#nobody can ever take this from me

[front-facing-pokemon]

#galarian slowpoke #picture this. this was the first pokémon revealed from the new DLCs for pokémon sword and shield. the pokémon company #up until this point‚ has never done DLC for a pokémon game before. you‚ having been jaded by shitty DLCs for other games in the past #now have a distaste for the phrase‚ and imagine this can't be good. then‚ in their teaser for the new DLC‚ they add a little event #into the game where they reveal one of the new pokémon that is going to be added in the DLC #and it is a galarian form. that is identical to the original pokémon. but with a yellow head #are you imagining it. now how fucking disappointed are you. how little faith do you have in that DLC that it's going to be as good as it wa #for the most part‚ the pokémon company has demonstrated that they do absolutely excellent DLCs. proper expansions #basically an entire other game on top of the game you already have. and they typically take up the release cycle of a full game #scarlet/violet's especially. WONDERFUL dlc. i never really properly finished the crown tundra just because i was so late to the party #because i avoided buying the dlc for so long because of this experience that i've just described to you #that by the time i bought it and played it‚ it was just because SV had been announced and i wanted more pokémon to tide me over #and i never finished it. one of these days‚ i'd like to go back and finish it‚ but i'm playing through pokémon xd gale of darkness right no #and i prefer to play. one game at a time. and i don't know when i'll ever really get back to it #or if i'll ever get back to it! 'cause without resetting my save file all the way i'll just have to Remember what it is that already happen #which i'm. notoriously bad at when it comes to coming back to games that i haven't played in a while #plus i know sv is like shitty performance or whatever but the movement in that game is so much better #it feels so much more freeing than going back to gen 8 where you can still just. run. and that's it #i know nobody likes scarlet/violet but i still. like it. performance aside. like yes the performance is terrible but i still had a great #time with it. i just praised its DLC for fuck's sake! its DLC was fuckin wonderful! it has kieran in it so it like can't be bad

[quirkle2]

[thinks about ritsu] ohmy god i need a minute

#qkdraws #id in alt #mob psycho 100 #mp100 #mp100 ritsu #ritsu kageyama #yells to the sky ILOVE WARM COLORS!!!!!!!!!!!!! #I LOVE DRAWING AND CREATING ART!!!!!!!!!!!! FUCK!! #anyway yeah i needed a new tumblr banner. #this is a loose redraw of that one scene. u know the one. or maybe u don't idk #u guys ever think abt ritsu and ur the mental equivalent of like. a schoolgirl kicking her feet giggling #ritsu :) #he is everything to me. it's impressive that mob psycho hasn't been able to force me into picking just one fav #the main cast is my fav . they're All my fav #red eyed ritsu my fucking beloved nobody can take this from me. ill bite you #he also has freckles cuz i SAID so

[m0thball]

I love every year when kids start reading LOTF again. It’s my favorite book in the whole world and I am eternally grateful for the annual supply of new art and memes and everything. But I always am like…..what do you even know about the trenches of the early lotf fandom. I DUG the hole I LAID the stone I played a part in ERECTING the monument that brought you here have you even HEARD jackalicious

#the lotf fandom in 2014 was something else entirely #the insane amount of infighting #the development of brand new ships #me and my mutual COINED Ralph/eric in 2014 and nobody can ever take that away from me #lotf #lotf fandom #lord of the flies

[apoptoses]

do you ever make yourself sad before bed thinking about how Armand’s hostility and desperation towards Lestat comes partly from the fact that Lestat came first to rescue Nicki and then to try and help Louis and Claudia, but no one Armand knew ever actually attempted to rescue or help him?

#not bg3 giving me meta fodder for vc #I feel like there’s an essay to be made from this but my life is on fire and I lack the spoons #in their early relationship Armand wants to hurt Lestat just as much as he wants Lestat to save him #he’s not just jealous of the way Lestat lives so freely #but the way he so bravely swoops in to save Nicki #when to Armand’s knowledge nobody ever even attempted to do that for him #so it’s no wonder he hates him as much as he admires him #Lestat is the hero he wishes he had and it’s inevitable Armand become a bitter thing from meeting and being rejected by him #and want to punish him for being capable of giving others the things Armand himself wished for #and though he grows into someone who can offer kindness and hospitality to others #I wonder if he believes he deserves to receive it himself #or if his offers of hospitality at Trinity gate or taking care of sleeping Lestat are ways for him to be in control of a situation #when someone else is needing help #and avoid his feelings about needing to receive help himself #so much to think about and not enough spoons to fully explore ir 🤧 #vc meta #armand/lestat

[nepenthean-sleep]

0 days since last “you can’t take loved away” -related mental breakdown

#just. everyone i’ve ever loved and lost. it was never wasted #they might be gone now but i loved them and nobody can take that history away from me #nona the ninth #the locked tomb #neph.txt #neph tltposting

[seth-burroughs]

I will not stay silenced any longer. I really cannot relate to the badass girlboss Yomi truthers crowd. I'm sorry but constantly being so obsessed with proving your prowess and supposed superiority via [gestures at every single time he appeared in the game only to act like an insecure manchild who has to continuously reassert his authority he feels entitled to with continuos self-praise, lashing out with petty insults, violence or even pettier wackier violence] are not the acts of someone who is at all secure and confident in their abilities and themself,

#''ok but what if [x character] was truly THAT confident and cool and not overcompensating for anything'' you are so boring. begone. #Yomi to me reads like a very miserable man (which tends to be a side effect of being a deeply unpleasant person) #control is a comfort. power is security. make people do anything and punish everyone who makes you feel bad #powerful people can take anything they want from you. he KNOWS that #now he has that power. he's the director of the peacekeepers the quite literal top dog of kanai ward. the one whom the world revolves aroun #now he's the one who bargains and makes others grovel. people flock to him and he can make them do anything he wants them to do #now no one can make him scared or powerless ever again. And that is STILL not enough and will probably never be. #god. i want to wring him like a wet dishrag and smack him on the counter so he makes that PLAP sound. #anyway...... like and subcribe #mine #rain code #yomi hellsmile #oh wait one more thing - not vaguing anybody here actually nobody here. not talking about anybody in particular #i feel like im gonna need to say this. you know. gut feelings and the like. #girl god damn it the tags are longer than the post itself again. #The ''I DID proofread this but like only once and not that patiently'' tag

[ereborne]

What is a Monday? A miserable little pile of obligations.

semester turnover restructure

generate/send out error reporting

figure out how to separate out unique counts

create polite reply to Massive Dick Move email

finish the bad book >:(

bò kho (not an obligation. dinner)

laundry

lizard bath

#yapping tag #I spent my weekend trying to sleep and now all my chores are due today and I wanna complain. grump grump grump whine. #the semester turnover restructure actually is a pet project so that part I like! I wish I could take my time with it though #the error reporting is. well it's easy to generate (it's actually running now) and it's tedious but uncomplicated to send out #but then I'm going to spend the rest of the day getting passive-aggressive responses from everybody #in a just world my coworkers would respond to careful itemized lists of all their fuckups with 'thank you Alexis you're so helpful #we really appreciate you flagging our mistakes two weeks before the system final-saves them forever into stone. have a cookie!' #but alas #if I'd been any less stressed and frantic when I first established the error reporting I'd have set up a separate address to send them from #write up some template emails and let the reporting all come out of the mythical 'automatic system thing' #--every 'automatic system thing' in our college is me or IT on my behalf. even the people who hired me for this don't seem to realize #if only I'd known from the beginning that nobody would ever connect me and my systems! I'd be exploiting the shit out of it-- #the unique counts is going to be a headache. no idea how I'm going to structure the coding for it. might be fun to invent? we'll see #the Massive Dick Move email response also will be an invention. 'hello Mr Massive Dick I am karma here to smite you' but polite #the bad book >:( I don't want to read any more of but the deal I made with my friend is he sends me free books and I report back #we did not discuss a special 'get out of book free' card for when the main character is a godawful shit sibling. (should've done though) #beef stew is good! mostly it's on the list so I don't forget to set the timers #laundry and lizard bath can wait until tomorrow if they must but they shouldn't wait any longer than that. lizard and I will get stinky

[firstroseofspring]

sirella telling a little of how she and martok met in the left hand of destiny

#HERE IS A MAN OF DESTINY. #the language here kills me slays me guts me. #the man she would take as her husband. only a woman of destiny should be allowed to claim him. nobody look at me #dont get me started on how martok talks about sirella. he says she smells like wood flowers 😭😭😭 #sirella's cousin watching the news: all that and he's from ketha province can you be-lieve that? im surprised he could look up long enough #to see the romulans coming! right sirella? sirella? #sirella: truly unprecedented. have you ever given thought to where our parents keep the betrothal necklaces? #trek #diary #clawing at the soil but nobody can tell what im digging for

[raveartts]

"hmmm you need to change the colors"

okay well hmmm maybe you should kill yourself

#rave ramblees #pretending this isn't about my dad <3 #god nobody can ever just shut up and be grateful can they #how about YOU change the colors #I don't feel like it >:( #good god I spend my entire life being the ungrateful brat to that guy and he criticizes me #shut up it's literally fine I didn't have to draw anything for you anyways #just take it or change it yourself #...aaaand just as my mood was starting to improve again from yesterday #I'm just a sour puss aren't I :(

[plumbogs]

anyways one hc I never really bring up but I always play with is that lilith pleasant is an egg to me. get that man some large boots

#my reasoning? projection actually #i just always trans him when i do pleasantview idk its just the vibe #the pleasant family has unnaccepting vibes to me and i hc that's part of the reason dan hates dustin so much #and also dirk is sneaking out with lilith so they can do transmasc shit :) its wholesome really #nobody say 'they can't all be trans' stfu yeah they can. have you ever met teenaged trans kids. they're pack animals even when closeted #my high school friend group went from mostly girls to almost entirely men after graduation #also specifically he's transmasc but not fully a man to me. he/they and generally anti-gender. but thats just my take. #editing tags again to add that name wise they totally double down on the biblical analogy shit and goes with Cain or something.

[moinsbienquekaworu]

The struggle between being happy that all kinds of aspecs are talking about aspec experiences more and barely being able to stand the way people talk about aspec experiences

#i don't know how to say it but like. i'm aro and i hate how nobody ever. talks about us except us #if i was the type of person who comes out and if i didn't already need a powerpoint to explain asexuality #i'd start telling people i'm aro and not aroace #like just. the way i feel towards both alloallos & alloaces who try but fail at being inclusive.... #towards alloace and sometimes aroace communities & the way they are & act.... #legit making me think about identifying as like. non sam aro or something #yeah technically i'm asexual but i'm going to take that word away from everyone #my allo friends are trying bless their heart but they DO NOT GET IT!!!! #they're trying and they're FAILING!!! BADLY!!!! #i understand people who use certain sets of pronouns but only with specific people. holy shit #like if i see one more time that asexuality means not being interested in relationships. #if my friends ask me and only me if i'm comfortable with a sex discussion when i am participating in it #if i get told 'no bitches!! :D' as a pride thing ONE MORE TIME #i'm sorry if you're seeing that m btw. on the infinitesimal chance you do see it. it's not against you it's my aro rage #i just. i'm not ace and then aro as an afterthought. #i'm ARO and eventually if it comes up i'm ace #'oh but no bitches isn't necessarily about sex it can also be about relationships' #yeah okay. well. i'm interested in both of those. i do want bitches. not like allos but i'm not signing up to be a nun here. #the flattening of the aspec experience to 'asexual and possibly aromantic' is making me want to tear things apart with my teeth #hate hate hate hate #and let's not forget adolescent romances. listen. i'm a teenager and i love romance #but all the stuff where the 17yo alloace teen feels broken and ends up dating a comprehensive partner...... #i keep seeing it like you see the fin of a shark. and that's already more than i can stand #i'm happy it's resonating with people but it's exactly as insipid as bland straight love songs to me #anyway. i didn't get everything i wanted out but i chipped away at it. #wow i have a ramble tag now

[dullahandyke]

i look at some of u guys talking abt a new show u watched or a new thing u read and im like. holy shit thats a thing u can do. im in awe of u. i spend my time slowly ping-ponging between several interests whose base componants i can never experience because i get scard

#right now its danganronpa again grin. did u know ive been into it on and off for lets say 7 years at this point #and ive never once played it myself. i have it installed on this laptop ready to go and i just! never open it! #because if Im the one playing it then i have to pay attention and i get scared #but if im watching a lets player i just naturally pay attention without the pressure #ive talked before how i always feel i need to have the smart cool takes on shit #n this deep plays into that #idk boti was good for me bcos nobody fucking knew what it was so nobody could judge me for pardoning anotsu's crimes bcos he was hot #so i probs need to do that again #yknow a thing where i disconnect from anything that anyone knows about and get really really into some dipshit manga from 2008 #but also like. i get a lot of my media recs from people talking abt what they like #which then means i defacto have someone who is gonna know if my takes are shit #and like even now. im watching mop cycle w dri and im having fun w it #but i feel bad bcos i see so many ppl like This Is The Best Anime Ever and i just like. dont get it #like i can actively feel the messages and shit whooshing over my head #its a fine anime! i'm having fun watching it! but i don't get all the commentary abt pacifism or whatever #idk. something something my need to be The Smart Kid The Bookworm Kid that went unchecked too long without peers to challenge me #so now im here like Uh Oh #and like this wouldnt be the end of the world (save for its impact on my mood n stuff) #but also like. i am an english student. i should know this shit. but i stragiht up do not feel smart enough to sometimes #i keep coasting by on the assumption that im a smart kid and i'll automatically be better than my peers #and im being disproven #i got an english exam back tonight and i got like 63% #and i like college! i just dont like. college. #anywho its approaching 3am and i have a 9am tomorrow morning which means bedtime

[anaalnathrakhs]

i keep looking at posts like "i stopped a binge" "i prevented a binge" and all of them are like. "i waited until the urge went away". buddy. the urge doesn't go away. there's no urge. there's just nothing else to do. i don't have anything else to do. every time i stop eating no matter how long i sit with the feeling or not, i always go for more food because there is genuinely nothing else in my life. nothing is enjoyable anymore. the world sucks. no matter what i force myself to do it's the only positive thing i can ever find.

#like okay cool i let the people around me guilt me into eating whatever they think i should be eating #i get it. i'm so fucking stupid for missing out opportunities to try new food. i should never buy the same food twice. #i should always buy all the variety i can and try everything. #i'm so stupid for having eaten the same stuff in a loop for years and years #i'm a massive fucking weirdo for not eating when other people are eating #i keep stealing food from my parents and the people around me i keep taking way too much of stuff intended for a group #nowhere i go will be free of obligations #i have to keep buying my own poison because everywhere i go there's other people's food waiting for me anyway #my parents keep looking at me like a freak no matter if i eat dinner with them or not #they see me binge and nothing happens #we just ignore it #i just eat until Designated Eating Time is finished #hunger doesnt ever have anything to do with it i just eat when food's in front of me #i need the ritual i need the structure it brings to my life #both meals with other people and my ritual binges #i dont know what to do with myself when i'm not binging #and it's like i'm not allowed to not want food #to other people #it's like i must necessarily want all food and anytime i refuse it's restriction #my friends are always like ooooh you can grab some of my fries if you want #or oooooh do you want the rest of my cookie #or ooooooh and how about you are you ordering something #and i'm like :) yeah sure :) like anybody else would :) #and to myself. to myself i don't know. i think i just want to give up. i want to suffer and i want to fuck up so badly. #so badly that no one can deny i need help #i want to be proven right. i'm just a little weakling and all i'm good for is to haunt the halls of a mental hospital. #no responsabilities no pressure nothing but a pitiable suffering victim #i want somebody or something to swoop in and save me #but nobody will come. it's my job to ask for reasonable help from the relevant authorities. and currently they can't offer that care. #so fuck me i guess

[exercise-of-trust]

🌌.

#alright i'm about to pack it in for the night but i'm gonna be real mushy for like 60 seconds first #it's been 2 years since i reconverted around easter after like 4-5 years out of the church! #and. ngl a lot of it has sucked. am i side a am i side b do i have to detransition will i ever find a church that will take me if i don't #etc etc etc. still don't really have any of that figured out either! #but at the end of the day. christ has died christ is risen christ will come again! nothing else matters! nobody can take that from me! #no one preacher can withhold the gospel from me and for that matter neither can the whole sbc together. i'm a christian! cope!!! #it's easter! and i'm gonna rejoice because my lord kicked death's ass in a denny's parking lot and therefore i have life in him!! #anyway happy easter if you celebrate and thanks for your patience if you don't #heart of my own heart whatever befall #a design an alignment a cry

[bamboozled-distress]

silver age superman needs to suck a dick and cry in his tiny fucking complete ass apartment about it im so serious

#i started reading superman and supergirl stuff from the silver age and wow i don’t think I’ve hated a character more than silver age superma #he makes me SO mad #no way is he literally depriving kara of any sense of humanity and love just to be his contingency plan #and depriving her of love and care and affection of parents ever and making her only go out to do errands for him and his missions #hey little 15 year old girl i need you to be in love with me and make out with me for this mission underneath a complete other name #AND THEYRE COUSINS #teehee let me tell you that you can go out in public as your own person and not just hide yourself from the world for me but omg omg you #messed up this mission a little bit?? NO IM TAKING AWAY ALL THE PRESENTS I SHOWED YOU GO BACK TO THE OROHAMAGE AND WISH FOR HAPPINESS ILL #NEVER LET YOU HAVE #he literally thinks he’s better than everyone ever HE MAKES ME SO MADDDDDDDDDDDDDD #supergirl #superman #kal el #clark kent #silver age comics #silver age dc #dc #action comics #laz.exe #also #he’s so homophobic gay man coded but nobody’s really ready for that conversation

[sisterdivinium]

That Sylvia didn't know from the beginning of shooting the show about Mother Superion having been a halo bearer before is absolutely wild based on her performance. Talk about intuition...

#i recall another interview of hers where she talks about the reaction the acting teacher had to her first time on stage or something #“that's talent!” -- indeed it is indeed it is... #(don't mind me i'm just youtube diving for a sec) #silly blabbering #i could never be a script writer. she mentions two s1 episodes having been reworked in the middle of shooting some others #no guys seriously how do you rework something as it's happening lol braver than any us marine #there's a reason why i write and rewrite my stories and even my essays before i ever post them -- why i take months to complete a text #and why if ever i do lose my mind and write a multichap story it will be fully written before i ever post the first chapter #i can do improv rather well -- i did a few theatre classes and i can do beautiful ass pulls in the middle of an rpg session #but when i have a story to tell i have a vision to adhere to and nobody apart from my best friend sees that progress that back and forth #it's pretty cool that the writers changed a few things after getting to know the actors (and sylvia had mentioned that before as well) #but jeez i just would not be able to do it. kudos to every screenwriter playwright out there #since it's not just putting parts of the story out -- it's doing so for actors to read and perform. amazing #random edit to add that she?? did boxing for three years??? mamma mia aiutami