#myanalysis

[amysgiantbees]

The Christmas animation was so disrespectful to Wyll.

I want you to imagine how funny this would be if it was Astarion blushing at his abuser instead.

Like it's frustrating enough that Wyll had to go through rewrites and so seems to have the least amount of content as well as the most inconstant writing. However, unless this special was made over a year ago, which I doubt, there's no excuse for Wyll to still be characterized like this and for his creators to be doing him dirty while putting so much attention into everyone else. It's also so weird that it's Karlach who's egging him on. She's Mizora's No. 2 hater.

#bg3 #balders gate 3 #myanalysis #baldurs gate #bg3 animation #baulders gate wyll #bg3 wyll #wyll #wyll ravengard #dnd #bg3 astarion #baulders gate astarion #astarion #astarion ancunin #astarion bg3 #mizora bg3 #baldurs gate mizora #karlach #larian critical #larian pls #larian studios

[transphilza]

all he wanted was to build a place where he and his family could be safe and free he wanted to run around with his little brother and cause trouble he wanted to sing songs to his son and take him fishing but he was scared he was so so scared and he was in over his head and he was prideful and he was reckless and he lost everything and he watched his son tear down the walls they’d built together and he watched his friends be threatened and exiled and executed and he was so scared he was so AFRAID and he didn’t know what else to do all he knew was he needed some way to feel safe again and he hid away in a hole in the ground and decided it wasn’t worth it and hoped and hoped that if he was bad enough that it wouldn’t hurt his family when he was gone but he was never bad he was never bad and they just wanted him around but he could never believe that and he ran and he hid and he lashed out and cried all on his own and then he built himself a room to die in and he died in it. Im gonna be sick.

#okay. okay Now i sleep. Bye #mental illinois💔 #myanalysis

[ohgaylor]

IT MUST BE EXHAUSTING (AN ANALYSIS)

Hi. Taylor’s the problem. And she knows it. (affectionate)

All right friends. It’s time to dive into an analysis again. I’ve been reflecting on a lot of Midnights and Taylor’s ever-present self-deprecation this era and in my regular fashion, I had to make an extremely long-winded analysis post about a certain motif of hers that I’ve noticed has only grown more apparent this time around. and essentially that is her self-awareness toward her ever-ambiguous signaling in regard to her identity, and where she is positioned in the complicated and delicate journey of coming out, as well as the plethora of emotions that surround that for both herself and her fans and those of us who pick up on the queer coded subtext of her music and art.

to kick off this analysis, may I remind you of this beauty of a quote from Taylor’s 2018 reputation tour pride speech that prefaced Delicate?

I want to send my love and respect to everybody who in their journey and in their life hasn't yet felt comfortable enough to come out ... and may you do that on your own time and may we end up with a world where everyone can live and love equally and no one has to be afraid to say how they feel. When it comes to feelings and when it comes to love and searching for someone to spend your whole life with, it’s all just really really delicate.

That is quite possibly my favorite thing she’s ever said. and what inspired this tag.

Now I need to clarify up front — I am never insinuating a need or even desire for Taylor to come out. Because that’s not our place to say. If you’ve been around my blog long enough, I would hope that nuance would be apparent. I simply point out regular motifs and patterns within her art and how it correlates with queer-coded themes of closets, of almost coming out, of outright queer coding, of rainbows, of keeping a love secret and safe, and on and on and on. The signs are there if you know what to look for (re: “I gave so many signs”) and that’s what I explore on my blog. The point is, I will never demand she come out. But I will stand with her in this complex journey she appears to be on. It’s entirely her journey and however she wishes to navigate that is hers to decide.

but that doesn’t detract from the reality that for those of us who see this beautiful queer subtext of her art and music and visuals and work and self, the ambiguity and constant back-and-forth when it comes to her identity (and the idea of coming out) can in fact be a lot to try and process and understand and ultimately to reconcile as we root for her. Trying to understand where she stands is much like chasing a moving target. (not that she owes any explanation to us, because again, she doesn’t.) her art and creativity are her place of expression and catharsis. however, watching her navigate these complexities and trying to root for her in this sometimes messy space is also, dare I say, exhausting.

hence, the title and general theme of this analysis.

so let’s begin.

First, we have this verse in Anti-Hero which is the perfect setup to illustrate this specific motif,

I should not be left to my own devices They come with prices and vices I end up in crises Tale as old as time

This is essentially the thesis of Taylor’s message, the feeling that her own judgement and actions might be the very cause for certain crises she finds herself in, however enticing those vices and choices may be. In choosing to straddle a glass-closeted lifestyle as an artist at her status and level of fame, all the while heavily queer-coding to her (receptive) audiences, only to be seen by most others as the hallmark of straight women as per her highly publicized bearding, juggling this all can be overwhelming. But it’s also a space that she has essentially curated and perpetuated herself.

An anti-hero is a central character in a narrative who conspicuously lacks heroic, moral qualities:

Although antiheroes may sometimes perform actions that are morally correct, it is not always for the right reasons, often acting primarily out of self-interest or in ways that defy conventional ethical codes.

Identifying herself as the anti-hero in this sense comes as a candid confession, as though she is admitting that maybe she is driven by self-interest. (which again, she is entitled to as we all are in our own lives.) (re: the jokes weren’t funny, I took the money, my friends at home don’t know what to say) Alternatively, and perhaps additionally, acting out of self-interest in this context may mean concealment of parts of her identity for the sake of self-preservation. The nuances behind why she hasn’t chosen to come out are at play here and I doubt any of us can fully comprehend what that is exactly.

I never had the courage of my convictions, as long as danger is near

Pouring out my heart to a stranger but I didn’t pour the whiskey

Combat, I'm ready for combat. I say I don't want that, but what if I do? 'Cause cruelty wins in the movies. I've got a hundred thrown-out speeches I almost said to you … Dark side, I search for your dark side. But what if I'm alright, right, right, right here?

You can easily grasp the intense oscillation as she goes back and forth between these decisions while juggling a myriad of reasons and factors, all of which are incredibly weighted. She knows it’s exhausting for us because it’s that much more exhausting for herself.

So, she elects to pursue a route all too familiar to closeted individuals in the public eye, one of bearding and concealing their identity.

I had some tricks up my sleeve … Perched in the dark, telling all the rich folks anything they wanna hear, like it could be love, I could be the way forward, only if they pay for it … the skeletons in both our closets plotted hard to fuck this up

I took the money. My friends from home don't know what to say.

The cost at which this lifestyle comes is worthy of an analysis all on its own. But Taylor seems to be indicating that she has found safety and security in her self-made cages and closets of sorts.

I prefer hiding in plain sight

‘Cause shade never made anybody less gay

If the shoe fits, walk in it 'til your high heels break

My town was a wasteland, full of cages, full of fences*, pageant queens and big pretenders. But for some, it was paradise.

In the darkest little paradise

(also, note the *fences. I’ll come back to that later.)

She brings focus to the fact that her town was full of cages and fences, which initially may carry a negative connotation. But here’s where she turns it around and says that for some, it was place of paradise, that the self-made cages brought security and freedom. That the idea of “forever” is in fact the sweetest con. That the good life she was hustling for through the tricks she had up her sleeve is within grasp. That this could be the way forward. Tell me that doesn’t scream a queer-coded experience?

But knowing Taylor and the complicated nature of this deeply personal topic, there is also a level of remorse regarding the said-cages and choices that had put her in crisis.

I cut off my nose just to spite my face, then hate my reflection for years and years

I’ve got a hundred thrown out speeches I almost said to you

I’d pay if you’d just know me

Now, despite the way she has managed to remain glass-closeted, a large subset of her fans and the general public completely miss what she is signaling in regard to her queerness. (re: “I gave so many signs / you didn’t even see the signs”) but it appears she is feeling some remorse for the devices she’s used and the way she’s navigated things because she knows that she’ll be the one paying for it.

So again, Taylor fully acknowledges she’s the problem. She endlessly dances around the topic, sometimes to an extreme (re: “bent the truth too far tonight,” Bettygate and specifying a male perspective despite widespread interpretation of the alternative; similar thing with Lavendergate, etc etc) She writes from “male perspectives” so as to have a way to write female pronouns. She uses pseudonyms for similar motives. She equates herself with gay pride and places herself adjacent to the community repeatedly, and dances in Gaylor Park and rainbow kaleidoscopes. She dresses in rainbow attire and gives speeches emphasizing the delicacy of coming out and on and on, all while also remaining straight-passing. It’s complicated and messy and indeed exhausting.

sending signals to be double-crossed

I’ll stare directly at the sun but never in the mirror. It must be exhausting always rooting for the anti-hero

no doubt these devices and choices have come at a cost. first, the personal cost of remaining closeted (or in the very least, glass closeted) by her own making. The nature by which she has driven her career, of “taking the money” and pursuing a career (and by extension, following heteronormative cultural standards of remaining closeted), all point to the self-made cages she twists in.

recall the Delicate pride speech…

I want to send my love and respect to everybody who in their journey and in their life hasn't yet felt comfortable enough to come out ... and may you do that on your own time

That is a major theme for her. The idea that through a closeted state, certain freedoms can coexist.

We know Taylor has made a point to emphasize the comfort she has found in keeping elements of her life to herself post her apocalyptic summer. And the way she has largely receded her personal life from the public eye is telling. In an effort to protect the “real stuff”, she is withholding from others and has found safety in that.

Privacy sign on the door and on my page and on the whole world, romance is not dead if you keep it just yours.

She knows it’s not always a world that some would choose to be a part of. She describes it as a wasteland, likely desolate, harkening back to cowboy like me. A place where hustling for the good life, perching in the dark as con artists (or pageant queens and big pretenders) and telling all the rich folks anything they want to hear like “it could be love” is all too familiar.

It’s a painful dichotomy she fully explores in The Archer, recognizing that maybe it’s her lot in life to straddle these lines of staying where she is, perched in the dark, while wanting to step into the daylight and let it go.

and that’s where the second cost comes in — in how those of us who see her for what she is signaling herself to be, are ultimately left to ourselves to make sense of it.

It’s the same kind of essence of this fantastic analysis regarding coney island and her apology of not making us certain subsets of her fans and communities her centerfold.

Being left to her own devices, she has ultimately crafted a duplicitous persona, of which she has spoken about specifically when discussing mirrorball…

Everybody else feels like they have to be on for certain people. You have to be different versions of yourself for different people. Different versions at work, different versions around friends, different versions of yourself around different friends. Different version of yourself around family. Everybody has to be duplicitous, or feels that they have to in some ways, be duplicitous. And that’s part of the human experience, but it’s also exhausting. You kind of learn that every one of us has the ability to become a shape-shifter. But what does that do to us?

Is it self-preservation? Or self-made self-destruction? (re: “they told me all of my cages were mental” “what a shame she’s fucked in the head” “lost in the labyrinth of my mind”)

Among the various anxieties that plague her in regard to this subject, Taylor makes one fear very clear. And that is for some inevitable day where we will leave her after we’ve had enough of “her scheming”.

'Cause they see right through me, they see right through me, they see right through. Can you see right through me?

I wake up screaming from dreaming One day I'll watch as you're leaving 'Cause you got tired of my scheming For the last time

These desperate prayers of a cursed man spilling out to you for free, but darling, darling, please, you wouldn't take my word for it if you knew who was talking if you knew where I was walking

Will you forgive my soul when you're too wise to trust me and too old to care?

She will get as close as she can to the topic, (“Gay pride… everything that makes me me!” to name just one) only to pull back or leave it ambiguous and devoid of clarity…

I'll stare directly at the sun but never in the mirror

And I cut off my nose just to spite my face Then I hate my reflection for years and years

…only to feel guilt for skirting around the topic…

You said I was freeloading … I bent the truth too far tonight, I was dancing around, dancing around it … Your picket fence is sharp as knives, I was dancing around, dancing around it

This to me is the a significant price that comes from her being left to her own devices. Yes, there is freedom that comes from closeting/bearding. But glass closeting brings a more painful mess of emotions for both the closet-er and those seeing it for what it is. This is what she addresses in Anti-Hero with painful clarity.

And sometimes this can come at a painful cost. Take YNTCD for example. In this video, she positions herself within the queer community, dancing in Gaylor Park, and boldly declares herself an advocate for LGBTQIA rights.

But as we know, the video was met by many as out-of-touch (re: “freeloading”), performative and whatever else critics were spewing.

motion capture put me in a bad light. I replay my footsteps on each stepping stone, trying to find the one where I went wrong. writing letters addressed to the fire

Now for a detour.

I want to talk about the purple / blue / lavender glitter for a minute. Here, in the Directors on Directors interview, Taylor describes the glitter as being a metaphor for herself...

It’s supposed to be a metaphor for like, I bleed glitter, I’m not normal, there’s something wrong with me, I’m not a person, I don’t belong, I don’t fit in anywhere.

Recall how I said chasing a moving target?

Let’s talk about the significance of this scene and a handful of others in terms of the lavender glitter.

[For some queer context regarding glitter]

I’d first like to point out Hayley Kiyoko’s purple glitter jacket above, from the YNTCD video. This is Hayley Kiyoko we’re talking about. The proclaimed Lesbian Jesus. And in this moment, while she is wearing the purple glitter jacket, she is aiming an arrow at a target, signifying The Archer. This moment is key.

And then you have the Miss Americana documentary, wherein Taylor explicitly equates herself with gay pride, while talking about the Me! music video.

It’s a line of dialogue that screams at me with such intensity. Irrefutable. As a film editor, I know that every line in a film is deliberately placed and thought out and meticulously addressed. And therefore we can trust that Taylor intended for this line to make it into the film. I can tell that surrounding dialogue is seemingly trimmed and crafted in a delicate way. And part of that is the very direct statement that “Gay pride…everything that makes me, me!”

And it’s within this music video that we again witness a massive “ME!” literally jumping out at us on screen, in none other than purple glitter.

A handful of others could sense that the conclusion of Miss Americana felt as thought it was headed in a different direction than the one it ultimately took. And that for whatever reason, Taylor’s political advocacy took center stage while a deeper analysis regarding her LGBTQIA advocacy did not.

Cut back to the Anti-Hero music video where we get The Archer aiming right for Taylor, and striking her, causing her to bleed, yet again, purple glitter.

Pierced through the heart but never killed… did you hear my covert narcissism I disguise as altruism, like some kind of congressman

My covert (secret) narcissism (ME!) I disguise as altruism like some kind of congressman (the political turn and advocacy present in Miss Americana)

In other words, covering up who she is (“gay pride… everything that makes me me!”) under the guise of a film almost exclusively focused on her journey of discovering her political (“Vote for me for everything” pin) activist voice. And what scene depicts this with near precision???

this one.

motion capture put me in a bad light. I replay my footsteps on each stepping stone, trying to find the one where I went wrong. writing letters addressed to the fire

'cause cruelty wins in the movies, I've got a hundred thrown-out speeches I almost said to you

The subsequent look on her face of absentminded agony says it all. She knows the confusion that comes from rooting for her as (especially if she is seen as an ally who maybe crosses one too many lines if presumably as straight.)

The inner-turmoil on display for us in The Archer has transformed into a tone all too exhausted in its own right within Anti-Hero. She knows we’re tired. She’s tired too. In a self-deprecating jab, she admits that she is the problem and she knows that everybody ultimately agrees with her on this. Shielded within a pop anthem, her vulnerability is on display. And so, in Dear Reader, with equal parts desperation as well as wit, she concludes…

You should find another guiding light, guiding light. But I shine so bright.

And so it is ultimately within this utterly messy, exhausting, complicated, ever-changing and nuanced journey that Taylor reaches out to those of us who do in fact see through her and who ultimately simply see her, that she asks us in all sincerity…

Who could stay? Who could stay? Who could stay? You could stay.

And I, for one, will stay.

[enjoy my other analyses here]

#myanalysis #mine #anti hero #analysis #how duplicitous of her #taylor’s authenticity problem #this is as convoluted and complex as the issue itself and I am just going to leave it at that because it’s 2am and I’m crying over glitter #enjooooooooyyy #for anyone who survived the #lover era #and the #reputation #era #and made it out alive this one’s for yooou #glitter motif #gaylor #taylor swift #anti-hero #yntcd mv #because coming out is in fact a very delicate thing #closets #taylor honey your gay is loud again #the archer #high infidelity #midnights #dear reader #pride speech

[jorisjurgen]

The Crepin-Lore Manifesto.

Part 3: Painful History

[PART 1]

[PART 2]

So, was Kerubim Crepin a good brother?

A bad brother?

For Atcham, it doesn't seem like his vendetta is due to being mistreated by Kerubim. It's not even subtext.

He's perfectly aware he's just using Kerubim to have someone to blame.

But it doesn't necessarily mean that Kerubim wasn't a bad brother.

As we've seen in The Wheel Of Fate... At the time of their childhood, he hated Atcham, viciously.

Or, he was scared of being othered, like him.

My personal pet theory, is that Atcham couldn't take life at the orphan temple anymore, being bullied for his differences.

Kerubim watched, and did nothing about any of this. They were just children, after all.

If Kerubim suffered so much from spending a single day in his brother's shoes, is it really that hard to imagine what Atcham's life was like?

Atcham lost his family too, just like Kerubim.

Nobody ever helped him. And in the end, he was probably treated as if it was his own fault, that he was mistreated.

This sort of thing would fit in, with his characterization.

He's not a bad person, just embittered by his life.

Even as an adult, he's at best treated like an ugly, neurotic freak. Despite his status as a terrifying assassin, he is not respected, just feared.

And being so old, he rightfully has no reason to believe that the world is better than that. Atcham doesn't have anyone in his corner.

And with how Kerubim, and life itself, seem to treat him, I don't blame him.

But what does Kerubim actually think about Atcham?

Because... things aren't so cut-and-dry.

Say - which character related to Kerubim looks unlike most people - enough to, perhaps, be bullied for it - and has lost their parents?

...Yeah. You know what I'm insinuating.

Loving two Black Sheep, and Parallels

...One of the things I never addressed in the last post, is the fact that besides guilt borne of thinking he took Julith's life...

Kerubim carries guilt for Atcham, too. Despite the way he often talks about him, he feels protective of his little brother.

Even the fact that he made sure that Joris wouldn't have issues with his body like how Atcham had, saying that he himself is just some guy, while Joris is special, says a lot.

Seeing an orphan, who was sure to take the brunt of that hatred upon himself if anyone knew his mother was Julith, and who looked so different from others...

How could he not think they were similar? How could he ever not want to protect him?

When Kerubim is being vulnerable, all the insults he has for Atcham dissipate.

I like to think that both Indie and Atcham were brothers that had ruined his life, yet made it worth living.

But in the end, all that's left is, well, the knowledge that he can't fix this, and the desire to, at the very least, have Joris by his side.

...The only reason Atcham ever listened to Joris was their similarity, as well as Joris's age and convictions.

But the only reason he gave family and hope a second chance - is someone finally stepping in to protect him.

And, of all the things Kerubim ever said about Atcham, only this scene really matters.

Aaaand, this draws my insane, three-part compilation of esoterically connected infodumping about the most insane family of Krosmoz to a close. Can you tell I wrote 2 giant character study fics about them yet? Can you feel that I have like 30 wip ideas in my head still?

This is just my thoughts about Atcham and Kerubim, so you know that thoughts about Joris buzz in my brain like bees - especially considering ecaflip demigods keep their memories, and what it means for this trio's relationship. Maybe one day I'll write a post about that too, but that day is NOT today.

These three love each other so much, and I hope I could make you understand what I see in them, just a little bit, after reading this.

#krosmoz #dofus #atcham crepin #kerubim crepin #kerub crespin #joris jurgen #myanalysis #ro.txt #I am insane and diseased. bless. #wakfu

[joex92]

#IFTTT #FacebookPages #update #post

[fabiolajyx]

This dance is GOLD

I have watched this dance more than I can count and I feel like I know every details. We all know that Sidney and Charlotte didn’t do the dance like the other couples and I wanted to share with all of you everything that I've noticed with GIFs. I don't know if someone have already done it but here's my little analysis. 

Here, is the moment right after they do the thing where they bring their palms together. If you look at the couple in the back we can see the lady’s arm going down and as the camera turns we can see all the men’s arms behind their back. While Charlotte and Sidney take each other's hand.

Their hands. I swear this dance is all about their hands, you’ll see. So I have two or three other GIFs about their hands but this one is the most important. I think we all know that they are not supposed to be hand in hand and that’s why we have this shot. If you look at every other couples during the dance we can see that the men support the ladies right hand. So Sidney was supposed to give the back of his hand to Charlotte and not an opened hand. It shows how much Sidney wants to be intimate with Charlotte and open with her. I think it can be a metaphor of Sidney ready to open his heart to her.

I love this shot. Here we can see the intimacy of every couple by the space between their bodies. Let’s take a look to the couple in the back on the right with the lady wearing the red dress (kinda orange on my gif). There’s a lot of space between them which makes me think that they don’t know each other. So the personal space is not crossed. Now, let’s take a look to the couple right in the middle in the back with the lady wearing the white dress. I would say that they know each other but not in an intimate way. There’s space between them but not as big as the previous couple. We can say these two things for pretty much every couples except for one. Sidney and Charlotte. Where is their personal space? It looks like Sidney grabbed her and glued her to him. Also, their hands!

Sidney, stop! Okay, so I love this moment! We’re gonna take a look to the same couples as the previous GIF. Right on the left we have the couple who I presume don’t know each other. Do you see how the man holds the lady’s hands? He holds them very heigh and very close to her with outstretched arms. Again, personal space. And he puts his left arm behind his back. The other couple in the middle, the man holds the woman’s hands lower than the previous man and more close to him and puts his left arm behind his back. Now, Sidney and Charlotte. Sidney holds Charlotte’s hands to his stomach (so she can feels the butterflies in his stomach. Just kidding...?) So he holds her hands to his stomach and keeps them in his hands longer than the other men. Longer than he doesn’t have the time to put his left arm behind his back. Then when they take each other’s hands, Sidney makes a few steps towards Charlotte, while the other men stay put. Another proof of Sidney’s feelings for Charlotte. He is so ready to love her and to be loved by her during this dance.

Here’s two GIFs about their hands. Like I said, they are not supposed to take each other’s hands like that. If we look at the couples in the back, we see that the ladies hands are simply ON the men’s hands.

Okay, so you are going to hate me for this one. I hate myself for this one. So first, I love how they take each other’s hands here. See, their hands. Again. And now, for the part where you are going to hate me. Take a look right on the left in the corner... Yep. We see Eliza’s arrival... (we see her in the previous GIF too). Alright, let’s forget about that. To the next one!

Another ‘hands GIF’. We can perfectly see the other couple’s hands behind them and how the lady’s hand is. If you look closer, you can see Sidney and Charlotte bumping each other’s thumb while taking each other’s hands. I noticed it while making the GIF and thought it was cute. I also spotted Lord Babington on the right. It’s very quick.

Of course, I have to mention the famous “I'm-to-busy-staring-at-my-future-wife-to-distant-her-from-me-and-lead-her-into-the-last-spin-of-this-dance-so-I'll-put-her-hand-on-my-heart-instead-PS-leave-us-alone!” moment. This moment is so precious. And the way how the other couples moves before the spin it looks like Sidney and Charlotte have had stopped to ‘dance’ for awhile now.

The dance is over and Sidney is not ready to let go of Charlotte’s hands. Look how he looks at his empty hands. He looks so sad about it. Plus, look how he clenches his jaw! I don’t know if it’s a Theo thing or a Sidney thing but he did it a few times through the season and I’ve always had a thing for actors doing it but that’s another story.

And to finish, let’s talk about that moment. It’s right after Sidney notices Eliza. Do you see what he is doing with his hands? There's the obvious reason, he does it to simply thanks Charlotte for the dance. But we can see it in a different way. Sidney touched and hold Charlotte’s hands for the first time. For three or four minutes he was in his bubble with her. He couldn’t take his eyes and hands off her. For a few minutes it was just them with no one around. But now he is back to the reality with his ex in front of him. So to me, the way he holds his own hand, it is to hang on to what he just lived and felt. He wants to remember Charlotte’s touch in his hands forever because he’s afraid of what will come next with the return of his ex. Also, we can see it as the metaphor that we had earlier at the beginning of the dance when he takes Charlotte’s hand. Now it can be a metaphor of Sidney closing his heart because he is lost, confused and doesn’t want to be hurt again. Besides, we can see Charlotte doing pretty much the same thing. She touches her left fingers with her right hand. It is very similar to what Sidney is doing but yet so much different. While Sidney closes his entire hands, Charlotte touches only her fingers with her hands wide open. So I think for her, it’s a “pinch-me” kinda thing to remember Sidney’s touch on her hands. To remember what she felt while dancing with the man that she had just realized she was in love with.

Okay, so I’m done now. I’m sorry it was this long. I hope some of you were interested by all of this and by how I see this scene. Maybe I overthink too much but I love this show and Sidney and Charlotte so much! 

PS: Hands.

#Sanditon #Sidlotte #MyAnalysis #Sidney Parker #Charlotte Heywood #Sidney x Charlotte #Sanditon season 2 #Hands #Ball #Dance #Gold #English is not my first language #FabiolasSanditonAnalyses

[toothlesslove]

Random HTTYD3 Thoughts

Hiccup’s pure selflessness. Not a selfish bone in that skinny boy’s body. Yeah he’s creating a dragon utopia FOR dragons, and then he gives that up and let’s his best friend go so THEY can live free and safe forever in the hidden world.

(I’m in love with that boy)

Friendship vs. romantic love. Yeah, big controversy here. I value friendship so much and am suspicious of romantic love, especially when friendship is downplayed in its favor. Did HTTYD do that here? On some days, I think so, and sometimes I see through that and find the power of the story. There was a lot of romance in HTTYD3, but the friendship between Hiccup and Toothless was always displayed so strongly. The first day after HTTYD3 (back in Feb 2, early showing), I was so upset that Toothless left Hiccup for a love interest. I’m still wondering about that. But there’s no doubt in my mind that Hiccup and Toothless love each other deeply. They are the deepest friends I have ever imagined or seen in this world. And I won’t give that up lightly. Furthermore, we gained something very special in THW: We heard them say “I love you” to one another for the very first time. It’s official. They love each other. And that’s the kind of love that I believe in.

Hiccstrid wedding, Hiccstrid children, Night Fury/Light Fury babies. Everything we’ve headcanoned for years is true.

Hiccup still a beat-up dweeb as chief. HTTYD2 Hiccup had it easy. HTTYD3 Hiccup, now that he’s technically the number one boss, has everyone putting him down as if to remind him that he’s not a natural at this. Imagine yourself as a villager -- all your life the chief’s son was a laughing stock, you had a few years seeing him in a whole new light and actually admiring him and being grateful for the dragons he brought into your life -- and now he’s chief. He’s still as twingly as Hiccup always is. I think it must have been weird for the people of Berk and especially the kids to answer to Hiccup as their chief. That’s why all the butt-slapping, and beard-thrusting, and tossing-chief-Hiccup-into-the-air. It’s the way everyone’s coping with having the runt of the litter be your new Commander-in-Chief.

(Hiccup being thrown in the air by his people and feeling sick is one of my favorite scenes! Throw chief Hiccup!)

Badass raid to start the day, the most badass Night Fury with glowing dorsal spines, the most badass peacemaking demon with the hottest face EVER

Hiccup has grown incredibly handsome. yep. There’s one piece of hair I really like that sticks out of his head, and then he has those bright, explorative, and gentle eyes that makes his whole face beautiful. I like his face and his skinny waist. He feels so small to himself, but he’s such a badass to us. 

I got mad and sad and upliftingly overwhelmed with peace and turmoil with the separation scene. I saw this back in Feb 2, I felt like my world was ending the next day and that Toothless didn’t miss Hiccup enough and that they wouldn’t ever be together again. I felt that their separation was done wrong with the Light Fury love interest. I still have mixed feelings about it, but there’s no denying how this is incredibly strong storytelling to have them choose to separate and grow because of it. It’s an amazing storytelling choice all the way from Cressida in the books, and I’ve sort of anticipated it since then, though I didn’t know how serious it would be. How they say goodbye to each other is one of the most movingly emotional scenes, ever. Hiccup and Toothless said goodbye. Hiccup touched Toothless on the nose, that special touch, one last time. I really can’t believe it.

The wildness of Toothless and the maturity of Hiccup in the final reunion. Hiccup actually isn’t too much older in the last scene, since if you shave off his beard he still looks like our Hiccup. But he isn’t flying dragons. He’s taking the slow path ... sailing on a ship, which takes days instead of hours to travel to other lands. How slow ships must feel for Hiccup. But I think he got used to them. Astrid looks incredibly beautiful, with her curls -- and then the children! JUST then they sight Furies on an ice flow -- wow, it felt incredibly real to me, in that mist, like scenes from a nature show when we’re just squinting to see undisturbed nature living its beautiful life. The Night Fury notices the ship, the people -- he does more than notice, his ears perk up. I think, he is starting to remember that there’s something familiar on that ship. He flies to it -- and HOW CAN I TALK ABOUT HICCUP AND TOOTHLESS AT THE SAME TIME? Hiccup is so damn respectful of Toothless. He stands there so tentative yet warm, introducing himself to Toothless so carefully without ever assuming that his best bud remembers him. Hiccup treats Toothless like a DRAGON -- a being to utterly respect. And the LOVE that Hiccup feels -- you can feel it, too, the way his eyes try to hide how elated he feels that he is seeing Toothless for the first time in years. This is the FIRST TIME in years that Toothless has looked this wild ... this unsearchable ... that’s what I loved about Toothless. When we first met him, he was this captured beast with eyes full of meaning, a beast screaming in Hiccup’s face, this beast flying disjointedly and formidably into the misty forest. Toothless was wild, and you couldn’t always know what he was thinking with his face, though you ALWAYS knew that there were thoughts and intentions behind his eyes. I felt that HTTYD2 Toothless and ROB/DOB/RTTE Toothless had lost that wild mystery and intelligence, and that Toothless had been essentially domesticated. But his look on that ship returned a lot of what he had lost. Toothless’s face, as he pauses with his claws laced onto the bow of the ship, is neither aggressive nor welcoming, but there is yet both distance and warmth and curiosity in it. That’s the wonderful unspoken ambiguity with Toothless as an animal who cannot speak human language. We must interpret what he is saying. And I think at this moment, not even Toothless quite knows what to think as he stands there. I believe that he feels that someone he knows is on that ship, but he can’t quite be sure. Something is so very familiar, whether it’s the way the boy talks, his mannerisms, the eyes. Toothless has become unaccustomed to people, so just seeing a human being again is a lot for him. But he smells Hiccup -- and THAT’S IT! He’s totally certain that his friend has returned and he gives him the most crazily excitable welcome ever. Their love is displayed right there.

That’s all for now, folks. But the sum of the thoughts on HTTYD3 can fill a book. There’s so much in that movie left to analyze.

#httyd3 #httyd #how to train your dragon #httyd3 spoilers #how to train your dragon: the hidden world #myanalysis

[filmtrash]

CMBYN ANALYSIS POSTS

THE CMBYN MOOD / PLAYLIST 

Elio/Oliver Songs w/ analysis 

BREAKDOWN OF MY FAVOURITE SCENES

First Kiss

The End Scene

The Peach Scene 

I looked at him: I wanted one more kiss.

YOUR QUESTIONS ANSWERED

Convince me Oliver loved Elio as much as Elio loved Oliver 

The ending of the book

Sex Scenes 

The Postcard

An author sculpts statues while a director makes them move

Dream Sequence

Oliver needed company ft. @lilchalamet

Does Mum know?

10 times they said, ‘I love you’ without saying ‘I love you’

Why did Oliver go on to marry a woman?

Traitor (not really an analysis)

Why Elio doesn’t tell Oliver not to get married

Nosebleed Scene

Toilet Scene

Alfredo’s Story

The Blank Years

Elio’s relationships after Oliver

Oliver’s reaction to Elio and Marzia’s relationship

updated 02.08.18

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[wordsturnintostories]

Steve and Peggy

So, I rewatched all three Captain America films during the last five nights and I noticed something I haven’t read in any post so far, so I’ll quickly scribble it down for you guys.

So. Do you all remember that (heartbreaking) interview with Peggy Carter (full interview here) that Steve Rogers watches in the Smithsonian (Captain America: The Winter Soldier)?  Peggy says, "He saved over a thousand men, including the man who would...who would become my husband as it turned out. Even after he died, Steve was still changing my life." That last line is a great line. It says so much about her as a character and about her emotions towards Steve. Also, it depicts Steve’s influence on her life, even in major life decisions like marriage. Wow.

But now, let’s go and jump ahead to her funeral (Captain America: Civil War). The Avengers are under pressure, the NATO wants them to sign the Sokovia Accords that threaten to split up their team and Steve knows exactly what he wants. He knows the consequences to his decision and I think he’s a little afraid of getting back out of the team. In fact, he was quite lonely before he joined the Avengers Initiative (just look at the deleted scenes in The Avengers), not ready to just leave his past behind, a past full of people now dead. In Avengers: Age of Ultron, he sees Peggy in his vision and she says "Steve. The war is over. We can finally go home." I think that's what his heart wanted and still kind of hopes for the most (of course, he had realized that’s not possible, but I think he somehow keeps this wish for a happy ending to the war buried deep inside his heart), but from this post (I’m so sorry - I’ve been searching for almost an hour now, but I can’t find it. I’ll put it in when I do.), I gather and agree that Steve doesn’t see his home in a specific place, but in the people he lets into his life. So, he does see the Avengers as his family - he leads them, but he takes care of them too. Just look how naturally Steve gets up and joins Wanda in her room to comfort her. He doesn’t look uneasy getting into her personal space; he’s done this a couple of times before. Steve cares very much about his guys, about Tony and all the others (of course, Bucky is a different story still). So basically, Steve has to make a major life decision. Will he stay with his new family? Or will he do what in his heart feels right but what will undoubtedly hurt because there is separation on the horizon? And then Peggy dies and Steve sits in that church in London and Sharon Carter quotes her aunt Peggy on her wise words. And those wise words are exactly the words Steve needs to hear.

Let’s imagine Steve has to do an interview about Peggy, because the American and British government decided to honor her and her achievements. Steve sits on a sofa, stiff, mind still in that church near the Thames. He feels the tears inside his heart. His voice is a little shaky, but he steadies it, just like when he practiced. He looks into the camera, a shy, nostalgic smile on his lips. "Even after she died, Peggy still changed my life."

#steverogers #peggycarter #lovethem #morebehindit #myanalysis

[detective-maggie-sawyer]

Body Language Analysis: Maggie Comforting Alex

Analysis request: I went back and was watching last week when Maggie held Alex while she broke down, do you have any thoughts about how Alex and Maggie acted in that moment? Like how Maggie watched Alex with the intensity she did, or even the small touches            

Why do you all want me to cry so much?

This one is a doozey-- both in length and in emotional toll, so please forgive me. I couldn’t find a part of the scene I wanted to analyze over any of the others, because Chy and Flo killed this scene, so I chose to do the entire scene.

As always, I am no expert in body language.  I just like researching different forms of non-verbal communication and applying it to sanvers scenes. Body language can be interpreted differently, so if what I pointed out here doesn’t align with what you think, that is completely okay! Interpret it however you want! Enjoy!

Here we go...

When Maggie first walks in, she looks genuinely surprised that Alex didn’t acknowledge her presence-- causing some alarm, considering anyone could have walked in. Immediately, Maggie is concerned and keeps constant eye on Alex’s body language, checking for any and all clues/signs as to what might be wrong.

Maggie is taking in all of Alex, scanning over Alex’s body position and body language. She noted that Alex is drinking. When Maggie asks “What’s wrong?” Alex doesn’t say anything. But most importantly, Alex doesn’t even look up. She is purposely trying to avoid eye contact with Maggie.

Very little eye contact: If someone is looking everywhere but you, they're probably not comfortable.

As relational human beings, we desire to see the people we love not hurting. So when we realize there is something causing them pain, we search for the reason as to give a solution and attempt to take the pain away.

So Maggie asks a question that could evoke less feelings but still could give her hints as to what is wrong. “How was your Dad’s first day?”  Maggie most likely correctly assumed that the way Alex was acting had to do with her family.

To this, there’s still no response from Alex but she downs her drink. And if you look closely, the action of chugging her drink pushes her eyes upward and she is forced to look somewhere except the ground. She purposely glances to her right to avoid eye contact with Maggie, once again.

Maggie responds by saying, “That good, huh?” because it’s obvious at this point Alex is upset with something involving her father. This may or may not be an effort to lighten the tension in the room.

Next, we see Maggie gently moving Alex’s leg so that she can sit closer to her. Maggie is trying to get to eye level with Alex here; in the hopes that the closer proximity and a more relaxed presence (sitting instead of standing) will help Alex respond more. Also, note that Alex putting her foot up on the stool could indicate a way of blocking or keeping Maggie from the situation. This could also just be the way Alex chose to sit.

Withdrawing or Blocking: If someone is in conversation, and they become uncomfortable with the person or the topic of conversation, they'll try to pull back or place objects between them and their partner. They might lean away, or adjust their chair so that they're not facing the person directly, or they might cross their arms to block their chest and/or cross their legs so that their knee is between them and the other person.

Maggie is watching Alex with a new intensity at this point. Doing her best to read her face without the eye contact she wants Alex to give her. When Alex makes a move towards the whiskey bottle, Maggie watches her. It’s when Alex takes a big breath to ground herself that Maggie knows she needs to stop Alex. Still Alex is avoiding eye contact. This sign from Alex shows Maggie that she is indeed more upset that letting on and Maggie knows drinking isn’t going to help the situation.

Alex lowers her chin in defeat when Maggie stops her from pouring another glass and she also lets out another breath. Maggie dips her head to try to get any sort of eye contact from Alex.

When Alex still doesn’t look up she reassures her that she is here for her, to support her however Alex will let her. “Hey, I’m here. Okay? You can tell me anything”. Maggie’s eyebrows lift showing a sign of curiosity and sympathy.

If you look close, Maggie right arm reaches out, probably touching Alex’s arm or leg in physical reassurance since Alex won’t make eye contact.

Now this is where my heart completely splits into two.

As Alex finally acknowledges the support Maggie has offered her, she nods, but she lowers her chin even further. The lowering of the head and the downward tilt indicate a form of shame.

Maggie needs Alex to know she truly means what she says and just wants Alex to look her in the eye so she says, “Hey, look at me.” as she gently raises Alex chin. This is the first time we see how defeated Alex is--she makes eye contact with Maggie and you can tell she is on the brink of breaking down.

When she looks at Maggie, her eyebrows are slightly pulled together, lips pressed together, her shoulders are hunched over, and even though her chin isn’t trembling it is pulled up in tension. Most of these emotions indicate hurt, sadness, and shame.

Maggie finally could see just how hurt Alex is and her response is to comfort Alex but still try to figure out what exactly happened. Maggie tilts her head and pulls her eyebrows together in curiosity.

Now that she has Alex’s eye contact, she asks her directly, “What happened with your Dad?”. Maggies eyes also show the utmost concern and you can see the sadness and pain she feels for Alex. Especially in regards to her left eye, you can see her eyelid drooping, which is a common microexpression symbolizing sadness.

Alex looks back down at the ground again once again, trying to protect herself, before closing her eyes as her chin trembles and her lips turn down in sadness. Her lips press together in a pout and she swallows trying to stop the tears from coming-- looking back up at Maggie.

She looks at Maggie and loses all control of her facial expressions. This is where you will see the most accurate representation of how Alex is feeling because microexpressions cannot be controlled and they easily leak despite trying to cover them up.

Now this is the most heartbreaking part. Alex doesn’t ONLY show sadness when she looks up at Maggie. When someone is expressing sadness, their eyebrows pull together but they usually raise upward. As you can see in the gifs above, Alex’s eyebrows are pulled together but PULLED DOWNWARD. This means that Alex is not only feeling sadness, but she is also feeling ANGER.

Anger expression:  eyebrows pulled down (especially in middle); wrinkled forehead

As soon as Maggie can finally read Alex’s expression, she reaches out; one hand reaching around to pull Alex in and the other reaching for her face, cradling it. We see three form of comforting actions from Maggie.

Head enveloping: protective and comforting

Comfort hug: Hugger holding tight or maybe just gently. Hugged person may well be holding tightly. Comforted person rests head on shoulder or breast. Comforting person leans head on head of other person, patting or stroking them.

Clinging hug: clinging or gripping at the person as a need for extended comfort.

Maggie stands up because it’s the closest she can get to Alex. It also helps because she has the balance to hold the weight of Alex.  Alex’s arm grabs Maggie’s shoulder and her other hand is holding Maggie’s elbow. She is trying to wrap herself into Maggie.

When Alex gives in and lets herself fully cry, she wraps her left arm around Maggie’s back. Literally gripping her shirt in an attempt to hold herself up.

In this last gif, you can see that Alex lets her full weight fall into Maggie because Maggie falls back slightly. Maggie’s face shows sadness and she pushes her eyes shut, eyebrows drawn together in a show of empathy towards Alex. Seeing Alex like this obviously pains her.

In a last ditch effort to hide her shame, Alex tries to cover her face. Maggie opens her eyes with worry, while she reassures Alex by holding her closer and rubbing her back.

#supergirl analysis #maggie sawyer #alex danvers #sanvers #sanvers analysis #supergirl #supergirl meta #non-verbal communication #body language analysis #myanalysis #keep #//this hurt so bad writing #Im going to need a drink later

[amysgiantbees]

I just find it strange that the developers chose to rewrite Wyll. I love new Wyll I think he's fantastic and I don't necessarily want the previous version. But I find it bizarre that there was somehow so much negative feedback about old Wyll that they risked completely rewriting him.

Now I love all the companions. This is not Dragon Age Orgins where I debate recruiting Ogrun every time. But I just find it strange that the reason given was Wyll's negative feedback when most of the other characters have been unpopular too. Like Lae'zel is infamously unlikable to a great many people.

People love to bully Gale and there's even lines in game that call him pathetic. The DEV's in the IGN interview even agreed that Gale killing himself can be a good ending, " I really liked Gale setting off the bomb with the brain, and actually that felt like the right ending to me.

AS: In many ways it is, yeah." Which feels problematic to say the least, like I get supporting player choices but suicide is never the "right" way to do things.

Or even I'm pretty sure I remember Neil Newbon talking about how he was sure a lot of players had killed Astarion permanently in their playthroughs.

Then there are people being absolute freaks on the internet about Halsin all because he's polyamorous.

Like these characters are wildly popular too but they certainly have their haters. So why did they lack such confidence with Wyll? The best source I could find on early access Wyll is this article https://gamerant.com/baldurs-gate-3-wyll-early-access-story-change-karlach-explained/. It says that this change was made to make his story stronger, make him more unique, and give him more complicated emotional ties. Unless he was really basic before they did not accomplish this. He has less content so his story lacks the depth the other's do. It's also inconsistent, with you being able to put him off being a duke by telling him he'll be too power hungry which he has never been. His emotional ties are rushed. He never really confronts his father, having the tadpole do most of the work and never hashing out his feelings beyond that he's fine.

It wasn't supposed to be this way. According to the article he was meant to have a dark side like Shadowheart "According to the panel, depending on whether players allow him to go through with killing Karlach, he will become a radically different companion instead of if she is recruited." Which would have been cool but if they didn't have enough time to do that maybe they should have tweaked what they had.

Plus, according to the article in early access he was "a straightforward hero who develops a violent side regarding his patron or goblins." This article too show's that his early approval matches current Wyll pretty well except for dealing with Aunty Ethel and more goblin hate https://fextralife.com/baldurs-gate-3-early-access-companions-guide-wyll/.

I just don't know I just find it so frustrating that it was the black main character they chose to tweak and ran out of time to complete his story and still haven't fixed it with a patch. And in the IGN interview the devs kind of sounded like there wouldn't be anymore patches and it's just frustrating. Wyll deserves just as much content as any one else.

#dnd #bg3 #balders gate 3 #baldurs gate #bg3 wyll #wyll #wyll ravengard #myanalysis #larian pls #larian critical #larian why #bg3 meta

[transphilza]

i love c!emeralds and what u need to understand about them is that just because phil is friendly doesn’t mean he knows anything about expressing positive emotion. techno is extremely blunt and he also is 10x better at expressing himself. mfer makes long winded speeches about repaying kindness and lays out his goals and intentions to people extremely clearly. and like yes he has his guard up most of the time but when he wants to say something about how he feels techno knows how to say it. phil on the other hand can speak in soft kind tones and try to act like he knows how to comfort people because he does genuinely want to help but he can’t bc he hasn’t processed an emotion in like 200 years

#u do not produce a son as averse to vulnerability as cwilbur if you know how to healthily deal with emotions #i have to disclaim all my cemeralds posts with I LOVE THEM!!!! so people won’t derail LOL #dream smp #emerald duo #myanalysis

[ohgaylor]

A few quotes from Taylor about love that I thought were worth sharing…

Taylor on Love Story, Billboard article (09/12/2008) —

[Love Story is] a love that you’ve got to hide because for whatever reason it wouldn’t go over well. I spun it in the direction of ‘Romeo and Juliet’; our parents are fighting. I relate to it more as a love that you cannot really elaborate on – a love that maybe society wouldn’t accept [or] maybe your friends wouldn’t accept.

Reputation Tour, Chicago Pride Speech —

I think a lot about how it’s very brave to be vulnerable about your feelings in any sense, in any situation, but it’s even more brave to be honest about your feelings and who you love when you know that it might be met with adversity from society.

2021 Pride Month tweet —

I want to take a moment to thank the courageous activists, advocates and allies for their dedication to fighting against discrimination and hatred. And as always, today I’m sending my respect and love to those bravely living out their truth, even when the world we live in still makes that hard to do. Who you love and how you identify shouldn’t put you in danger, leave you vulnerable or hold you back in life.

Taylor Swift on Lavender Haze —

And I guess theoretically when you’re in the lavender haze, you’ll do anything to stay there, and not let people bring you down off of that cloud and I think a lot of people have to deal with this now, not just like quote unquote “public figures” because we live in the era of social media and if the world finds out that you’re in love with somebody they’re gonna weigh in on it, like my relationship for 6 years we’ve had to dodge weird rumors, tabloid stuff and we just ignore it and so this song is sort of about the act of ignoring that stuff to protect the real stuff.

#especially today #because coming out is in fact a very delicate thing #also i want to add more to this #taylor swift #taylor honey your gay is loud again #analysis #myanalysis #pride speech #lavender haze #love story #mine #gaylor #the secrecy of it all

[jorisjurgen]

The Crepin-Lore Manifesto.

Part 1: The Background

It is the end of the semester, and I have assignments due, finals to get ready for... So, obviously, I wrote the longest trio of posts in my blog's entire history.

In this little (lol) character analysis/information compilation, I will try to show you that:

1. That something really indescribably weird/evil is going on with Kerubim Crepin and Atcham Crepin's history, because really, we don't know a lot about their childhood, but what we do know, doesn't paint a pretty picture.

2. They are very fascinating characters, especially Atcham, and their story is underappreciated, or entirely unknown in the greater fandom.

Besides that, I also to make some obscure info, from side-media, more accessible.

However, this part of the analysis will be about common misconceptions and background information that will inform the rest of the analysis.

"Are they really full-on brothers?"

When I was rewatching Wakfu last year, I asked this, since I hadn't really thought about it.

The answers I got were very... diverse, and more confusing than anything. Most wikis listed them as "brothers or half-brothers", which added to the confusion.

However, 3-4 rewatches of Dofus + getting deep into the franchise later, and I know the answer.

Yes. They are full brothers, without any ambiguity on the question.

They share both a father - God Ecaflip, and a mother - an unknown mortal woman who's last name was Crepin.

Atcham's full name is Atcham Crepin. He does not contest it, and Dardondakal has no reason to lie.

And, as a second, slightly more ambiguous piece of evidence, Kerubim implies here that he and Atcham come from a different litter than Ush. Litter being a word that describes a group of kittens born to the same mother, at the same time.

Because Kerubim talks of his past life in the Dofus MMO, we know that ecaflip demigods keep their memories of past lives, so it is his first-hand knowledge, and not something that was told to him.

[Dofus MMO - Quest: Du rire en barre / Laughing Matter]

(Both original and translated dialogue, for posterity.)

(So, yeah, cough-cough. Kerubim and Atcham are, pretty much, all but confirmed to be fraternal twins. Just like Flopin and Eleley.)

"Twins... Are you sure that God Ecaflip didn't just have multiple kids with one woman?"

This is certainly a possibility, especially with Atcham repeatedly calling Kerubim his older brother... Perhaps the litter line is more figurative.

However... It would be pretty out of character for Ecaflip, with the information we have from Wakfu Raiders.

...Listen, I knooow, It's a discontinued mobile game, but you have to understand, it's the only thing we have to judge Ecaflip's treatment of his lovers, ok?

The important thing is that he doesn't seem to care about them, after he's done. Neither does he seem to care about the demigods that result from his romantic exploits, when we look at his treatment of Yakusha, Atcham, and, yes, even Kerubim.

And even if he cared, he still wouldn't stick around. Mortals don't live long enough to get attached.

All of Ecaflip's love for Kerubim stems from one fact - he's entertaining to him.

His love is deep, but it's not parental. It doesn't depend on who his mother was, or if he's happy. It depends on the fact that Kerubim obeys him, serves him, is a good person and a hero, and takes any punishment or attention he gives him, while being fun to sometimes torture, test and play with.

Even if Ecaflip's treatment of him is horrifying, he can't help but be proud of it himself. Especially when this tough love had taught him some things.

But, despite the sugarcoating he applies to his feelings while raising Joris - because his son doesn't deserve the misfortune of knowing all that - it's pretty obvious that even though he loves Ecaflip back, not all of his feelings towards him are warm.

...But before any of that that, Kerubim was simply one of many orphan demigods without a home, a family, or a mother, about all of whom Ecaflip cared just as little.

It's pretty likely that he probably wouldn't even recall that woman's name.

"About the family - what about the time Kerubim said that he was the last Crepin in his family?"

Okay... Nobody would ask this. I am certainly THE only person on this planet who even cares. But, I do have an answer to this.

Anyway, here's a giant, seemingly-unrelated-at-first-glance tangent:

Kerubim Crepin, and the 30-40 instances of accidental Cluster B coding.

To preface this section, I am perfectly aware that it is a bit selfish, to shove my personal headcanons and interpretations of him having comorbid BPD and HPD, something that is entirely unintended by the writers, and simply my observation of his personality, into my analysis of lore post. And neither am I a psychologist.

However, even without these two headcanons, I cannot write this analysis without ever mentioning this - because I am going to be discussing his canonical, unhealthy behavior patterns, coping mechanisms, and emotional turmoil.

They all go unnamed, but they are present in the show, down to it's core. My headcanons are, at best, me putting a name to his struggles.

Kerubim Crepin struggles with being blind to other people's emotions, having very low cognitive empathy.

His emotions are intense to the point of dissociation. He often has wrong ideas of how close his relationships to people actually are.

Besides that, he's prone to impulsive behaviors that damage those already shaky relationships.

His defense mechanism is splitting, switching at a moment's notice between idealizing and devaluing someone.

It happens, in some ways, with pretty much everyone he loves.

And most importantly, Kerubim Crepin is terrified of being alone, of being abandoned.

His struggles are, no doubt, rooted fully in his childhood trauma, which I shall discuss in the next post. But until then, a very broad assessment of his mental health and personality issues is good to keep in mind.

Whether you agree with my headcanons or not - these are simply his character traits, which I had based said headcanons on - and, even without them, these facts are important facets to understanding him, no matter what you name them.

With this, I had finally established the foundation for the next part, where I will discuss the actual Childhood bits of his backstory, and get started on talking about Atcham.

...And yeah, the reason why he would say that he's the last Crepin, is because with how broken their relationship is - Atcham is dead to him, as much as he is dead to Atcham.

But where do all these issues, these struggles, and pains come from?

I will discuss that in the next part.

[PART 2]

#dofus #krosmoz #kerubim crepin #kerub crespin #atcham crepin #joris jurgen #myanalysis #ro.txt #ronik being mentally ill type posts #wakfu

[inhonoredglory]

"Not only is the friendship beneficial for both of them (they were each alone and they fulfilled themselves in each other), it was beneficial for the entire world. If anything, they owe it to the archipelago and the future of dragons and humans to stay together." I loved this! did you mean it?! could you elaborate on it pleeease? thanks!

So this is in response to this post and the reply by @kingofthewilderwest, referencing why Hiccup and Toothless had to separate and the implied selfishness on the part of Hiccup for hanging onto the friendship. Specifically, this is in response to a quote from Haddock’s reply:

“Can we actually call Hiccup’s relationship to Toothless through the years a selfish holding on? When so much of Hicctooth’s relationship has been sacrifice for one another, through and through and through?”

Hiccup and Toothless’ friendship is such a deep one precisely because it made both of them stronger and braver and better than they were before: Hiccup found his place in the world, found his confidence, found love and respect among his friends and family, found his identity and his mission in the world. Hiccup became brave and selfless enough to lose the love of his father in order to prove that dragons were not killers. He became a warrior in order to save his dragon and his tribe and father.

Toothless, through Hiccup’s confidence in him, found courage to fight the tyrant that had kept his fellow dragons under control. He saved his dragonkind, not only by doing this, but by proving that dragons are the loyal, wonderful creatures Hiccup believed them to be. Toothless became selfless enough not to look out for his own self-preservation, but to put himself in harm’s way in order to save Hiccup from the Kill Ring. His saving Hiccup from the fire proved to Stoick that dragons can love, and indeed, love deeply.

And it was these, the acts of both Hiccup and Toothless, that brought peace to the 300-year-war that raged on Berk against dragons. Thousands of lives, dragon and human, were saved by the simple but powerful expression of love between two individuals. (And when you think about it, that’s a really remarkable achievement.)

In the second film, we get the same theme: Hiccup and Toothless have created a world where humans and dragons live together. Drago believes that dragons can simply be controlled by wielding power over them and by taking command of the dragon alpha. It’s a pragmatic equation built on the belief that dragons have no love and no loyalty in them. He’s out to make a dragon army and to decimate tribes across the archipelago, using dragons as his henchmen. But what stops him? What stops this tyrant from destroying the world? The fact that Toothless is independent of the Alpha, he has free will, he has loyalty, he has choice. He is not beholden to the will of the Alpha, or by extension, Drago. Dragons cannot be used, they cannot be forced to do that which they hate.

Granted, it was hard for Toothless to evade the control of the Alpha, which shows how strong the biological drive is to listen to the Alpha’s command. But because Toothless’ love for Hiccup is so strong, it can and will overpower his other, deep biological instincts. In the final battle of the second film, it is again Toothless’ absolute trust in Hiccup that allows him to evade the Alpha’s hive mind, and his absolute ferocity in having Hiccup hurt again under his watch that empowered him to take on the Alpha and upturn the natural order of the species. It was Toothless’ command of the dragons that allowed them all the strength to fight the Bewilderbeast and protect not only their own free will but the lives of the Berkians (and by extension, all the peoples under threat by Drago).

In both films and in the series, we see again and again how association and comradeship with dragons makes for a better world: from the Riders (the next generation who will live loving dragons for who they are and what they can do), to Eret (changing his worldview entirely), to Mala (who gives dragons the respect they deserve as incredible, powerful beings), to the Wingmaidens (who have a symbiotic relationship to their dragons and their wellbeing). Hiccup’s message of how humans and dragons should work together has never created a worse world.

Even in the third film, it is Hiccup and Toothless’ absolute and undying love for one another that takes down the enemy that symbolizes the world: Hiccup, because of his love for Toothless, sacrificed himself to kill Grimmel, to save Toothless. Hiccup and the other riders continually saved dragons from trapper cages because they worked together with their dragons to fight them. The riders take down the enemy armada by joining forces with dragons. It is Hiccup’s association with Toothless and with dragons that allows Hiccup to innovate creatively to create a world that tries to accommodate both species––an unheard of notion among Vikings that is relevant to the very core of what tolerance means.

Hiccup and Toothless have only ever made each other’s lives better. They have both only ever made the world a better place. They have symbolized peace and equality to people everywhere, they have fought as one to defeat foes who believed only subordination or murder was possible between the species.

Hiccup, as a mediator between the human and dragon species, is in the perfect position to negotiate between the species, to understand what humans need to understand about dragons, and what dragons need to ally with humans. Hiccup is capable of talking to leaders and chiefs on the archipelago, showing them the power and splendor of the dragons by his side. Toothless is the leader capable of defending and leading dragonkind away from control by a dominating foe or a challenger Alpha. Because their enemies underestimate the bond between two individuals and the two species, Hiccup and Toothless have the advantage of them and have continually taken victory from them through the sheer expression of their love and belief in one another.

What makes Hiccup and Toothless special in the history of the world is how they are the individual representation of a larger goal. It’s a psychological fact that tolerance for foreign groups and immigrants increases by the sheer presence of those groups. Keeping dragons and humans together in some form keeps that existence alive in the world, allowing Hiccup and Toothless to develop their joint leadership into something that guides the entire world into peace and understanding. By putting a halt to that association, by giving in to the divide of the species believed by the world, Hiccup is essentially formalizing the idea that his efforts at peace are not enough, that his and Toothless’ association cannot help create a better world anymore. And while this is an admirable, humble realization (and one I would have loved to see better developed in THW), it really doesn’t come across that way in the HTTYD narrative. In the narrative, we see how much their friendship helps defeat vast armies and tyrannical foes, and how their bond has created a utopia where both species live (albeit somewhat uncomfortably, but really.. not irrecoverably).

So, I guess what I’m saying is that the love between Hiccup and Toothless has only ever been selfless and giving. And more than that, it has continually shown to be the catalyst of major societal and political change in their world. By their both becoming leaders to their respective groups, they are in the perfect position to further enact real change in the larger world, by preaching tolerance by example and demonstrating that a mutually-beneficial dragon-human alliance is more powerful than humans or dragons alone.

I’d like to note that in the books, Hiccup and the dragons remained together and at peace for most of Hiccup’s life because the dragons trusted Hiccup to be a friend of dragons, and to lead the archipelago in that friendly alliance. The separation happened towards the end of Hiccup’s life because, while dragons could trust Hiccup to lead the humans in friendship with dragons, they could not always trust who came after Hiccup. That is the difference in thematic I think is missing from the narrative in THW: that, yes, there are humans who will always be evil towards dragons, but it is Hiccup and his tribe who can be forces for change in their world right now, before they pass on to the next generation.

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