#my shapeless blob blog

[lemonduckisnowawake]

I've been using tumblr wrong

#*unfollows everyone who isn't a beloved discord friend or someone who tricked me into mutualing them* #see here my biggest problem with social media is that i like the media part but get scared of the social part #also im keeping the people i got onto tumblr for but that's ALL #also i give up on reblogging #have now more than 400 drafts #would rather use this blog as my title says #i mean I'll still reblog but I'll probably mostly use this as a dump for all the stuff that i must get out #that doesn't really have any form #my shapeless blob blog #anyway this isn't me saying don't interact with me #it's just me going i give up on interacting with anyone since that isn't what I Do #anyway people say do whatever with your blog so that I shall

[selfaware-bungou-stray-dogs]

Hi! I recently discovered your blog and I absolutely love this unique concept (it fills my delulu brain) but I'm still confused about some things about your blog. What is SAGAU? Or the guiding light thing? Can you please explain all the lore of your content please if it isn't a bother to you?? Thanks

Hello!

Glad that you like my fics and ideas:)

It's okay, I will answer your questions, it's not a problem at all.

1. SAGAU stands for Self-Aware Genshin AU. In this AU characters from Genshin Impact are self-aware and see Player as Teyvat's Creator and worship them. Have a bunch of sub AUs. The most popular sub AU - Imposter AU, where Player, after being transported into Genshin Impact, are being hunted, because Genshin Impact characters think, that they are an imposter. Can include a real Imposter, who get into Teyvat before Player and are the one, who ordered to hunt them. Imposter AU have their own list of sub AUs.

Self-Aware BSD AU was inspired by SAGAU.

Also, I have some fics about Self-Aware BSD AU x SAGAU Imposter AU Crossover.

Crossover AU plot in a nutshell - One year ago, Imposter got into Teyvat, destroyed Celestia and pretended to be a Real Creator. Imposter have a good reputation, and almost everyone trust and worship them, except for few people. A year passed, and, one day, Reader were transported into Teyvat. Imposter ordered to capture Reader and brought Reader to them. Reader were hunted for a month, until they got caught. After a week of torture, Reader were almost executed, but, right before the deadly strike, they were transported back to the real world.

Reader returned severely traumatized, both physically and mentally. And, while Yosano's ability cured them, Reader still have nightmares, afraid of Mori, have panic attacks and don't want to tell anything about what they went through in Teyvat.

Another month passed, and Capitano, Harbinger from Teyvat, got into the real world, trying to re-capture Reader. After he was dealt with and interrogated, BSD Cast learned about what Reader have gone through.

BSD Cast decided to punish everyone, who have hurt Reader.

__________

2. Guiding Light is a nickname BSD Cast call Reader. Despite being mentioned in Yosano's entry for the first time, in AU's "lore" Dazai was the one, who came up with it.

Where it came from?

From two things.

1. Reader have a sort of an avatar in BSD World. A shapeless floating blob of light, called Little Light. Little Light is an embodiment of Reader's emotions. When Reader read light novels/manga, Little Light will follow after characters. During one part of Dazai's and Oda's "adventures" in "The day I picked up Dazai" novel, Little Light float before the duo, acting as a guiding light.

2. Reader like all characters and talked to them during emotional moments. Reader's words help BSD Cast, who feel empty/angry/lost feel better and realize, what they should do next, a.k.a. go to the real world to Reader.

Reader was called Guiding Light for the first time, when they cried with Dazai at the end of "Dark Era" novel.

#self-awarebsd #self-awareau

[yharnamcrow]

Yharnam blogs will be like “here is my profile picture of a shapeless black blob with no distinguishing features” and then interact with each other

Maybe to you, but I would argue that we can recognize each other perfectly well, please and thanks.

#rotomblr #pokemon irl #pokeblogging #//listen this made me wheeze on the train

[ghouljams]

oh that Anon who said you didn't write reader inserts, I will fight them for you, because your fics genuinely feel free form. Like I have read GN!readers where they use descriptions like petite and short even in m! Or Gn! Reader inserts. Especially when it comes to Soap. Like soap is 172 cm He is my height he ain't dwarfing me.

He might be able to trap me between those big strong meaty arms and making me stupid, but I don't have to tip toe to kiss the bastard. Yet every single reader insert fic I've read outside of a handful of really well written blogs has descriptions like "you stood on your tip toes to kiss him" or "he was easily twice your height" like bitch no. Like genuinely being technically a short man I can insert myself into the character of hush without thinking "damn the author has a very specific demographic and I ain't it."

Personally I prefer reader inserts that use nicknames because y/n, c/s, ECT. Just break the immersion of the story. Not to mention it helps create diversity in the reader characters which personally just makes it more interesting to read. Sorry I saw the anon and got frustrated. Your writing is fantastic. I hope you're doing well. There is definitely criticism to be had in a lot of reader insert fics, but coming up with minor background details and nicknames is just not it.

-Hot mess rambler Anon

Yes to everything you just said. I know I've had the height conversation a million times, I'm tall and petite reader inserts always take me out of the story. BUT ALSO I have read so many x reader fics where the reader is described as having long hair! Explicitly they talk about putting their hair up or wrapping it around their finger, couldn't be me I have very short hair! But no one goes after those authors for having character descriptions.

I try my hardest to write inclusively, I want people to be able to put themselves into the povs that I write. It's a learning experience, and sometimes I read old fic and think "wow I could have worded that differently to avoid the connotation that this reader has/is x". I'm by no means perfect in keeping my pov characters shapeless blobs, but I am trying.

It's exceptionally common in the COD fandom to give reader characters callsigns. It's common for characters to use nicknames/pet names in reader fics. And like you said it helps me to distinguish which au, and which pov character I/others are talking about.

I have said it before and I'll say it again, I'm open about what I write and I understand that it isn't for everyone. I'm an extensive tagger, and willing to tag things for people if asked. At the end of the day though, I'm writing for myself, and I'm not going to stop writing for myself the way that I enjoy writing when folks can easily block me or blacklist my tags if they don't like it.

#ghoul speaks #discourse #just gonna slap that on there real quick #this also gets into my personal beef with the way some people treat GN!readers #a GN!reader is not just a female reader using they/them pronouns #and also I don't want to be a petite little reader #I like being tall #I use “little” as a diminutive not a descriptor #feeling small is different from actually being small and it's a big difference #Also anon you are fueling my personal love for Hush #thank you for saying nice things to me :)

[robintherobiner]

INTRO POST (FINALLY)

Hello there! My name is Sputnik, i use they/he pronouns, i'm 14 years old, and this blog is mainly for me to ramble on about the batfamily (mainly the Robins)

Tags:

#sputnik speaks = random content, not about dc

#sputnik recs = daily batfamily fanfic recs

#sputnik sketches = haven't used this one yet, but if i start posting more fanart, it'll be under that

#T-Dawg AU = my drug dealer Tim au. dont question it, just accept it.

#alfreds apprentice = my maid Tim au. again, dont question it.

I suck at intro posts, i hate them, dont perceive me, i am a shapeless blob who meows and posts silly content. end post, hit send.

#intro post #introduction #introductory post #blog intro #batfamily #sputnik speaks

[brawl-bucket]

I posted 116 times in 2022

That's 110 more posts than 2021!

53 posts created (46%)

63 posts reblogged (54%)

Blogs I reblogged the most:

@broosepayne

@excessively-english-jd

@frostbittenbucky

@moondoposting

@fonulyn

I tagged 78 of my posts in 2022

Only 33% of my posts had no tags

#digital art - 34 posts

#fanart - 32 posts

#bruce wayne - 25 posts

#brawl's art - 24 posts

#batman - 22 posts

#batblob - 19 posts

#dc - 16 posts

#brawl’s art - 11 posts

#dick grayson - 5 posts

#batman 2022 - 5 posts

Longest Tag: 71 characters

#but i’ve only been active like 3 or 4 months so i’m happy with that lol

My Top Posts in 2022:

#5

I have funky-cape Batman on the brain

We’re gonna ignore that I lean on this shapeless blob of a man because Anatomy is hard and I Don’t Like It.

1,386 notes - Posted April 4, 2022

#4

Commissioner: Is he looking at me weird? He’s definitely looking at me weird.

Robin: nah he's just vibing

Commissioner:

Robin: he probably doesn't even know we're here tbh

1,779 notes - Posted April 7, 2022

#3

remember, as far as anyone knows, we're a nice, normal family.

1,787 notes - Posted May 16, 2022

#2

if things were a little (or a lot) different between Bruce and Jason

-

and what happened next:

See the full post

2,032 notes - Posted July 10, 2022

My #1 post of 2022

who is bruce when he's not being batman, if not a scared little boy coming home to a near-empty mansion, knowing that nothing is ever going to be the same.

3,354 notes - Posted July 24, 2022

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#tumblr2022 #year in review #my 2022 tumblr year in review #your tumblr year in review #Oh! How my art has changed #…and my posting schedule #I promise I’m not dead just busy with university

[skadi-gemini]

I posted 1,637 times in 2022

That's 1,617 more posts than 2021!

20 posts created (1%)

1,617 posts reblogged (99%)

Blogs I reblogged the most:

@scarlettaagni

@roguemonsterfucker

@spockvarietyhour

@reh-hateshumans

@literalnobody

I tagged 51 of my posts in 2022

#my art - 6 posts

#skadi-gemini - 4 posts

#snowandmonsters - 4 posts

#tumblr milestone - 3 posts

#obsidian and kitty - 3 posts

#gothic romance - 3 posts

#mine - 3 posts

#my ocs - 3 posts

#terato - 2 posts

#ao3 - 2 posts

Longest Tag: 105 characters

#i’d also have a lazy river but then a big ass pool that gradually slopes from a beach to a turquoise pool

My Top Posts in 2022:

#5

The Phantom of the Opera is having its final performance in 2023 in New York. I am SO upset I’ve never been able to go. And now I’ll NEVER be able to go!

It hurts my heart to imagine him singing “It’s over now, the music of the night!” and there being ACTUAL TEARS in the audience because it WILL BE OVER. Like, that has me crying today. I love this musical so much and it was one of those that was a gateway to Broadway musicals and my love for them. (Don’t get me started on Hamilton 🥹)

I’m just…devastated. Let me spread a virtual comfort hug to my fellow fans who could never afford to go.

12 notes - Posted September 30, 2022

#4

It was good to see Johnny Depp winning his case against Amber Heard. Her testimonies were all over the place and she did some horrific things to him. I hope he can now find peace and move on to start healing. It’s honestly shocking that there are people who blindly believed her when there wasn’t any evidence to support that she was the victim. The Me Too movement was something Heard took advantage of to push a narrative forward that made herself look good. I hope more victims of domestic violence will get the courage to step forward and seek justice. This will be the first and last post about this as I don’t want to clog it with this kind of stuff.

13 notes - Posted June 2, 2022

#3

My fan art for The Monster and the Butterfly by @theboarsbride on Ao3. I was looking at old gothic romance covers and was inspired to draw this.

I pictured Sophie walking a dark hall with only the light of a candelabra while the monstrous shadow of Edgar in the candlelight, his fingers long, spindly, and clawed like Dracula’s, reaching out to touch her. Her light, however, keeps him from touching her with his darkness. Sophie, unbeknownst to her, also has a shadow that follows in her wake, a shapeless blob created by her own self-doubts and melancholy. In this work I kept her a beacon in the darkness; that darkness not necessarily a bad thing as we’ve seen.

Even though the pointed shape beneath his arm looks like a beak, it’s really not, as it’s just his nose and below that, his chin. I do, however, liked how his silhouette came out Raven-like, harking back to the Edgar Allen Poe tales where he yearned for belonging; to feel like he matters to the world.

I ran out of room to spell “Butterfly”, so I drew one instead. This was drawn with charcoal and pencil, smudging with fingers to smooth out the shadows. Sophie sports a Gibson girl hairstyle and a dress with the silhouette of the area she lives in.

Thanks to @theboarsbride for creating such wonderful characters!

20 notes - Posted April 11, 2022

#2

The amount of TERFS coming out of the woodworks concerning trans athletes Lia Thomas is disheartening. I saw it become ugly in a Feminism group on Facebook. They won’t see it but I thank the owners of that page, Feminism News, for supporting Miss Thomas. People only care about woman’s sports when it’s news that there is a trans athlete competing.

Even with evidence of trans athletes having no proven “biological advantage” for having a “male body”, they continue on with their harmful narratives. There is a clear difference between sex and gender which many people need to educate themselves on. By taking part in this narrative, these people, almost all afab women themselves, are helping to promote the bullshit that people like J.K. Rowling spout. It’s harmful and doesn’t make you a good ally with the LGBT+ community.

Do better.

152 notes - Posted March 21, 2022

My #1 post of 2022

My first attempt at a Capybara! I was heavily inspired by @capydoodle ! Their cute Capybara’s give me a boost of seratonin every day!

I wanted this little guy to look like he was sunbathing in a flourishing spring field.

153 notes - Posted April 18, 2022

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#tumblr2022 #year in review #my 2022 tumblr year in review #your tumblr year in review

[pkmngreentree-longplay]

So, this is going to need a bit of explaining. I have no clue if this is the right website to post this sort of stuff, but I feel like this is the best way to archive it.

This blog is going to be an archive of a bootleg Pokémon game I played as a kid. I haven't had the original cartridge from all that time ago (I'll explain later on), but I lucked out and managed to track down a replacement and dumped the ROM data onto my computer so I can emulate it. This specific bootleg has fascinated me ever since I first laid eyes on it as a kid, so I'm very excited to potentially be archiving what might be a piece of lost media. Here's the title screen.

Yeah.

This is going to need a bit of backstory, so let's set the scene. My first interaction with this game was when I received the cartridge on my 13th birthday. My parents were always struggling financially, so they'd often go through bargain bins or leaf through yard sales to find stuff for cheap. I was a big Pokémon fan, so my guess is they thought it was a new game and wanted to surprise me. I don't have a picture of that cartridge, but it was nothing spectacular - a bare Game Boy cartridge with "Pokemon Green Tree" written on it with a sharpie.

I was excited - you'd be excited, too, if you just got your hands on a Pokémon game you didn't even know existed - and started. My memory is pretty vivid, but I don't remember many finer details - I mostly remember what made me stop playing.

I started the game, and it just cold cut to the interior of the player's house. No cutscene, no writing your name, just an abrupt cut to your house. I wandered around the town, found the game's equivalent to Professor Oak's lab, and got my starter. It was the fire one, some kind of large fish with a plume of fire coming out of its forehead. The rest of my playthrough was just me aimlessly wandering around - I remember the maps being really narrow and directionless. I defeated the first gym leader and found myself in some kind of desert. I distinctly remember the music cutting out, which started to freak me out. Finding a cave, I went in, and found this... indescribable thing. Not in a pretentious Lovecraftian way - I literally don't really know how to describe it. It looked like some kind of shapeless form, or blob, covered in long pipes that winded around. If I had to say what it reminded me of, my first guess would be a giant, anatomically incorrect human heart. I remember approaching it, and the screen faded out, before fading in to a panning shot of what looked like a field of crystals, each one with a distorted reflection in it. My description is overselling this experience - there wasn't really anything that would actually seriously upset anyone in there, but the visual of those stretched faces in the reflections was enough to get me to have a full-blown panic attack as a child, and I ended up hiding the cartridge somewhere in my mom's closet. I haven't seen the cartridge since, and chances are she sold the cartridge.

That was my first ever exposure to this bootleg. Nowadays, of course, with the power of the internet and a lack of better things to do, I decided to snoop around. The game, Pokémon Green Tree, is of course, a bootleg, coming from a Japanese company of ambiguous name, as all information about the game's copyright is simply changed to "Pokemon", as you can see on the title screen. This bootleg is, interestingly enough, a surprisingly sophisticated rom-hack of an existing Game Boy game that was never released outside of Japan.

The picture you're looking at is a fan translation of the original game. The name roughly translates to "Circle Beast", and it is commonly referred to by the game's surprisingly large cult following as "Ringbeasts", which is the name I'll be using because it sounds kind of cool. From what I can gather, Pokémon Green Tree is, for the first quarter of the game, unchanged from Ringbeasts outside of the name, the title screen, and a few text boxes changing "beasts" to "Pokemon". Apparently, ontop of that, another release of Green Tree has another change - inexplicably, in a few maps, there's just... crucifixes. No shit.

As far as I could find, this is the only difference between the 'updated' version and the one people are more familiar with, which is the one I'm currently emulating. No changed dialogue, no different designs... just random crosses scattered across the map. According to the people I could contact who've played this updated version, most of the changes were in the manual and box art, which contained many assorted religious anecdotes and references. Who would've figured? Apparently, these games were mostly sold in low-income Christian bookstores to stay under Nintendo and Game Freak's radar, and the updated version was made so the game would appear more fitting where they were sold - something similar to the fate of Menace Beach on the NES. The prospect of this is honestly kind of funny to me, given the amount of hatred the Christian community had towards this franchise around that time period. That, and the idea of there being an updated patch of a bootleg of a bootleg of Pokémon that just has giant crucifix-shaped mountains everywhere. Delightful!

That's all of the information I could gleam from my extensive investigation (IE a few Google searches). Hearing all this talk about the manual and the box art, I wish I actually owned either - the cartridge I got my hands on came loose. Just a blank cartridge. It isn't even green!

Getting back on-topic, Green Tree is unchanged from Ringbeasts outside of a few word and sprite changes, but from what I could gather, the game drastically changes near the middle. Nobody said anything specific - just rambling about how unexpectedly detailed and weird everything got after how cutesy the early game was. Unfortunately, I couldn't find any screenies of the later parts of the game, so I'm going in blind.

I'm really excited to see this game through. Ever since I found out the cartridge went missing, I've been itching to get my hands on it again, just to see what this weird bootleg has to offer. Here's hoping this stupid blog does its part in archiving it, because God damn, information about this thing is scarce.

I'll update the blog after I play for a while. Expect lots of screenshots!

#pokemon #pkmn #fakemon #unfiction #au #ars #alternate reality #alternate reality series #creepypasta #horrorbrew

[netegf]

hello! 17, 21, 23, 115? ☺️

hi bb!! 🥰💖 thank u for asking <33 i'll put some under the cut in case ppl don't want to see me blab on and on lmao

17. what's your favourite piece of clothing you own?

ooh i have this grey levi's denim jacket that's lined with fur that i really love <3 and this amazing oversized grey zip-up that makes me a shapeless blob lmao (i love it) - but other than those, i really like novelty t-shirts?? like stuff you'd get at a souvenir store, college merch, etc. - they make the BEST pj tops <3

21. last song you listened to?

everywhere by fleetwood mac 😇

23. how long have you had tumblr?

omg my first ever tumblr account i made when i was 12 or 13 and i've been trapped in this dungeon ever since 🫶🏼 my friends and i wanted to be tumblr girls soooo bad, we would blog about lana del rey and aesthetic 🤭 i had a warped tour phase shortly after it's so funny to think about hshshs

115. do you like mcdonald's?

YES i doooooo <3 sometimes i wish i was one of those people whose parents never let them have mcdonald's, but then... would i be me???? 😫🩷 i love fast food and one thing about me is, i LOVE a fountain drink so that mcdonald's coke.... i'm salivating thinking about it

#ask z #thanks for asking!!!

[thetiniestteaparty]

First post for this blog

I finally decided to make a blog specifically for my weight and body image stuff.  It’s all personal feelings and stuff and I don’t ever intend for my views of myself to mean anything towards other people.  People deserve to feel comfortable in their skin, no matter what size or weight, and all bodies, /all/ of them, are beautiful. Human variance is one of the most amazing parts of nature.  But.  Not me.  I feel that sentiment wholeheartedly for everyone but myself.  I have always, always been overweight, and there was not a time in my life where my weight wasn’t mentioned or at the forefront of any part of what I felt for myself. My mother taught me to comfort eat, taught me that love is shown through making food and sharing it with others, taught me that I have to finish my whole plate no matter how big, eat even if you don’t like the taste.  And then, when her weight weighed too much on her mind, she taught me to hate my weight. She taught me horrible diets and self-deprecation, she taught me that being fat or overweight was a crime that you paid for with each calorie you don’t eat. The curves program, weight watchers more points for if you eat less!  And her looking at me, after teaching me all these things, and poke at me. Don’t eat /so/ much, after teaching me to eat more. My clothes are too tight, always too tight, even if they just felt fine to me. Always buying me one or two sizes bigger than I actually wear, like she was trying to tell me how big I look.  Never once in my life have I ever felt small.  I want to be small.  I hate how much every urge I have tells me to eat. I hate how it’s an impulse for boredom, for comfort, for a good day and for a bad day, a sign of affection and the highlight of many different times of my life.  I hate my body so much.  I know it’s dysmorphia. I know.  But whenever I see myself, after thinking that maybe, /maybe/ I’m ok, I see a blob. I see a shapeless form. A mass.  I’ve gotten so much more heavy than I said I’d let myself get.  I’m 220 pounds. Possibly more.  I’m tired of dieting.  I don’t want to eat at all.  I don’t want this dependence and I don’t want this cellulite shit that coats me.  The last time I didn’t eat, I lost so much weight.  I was hungry all the time, and craved /so/ much. But I only drank water or zero cal drinks. I only ate a half sandwich and a handful of blueberries maybe a day.  I drank laxative teas.  And I dropped a lot of weight.  I dropped two clothing sizes.  And I just remember that even being so hungry, I was walking in and out of stores at a local strip mall and just feeling lovely. Because even if I wasn’t small enough, I could fit.  I’ve gained back 40+ pounds.  I remember when I ate again, I started out only eating such small things. My stomach had shrank, and I could only fit so much food in me, even if my brain wanted more.  But I binged. I ate so much I could feel the pain of my stomach stretching to accommodate. And I felt like a hideous monster.  And not a time has gone by that that feeling has gone away. IT’s only gotten worse. I have the clothes I bought when I was smaller. And they don’t fit me. And I spiral every time.  My boyfriend loves me. He loves me so much and he loves my body. But he’s small. He’s so thin. He’s only about 130. I can feel his ribs and all the bone points on him. His stomach is so flat. I’ve laid next to him and just felt his stomach because never in my life have I known what that’s like.  He says he loves that I’m soft and warm. He loves it.  But I think he’s just fascinated by what he’s never experienced either.  He’s never been soft the way I am.  And I feel. Disgusting next to him. He’s so handsome and formed so nicely. And even though he’s 2 inches taller than me, I dwarf him. I can lift him easily, it’s my favorite part of our hugs. But I want to be picked up too.  No one has ever easily lifted me. Most people don’t try. I’m too big for that. Why would they. I’m not cute enough to want to pick up like that.  But he wants to. Says he wants to build muscle for a lot of reasons, but he wants to be able to lift me at any size.  I hate that.  I don’t want him to have to form himself into a mountain just to be able to hold me like I’m small. I want to be small enough that he can carry me easily. I want to know what it’s like, for when he calls me princess like he always does, and holds me, that I feel like one.  Him and my room mates say I look gorgeous. That I’m shaped well. I have an hourglass.  But they’re all tiny. All of them under 140. They don’t know what hourglass means. Just because I have the dip at the sides for my waist doesn’t mean my stomach doesn’t roll over everything like a disgusting shelf, that my ass is formless against the fat of my legs. That no matter how cute the shirt my squishy arms always dip from sleeves that are tighter.  I just want to be small.  I don’t remember why I started eating again, made my stomach stretch.  But I won’t let that happen again.  I’m trying again.  And this time I’m not eating anything nice again until I’m 165. At the very least. That number will be a sign that I’m not completely fucking worthless at this.  I can be lovely, and small, and I will be. Even if it’s hard. 

#pro nothing just using the tags #pro mia #body image #tmi #personal

[icymelodies]

Blog Post 3: Characters and Yearning

The character form was very revealing for me. Usually, when I write, I just start and let the details about the character form in my head as I type. I do this because I am very indecisive, and almost every decision I make before writing is likely to change. I don’t think I can sit down and map out a character, because as the writing process progresses, my protagonist is revealed to me, and character traits, behaviors and even physical features I thought were solid seem like a wrong fit, so I change everything. For instance, once, after writing an entire story, I went back to change the name, height, and age of my main character. As you can already tell, I am very indecisive.

Sometimes, I start writing without having the slightest clue what my hero looks like. In my mind, they’re either a shapeless blob existing with other shapeless blobs, or they’re me, existing with my friends and family. But, as I write, those shapeless blobs start to become someone, color is added to their skin, hair, eyes, their physical features come to life and it just seems right for the story. So, for this reason, I figure, why not save time and just skip the character profile stage.

But I still did the assignment, and it took so long because like I mentioned earlier, I don’t usually do this, but I am happy I did. This character profile form asked me questions I don’t think I would have ever asked myself when writing. I would have never thought to include my characters' political leanings because the chances of me discussing politics in my stories are slim. It never even occurred to me that my character would have an erotic history. I realize now that these minute details, even though they may not all make it into the story, are important because they turn an idea into a reality, a character stops being a figment of my imagination and starts to seem like an actual person with potential, strengths and weaknesses, someone my readers can fall in love with or despise. And while I can’t promise that everything in my character profile will remain unchanged as I write, I appreciate all the questions it made me ask myself, and what it revealed to me about the aspects of my characters life I wouldn’t have otherwise considered (I guess that’s what happens when your main characters are subconsciously written to be like you, haha).  

This assignment revealed to me that I can’t always write my characters to be like me, because while it’s not a bad thing, it does get boring to write (when done constantly). I am learning to make my characters want something different from what I want, and while that doesn’t seem like a big deal to most, it is for me. I think this short story is a chance for me to experience the world through different eyes and give mine a break. I used to make my characters a lot like me because I was too lazy to the research on a character that didn’t grow up the way I did, or likes activities I’ve never taken part in. For the first time, I’m going to write a character that I share little similarities with, one that yearns for something not on my radar, and I am so excited to meet this character.

[sunflower-haven]

well, i guess i’m gonna post some art on this blog too :^0 i was originally going to submit this to @purple-compromise but tumblr, for some reason, only lets you submit one image? which is stupid but, what can you do. anyways!! i stumbled upon this fic again a couple of weeks ago after literal years and fell in love with it all over again and read all 40 chapters in a few days and IMMEDIATELY had the need to draw a lot of art for it as soon as i could, and basically, since i simultaneously got my ankle sprained in the same week, dedicated myself solely to drawing and playing concept artist. also all of this coincided with the fic’s fourth (!!) year anniversary so! i guess this is a sort of late gift!? i have a lot to say about this so let me just sort of throw it under a read more, BUT!!! tl;dr, this fic is amazing and i’m definitely drawing more soon. because it’s the BEST.

OK. THE FIRST ONE. it’s basically the first image that stuck with me because every scene where the specialist is using her shield really screamed “WONDER WOMAN!!” in my brain, mostly because they’re so epic, and i wanted to practice some black and white painting the original screenshot this is based on is this one btw :^D

and now my favorite of all the things i did! a model sheet!! i spent some time figuring out how much i wanted the spesh to look like a mix of me and, well... someone that’s actually capable of doing everything she does in the fic 😂 in the end i guess i found a really nice balance of it. also this is the first study i did

i did a lot of some light stalking on the specialist’s tag to figure out the most, correct/official(?) way of drawing her clothes and the first one is the one i figured was the best, but the second was one i really wanted to draw (the double buttons!! is that what they’re called? i don’t know, i love them) and the third is just some alternative outfit i thought of. specialist cosmetics maybe? the second set is her clothes during the heavy boxing match (i WISH i had those muscles 😩 and i wish i could... draw better muscles)  and the BLU specialist which was originally going to be just a recolor but i remembered a passage where she’s described as a sort of distortedly perfect version of our RED spesh and that image stuck with me so i just. brushed her hair and gave her a bit of a smug expression) the third one is mostly a bonus because, after i rediscovered the fic, i distinctly remembered doing some fanart in 2015 and searched through my old sketchbooks and found her; 2015 specialist in all of her old, weirdly emo? glory!! i don’t know why i thought she looked like... This in my mind back then but i really wanted to redraw her. (why does she have a scarf? what’s up with that weird shapeless blob of a gun?! why did i draw her class badge like That?! did i forget how it looked like when i drew it? was it not a thing yet? who knows! 2015 me, probably)

and the last one is the most recent one of the bunch, and it’s basically a rom-com-ish poster that i had an idea for during one of my “oh my god i can’t sleep because this damn cast is so freaking uncomfortable” sleepless nights also the original idea was. this monstrosity i sketched on my phone

a masterpiece.

i just wanted to draw them having a nice chat maybe after capturing a point. in which map? who knows! certainly not me, but they’re being cute and i wanted to practice drawing medic and some actual painting so this is probably the most doodly of the bunch. (also archimedes on medic’s shoulder was my sister’s idea and i loved it too much not to include it) oh my god i wrote SO MUCH. i hope it’s all coherent, it’s like... 2am  :^P i don’t know how to finish this so uh... thank you so much for this fic purple-compromise! i hope this huge block of text is not annoying or overwhelming!? also thank you for inspiring me to draw non-stop for the past weeks?! bye?! *disappears*

#do i tag this as anything? i don't even have a buch of tags in this blog anyways #my art #tf2 tenth class #this is where we are now

[c4ll-m3-m4yb3]

“Hello! My name is Call! I am an Autobot, I think, and it’s a pleasure to make everyone’s acquaintance!

I haven’t always been a robot, if I could be frank with the people of the internet, my original form is actually a shapeless blob. I am however thankful that I now have a lovely form, and I hope to make friends with everyone!

My blog allows both submissions and asks! So it’s recommended! I’ll answer most likely anything! Even magical asks, I’m more knowledgable with those than many other muses~”

- Call ^^

[bibitchtude]

I never really believed in the whole “separate art from the artist” because your bias, prejudices, and beliefs do effect your work rather u like to believe it does or not. I was just scrolling through Insta and I stumbled upon a an artist who’s art seemed pretty cool. In one of her comics she drew two vampires talking to each other and one character causally remarked that it would be okay for them to “kill and eat a prositute or an homeless person because nobody really cares about them anyway.” Honest to god my mouth immediately soured and I got off her blog quick. What was the reason to write that? Like did u pat yourself on the back when u wrote that sentence? Did it make u feel good about yourself? Sex workers and homeless people aren’t fucking blank shapeless blobs who have no life or personality they’re fucking human beings. They have families, likes and dislikes, and emotions and to treat them like their nothing made me so angry. Fans of art (music, tv, or otherwise) need to drop that whole “the art is not the same as the artist just separate their work :)” need to dead that shit because an artist who’s a violent transphobe is gonna have transphobic elements in their work same with an artist who has a clear disdian for sex workers. A long time ago I promised myself to unlearn all that toxic shit that was feed to me during my childhood and beyond because I wanted to become an better artist and I wanted to write and draw stories about all kinds of black girls. I can never do the whole “separate art from the artist” especially when it comes to marginalized communities who sometimes only escape from reality is in art.

#myposts #something ive been thinking about for the past couple of days #whorephobia tw #transphobia tw

[likeshipsonthesea]

ANNOUNCEMENT: this is a good christian blog you hear? Nothing to see here staff please move along. Only good 1700s values being showcased here. No ankles.

ankles?! how could you even use such a dirty word!! my word *i say, clutching my pearls, which are concealed under an extra-thick, extra long-necked turtle neck, which drops to the floor in a shapeless blob so that my evil body outline will not tempt the devil*

i don’t know what kind of *lip purse* perversion goes on in other blogs, but not here, my good zer, not here.

#a p3nis? who's she? #this is hilarious #oh my god thank you

[blueliveblogshomestuck]

not only have i not seen the new episodes, i also haven’t seen the past 5, i’m so fuckin behind because of school, lmao. i’m waiting until after finals blow over to get caught up

not sure if i would ever consider liveblogging anything other that homestuck, since that’s the blog name, y’know? 

also: i don’t really have a picture in my head for what andrew hussie looks like, just an amorphous, shapeless blob of a human being. and imagining the creator of homestuck ™ officiating a wedding is fucking hilarious to me

#homestuck #liveblog #liveblogging homestuck #answered asks #steven universe