#nothing is working and i am pissed off

[camelspit]

grrr hate art

#nothing is working and i am pissed off #but everytime i take a break to like. cool off. it sucks man. #telling myself fandom isnt an obligation but it feels bad being so inactive! #especially since my last 2 art posts have been admittedly very shitty #and i cant seem to get out of this hole. god. #banging my head against the wall bc its like #if i cant contribute art than what can i do. what am i even good at. #i think most of this is probably just being caused by school beating my ass to hell #and my just like. constant state of exhaustion #shits not great rn </3

[coco0milkshake]

Nine! About time I drew him

#my son! (is only like 7 yrs older than him) #sonic prime #nine the fox #tails nine #miles nine prower #sonic prime nine #him and his many tags #ibispaintx #digital art #artwork #my art #as you can see I’ve given up on line art cuz my lines are never straight (and neither am I) #when drawing him I just realized how complex his design is like omg #I struggled #I’m still not over that trailer he’s off his rockers he’s going insane he has done nothing wrong ever cuz I said so #I’m still pissed at sonic for saying that line #when he says ‘he messes with all of us’ does that include the chaos council??? #I hope not they were they literally committed crimes against humanity #the council are only working with them for selfish reasons and are only looking out for themselve #so yeah I am now taking custody of nine because of that line #oh sonic doesn’t want him anymore? ok then mine now #don’t talk to me or my son ever again #sonic prime fanart

[aenslem]

look, yall can love that one specific fanfiction of my favorite couple in the fandom and think it's the best thing ever, and it's the most popular work out there and yall think everyone else also should think the same and love it as much as you do, but maybe I would enjoy reading it if yall would stop bugging me with it, like, absolutely every person I ever talked to about this couple for some reason mentioned that specific fanfiction as if it's the best thing in the fandom, even when we were not talking about fanfiction at all. So at this point it's a little awkward to mention to anyone that I lost interest on chapter 40 or smt and idk if it is because it was not as enjoyable as everyone keeps telling me or is it because yall would not stop telling me it's the best thing ever which is a little annoying. also I already read some things which I consider better works. I am not saying which work or fandom it is, but maybe the most popular works in the fandom should not be thrown at fans who just decided to join the fandom like it's a sacred writings we all should love or smt. I might read that work in the future and find it good too, but right now every time I am reminded about the existence of 'this is the best fanfiction of ----' eyeroll is inevitable.

#text #am a little pissed off at this point by absolutely everyone telling me to read it #I have nothing against the author i find it amazing that somebody can sit and write like that #that's awesome #so i think i will enjoy it once everyone stops telling me to do so lmao #and i also don't say about anything when im told that's the best work ever cos then i will get questions why i did not like it #but i think i did not like it cos yall would not stop telling me about it being the best thing ever #let me decide what is the best thing ever on my own

[gideonisms]

It just… does get easier. It’s not like anything changes it’s just that time and inevitability guide you out of the real dogshit jobs and you become a more complete person who is better able to defend and describe their needs in a way that authority figures can’t resist or overlook.

In my 20s I had like £100 a month after rent and bills, and I didn’t think I’d be able to make it. I just applied for jobs and changes of environment out of spite; you have to burn energy you don’t really have to get there, but it’s worth sparing it in order to end up out of those shitty office drone jobs and with money and a home you love and I promise you.

I promise you.

You’ll get there.

Aw thanks, this is encouraging to hear!! I'm glad you are doing better now and I'm sure one day I will too. I don't know if I ever expect to own a home and I've not managed to find an office job yet, but who knows! I'm sure one day I will at least find a way to make more money and have more consistent hours. For now, I'm at least managing to support myself on my own without going into debt, which is new and exciting. I'm sure it is all a part of the process. Thanks for sharing!

#replies #yeah i mean the upside is no one has ever screamed at me at this job no alarms have so far gone off #nothing particularly traumatizing has happened yet and i did get on the evening shift so i'm sleeping now! #it's also the second out of the 11 or 12 jobs i've had to pay me enough to live on! so like i am getting coffees whenever i want #also exciting #just a lot of extra work days and it's pissing me off but like it is better than what i was doing before

[cosmojjong]

seriously giving up on my hair it makes me want to cry

#fine baby hair has got to be one of the worst traits i could've gotten from my dad #i understand it's genetics but god why do i deserve to have this greasy hair #i also know it's hormones but i can't do hormonal treatments so where do we go from here #it's such a pass in the a s s to have to wash your hair every other day #i guess i am noticing it more now because it's grown a lot #because when i donated it i cut off A LOT OF IT so it was short and more manageable #now that it's longer it's unbearable #i have tried it all #sls free shampoos paraben free shampoos #(trying to avoid dry shampoo although it works because it's cancerous) #i tried oiling it and avoid conditioner on the roots #i have tried using less heat and drying it properly #it makes me so MADDDDD #nothing seems to work #didi rambles #more like didi cries #and my natural hair isn't even proper curls / waves so eventually i am forced to straighten it #pain in the ass * wow look at me being so pissed i can't type

[asfarion]

every time i think abt how unschooling affected me i just get so sad lmao. everyone i can possibly think of has had such a drastically different life experience and i cant relate to anyone because of it. no matter how much i try to explain it, nobody actually gets it. i barely even feel like a human.

#it is a very lonely experience and i cant not recommend it enough to anyone #i gained absolutely nothing from it and im now a totally fucked up 25 year old #all because my folks thought my blank-ass cv with no skills or experience or education past 'home-educated' would make employers salivate #newsflash: they dont!!!!!!!! they actually DO prefer the cv with schooling and qualifications and experience!!!!! #WHO WOULD HAVE THOUGHT. #and i cant even work ANYWAY bc im so fucked up from it all #i can barely fucking function bc i spent practically my whole life locked in a bedroom by myself #but go off and tell me what an enriching experience that was and how much better off i am for not being Like Everyone Else #luka.txt #im just fucking ranting im so fucking sad and pissed off and nobody fucking gets it

[artemislosthunter]

just spend the past four hours moving the inside of my closet and I'm only halfway done someone send help

#I was / am still using the small closet I got when I was a kid and by now it just ... there is not enough space #I have a bigger one that was bought when I was also younger to store all my toys and the family board games #it ended up also being used to put my school stuff away so now I am switching them #since it was never fully filled but my wardrobe is holding on for dear life #and I actually had to let all of my cosplays stay OUTSIDE IN FRONT OF THE WARDROBE (wigs included) bcs there was just no space #and it was pissing me off so much #all the dresses and coats and cosplay stuff is now in the other wardrobe #my every day outfits are still in the old one but at least I got half of it done #I'll take a break for now bcs jfc that was so much work #started relistening to TMA for it klsjdlsk #made it all the way to episode 9 send help LSKJDLSK #(needed smth in the background that was familiar and kept me distracted while doing smth repetitive but also nothing new in case I started #zoning out (if it was new I'd miss smth important so yeah lksjds)

[pissfizz]

Love anger issues moment

#hypmic won’t show me any songs except like four of them and reset my progress on those four songs and idk what happened and my one friend - #-that also plays isn’t having the same problem at all #and I’m actually so fucking pissed off rn I hate when things don’t work and I hate not knowing what’s wrong with something #this game has done nothing but piss me the fuck off #fuck this shit #i want to break something I am going to go fucking insane #i hate this fucking shit

[smudgekip]

"Nobody wants to work anymore" well it's because we're grinding away our lives, missing out on the things that make life worth living and in the process we're still broke as fuck!

Parents are missing their children's milestones because they have to work 8, 10, or 12 hours of minimum wage just to be able to feed them.

Folks are missing out on connections with friends and family because all they do is work for fear of not being able to live otherwise

People "dont want to work anymore" because working doesnt even take care of the bare minimum.

People "dont want to work anymore" because working doesnt even take care of the bare minimum.

People "dont want to work anymore" because working doesnt even take care of the bare minimum.

#anti capitalism #people dont want to work anymore #rant #i am so tired #i bust ass for nothing #so damn sick of my boss and his attitude #got me all pissed off today #augh

[dentist-brainsurgeon]

So fuckin pissed rn

#aunt said yesterday that GRANDMA was gonna have a dinner date with dome friends today at ELEVEN #aight cool whatever #I'm scheduled to go to work at 12:15 so it would line up just fine #11 rolls around. 1130 rolls around and her friends are picking her up and my aunt #so now I have to scramble to schedule a fuckin lyft so I can maybe get to work on time #NEXT TIME FUCKING SAY *BOTH* OF YOU ARE GOING OH AND DON'T SAY ITS 11 IF YOU MEAN FUCKING 12!!!!! #IT WOULDN'T BE SO BAD IF YOU FUCKING EXPLAINED *ANY* OF IT #don't act all surprised when I'm LESS than enthused. I didn't misinterpret shit. #you said 11 and nothing about how both of you are going so I can't even fuckin drive to work #if you've read this far tell me. am I over exaggerating?? like this lack of any kind of details pissed me off idk man #I'm just pissed af

[lilgynt]

i was talking to my mom about my job sucking and she kept pushing like well every job sucks. and kept pushing like girl if it all sucks the same why are you leaving urs

#personal #it’s just annoying cause like what are you arguing against. you actively want me to get a different job #also just let me complain. i’m aware every job sucks don’t remind me i will kill myself over that thought. but like extremely aware #but some have to suck less #like i imagine there’s a job where i don’t work ten hour shifts with one 15 and lunch and am expected to only spend 10 minutes per day #to piss #and i want a mom that can comfort me beyond kicking me out when i call out #i’m scared about how much i hate working and how awful it feels #i’m terrified about how i’m supposed to live the rest of my life #my room has been messy for over 9 months #i go home and just stare at my phone or nothing and suddenly it’s 2 am and i have work so soon #and my days off i spend catching up on sleep and wasting them #i’m just so tired and scared and scared of how apathetic everything but fear and sadness feels #and it’s just like this forever and i don’t have a mom that will hug me or try to make me feel better just #if you want to die you should kill urself and everything sucks everywhere it doesn’t get better #LIE to me im #off the fucking deep end

[rosesradio]

day 2 of what i call the redneck convention aka a family function

#it just so happens there's two events that call for a cookout--we never hang out two days in a row--usually i get a break of a few months-- #so idk if i can handle it #not to mention my sister has work & my fave cousin brings her bf all the time & is busy talking with him #so it's just gonna be me & all these other family members i don't like :// #& okay let me say a thing #yesterday i was having a conversation with my sister--clearly a private conversation #& my weird aunt just literally barged in between us like 'what what are you guys up to huh what what' #& i just like nervously laughed & was like 'yeah we're just talking' #& then she just starts standing right next to me--like glued at the hip and literally says 'what if i just wanna stand right here-- #next to you and just follow you around?' #& i just kinda nervously laughed & tried to shuffle away but she literally started following me around like that #& i know it's ridiculous but i could feel my fight or flight kick in because she was in my personal space & not listening to me #but all i did was kinda laugh again & say 'no thanks i gotta go wash my hands so i can eat--the food's almost ready' #& i had to say that like twice & then she actually got pissed & huffed before storming off #& then later in front of everyone she told my mom something like 'you need to correct your daughter's behavior she's very rude' #as if my mom could do anything #(like don't get me wrong my mom could say 'behave a certain way or we'll kick you out because you're an adult' but she's not gonna do that) #& my mom & dad were both just like '???' when i explained it because i didn't do anything rude-- #like genuinely how The Fuck am i supposed to respond with some aunt getting into my space & refusing to leave even when i'm uncomfortable #my parents told me not to worry about it because she's just weird all the time (which i know) but because she's got nothing else going on-- #in her life she'll probably still try to make drama out of that little interaction today #idk i might just gaslight her by pretending i don't remember what happened. gatekeep girlboss etc #& don't get me wrong i have complete sympathy for people who aren't good with social cues--i'm one of the most awkward people at these-- #functions. but personal space is where i draw the line because you can't just get into someone's space & insist on being there even when-- #they're clearly uncomfortable #sigh anyways these tags are so long. wish me luck :// #rose.txt

[scoreplings]

i hate when i do stupid shit that i know will make me more upset and then i get more upset

#I KNEW. EXACTLY WHAT WOULD HAPPEN. #and i did it anyway. #literally crying so hard i keep almost throwing up but 👍 #so so so glad i don't have to go to work tomorrow anyway #i know i'll be okay i am just so sick of all of it #its not fair and i know life doesn't have to be fair and usually isnt but i hate it anyway #why does somebody who treated me like shit get to be happy and living his best life #while i'm killing myself trying to help other people and just get left feeling like that #it's stupid and i hate it #ughh and i KNOW putting your whole life into helping people is not a path to happiness and happiness is not why i do it. i just want to help #people. but it sucks so bad that i gave up a year of my life and so much more and at the end of it i get nothing #meanwhile people who suck get to be so so happy. #rrr it's dumb i don't even have to know what he's up to but i can't stop myself from looking. #it was fine for months because he wasn't happy he was a miserable asshole. #but he's better now. and i should be glad because that means the world is a slightly better place #but i'm not. i'm hurt and i'm pissed off. #i was supposed to be WITH HIM when he did all that. and i would be if he hadn't been such a shithead. #AUGHHH i'm sad and angry at the same time and i hate it.