strength and bravery, you want him to just know that you’re okay, that you’re doing better. But you then think about it, and how will this relationship work if you don’t talk about the bad and the good?

You’re not new at this relationship thing. You’ve had a boyfriend before, so it’s because of that past experience that you want a relationship where you can communicate, where you can have that trust in each other to share what pains you, just the same way you share the good. You want to trust him and you want him to trust you. That won’t work if you don’t share.

“Are you okay?” Suguru asks right away and leans forward to meet your gaze with concern.

You offer him an assuring smile and nod. “Yeah,” you assure him, but pause nonetheless to sit up and face him better. “I managed to counter attack before it could hurt me,” you continue to say. “And then Haibara exorized it.” You the look down, feeling the sudden need to lay your head on his lap.

Thus before you can continue you shift your body and lay on his lap. “Is this okay?” You make sure to ask considering you’re still getting to know each other's boundaries now that you’re dating.

Suguru smiles brightly. “Of course.”

You smile softly and once again rest your hands on your chest. But now albeit, without having to ask, Suguru scoops up one of your hands to gently cup it and caress it. The simple gesture makes your heart skip a beat and causes you to smile bashfully.

“You just need to breathe,” Suguru tells you as he drifts the conversation back to what you were speaking about. “Remember that you’re not there anymore. You’re safe. When you’re out on missions you can’t afford to take a minute to do much, but just breathe okay? Exhale. Tell yourself once that you aren’t in danger anymore.”

Your smile completely falls and you can’t help your eyes from watering. “And if…I can’t do it?” You share shakily. “If I can’t recollect myself and something gets me? Or worse it ends up hurting Haibara or Nanami? I don’t want to be a burden or the cause of either of their deaths.”

Suguru shakes his head. “That won’t happen,” he says softly. “Because you won’t let it happen. Because you’re strong, because you don’t want to feel that grief, or have them suffer the way you did. That’s why it won’t happen, that’s why you’ll fight through your fear….and as to you. Nanami or Haibara won’t let you get hurt, Satoru would never let you get hurt. I won’t ever let you get hurt or taken again. Never again.”

Your breath catches, and the corner of your lips tug upward to show a soft smile. Suguru lets your hand go to caress your cheek as he offers you a kind smile. You hold his gaze for a moment with awe and gratitude, but only for a moment because you then can’t help yourself or your desire. You sit up and wrap your arms around his neck to embrace him. To feel his warmth, and bask in how safe he makes you feel.

Suguru wraps his arm around you and presses a kiss on the top of your head, making you tilt your head up to meet his soft, but dark eyes that seem to gleam with happiness. You could get lost in them, you almost do, but you then glance down at what you desire before you steal a short kiss from his soft lips.

He smiles softly and caresses your cheek with his thumb. “Are you sure you’re okay?” He asks again.

You flash him a bigger smile and nod. “I’m feeling better now.” You then grin and kiss him again.

This time Suguru makes sure to kiss you back, he’s gentle and slow. At first. Through your racing hearts, and caution to make sure the other one was fine with what was going on, Suguru intensifies the kiss like a fuel to a fire; he burns hotter with desire. He parts your lips slowly with his tongue, making your breath hitch, and your racing heart to then pang against your chest before it feels like it just stops.

What is going on you wonder?

You don’t stop, no you can’t, you don’t want to either. You’re entranced by this…this burning heat, by the taste of his mouth, by his nice smell that clings onto every perimeter of him.

Your friends teased you before, but it’s only now that you’re actually giving into a passion they thought they walked into. It’s now, at this moment, that you feel sparks going off. You feel fucking ecstatic, everything is rushing inside you now. Your blood, your heart, your burning desire.

You try to match his heat, you hold onto him tighter and can’t help but slide over to sit on his lap. Suguru pulls back and cups your cheeks. You're afraid he’s going to stop, but he just catches his breath and pulls you in for more.

Time ceases to exist after that, some time passes but you don’t actually pay attention to anything else but Suguru, until you both just end up laying on your bed with you clung around him, and your head snuggled against his neck.

Sure there will be other moments in your relationship that will contradict you, but that doesn’t matter right now because at this very moment you haven’t felt more alive than right now with Suguru.

“You’re very warm,” Suguru points out.

You smile lazily. “It’s a me thing,” you mutter against him. “Albeit I wish it actually worked to keep me warm. I’d never have to wear so many layers.”

“It’s a good thing you know how to wear all those layers.” He says.

You laugh softly. “Don’t feed into my ego. It’s already big enough,” you interject. “Now why don’t we do this again sometime?”

“I can later?” Suguru suggests. “At night. Tomorrow Satoru and I will be gone all day.”

“That works for me,” you whisper. “We can watch a movie too. Eat some ramen.”

“Sounds like a date. I’ll bring the ramen.” He chuckles.

You smile and close your eyes just to rest them. “How romantic,” you mumble.

“Oh, and you provide the candlelight, only you don’t need candles you can just use you.” Suguru teases, making you laugh dryly.

“You’re a comedian now?” You grumble.

He laughs, and you just roll your eyes. You proceed to stay quiet and take advantage of how he makes you feel to sleep without worry.

However you do hear his camera click and you end up opening your eyes before you tilt your head up to look at him.

“Did you just take a picture?” You ask softly with a growing smile.

“Yeah,” he mumbles and looks down at you. “Look.” He tilts his phone down to show you the picture he just took of you embracing him with your eyes closed, and him smiling as he rests his chin on the top of your head.

“That’s so cute!” You exclaim and lift your hand to click the options button to make it his wallpaper. “Cuter. Now you’ll have me everywhere you go.” You snicker.

Suguru laughs softly and then asks, “do you want me to send it to you?”

Before you can answer, your door shakes, before there he is. “Hey, why is it locked? open up!”

Suguru and you both shoot up in a panic and share a horrified look as your hearts sink and your stomachs twist.

“Shit, shit, shit,” you whisper and almost throw yourself out of your bed. “Just hold on!” You yell out at Satoru, who once again tries to open the door.

Suguru tip toes over to grab his shoes, and you quickly but quietly rush to the window to open it for Suguru to escape out of.

The door shakes again and your heart skips a beat. Why is he so fucking desprate to get in?!

Suguru doesn’t even put his shoes on, he holds them and rushes to the window. You help speed the progress and push him out, catching Shoko outside her room with a cigarette in her hand. She looks between Suguru and you with no reaction, until she breaks into laughter.

You don’t even react, you quickly pull back in your room, shut the window and then run over to open the door for your brother.

“What took you so long?” He asks as he just welcomes himself in.

“I was sleeping,” you just say the first thing that comes to mind.

Satoru kicks his shoes off and the first thing he does is sit on your bed and pick up your drink from the nightstand. “Oh, Tapioca!” He exclaims and takes a big drink from your cup, causing your eyes to widen as you notice Suguru’s cup still on the floor.

Fuck. Fuck!

You run over and sit on your bed, making sure to cover the cup behind your legs as your brother finishes your drink in one go before he throws himself on your bed.

“Need something?” You ask as you try to play off your nervousness.

Satoru shakes his head stiffly. “Nope. Hey, were you talking to someone just now?” He asks, making you stiffen. “I swear I heard a voice.”

Damn.

“Nope!” You exclaim. “No. Well Shoko…on the phone.”

Satoru snorts. “Why don’t you just hang out like normal people? I swear, it’s a miracle you guys don’t talk on the phone while you’re next to each other.”

You feign a laugh and carefully take the cup behind your legs to tuck it under your bed.

“Have you seen Suguru?” Satoru asks and makes your breath catch.

It’s a good thing he’s looking up or else he definitely would have caught your reaction and known something was up.

“No,” you try to act normal. “Nope, why?”

“Because I haven’t seen him,” he says.

You shrug nonchalantly and lean back on your bed. “If it bothers you, then text him.”

Satoru stays quiet for a moment before he suddenly sits up and whips out his phone. “That’s right!” He exclaims. “He told me to text him.” He turns his phone on and you see him manage to swiftly find Suguru’s contact—“Let’s do that now.” He says.

You try to peek, but he lays back down and moves his hands in a way where you can’t see what he’s typing. Damn!

“Anyway, I’m bored!” He adds after he’s done texting, and throws himself back on the bed. “We should go do something. Are you hungry?”

You lay back beside him and watch the ceiling above your head.

Of course he just came to bother you. You really need to set up boundaries now.

“Sure,” you go along with him not just because you are hungry, but because he already barged and ruined your day with Suguru, so why the hell not. “Sushi? Or?” You ask and tilt your head down to face him

“Yeah,” he says and tilts his head to the side to meet your gaze behind his shades. “I’m down for sushi.”

Shit. At the mere sight of him in this position, you remember your childhood and the way you’d lay down on his bed just like this when you were a scared little girl. And because of that gentle memory you then feel something pang in your chest, hard. It aches in a terrible way. But what is it?

You can’t identify it yet, it’s not clear, but it aches when you look at him. Especially when you’re laying down like this.

Thus you get up and quickly make sure to be on your way. You try to distract yourself from that aching feeling, but it gnaws at you. It keeps you quiet as you walk out of the school grounds just the two of you.

“So how was your mission?” Your brother breaks the silence you couldn’t seem to break. Because everytime you wanted to say something a…lump crawled to your throat, and your stomach twisted, making you nauseous.

“It was okay,” you give him a simple answer, a bit too dry for your liking. “Short, thankfully.”

“Yeah?” He asks. “You didn’t text me after,” he points out.

Shit! That’s right!

You clench your fists and mentally groan. It only comes to you now that you were supposed to text him. Shit.

“You do okay? You didn’t have trouble?” He probes before from the corner of your eye you catch him tilting his head down your way.

You swallow back nervously and answer. “Some, but I'm okay.”

Satoru turns his head to look at you better. “Yeah?” He queries with concern.

You look over and meet his gaze to smile and nod. “Yeah.”

This is when it hits you, as you’re looking at his face, answering a question he asked with genuine concern. It’s guilt. That gnawing, that ache. It’s fucking guilt that you feel for lying.

How can you keep lying to him?

No, not lying, hiding the truth. How long can you keep that up?

He who you care for most in this world. He can be annoying, bratty and he pisses you off a lot of the time, but he’s still your brother, he’s your family, the only one who actually cares about you; the only one who ever cared.

After your parents had him, you were a surprise they didn’t want but came to terms with. So you were never their priority, Satoru made you his priority. He and your caretaker Belinda are the only ones who are really ingrained in your brain as good parts of your childhood. Your parents are marked in your brain because they’re bad memories you’ll never be able to get rid of.

So how can you hide the fact that you’re dating Suguru from your brother?

You think of that question all the way to the restaurant. You keep up short conversations, but that question doesn’t leave your mind, or let’s you be yourself.

“Hey,” Satoru snaps you from your stupor whilst he also pokes your hand with his chopstick. “You’ve been unusually quiet,” Satoru continues. “Did something happen? Did Yaga piss you off? Or did you drink too much Tapioca?”

You laugh breathlessly and shake your head. “No, and you drank all my Tapioca.”

Satoru snickers. “Yeah it was good.”

You roll your eyes playfully and then look down at your plate to take your chopsticks off the table. You continue to stay quiet, but this time you begin to debate whether to tell him now or not. He doesn’t look mad, he doesn’t sound it either, it’s just the two of you, so it would be a good chance.

But Suguru isn’t here, you haven’t even let him know that you’re going to tell Satoru. You agreed to tell him together.

But can you really wait a moment longer?

“They’re going to have a rerun of Fight Club next week at the theater near here,” Satoru mentions. “We should go watch it.”

You take a bite from your piece of sushi and glance at him to nod. “Yeah. That sounds cool.” You then glance back at your food and chew what’s in your mouth slowly before you bring up something else.

“Oh, the firemade snake came out today.”

Satoru looks up and raises his eyebrow. “Really? That’s cool, but you need to stop naming it that. Think of calling it something, like…” he trails off to think. “Well…I’ll have to think about that, but something definitely scary. Too bad your name is already taken by you.” He smirks at you.

You feign a laugh and because of his comment you reach over and steal a piece of his sushi. He tries to fight you off with his chopsticks but you lean over and shove it in your mouth. As you sit back you smile at him proudly, but that comes to a quick end as you can’t stop feeling or thinking of your fucking guilt.

“What’s up?” Satoru surprises you by saying. “You’ve been off since we left school.”

Satoru Gojo has never been good at reading people, he spent his life being spoiled and getting looked over, so reading other people’s emotions is one thing he isn’t good at. Albeit you’re the exception, ever since you can remember he’s always known how to read you. He knows when you’re angry, happy. He knows how to make you laugh when you’re upset, he tries to help in the best way he can. He was—is like a third parent after all, so he knows how to read you.

Still he always seems to catch you off guard when he notices if you’re upset. Even more so now.

“I…” you trail off and swallow thickly. You avert your gaze and begin to tap the chopsticks on the plate. “Well….you need to promise you won’t get mad. At anyone.” You slowly lift your gaze and see him begin to look at you confused.

“I can’t swear that, especially when there’s more people involved—”

“Satoru, please,” you cut him off.

Your brother sits back and takes his shades off before he crosses his arms over his chest. “Fine,” he grumbles.

You don’t believe him but you continue to try and finally share the truth. However, you do end up taking some time, which makes your brother impatient.

“Spit it out already.”

Suguru and you wanted to tell him together but you can’t hold back, and maybe this will go over easier if you tell Satoru alone first.

“Su…” you interlace your hands together and slowly meet his blue eyes. “Suguru and I are dating…”

For the first time ever you see Satoru freeze, he doesn’t part his lips, he doesn’t move his arms or blink, he just stares at you blankly. And that only makes you insanely more nervous, but at least now that guilt filled weight that was over your chest is finally off. Yet it still feels like you need to puke.

“Satoru,” you whisper and lean over the table.

Said man finally blinks and slowly unfolds his arms from his chest. He continues to remain quiet and instead he slowly begins to clench his jaw and narrow his gaze to a glare.

“Really?” He whispers and drops his head. “In front of my sushi too…damn.” He rubs his face before he lifts his head and looks at you with that narrowed glare. “I thought I told you he was off limits,” he finally breaks his silence.

Fuck. Your eyes are beginning to sting, you don’t like when he's upset at you.

“I know,” you mutter and sit back to grab the edge of your seat. “But I don’t know…he just snuck up on me…and when he saved me that day I don’t know…something changed.”

“Then it’s just gratitude?” Satoru counters in an upset tone. “That’s all it is. You’re just grateful that he saved you. It won’t work—”

“Satoru,” you cut him off in your defense. “It’s not gratitude, I mean I’m thankful, but there’s so much more as to why I like him. He…he’s kind, he makes me feel safe—”

“I make you feel safe,” Satoru interjects and leans over as he points at himself. “You don’t need him.”

“But you’re my brother, it's different!” You exclaim so you can get your word across. “You’re not going to be with me forever. I want to have a life outside of just killing curses, I don’t want to be lonely, and he fills that void.”

“You’re not alone,” Satoru argues. “You have me, Shoko, Nanami, Haibara.”

You shake your head. “That’s not the same, and you know it,” you don’t give up. “Satoru, he’s good to me, you don’t need to worry, he…” you pause and smile. “He’s like a light. I don’t know if you’ll understand, but he’s like the sun. I didn’t know I had been living in the dark until the day everything shifted with me and him. After that I was no longer in the shadows.”

Satoru sighs deeply and shares a disgusted expression before he props his elbows on the table to drop his head on his hands.

“I’m sorry,” you interject softly. “I know I shouldn’t have, I know you’re mad. You have every right to be…” you trail off and just watch him and let him take his time.

However, he doesn’t need time, it seems he’s gathered all his thoughts. He just doesn’t face you, he drops one arm back to his side and continues to rest his head on the other hand. “You know what this means right?” He asks quietly.

You shake your head. “No,” you whisper.

“That if something happens I’d side with you,” he shares, catching you off guard and making you freeze now.

It was expected, but it’s still a surprise. Something you also don’t want.

“No,” you argue. “I won’t ever ask you to pick sides. He’s your best friend.”

“And you're my sister,” he adds and finally tilts his head up to look at you, making you sit up straight and blink away your tears—“It’s my job to look out for you even when it comes to my friends,” he says. “I’m just looking out for you, y/n. It’s not that I don’t trust Suguru, because I do. More than anyone, but,” he sighs. “I wanted to keep my friends and my family separate for many reasons.”

“I’m sorry,” you mumble with tears filling your eyes.

“I’m not mad,” he shares softly. “I’m more mad at myself that I didn’t see it.”

Tears break out of your eyes and crawl down your cheeks. “If you don’t approve, Satoru, I will end things. What you think matters to me,” you admit shakily.

Satoru lifts his head off his chin, and his anger falls but is replaced by a frown. “I can’t do that to you,” he says softly. “If he—god. If he makes you happy then I’ll approve. I won’t resent you or Suguru, just…give me some time to get used to it. So don’t be, I don’t know, lovey dovey together around me.”

You let out a sigh of relief and lean over to take your hand in his. “You mean it?” You make sure.

Satoru sighs and nods stiffly. “Sure.”

More tears stream down your face, but this time they're tears of relief and happiness.

“Please don’t cry,” he grumbles. “That's so weird. People are gonna think I did something to you.”

You can’t help your excitement and basically jump out of your seat to go embrace him. “Thank you,” you whisper. “I love you.”

Satoru lets you hug him for a moment, but he then pulls out of the embrace. “Okay that’s enough. Now let’s go home. I need to talk to Suguru.”

You swallow back nervously and don’t argue, you finish what remains of your food, with some tension now, but quickly finish before heading out. And again you feel nauseous, that’s something that hasn't left, especially now that Satoru is going to speak with Suguru.

You: I told Satoru about us by the way, I couldn’t keep it in, sorry

You close your phone and wait impatiently while you make your way back home in front of your brother. Luckily, Suguru doesn’t take long to respond.

Sugar: oh…well that’s okay. How did he take it?

You quickly text back.

You: He says he’s not mad, but he is upset. I think we just caught him by surprise. He approved though, he wants to talk to you.

While you wait you then text Shoko. You need your girlfriend to gossip with, and well to spy with too. Satoru won’t let you listen in when he talks with his best friend, so you’ll listen in from afar!

You to Shoko: Told Satoru about Suguru and I, we’re on our way home and he’s going to talk to Suguru. Be ready.

As you send that, Suguru texts you back.

Sugar: I expected that much. Well you better wish me luck.

You laugh softly.

You: Oh I’m sure you’ll win.

Shoko texts you back quickly, so you send Suguru his message and read the next.

Shoko: I've been ready. I’ll meet you halfway through the entrance.

You: alright!

Suguru then sends you back a message so you click it quickly.

Sugar: I’m not fighting your brother, he does get a bit hard headed though so let’s hope he doesn’t make things difficult.

You: Yeah, true. Well you know how to talk to him so I’m sure you’ll handle it. If anything happens though just text me.

It seems that Suguru was waiting on his phone because he’s fast with his replies now.

Sugar: I will…you’ll be worth it though

You smile all giddily and quickly type back.

You: You sweet talking me?

Sugar: :)

You grin.

You: Damn you’re making me impatient for later. That’s still happening yeah?

Sugar: Of course. What movie?

You: Any…not like I’ll watch it though.

Sugar: elaborate

You: you know what I mean ;)

Sugar: I want you tell me

Your face burns at his message, and your heart begins to skip a beat.

You: Well you know what? I like the thought of you thinking about it

You smirk and leave it at that as you approach home. And of course as expected when you finally pass the entrance Suguru is already waiting for the both of you.

You would smile but Satoru isn’t in the best mood, it’ll only upset him more, so you just wave at Suguru before you just leave them behind. You don’t even look back, you pick up your pace and without fault Shoko is already where she said she’d be with a smirk on her face, and a cigarette in her mouth.

“So Juliet,” she teases. “How’d it go? You going to drink poison or?”

You roll your eyes and pull the cigarette out of her mouth. “You’re going to give us away. And no!” You laugh. “He said he approved, he just needs to come to terms with it.”

Shoko scoffs. “He acts like Suguru is his ex or something.” She giggles. “Get over what? He needs to get over himself. You’re almost an adult, you can make your own decisions.”

You hook your arm around hers and shrug whilst you walk into the woods to follow the path so as to not get seen by Suguru or Satoru. “I know, but he’s just being protective, that's all.”

Shoko sighs. “I suppose that’s true.”

Since you didn’t wander far, you spot Suguru and Satoru quickly; they’re sitting down on a bench and talking too quietly.

“Let’s get closer,” you whisper and try to step forward, but Shoko grabs your hand and pulls you back.

“Do you want to get caught? Satoru has six eyes, remember? Just use your technique or something?”

You shoot her a pointed look and scoff. “My technique doesn’t work like that. Why don’t you heal me so I can listen better, huh?”

Shoko playfully pushes you before she rebuttals. “Mine doesn’t work like that either. I guess we’re just shit out of luck.”

You pout and throw your arms around her to pout harder. “I just want to hear what they’re saying,” you whine.

Shoko grabs your hands and begins to drag you back towards the dorms without much of a fight. “Just ask your boyfriend later.”

You wait for that later and it doesn’t come until a few hours later. Actually that’s the first thing you ask him when he comes into your room.

“What did Satoru say?”

Suguru lets you pull him in your room, and chuckles softly. “Oh yeah I'm excited to see you too.”

“I saw you earlier,” you quickly brush him off. “Tell me, my nerves have been killing me!” You exclaim while you sit Suguru down next to you and wait.

“He just told me that if it comes to it that he’d pick you,” he shares. “Which I said I understood.”

“Uhuh.”

“And he threatened me—”

You roll your eyes and cut him off. “Empty threats,” you assure him.

“He…” Suguru pauses and meets your gaze with a soft smile. “He said that he trusts me regardless if he’s upset that I’m dating you. And that if it did have to be anyone here, he’s glad it was me.”

You slowly grin and hug Suguru. “That’s good! I'm happy.”

Suguru holds your arms and kisses the top of your head. “He still is mad though, so tomorrow should be fun.” He sighs.

“He’ll get over it,” you assure him. “He loves you too much to stay mad.” You let him know and rest your chin on his shoulder. “I’m happy that he approved. That he said those things to you.”

“Me too,” he says softly before he kisses you on your lips. “Now why don’t we get the water heated, and the movie started.”

“Someone’s eager,” you tease him as you pull away.

“Well you did leave me wondering,” he rebuttals. “I’m curious to know.”

You approach the kettle and turn it on before you look back. “Why don’t you come over here and find out?”

Suguru smiles wider and gets off the bed to close the gap between you by wrapping his arms around your neck and kissing you. You turn around and wrap your arms around him to beam at him as you let him kiss you.

Once again you’ve never felt more alive than now, with him.

——

*A COUPLE MONTHS LATER. SPRING*

“Next, the explosion that occurred in Hamamatsu, Shizuoka. Our reporter on the site says it was caused because degradation of gas pipes caused an explosion. Let’s hear from him…”

“That’s where Suguru, Satoru and Shoko went,” you point to the tv as you pick up a piece of food from your plate to take a bite.

“How much do you want to bet they forgot they’re veil,” Nanami points out while he picks up his drink off the table to take a sip

You snicker and shake your head. “I won’t bet because I know for a fact that they did,” you say. “As to who?”

“Satoru,” Nanami, Haibara, and you name at the same, knowing exactly how your brother was.

“Well expect Yaga to be in a grumpy mood,” Nanami says.

You roll your sleeve up and show off the red dragon mark on your right arm that you managed to fully manifest. It took a lot of patience and work, but with help from your learning you managed to have a red dragon wrap around your arm. Now you can tap into it to use your fire technique, which has already proved to be easier and useful!

Albeit it does look like a tattoo so it’s not welcomed in the mundane non-sorcerer eyes. Which sucks ass.

“Do you want to get in trouble,” Nanami scolds you and rolls your sleeve back down.

You groan and pout in defeat. “It’s getting hot wearing sleeves all day,” you complain. “I need to take off my sleeves.”

Nanami sighs. “Well you’ll have to deal with it because you can’t be waving that thing around non-sorcerers,” he spats.

“They’ll think you’re a part of some gang,” Haibara whispers.

You grab your drink and take a long sip. “I basically am.” You say after you swallow.

“What about wraps?” Haibara suggests. “You can wrap your marked arm after missions.”

You meet his gaze across the table and smile. “Yeah, that’d work too. I mean it’d be very repetitive but it would work. Thanks Haibara.” You smile at him.

Said man mirrors your smile. “Of course,” he says.

You then take another bite of your food before you cross your leg over the other and sit back on the chair, causing your long white skirt that you customized to your uniform, to get stuck in between your legs since it does have long slits down the sides, (making it easier for you to move without having to be restricted by a tight skirt!). And since you wear a tight black jumpsuit you unfortunately don’t show any skin, you just get hot now that the weather is getting warmer.

“Anyway,” you interject with a smile. “Can we go shopping after breakfast? There’s some cute clothes I want to get.”

“No,” Nanami answers before Haibara could think of it. “Go alone.”

You groan. “Going alone is so boring! And you guys are already here! Please Nanamin!” You beg and lean over to grab his arm. “Just like an hour?”

Nanami shakes his head. “We went with you last week. we’re going home. All of us, unless you want to go alone.”

Tsk.

You sit back and just pout in defeat. After all there's no way you’re going alone. Unless!

You to Shoko: Shopping me and you, baby? I’m around the store already, I’ll meet you here?

Only a few seconds pass and she answers back.

Shoko: I would love to baby, but thanks to your brother we all got in trouble, so we can’t go out. Only for missions :(

There’s no point asking Suguru either. What a bummer!

You to Sugar: On my way home. :(

You finish the rest of your meal and get an answer back.

Sugar: Why the frown?

You: Cause I have no one to go shopping with, the guys don’t want to, and Shoko and you are in trouble!

You chug the rest of your drink, and get an answer back in the meanwhile.

Sugar: Oh damn that’s rough :(

You scoff.

You: You suck. Texting Naoya Zen’in rn! Maybe he can go shopping with me.

This time you get Suguru to call you. He says he’s not the jealous type, but he always calls or texts back immediately when you make comments like those.

“Helloo!” You greet happily as you get off your seat with the guys trailing behind you. “What is it?”

“Where are you?” Suguru asks.

You chuckle. “Leaving breakfast. We’re on our way home. Why? Jealous, Sugar?” You tease him.

Suguru scoffs. “Good luck with your boy toy.”

You giggle. “Ahah, so you are jealous. That’s better than shopping. You made my day.”

You hear Suguru laugh softly, but you also hear Satoru complaining in the background. Typical.

“Cut her off already. You see each other everyday!”

You roll your eyes and ignore your brother's comment. “I’d ask you about today,” you say. “But I’d rather wait until I see you, however I did hear you guys got in trouble.”

“Yeah,” Suguru scoffs. “Thanks to your brother. Now we can’t go out until next week.”

You smile at the phone. “Damn that’s rough,” you remark teasingly.

“Tsk.”

“Do you want anything while i'm out?” You ask as your assigned assistant manager approaches with the car.

“No,” Suguru answers. “I'm fine. Thanks. So are you going shopping?”

You groan. “No. I don’t want to go alone. I’m going home. Sad. In need of comfort.”

Suguru chuckles. “Well, I’ll be here waiting for you then,” he assures you. “I’m going to the gym with your brother and Shoko. Come when you get home. We can start our training session after, yeah?”

You nod even if he can’t see. “Yeah that sounds good. I’ll see you then. Bye-bye, I…” you pause as you almost let out those three infamous words.

It’s not that you don’t mean them, you do with every fiber in your body, it’s just, perhaps it’s too soon?

“I’ll see you in a bit,” you say instead.

Suguru sighs softly but agrees softly. “Yep, goodbye, Firefly.”

“Tsk.” You complain, and hear him laugh before he ends the call.

Would it be too soon? What if he thinks it is and doesn’t return it?

That’d be terrible….but should you risk it? So he knows how you feel now?

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