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tunastime · 2 months

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A Minute in the Morning

so I started playing pokemon legends arceus. crumples to the ground. (2762 words)

In a hazy, rusty morning light, Ingo wakes up.

It’s a slow start—like his office computer, taking a whole ten minutes to finish booting, enough to stir sugar into his morning coffee and dissect his breakfast sandwich into parts. It feels like it takes just about that much time for Ingo to become aware of where he’s lying, which is in bed. Which is not where he fell asleep to begin with, which means that someone lifted him to bed and tucked him in. Which was rather sweet. Because he’s burrowed into the covers like a happy drilbur, keeping the cold from his fingers and toes and nose. He finally blinks his eyes open, and it’s sunrise that fills his room. Not his room. Scratch that. Emmet’s room. No wonder the blankets are so much lighter than he remembers them being. Nevertheless. Happy drilbur. He weasels a little more into the pillow. From either side of him, something moves. It’s slight, if there, but as he cranes his neck, slow and careful, he can see a dark head of hair on one side, and silver-white on the other.

Ingo’s heart swells a fraction too big and too warm for his chest as he sighs out.

Elesa and Emmet haven’t woken up yet, which is a plus. If he were to move too much and move them he might lose the warmth from either side. Elesa’s shoulder rests against the crest of his back, and Emmet’s holding onto his elbow with one hand. The grip is loose at best, but the warmth, both from shoulder to spine and hand to elbow, seeps through him.

It’s blurry. Just everything. It kind of mushes together in his brain, like jam. Or maybe jelly. It doesn’t really matter. If he thinks too hard, his stomach starts to twist in knots, and he’d rather not feel sick while he’s trying to enjoy his morning. He remembers falling asleep while the television played the night prior—nighttime skits and commercials he filtered out until Emmet’s shoulder became the comfiest thing. He supposes that sometime between that point, and the point which he’s just woken up, Elesa came in, and at some other point, he was carted off to bed. It’s nice, though. The blankets make just enough weight over him to soothe ache and anxiety, and it’s warm, and he’s mostly thinking about how nice a cup of coffee sounds right now. Maybe a latte. Something warm. He shuts his eyes again.

The light is surprisingly yellower when he wakes up again. There’s still a warm weight on both sides of him, but it feels different than before. It stretches over him, too, more than just the weighted blanket that’s been added on top of him. He peeks an eye open to find Eelektross slumped over him, his large head curled near Ingo’s shoulder and his similarly large eyes shut as he snores. Ingo snorts, trying to shift to his back with the weight over him, without waking Eelektross. He does after a moment, settling once again, only for Eelektross to huff and fix one, tired eye on his face. Ingo smiles, just a little.

Wriggling a hand free, he pats Eelektross’ forehead, a path well pet and well loved.

“Good morning, you gigantic eel.”

Eelektross trills, nuzzling into Ingo’s hand.

“Mm, yes,” Ingo says. “I’m sure that definitely did not alert Emmet that I am awake, meaning I can’t fake any more sleep. Thank you Eelektross.”

The eel gives a happy sniff.

Ingo snorts.

Typical.

The door cracks open a moment later, the wide eyes of his brother peeking through. He raises his eyebrows, looking over Ingo and Eelektross still in bed. It comes with a little head tilt, something Ingo knows is indicative of an Emmet with a question.

“Sleep well?” he asks. Ingo nods.

“I think so,” he says. “I didn’t realize I’d be carried to bed when I fell asleep.”

“Ah!” Emmet says, eyebrows raising. “I made sure you stayed asleep when we carried you in. You’re a very deep sleeper when you want to be.”

It’s getting better, the gaps in his memory. It’s not enough to trust himself to start his duties as a Subway Boss again, but it's enough to have a few doctor’s appointments and to speak with police and his boss and their coworkers. He’s remembered their pokemon, which is why Eelektross didn’t startle him. And he’s remembered enough for him to fall asleep on Emmet’s shoulder with no care in the world. Enough for life to begin to settle from the chaos. Today is Tuesday, which means Emmet has the day off, and Ingo can tell, even as he reaches to wipe sleep from his eyes, that Emmet is still in his pajamas. He opens the door a little wider, leaning against the doorframe.

“Ah,” Ingo echoes. “Was it Elesa’s idea to sleep in your room rather than my own?”

“It was,” Emmet concedes, smiling. “But I am Emmet, and I make a very good pillow.”

“You are Emmet and you are a very clingy sleeper,” Ingo says, letting his eyes shut again. Emmet makes a startled noise.

“Go-Go, don’t fall asleep again,” he yaps. “Your breakfast will get cold.”

Slowly, Ingo opens one eye, looking at his brother in the doorway. Eelektross snuffs into his shoulder, wriggling off of him. He grunts as the eel’s weight shifts off, leaving him free, but cooler.

“What’s for breakfast?” he says, watching Eelektross wriggle off the bed and toward Emmet. Emmet opens the door a bit further, takes a step back, and hefts the eel into his arms, knees bending with the weight. Ingo watches Emmet giggle to himself, shifting Eelektross in his arms to better wrap around his neck and arms, weight heavy against him. Clearly.

“Pancakes,” Emmet huffs. He’s still smiling, something almost infectious.

“Alright,” Ingo sighs.

“I also cut some fruit.”

“I’m getting up,” Ingo grumbles, rolling onto his side before he peels himself up and into a sit.

“I think Elesa left her nice coffee creamer, also.”

“I’m already up, Em,” Ingo snorts, trying not to laugh. “You don’t have to convince me.”

Emmet laughs again.

“Just adding!” he says cheerily, wobbling off toward the living room. In the open doorway, Ingo can see the sprawl of their living room and kitchen, lit by yellow daylight. Ingo sighs, stretching his arms above his head, twisting around. When the room settles, he stands, and he realizes that the room is warm around him. Emmet must’ve turned the heat on, and it must actually be working. He hums as he combs his hair back, wandering into the bathroom to wash his face.

When he finally makes it to the kitchen table, Emmet is sitting at the table, scrolling on his x-transceiver. He’s changed into a cream-colored, high collared sweater, his hair held back with a small headband. Eelektross is lying across the couch, head resting on the arm. There’s a plate of pancakes sitting in front of Ingo’s seat at the table, and a half-eaten plate in front of Emmet. He looks up as Ingo sits, raising his eyebrows.

“Good morning,” Emmet says. He nudges a cup of coffee toward Ingo. It’s a light brown color—likely the way that Ingo likes it. It helps they like their plain coffee the same way. If it were any other type of coffee, Ingo’s certain there would be some big disagreement—type of milk and way of prep and iced versus hot. But Ingo takes a long sip of hot coffee and nearly sighs in relief. Whatever fancy creamer Elesa buys really does make a plain cup of coffee so much better. He sits, nudging Emmet with his foot under the table.

“What are you reading?” he asks, gesturing with his fork to Emmet’s phone. Emmet holds it up.

“Article on a new electric rail system in Galar.”

Ingo tilts his head, nodding along.

“Interesting. Any good?”

“Very efficient,” Emmet says, nodding along. He eventually pulls back, setting his phone face down on the table and returning to his pancakes. He takes a large bite, and through it, says:

“Maybe Gear Station should get some upgrades.”

Ingo snorts.

“We’re already quite efficient,” he says. “Do you think our trains could be quicker? Easier to board?”

Emmet shrugs.

“Wishful thinking. They’re already automatically driven, so there isn’t much more, but maybe longer cars to hold more passengers. Our trains are quite small.”

“Sounds expensive,” Ingo says, drinking his coffee. He pulls apart his stack of pancakes, poking at them with his fork.

“Maybe they’ve already got an upgrade in the works,” Emmet says. “It’s been a while since we’ve had an all-staff meeting. Perhaps we should inform the director.”

“Especially since I’ve returned and have about three years to catch up on, mm?”

Emmet smiles. It’s a bit tight, though. Ingo glances away, biting into his tongue. Should’ve kept that thought to himself.

“Maybe you’re right,” he says. “Though I promise you that not much has changed in the last three years.”

Ingo hums. He believes it, that nothing much has shifted. It’s hard to say, obviously, considering he wasn’t there to see it for himself, but his brother was never the type to lie without a reason, and this certainly didn’t have a good one. He takes a large bite of pancake and finds them still warm. It’s a quiet breakfast, between pancakes and coffee and Galvantula sleeping underneath the table. Emmet eventually finishes his food, shoveling large bites of pancake into his mouth as quickly as he can. Ingo watches him swallow with surprising difficulty, reaching for his cup of coffee. It takes a moment for Ingo to stomach the rest of his pancakes. Having this much food is a luxury he had not often afforded a month prior. His stomach still wasn’t used to it.

“Where is Elesa?” Ingo asks after a beat. Emmet talks through a mouthful of pancake and strawberry and maple syrup.

“Mm, she had four battle appointments today, but she’ll be back around. Probably before two.”

Emmet is the first to finish, setting all his dishes together as he stands. He moves around Ingo as Ingo finishes, collecting dishes and setting everything in the sink. As Ingo stands to pass him his plate, he asks:

“Did you have a plan today?

“Mm?” Emmet hums. “No, not particularly. Why? Is there something you wanted to do?”

Ingo frowns, face pulling.

“Well,” he starts. “I was thinking—”

“Ah,” Emmet interjects. “Your first mistake—”

“I was thinking,” Ingo continues, narrowing his eyes. “That it might be a good idea for us to visit Elesa. I need to ask her for a new coat.”

“Mm!” Emmet startles, turning toward him. His face brightens. “That’s right! You do need a new coat. Good thing she’ll be over later, mm?”

Ingo nods. He fetches his coffee mug, pouring another cup of black coffee to balance the sweetened dregs. He leans back against the counter right as Emmet goes to hand him a dish to put away. They work in tandem for a moment, pausing as Ingo works to finish his coffee.

It’s a slow morning, 8:45am, and Ingo gazes back at his bed with longing.

It’s just. When’s the last time he had such a good sleep, right? On a bed that soft? He’d gotten so used to tatami mats and the grass and canvas laid out on the ground and here was a bed, with thick fluffy blankets and several large pillows and another person taking up space. It was very—stop it, Ingo—it’s comfortable. He hands Emmet his coffee mug.

“Ingo,” Emmet says.

Ingo hums. His eyes have drifted to the couch. Maybe standing is a little hard today. He should sit, shouldn’t he?

“Is my brother still up there?” Emmet asks, tapping Ingo’s head. Ingo startles as he does, turning to him.

“I would hope so,” he says. “Otherwise I don’t know where I’d be.”

“Not here, obviously” Emmet says. He finishes rinsing Ingo’s mug, setting it top down on the drying mat. “Though I’m not entirely sure you’re all there right now, are you?”

“Trying,” Ingo hums. “Too much going on.”

Emmet hums, a bit of a laugh showing through.

“You look like you’re about to fall over.”

“I won’t,” Ingo promises.

“I don’t believe you,” Emmet says, shutting off the sink. The clean dishes sit on the rack, dripping water. Emmet wipes his hands with a dish towel. “You know, you should be resting if your engine isn’t working at full capacity. Rest is very important”

“Can’t be a well oiled machine with nowhere to go,” Ingo says, folding his arms. “I don’t understand why I don’t have the energy to move anymore.”

“Does the why matter?” Emmet asks. He’s leaning against the counter now, a mirror to Ingo, like he often was to Emmet. It was a natural progression—one following after the other, a mirror, a shadow, a doppleganger.

“It matters a little,” Ingo shrugs. “It matters to me. It gives me a reason.”

“Your reason is that you’ve gone through a lot,” Emmet says, pushing away from the counter. He scoops up his x-transceiver from the table, moving around it and through the apartment as he talks. “Your reason is that your body is playing catch-up with the world around you.”

“Maybe,” Ingo huffs.

“I am Emmet,” says his brother. “I am tired. I don’t sleep well. Do you think it’s my fault that I’m tired and don’t sleep well?”

Ingo grits his teeth. He hates this part—ever since they were little, Emmet would flip this hypocritical card, showing Ingo exactly how stupid he was sounding. It was good, for the most part, because Emmet was right and next time Emmet did the same thing, Ingo could follow suit with that card. But it was so annoying watching it now, watching Emmet throw open the blinds and shimmy open the window for the fire escape. A tinged-cool spring breeze filters in through the open window, tossing the curtains aside. Emmet keeps moving as Ingo thinks, the gears in his head turning slowly, still dulled with sleep.

“No,” Ingo says shortly, watching Emmet rearrange coasters on the coffee table, setting game controllers back into their docks. “I don’t think anything is your fault.”

“Well now you are just flattering me, Go-Go.”

“Don’t say that flattery never got anyone anywhere,” Ingo says, pointing at him, waving his finger. Emmet laughs.

“My point is,” he says, gesturing to the couch. “You’re allowed to rest. We can figure out the steps from there, right? Even if we’re sitting on the couch to do it.”

Ingo sighs, chewing on the inside of his cheek.

“Even if I fall asleep?”

Emmet nods, still smiling a little.

“I will wake you if you do.”

Ingo huffs out a laugh, feeling the edges of his mouth quirk up. As Emmet sits on the soft, corduroy couch, Ingo feels himself pulled forward, as if recalled, to sit beside him. He brings his knees up as he settles into his familiar spot between the back and arm of the couch.

“Do you promise you’ll shake me awake?” Ingo says, leaning his head against the back of the couch. Emmet scrunches his nose.

“Yes,” he says, knocking his knuckles into Ingo’s knee. “I do. But I’m going to watch Alakazam! so you can think without my talking.”

Ingo nods. The television hums to life quietly in the background.

Emmet always watches Alakazam! at 9am. At least, when he can catch it. Ingo watches the last few minutes of the previous game show, something quiet and low despite the flash of colors and excited spread of energy. As the show starts, he watches Emmet’s face shift, that serious pull to his mouth and the furrow of his eyebrows that Ingo only sees when they’re battling. To see that spark again, not knowing how long it’s been gone, turns a question in Ingo’s mind.

“Emmet,” he says.

“Yes, I am Emmet,” Emmet says. “You are Ingo. What do you need?”

“I think I've got an idea of what I want to do today.”

Emmet turns his head a bit, looking at Ingo mostly out of the corner of his eye. His eyes flick back and forth between Ingo’s face and the television, waiting for his program to start.

“Mm?” Emmet asks. Ingo smiles a bit, a laugh stuck behind his teeth.

He sees the glint in Emmet’s eye before he even asks his question.

“What about a pokemon battle?”

#pokemon fanfiction #submas #subway boss emmet #subway boss ingo #text #pokemon bw fanfic #submas fic #legends arceus spoilers #sighs really pathetically. i feel like i could cry i'm really nervous to post this #i like. can't explain myself to people who have never played pkm black/white or legends arceus #hi mcyt followers. um. what the hell am i doing here #hey hows it going. ummmm. do you guys wanna know about my funny train men? no? that's fine--#YOU'RE GOING TO ANYWA YHAHHAHRHARHHARHRHHARHRHRHRHRHRH #RAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA #okay i'm fine again #i really liked writing this one uhm.. i dunno! i like the twins a lot #and i like how silly they are #and i like elesa their best friend and goofball sidekick

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sysig · 1 month

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DAX is just so expressive ♥ (Patreon)

#My art #SCII #Helix #DAX #Lol #Have I mentioned I love him lately #As if I ever stop talking about how much I love any of them lol #Okay but genuinely these were really nice as warmups they were really easy to just knock out one by one #He's very expressive as Dexter! *handwaves about human neurochemistry and expressions* lol #I had to make his Neutral look extra dead inside to make up for the rest haha #Funnily enough I have actually been watching a series of streams of like VAs and visual artists and writers and stuff #And they are constantly uptalking 2D talksprites as mood-setters for dialogue #So it was really fun to make these with that in the back of my head like ''Yeah! :D They /are/ good at that!''#Very cool expressive medium :D #See if you can spot the first drafts for a few of these :3c #I'll give you a hint: Scared and Sad(? Regretful ig lol) were from some posted doodles #His grumpy one was also a doodle but I didn't post it so it doesn't count lol #Oh yeah and and a lot of these had little accessories like the fear bursts and the little sigh bubble lol I just...forgot them here lol #They're there in spirit please feel the grump lines and sweat drops in your heart <3 #I had a heck of a time trying to keep his face consistent with different angles lol aren't VUX nervous to move their necks me #Just gotta actually get into 3D modeling properly smh #I keep finding myself wanting to make more now that this set's done but I'm not sure what expressions! Confused? Focused? He's so subdued #Oooh he'd suit an expression meme wouldn't he <3 Now there's an idea #Might even open an ask game for that if I can find a good one :3c Hehehe

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plusultraetc · 17 days

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423 spoilers in the tags <3

#this is the last thing i'm going to say abt this chapter until the next one comes out #bc it really ain't over til it's over!!! and i've seen some great theories about what's going to happen already #but i can have a little nervous ramble as a treat #okay that should be enough words that these tags will be Hidden at first glance #but basically #i feel like this ch is the mha equivalent of 'somehow palpatine returned'#bc it singlehandedly undoes the Whole Point of the story #(unless obv we walk it back in the next one)#like. the Whole Point of star wars was anakin skywalker bringing balance to the force #by killing darth sidious #'somehow palpatine returned' wasn't just stupid #it literally was antithetical to the story itself #and this kind of feels like that #with the added 'benefit' of absolutely destroying your main character's arc #like. i can't even begin to articulate how ??? i am #but like i said!! i've seen some great theories about how we're gonna pull the whole uno reverse #so i am patiently waiting #but i am. nervous.#anyway fake dating & fantasy au are GREAT fics to be working on rn #save me mha aus. mha aus save me #i will probably delete this later btw i just needed to let the steam escape like a very quiet tea kettle #liza blather #mha spoilers #bnha spoilers #manga spoilers

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running-in-the-dark · 1 month

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it's been a month since we moved into the new apartment -

I'm so stressed. everything is stressful. we're still not done building the kitchen but it's getting there (slowly). mostly we just need to wait until we get a couple parts that weren't in stock when we ordered the rest. I'm hoping it'll be done by next weekend.

some of it is very frustrating with my brain specifically. I'm so bothered by all the tiny little things that no one else would even notice - like, some of the handles on the drawers are very slightly crooked (as in, less than a millimeter higher on one side) - but for me it's so obvious that it's impossible to ignore. my husband didn't even know what I meant when I pointed it out to him. there's also been a few slightly bigger issues, but we've solved them now (I think).

my eye has been twitching for like three to four weeks. not all the time obviously, but every few minutes. it's very, very annoying.

we still have no new info about when we'll have internet finally. it could take a while still.

on Monday a guy has to replace something in the electric roller shutters in one room - but we don't know which one yet. so either I'll have to let him into my room (awful, uncomfortable, will have to tidy up tomorrow so he could even get to the window), or I'll have to get both our cats into their carrier if it's the one in my husband's room (awful, difficult, one of them doesn't like that so he'll be scared and I'll feel bad).

also on Monday the electrician will install our stove (if he has time). then we're getting two ikea deliveries. and I've got an appointment with my (new) GP because I need a prescription, and I'm very (verrry) nervous about it.

I miss watching TV. I miss tumblr and YouTube and messaging my friends whenever I want and sending them photos all the time. I miss order and structure and (some level of) routine. I miss using real cutlery (we still haven't found ours lol).

when I was finally starting to get used to the noises in this place, the family above us moved in with their baby that cries all the time very very loudly and most of the time right above my room. so now everything is different again and I'm not adjusting well and once again I can't sleep.

but, I've listened to 14 audiobooks since we moved! that's been nice. it was the same way when we moved the last time (just over a year ago..). my favourite by far was The Thursday Murder Club. I've got the other ones in the series but I'm trying not to listen to them too quickly, so I'm gonna listen to three other books first (one is done already, so I should get there on Monday or Tuesday hopefully).

#long rambly post sorry #I miss talking about the random uninteresting shit that happens in my life on here all the time #I've got data on my phone again now at least so that's good. but the phone signal is still awful indoors so it's not that useful #but anyway.... logically I know I'm doing an okay job with unpacking and everything but it doesn't feel like it #also I'm probably gonna have to try to find at least a part time job pretty soon and I'm really really really scared. terrified.#not just of trying to find something and interviews and all that #but that I won't be able to handle it. physically and mentally. again.#I've only had one full time job (an apprenticeship actually) and I lasted 3 months.#and at my part time job I only lasted a month #like. I can barely get anything done in a day as it is. I have so little energy. everything is so fucking hard and exhausting #I truly don't understand how everyone does it. I don't understand how it's possible.#but if I don't find something we won't have money for food next month sooooo it is sort of kind of important #it sucks so fucking much. I can't stand or walk for long periods of time. can't do too much with my hands. I'm not good at dealing with #people/customers. I panic and can't think when I get nervous (which is most of the time). I can't remember shit.#so like. what job am I supposed to do??? everything hurts all the time already and I'm always tired and I'm barely keeping it together #fuuuuck this #😭#personal

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riftwalker-limbro · 1 year

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warframe getting-to-know-you ask game

rules & recommendations

(like any other regular old ask game but since i haven't seen any for this fandom yet it can't hurt to recap rq)

if you reblog this, your ask box is fair game - make sure it's open

if you want to participate, make sure people can easily find the list of characters you want questions about - either by tagging them on your reblog of this post or having a character post easily findable on your blog

send an ask to a participating blog by referencing this ask game & the number(s) of the questions and which character(s) you want to know things about. people also sometimes just repeat the whole sentence for ease of reference or if they want to change/clarify a word about the question

if you reblog this from someone else it is polite to send them an ask from the game but not mandatory

be nice :))))

if someone asks you about your blorbos you have full rights to go ham blorbo-longposting

if you are getting less asks than you wanted, you have full permission to use this list as solo blorbo posting inspiration material

actual questions

(i'm gonna use numbers because i'm good with the windows emoji keyboard but Not That Good)

general questions

What is your character's pre-bullshit backstory? (if they're a warframe: before they became a warframe; operator/drifter: before the void jump)

What is your character's favourite weapon/way to fight?

What is this character's favourite colour?

Does this character have any pets?

What are their likes/dislikes?

What is their personality like? Are they different with friends or strangers? How?

What is your favourite thing about this character?

Do they have any hobbies?

for operators/drifters

9. Do they keep in contact with old classmates/friends/other Tenno? What is their connection? 10. What is their specific style of Transference like? 11. Are they comfortable jumping out of their Warframe and showing their own bodies to others? Why (not)? 12. What focus school are they in, if any? For any specific reason?

for warframes

13. Why/under which circumstances did they get turned into a Warframe? 14. How (not) okay are they with being a Warframe? 15. Do they have anything that still ties them back to their days as human?

#warframe #ask games #warframe ask game #I HOPE THIS IS OKAY IVE NEVER MADE ONE OF THESE BEFORE #i'm a LITTLE NERVOUS NGL #anyone on my own character list (see pinned) is free game #if you ask things about characters i haven't worked out yet i may take longer because the brainworms will need to generate that content #but that is also fine!!#character development time bay bee

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plulp · 9 months

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HIIII everybody good morning ❤️ i now have 50 followers (more than 50 now) and i hope that i don't get any more or else i'll have to block everyone (just kidding. i wouldn't do that.)

but now that we're all here if you have a dol pc you want me to draw PLEASE send it to me through asks i'll try to draw as many as i physically can because i think it's funny and i'm going to regret this later

just send in:

- your pc (IMAGE!!!)

- info about them maybe? (i want to know everyone in detail. i love you all. let's all get married)

- and you can ask for a dol character too if you want (my designs because i literally do not know anyone else's i'm sorry i don't look at fan art often anymore but if you have a specific design i can do that too)

and that's it!!

thank you all so much for being so kind to me and i appreciate it a lot :) everything means a lot to me and i'm glad you all like my art

if you don't want to see these asks please block the tag #spulpal <- !!!!!!!!!!!!!!

#germaphone #spulpal #it's special and pulp together :)#i've never done this before because all my other blogs are so impersonal #like as in i don't share my thoughts at all because i'm majorly nervous all the time #even if they're like way bigger than this one #thankfully i'm inactive on them because it is STIFLING i can tell you that much #i can't bring myself to run art accounts anymore i'm just too tired to draw full pieces #but when it's drawing for other people i can do anything. i love drawing for other people more than my life #but thank you all so much for being so nice to me :) i really get nervous about my art #i think this is the first time i've drawn in a few months?#my art block hits hards very frequently so i just try to crank out as much as i can in as little time possible #but i think i'm okay right now #i haven't drawn so much in such a short time in like 2 years #well it's whatever #after this either 1 i'll never do it again or 2 i'll do it again and i'll regret it #if you send in an oc i hope i don't disappoint 😰😰😰

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thebewilderer · 6 days

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stephen king is a really really REALLY good author and I'll die on this fucking hill

#just when i start questioning whether my ''X is written like a mary sue'' ''why does Y have no character flaws'' complaints i have about-#-most characters these days #and start wondering if maybe its MY problem #i started liseys story and shes the coolest most fucked up nervous bitchy self deprecating asshole ive ever read #GODDAM hes so good #she starts off one dimensional bc every character does ofc theres only so much you can fit in the first meeting #and hes doing flashbacks???!#he doesn't usually do flashbacks iirc #at least not this MANY #and i usually hate flashbacks theyre usually lazy #but oh my GOD they're adding so MUCH?!#to both the story and the character development #this os absolutely incredible #i forgot how much i love stephen king #this doesnt beat out rose madder yet (only one book ever has lmao) but godDAMN #hes so good #hes so fucking good #nearly nothing has happened in the story but im fucking enraptured #first non-textbook book ive read in YEARS #it took five pages for me to get back into reading at my normal pace but DAMN king just. fucking rocks.#he should write women more i think #hes REALLY good at it #AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA i cant convey how many emotions this book is making me have and I'm barely 20% in #imma be up all night okay okay back to the book i just had to get this thought out before it consumed me #ih #pers

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setitoffvevo · 7 months

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Happy Halloween, I Wrote a Thing

Some characters belong to me, and some belong to @magax-destroyer

It's in a doc because this beast is 9K+ characters long lmao

#neotag #lore drop?? sort of?? maybe?? idk #i hope it's okay #i'm nervous about sharing my writing or art now lol #anyways. y'all that have followed one of my weird-ass cats since the very beginning are in for a treat #(i feel like the Treat is super fucking telegraphed though hrrhn no spoilers no spoilers please just read it if you want)

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oceandiagonale · 2 years

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it’s it’s pride month and I’m Considering Them so here’s some soft stuff and a meme redraw that made me laugh dkjsfhkjsdf

#oceandi arts #generic protagonist #all that glitters shipping #hidden fees shipping #skulljeans shipping #swearing #original meme: my three weed smoking girlfriends #guzma #volo #I tag these for my own reference so I can find them later in my blog I swear I'm not trying to flood the tags on tumblr ksjdhfksjdhf #ghetsis #giovanni #lysandre #heart pillow #I had that second one sitting in drafts for over a year after the swsh run ended #wondering if it was too romantic-subtext-y to post 😂😭😭😭#it's okay to post this it's 1am no one's up at 1am I #I'm not nervous about posting shippy stuff ssh h h h #it's pride month it's allowed it's prided month it's allowed it's

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onhoude · 11 months

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In the spirit of this beautiful meme post and an earlier short post of mine on Mu Qing that was my metaphorical big toe into the cold waters of this topic, I just wanted to say that I enjoy that Jiang Cheng, Mu Qing and Liu Qingge are non-partnered and may be assumed to have never been with anyone in the past.

I don't mean this in an I-hate-the-ships, or an I-hate-headcanons-about-this, kind of way, so please don't project that opinion onto me, thank you.

While I am especially reserved about commenting on Liu Qingge and his stance on partners because I don't know enough about his motivations, though his main interests appear in martial pursuits and upholding filial bonds and loyalty, or how other Peak Lords generally deal with it, I do like to fumble around a bit more with Jiang Cheng and Mu Qing's situation.

For Jiang Cheng, he isn't necessarily against marrying. In fact, he might actually end up marrying out of convenience for the sake of rearing an heir. It's simply that, and I genuinely mean this in the most neutral way possible, he is incompatible with what he would consider an ideal partner: proper and hard-working, but not outshining him, and kind to Jin Ling. Realistically, that won't happen with the state of the Cultivation World as it stands and how high Jiang Cheng's standards for 'proper/hard-working' as well as how thin the line is between that and still not outshining him in one or more ways, especially with his brisk attitude.

The chances of finding a meek partner who's still willing to deal with that and not eventually resent him for it are slim to none. I read somewhere are previous blind dates of his have blacklisted him? I can't find the source though. You'd end up with a relationship similar to Jiang Fengmian and Yu Ziyuan. This is something he will have to navigate on his own. It might mean the traditional path of proper succession that he was always meant to uphold isn't something he should strive for. In any and all cases, it's a compelling part of him I love to play around with safely from behind reinforced glass.

For Mu Qing, his cultivation and the results of his work are too important to risk for something he would consider far less valuable. As a man who views overcoming his standing and low birth and rising to the top as of the utmost highest of importance, he likely thought that the cultivating path of abstinence is both dignified and genuinely somewhat convenient.

Not only is abstinence an admirable aim to have for a cultivator that aims for spiritual enlightenment, compared to gods who have ascended on merits of their martial abilities or more grounded abilities surrounding civility, but it also keeps his status safe from potential scandals. Any rumours of escapades or wails of broken hearts are irrefutably baseless. There are no descendants that could potentially compromise or implement him either, for example.

But aside from those two reasons, with abstinence Mu Qing denies himself any indulgence even if he doesn't necessarily have to anymore. It's a means of control that may or may not come easy to him, but one he maintains steadily for centuries and definitely serves a purpose to who he is as a person. Though, yes, it lies parallel but is not necessarily linked with Mu Qing's lack of personability and some of his social ineptitude, which is something he struggles with throughout the entire story, I disagree it is an absolute reflection of his flaws and must be corrected, or grace forbids a 'damage that needs healing.' I think it's too ingrained in his personality and motivations to dismiss it as a bad choice for him.

It boils down to that I love their complex situations when it comes to not partnering with anyone, with Mu Qing and Liu Qingge (as cultivators without the ambition to uphold a lineage) most likely to never wed at all.

I'll reiterate that I'm not criticising ships or headcanons. I simply personally prefer that they could be attracted to someone and choose not to act on it because their priorities lie elsewhere, be it in battle, martial pursuits, ambition, or otherwise.

I love that it presents a struggle without it being a detriment to their lives. I love that romance or partnering isn't a focus in their arcs or lives. I love that it's something that can be complicated but not the wrong thing for them. I love that, while they have their faults, it's not that part of them that would need introspection and more so the circumstances and their relationships outside of romance or relationships.

#svsss #mdzs #tgcf #mu qing #jiang cheng #liu qingge #mxtx novels #so uh maybe I need to understand what a meta is #does this count I don't know #i don't want it to show up for people who have one or the other blacklisted you know?#im super nervous about that sorta thing #also hi please hi I'm not starting discourse on this okay I'm just a lady who really just treats this platform as a bookclub I lurk with #never finished tgcf so if mu qing ended up partnered it is without my knowledge

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baejax-the-great · 1 year

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Foes' gifts

Ajax is twitchy as they make their way into Pat’s condo building. He’d been acting weird all week, first regaling Tecmessa with tales of Pat’s new “guest” and waggling his eyebrows as he told her she’d get a kick out of meeting him, then borrowing a copy of the Iliad of all things, peppering her with questions about ancient history that she’s barely thought about in years, and finally, these past two days, doing a complete one eighty by going completely silent on the topic all together and suggesting that she probably doesn’t want to meet this guy at all.

Pat’s sick, though, sick enough that he needs help, so they’re both here, and Tecmessa is going to meet this stranger. Ajax grips her hand.

Nothing could have prepared her for the man standing in Pat’s doorway. He is like a fairytale come to life: not a prince meant to kiss a princess, but maybe the woodcutter with his ax. Maybe the big, bad wolf. He blurs at the edges. Tecmessa is used to tall men—she married the tallest she’s ever met—but this man somehow looms with the few extra inches he’s got on her.

He’s completely incongruent with their surroundings, Pat’s old condo building with the ugly yellow lighting in the hallways and his ancient welcome mat that was here when he moved in and the dings in the doorframe from Ajax being careless carrying in his furniture back then. He looks like he should be on a movie set. He looks like he carries his own lighting with him.

Ajax gives her hand a squeeze and she realizes she is gripping it so hard all the blood must have left his fingers.

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#patrochilles #patroclus x achilles #iliad fanfic #okay god I'm kind of nervous about this one ahaha #this chapter kicked my ass repeatedly #idk next chapter back to our regularly scheduled idiots

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crimeronan · 1 year

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god nothing comforts me like that "i'm a therapist for uber-rich people and they really are all as miserable as the succession characters" article. every time i'm in unspeakable amounts of pain i just think about the number of billionaires who miserably helplessly pathetically shuffle through each unhappy day desperately dissatisfied and praying they'll someday gather up the courage to put a gun in their mouth. and it brings me SO much calm and peace and joy. 🥺💕🙏

#autoimmune tag #<-bc i'm inflammation and migraine posting #i can't be the only one right. i know i'm a special kind of low empathy but surely some of you guys also feel this #like dont you ever think about a man sobbing in a 20k suit in a ditch and #want to sweetly ask if he's okay and flutter your hands over him protectively and then kick him so hard in the ribs you feel bone splinter #just think about it. just think about getting to be the ghostly devil on an uber-wealthy person's shoulder #so gently so calmly so soothingly whispering 'everyone hates you and youd be better off dead'#'shhh honey thats it thats good. theres a cliff right up ahead. now what youre gonna want to do is floor the gas-'#man typing those tags out legit activated my parasympathetic nervous system i'm super relaxed now. on the cusp of nap #zzzzzz.#suicide ig

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finnlongman · 7 months

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In the past two weeks I've been asked to review a book that is completely outside of my area of expertise, and to act as a second reader for an article that, while slightly more related to my interests, is nevertheless probably beyond my ability to evaluate.

I am <1 month into my PhD and people are already treating me like a Real Academic. Why? Do they not know I'm baby?

#finn is not doing a phd #i have declined the review invitation #i am still considering the other one #i probably have a reasonably solid background for that one i just don't have the topic-specific knowledge #which is okay like nobody is an expert in other people's research areas #i'm just a bit nervous about it and also very busy

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seahydra · 10 months

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Something malicious is brewing

#atari.txt #Okay. Hey guys! (breaks fingers)#I had a dream about rewatching one of my childhood favorite movies that I had like FULLY memorized at age 11 #So I've been thinking about doing it. Maybe later. But like.#I'm kind of nervous about doing so because again back at age 11 there were these two characters I was completely incredibly obsessed with #An abnormal amount. It was really intense and if it happens again I'll be really embarrassed god bless #I still wanna rewatch it though yknow. So I will but if I pull out some new guys in the process none of you poke fun at me OK!!!!!!!!!!!

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cowardlychimera · 1 year

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Chimera I'm staring at u w my autistic eyes please share your theories w me

I love love Yume Nikki and Omori parallels I once read someone's comment saying "Black Space is a love letter written to Yume Nikki," which is so true to me!!!!! AGHH

ah okay!! fair warning though that this might just be me getting excited over a cool idea lol and might be wrong

okay so: 2 things I noticed that seem similar in both. windows and doors.

when someone hears the word daydreamer, the first thing they think of might be someone staring out a window, right?

and we know Madotsuki and Sunny both prefer their dreams over reality. so windows = inaction. observing, going with the flow.

this fits I think, since in omori, what's one very important window?

this.

Mari says Sunny's seen this before, when he almost drowned. he almost drowned because he gave in. he didn't believe he could do anything, so he didn't.

don't have much for yume nikki about windows tbh though, just that from what I remember Madotsuki's name might refer to windows (if there's anything I don't know of/forgot please share!)

okay now doors!! doors definitely tie these 2 games together! doors = action. choosing to do something instead of just letting things happen

Madotsuki refuses to open her door. she refuses to make the choice to leave, seeming to prefer her dreams over reality. Sunny can do the same. the front door that Kel knocks on, it's Sunny's last chance to fix things. he gets to choose.

and in white space and Madotsuki's dream room? they can leave whenever they want to, through a door! same thing with nexus/door room/whatever you wanna call it and black space! they get to choose what doors to open. they get to choose whether or not they want to accept reality. and even more in omori, the door to Basil's bedroom and his hospital room. he doesn't have to open those doors. whether he faces reality and tries to fix things is up to him. and the door to the roof too! once he walks through the door, he can't go back. he already made his choice.

and sliding glass doors? I'm not 100% about these yet, but sliding glass doors could represent a choice they might want to make, but are hesitant to for whatever reason. they're like a combination of windows and doors! in omori, they're shown in both reality and black space/after finding the photo where Sunny pushed Mari. they're Sunny's want and choice to face reality and accept it, attempting to fix things. but in yume nikki? Madotsuki wants to escape. there's 2 events (I've only triggered one of these 2 so far, so info on one might be incorrect!) where Madotsuki can fly away, and unfortunately fall, the witch event and the spaceship + spaceship event. one has her flying through the clouds, and falling from the sky, while the other has her flying through the stars, also falling from the sky (if you manage to trigger the event, that is). Madotsuki wants to fly away. the sliding door could represent her want, and her choice to escape reality.

okay okay I'm almost done lmao hang in there

now, closets! (once again, I haven't explored any closet stuff in yume nikki yet lol so I might be wrong about stuff) first, in omori! it's obvious Sunny doesn't want to acknowledge the closet is broken violin is hidden in, going far enough for it to even disappear for him! the closet represents something he's hiding. there is a phrase, "skeleton in the closet", that refers to a secret someone wants to hide. so this theory fits the closet in omori! it might also fit the closets found in yume nikki.

Madotsuki doesn't want to find herself.

(also final thing: these things probably do represent more than just this. this is just stuff I noticed seems connected to both games so far! also also I haven't finished yume nikki yet lol so once again feel free to correct me if anything's wrong)

#all photos are taken from the wikis!#anyways I hope this isn't too hard to read I got excited lol #not main tagging this because that sounds terrifying #get nervous about sharing my theories because I'm always worried someone will see em and think I'm stupid/wrong or something </3 #oh well take this anyways #I looove rambling about theories #one more time if anything here is wrong please feel free to correct me!! I'd be very glad!#okay okay I'll post this now #penny for a thought #chimera babbles

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