#need to do it more often fr

[numberonetinabelcherdefender]

i can't believe roudise week is almost over guys :(

i was very excited about the roommates prompt lmao. based this comic off of gene's story in season 13's "what about job?" and stole tina's outfit from bob's 👀

#roudiseweek2023 #god i love drawing tina #drawing the siblings as adults was so fun guys #need to do it more often fr #also need to practice with bob and linda damn #bob's burgers

[mattodore]

20s vs 30s

#river dipping #matthias evanoff #theodore doe #echthroi #ts4 #ts4 edit #the older they get the more i need to [redacted] them... #matthias is already 26 so. not much changing going on in his face. his hair just starts receding a bit before he gets it under control #but theo’s in his early 20s so his cheeks definitely lose some baby fat in his late 30s #MIND YOU! matthias is really vain. so. he has a skincare routine and he's very serious abt it along w/ regular dermatologist visits #and injections/surgeries probably... so he is someone who will age very gracefully thanks to money lmao... #theo on the other hand is just blessed with beautiful skin <3 well that plus he rlly doesn't emote often... not many lines on his face #until he's in his mid-forties probably. but like fr... theo isn’t someone who puts a lot of work into his appearance like matthias does #and he uses and smokes like. his skin looking so good is just the result of a genetic lottery #i do think he quits both by the time he’s 30 #but while he doesn’t go back to cigarettes… hm. he probably continues to relapse w/ drugs every few years #not with anything hard—he’s off the stuff for good i think past 28-ish #i think when he relapses he’s usually safe with matthias who helps him by focusing on harm reduction so. lighter ones. #…just got a bit emotional thinking about that but anyway #kisses for theo 🫂 #i was going to post this last night before bed but decided that i wanted to actually edit them first so! here take this <3 #i've gotta get ready to go get my novavax shot in a few hours but then i'm going to start editing again #seriously rlly enjoying my editing process rn... like it makes me so happy!! to finally really like the way i edit and how things look #but yeah........................ mattodore are so sexy as they age god. #i gotta redo that old family lineage post i made now that mattodore look different... and i need to redo their parents for sure #…anyway cross your fingers for me 🧎 i’m hoping my side effects aren’t too bad this time around

[phant0m-l0rd]

it's finally the 24th here so happy birthday to the incredibly talented and charismatic Shinya <3

(rollerball gel pens, coloured pencils, water-based markers, flower petals)

#i just finished this drawing today (the 23rd as of writing this) and had to do most of it while i was riding as a car passenger #cuz i didn't have any other time to make progress on it tbh (this week has been so busy 😩) #suffice to say that gave me an extra challenge so i'll blame all errors on that and not on my habitual struggle to capture shinya's feature #fr though i need to draw him more often so i can actually get better at capturing his likeness #it'd been years since I'd used water-based markers but that's all I have on hand atm. trying not to tear the paper was a struggle 😭 #happy birthday shinya #shinya #shinya dir en grey #dir en grey #metal #vkei #musician #fan art #fanart #art #traditional art #lisa's art #scheduled

[hajihiko]

as someone who has regular hallucinations, like during the day - don’t worry about losing it! it’s totally possible to have hallucinations and just live a normal life anyway. sometimes they’re scary but sometimes they’re totally mundane and it’s really fine.

Mine was very mundane I was just startled because usually I'm at least dozing off or in a relaxed position but this time I was just walking into the bathroom. But that's good to know! Two of my friends have schizophrenia actually and they have pretty regular good lives, I dont think my life is fucked or anything I'm just like "God damn it this TOO"

#Besides hypnagogia I do often have. Not hallucinations but like I miscontrue input #Sounds are louder than they should be shadows are closer than really are. But I think that's the anxiety and not-PTSD #But this one was weird and new and I dont need more shit to deal with!! It was water reflections on the bathroom wall. #Nothing bad but I was like I know fr a fact there's no water here rn so what the fuck #Not an art #Tmi tiiiiime

[ferberus-skull]

hi i'm extremely exhausted (<- fighting the horrors) but auraboas good 👍

#gremlin blabs #was rendered completely speechless upon seeing scuttle (in a very positive way) #i think they may be another favorite #why do all my favorite ancients start with a. how'd that happen. #but yeah hi i am still here. still on fr. just going through my own personal hell atm lol #i mean i have been for most of the year it's just Worse rn #ANYWAY. no need to vent over here lol #my auraboas were both very good surprisingly #rng decided to be nice to me which i am pleasantly surprised by #i did trade one of them with my brother tho #because he does breeding more often and he ended up with two f poses #and i ended up with two m poses #so we swapped lol #i may actually breed mine tbh. but idk we'll see #will post them both shortly tho because they're really good

[kinos-fortress-2]

i just woke up and realized my art did developed holy crap

#girl what drawing tf2 does to a mf fr #since i have been drawing tf2 my artstyle just developed better and now i finally have found an original artstyle compared to the ones #i had back in the beginning of 2023 #IF ONLY I WASNT SO LAZY and so distracted holy shit i could make it more better like studying backgrounds ugh #and keep practicing my coloring girl i have been drawing a lot but not coloring i need to start painting before i forgot it #but oh my god i swear it developed bc i am drawing a little more fast than before and my lineart is more bold than before #guys fucking practice with tf2 characters and ALSO dorohedoro that is also my main inspo too #i feel like also w dorohedoro i developed my style but back then i was still more shaky than bold #but now i can happily say i am no more embarrassed in my artstyle of how i draw characters like i used to be before #i was always so goddamn negative for no reason with myself but i guess the negativity helped me develop my artstyle #but gave me artblock sadly… and often issues w self esteem but aaaa idk i think i’m doing much better i can do better yes just… #need to draw more and that is the actual nightmare huh

[convoloutedinjoke]

"is ADHD real or have we made another category to encompass freaks and sick people who don't fit neatly into any personality disorder diagnoses and make too much eye contact for autism?" longest thread on the DSM fandom boards, closed down after 1817168179 comments when one user got doxxed for calling another the r word. (answers yes btw)

#ohhhh the fighting that will occur over words and labels #why dont you have a little meth and see if it helps your depression/ptsd/autistic sociopathy then come back to me #“ADHD is made up everyone has it now” YES!!!! ITS ALL MADE UP!!!!!! #we are hurling language at the unknowable grey mass we call consciousness and seeing what sticks #as displayed above ^^^ (autistic sociopathy->ASD) these labels come and go and its always stupid and kind of annoying and reductive #mental illness and its categories are a tool of ontology #often used as a hammer to beat those in need of help #sometimes used as an excuse for evil #but always describing Something #if everyone is getting an ADHD diagnosis and you feel like its faddish and posery #maybe interrogate why other labels come off as more legit to you #if you are defensive of your newly acquired ADHD diagnosis for more than purely practical reasons #why? #why is it important to highlight it? is there something exclusive to having this diagnosis that gets you around certain hurdles? #and if not what is it doing for you? #im being fr here cause I definitely do this in some social contexts when I can tell ive hurt someones feelings or that they are annoyed #by me for reasons I cant suss out #but like. it doesn't work. theres no additional grace people will offer you for disclosing disability #and none that youre entitled to beyond what anyone else should get #which is not me saying “bootstraps it fucko” #its me saying “why focus on carving a space of understanding and compassion for a label when we should be busting down the wall?” #if its grace you want for something it should be grace for all of us #we're all tired and pathetic #none of us can meet the deadlines #ADHD is a useful way of measuring suffering under capital #same as most other long term diagnoses #it is a gateway to getting drugs that will keep you alive #it is also a measure of relative class privilege #(if you are doctor dxd) #and an avenue for discrimination

[muirneach]

‘waaa toronto subway map is so sparse compared to other cities’ SHUT UPPPP THEYRE NOT SHOWING THE STREETCAR LINES IN THAT MAP. THEY BALANCE IT OUT. christ alive

#like good god. its not hard to recognize this. and yet i see this sentiment sooo often #i DO think we need more subway lines #like eglinton when will u be finished good lord. but its gonna be sooo good when it is finished fr #but like nevertheless its still important to recognize that we only have 3 subway lines but also like 15 streetcar lines #sigh idk people complain about this place with such vitriol that u dont see other places. we got a lot to work on we’re not great ! #but theyre too mean. #all of that is to say i dont care for the ontario line. we have a perfectly good streetcar line that accomplishes that same thing #why dont u focus on building transit in scarborough and etobicoke and north york! downtown is doing just fine! #which is to say if its taken them like 13 years to still be building eglinton #then i simply dont trust them to tear up downtown in a timely manner! #i would say if it aint broke dont fix it but its kinda broke but like its functional enough so dont fix it #trains #i love blogging about my city as if we all take the ttc every day #(<- guy that spends nearly 2 hours every day on the subway) #edit: altho while i love streetcars cause theyre unique and fun i will concede subways r better when in a big traffic city. but alas

[idiealotdontworry]

the anti-shoplifting ppl on this webbedsite are ridiculous. if your employer genuinely punishes you bc someone stole from the store you work at, thats bc they suck and you should be mad at the company, not the ppl who had to resort to stealing to get by. but you gotta look out for #1 so bad that you're willing to forgo all sympathy for people who have it worse than u when big boss tells you to...ok

#personal #im too much of a chickenshit to steal but like........... #if its from a company worth more money than 10 generations could spend why the Fuck do u care #i've worked retail they dont pay you enough to care fr #if they're cutting ur hours its bc they want to and theft is the scapegoat of choice #so they can point your hatred towards ppl other than corporate #and it worked bc you're stupid #also all these ppl like 'buhhh stealing food is fine you need that but makeup and clothes are a big no-no!!' #Do you realize people need clothes. like generally but also to Get a job #because jobs have fucking Dresscodes and they more often than not Do Not provide u with the clothes they tell u to wear #Do you realize that most women are still forced to wear a full cake-face just to be even Considered for the most menial minimum wage bs #are there ppl who steal for no 'valid' reason? yeah. does that excuse your bs? no #obviously stealing from independent and small businesses is shitty. but if its like. idk fucking Best Buy. who the fuck cares

[fedoranon]

Good news! Waiting a bit on ToTK has worked, I am now able to play the game without being vaguely disappointed by it!

Bad news! I've been listening to a Kingdom Hearts recap podcast and Command Board Command Board Command Board Command Board Command Board Command Board

#specifically the hosta apparently Do Not Like the command board game which just reminds me how much i like it #god grinding spell synthesis in this game without it? why? #you too can be made an absolute fool of by Tigger!!! #why is his ai so much better than everyone else's fr #anyway i went back and got the camera in the middle of the gerudo city boss fight because this game just lets you do that ig #filled in the overworld & sky maps completely #figured out theres some kind of translation thing i need to get and maybe? this one place is where? #not sure how often im supposed to return to places #never usually do that in rpgs if i can help it but i think i have to to unlock more stuff? it seemed like there's more to do in rhe little #starting camp anyway #i have easier access to my switch than my ps4 so like. actually playing more leg of zel than Command Board

[mariemariemaria]

tumblrinas log on everyday to post about how "you should stop criticising the poor men dont you know that their feelings get hurt :(( you're so evil for that" meanwhile men have their full faces out on comments and reels they make about how women are selfish whores and the ones who work and dont have 6 children are causing the Downfall Of Society while the ones who dont work and want to be stay at home mums are Greedy Lazy Golddiggers. The ones who want a "traditional" woman will then complain about how men are only valued for their wealth and even the men who say that actually a woman isnt gonna drop her job just to be with a "traditional" guy who earns fuck all, only wants his wife/gf to work because then the financial burden is split more evenly (though I doubt he does his fair share of the housework). You all need to wake up fr. Stop protecting these men. Stop underestimating the sheer amount of brainwashing theyve gone through because of porn, patriarchal religions and misogynists like Andrew Tate.

#and they loooove to say that women dont do any important work and im like oh i hope you never need a nurse or a doctor or a teacher or a #lawyer or a child minder or a paramedic or a pharmacist or a vet or etc etc etc. and all because not lot of women are involved in #construction 🙄 i hope these men die fr #also does anybody else think they're getting FAR more open with and far more extreme in their misogyny? and i dont mean over the last few #years but the last few MONTHS. like i get sexist reels on ig all the time and even normal reels are often filled with misogynistic comments #or is it just bc my algorithm has changed? i mean i dont like it bc i dont wanna see all that misogyny #but also im kinda glad that im more aware of it now. never been a better contraceptive than these men spouting their misogynistic bs

[adore-gregor]

Heyy

#i'm back after disapearing from tumblr (again🥲) #so uni was stressful #but i passed all my tests so far (well one i'm still waiting for the results but i did so well on it i could hardly have failed it) #i even did well 😁 got a b on the first one and a c on the 2nd one (which i'm happy with because quite a few failed and many d's) #(for the one i'm still expecting i should have at least get a C or i might even get a B or an A) #so yay #but my mental heath is always getting worse when i'm studying anyone else 🥲 #like i do nothing else or feel like i can't do anything else often order food because i feel like i don't feel like i have time for cooking #and the anxiety i stress so much before the exam until the very moment i have it then i'm calm again😂 #like it's whatever i can't do anything more now anyway so i might just do this #i then talk myself up i'm gonna do great on it because i studied well #but it still got better compared to when i was younger i still cooked some meals i saw my best friend during exam week #i also stay positive most of the times because generally i'm a very positive person but sometimes the nerves get to me still #also i find these study tiktoks or tumblr pages so funny the studying part with the clean desk and morning routines life together 😅 #i feel like it's not realistic and putting so much pressure on you i kinda hate it #i mean you shouldn't give up on trying to be balanced and relaxed with studying but some amount if mess is normal i feel like #my desk always rather looks a mess when i study #but it's unnecessary pressure fr studying is not an aesthetic and it doesn't need to look like it #all that matters is that you pass your exam and staying in a positive headspace ig #anyway now it's over i'm happy and i have a life again after those 2 weeks #no tests until end of january #only the extra studying for the medicine entrance exam is still a lot🥲 #besides i really love playing tennis so much lately this sport is everything to me :)) #it helps my mental health so much it gives me so much motivation and makes me happy whenever i play #also my progress was so big this half year 🫶 more than over the course of the last years fr #i went from probably below average in my team to one of the good players #almost won a set against our best player it was close months ago i lost 2:6 i had no chance #everyone says i improved sm 🥹 and yeah this makes me proud bc i trained sm so i really earned it (also found a coach again) #and it's exciting bc i made it a challenge for myself of how far i can go and how fast i can improve #with quick improvement certainly a lot is possible and i love a good challenge 😄

[apollos-boyfriend]

idk which dots i just connected and what they mean but by god i fucking connected them

#icarus speaks #danganronpa #<- for anyones blocklist. i need to remember to do that more often #but uh. yeah. they’re not in the right order. but it’s just the same cast #this is specifically niche and tailored to probably me alone. but i needed to get that out there #and i’ve hyperfixated on BOTH these groups. #there is something wrong with me fr

[portokali]

there is. definitely a lot to be said about the merits of having the ability to turn off Shipper Brain Mode and enjoy a story without ever demanding a ship be canon or even shipping any of the characters. however there is something about a hint or a promise of romance in works that aren’t explicitly romantic that makes them somehow more tantalizing and interesting. anyway this post is about james and erin derrygirls where i had 0 expectations of their feelings ever being confirmed and simply entertained the idea of them as a what-if-james-likes-erin-lol on a completely different tab that was left open in my brain but when it Was confirmed in s3 and the way it was left unfulfilled but all the same promised absolutely has done numbers to my brain chemistry like the small and tender crushes of two kids living ordinary lives under extraordinary circumstances. something about that yeah.

#like sometimes i feel a lot of Shipping is all abt for the sake of shipping and so u can project a Whatever romantic ideal #which often has nothing to do w the characters presented on screen (or on page etc ykwim) and more abt fandom building a fanon around t #the ship and making it all abt coffeeshop college aus etc... like its more abt inside consumption and deformation of the original ship #to be sth it wasnt meant to in canon but what the fandom wants it to be. i dont rly like this kind of shipping #BUT when i see two blorbos and their love is real it touches my soul...... blease understand #like im SO HAPPY w how little screentime their romance actually takes up its EXACTLY as much as i needed in a story out of derry girls #any more wouldve been too much cause honestly theyre all just losers who dont pull and the story is abt friendship and coming of age anyway #but also..... the jerin story so so good and important to me fr. #no bad tracks. the way it happens so quietly and you can pick their feelings up by SQUINTING? impeccable #the way HE is whipped for HER (a must in a het relationship) but absolutely sees right through her bs and keeps it real always #the way james absolutely Knows and Sees erin for all of her and still oh god oh shit #disintegrating to my bare essentials im gone #cause erin diary girl erin erin the author erin the writer and james you should write that down derrygirl james my best friend james #the i can wait........ like literally so mature of them to realise theyre not mature enough yet but YET theres potential for sth #that they cant just fuck up w their teen bullshit!!!!!1GOSH. FABULOUS!!!!!! #AND the way everyone's parents mirrored the girls in the flashback episode and now erin and james seem to rather grow to be similar to #erin's parents aka a loving marriage and relationship that endured objectively A Lot and provided shelter n family not only to their kids #but also officially unofficially james too james who never knew his dad james whose ma kinda umm doesnt love him. lets be honest. #like theres n o reason for me to be losting my shit so mcuh over them except there IS. #except i am! #the fact that their ship name is jerin? erin with a j?? an absolute w for j community on top of everything #no bad tracks im telling you #the quiet tender kind of love that short of develops as a bytheway as an aside to the main story #as an of course id have a crush on you. of course it would happen. of course it's not going to be the main story #its not the end of it either its not even the beginning not really #you know im such a fool for you....... but now im feeling it even more......... etc #jerin #derry girls #derry girls spoilers

[k0kichiimagines]

its so insane to me when i see certain women say that period leave is somehow offensive i am begging you stfu i would kill for period leave dont ruin it for the rest of us because you dont want it 😭😭

#i have endo but i think it'd easier if i could get even only a few days off automatically rather then having to get like special time off #and otherwise we have to use sick leave and then we cant use it when we're actually sick :( #so insane though fr i saw someone say 'its offensive because you're saying women are weaker '😭😭????? #people who r afab are like usually weaker then people who r amab why do u think cis men r so scary #its not offensive to say that #if you chose to turn that into 'people who r afab are therefore useless and dumb' thats your fault for seeing a difference to mean one has #2 be useless because of it #if you have periods then yes you'll be tired and weaker then often getting a lot of pain #i think its more offensive to say that we need to just pretend we're the same as people who r amab and just push through #how come we're always expected to behave the same as cis men?? like if there's any difference it's always that we need to change it to fit #in with cis men? #its so annoying #like even without conditions periods can b so draining #pls help me to understand why its offensive to give people who suffer from them a break??? #i do not understand #because amab people dont need it it's offensive and demeaning to give it to afab people in ur eyes?? #so like fuck pregnant people then? #like how far are you going to go with this #its not equal sure but being exactly equal isnt always fair. #it's like when i say i dont fast during my period and they say its offensive like personally it gives me the benefit of being able to have #water and medicine and keep my energy up #everyone is different #and its not bad to say everyone is different #different doesnt mean one side is stupid or deserves unjust treatment #(dont take that out of context for like serial killers or something ok i beg) #its your fault if different automatically means that to you i think #i specify cis men because i personally never see transwomen act this way if anything theyre the opposite and always really kind ab periods #idk if i worded that well u probably know what i mean

[astrxealis]

sorry for rambling so much about milgram btw my thoughts are often a mess and i think too much about it but i am good now i think <3

#⋯ ꒰ა starry thoughts ໒꒱ *·˚ #⋯ ꒰ა milgram ໒꒱ *·˚ #i finally properly get fuuta's character i think teehee. after a lot of thinking and thinking and thinking #it hurts my head a bit ngl (figuratively) bcs ejghbghjag i try to look at it at all sides and whoops i end up getting confused w #what is the truth and what are my actual beliefs/feelings/thoughts a bit! </3 but my head is clearer now (hooray!) #anyway yeah fuuta innocent. guilty -> innocent -> innocent imo!! can't say totally for sure tho w the 3rd but i think he shld be forgiven #i feel a bit ehgbah for my thoughts being so messy before (also scared someone will misunderstand me) but i think yeah i was looking #at it already in the 2nd trial perspective. how to explain. but yeah blah blah blah yeah! #i think he's a good guy at heart fr but he. yeah. and i think there's smth to do with the 'pressure' and all with that #he needs to hold himself accountable for his actions even if it may be true that yk. he isn't the only one and it's rather sad he's the #only one who got all the blame so i get why he's acting that way even though ofc it isn't okay in the end. dude needs to admit and all #and he's getting uhh better! i want to talk more oops but it's almost 2 pm holy shit. i'll probably put my coherent thoughts in my notes #instead. but yeah. tbh i'm not sure if i can really say he always felt somewhat guilty/regret ever since the start #bcs it's he may just first feared the consequences but then again he never expected it to escalate to death (tho even if the #outcome turned out to not be that bad. cyberbullying is never okay!!! bullying is never okay!!!!!) but he's the character #who puts up a front of sorts and as someone who often likes characters like that. it's possible i'm misinterpretating him but #personally that's how i see it ^___^ but dude yeah guilty first trial fr so he can be more yk to really loosen up and admit it n all #or at least. take a step closer to doing so. yeah!!! okay i think i've properly cleared my head now #i just hope no one like. misunderstands me from my many rambles WABHBJHBG #oh i actually really relate and understand fuuta actually. yeah. NOTHING AS BAD AS HIM i mean that genuinely but yeah #he's starting to accept that his actions bring heavy consequences and he's showing a lot of guilt and regret. still a tough front tho #aghhhh i really hope he gets voted innocent this time around for real. he's a good guy at heart and i do think he always knew #he was guilty. and etc etc etc i stop rambling now zzz love fuuta fr tho his character means a lot to me actually #actually idk there's still a lot to his character i feel. it's either from his perception still or yk. does he actually feel guilt? #but yeah imo he does. and i'd like to believe that too also bcs i get his character but i ofc can't still tell for sure! #blame shifting may still be a problem. he feels regretful for sure i believe but for what reason is a question still #tbh judging fuuta here is (for me) like judging me from a bit into the past so sorry if i'm really fired up about this. #i get he's just a fictional character but i really want to do this 'right' (but what is right tbh?) #in any case even with all the complications i think he's improving. sort of. and guilty is concerning for him if he YEAH. so innocent. #oops too much tags but i get it now <3 !! also btw i've never bullied/cyberbullied anyone just to be clear :] just to be clear