#my posts: the posts that hurt the most...s

[nahoney22]

Before the show airs tomorrow I’ll do my gratitude post now.

This show has done a lot for me. Before the show started I was at my lowest point and didn’t see a way out. But this show has done so much for me.

I’ve never loved writing more than I have until I came across this show and by the looks of it, a fair few of you like what I post!

My love for Star Wars has blossomed with this show. The cast and crew have been incredible. To be honest, this might bite me in the arse if they decide to UNALIVE THEM ALL (pls don’t Jennifer)

And I’ve made the most amazing friends. I won’t tag any because I suck at remembering @‘s but you know who you all are.

I so wish this fandom stays alive because I don’t see me leaving anytime soon and I sincerely hope a lot of us stay for a while because I’ve enjoyed this little quiet part of Tumblr even if there has been drama along the way.

But yeah, I love this show and I love my friends.

Fuck, this is going to hurt.

#the bad batch #tbb #bad batch eve #anyone else quite emotional or #I’m going to miss it so much

[aestheteangel]

Synastry aspects that I personally don’t like.

before i start please read that I am not an official astrologer so take this with a grain of saltttt too haha. Just for fun.

North node square north node ( I’m sorry but everyone lives in a whole different worlds, completely different perspectives, mindset, somehow not letting each other move to the next step)

Chiron in 7th house overlay. ( now Chiron isn’t always bad, but there’s kind of.. pain it gives , it’s not any better in other houses, but I’m saying romantically, there could be hurt during the marriage... if you want Chiron overlays in synastry please lmk)

Pluto/Uranus in 12th house overlay. ( now Mose of y’all know 12th house overlays arent so good eventually, but i think Pluto or Uranus being there could be harsher than any other planet , could indicate so many things, one of them unpleasant endings in the relationship, finding truth about something suddenly, betrayal..in worst cases you won’t be able to forget each other )

Saturn 8th house overlay. (Sure y’all know why..)

Mars conjuct Mc/10th house. ( uhhhh it just don’t give me nice vibes when both are seen in public eye. Could be arguing in public a lot, the mars person makes it hard for the 10th person to forgive them. Works even in composite chart )

Mercury square Saturn. ( a lot of judgements and misunderstandings)

Chiron opposite asc/Venus.

Saturn opposite Neptune. (Broo)

Moon opposite moon. (Now tbh Im not really sure of this one since nobody complained about it and it could indicate “slight” emotional understanding difficulties with each other that can also cause attraction. But I’ve seen this aspect with some couple that really can’t stop hurting eachothers emotionally . )

Another moon aspect, ofc moon is the first thing you should observe In synastry s, it simply represents how each other’s emotions play with the other. now moon square moon. Obviously most of y’all know why, literally each one is on different page when it comes to how they view emotions which makes it pretty hard to understand each other’s feelings with the square aspect. ( believe it or no I have this one with my man, even knowing it I’m still with him lol. yes the attraction is definitely there due to other loving aspects and also with this one, it gives attractive energy yes. but still, he don’t understand my emotions and my point of view, struggles with analyzing me sometimes or what I even think , even when I try my best to throw him an obvious sign about something, without me speaking, he don’t get it where everyone else does same goes for me 🤣😭. he sometimes thinks I mean something the opposite of what I meant. Bottom line is with this aspect you need to speak each other’s feelings and what you want to tell the other cause it’s way too impossible to understand eachother with no words spoken. 😓 AAAA THIS IS THE ONLY STRUGGLING PLACEMENT WE HAVE AND ITS NOT EVEN A SIMPLE ONE)

Mars in 5th house, ( Now this is NOT a red flag, bUTTTT i always read about this placement represents a “not lasting relationship “ and tbh every fling I had I had this placement with, literallyyyy very guy I used to dm or talk to even for a couple of days, attraction at first but then boom, you din yourself not talking to them anymore for god knows what reason lol, so there’s something interesting about this placement. 🤔🤣 ( pink for flings 🤣)

Mars 1st house.... ( uhh you know what? Wait for part 2 😛 )

But before part 2 I’ll make my next post positive I promise, I didn’t even want to write red flags placements because it shouldnt be taken seriously haha. So next post will be about .. hmm wait , what you guys want it to be about?

Synastry observations

Natal chart observations

composite observations

Solar return observations

— Y’all literally if u find one of these placements in your synastrys it’s totally okay lol, I have multiple of these w my man and tbh some of them don’t really play this negative way for us, but i just did them for fun , ofc don’t take these TOO seriously 🥰

#astro community #astro observations #astro placements #astrology placements #astrology tumblr #obsessed synastry #asteroids in synastry #d9 chart #elegant #expensive #astro notes #astrology #red flags

[wavytam]

This is the most primitive question ever but isn't Nami's tatoo a windmill and a tangerine but it's obviously an S? Can you make a post about Luffy's POV regarding SaNami? I wonder how people ship him with Nami when he's fully aware about Sanji's affection to Nami they make him look like a heartless douche

Hello, anon! I don't know how long this ask has been here, so I apologize if it took so long to answer! I didn't see this message before!

Anyway, about what you said.

First, about the tattoo: sorry, but I think it's just coincidental that it has an S shape. I think Oda could still use the drawing of the tattoo for something related to Sanji, though... maybe a pattern in something he wears. Idk. But I don't think Oda made Nami's tattoo with Sanji in mind. Maybe... I can't read his mind lol. It would be really nice if it was the case heh

About how Luffy sees Sanji and Nami: first, I'm not going to say that LN is impossible to happen, honestly.

In my opinion, the interactions Luffy and Nami had feel more like that of a brother and sister than that of a couple, but we never know when it comes to how Oda writes romance. So... Yeah. I still don't see it happening, though, for a series of reasons.

First, like you said, I'm pretty sure that Luffy, in his own way, is aware that Sanji has feelings for Nami. Not only did he witness key moments where Sanji expressed how important Nami is to him, but Luffy also incentives Sanji to help Nami.

Even without caring about romance, Luffy saw Sanji:

volunteer to help Luffy carry Nami up a mountain to find a cure,

almost die in an avalanche to prevent Nami from getting hurt

get so angry over Nami being kidnapped that he lit himself on fire

talk about how Nami is important to him during Whole Cake

So it's safe to say Luffy knows there's something there. And I think that he even incentivates Sanji to help Nami when it's needed.

You came up with an interesting point: considering the way Oda wrote things, specially how Sanji is so enamoured with Nami (again, more than any other woman) it would be weird to make Luffy end up with Nami, with him knowing about Sanji's feelings. I'm saying this in a writing perspective.

To add more fuel to the fire I remember how Oda clearly stated he doesn't care who Luffy is interested in - which is a question he gets frequently, apparently. And just like Oda doesn't care, Luffy also doesn't care about his own love life. His purpose was always to inspire people to seek freedom. I do think he might end up with someone at the end, but I don't think Oda is actively looking for opportunities to give Luffy romantic scenes in the manga.

Sanji's developement, on the other hand, always had to do with love and emotions. So the idea that Oda always planned a romantic stoyline for him is not farfetched, and the person he likes to write Sanji pursuing the most is Nami.

Again, I really don't know what is in that guy's mind, so maybe at the end he still pulls a uno reverse card and makes LN Canon and Sanji doesn't even care lol But I think it would be a really weird choice, considering the things you have pointed out and other moments we have in the manga.

Most of the LN moments can be interpreted as more of siblings growing a bond - rather than a couple having feelings. For SaNami, especially because of Sanji's side, we can't call what he does as sibling-ish at all, even if Oda calls the Strawhat a "family" and says their dynamic should be interpret as such, he was also the one who chose to make Sanji infatuated with Nami. There's also Robin, ofc, but Nami seems to be a lot more in Sanji's mind.

Once again, it all depends on Nami and how Oda writes her reacting to Sanji's pursuits or how she acts towards Luffy.

We have favorable and unfavorable moments, and every time, it was mostly because of how Oda wrote Nami. So let's wait and see.

#SaNami #MyTheories #sanjixnami

[nedlittle]

genuinely i think it's important for adults, especially in the plague times, to play pretend in our day-to-day lives. when i rub my back down with tiger balm so i can sleep without pain, i imagine i am a valiant knight tending to an old injury i received from a dragon. when i go to the store to pick up eggs and milk, i am a lone cowboy riding into town on a mission. when i turn my collar up against the wind i am a femme fatale who's killed 4 husbands and is scoping out a 5th. when i stomp around in the snow i am a doomed polar explorer. if being a little bit silly about my walk to the pharmacy helps me remember that life can be full of joy and whimsy, then so be it.

#this is a pointless text post #my most embarrassing version of this is that whenever it was foggy at the lighthouse i imagined i was emily bronte #or that i was taking a walk in the fog with my good friend emily bronte :^) #so much of this is also tied into the fact that my body hurts all the goddamn time #i am trying to make my pain something i can live with #is this gonna be how i learn that normal people don't daydream about being In The Past #anyway do u guys imagine these sort of scenarios too or am i just a freak #greatest (s)hits

[cinnamon-phrog]

A mutual reblogged a pr*ship post and their dni is now neutral. Unfallowed. Bolcked.

#see if i joke i don't CHOKE. on my tears. because this just keeps happening #i'm so scared to interact with mutuals for this exact reason #most i've made have either left me. became toxic over minor differences or become a degenerate. #which is sad because i really enjoyed this friend and all those friends before they or i cut ties #but this kind of shit is unforgivable to me. i've had bad experiences with a friend turning out to be a pr*shipper #everyone flocked to me to fix their traumas but i had talked to that person often. it hurt a lot. they harassed people who harassed them #i was only 15. and i was threatened but what the hell is a sheltered kid SUPPOSED to do back. i wasn't taught shit #people in their fucking 20's were trauma dumping to me in dms and sadly still go to me when they catch wind of this person- #'i need support' you need to get offline. please. just block and ignore. i'm tired. #i should not have had to be babysitting adults and older teens when i didn't know what half those words were at the time. #months ago i did something stupid when i was at my limit and mirrored the pettiness i saw. i was told i would drive someone to suicide. #over saying the person was a bit mean and bringing up some posts i thought they made #i did apologise when i got it wrong. but got threatened with the person possibly killing themselves in my inbox. #this person and the pr*ship person were famously at eachothers' throats #i do not stand by the pr*ship persons' actions. their opinions on the other person were honestly right though. the only thing i agree with. #once again i complain about proshits and gatekeeps. the two are almost as bad as eachother to me #or at least two awful sides that have affected me and my ability to make friends online. #so that's what this remined me of.

[indulgnc]

would u guys care if i started rbing unrelated kinks.. like i know its my blog and i can do what i want…

But. if its more appropriate to i will! onviously i will tag accordingly but. stuff like S (sadism), t4t related kink, degradation, etc idk what else specifically bc im kind of open to anything so if i like it then i like it.. but yeah let me know

also i switched my “not snz” tag to “off topic” bc im not huge on that tag on rbs even from unrelated kink centric blogs (im shy)

#its hard for me to know exactly what bc. i just scroll on my ‘for you’ snd see other kink posts and go oooh nice #the one im most worried abt is like. fictional guro related. idk. ill probably be too self conscious to rb that anyway So. #but i see othet kinks and go oh nicr. but idk if people will like that #its different though i dont have a word for it? not the same feelin/a turn on as. my main thing. which js this. its like oh nice/cute! #but im not jacking off to it. u get me? #im using //S as my tag for whump (i hate that word sorry) but like hurt comfort and S stuff thats like. not all innocent #trying to be more likke yolo live my life indulge in what i like but also idk. if it should be another space

[myreputatioooon]

The dichotomy of wanting to get into more MCYT content because you fucking love that medium of storytelling versus the sheer emotional burnout of series and fanfics with too much hurt and too little comfort inflicted upon you which you still haunts you tok this day

(and also you dont have anytime you ain't reading all that but that isn't important)

#Dream SMP is the main culprit tbh #but also submas fadom SORRY NOT SORRY— 🤪🤪🤪 **gets shotted** #also maybe Aphmau but I dont recal being that emotionally connected to it plus I got bored during that lvoe love paradise sequel #MCYT #as much as id love to get into that Kenadian lore. everythign LDshadowlady and Grian are into plus Stampy's Lovely World and other series #one. they're too fucking long especially together and I have an education to get throuvh #two. emotional burnout. Im drawn to hurt like a moth to a flame but I cannot bring myself to get into or devote myself to soemthing thattl #burn me out further #this is also why I wont even check out QSMP and other series barring soem exceptions (Sp!lt L!fe (dont wanna flood the tag and what youtube #s i am already into or get my attention decide to do themselves)) #just cuz I wanna not burnout #Dream SMP it hink was ultimately a good thin in the long term #but one of the side effects of its success (or maybe a result of the pandemic and lots of people being mroe nihilistic or hopeless idk) #according to what I can tell from tumblr posts Ive seen every once ina. while #and also my own minimal experience #is that most series have tipped their feelgood emotions and feelbad emotions balance in much more favor of feelbad than feelgood #and yeah those feelgood is still there but in the grand scheme of things series feel ways more miserable because general happiness looks li #e its overshadowed by tragedy and whatnot #this isnt go say its objectively bad. its just my own eprsonal feelings. #do I still enjoy miserable media liek S!GNALIS? yes but that shit lasts for like 6 hours per run #and mcyt is .millions upon millions of hours #and when I devote myself to a piece of media instead of beigna. casual fan I wanna be a completionist about so. yeah #this was judt fucking rambling bwuh #hoghly encourage you to do your own worddumping or qhateverdumping in comments or reblogs #i like interavtions

[soup-is-nice-sometimes]

ok one of my semi-irls is gonna see this im just being angsty im fine i promise

right now thats outta the way

i feel like im always subtly being left out like i have friends, i have a fair few friends but my two best friends are dating each other so there's that and my sport friends all finished high school last year and im in my last year this year and i have 2 separate groups of friends who live in the same city but theyre like 1.5 hour drive away from me and i just cant do that whenever i wanna see em (no car of my own + also only on my learners) and if i go up to see one group i'll wanna see the other and theyre on opposite sides of teh city and its a rlly big city it would take me a couple hours (cause of traffic) to get from one side to the other

and i have school friends but theyre like,,, im not as close as them yk and i wanna hang out w them but i need to rlly work up the courage to be like "hey do you wanna hang out sometime soon?" cause thats rlly scary for me

#rant #idk i just need to see more people #and it hurts seeing a group of friends post photos of them all hanging out w/o me #even tho i cant go #rsd is a bitch #rsd #probably #like one of my friends posted photos on her story #of a bunch of them hanging out #(this is sport friends btw) #and like i get why they wouldnt want me there (also i have sCHOOL now) cause why would the group of 18/19 yos want a 17 yo hanging out w em #like ik thats not their mindset but wtvr #also they were all friends before i got there so theres that too #and i hate feeling like im intruding #ah i love life /s #probably undiagnosed adhd or autism or maybe even both #but most likely even just rsd

[quenepacrossing]

so the tulip hill switch is alive, but not well. it turned on, but even thought its fully charged it died again after 10-15 minutes. i’ll have to test if maybe it has to stay perma-docked or if it dies regardless. also it wont log in to the internet so it seems like qr codes or a da wouldn’t be an option.

negativity in the tags jic

#honestly i havent been this attached to an island in a while #laundry was the closest but it was so early in the games lifetime i knew i had to restart to keep going i hated losing my very first da #i cant ever just keep flattening #but deleting dimple is gonna hurt and idk if im ready #and now that so little people are playing and no one uses tumblr as intended… #i love this game but i love its community the most #and i really love and need the interaction #so like if i delete dimple and i start from scratch and then my post just get like 20 likes from bots and a single reblog ill be devastated #i probably sound like a dick but thats where i am at #i really got into d&d recently and maybe it s time to take a break from ac permanently 🤷🏻‍♀️ #i dont feel like i would be missed if im truly honest

[bunnyb34r]

Am I just in a bad mood or is my "Well now, thats just stupid 🙄" reaction to certain posts justified... we may never know 🤔

#it could really be both in all honesty like i am in pain bc i spent the past 5 hours painting and my painting area is the kitchen table #with the most uncomfortable chairs you could ever buy bc dining chairs are all just like that for some reason? #do we NOT want people lingering at the dinner table? is that it?? cushions dont do shit it's just bad everywhere #my aunt had different chairs for the dining room and kitchen table and god did they all hurt my back absgsgsgsgss and i have a bony ass #so it was all over blugh #marquilla #i wont say what the posts were ab bc that'd be mean (even if my well now thats just stupid-s turn out to be justified)

[the-lighthouse-lit]

So, a balance of my first ever NaNo:

My final word count was a humble 21,964

(However if I were to count Thursday’s 3K+ writing session, I’d be at 25,380 words… but Nano was over by then lol)

I started out strong and quickly fell off track! I think by Day 7 I was already so upset at not meeting word counts, it was affecting my joy, so I decided to soft quit. I found it ridiculous that I was tuning into the story every day and either drafting a few hundred words, doing good research, fleshing out side characters, or creating graphics, and yet I felt like I was failing because I wasn’t drafting enough. I wanted the freedom to consider all of those things successes, as I would’ve in any other circumstance, so I stopped trying to hit any word counts at all.

(This might already be an existing way of ‘doing Nano’ that I don’t know of, so forgive me if I’m reinventing the wheel here. I didn’t mean to 😅)

However~

All in all, I count it as a resounding success!

I have a lot of content under my belt, and I can now answer a ton of the questions I mentioned in an earlier post!

My setting is a middle-sized, touristic town in California, modeled after mainly Capitola, Santa Cruz, and maybe others from the Central Coast of California.

The action’s set slightly in the past, starts around 2006

I got a lot of research done on surfing and got a couple of athletes I can base my deuteragonist off of (mostly Erin Brooks and Alex Fry)

And I plan on being open and having fun with POV changes: I might still do random head popping all through the book, but my heart’s now set on adding more POV’s towards the last parts of the book to signify the MC opening up to the world and learning to trust others, via us getting to read what people think first-hand (thanks @yary-t for the great references and reassurance!)

(Also I came to write this post two days ago, got distracted tallying the word count, and ended up in the writing session that produced those 3K+ words. So, again, a resounding success.)

#Nanowrimo #took me through emotional extremes #from “life is perfect and nothing hurts” and “I’m gonna do it I’m gonna dust off my parents’ analog camera to see what my MC sees when she #takes photos. watch ALL the YouTube videos of people renovating vintage cameras make a million moodboards and write 10K on the same day" #to “In the course of this experience I have discovered I am the first person alive with no value whatsoever. weird” #but most normally a shaky “I’ll do better tomorrow *tomorrow is worse*” #also I did write on paper a few times. and on my phone notes a lot. and I didn’t count those words #writing #surot #wip surot #s #nano wip #my posts #this is now a wip diary ♡

[whimsyprinx]

at this point all I want is is for people to genuinely care about me and actually want me to be in their lives and to actually feel worth their time

#whimsy whispers #without me having to be the one to reach out first almost if not every single time it possible #maybe it would be nice if people even just sent a message checking in and saying hi hello how are you but that doesn’t happen #all I get if anything are random tumblr posts and tiktoks which is great /s #idk I’d like to have friendships where I actually feel like peoples friend #I guess I’d like for people to actually care if I was or wasn’t in their lives #if I stopped existing I’d you never heard from me again would you even care? would you even care if I was okay or like miss me? it doesn’t #feel like it #I could stop speaking and disappear entirely and no one would care if never hear a word in my direction like it wouldn’t matter because it #I don’t predict I will be today or like any time soon so like idk #that’s that in the topic as you can tell I’m not really any better than I was yesterday #doesn’t affect y’all and having to accept that is probably what hurts most #continue as you were

[hypnodonkeyshoepasta]

I’m not having a good time today

#almost cried during class cause of a big assignment that I to do in ONE day #and I don’t even know where to start with it because I have to write in a specific way and I dont know How #and then I’m missing a few things that I Pretty sure we haven’t even done #but they’re marked as missing #i’m overstimulated #as all hell #just not fun overall #this is seeming a lot like freshman year and I Do Not want a repeat of that #my cat also stracthed me real bad (it hurt) #I also hate the way most of my teacher teach #and it’s only the second week of school ! so fun ! #/s #on a positive note I talked to my friend who j haven’t seen since last year :D #wind whistles #posts

[caruliaa]

haha yea guys "you should love god via fearing him just like you love your parents via fearing them" is totally a christanity exclusive thing that no one has been subjected to via any other religon for sure haha !!!

#can there stop being an issue were ppl refuse to look at islam w any semblance of nuance so i can talk abt how its been used by my parents #to hurt me pleasee please #like i stg i feel like talking ab my experinces w it is so impossible #bc ppl seem to only either be islamaphobic or think islam is a perfectly flawless religon thts never been used to hurt a single person #whatever -_- nd now im mad bc i now kinda sorta rly hate the only perosn who i think agreed w me on this when it comes to marganalized #religons #like omgg did i have 2 rb tht stupid post and never delete it and then prepetuate such a judgemental attitude in the atl.a fandom #you* not i GHFDSGGFNFA #wel itreally cld have been friends i was soo wiling 2 do tht -__ #also ik tht like. the judgmental attitude thing is like part of a bigger issue tht means wed prob never be friends #but like !!! idk if one of the kindest ppl ik can b friends w them somehow i wanna beleive we cld have been #even tho ik we prob never cld have #actually we cld have but i wld have been so miserable it wld b prob the most unhealthy friendship ever #bc i felt like i constantly had to meet her and n***'s standards when we WERENT friends cld u imagine omg #yea dodged a bullet i think. but also kinda not. idk #andd this went sooo of topic. i think im gonna go draw some more #ask 2 tag #religion mention #flappy rambles #kinda vent

[furrysmp]

congrats to everyone that is still following me after I saw I had way too many followers to not have at least one antisemitic person following me, the fact that you don't think I murder children for fun is truly a comfort

#I wish this was /s but no genuinely #Had 22 followers. Every time I reach past 20 at least one is antisemitic #I now have 15 followers #thanks for not hating me for being born in a country once btw #Like listen I don't mind if you mass reblog propal stuff. That's good #Just please make sure it's not the posts that talk about how israelis are all evil and want to murder everyone #And maybe reblog. One post about how there's a lot of antisemitism in propal spaces #And how you don't want to make the jews on your blog scared or uncomfortable over that #Just one post. It doesn't have to be praising israel bc fuck knows I hate our current government so much #But I see posts about how secular jews in israel are actually european colonizers roleplaying #And I think about how 100 years ago my great grandparents moved here #And how I'm genuinely scared for my sister who is visiting friends in the uk in a month #And how I'm scared for myself if I ever leave this country again #Because apparently me not wanting to die is controversial in all my political spaces #Except for pro israelis leftist spaces #And that's really sad #That I don't feel safe with yall anymore #Idk #I once joined a mcytblr discord server #The first day I'm there someone asks to “censor i/p” and gets the response “just don't look at the vent channel” #So. I looked. #Not a single person in that server cared enough to say “but it's not all israelis” at the people raving about i/p #Like people out there saying I on a personal level would be happy to murder people because of where I was born #I still get squirmy killing spiders that have rather painful bites. I could never hurt another human on purpose #And they just kept agreeing with each other in the most echo-chamber-y way #So. I left that server #And now I barely do mcyt fandom stuff because I'm scared of getting attention #I don't want attention on my blog or on me as a person #Because at least one in 20 followers will cheer if I get murdered #And that's fucking heartbreaking

[freepassbound]

Why die between your tits when I could live between them?

#this could be anything from a 🤔 to a 🥰; or 🥴 or 😘 or even🙈! #definitely a thought that goes through my mind whenever I see that brand of GFD post #(smothering and whatnot that is) #also works just as perfectly for thighs 😏 #(and doesn't hurt that it plays right into my macro kink 😅😁) #is the most romantic line I've ever thought of? maybe 😅 #free-D/s #macro