we were a little intertwined before we even met. I sat on the broken picnic table top on the ground on the hill in the park rooted near neither of our houses. I watched the sunset there alone. When we met, you told me about a picnic table in the woods that you smashed because of some boys you were fighting with. the day that we kissed, we went looking for that table and couldn’t find it. on the walk back, you told me about how the first time you smoked weed you exhaled through your nose, and panicked because everything smelled like weed. The cold bit at my face. you kept my hands warm (in my head)
When I heard it I thought it was from the perspective of staring death in the face.
"I mean, yeah. It's not opinionated. It's stuff that's happened. It's what I was worried about. A combination of not being able to focus on one thing, and talking about my drug addiction, interspersed with the world, then me, then the world. I've always been staring death in the face. Always an existentialist, a nihilist. I just wanna have a baby now. Then I'll stop doing that."
You want to have a baby now?
"I'm too busy, but do you ever think that sometimes? God! Well, at least then me will go away! I'd like to become a vessel for somebody else's happiness. That's where I get meaning in life. I make music; it makes people happy. I find everything else a bit hard. I love my girlfriend."
Why do you feel such an urgency to make so much music?
"I don't know. Do you not feel really urgent right now? To articulate that is weird, right? I'm such a drama queen. Everybody is living their own movie, everybody is the protagonist in the world. If you're a writer, you want a great ending, right? I was obsessed: I'm gonna do three records. We've got artwork for the third. That's gonna be it."
Do you feel confident that you're quitting?
"Um. Yeah? But to be honest with you, one of the reasons I don't wanna talk about it is because I don't deal with change well. I move forward. If I think about it, I go backward. I've tried to distract myself. It's so hard when there's no answer as to why. Why? Because it's better. Because you should. I don't wanna have a baby because of my sense of salvation."
It's okay to think that having a kid can be selfish.
"Yeah. There's not much out there for them. I worry if there's really any point. Is there?"
You're asking if there's a point to having kids?
"Can we not? I don't wanna go down this road. Some stuff me and my missus have to iron out."
November 27, 2018: Matty sits down for an interview with Vulture, where he discusses his desire to quit music and have a baby. (source)
In 2018, Spyro fans rejoiced when the Spyro Reignited Trilogy released on this day exactly 5 years ago. Developed by Toys For Bob (whom later developed Crash Bandicoot 4: It's About Time and Crash Team Rumble), the remastered trilogy compiles the first 3 mainline games starring our favorite fire breathing purple dragon, featuring:
Spyro the Dragon (original release date: 09/09/1998)