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heartfulselkie · 5 months

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How was year 2023 for you looking back ?

I'll admit I was going to say something along the lines of "Oh, it's been just another year! 🙃"

But you know what? No. It hasn't "been just another year." I've had so much happen this past year that I had to think for a good minute about it - because did all this really happen in a single year???

Yeah I've had my usual run of mental health slips. Some of them really bad.

But I've had so many wins this year too!

I finally took the time to really think about myself and feel comfortable in who and what I am. I finally said out loud to someone that I'm nonbinary. I talked with my counsellor about my issue with my physical appearance from my gender dysphoria. I came out to my family. I'm going by a new name now (socially at least), one that I feel better matches my gender identity.

And I started school again! After spending so long in such poor mental health where I couldn't even work, I'm now finally embracing doing something I love! I can finally say to my child-self: "You know what? You weren't wrong about wanting to be an artist. And you are good at it and love doing it!"

Yes, I'm doing an actual art course now! And I am loving every minute of it (even when the stress is high). I'm even planning on doing another year of it!

I've gotten friendly with the people in my class. It's been so long since I've had a physical, in-person sense of community. I thought it was something I'd never have again - but now I get to go into class and just talk with people and share dumb jokes. And its such a positive and supportive atmosphere! We're all artistic and of different lgbtq+ identities as well as neurodivergencies. (Through peer review it turns out I might actually fall somewhere on the autism scale - who knew? No wonder younger me was such a mess.)

For the first time in I don't even know how long, I've finally started to feel at least somewhat comfortable with myself. I'm done pretending to be a person I'm not and trying to fit other people's boxes. I still have my struggles and have a lot of history/traumas/whatever to process, but I feel so much better now that I finally feel secure enough to learn what kind of person I am. And I'm so lucky to be around people that are okay with that!

My family for the most part are accepting of where I am now. They don't really get "nonbinary", but most of them are still making efforts to use my chosen name. My relationship with one parent is still a trainwreck (I don't think its salvageable at this point tbh) but my relationship with my other parent has improved so much this past year. We now talk on regular basis and they have been my biggest supporter for both who I am as well as my artistic endeavours.

It's been one hell of a year. 2023 is the year I finally started feeling human. It's the year I started feeling like me again.

#my rough patches have been rough #but holy fucks the high points have been high #it's been a long time #but i'm finally doing and being what younger me though I'd never get to be #yeah everything's still a mess #but maybe it hasn't all been a waste after all #at least I can tell myself that on my good days #ask selkie

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grumpyghostdoodles · 2 months

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Some grown-up Dreemurrs fashion!

#Frisk is 17 and Ree and Chara 21 #had to check my references bc for the like of my i cant never remember their ages #I think my favorite outfit is frisks!#is the more simple of the three #but i had fun using the magenta. I dont usualy use strong colors so i enjoyed it!#and im in LOVE with thier shoes #theyre platforms btw an if i could grab them for m yself id do it instantly #Charas bag is literally nicknamed trashbag #bc it so busted #but my god they refuse to give it up #patched with ducktape on the inside. multiple patches tp fix the outside. the zipper has been changed 5 times #Toriel wants to burn that bag so badly #but nay it shall remain XD #myart #frisk undertale #undertale #ut #chara dreemurr #chara undertale #chara ut #asriel dreemurr #frisk dreemurr #frisk ut #had a couple of very rough days #and playing dress up with dolls always cheered me up #no longer have my dolls #but i can draw characters in all the silly outfits instead!

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vibrantlyinvain · 1 month

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IM A FEW DAYS LATE BUT HAPPY BIRTHDAY DAVE AND BAMBI!!! ^^ I LOVE YOUU /P

A LITTLE RUSHED BUT I RLLY WANTED TO GET THIS OUT RAHH 🔥🔥🔥

#vibevain art #dave and bambi #vs dave and bambi #dnb dave #dnb bambi #dnb tristan #dave dnb #bambi dnb #tristan dnb #digital art #HAPPY 3RD ANNIVERSARY DAVE AND BAMBI U MEAN SO MUCH TO MEEE <3 #my favorite game ever #i love all the ppl i’ve met n things i’ve done!#even if some patches have been. rough. i love dave and bambi forevah !!!

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necromeowncy · 9 months

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A simple portrait of Aed, but one that made me smile. 🌹🕯️📖

#he makes me happy and i want to kiss his cheeks #been going through a very rough patch in life lately but at least i have my blorbos right?#Aedric is a very good & soft boy who means the world to me #so thank you from the bottom of my heart if you've ever complimented him on my posts 🥺#aedric vaillencourt #elezen #elezen hours #elezen wol #gpose #my poses

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galaxy-fucked · 2 months

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This is my first piece of art that I am sharing with the fandom. It took me a while to learn how to draw these mf's and I REALLY struggle to draw their bodies soooo .... please be patient with me as I continue to learn how to draw them haha.

This drawing it going to be a chapter cover for Chapter 5 of my fic "Throwing Stones in Glass Houses" which will be posted shortly. This particular image has to do with their honeymoon. 👀👀

This fic has consumed a lot of my time and thoughts and so I couldn't help but draw what I was feeling and seeing when writing it... wasn't fully in love with the last chapter because I wasn't able to focus on it the way I wanted to due to a lot of things. I made some plot point mistakes, but that is the challenge with writing and posting a chapter at a time. I am determined to continue tho.

I hope everyone enjoys the next chapter and enjoys this piece of art to go along with it! <3

P.S. Please listen to the song Rocket Man before reading <3 Thank you

P.S.S please don't make fun of me for making fan art for my own fic hahaha

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neilfinnaesthetics · 6 months

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Healing myself one Kate Bush song at a time.

#I am going through such a rough patch atm #TW: I’m getting back my fucking ED and I am struggling so hard with it :(#I have really been leaning on Kate’s music these past few weeks and I literally feel so much relief when I listen to her #I love her so much <3 #kate bush

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ghosts-cyphera · 3 months

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Hello! Just wanted to check in, I've gotten the notification that you posted something twice in the last few days, and both times the post just wouldn't load and doesn't appear. Is everything alright? Did you delete the posts or it's just tumblr being weird?

aaaw hi darling !!

it’s just lo being lo. one was a shameful sleepy horny post, and the most recent one was a selfie that I posted for a full minute before chickening out of it, lol.

thank you so much for checking in. that’s very sweet of you but I’m also very sorry to have worried you 💗 !!

#I always forget that some of you absolute sweethearts have your notifications on for wee me #feels so crazy aaa #and that’s why I always think that no one will notice if I take down a post #anyhow !! for the past week or so I actually felt really really incredibly good for the first time in months #and for a little while I allowed myself to hope that my depression had finally eased #but now the past couple of days have been tougher again and I notice all the warning signs of another rough patch coming up #so I’m focusing on self-care and on trying to be patient with myself #healing is not linear and all that !!#I adore you #thank you for checking in #lo answers

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mossy-paws · 2 months

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hi hello!!

just wanted to come in here to say you're really cool and i love all the stuff you do !! /gen /pos you dont gotta respond to this i just wanted to let you know that i think youre cool and really neat >:333 /lh /gen

OH MY GOODNESS THANK YOU SO MUCH 💖💖💖💖

RAAAAAH This was such a wonderful thing to wake up to HEHE! I’m so glad people the content I make!! comments like this genuinely mean so much to me so thank you beyond WORDS for saying this 💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖 /gen /VPOS EEEE

#I seriously don’t have words /silly #This was such a lovely thing to read and it genuinely made my day!!! /vpos #I’ve been going through a bit of a rough patch lately due to some personal things #so I can safely say this was a really pleasant surprise to open my askbox too :3!#I also am kind of struggling to come up with words to show my happiness at the moment because. Eepy!#So if this sounds dry at all I am BEYOND sorry :’DDDD #BUT…. It really did make my day and I can’t say it enough how wonderful this was to see!!#I hope that you have/are having an absolutely amazing day man :DDD!! /gen #Cro chatter

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choking-on-roses · 3 months

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That AITA poll I just reblogged really got me thinking...it's simply amazing how many people feel obligated to stay in a relationship for some arbitrary reason, or guilty for breaking up with someone because they feel it wasn't justified enough.

I'm here to tell you that this is ridiculous. You can break up with anybody at any time for any reason. Period. That's it. You don't have to "wait it out." You don't have to stay out of some twisted sense of loyalty or because they're a good person or whatever. If you don't want to be in a relationship anymore, leave it. I swear to god it is so, so, so much more healthy to leave an unwanted relationship than to stay in something that isn't bringing you joy.

#my mother is ALWAYS bringing up the loyalty card #every time i break up with someone she brings out her 'well we should try to tough it out' card #please note this woman has been in two of the worst relationships I've ever seen #her current partner of 25 years is a methhead who beats her but she calls it a rough patch #like literally if you aren't happy with the relationship then go!#you deserve to be happy! and your partner deserves someone who wants to be with them!#and breaking up doesn't mean your time with that person was 'wasted' either #like idk what your mother told you but remember her perspective is still twisted from growing up in a time when divorce was a scandal #women can get divorced! we have our own jobs! we can get apartments and credit cards!#you will be okay on your own and you do not need a relationship that doesn't make you happy

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callsign-bunnie · 1 year

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Nicknames for the different friendships in COD

I’m leaving common ships out. (Also please don’t take this seriously)

Rodolfo and Soap: Chaos twins. Everyone has to fight to keep them away from the bombs during missions because blowing something up is their solution for everything

Alejandro and Ghost: Dumb and Dumber. They are so fucking smart but when they do anything non mission related, they’re both idiots

Price and Gaz: A father and his child. Even Price and Gaz have stopped denying they act like father and son

Price and Laswell: Mom and Dad. No explanation needed

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roboraindrop · 5 months

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No work for me today. More time to lay here and think about my f/os 💕

#I called off of work today n I'm feeling bad about it #i just didnt have it in me today. I'm feeling sick but not in the pysichal way. like....#like I've been neglecting taking care of myself and its at the point where its affecting me negatively #I've been forgetting to eat. struggling to keep up w showering. i barely want to leave bed for anything.#being me simulator: Omg i want to be there for and take care of my f/os! *hasnt taken care of myself in ages*#I'm being a little hard on myself rn. I'm sorry 😅#i just hope that my f/os understand and still love me. maybe even help me through this rough patch.#rain rambles

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bumblingbabooshka · 1 year

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Tuvok’s Father, Sunak, telling his favorite story

#Tuvok is killing him with his mind v_v #Sunak dyes the grays in his hair #Sunak & Tuvok are close...Sunak basically raised him on his own until he was a teen bc T'Meni was traveling and working #they had a BIIIIG rough patch from teens tooo basically until Tuvok got married #then they started talking again and now they're fine <3 That's what happens when you have 200 years to hash things out #Anyway. Sunak looks very severe and regal but he's actually pretty extroverted and outgoing #The type of person who knows EEEVERYONE in town and takes four hours to go shopping (nightmare) bc he talks to literally every other person #(hell. Tuvok hates this)#He wishes Tuvok were more outgoing and comfortable with people but has long given up on that dream...siiiigh. At least he gave him plenty of #grandchildren to spoil v_v #Sunak is also the type of person who's rude without trying to be...old man + has been popular all his life. 'fuck you my child is COMPLETELY #fine.' type of dad until things got extreme...doted on Tuvok a bit too much when he was a little kid...'depressed? have you tried taking a #walk?' oh Sunak...we've all tried taking a walk.#bea art tag #[REDACTED] family shenanigans #Voyager crew SCREAMING with laughter...Tuvok found dead in a ditch #Sunak #Tuvok #Tuvok art #st voyager #st voyager art

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aziraphale-novak · 7 months

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btw social media sucks and isn't real life. like tumblr is one of the least sucky social networks out there because of its lack of addictive algorithm, but apps like tiktok, instagram or features like youtube shorts come directly from hell. it literally kills your soul

#not that i think many tumblr users are in other places #but i became stuck to social media for a very long time and it killed my creativity and motivation #and after finally getting rid of all apps with 60-second vertical videos available at all times #all my love for drawing writing creating things came back in less than two months #seriously i never thought i would be able to fill pages and pages with my drawings in such little time #or even finish a complex digital piece #and don't get me started on my writing which i hadn't worked on since. actually 2021 when i first got tiktok #even now that i'm going through a rough patch i'm convinced it would have been 10x worse if i still had instagram #let's kill addictive algorithms #social media #my post

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smokewars · 9 months

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having a librarian in love with roland is so, so cruel. whether its a patron librarian or an assistant, especially one on his floor, you know how its going to inevitably end

do you think he'd be able to tell at some point? how the hell would he react to that? and realistically he'd be too emotionally attached to angelica to catch feelings for anyone else but what if he did? the inherit guilt he has for not being there to save her being met with the sudden rush of being in love with someone else now on top of that. he wouldn't be able to forgive himself for it

he knows if- no, when he kills her that librarian would die too. but he's already so close to taking his revenge, he can't back out now

#library of ruina spoilers #library of ruina #roland lor #projmoon #to answer my own question i think he'd start purposely avoiding them #ill be honest when i first wrote this i meant assistants only but i mean it applies to any librarian tbh. theyd all go thru the same thing #i have a keter assistant who falls for him and then by the time shes abt to confess her feelings guess who learns abt his wife!#alot of this isnt an issue when its been a while after the true end but ur missing out on the drama and tension i think. the betrayal.#i imagine for most ships its just a silly little rough patch tho ^_^#text #roland

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ceruleanterrapin · 1 month

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Hi, I love 2012 Leo. I love you. Your an awesome person. Just think you should know that. Thank you for being awesome. And just liveing. Have a good day

Aw, thanks for the message; it means a lot to hear. It was definitely was something nice to wake up to. Stay awesome anon 👍

#been having a rough patch lately so this was really sweet #hope you're doing well #ask #leo talks #my art #system art

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galacticslugs · 3 months

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how do i consistently lose things that i use daily

#its the adhd and me being irresponsible and the messy ass room but . my pill box. where did it go LMAOOOOOO #i have my pill bottles so im just using them but like....where is she #*sirens telling me i should clean but id rather scrap sandpaper on my face*#*sirens telling me to get treatment* *sirens telling me to stop being a depressed bitch sirens telling me to take care of myself*#for what its worth i am trying but it does not look like it at all from the outside!!!! (sleep cycle fucked but is i #t)#okay what happened to the tag #ANYWAYS IM IN A ROUGH PATCH BUT I GOT THIS AND I KNOW IM NOT MOVING VERY FAST SORRY #shhchri #been waking up at 9pm like my old south park fandom days...

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