#my online reading experience

[imblocking-you]

Y'all I read novels sometimes because I've been spoiled about the geral gist of the story and a particular moment in the book worth waiting for. In orv, I was told about the dokja meets od scene with yjh somewhere and it got me excited about the novel kept me going despite constantly crying lmao. In S-class I learned about some qipao(?) scene although idk if it's true. In lcf, I learned about krs but honestly even without something to wait for it was all around enjoyable and kept me on my toes. In mdzs, it was the hairband thing scene YK THE ONE and countless other little pieces of information that drowned me in the fandom, took me for a long swim. For tgcf, it was just the existence of hua cheng, like in general and coffin scene lol. In KOD, everything ab it, I love kod but spoilers here were insane, man. For twsb, I think it was just the female lead getting a different role idkk it got me hooked even without a spoiler so this is like revealed really early on. For IDWTR, I think it's the "fairytale arc" as they called it which convinced me to bear with the mtl bc I am a aucker for world-hopping or any of the same sort.

#reveals secrets and variety are my shtick #useless post #nothing to learn from here #no lessons no takeaways nothing just me going about saying whatever #but yeah #my online reading experience #i started on the university series too cause some tiktok advertised it as better than it actually was #came out disappointed so now it only amounts to the honourary mentions #i haven't read a genuine physical book in a while all pf #of my* past reads had been online and had a different vibe to those i've read in the past #it has significantly altered me and aspects of my personality during quarantine and beyond #idk what im saying it's 1 am #why cant i just read quietly and stop the urge to share my opinion #this is why reading w no wifi is better #webnovel

[catstar91]

Ok phandom peeps, I need to get something off my chest. I cannot stop thinking about it, it’s so funny that this happened to me!

So I’ve been casually perusing the DP fandom for a while, right? Like for several years at least! What can I say? I like art! So at various points I had talked to my aunt about some stuff related, like fun stuff about the phandom and the existence of ghost king aus and stuff. Recently though, I found a fanfic that I spent AN ENTIRE DAY reading and doing nothing else! Like I stayed up late the night before, woke up to immediately read more! I don’t normally read fanfics, let alone any long form story, cuz my attention span is shit and has been shit basically all my life! So in the evening when I was a good chunk of the way through the fic, I talked to my aunt about it! Cuz it’s funny! I found a lot of things in it very amusing and wanted to share!

And then she asked for a link…

The next thing I know, within a few months, probably 3 months later at most, my aunt starts telling me about phandom lore I had never even heard of before! She literally made an ao3 account!!! Guys I am floored! I’ve been idly watching from the shadows for so long, and then I accidentally get my aunt into the phandom and she starts telling me about a red duck candle that’s apparently been integral DPxDC lore for YEARS!

What have I DONE???

#Danny Phantom #DP #this isn’t art or any creative writing this is just sharing a personal experience I had so this isn’t going on my side blog #side blog does have some personal ramblings but they’re typically for art related plans and writing ideas #sorry to anyone following me for fandom stuff- I do try to avoid clogging my main with personal stuff and the like but… #god I just can’t get over this! How did I manage to get my aunt into reading DPxDC fanfics so fast??? #she never watched DP and even she didn’t really know much about batfam stuff (all of my knowledge has been from online fandom stuff) #so I’m just absolutely going insane about this cuz holy shit #how did I never know about the red duck candle???

[kissmefriendly]

On a slightly more serious note, I just wanna post this before the final entry, not counting the epilogue. I’m so, so thankful for Dracula Daily. It’s been an absolute blast beginning to end, reading discourse, seeing the jokes and memes and all the art, reading theories and reactions. And getting to be apart of that! Reading this book again in this format was a hell of an experience but the fact that I didn’t do it alone, I don’t know. We’ve all gotten to experience this book in a new way in real time together. I love that. And I hope that it won’t be just a one-off event, either. And even if it is? But this? It’s been wonderful. So, thank you to everyone for collectively going nuts over a 130 year old novel. Thank you for posting and making those artworks and memes and analyses. Reminds you you’re human and not stuck and alone.

#sorry for being emotional lol #but seriously #I didn’t exactly make new friends or connections #I’m not exactly someone people like seeing post etc etc #but you know what? I got to be in the same room as a bunch of strangers while we all shared an experience #on a personal note #I looked forward to DD everyday because irl I’m pretty isolated #even online I’m isolated this is my 5th or 6th blog. and it was just nice to feel apart of a group #and yeah we still have the epilogue and all but tbh #idk I don’t want it to end #I don’t wanna go back to being alone #I loved talking about this book with y’all I loved seeing your art and theories #it was exciting! #I read this book when I was 8 and my mum had never read it and my brother was too young to #so reading has always been very lonely #but this? this was amazing #and I really don’t want that to end #it’s less about the book itself and more about the people I’ve read it with #which I guess is rather at the heart of the book #dracula daily #dracula #so long and goodnight #lol

[jahiera]

can y’all not use butch / femme for non lesbian characters…..?

okay 1. butch/femme have been terms used by gay men, lesbians, nonbinary people, drag communities, forever. 2. I’m a dyke and if I want to joke and say that man is a lesbian I will. 3. please get off tumblr and interact with real queer people and read about gay men who called themselves femme and lesbians who like being called bears and I promise you will feel better and this will not be so important. the crossovers and interaction of queer identities and cultures and experiences is a beautiful thing! revel in it! expand your world past the inane discourse of the Tumblr Queer Community that tries so hard to convince you that isolating yourself in some bubble of label and "who can call themself what" politics is how we should be. kiss a girl fall in love

#also 4. do you want my silly little essay expanding on the ways I structure My Blorbo Relationship around butch/femme relationship #and courtship culture As Read About In Books or do you want to be normal about a little jokey joke on a tumblr blog. #I'm not trying to be aggressive but I was already where you were like #3? years ago. and the process of unlearning the structures and isolationist thinking of Online Queer Community Label Politics was long #and insufferable and thankfully I mostly chill with queer people in their 30s who don't give a fuck about this anymore #It Gets Better. when you let all of that nonsense go it gets better and you open yourself up to #empathy for sooo many more kinds of experiences and the fluidity of queer identity and culture #Anyways. Astarion is an evil little he/him femme dykefag. to me.

[mumblesplash]

mcu and mcu-adjacent writers who acknowledge sleipnir’s backstory but try to spin it so the original myth was ‘a misunderstanding’ or change it into something more palatable are fucking cowards. loki is that horse’s biological mother and if you can’t face that you don’t have what it takes

#this post brought to you by Past Topsy and the golden age of the mcu fandom circa 2014 or something #would that i could have posted this to thousands of online strangers back when it was relevant to both my interests and fandom in general #i didn’t have a platform at the time only pet peeves and correct opinions about the cowardice of authors #and i include the actual movie writers in this idc #god the mcu really used to be possibly going to be so cool do you guys remember #early mcu was one of the only things i read fanfiction for prior to 2020 #not a ton but like there was a year or so there when i was still riding the high of one of my main childhood interests becoming an #entire cinematic extravanganza when i was just the right age to fully Experience The Spectacle but still hadn’t developed critical thought #and even then i apparently already had SOME standards bc i developed this extremely niche pet peeve somehow #mumbling

[rotisseries]

I've said this before but modern au where the party's collective special interest is warrior cats instead of dnd so they call themselves the clan

#first and foremost the most important thing about st is that the party are LOSERS #if you ever forget this fact you end up MILES from the characters we know and love #anyway they hissed in the hallways at least once I know it #max not giving a shit about dnd translates to her being a pjo kid instead #not that there weren't kids who read both series I'm sure the party would like pjo too #but I feel like you were either a pjo kid or a warrior cats kid. not really both simultaneously #or at least that was my experience lmao #I was a pjo kid and I always see people online pick on or the other so. idk I didn't really think too hard about this #stranger things #byler #<- not byler related sorry #the party

[sportsthoughts]

My relentless pursuit of getting a physical copy of Laura Robinson’s crossing the line has now resulted in me just… emailing random email addresses that I think may be her in the hopes that someone will know where I can buy a copy in the UK

#I am desperate there are some parts I want to show a colleague but I read the entire book via an online library #and it was the most horrible reading pdf scans on a computer screen reading experience so I am so keen to buy a physical copy #I have scoured eBay used books websites libraries everything and I cannot find a physical copy of this book!!! #starting to question if £40 to ship from murica is reasonable #no it is NOT reasonable but it’s starting to look reasonable anyway this is what I’ve spent my admin afternoon doing #also if anyone wants the online library link lemme know it's SO worth reading

[derpinette]

girls being nice to me gets me higher than ecstasy ever could

#SORRY for the corny post but this is how i truly feel not waxing poetic here like literally it does #i just met the cool girl i keep talking about & IT WAS SÅ FREAKEING ÅSUM ^_^_^_^_^_^ YAY #HAPPY HAPPY JOY JOY HAPPY HAPPY JOY #OK sorry for screaming But i really am very excited... #turns out she is autistic & we discussed our neuroses while eating & ugh she is just as cool as i thought she was #always tell people you think have Swag that you noticed it on them see how it worked for me #i was so scared of spilling my spaghettis but turns out that was exactly what i needed to do to be friends ^_^ YAY #we went to a lot of different libraries together & i got a small old eyeless bunny plush from the event we went to caus i felt bad for it #i even showed her my pony art & i told her about my cringe interest (that music event i like...♯RealOnesKnow ) #& she thought it was COOL.& i felt like it was really genuine & she talked about reading BL LOL we discussed fujos together #we even talked about finding moids ugly #it was so awesome she was so cool & Nice To Me... i feel like i am on CUMULONIMBUS ( cloud 9 ) ^_^_^_^_^_^ #talking to her in person was so much better than online OMG now i wish i really was friends with you muties IRL #i wish you a Girl Friend experience just like this to those who post about wanting them i really do #also the reason why i even like my Music Event so much is because the first time i watched it was with a bunch of women #& i had so much fun & they were so nice to me i keep returning & now that Event means so much to me & I LOVE IT sorry (NOT) #i know this sounds like tumblrina fiction i would not believe it either IDK what to say to make it sound legitimate 0_0 like it is so crazy #to me as well IDK i can barely get over it & IDK if i really want to so um well YAY ^_^ AIMU SO HEPI :DDD

[ltcolonelcarter]

any last words?

me? using gif experiments as an excuse to revisit my favourite minor dialogue pieces? never!

#connor's face in this gets me every timeeeeee #sO i'm experimenting with new sharpening + new gif dimensions and i think. i THINK i don't hate it. #dbh connor #dbh sixty #i didn't think this dialogue was Super Rare until i looked for it online and couldn't find it...ended up extracting video myself #also recolouring images sand hdr is SUCH A PAIN OKAY #side note: titling time loop sixty was literally me reading connor transcripts searching for the word time #so I could make a pun #and then i was GIFTED THIS LINE #sir i'm emotionally attached to it. #thanks. #detroit become human #misc: my gifs #mavis’ adventures in gifmaking

[soldier-poet-king]

Mmmmm reading systems collapse and the deep persistent ache abt murderbot and ART's friendship. Btw. If u even care.

#fran reads #head full of many thots but i need to finish the book first #but fundamentally. their friendship is absolutely my fave thing about the series #i am. very attached to them. #but like. emotions. non human personhood. extreme anxiety risk assessment constantly running #too many big bad emotions idk how to process so i am going to watch media about it #and then explain my life experiences via narrative features from said media bc idk how else to be a person or relate to the world #like!!! i get it!!!! my awkward not a real person ass is out here like!!!! i do that!!!! #its not bc i dont want to live and have real experiences its bc idk how and i was a weird isolated kid and a neurodivergent adult #and thats how i understand the world!!! #it is v big and scary and terrible and beautiful and having a frame of reference via fictional narrative to process ur owj experiences #its crucial???? #and i don't mean in a terminally online cannot separate ficiton from reality way #i mean in a storytelling is what ppl do way. not just to be entertained. but to reflect ourselves and understand ourselves. and each other!! #im!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! #ART's you know i am not kind. to mb when it insists it wouldve been kinder to kill it #I WEPT

[wright-phoenix]

. . . i'm too aro for this

#i saw someone talk about “obvious” romantic tension between phoenix/maya and athena/simon #and that the average cishet normie consumer would assume they were implied romantic #and i sat there for a full minute trying to process that #because literally all i got from these pairings was big sibling energy #and i realize everyone reads that differently but. #the level of being annoying and being annoyed between maya and phoenix.... #and the whole “i gotta be a big sister” and the whole. maya is mia's little sister so by extention kind of also #taken under phoenix's wing after mia's death #the way they constantly joke about maya being childish bc she likes steel samurai (she isn't. edgeworth also likes it #he's just too stuck up to admit it. also liking “childish” things doesnt make u childish but i digress) #but anyway the joke abt maya being childish vs phoenix being grown up #furthering the perception of the difference between them and maya as a sort of younger sibling figure #and then athena and simon.... #simon literally having been her babysitter somewhat. having played with her when she was younger #and when the Mom Murder Incident happened he cared for her and got her out of there #and took on the blame “for her” ..... #all of that screams older brother to me the way he carried her away from the scene. she was just a child #IDK IS IT REALLY SUPPOSED TO BE OBVIOUSLY ROMANTICALLY IMPLIED????????? #WHAT...... #i KNOW there are people who ship phoenix and maya or athena and simon and that's fine #but to me they were OBVIOUSLY sibling coded instead of OBVIOUSLY romance coded #😭😭😭 #help meeeee #cas.txt #i cant tell if the post i saw was an outlier and tinted by Fandom Perception #or if that's like. a big general consensus and i just don't see it bc i curate my online experience #bc it could go either way. i can see it being an outlier that found its way onto my dash #but i could also see it as a bigger agreed upon thing that just never crossed my dash bc i only interact with sibling content 😭 #either way it baffled me

[piosplayhouse]

Not going to get involved in the ao3 politics shit but I just want to say after reading some of the top posts on this site I can tell most of the people talking about this subject very clearly did not experience Sexytimes With Wangxian

#honestly though despite how you feel about rhe big topics i havent seen much discussion about how The Candidate just... doesnt seem #experienced to be working that position at all? just objectively reading her interview she says she has NO experience working online #even communicating with slack or such; self proclaimed fandom newbie etc #like I can't tell you what to think about the big issues but like if you wanted to hire someone to work at your local dog shelter #and you interviewed them and they said they only really just started interacting w dogs and they had never had any experience #with dealing with caring for animals at all or the adoption process.. would you hire them lol #anyway just my 2 bits #ao3 #ao3 discourse #also hiding this at the very bottom of the tags bc i dont want to catch heat but i actually dont think people are aware so just to qualify #the rpf rhat got ao3 banned in china was not about a real life minor . i see a lot of people talking about minor rpf and i think its weird #as shit too personally but just to get facts right the rpf that allegedly sparked the ban was about a 30yr old adult man #idk if that changes anything but just putting that out there #oh ok also im getting intel that the reason the fic was mass reported and ao3 wS subsequently banned was because the fic #featured one of the actors as trans. so thats a frightening addition if true

[trans-cuchulainn]

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#welp apparently they blocked one of my mutuals too #presumably bc they're friends with me and often reblog me #and did reblog some of the parchment posts #(they previously followed this mutual which i knew which is why i asked) #i feel bad about this. i don't like giving people secondhand enemies #extremely valid and fair to curate your online experience and hide things that make you feel bad about yourself and your work #but i feel bad that my petty grudges are having collateral damage for people who haven't even necessarily read that book #they just joined in my general-purpose parchment ranting

[always-a-slut-4-ghouls]

I just looked at the price on the back of a book I’ve had for a bit over a decade and it was four. fucking. dollars. Just four with no taxes. No extra 97cents or something before taxes. Just a round number that you would add taxes to.

I googled the price of a new edition and it was almost thirteen! Not an even thirteen, it was like 12.96 or something. Close enough that it’s basically thirteen but if you’re adding multiple items together to try and get the price on a purchase with more items it would add more confusion.

#emma posts #it was also a bit difficult to find a new copy on my phone #the edition I have was selling for wildly varying prices as a vintage book now #but that’s just a kids chapter book from a fairly large publisher #I know inflation happens and stuff but holy shit #buying things at the book fair makes so much more sense now #I bought that for 4$ plus taxes at the schoolastic book fair #it was maybe 12 years ago? #I could look at the publishing date for a better idea #the series had just switched publishers and the first few were being re-released at the time #before the new publisher and the author finished the series #four dollars though #I had to check the book because I know the current price of many paperbacks and I knew that series was still in print #but what lead to this was the price tag falling off an old brush I found from like. 2009 or 2010 #and the tag on this very large brush was seven dollars #which seemed cheap so I looked at current brush prices online but since the exact same brush isn’t being sold and brush prices vary more #it was a bit harder for me to get an idea of it. books though. books I know #I’ve even bought stuff from that publisher recently (they have a lot of novel and comic translations) #but it also struck me how the old price tag was an even four and an even seven dollars but all new ones had 97 or 98 cents #that ten dollars from helping out grandma wouldn’t have even gotten me one book with modern prices #but back then I could get TWO #even just seven could have gotten me a book and some fun school supplies back then #to have that experience now you would need to give your kid a 20$ #I understand inflation okay? I am just taken off guard rn and having realizations #I’m going to add to this post again. when I say wildly varied vintage prices I mean WILDLY varied #one dude was trying to sell it on Amazon for 55$ but on eBay it was 4 to 5$ #I bought the next three books in the series from that same print. signed. for 13$ together #I had older editions of those and wanted a full series of just the ones that were being re-released during my reading time

[eternal-reverie]

Something in the back of my mind has been bothering me for a long while, and I figured out what it was. I have this tendency of censoring myself when I speak? I dance around a subject, which I keep hinting at, but never explicitly say what I want to say, and when someone doesn’t pick up on that, I get disappointed when they don’t help me open up to the topic.

#the disappointment deepens and I guess the fear of truly opening up of showing my self flaws and all is scary #in short I’m scared to have an opinion!!! #also when people ask me what I’m into reading to watching oh man I feel the pressure to pitch it and possibly defend it #and instead I just vaguely share what it’s about for the sake of not spoiling the experience #then the envy I feel when other ppl share wholeheartedly what they love and take their time with it explaining #and they explain it so clearly and I wish I could do that #click clack #the problem was so vague it’s taken me awhile to discern #I’m guessing this all stems from being made fun of or dismissed for my interests 😔 #a long time ago but the effects still linger #the fear of being perceived is all wrapped in me #I do the same thing here. it bleeds to all the ways of socializing this day and age #I wish I were one of those ppl who have a more lively social life online and talking to ppl regularly #but my first instinct to a message is to close the notification and leave it for later because it’s so intimidating!!! #it feels like I have to perform an image that’s guaranteed to be liked rather than just be me authentically #ok I got to the crux phewwww uhhh lol got all my vulnerabilities out in the middle of the night

[frukmerunning]

why do you work with teenagers if you don’t like them?

Because it's not like that at all! I LOVE my students regardless of how they act or whatever shitty opinions they might have. These kids mean so much to me, even the ones that are barely 18 and think they have the world figured out so they test my patience every other day. It's great to watch them figure out who they are and slowly get out of that self-centered mindset that all teenagers have. It's just basic developmental psychology. When you're a teenager you're in your own head figuring out who you are and so you have this narrow view of everything around you. And so it's awesome watching them go out into the world and figure that out too. Teenagers, awful as they are sometimes, are amazing. Am I frustrated with them today? Absolutely. But the days where they aren't awful are fantastic.

#rayanne rambles #the human experience is learning how to navigate everything around you and you're constantly learning how to do it #im only 25 so I still have a long way to go #but I can look back on 10 years ago and realize that I was also awful because I see that in my students every day #and I see it online too #sometimes I know someone is a teenager just from reading one post