#of the way you break silently

[molliemoos]

I’m sorry for dismissing your pain in the presence of mine

#I think I’ve done that a lot #I think I’ve always done it #I’m sorry I needed a show #that I wanted to see you cracked open #I forget that in all of my spilling #yours is probably #leaking on the inside of you #I said I didn’t think #that you are a good person #anymore #but I lied #out of spite #because I wanted #a reaction #anything to make it feel #more real #but you hurting has always been #real to me #I think I’m jealous #of the way you break silently #when mine is so messy and loud #and I know you’re a good person #because you never laid my flaws #out on a plate in front of me #well not most of them anyway #the way I think I have yours #I’m sorry for that #I’m sorry for wanting to change you #in places you shouldn’t have to #because I was missing something you couldn’t give

[musubiki]

danmarch 🐉💎

#honkai star rail #dan heng #march 7th #danmarch #fanart #hsr #what else do i tag. i have no idea #anyway. im breaking my VERY LONG oc art streak to post my one(1) contribution to star rail #i care them very much #ive been playing this game so religiously and they have not left my team #tragic past(emo) vs tragic past(girly pop) #theres NO WAY with marchs very teenage girl mind that she does not have a crush on the hot cool mysterious yet caring dragon guy #who stays in the room right next to her #and the fact that he teases her so much........ #the whole ass belabog quest he throws in little harmless march roasts every so often #he fucking CARE her #i bets shes like a filipino mom with that camera. every oppertunity (picture!!!!) #and dan heng gets dragged into it #he is honing his photography skills against his will #any nice place? shes like (lemme pose can you get a photo of me?) #dan heng just sighs #they bond over silently judging stelle rummaging through the garbage #cast each other that best friend glance as half her body is sticking out of a trash bin #i like to think you see them hanging out on the train together #with dan heng reading some obscure 8th century book on civilization pattern and development #and march is humming and putting stickers and aesthetic shit in her scrapbook #taping a piece of antimatter legion loot in the middle of a page #and with bubbly handwriting (we beat some bad guys today!!! <333 so fun!!)

[travalerray]

no I am not okay, I have Li Lianhua howling, "I searched for your body for ten years!" with reddened eyes over and over again stuck in my brain

#I think about their relationship often. Breaks my heart. Incoherent screeching is the only way I can express this #li lianhua #li xiangyi #shan gudao #mysterious lotus casebook #mlc #kk's rambles tag #the reveal of their ancestry.....LLH silent throughout......man. #''i never competed with you''

[carlyraejepsans]

i might actually post the rough of this because the first scenes are just enough info to keep u guessing and introduce the actual plot and like, 99% a ridiculously fluffy, sans-centric character study of theway he feels about frisk post pacifist that's been rattling around in my head forever

#IT'S JUST!!!! this really quiet moment of uninterrupted flow of consciousness where he's like. woah. just silently metabolizing #how important this kid's become to his happiness in very much the same way that tori and papyrus are. and like sitting with that feeling #i keep putting my phone down to put my face in my hands i need to take breaks. bc I'm feeling too much #what if he was dad. what if he was. a little bit dad. like teensy little bit. just a pinch. as a treat. #IIII WANTTT to show you so bad there are some PARAGRAPHS there. that i am so proud of #props of having a brain (sometimes) that can write (SOMETIMES) is it's specifically engineered to write the kind of shit that makes u insan #FOR FREE #(sweat and tears not included) #ANNIEHWAY

[lilmisswhyso]

hmmm some little miss why so thoughts…. him saying, “you’re going too fast, you’ll burn up soon” and how that invokes the imagery of something like a meteor falling and burning up in atmosphere, shortly followed by him urging her to “stop staring at the moon”…..

i’m obsessed with this. trying to make sense of/explain her sheer sadness by likening it to her feeling like a fragment of space that just wants to go back home? help im crying

#angel.txt #the amazing devil #text #meta #little miss why so #this song makes me insane with how much i love it #and if you wanna connect the songs/characters from album to album #‘you’re the daughter of silent watching stones / you watch the stars hurl all their fundaments in wonderment’ #screaming crying breaking down #i just. i really do feel so much for the way sadness and depression is depicted in lmws #the idea of feeling so sad and empty and detatched from the world that you feel a stronger kinship with inantimacy #this is just such a subtle yet beautiful way to convey that sensation—and through the other person’s pov too #like im losing my mind over this #i will never be normal about this song i could talk about it for years

[jyou-no-sonoko19]

'Your country needs you', she told them. 'Wars don't fight themselves.'

#Michelle Gomez #Laura De Mille #Madame Rouge #Doom Patrol #Doom Patrol Spoilers #Set 1 of 2 #At first I wanted to put the Regrets ideas in one set but then this one needed too many gifs #So the other one which has a matching colouration comes next #Aaaaanyway my heart is breaking #MG is unrelenting but I'd have it no other way #I cut out all the 'no matches found' nonsense from the set because it's obvious what she's doing #Do you like the bloody Stamp and Bloody Lips combo? #I hoped it would give that sense of ruthlessness to Laura's own memory of herself #That she chooses to remember herself as even worse than she was #Probably thinking 'Yes I didn't want to do it... but if I really didn't want to do it... then wouldn't I have fought harder against it?' #gah the way she's doing those fast little shakes of the head as she realises everyone she sent to war is dead #or almost certainly dead #except for the Sisterhood #wherever they've gone to #She's -- as usual -- having an immensely private and silent breakdown #(How very unusual for an MG character I'm sure you'll agree) #Unrelated but also related note: god these were both such excellent looks #The present day one celebrating her curls and a patterned blazer is everything #style icon Laura De Mille honestly #(I'm really upset about some of the dithering in one of these gifs #I tried everything I could to keep the contrast yet reduce the highest bits becoming noticeable #but the tech is against me #No matter what I do in Vegas the final quality is largely out of my hands #I apologise to your eyes I swear I tried to do better #Using the other type of gif conversion fixed that issue but made everything muddy imo)

[lewispullmaned]

Rhett Abbott

#why is he so beautiful #it's illegal #my heart breaks every time i see him #lewis pullman #love you so much #outer range #rhett abbott #the way he's silently suffering #oh my i'm a bad person it should not be a turn on but look he's lewis right? he's lewis pullman and everything he does is a huge turn on

[mizukiko-kun]

Productions of Hamlet where Hamlet downs Horatio’s poisoned wine himself, my beloved. Drinking the poison meant for your best friend to save their life must have felt so intimate…

#bonus points if horatio realises how decisive hamlet is being and just watches him do it with a very broken-hearted look on his face #i prefer that to the struggling and very visibly sobbing horatio. he’s more suited for silent tears. to me. #the rational stoic guy breaks down on the inside and you can see it #ALRIGHT ILL CONFESS that’s just my fav production of hamlet #it’s a musical and it’s in japanese so i don’t think the shakespeare girlies know about it but one day ill write up a post #and in that post ill be so obsessed with it. as i constantly am. #hamlet #also hamlet drinking the poisoned wine also means to me that he gets to kill himself even if he’s going to die from the poisoned blade first #and that makes him as many times killed as claudius. i haven’t thought deep enough about this part #on the other hand it also enables him to die for the purpose of saving someone instead of the purpose of avenging the already dead #(if someone’s trying to produce hamlet with the main message being it’s better to die to save someone than to die for revenge #this would be the chance) #(although why on earth would you want to undermine hamlet’s grief… don’t make his entire story pointless c’mon #if anyone has a better way to fit this point into the story than i do pls tell me) #the amount of times i think about the final scene of hamlet is just the amount of times normal teenage girls do the ending of r&j i guess #also look at this bitch describing what happens in hamlet like it's a real historical event

[dutybcrne]

Need smth to heal the soul

Now imagining Adelinde still squooshing Diluc’s face in her hands, bc no matter how old and rough’s tough that man may get, he is still her baby. Her dearest son boy. Her sweet little angel (forget that he has Murdered)

#☆ ┆ ( .ooc. ); #//Can you imagine that first time seeing each other in 4yrs? #//Her near frozen in shock as he steps to her; eyes downcast in shame and awkwardness #//Trying to find the words to say; things he practiced in his way there; all gone Poof the instant he heard her gasp & saw her face #//Still as he senses her suddenly approach; then just MELTS the instant her hands cup his face; the FIRST gentle touch he’s felt in YEARS #//prolly tears up and starts sobbing before she does; practically collapsing into her arms and holding her so tightly #//So tight; as if he’s scared if he lets her go; she’ll disappear #//Her holding him just as tightly; thanking him for coming home; thanking the Archons for bringing him home safely #//Abt how much she missed him; how HAPPY she is to see him; making him silently swear to NEVER break her heart like that again #//Idk little thinkings as I try to scoop up the putty my brain turned into & attempt to cobble together replies #//bfbfbbd #//That is her SON #//I sometimes forget I have Addie as a muse Jdbfbf #//I should prolly put her in the list; actually-

[bobson-dugnut]

While I was drawing earlier I had a playlist of a guy called OddTinkering repairing old consoles and it auto played one of him repairing and refilling a lighter that had been hand made by a soldier in WW1.

It’s stuck with me all day, I bet the human that made that never imagined that a century later it would be repaired, cared for and usable again.

#I like odd tinkering cause he’s silent and he uses most of the parts in the things he repairs #like not to get all ship of Theseus but some guys say they’re doing a repair and like 90% of the thing is new #I also like how gentle he is #I watched one guy bend and break a console over his knee and it just rubbed me up the wrong way #I know they’re inanimate but I still like them to be treated with care you know? #somebody a long time ago worked hard on it #somebody once loved it #and it can be repaired and reused again

[dragons-and-yellow-roses]

RATS are NOT your friends at night while you're reading a scary book

#so if you didnt know. rats are nocturnal #so its 2am where i am rn. my room is pitch dark because i have my blinds shut #and im reading a scary book. lots of spooky creatures and body horror and haunted shit #and my rats. are knocking shit over and chewing on things and generally being menaces #or theyll go silent for a minute abd i think theyre chilling and then all of a sudden theyll drop a toy or something #and scare the shit out of me #they use their spooky little hands to climb on the bars of their cage. and they use their spooky little teeth to aggressively eat kibble #and i gave them new toys today. these edible foraging toys that they love #but that means my room is full of the sound of pulling on bars. or the clicking of a water bottle. or chewing. so muvh chewing #and im reading about this dead body come back to life. with like all of her bones broken. killing a guy in the most grotesque way #and its altogether a very bad experience #i was bored for the first 70ish pages but then it got really fucking good and im hooked. but its also terrifying #the rats have gone silent but now my dog is shifting in his kennel outside my room #both are terrifying. why are my rats silent. why is my dog moving. when will he move next #these animals are harassing me. whats next. my sibling's rabbit is going to break in? in roommate's cat will start scratching at the door? #if my landlord is reading this then ignore all of these tags. we only have a dog sir. no rodents or felines or whatever tf a rabbit is here #ah the rats are making sounds again. terrible horrifying sounds #i have to piss but im scared to get out of bed. i think i live here now. in bed. i cant leave #on a somewhat related note i really want to make deviled eggs rn but i have roommates that are trying to sleep #on one hand i miss living alone. on the other it makes me feel safer to have two other people here with me #even if the threat is only my imagination #and my mischievous critters

[lilgynt]

weaponizing autism by putting on hannibal so when my dad asks questions about it i literally can’t get mad

#personal #less than ten minutes in my dads silent AND I WAKE HIM UP ON ACCIDENT TO TELL HIM A HANNIBAL FACT #NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO #but epic my mom gets a break im actually relaxing after work and my dads being taken care of #this might just a one off moment but i’m actually super happy for all of us #my mom playfully was like you watch as MUCH hannibal as you want baby!!!! #and hit my head when i whispered in her ear about waking him up on accident like kids so my dad wouldn’t hear us #it felt nice #oh hannibal you’ve done it again ❤️ #THIS SHIT KNOCKED MY DAD OUT #LMAO #no. #no you wont fucking believe me #i took my dad to the bathroom and on the way back the scene i paused of hannibal went to a screen saver #and this fucker who has not been able to tell if a light is on or not started describing colors. COLORS. #this sounds like and everyone clapped but holy shit hannibal cured my dads blindness hastag real

[wall-e-gorl]

PDA (platonic displays of affection)

#my art #they arent dating theyre just Besties. the Trio. #breaks wings flare when hes surprised so the other two like to surprise him sometimes #hes tall enough that the two can have a whole silent conversation under his chin while he talks so they do things like this a lot #back to the normal brush and i did something new with the lineart that gives a really fun effect. reminds me of like staticky old tv movies #oh! if you look closely you can see his eye color. they surprised him so much his eye color came back #(<- my style has changed sm since i made him and now i rarely do eyes in a way that makes sense to add eye color when coloring) #(so enjoy it while you can see it cause itll probably be a while til u see it again) #mlp oc

[adammilligan]

COULD adam overpower michael like sam did to lucifer? in theory yes i think he could the problem is adam doesn't really have the willpower for it anymore. i mean the end of 15x08 kind of established him as a bit of a wreck with the whole "since when do we get what we deserve" thing because yknow. he was in a cage for a thousand years and he's tired in a hopeless sort of way. if it happens it happens. not to mention michael's his friend! so his willpower would be weakened by that as well. but at the same time i can't see any sort of scenario popping up where adam WOULD have to suppress michael because there is no situation in which michael would be fighting tooth and nail to be in complete control like lucifer was. he respects adam too much to do that and is extraordinarily gentle with him to boot. so in theory yes he could but in practice? michael just hands him control the second adam wants it

#i'm thinking about this one time that jabel said that adam's reached the point where he'd just sort of sit back and let shit happen to him #and i've always sort of thought along the same lines in a way? that the way michael brought up lucifer being freed while adam sat in hell #specifically was like. a breaking point for him. and that's when that sort of bleak state of mind started to set in #and it isn't like adam is incapable of being hopeful anymore! he was hopeful for the future in the diner! #but there is just a bone-deep weariness about him at the end of the episode. which could be explained by the fact that they just got #the god bomb dropped on them. but also it was in response to him being called a good man and being told that he didn't deserve what #happened to him. so yes it's about the cage and yes it's about the silent sense of hopelessness he sits in #i think if something like that ever came up in conversation. maybe in the cage or something #if they're talking about control and how sam did it. or whatever. and adam's just like what does it matter. if you wanted control #i couldn't stop you anyway. and you just know michael would disagree with him about it and say that adam more than has the mental #capacity to suppress him if needed. but adam's not really listening because he's just so resigned to the idea of it happening #like there really is such a power imbalance between them and when building a relationship like theirs that's not something they can really. #ignore. and i think a lot of it at first would be adam resigning himself to the fact that if michael wanted the body he'd have the body #and he couldn't do anything about it. and it doesn't even matter anyway. and then michael's on the other side like #no it DOES matter. i DO respect you. i DON'T want to put you in that sort of position ever. i need you to believe me #like yes michael has issues the size of ten galaxies combined. but honestly so does adam #and even though adam has a tendency to brush talk of his feelings off like they're nothing in 15x08 #michael does reach out! more than once! so there's no reason to assume he wouldn't about this as well #kate rambles #we came to an agreement #michael #adam milligan #midam

[mel-loly]

-“2022..”

(read the tags)

#this is an art that represents many things that I went through and that I suffered a lot last year.. #like- for you to know how happy I am that the year 2022 is over. it's kinda like how much I'm standing up to now #because for me this year was very difficult #it was really very painful to the point of having to be the one who had to remain silent- #just so as not to say what's stuck in my throat until today #It wasn't just deaths that made me sad. it wasn't just because Brazil lost the World Cup #but there were several things that you have no idea how much it hurts to this day just to remember.. #so- I hope that many here are happy that I'm still here #for having endured so much in all this time. for staying strong and trying to do my best... #for putting “bandages” on every thing I went through. #that some wounds even heal quickly. but there are others that don’t even manage to heal #(like- one of those stains you get on your clothes and it doesn't come off. #or breaking a video game out of anger and never being able to recover it) #but even so you still are trying to find a way to be fine.. #and I'm not only here because I like it and I have friends that I don't want to lose. #but I'm also here because I want to see other people's smiles. whether with my art or even with the things I say #I'm here to show that no one is alone. nor will they ever be #that if you went through many difficulties in the year 2022. know that you were not the only one! #because I also went through it and now pls feel very happy to at least start another year and a new era.. #may 2023 be a good year. that everyone can enjoy and have fun. without so much pain and suffering like last year.. #have hope. stay strong and look at the past as a lesson on how to live even with so many things happening. #remember the good things. even if they are not many. they will help you and make you stronger.. #try to think about the now and live a new experience trying to do your best and still stay strong #I care about y'all. and I hope to stay here for another year to see each one of you well. #also- that I love you guys very much. and I hope y'all don't forget that💛 #art #i'm mel and this is my blog✌️ #my art #art mel #mel creator

[taylorsabrina]

i wish i was at a better place in my life when lover had come out, but i'm also so so grateful to her for providing daylight in my darkest hours.

#*carly chats #i was in and out of the hospital due to my mental health when lover dropped #wish i had more lighthearted memories of enjoying the album #instead of listening to it and silently crying in bed at the psych ward :((( #... like #i love lover. you will never not hear me hype her up. she is an unfairly hated and underrated album. #but i didn't really appreciate or treasure her the way i treasure all of taylor's album releases #i took my baby for granted and it still breaks my heart everyday 😔💔 #taylor swift #album: lover #lover