#my time it's already tonight his time

[manderleyfire]

BOYD CROWDER & AVA CROWDER in 'JUSTIFIED' (SEASON 2)

I lied for you taking that mining money. This is different, Ava. I guess me taking you in and building you up was a mistake. Just set you back to square one. That's not true. You took me in, and you healed me, Ava. You give me a reason to wake up in the morning. For that, I'll be eternally grateful.

#justifiededit #boyd crowder #ava crowder #boyd x ava #walton goggins #joelle carter #justified #justified fx #my southeastern babies my criminal kids my discount mcwexler!!!!!!! #it's the way she was already bearing his name long before taking him to her bed it's the way their bond sealed in blood #it's the way they both belong to harlan to their bones unlike raylan *whom they both love dearly and yet and YET* #it's the way 'you disrespect ava one more time i'm gonna come across this table' #it's the way he had to see her one more time even if it was from a distance #and the way it's all about devotion and obsession. and hunger for a place in the sun for love with teeth but make it ugly soft at the edges #and above all it's the way i'm forever registered in a rarepairhole!!!!!!!!!! #justified renaissance on tumblr dot com but no love for boydava??? i feel NO god in this chili's tonight #shitty things i do for love #also also mr goggins should tongue kiss his costars more often *wink wink at s2 fallout*

[virgothozul]

#Hi #idk why I got yelled at when I got home tonight #I should be patient and supportive and all #Bc honestly if I can’t be that what do I even bring to this household #Was just too tired. I guess clients are meant to make lame choices and ask for 1000+ versions of the same pointless detail. #Only a couple weeks of that and I’m bored already. Urgh it’s so silly. #I gotta be patient with : client. manager. and boss. each wanting their idea to win. #I was happily coming home. Then some shitty vibe poisoned the air now everyone feels bad. We are the stupidest thing istg #Wish yall a good time tho ! Anyways. Tags. #Wolfwood #nicholas d wolfwood #trigun #vashwood #Drew my soft star crossed lovers to snack on a bit of comfort

[buglaur]

i'm so excited for the new packs features i had to build something from scratch for the first time ever. can't wait to play with row houses omfggg

#its not done in the slightest just posting it for the sake of posting something #hi been a week or so lol #i've been in england #happy to be home but miss my family already buhhh #i'm fucking wrecked too i barely slept the whole time #i'm late for class but i need to go buy a red bull or i will pass out #hopefully will ctch up with simblr tonight

[skunkes]

if life is categorized by Before Loss and After Loss then I exist in the before but with a countdown to the after. and the countdown is always always present and debilitating. the loss will be debilitating too but i cant help myself. i will always suffer twice.

#i cant let go of it. i cant even enjoy good moments without thinking about how they'll just be memories one day #how they're already memories since moments pass so fast #everything is I'll Miss This and i already miss it and i cant believe once you're gone you're gone forever #and ill never ever see you again. and your shell is in the ground but where did the rest of you go? #should i look at your body one last time? on one hand itll be the last time i see you. #on the other hand it will be the last time i see you. #and the memory of you will die with me too. as if neither ever existed #it impacts me so much too bc i dont feel close to anybody really...and i dont make friends easily #so whats going to happen when the people who have always been there arent there anymore? #im going to be alone for so much of my life. #i will record your voice so im ready for when i cant hear it from the source while also knowing it wont be enough and one day #ill be wishing it lasted longer. it could be 12 hours long and ill want more. #how do you surpass this? it hasn't even happened. when it happens i don't know what ill do. considering my whole life has been #the timer. the countdown. hours and hours of anticipatory grief #and then ill be next. me. some of all thats left of you. it cant be true. #sorry. this gets worse every single year and its been going insane lately #id surprisingly been managing it well for months somehow ! it wouldnt cross my mind...and now its there again #like it accumulated and its all coming out right now. ive been crying for hrs tonight and last night #one day his things will just be things. things ive made and given him will be in my hands again. #talkys #i want to go hug my dad but then ill just cry over how one day i wont be able to....! how do i store it? how do i save it? #how do i preserve it forever....even as i take my own last breath.... #i cant believe im the only one of me. and my dad is the only one of him. #i wouldnt want to be reborn as anyone else. i cant believe one day i wont get to draw or eat or be comfy in bed anymore. #i cant take it !! im so scared. ill be scared until the end. and you wont be there to hold my hand. im going to be alone. #and none of those years of grief and joy and memories will matter. #i wonder if it would help to tell him about this. i need something to hold onto for when it happens. anything. but i also know it'll make i #hurt more; obviously. just another piece of him that'll be gone one day

[taming-bats]

wait....

Does anyone else know about the destruction of Krypton? Does Clark ever tell? Is it discovered? Does he even know?

Does he hold the greiveing of an entire planet on his shoulders? As Well as the need to keep this planet safe and together and a home to him? Ohhhh my god. Ohhh my god

Does he keep it like a secret? A whole planet, nestled close to his heart so no one else can look at it, no one else can question it or taint it. Kal-El of Krypton. He is of Krypton as much as Krypton is his. His. An entire civilization living on with one man. God damn. Traditions he'll never know, a culture he never got to grow up with. Ohh my god

#Superheros are good actually #Sorry I'm sure this is common knowledge but I'm New Here and his backstop is truly hitting me #Like in My Adventures with Superman #He doesn't even know where he's From Yet. He doesn't know the tragedy that has already carved his path #Oh my god #I gotta lay down #Him keeping the Earth safe bc he can Do Something this time so by God will he Do Something #Bfbshaaaaaaaaaaa #I LOVE HIM #Clark Kent #Superman #my adventures with superman #Krypton #Don't take these as actual questions more like poetic ramblings #kal el #So many DC characters having their identity stripped from them before they can even realse the tragedy of it all #Before they even know what their identity is #Wow #Third eye opening tonight

[byanyan]

can't tell if it's just a good day or if this epiphany/shift in thinking is actually gonna last 🤔

#I have been out in public all day but I'm like. still doing good. I've had a really nice time actually. #I prioritized my comfort re: clothes & other sensory issues and like. decided to (try) to stop caring so much what anyone thinks of me? #and it's working?? wild. granted I think I was already on an upswing w the whole Depression thing but like. #idk. idk idk tmw ur like 'ok I'm probably autistic so I'm gonna just start accommodating myself' #and u suddenly start having a less miserable time lmfjajfkgsh #anyway yeah hi I'm alive I'm feeling p good & I'm?? gonna have a nice new laptop next week???? #it's uh. it's been a day lmao (but like in a GOOD way for once ajfkgsg) #I'm vibin. maybe I'll be vibin enough to write once I'm home. maybe I'll just read all night again. who knows??? not me!!!! #but I do think regardless of whether I write tonight or not I'll be back into things v soon 👀 #byan is rattling the bars of their kennel again & I've had more energy the last day or two sooooo 🤞 #━━ ˟ ⊰ ✰ ooc ⋮ don’t @ me. #personal cw

[ialwaysknewyouwerepunk]

.

#had a tough day today bc i had to meet up with our hr manager for a 'talk' about my absence #i was so nervous for it that i was drained before it even began #i asked a colleague of mine to be there #an older man who i trust with these things bc he's very calm but often knows what to say at the right time #and is very sensitive #he could tell i wasn't doing well before i told anyone #he's dealt with his own darkness as well so i know that's why i gravitate to him #the conversation went okay. i said what i wanted to say #the hr manager clearly wanted to see me /wanting/ to come back on monday lol #expecting a quick fix like they always do #she did take away my main points so i really hope i see the results. and i asked to come back without my manager breathing down my neck #i hope that gets respected too #then afterwards. after already almost crying a million times my colleague asked if i wanted to bike with him to this statue #that got placed here today bc it's a traveling thing to raise awareness for suicide #he supports that cause bc his son is a victim of suicide #and i could tell he was having a hard time but then he also actually said it #i was crying man. he doesnt know how deep it goes for me but #i think i gave him a bit of comfort being there. showing i understand #when i got home he texted me to thank me for going with him bc he couldn't have done it alone. #im gonna cry myself to sleep tonight #my posts

[uselessgaywhovian]

so how's everyone else's saturday night going

#the first time was in college #my poor choice of living in the 'party' apartment complex #that dude was like. practically non-verbally drunk. had to call an ambulance for him. #he eventually did wander his ass back to the correct apartment #which meant the cops broke up their party #rip #tonight i was just getting ready for bed #and i heard something thumping around #and thought it might be the neighborhood cats having an altercation #or maybe the neighborhood fox #which you would think would prevent people from letting their neighborhood cats run loose at night but no #sadly it was none of those things #it was a drunk guy #who was convinced that my house was actually his house #and was trying to let himself in #fortunately a neighbor had seen him wandering around in the street #and called the cops already #anyway i got myself one of those things that you jam under your doorknob #to brace your door so people can't get it open #10/10 best $40 i've spent #because my dumb ass forgot to lock the front door #but i did remember to put my brace up #and the dude did not get in #i should get a second one for my bedroom now that i'm paranoid #i should write the company a review

[alhaith4ms]

happy birthday to love of my life, alhaitham ε(´｡•᎑•`)っ 💕 he has my whooole heart and i wouldn't have it any other way (*ᴗ͈ˬᴗ͈)ꕤ*.ﾟi'll be pampering him with breakfast in bed and a nice and relaxing stay at home date <3

#mari's thoughts #alhaitham my beloved #it's already his birthday in my time zone! #absolute love of my life #will be dreaminh abt him tonight for sure <3

[kakusu-shipping]

Muta Moodboard!!!! Kitty cat cat cat cat kitty cat <3

#Emile's Edits #Muta #Selfship moodboard #Proship Selfship #Proselfship #I said I'd do Gabocha tonight but then my friend Sol got back to me with the transparent Muta's I asked them to do #And I just HAD to make a selfship moodboard with them INSTANTLY #'Who's your weirdest F/O?' The fat cat from The cat Returns for sure #He is JUST a cat. #But I love him SO much kitty kitty ever <3 #He's soooooooo cute my kitty kitty <3 #My S/I for this one is a BL manga artist who works near the crossroads who starts eating lunch at the table Muta sleeps at #And shares his lunch with Muta because Fat Cat my beloved <3 #And Muta gets a little more attached then he thought he would #This is pre-movie btw I'm the one who gives him the name Muta #I IMAGINE he eventually ends up in the cat kingdom for some reason and Muta (who's full time because His Cat at that point living with him) #and the Baron have to come save him #and that's where the romantic part of the self ship comes from #Muta already loves my S/I at this point but to me Muta is just my kitty kitty until he's twice my size and speaking full sentences #and saving my life <3 #At the end though Muta does decide to convince me it was all a dream and we return to normal owner/cat dynamic #A little bitter sweet but at least we're still together and had one kiss <3

[ashmp3]

i can’t even think about liking people or having crushes ew am i 15 anyway i am an overthinker with anxiety symptoms that have overwhelming effect on my body aka my stomach hurts i can’t eat and my already bad heart gets even worse palpitations like i’m not born to be a lover i can’t deal with all this. I did have as i said y/n moments yesterday but at what cost. i felt sick 🥱🥱🥱🥱 i should have a podcast where i whine about it but tags will suffice for now

#it was very funny i was out with 12 new ppl i met for the first time #there was my enemy there at one point but she’s kinda afraid of me so she didn’t even come to the table to say hi to other ppl lmfao #anyway . Just know i got special treatment from someone who I know already liked me a lot when we were younger #i didn’t know back then but they told my friend and like it was very cute puppy love and all that and yeah the yn moment was just them #doing something sweet for me even tho another girl asked them 5 minutes ago and they ignored her like . Sorry. u don’t have venus in libra #i suppose? #anyway i think i need to sabotage this one way or another or kill myself in the meantime we r going out for cocktails tonight #so. But yeah felt sick this is not normal #tt

[todayisafridaynight]

oh girls dont look im rambling in here

#spoilers #?? ig?? potential y8 spoilers??????? #snap chats #anyway its been recently revealed by hidenari ugaki that he hasn't heard word about reprising his role as majima yet #and like. part of me doesn't mind the possibility of majima not coming back to LaD8 but: #1.) ugaki sounded upset bout the fact he didnt hear back yet :( if it means he isn't worried anymore then please bring maji back #2.) if majima isn't in the game then im just curious as to what the fuck kiryu's purpose is going to be then #maybe he just hasnt gotten word yet so i dont wanna say its official hes not coming back #but LaD8's set to release two years from now- not even maybe a year and then some #so if he hasnt gotten word yet it is lookin a bit uhhh whats the word/phrase. idk Down To The Wire thats it I Think #im not saying majima and kiryu are stapled at the hip and if one of them is there the other one has to be #it's just... it's just so baffling having kiryu come back as a protagonist #this is less of a ramble about majima's potential return to the franchise and more about kiryu's return haha baited yall sorry #him coming back in LaD7 was already a bit of a stretch but i get it- i cant say im totally mad about it #if that would really be the last time we saw him then i wouldve been happy #but yeah im just.. really anticipating LaD8 now like whats he going to do in it if none of the past players are coming back #cause LBR if not even majima is making it when he's been beyond established as a fan favorite then there ain't hope for anyone else #ugh 2024 get here sooner please i just want to know what's going to happen #i also wanna see my boy ichi again. my sunshine my fellow my guy my pal my-- #ok thats all from me for tonight feel free to send me your opinions or somethin idk

[madigoround]

You know when you make a mistake and you’re like oh that one’s going to come back to bite me later for sure but it’s already done oopsie daisies

#there’s a new security guard at work like an older man probably 60 and when I was leaving he called me pretty and I was like oh that’s nice #of you and then he was like are you married and I was laughing cause like what am I a child bride and said no #and be said are you single and at this point I was like oh maybe he has a kid he wants to set me up with or something #but then he was like I’m single never married no kids when you gonna go out with me and I was joking like I don’t know hit me up #and then he was like how give me your number give me your number and bout to follow me out the building and I was laughing like cause I was #uncomfy but I didn’t know what else to do cause I was already in too deep and he was like I’m gonna call you tonight and I was like okay #and like honestly it would have been pretty funny to me had he not kept asking for my number like if it had just been banter but now I’m #like oh I’m definitely not interested in this old man but if I don’t answer his calls he could bring it up the next time I see him at work/ #in the building so oopsie maybe I shouldn’t have laughed or something hate that for me #if someone vaguely my age could hit on me that would be lovely tho

[frostysfrenzy]

I'm doing great thanks for asking

#saving hope #dawn bell #charlie harris #michelle nolden #michael shanks #cropping out the reason for the rock bottom moment because... uh... yeah. can't blame the man #anyway we need to talk about charlie harris.... thank you mr shanks. directing his own masterpiece #that was the scene that made me really look and say holy shit he can act #anyway i'm finishing my saving hope rewatch tonight already so close to crying probably will about 87 times #not ready. last 4 eps here I come. if i somehow don't make it it was great knowing you all #this show as it turns out is about 353 times harder to watch when you know how it ends #but at the same time it's so good i could sob for days #and in fact pretty well did the first time #why i did this to myself again some 14 months later is a mystery #but DAMN #anyway wish me luck

[starbuck]

guys, i forgot to tell you the dream i had last night about better call saul where there was this random guy who tried to pretend he was some long-lost relative of the Salamanca family to get into Lalo’s inner circle and kill him and Lalo caught on to this immediately, and chose to expose him by dismissing every single other person they were hanging out with except the assassin guy and Nacho as like. a power move? before calling him out on it, and it turned out that the guy’s real name was Frankford?? Which was VERY important to the story for some reason. And he and Lalo started fighting in fucking hand-to-hand combat, and Nacho was just sitting there at the table like “why am i here????”

#p sure Lalo was purposefully pretending to lose the fight to see if Nacho would intervene on his behalf #there was just A Lot Going On… #‘Frankford’ is still cracking me up… #like. i have NO clue where my brain got that name from but that was DEFINITELY what it was… #I was gonna say i haven’t had a bcs dream in a little bit but that’s not even true… #just a couple nights ago Lalo was in another dream of mine sitting ominously in the back of a room during a dance party #the twins were also in at least one of my dreams lately… i think there might have actually been two separate dreams #bc in one of them (i think another separate dream from last night) one of them got killed and it was just terrible #they’ve already been through that once - brain!!!!!! let them rest!!!!!!!!!!! #what will the Salamanca family be up to in my dreams tonight? only time will tell!! #i know that Tuco has featured in my dreams before but i don’t remember any of those specifically - so i feel like we’re due for another #Tuco appearance #SO LONG AS NOTHING BAD HAPPENS TO HIM #he has been through enough #that’s my request - we’ll see how it goes…

[starswallowingsea]

8, 22, 49 eichi and tsumugi!

i got the nine of cups, five of swords, and the nine of swords (fucking AGAIN) so uhm. angst i guess.

disclaimer i havent read most ! era stories with them i kinda just wrote what came to mind from what I do know but if anything doesnt match with canon. yeah.

word count: 546

It was so easy for Tsumugi to get caught up in Eichi’s plans. Eichi was addicting, like a drug slowly sapping the life from Tsumugi, but he made him feel oh so good. 

Tsumugi wasn’t sure what exactly brought them together. They couldn’t have been more opposite. Eichi was charismatic and born into a rich family and Tsumugi hid in the background and grew up attending tupperware parties for his mother. Eichi was beautiful beyond words and Tsumugi was painfully average. 

Eichi should have been out of his reach and yet…Tsumugi found himself sitting besides Eichi in the hospital, discussing plans for their restructuring of Yumenosaki, song lyrics and melodies, and their futures. 

Eichi was desperately in love with Wataru and Tsumugi knew this. He could never compete for that attention, but he hoped that maybe just for a moment he might be able to take Eichi’s full attention. Just once was all he asked for. 

Days turned to weeks turned to months and Tsumugi stuck with Eichi through it all, pulling all-nighters at the hospital and at the school to make sure things ran as smoothly as they could. Keito had asked if he was okay, though Keito and his seven cans of red bull didn’t have much room to talk. 

It seemed that every step Tsumugi tried to take forward, to just hold Eichi’s hand in his own and feel his warmth, Eichi took two steps away, towards a different future. 

So when the day came and fine as they knew it had been disbanded, Tsumugi couldn’t say he was entirely shocked. It had been a long time coming. As soon as the five eccentrics had their social executions on the stage then fine would be no more. There would be no use for the unit to exist in the way it had. 

Eichi said some platitudes which Tsumugi accepted with a smile on his face, just letting the words move in one ear and out the other. 

And then Eichi grabbed his hand. 

Oh god, Eichi grabbed his hand and was he squeezing it? Why would he-- 

“Are you okay, Tsumugi?” he sounded concerned. 

How should he answer? He can’t be honest, can he? Yeah, I’m just trying not to freak out because I’ve been longing for you to notice me like this just once let me be the only thing you think about. I’m not okay actually. I’m so hopelessly in love with you I don’t know what to do with myself. 

You’re like a drug and I can’t bear to stop taking my daily dose of you.

“I’m fine, Eichi-kun. Don’t worry about it.” 

He smiled and Eichi squeezed his hand one more time before dropping it. 

“I’m glad, my little bluebird.” 

Tsumugi fought to keep the warmth from his cheeks at the modification of his nickname. 

“Y-yeah…” 

He didn’t want to go. He desperately wanted to stay, to take one last deep breath of Eichi before they parted ways. 

Sure, he’d still see the other boy at school on his good days, and there was nothing in particular stopping him from seeing him in the hospital on his bad days, but it wouldn’t be the same. 

“Well, I’ll be seeing you around I suppose. Take care, Tsumugi.” 

“Take care, Eichi-kun.” 

#message in a bottle #ensemblestars #shay writes #enstars #ensemble stars #tsumugi aoba #eichi tenshouin #one sided eimugi #i am going to explain my choices a bit for this one #so i had the 9 of cups be eichi and the energy i feel like tsumugi would perceive him as having #very warm and inviting and intoxicating #the five of swords is that sense of betrayal and feeling unsure if everything is right #and the nine of swords was tsumugi's worries and ultimate inability to act on his feelings at all #anyway uhm. maybe not what you were expecting but the stupid nine of swords is haunting me tonight ig #came up in two different decks three times #i have another wip for oat for hiiteto but im struggling w that one #might do another redraw for it tmrw but i've already done two #i might just need to read some of tetora's wiki page or smth to get more of a feel for his character #okay im done rambling in here hope this was enjoyable and i got their dynamics right #idk much about mugi so im entirely guessing on his characterization but idk i also dont struggle with that most of the time so #i think im fine? maybe? you tell me.