#my one takeaway from mom tbh

[wheelsup-sevenup]

so you’re telling me this is society if natasha romanoff didn’t jump

#my one takeaway from mom tbh #dr strange #multiverse of madness #doctor strange spoilers #earth 838 #natasha romanoff #natasha romanoff deserved better #idc if this is technically true! whatever! #don’t @ me #anti endgame #tony stark #him too ig #wanda maximoff

[rebouks]

I'm gonna be the realest with you rn and say that I haven't read Somnium (yet?) and I'm just following FIB as you upload, so I caught myself wondering what Oscar's job is! I'm not completely clueless though: I checked some older posts and from what I saw, I assumed he's a hacker and worked for a criminal gang? But what about now? Just a freelancer? And what about Courtney? What does homegirl got going for her? Tbh I'd love to know the profession of all your sims! Pls don't mind my lazy ass :')

Haaah! I can't say I blame you tbh since it's quite an investment at this point (still worth it imo tho LOL) but yeah, it's hard to catch up sometimes skjkdj <- me currently tryna catch up on a bazillion stories omg

Let's cover as many as we can! lmk if I miss any tho 🙈

But yessss.. Oscar is a freelancer programmer at the moment! He's VERY good at it but moved away from his naughtiness on that front for the most part 🤭 it works really well for him since he's not too great with structure and can work from home! (his office still SUCKS tho ;-;)

Courtney - Stay at Home Mom! She used to work at a garden centre and she's had a million n' one jobs before that too, she doesn't know what she wants to do 🙃 she'll think abt it some more when the kiddos are all old enough for school tho probs...

Ivan - Mechanical Engineer - haven't thought abt this one too much, I imagine he works at some kinda factory looking after/fixing all the machines tho idk 🤔

Bruno - Landscape Gardener

Noah - Artist! He has his own gallery now too and he scouts/stocks other peoples work as well as his.

Aspen - Yoga Teacher - kinda casual tho since Noah makes enough for both of em n' then some.

Sidney - Retired A&E Doctor! Still works the odd shift to help out tho cos she can't help herself.

Alton - Retired Charity Worker (FOR THE TREEEES! 🌲)

Alma - Semi Retired Medium/Tarot Card Reader

Mack/Kobe - Mechanics (still own their lil garage in the Harbor)

Darien - Accountant (a very GOOD accountant & only slightly dodgy these days, plenty of legal ways around the law u kno 😉)

Wyatt - Unemployed! Man's got enough money to last several lifetimes but messes with a lot of stocks, he'll tell people he's an Investor)

Brynn - Stay at Home Mom! She's quite social tho, I can see her getting a job in a cafe or smth when the kids go to school just for fun)

Tilda - Seamstress! She works with a slightly eccentric woman in her shop in the Bay

Tristen - Pizza Boy/Lifeguard! He works with Kara in a cute lil takeaway in town at night, but by day he picks up shifts as a lifeguard on the beach, especially in spring/summer 🌊 He has his own place now!! 🏠👀

Mia - Paramedic! She works a LOT

Suzie - Dog Sitter/Groomer - she has her own grooming station in the garage/outhouse so basically works from home!

Miya - Mixologist!

Rhys - Photographer - he's mostly done weddings/events in the past but he's working toward doing more projects of his own since he has a studio now! 📸

Tommy - Psychiatrist (Still doing his residency tho)

#ranswers #ewwwww work #😆 #fib extras #? #kinda #idk #all this kinda shit is usually in the background i suppose #good excuse to write it all down!! #<33

[helenstudies]

10/100 days of productivity

I finally cleaned up my table so that I can take better pictures for my studyblr lmao. Also I'm trying out a new format on this post so let me know what it looks like!

Study

finished hyouka manga volume 11 in Japanese! and I'm starting volume 12. I learned a lot of vocabularies that I wasn't expecting to learn because they went on about the history of the science behind chocolate making.

Work

prepared materials for my chinese and korean classes, which took me three hours.

taught said classes for three hours.

Life

I'm still reading the original novel of Hyouka, which is "the niece of time" in Kotenbu series.

Chatted with a bunch of friends in my tarot telegram channel after classes and tbh it feels so good to just talk about nothing with a bunch of fun-loving women who love and respect you.

Got two cups of takeaway coffee! I'm spending my hard-earned money in the way that makes me happy and no one can take my latte or mocha away from me.

In addition to the coffees, my mom bought me sushi, that is salmon and tuna sashimi. My aunt made one of my favorite dishes. Because they knew teaching two classes is hard for me. I wanted to cry with joy.

Others

I'm trying out a new app called "Do It Now" and it's fun as heck. It is an RPG style productivity app where you level up yourself and honestly, I can't play dnd so what the heck, right?

I'm grateful one of my friends got her friend to sign up for my chinese level 2 class. I only had 2 learners and I didn't feel good. But now I have four people in class and for four people, I can try hard for two months! I love teaching!

To Do List

I need to finish two urgent tarot readings in eight hours. Also several non-urgent readings.

Study Worldview Studies and Health Psychology by today.

Finish reading the book I picked out for my bookclub.

Study pali for the upcoming assignment and exam on 31st march.

#studyblr #langblr #100 days of productivity #chinese language #chinese studyblr #chinese langblr #japanese language #japanese studyblr #korean language #korean studyblr #tarotblr #oracle reader #bookblr #book club #productivity #teachblr

[chaosnojutsu]

Ship ask game: Shikatema!

Ship it!

1. What made you ship it?

Tbh they were the first couple I was SURE of. A few key pieces of evidence come into play:

Re: “dad, what made you fall in love with someone like mom?” Saw that scene and my biggest takeaway was “cool, I know nothing about Shikamaru’s dad except he gets pegged.” That, combined with the rampant misogyny displayed by young Shikamaru, led me to believe that a powerhouse of a woman was gonna wind up with Shikamaru.

There’s a scene (which I believe is anime only) in which Ino bodyshames Choji and, to comfort his friend, Shikamaru’s brilliant response was something along the lines of “skinny girls like Ino aren’t even that cute, I like a girl with a little meat on her bones.” Heard that and my brain was like “okay, looking for a powerhouse woman who isn’t drawn with a 00 waist. shouldn’t be hard to find.”

Chunin exams. As SOON as they threw Temari in the ring with Shikamaru, I fell in love with them. Like, conceptually. I just knew that wasn’t going to be their only encounter. And then when Temari showed up during the Sasuke Retrieval Arc?? Game over, they were IT for me.

2. What are your favorite things about the ship?

I’m a (simp)le gal— the brainy characters have always drawn me to them. I love how evenly matched they are, and in areas where they aren’t matched, they complement each other so well.

And the (eventual) mutual respect… SHEESH. Temari pushes Shikamaru to be the best version of himself, and that leads to Shikamaru being one of the only characters worthy of commanding a soldier as powerful as her.

They make me laugh. Never once do either of them lose their composure until the other is around, which is downright adorable, but also sets up some iconic comedic moments (re: honeymoon shopping).

And the symbolism!! Okay Mr. “I just wanna be a cloud, floating wherever the breeze takes me.” I see you marrying the breeze herself! You think you’re sooo slick lmao.

3. Unpopular opinion?

Yeah I think they need more sweet & soft moments instead of being the “naggy/violent wife” trope every time they get an ounce of screen time together these days. And I especially don’t like the (fan) characterizations of Temari as an abuser.

Bonus round: They’d make excellent villains. I wouldn’t hate it at all if the canon storyline ever took that route (it won’t). Deeply in love, watching the world burn from the flames they sparked, hand in unlovable hand.

#thank you for asking! #winterberryholly #shikatema

[petrichoraline]

thanks to @pondphuwin @tinybangtanx and @chinzhillababy for indulging me and in such an incredible way too 😭🥰💖

okay, so *cracks knuckles* this is my big episode 11 prediction theory (and how it came to be) these are my predictions based on these beautiful cryptic resumes showed above. i should post a full ep11 script later, i just really want to get these out in the open before i go offline

at first the oishii pp part made me think in this direction: "those bottle scenes are always a bit spicy so maybe tinngun were doing another round of will-they-won't-they and looking at each others eyes while seductively gulping down pp juice when someone, maybe tinn's mom? walked in on them (and this was the last proof she needed to go off on tinn?)"

but then i was gobsmacked with "only drink from drinks you know about" which is giving "bar safety for girlies 101"? and makes me think about that "how each member of ateez would react if you ask them to watch your glass" video but anyways

i really doubt they're putting drugs into the last ep of The Wholesome Show™️ so there is def something else going on but quite important if two people decided it was vital to mention it

let's go to the other common point: "there is such a thing as taking "falling for you" too far" and "never give up but always watch ur step as u go"

i thought at first that this seems simple enough, a part of a pair (cause it's ep 11, obviously it's not gonna all be about tinngun) clumsily fell while being cute..i did, however, find it a bit sus it's one of two things said that @pondphuwin found worthy to mention..

so @chinzhillababy's addition made me paint a more colourful picture - person A upset person B, some big relationship quarrel occured but person A was like "oh no, this can't be it, i'm fighting for this, for us!" (based on the vibes of love and persistance the clues are exuding) and going after person B in a dramatic fashion, they fell down a solid amount of stairs; i was thinking tinngun tbh but reading about this type of stupidity just makes tiw's face steal tinn's spot in my imaginary scene..i can definitely see por being the needy bf being chased too. this would make sense if them secretly dating was canon and they had a fight about going public..i do, however, think my dash would have been bombarded with posts about it, so i feel i have to exclude that theory

honestly i'm just imagining someone making a dramatic love confession, falling fatally, ending up in hospital and dying (cause tissues?? went off with their acting?? @tinybangtanx your comment is so simple yet so confusing and it sets my imagination OFF)

but i remind myself this is the The Cute Vitamin of the Week Show™️ and get my head back in the boring reality of everyone being safe and sound 🙄 (if someone is actually seriously harmed i will kinda laugh ngl just because it'd feel like i've lost a bet brutally)

i can't get rid of the feeling it's more about a cathartic moment rather than a completely sad one, some type of breakthrough - although i imagine gun being a part of it, it might be the final conflict resolution or at least the open confrontation between tinn and his mom (which i imagine the show wouldn't treat lightly, their mom/son dynamic has been one of the constant themes of the show and this conversation is long overdue, the tension has been building since episode 1); ah, they better not be doing anything to gun's mom, considering the operation went well i doubt they'll be playing a will-she-won't-she (survive) in the last episodes (but the ending of the first resume is so ominous, the type of comment a person who's been hit by a shocker in a show and has been crying over fictional characters and is emotionally exhausted would put at the end of a sentence 😑(this is me squinting at you, mint, this "<3" bothered me more than the tissues comment! two takeaways is a sus amount of takeaways!! it reads as "idk what to tell ya this was a mess and i'm still not sure what i just watched"😭)

ugh let's move on, "arms are NOT legs (sometimes)" was the point at which i stopped squinting out of fear of being spoiled and just snorted loudly... this feels like another drunk gun moment- ohh

okay if the drink comment was NOT about the oishii product placement? if they are two different things OR there's not juice in those bottles? if someone really DID get drunk by accident and this arms-legs moment is just so cute and batshit insane that it HAD to be mentioned (but wasn't that important to the plot)?

i saw the thumbnails earlier btw so i know tiwpor are in this episode for sure but just realised i dont remember the preview from last week as i was trying to figure out what info i have from the previous ep

the arm/leg thing just reminds me of that yeosang video where he put his leg up during a photoshoot instead of his arm because the words sound the same but anyways; it also makes me think of like "give me your hand" and then they give him their leg..? or walking on all fours up stairs? (like it's basically a lot of drunk behaviour imagery, i'm stuck in this scenario lmao) so let's see the rest of the "details"

but before that i want to mention "never give up" really feels more like a not love-related thing, like chase your dreams or run after smth, it's only because of the "falling for you" line that i stay on the "romantic encounter/quarrel track)

(this is my thoughts flowing in real time, if you can't tell, that's why this post is two kilometers long, written in short paragraphs for orderliness and reading it probably feels like being splashed with a shot of espresso in the face at every turn)

okay maybe the arm/leg thing is about a hit? slap vs kick? and the sometimes is like.. whatever gets the job done? lol dramatic por shit if you ask me but maybe soundgun are finally battling that sexual tension out idk (again, my feed would not shut up if that were the case)

"you don't always need to swat away mosquitoes" - okay who kissed who? like this is definitely about a cheesy ass romantic moment (im imagining a camping tent cause that's what i associate mosquitoes with apparently lmao but this ain't golden blood); like one of these guys sucked on someone's wrist or..?? maybe it's a cute nickname, maybe it's about the actual insect but someone (i am seeing tiwpor because of a thumbnail being stuck in my head) for sure turned a huh? moment into a cute type of confession thing (i can't get a tiwpor in a tent scenario out of my head, i'm corrupted);

"if you're feeling dizzy hold on tight" - the more i read the more i feel someone ended up at a hospital.. did someone fall off a bike?? did they fall from the stairs?? (there are school stairs in my mind and i can't do anything about that, they're part of my imaginary ep set now)

i am so sleepy at this point i just saw the cute poses they were doing in a gif (and immediately clicked away okay) that i also saw in a thumbnail but i'll try not to put that into my episode

okay so the boys went off with their acting which means that this ain't about gemfourth only probably? it feels like it's a more balanced or side-couple heavy episode; maybe tinngun appear for a mom conflict moment but the rest is establishing what is going on with the other guys? maybe a lot of group scenes again// it wouldve helped if yall mentioned names guys i am sweating over here;

like did the oishii pp come before the falling or not?? who winged their tags here?? this is important you guys :((

i just saw a gif of gun screaming angrily (and first - hot- but second nooo okay this is gonna solidify tinngun as the falling couple, tiwpor can get the mosquitoes and soundwin are on a bike)

speaking of soundgun the arm/leg thing could be related to their whole "i'll be your hands" thing and sound's injury, i feel like it could come back in this episode in some way?

the drinks thing sounds like a silly chinzhilla mess-around gone wrong or a complete accident one of the members caused, like he placed his bottle full of god knows what in the wrong spot and someone drank it in a hurry;

"you don't always need to swat away mosquitoes" feels like such a romantic line. like "things that seem bad may bring you more joy than you imagined and could be right for you", smth spoken while one is walking away and the other gently gets hold of their wrist (yes, this is still calm tiw sitting down on a chair in a tent holding por's hand who looks distressed and is also wearing shorts with a belt and an expensive shirt tucked in, no, that will not make the final cut, it's a draft i can't get rid of, you see)

I KEEP SEEING MEME POSTS LIKE SMTH TIWPOR SMTH PAT SMTH AND I AM TOO SLOW AND INTRIGUED AND LOOK AWAY JUST IN TIME YO THIS IS A BATTLEFIELD (like why did all these msp posts start coming in now, is it the americans, did yall just get home and start blogging)

okayy serious conflict and what they are makes me think about the drinks again. if these are reffering to the bottles, aside from the content of the bottle, what else could be important about it? an indirect kiss? someone took gun's bottle and tinn was jealous for example? but that's silly stuff. so maybe there was a note on one of them? i am assuming it's more than one but maybe it is precisely one bottle as the pp this time and there was a romantic message on it (this reminds me of another show that's not coming to me rn). so this note gets in the hands of someone who was not meant to see it so maybe that's how tinngun's relationship gets revealed to the band (i had completely forgotten that was a conflict and could be turned into a big deal, i sobered up a bit and remembered just now); i feel like im way more on track with this one ngl ngl feels.. revelationary

again back to "you don't always need to swat away mosquitoes" - this is soundwin. it has to beeeee. like mosquitoes are annoying but you don't always have to chase them away, you can be a big tsundere about it (prior or post starting dating depending on whether you're sound or win lol) and let them be a part of your life, something like that.

tiw's career expectations vs wishes situation might actually be more than just a throwaway line for the job consultation part of the show, if we get to see more tiw that may be explored a bit. i personally don't know shit about por aside from the fact he's a fan of a teacher and has a fun fashion sense (that might be on me, i have trouble with understanding chinzhilla members) so it's very hard to speculate what they'd do together when given more screentime, all i can think about is their tutoring session and how that relates to career choices so it feels inevitable from my pov that their plot is gonna involve the topic of growing up or defying expectations or smth

the only feeling of dizzyness i can think off aside from bikes is the one gun's mom experiences? or maybe tinn's mom would experience out of shock (y'know, lakorn style) and considering thats the last comment in those tags i'm guessing it's about the end of the episode so maybe tinn's mom finally reacts to tinngun and faints or smth and tinn has to do some doctor- we had that with gun's mom already, moving onn

I JUST REMEMBERED THE PREVIEW WAITT so the last ep ended with hot wave (i absolutely forgot that you do not understand how hard im giggling at myself for that rn, i have to binge shows, otherwise you get me writing about msp for hours and not recalling the most anticipated event of the show happening as a cliffhanger last week) and in the preview they were back at the resort and gun talked about how he didn't want the guys to regret staying with him and they did a group hug.. now the other stuff i don't remember.) i'm guessing they didn't win; the way i remembered is i was like "tf they doing for a whole episode? a road trip?" and it came to me) so if they're back in the resort with pat i'm guessing my dude finally took two minutes to give them some words of wisdom without acting insane; maybe this ending of sorts for them got por thinking about his future and that got him and tiw talking and bonding but some of those tags have to be about tiwpor and yet NONE OF THEM FIT WITH THIS THEORY

#msp #my school president #my school president ep11 #i consume a lot of ateez content on tiktok and it shows #lets stop here gn #no im not rereading this before posting #yes pleaseee if you do read comment on it but write SPOILERS if you talk about any #if you see soundgun i mean soundwin i mix them up a lit cause soundgun sounds better

[juniperhillpatient]

Okay me & @camipretzel just re watched Heathers (first time with the movie for Cami 🥺) & some big things I think musical fans (me included) forget

Veronica is just as blood thirsty as JD in the movie (she still tries to deny it but it’s a loott more clear that she knew what she was doing than in the musical)

Duke & Veronica are a lot tighter than in the musical & have more one on one or together screen time & Chandler & Mcnamara are a lot more evil toward Duke than in the musical (imo anyway, & it probably does depend on the production & what lines they keep in to an extent)

McNamara is much less sad & more evil for most of the movie tbh, I kinda like her having more bite than in the musical. Honestly every single character is more of an asshole in the movie 😂

Movie JD is a lot more evil & less emotional than musical JD yes I see this one talked about a lot but also what I don’t see pointed out is that EVERYONE is more stunted in the movie cause that’s kinda the style (Veronica’s mom doesn’t even scream when she walks in on her hanging 😳)

JD & Duke evilly vibe & have a lot of chemistry & if that one anon who asked me if I shipped them is still around: I said no at the time cause it had been forever since I watched the movie & forgot how much chemistry that version of them has. I’ve changed my answer now

Okay, Cami, if you have stuff to add feel free but those are some takeaways from me 😌

#heathers #heathers the movie #heathers the musical

[owen-not-carvour]

I have, once again, made my dad (and also my mom this time!) listen to Will Wood.

First was "Laplace's Angel", which my dad described as "frantic." which is fair. Next up was "Vampire Reference in a Minor Key" because it's a beautiful song and I love it. My parents both thought it was nice, and my mom said the guitar parts of the song reminded her of musician Ottmar Liebert. I googled it, and turns out a guitar song I liked in elementary school was done by Ottmar Liebert, the more you know!

Last time I sent you an anon about playing Will Wood songs for my parents, you suggested I play "Let's Get You Home" since my dad likes Will's calmer songs. I took your advice! He seemed to think it was nice, but wasn't too particularly interested in it. I was reminded of how soft and emotional that song is.

My final song choice was "Marsha Thankk You". My dad was pretty curious about this one and asked me to read the lyrics to him after the song finished.

ohhhhhh if it isn’t my favorite (and only) anon!!

welcome back my guy :)

my takeaways:

-accurate description of Laplace’s Angel FOR SURE i fuckin love that shit fghjkjhgf

(i read your ‘which is fair’ in will’s voice from becoming the last names 🙃)

-VAMPIRE REFERENCE YESSSSSSSS i adore that song with my whole being it is one of the more real songs i have ever heard (me abt all of wills music though lol)

-that’s also a super cool connection between music too..

this is sort of a parallel tangent to that,, but ik will uses a lot of familiar motifs and melodies n shit (even his own ones too) across all of his music so i always think its interesting when he sounds familiar to another artist.. or like 15. (i often feel like i’d heard some of will’s songs before i’d heard them but i still can’t place what they remind me of. i’m talking about red moon and 5 names if anyone has any ideas)

-tbh his opinion of lets get you home is also very valid.. the first time i heard it i thought basically the same thing. and then i listened to it during a depressive episode at like 3 am and it changed my life and means a whole lot more to me now,,, same with falling up and white noise.. so yeah icimi i love you forever lol

-and marsha is another great choice (you rlly can’t miss with will though !!) and him asking you to tell him the lyrics after is SO real. my favorite line from that one (not including how the whole song just has an interesting vibe and meaning and etc etc) is “you could sing a pretty malady like a black canary, but a crow don’t know the smell of carbon monoxide.”

just. AHHHHHHHH i didn’t realize he said “malady” instead of “melody” for like a week at first but it still made perfect sense.. it just got Better when i realized it was a different word

#my favorite thing to occasionally grace my inbox :) #thanks for the update! #i love responding to these bc its just an excuse to talk abt oddly specific aspects of will wood songs/music in general #and that is my idea of fun lol #will wood

[felixfathom]

tbh liluka is more interesting than feluka bc they're both characters that read people and find their vulnerabilities except luka tries to help them whereas lila takes advantage of them to archieve a goal . feluka cannot be interesting to me bc felix is strictly analytical and even though the crew LOVES to focus on how "manipulative" he is, he only really knows how to do it with adrien because he's known him ALL HIS LIFE . and his innocent act only works when he's imitating adrien, because Felix Fathom is NOT trustworthy .

he's a great actor but when thinking of how to fuck ladybug over, he asked how the yo-yo works! because he's more observant than anything else - he pays attention to the envoironment rather than the people in it, that's how he works . and now that he most can't use adrien as a scapegoat for his actions, he's going to have to face his struggles as Himself . he has no one but lila has like, two whole schools and an arsenal of moms or whatever . felix is reserved, closed off and luka is so passive that unless he Directly harmed marinette in front of him, they would probably pass eachother in the street and not even make eye contact . in all fairness i don't fully understand luka and i refuse to rewatch S4 so this interpretation may be incorrect in some regards but at the very least this is my takeaway from the felix side which i definitely understand better 🤷‍♀️ imo feluka has no appeal and i hate it . all the more power to you if you understand it but i'm too busy obsessing over starcrossed lovers with common themes and parallels

#ml leaks #for . the lila shit 💀 #also the last line is referring to shinerinne shinlouis . dying

[calliecat93]

2022 was a year where I focused on improving and starting to like myself. To some degree I succeeded, in others I failed. I've taken the steps to improve my anxiety and I'm doing pretty well since starting taking meds. The anxiety is still there, but it's becoming a lot more manageable. As far as liking myself... let's just say that some days are better than others. It's still super easy to fall into that void and be so hard on myself, but I have better awareness as to why I do and how to manage it. Overall I'm in a better space than I was back in 2020 when my anxiety/mental health really went downhill.

This has however affected my online life and Tumblr. I accomplished pretty much nothing. TBH I think it was necessary to both begin focusing on my actual life and to just enjoy being online again instead of imposing these expectations on myself. I hope in 2023 I can begin doing more again, but no promises. I'm taking it day by day. It doesn't help that a lot of my fandoms either had their shows end (Amphibia), I've stepped away from for multiple reasons and plan to remain stepped back when things resume (RWBY, The Owl House), or I've just lost interest in.

Really I'm gonna be honest... I'm in a terrible rut concerning animation. There's barely anything I want to see. Recent decisions like with HBO Max severely impacted my enthusiasm. Some stuff like Bob Iger coming back to Disney helped, but overall... I'm at a low point. I've always been so passionate about animation... but right now it's dead. The last time I got like this when I was 13-14 I got into classical animation to reignite it. But I feel like I've explored every single avenue over and over. IDK, there's just nothing left to excite me and IDK how to reignite the passion this time around. Most stuff I indulge in nowadays are cooking shows, some documentaries, and RuPaul's Drag Race which I doubt anyone's interested in me posting about. I have been rewatching Ed, Edd, n' Eddy which has been fun so maybe 2023 will be better, but yeah... I just hate feeling like this.

As far as RL goes, we lost our dog Lovebug after sixteen years and that was hard. There's some other stuff with some relatives that has stressed me out, but for the sake of privacy I won't discuss it on here. There's also the multiple celebrity deaths/deaths of childhood icons that REALLY hurt. Gilbert Gottfried, Angela Lansbury, Mom McGrath, Emilio Delgado, Pat Carroll, Kevin Conroy, Jason David Frank, and those are just the ones off the top of my head. Otherwise, 2022 wasn't my worst year. There's been a lot of changes, both good and bad, but I've certainly had worst. 2022 was a rough but overall okay year. At least I made it to the end in one piece.

What's in store for 2023? IDK yet. I have some ideas, but I don't want to open up about it quite yet. I'm hoping to get blog stuff running more, but ultimately this is what I do for fun. I need to focus on my actual life. That was probably my biggest takeaway from this year. I also turn 30 in February, so... that'll be fun. I have something big hopefully happening that I won't talk about until closer to the time, but I am SOOOOO excited for it~!

Happy New Year everyone~! See you in 2023~!!!

[softgrungeprophet]

i’ve watched a lot of futurama in the last week and i have thoughts about this comedy show .... i think i can confidently say season “7″ —aka season 6A aka the first full season on comedy central—was not that great.

i found it repetitive and dull compared to the pre-CC (aka Fox) episodes and relying too heavily on gimmicks and empty catchphrases from previous seasons. the jokes were half as funny and that's even if you DON'T take into account the show's persistently bad attitude toward fat people and trans women, which is definitely my biggest criticism of the show as a whole having watched over 100 episodes in a week, and which was definitely plenty strong in season 6A/7/whatever

(clearly i have nothing better to do with my time but lol) it’s so glaring how even shows that are like... progressive or whatever... always still go for like... fat people, trans people (anyone dmab especially), and sex workers as fodder for “humor.” like Shut The Fuck Up and tell a real joke dumbass

also the weird feminism jokes.... mostly those are confusing more than they are offensive, in both trying to present women as people with intelligence and capability and also playing into stereotypes. they're not eye candy! but make sure they have visible cleavage and/or get naked. they aren't stupid! but here are all the stupid feminists who loooove shoes and shopping. it's like whiplash! and honestly as often happens they’re close to something on the cis feminists’ obsession w/ wombs and vaginas and whatever but as always they never hit on the actual issues w/ modern white feminism lol

other than that i think a lot of it holds up, especially in the first five seasons, and a lot of the social commentary is unfortunately still relevant 90% of the time, and the show is remarkably deft at combining pathos and emotion with humor. like

at the same time sometimes the fryxleela stuff is actually kind of confusing, because they will end an episode with them declaring their love after deliberating for a while, they’ll even like, be on a date or Officially Making Out and then the next episode it will be as if that never happened and leela hates fry again and doesn’t want to see his face????? it’s weird but i guess that’s probably a symptom of being a cable TV animated sitcom where canonicity is typically based on humor rather than stringent timelines of occurrences.

anyway despite the fact that i found season “7″ aka 6A lackluster, and considering it’s a comedy show of the sort where canon = whatever makes for the best punchline (well... usually) so sometimes it has contradictory moments, its continuity is actually surprisingly consistent... especially in terms of character design. even random one-off characters who show up years later are still like... on-model and in-character.... it’s almost like (i assume) having a show bible is useful. like, man, after reading marvel comics for a few years and seeing things like chris claremont going “wyatt has a sister right? what’s her name? well now it’s wynona.” oops now wyatt has two sisters! also an uncle or something because we forgot his grandpa was dead and also forgot his grandpa’s name and also we thought he was his dad—well anyway, new family members! after reading all that— it’s weird to watch a show where fry’s mom looks the same in flashbacks in season 7 or her first appearance and where background characters don’t suddenly have new names........

thinking about how in spidey and agent venom comics flash’s sister was turned from the auburn-haired leather jacket wearing dangly-earring wearing stubborn woman she was in the 90s into, in the 2000s, a blonde permed housewife with no personality or character, cause no one gave half enough of a shit to read her two prior appearances and you know no one at marvel gives a flying fuck about continuity for their ~oh so serious~ comics lmao

anyway

my takeaway is that futurama has more rigorous continuity checks than all of marvel, which, tbh, not that surprising

      also i think bender is probably not straight (insert joke about bending here) and you could probably write a goddamn essay about hyperperformative masculinity in the show in general but specifically as it pertains to bender, overcompensation, his (occasionally stalker-level) obsession with masculine role models such as elzar and calculon, his defensiveness when it comes to his sexuality and the perceived thought that someone MIGHT be calling him gay, as well as his initial shame in interests such as cooking and i guess you could also take into account the olympics sex change episode (boy in recent context that episode was A Lot) as a facet of his ... idk... feminine side

obviously liking cooking doesn’t make someone gay (or bi or whatever) but i think it’s just a detail that in the context is one more little thing to think about.

        also the susan “boil” joke was stupid and unfunny. tedious, even.

#nadia rambles #also hermes' wife is tall and beautiful #that's ME being gay

[eolewyn1010]

Talking about Encanto - Julieta and Agustín

Admittedly, my initial opinion of Julieta was not the best. Because she's such a typical Disney mom. Kind, sweet, understanding, caring, down-to-earth and... passive. She felt very much like a carbon copy of Moana's mother to me, who is not terrible, you know, I don't hate Moana's mother - she just has very little substance beyond the maternal role, and Julieta looked like she was going much the same way. The stereotype only got reinforced by how the magic screwed her over; just healing wasn't enough, it also had to be combined with cooking to really drive the point home. Imagine being five years old and getting stuck in the role of the town's caretaker forever. Frickin' amazing. (Not a fan of this magic system, tbh. Five years is too young to stick with one character trait to build a role and social career on.)

On the other hand, I myself love cooking, and I have a ton of respect for medics, so that was definitely not my best takeaway, but I would have been pissed at Disney if that was all she ever is. Luckily, she isn't! Oh, she's definitely understanding and caring and all that, but she also manages to be the single most emotionally stable person in this family of chaos, and I can only guess at the inner strength it takes. A strength she gets to show toward her mother - I think very highly of her for calling Alma out on her treatment of Mirabel. I like to think she does that for her siblings, too, perhaps even that she's one of the reasons Pepa developed the confidence to snap back at her mother as well. Also, even in her maternal role, that is, interacting with Mirabel, she's funny and spirited and not passive at all; woman is racing against a magic house that's tossing her out with rock-hard force to get to her daughter. I stand corrected, and I'm glad.

That's because we see her interacting with other people than her kid - as mentioned, she is a stubborn daughter to her mother, and she's also a damn smitten wife to her goofball of a husband and a loving sister to her brother. (That's not to say Pepa isn't; just Julieta might be the more stable support.) Look at her with her arm around Bruno at the end of All Of You. She's so happy to have him back! (I'm soft for all the triplet fanart, both of their childhood and adult life, okay? Okay.)

So, let's talk about her marriage and the aforementioned goofball. Interestingly, I'm pretty sure this is the first Disney marriage with the husband younger than the wife, if only a little. Now, I've read a lot about how the triplets don't look their age, but honestly? Julieta has grey streaks in her hair, mild wrinkles on the forehead and under the eyes and a bit deepened nasolabial folds; she looks aged enough. A tiny bit more so than Agustín (as if he would mind; that man adores everything about her). She is fifty years old, she just also happens to be gorgeous. (Yeah, yeah, I'm being preachy here, but I'm a firm opponent of the notion that a woman can only be attractive until the age of forty at best.) Someone pointed out in a post that Julieta resembles her father a lot, and she does, and it's making me soft.

I also like that she has that subtle sass going on in her interactions with Agustín. How she's just, "beestings? Again? Okay, here, love, have a healing snack..." Openly exasperated, but not in a pissy or uncomfortable kind of way, just a thing she deals with on a daily basis, y'know.

Agustín has my genuine sympathies. Imagine being allergic to bees and having a daughter that makes flowers grow wherever she goes. Shame that, aside from Mirabel, we don't see him in many scenes with his kids in the movie - although he does run after a crying Luisa trying to calm her down, so there's that. But just the way he basically gets heart eyes whenever he's with his wife, that combined with his overall clumsiness and good-natured attitude; I like to think he's an awesome dad. And his daughter inherited his visual impairment. Go, glasses!

I also think he might be a reason why Mirabel isn't really bitter, per se. She's hurting, true, and she does feel excluded at times, but she also obviously loves her family and enjoys life, and she sees herself as having an inherent value as a person that she defends toward Abuela because her father who can't walk down a street without tripping over something (with bees in it) doesn't have a magic spark in his entire lanky body, and he's, like, the best. ...okay, so I might have been on board with Agustín a little easier than with Julieta. Hey, I'm only human, and he makes dorky faces. And the huge cat loves him. And he plays piano; imagine the music nights with the kids. Got your party pants on, anyone? And all those little stories out there how he met and fell (lame pun intended) for Julieta, I love them. Knowing that he was not Alma's first choice for her daughter, I wonder if they had it difficult to marry and get him accepted in the house - and if perhaps that still sours his relationship to Alma and plays into that angry "I was thinking of my daughter!" scene. He does that with Julieta by his side. They're such a good team. Anyway.

I think the reason I can get so much into their relationship, as well as that of Pepa and Félix, is that happy marriages are not actually much of a Disney staple. Or at least, visible, prominent happy marriages. The Disney rule is tragic orphan, single parent (who lost their spouse in a sufficiently tragic way, but Alma might just take the fucking cake with how raw and realistic her loss was), or the parents only feature in their role as, well, parents (hello, passive Disney mom) and so we rarely see how they are with each other. Maybe Disney finally watched Brave and took a page out of Pixar's book about Fergus and Elinor. Like, this dynamic of a competent, clever woman and that "I fucking love my wife" guy? That's great. I'll have more of that, please.

#Encanto #character analysis #or something #personal opinions

[allthefilmsiveseenforfree]

Old (2021)

Oh you guys. You guyyyyyys. Buckle the fuck up, I am so pumped to tell you about this absolutely GONZO mummified deuce of a movie. Spoilers will be had in this one, because you need to know everything. 

Old is the latest from M. Night Shyamalan and like....I think we all know M. Night’s track record. For every Sixth Sense, we also get a Happening or a Village. In some ways, he’s the most exciting director working today because every new film is a 50/50 coin toss, and mama loves living on the edge. The gist of this latest roll of the dice is that a group of different families who have all come to stay at a remote luxury beach resort get invited to go to a secluded private beach for the day, and after they arrive they discover they can’t leave. That’s not great, but the bigger problem is that they seem to be aging rapidly - like 2 years older every hour or so. That’s a solid “how are we gonna get outta this one” bottle episode premise, and in the hands of a better writer, it could be a fun sci-fi romp. M. is NOT that writer. 

Some thoughts:

I should have known it would all go wrong from the terrible foreshadowing starting at the very beginning scene. The mom of our main family, Prisca (Vicky Krieps) says “You have such a beautiful voice, I can’t wait to hear it when you’re older.” The dad, Guy (Gael Garcia Bernal) says, “Don’t rush this moment, enjoy the present while you can.” BECAUSE THE CHARACTERS WON’T BE ABLE TO LATER, DO YOU GET IT? dO yOU GEt iT? Wife leaned over and said “look at all the ferns - the oldest plants!” That last one was probably her projecting, but the point stands: there is nothing subtle about Old. 

There’s a lot of just like, shouting out loud the things that are currently happening onscreen. “She’s having a seizure!” “People who go back the way we came black out!” “The rust has entered your bloodstream; it acts like poison!” That’s how you tell stories, right? Just having characters point out events that are occurring right in front of their stupid fucking faces with no other commentary or reflection? 

An additional element that feels woefully ignorant at best and malicious at worst is the inclusion of a black male character (Aaron Pierre) who 1) is a rapper 2) is named Mid-Sized Sedan [I’ll give you a moment to deal with that detail emotionally] 3) says the single line of dialogue “Damn.” at least 4 times and 4) suffers the bloodiest, most violent onscreen death at the hands of a racist white man who is revealed to have paranoid schizophrenia. There are other gruesome deaths onscreen, to be sure, but the worst are body horror nightmares that could never occur in the real world - a woman whose bones are breaking and setting in the wrong position nearly instantaneously until she resembles a horrifying spider creature, and the aforementioned rust-in-the-bloodstream trick that leads to a Jeff-Goldblum-in-The Fly-bubbling-skin infection kinda deal. But Mid-Sized Sedan just gets stabbed in the chest repeatedly, brutally, a bunch of times by a white guy who pleads fear for his life even though MSS posed no danger to him, and it all happens onscreen when so many other characters are offered the mercy of offscreen deaths. I’m not sure if M. is trying to throw some real-world horror in and he’s just shit at it, or if it really didn’t occur to him how malicious this inclusion feels in a fantasy narrative, and I don’t really care. If you have a black character in your story and they die, you better think really long and hard about how it happens and what it means and it’s clear no one did that here.

Nothing to do with the film itself, but it did tickle me that someone brought a tiny infant to my pretty packed screening. The baby was very chill, thank goodness, and as far as I know did not age up to a kindergartner during the course of the film.

There is a Very Good Dog, a Yorkie, present for the first part of the film, but unfortunately the dog dies. It occurs offscreen, and given the premise of what’s going on on this beach, it’s not a shock when it happens BUT STILL. 

The old age makeup, at least on Prisca is pretty great. Good job makeup department!

At one point, Guy gets attacked by another beachgoer, and his eyesight is failing so he has a hard time fighting back. But you are surrounded by sand, my dude, and you can still see blurry shapes. You’re not gonna throw some sand in the eyes until you’ve been stabbed like 10 times? Not gonna try to push him down, or sweep the fucking leg, or do anything but just keep raising your arms and getting stabbed while yelling “I’ll protect you!” I’ve seen stale tuna sandwiches with better defense mechanisms than you. 

Like most fantastical premises, there are only a certain number of ways this narrative can end that really make any sense. It reminds me quite a bit of 2019’s Brightburn which was like “what if Superman but evil?” Either everyone is gonna die, or someone is going to improbably survive and you better have a real neat explanation for how that’s possible. Oh M. Night, when will you realize that your explanations are never as clever as you think they are? There’s no “twist” here really, simply a reveal, and it’s the equivalent of eating one of those sugar-free, gluten-free, egg-free, dairy-free snack cakes I broke down and ate out of desperation when I was on Weight Watchers. That shit is “food” in the same way that the climax is a “logical explanation for all this.” Big Pharma is luring sick people to the resort through targeted ads, then arranging these excursions to the wacky time beach in order to test how medicine they secretly slipped into the guests’ drinks works over decades of life. These sneaky medical breakthroughs are saving hundreds of thousands of people’s lives, we’re told, and the scientists offer a moment of silence for each fallen group of unwitting human lab rats after they inevitably die. Because if there’s one thing the world needs right now, it’s more distrust of pharmaceutical companies and the ethics of modern science! I can’t think of one possible reason we’d want to portray molecular biologists, immunologists, and virologists in a positive light right now, can you? When will those assholes get off their high horses and stop being universally trusted and beloved by everyone, am I right?? 

My saddest takeaway, tbh, is that this is a stacked international cast, with at least half the roles going to POC - this is the future liberals want, etc etc - and the result is THIS.

Did I Cry? Of course not.

Not all is terrible! It’s a beautiful movie to look at, because M. Night’s direction is never the problem, but combined with the script, the acting, and the absurd narrative leaps needed to make this story make even a little bit of sense, the whole thing turns into a mess. Unfortunately, getting Old with M. Night is less “leisurely retirement at a plush resort in Florida” and more “rancid can of Ensure and a poop-choked pair of Depends.”

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#121in2021 #old #old movie #old 2021 #m. night shyamalan #old review #vicky krieps #gael garcia bernal #alex wolff #aaron pierre #movie reviews #film reviews

[raincxtter]

here are some sage headcannons :D - kk

- literally owns so many plants in her room, it's almost like a greenhouse

- there's probably a new plant every single month tbh

- out of all of the valo agents, everyone regards sage as the mom friend

- she's known to be very protective of her friends, especially the younger agents like neon (she definitely has a soft spot for neon <3)

- she can also be very doting whenever people get hurt in the field or even get minor injuries like sunburns and paper cuts

- during training, sage is far from the physically strongest agent but she is definitely one of the most reliable and smartest ones

- she's good at working under pressure and making quick decisions which makes her super useful in the field

- a lot of the times, sage keeps a calm composure but don't let that takeaway from the fact that she's actually just hiding her emotions in favor of appearing strong in front of her teammates

OH MY GOD PLANT PARENT SAGE IM IN LOVE WITH THAT HC

have i mentioned how much i love sage

*sobs* sage instinctively doing that asian mom thing (unconsciously) where she does things from fixing other agents' postures (especially kj) to wrapping scarves around their necks (it caught sova and omen so off guard the first time), to reminding them of what they need to do when they forget

oh my god i love.

sage being one of the first people they all go to for comfort im

#*faceplants* sage my beloved #~val.buddy:kk #~val

[girlgrouptrash101]

Dating Poly!LipSoul

Request: “Dating Poly!LipSoul and Poly!ViSeul, please! I'll wait until Olivia is of age to request HyeWon😅”

A/N: a sad life pretending LipSoul aren’t divorced while I was writing this smh

- C

I don't think you're ready for the chaos that is about to ensure when it comes to LipSoul I really don't

Did someone order one tsundere and a girl that makes dinosaur noises for attention??? no??? well you're getting it anyway <3

both you and Jinsoul's favourite pastime is embarassing Lippie, her reactions always make it worth it

she literally stands there like... I don't know these guys as you and Jinsoul scream vine references at each other from across the supermarket

all the other shoppers are just there like 👁️👄👁️

but you both know Lip loves you guys anyways, the big grin on her face a complete contrast from her playfully scolding words

When Jinsoul's hungry and she tries to deafen you and Kim Lip with her aegyo... like damn let's just eAt okay we GET IT FJDJDJ

(but neither of you will ever admit just quite how cute she is,,, though you and Lippie are ever so whipped)

Kim Lip going super mom mode whenever you or Soul gets sick

"hey guys what's up- OH MY GOD DID YOU JUST COUGH BABY WHY DIDN'T YOU TELL ME JINSOUL SOUP NOW GO GO GO GO"

she just doesn't like seeing either of you unwell, and with her undivided attention, you and Jinsoul always get better in no time :]

Your dates are rare enough due to work and schedules, so you three tend to go on more adventurous dates when you can to make the most of your time

one of your favourite locations is probably the zoo, all of you just getting way too excited to see the animals jfjdjs

(ft. Jinsoul stretching her neck and sticking her tongue out to imitate the giraffes when you finally reach their enclosure)

the best bit is when Lippie loses her reservations and just enjoys herself, taking both yours and Jinsoul's hands and skipping around, getting excited whenever she sees one of her favourite animals 🥺

If you guys don't feel like going out, staying at home works just as well,,,, getting a takeaway and playing board games until like 2am also sounds like a fun time

except for when monopoly arguments almost ended your relationship... let's just stick to snakes and ladders or Uno or sumn oKay???

PDA is kept to a minimum until one you guys sleepy after a long day n then it doesn't matter who's watching y'all just tired and need hugs

speaking up hugs,,, Jinsoul just opens her arms and you two fall into her, girlie is the best for bear hugs

she also loves to be in the middle of your cuddle piles when she can be, nothing makes her happier than holding her two babies close

also you and Kim Lip being like let's not go wild with presents this Christmas okay??? gotta save??? and Jinsoul is like hehe yeah sure and then buys you both like a fucking planet each or something

but then you and Lippie save up to buy Jinsoul the new gundam she wanted and my god,,, the TEARS when she opened it 🥺🥺 soulie was just not expecting it at all uwu

CEOs of sharing each others clothes like what even is owning your own stuff

especially Lippie like she loves wrapping herself up in yours a Jinsoul's clothes, it makes her feel all fluffy and soft heheh

matching pyjamas that jinsoul picked out and Kim lip is like.... you really want me to wear that but eventually ,,, with enough of your pouting and Jinsoul's eyebrow thing she gives in hehe

baking dates that tend to be you and Jinsoul vibing and Kim lip having a panic attack every time you dAre stray from the recipe

but then it turns out good and she's like 💅💅💅 that was all me don't even know what you mean I made these myself xoxo don't be jealous

Roadtrips!!!

you guys like to go on little trips to the most secluded places where you know there aren't that many people around so you won't be disturbed

n you book a nice lil hotel room and spend a few days exploring the area, you guys love to go to little seaside towns especially

late night walks on the beach, the cold sea water just reaching your toes as you three walk hand in hand

then getting up early to head out and buy the most fresh fruit from the local market, living in your own little world with the two girls you love the most

It's often been discussed that, in the future, you three would definitely want to live in a little lodge near the sea, with the most beautiful seaside view and gorgeous little garden

for now though, you know they're priority is their idol career and you support them 100% through that

plus you get free tickets to every loonaverse concert and cinema theory event etc I mean what more could you ask for

Also be prepared Choerry is basically your child now I'm sorry I don't make the rules that's just how it is

Kim Lip CEO of being really reserved and then sometimes just out of nowhere comes out with how much she loves both of you so much and you and Jinsoul are like 🥺🥺🥺

ft Jinsoul saying ‘I Love You’ 3474985309457 times per hour

overall 10/10 best girlfriends would reccommend lipsoul for top tier cuddles and endless uwus

NSFW From Here:

Either of them can top if they really want to, it just depends on the mood or who's feeling what

usually Jinsoul takes the lead, but she isn't very rough, just super duper loving

will literally spend forever kissing all over you and Lippie, just looking at you both with the most loving eyes because she's so whipped

Kim Lip would be more likely to top when she's pissed off and wants nothing more than to just hear you and Jinsoul scream her name to calm her down

Kim Lip's neck and collarbones are her most sensitive places, mark her up there please and THANK YOU

for Jinsoul, it's her thighs, nothing drives her crazier than you or Lippie marking her up there, it just makes her legs shake from the sensitivity

Jinsoul being so fucking loud like don't ever do shit at the from unless you want every single member to hear you guys

one time Jinsoul went out and bought a strap on,,, completely red faced the whole time and so embarrassed to bring it home

but when she showed you what she bought, Kim Lip was like "come on then let's try it out" like girlie was completely unphased

and that was when Lippie found out what her new favourite toy was oop

Let Jinsoul sit on your face and she will be ever so happy, she gets so whiny,,, especially when you grab her thighs and just let her use you to get herself off

ok I really think we need to talk about Kim lips hands now I mean,,, not that you wouldn't mind them being wrapped around your throat but like.... you wouldn't mind them being wrapped around your throat

I feel like Lippie in public would either be super reserved or such a tease, her hand inching further and further up your thigh until either you or Jinsoul would be squirming in your seats

just depends on her mood tbh,,,, soulie wouldn't initiate anything in public but would definitely find it hard to sit still if you or Lip started something

aftercare can be anything from showering, to a bath, to just being pulled in to a cuddle pile by a rather sweaty, yet very blissed out Jung Jinsoul

#femifics #lipsoul #Jinsoul #jung jinsoul #kim lip #kim jungeun #loona scenarios #girl group scenarios #kpop girls #girl groups #kpop girl groups #girl group reactions #kpop reactions #kpop scenarios #kpop #female idols #girl group writing #loona imagines #loona reactions #loona #loona fluff #loona smut #lipsoul fluff #lipsoul smut #kpop fluff #kpop smut #girl group fluff #girl group smut #girl group imagines #kpop idols

[sharkb0yinthewat3r]

What was coming out like for you?

For years I was closeted and i really didn’t want to do it. I go back and forth between whether or not I thought it was unnecessary or I told myself it was unnecessary so I wouldn’t have to do it. It was probably a little bit of both.

I knew for a while that at the very least my mom knew since she was the only one dropping hints. But if she did so did everybody else. After I was like truly accepting of myself, I really did buy into the narrative that i didn’t need to do it. On one hand I felt like everyone in my family already knew so there was no need to inform them, there was no need to bring it up out of nowhere unprompted, and it’s just ridiculous that that’s something anyone has to do. I’m more than my sexuality and straight people don’t have to come out.

Anyway this ended up being a really long post feel free to read all of it, but the main takeaway is that coming out was scary. Even when I knew nothing big was going to come of it, there’s just like this anxiety I had and I think it’s normal. Im lucky to live a life where I can be myself freely without having to be concerned about repercussions. I would say me coming out to my friends/just not hiding who I was from them was a great experience. My cousins were so great. My mom and my sister, I guess I wish that those had gone better which is crazy to me because they had known the longest and had so long to prepare and just didn’t have ideal reactions (far from awful but it was kinda just like uhhh ok?) and then my dads is probably my favorite bc that’s how it should be for everyone. It was ultimately very freeing for me but it was also like very uncomfortable for me.

My coming out happened in 4 phases:

1. College freshman year: i was struggling with my sexuality after I got my first crush and wasn’t sure whether or not people would accept me and eventually I told one friend that I lived with and he never treated me differently, I think I told three other friends that were girls, but overall it was extremely difficult to communicate for me. I would say that this was a time in which I was still closeted.

2. I now work on accepting myself and don’t really talk about it with people unless it comes up for the next three years. I’m now in my fourth year of college and join an org where I’m placed on a committee that’s essentially 60% gay males 40% straight males (and girls). My goal when joining was just to be open and let people get to know me. I was still middle ish of the road and sorta wanted to be perceived as straight. I think people just kind of started to assume I was gay and it was like “oh I don’t have to think about telling anyone anything or acting a certain way. I can just be myself” and I kinda just let loose and as we started hanging out and going to parties together I was able to open up and be myself judgement free and it was just so much fun and that’s when I like TRULY accepted myself and I was like life should be like this all the time. I can’t believe I haven’t been doing this. This was more of like a me coming out to myself than anything else and showing myself how enjoyable life can be when you don’t bottle yourself up.

3. Same year (after my first semester) Even though I was very open with my friends at school, this was my first time home for a ‘long break’ and I wasn’t as open with my family. Me and my two female cousins went out for a day together in the city and then ended up at a bar where they were talking about the kind of guys they were into and my one cousin mentions that she’s into older guys and I didn’t say anything and then our other cousin went to the bathroom and I was like btw I’m gay and I only wanted to preface that bc when u said u were into older guys I was like legit same I know exactly what you mean. My other cousin came back from the bathroom and then we laughed about it, but they were the sweetest and most supportive I could’ve wanted. I don’t think I’d ever felt as close with them as I did in that moment. They asked if anyone else knew and I was like well my friends but that’s it and they said they wouldn’t tell anyone and I thanked them.

A few nights later I met my sister out at a bar for her birthday in the city. I was hanging out with her friends (who I knew just not on a real personal level) because she was dancing and making out with some guy. This is actually kinda funny. It was winter and the bar was hot so I tied my jacket around my waist (as I often do bc that’s just typically part of my look, kinda like a staple of mine tbh) and her friend is like “ryán why are you wearing that around your waist, go put it in the coat check” and I was like no thanks like I really don’t mind having it on my waist, I like the way it looks and I honestly don’t wanna pay and she’s like “you have to check it, any girl who walks in here and sees a guy with a jacket around his waist will not want to get with him” and I looked at her and laughed and was like “lol ok well that’s fine because I’m into guys anyway” and she was taken aback like “OH” and I was like lol r u surprised and she was like well your sister just never told me that and I said well idk why she would, like for one I’m not sure why that would be a topic of discussion between the two of you and for two I haven’t told her anyway. She and my sisters other gay friend practically forced me to tell her the entire night and I was like um ok. And then my sister got mad at me for telling them before her and made it all about herself and I was drunk crying running to the bathroom lol and she followed it up with SO MANY questions and was like you gotta tell mom and dad we talk about it all the time. And I was like 1. No I don’t, if they wanna know they can ask me I don’t care 2. That’s kinda fucked up that you guys talk about me and my sexuality all the time behind my back?? 3. If you just said u all know why do I have to tell you. There isn’t really more to the story there, it was her telling me to and me saying no.

4. It is the 2019th summer. Id thought many times about telling my parents I wanted to go to pride and just like ended up saying nothing. Fact of the matter was that I wasn’t proud and honestly even if I wanted to go I didn’t know who I’d go with. My parents are VERY religious and when I was younger I had heard my mom express worry about a girls mother after the girl had come out as a lesbian l o l. Years go by and my mom got me a pamphlet for the lgbt center mixed in with a bunch of other papers when I moved in my freshman dorm, said a lot of encouraging things to me like telling me “you can date anyone you want” and asking me about my love life (this kind of stuff happened between stages 1 and 2). Nothing was explicitly said but I think we both silently acknowledged it. She even asked about one of my gay friends bc I think she thought we mightve been dating (between stage 3 and 4) which we were not and never have hooked up or anything. Honestly I knew they’d be supportive and I knew they weren’t going to kick me out, I just didn’t know how they’d honestly and truly take it. And by the time that I didn’t give a fuck about how anybody “took” the “news” I was aware that they knew and subscribed to all the beliefs that I listed above. If they wanted to know so desperately they could ask me. At this point I wasn’t even trying to hide it. A guy kinda fucked me over right before school was over and I was talking to her on the phone and she was asking how I was and why I sounded meh and I just told her guys suck without trying to get into it. Anyhow picture this, straight pride has just been confirmed for August 2019. Gays are distressed everywhere. Can we not have one thing??? I share a post to my insta story stating something along the lines of “straight pride isn’t necessary and you should be happy you don’t need it. LGBT people need pride because we still don’t have equal rights and people get killed every day for being a part of this community and people get kicked out of their homes for loving someone, etc.” and I guess my mom saw it and was like that was an interesting post on your instagram and I was like lol ok thanks. (She had thought I didn’t think I was safe in my own home and that’s why I wasn’t coming out) And she’s like is there something you want to tell me? And I say is there something you want me to tell you? And she says only if you want to. And I say “what mom do you want me to tell you I’m gay? Like it’s not a secret. I know you know and everybody else knows.” We went on a walk and she said some highly questionable microaggressions but meant with overall support. At this point though like I already accepted myself so I could just roll my eyes and be like lol whatever you don’t get it.

Then my dad comes back and she calls him to the kitchen and is like I think you should tell him now. And i was like gurl what? This is so out of nowhere and so ridiculous. You’re really going to do this after we just had an hourlong discussion on why I didn’t feel the need to come out. And my dad comes in and is like what’s up and I say hey just so you know I’m gay, ok? And he says ok.

#omg this is so fucking long im so sorry #ive been writing so many novels for asks lately #ask

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survey by --ranboweyes--

1.] What age is your youngest aunt? I have a relative who’s technically my aunt since she’s a cousin of my mom, but she’s like 3 years younger which makes her 18-19ish, I think. 

2.] Do you miss someone right now? The only thing I’m missing is the weekend which is quickly ending lol.

3.] What can you see to the Northwest to you? I can see our living room couch.

4.] Do you like bowling? I love bowling. I wish I could do it all the time, only if a session wasn’t so expensive.

5.] Can you pronounce Italian words? I mean I can try saying the words but I know I’m definitely not pronouncing them in the native accent. @justsurveys​ definitely can though, heh.

6.] Do you prefer black or beige colored jackets? I have more black ones, but I’m not opposed to trying out beige.

7.] Do you own a hoodie? Yes, I’m wearing one right now because it’s pretty chilly tonight.

8.] Do you like roasting marshmallows on a bonfire? I’ve only done this once, which was in like Grade 3 when we had an overnight thingy in school and our teacher planned a bonfire for us. But I’m not a fan of marshmallows at all so the answer to this is no.

9.] Do you like cheesy puffs? No. I prefer other snacks.

10.] What's your name without vowels? Rbyn or Rbn, if we’re counting out the letter y.

11.] How many layers of clothing are you wearing? Just two, which is always the case if I do have to wear more than one layer; I have a shirt under my zipped-up hoodie. I’ve only ever had to wear multiple layers once; it was when we were in Sagada and I had to wear 4 or 5 layers if I didn’t want to shiver to death.

12.] When was the last time you got a takeaway? What did you have? I usually dine in the restaurant altogether or go to the drive-thru, but never takeout. Today, though, I did order a chicken barbecue at Starbucks originally meant to be for dine-in; but I got sad in the middle of my time there so I only had a few bites and brought the rest home. Which I guess technically counts as takeout.

13.] If you could climb any mountain or range which would you chose? Mount Pulag because I’ve heard so much about it and it’d be nice to experience it for myself.

14.] Do you alphabetically arrange anything in your room? What? Nope.

15.] Have you ever visited fat-pie.com? No.

16.] Do you prefer sweet or sour fruits? Sweet.

17.] Do you like Flo Rida? Which song of his? I mean, not really. There are a few songs he’s featured in that I find catchy, like Right Round, but I don’t like like them.

18.] How's your dancing skills? There aren’t any to speak of. 

19.] What is your favorite number? I don’t have any. The idea of favorite numbers personally never made sense to me, but I do recognize that they can mean a lot to some people.

20.] Describe your best friend to me? She’s incredibly smart and creative, very motherly and responsible, and always knows the right questions to ask when her friends are troubled and what advice to give.

21.] What is your favorite alcoholic drink? Peach soju, Long Island Iced Tea, Zombie, and tequila are some of my favorites. I’m generally a fan of cocktails though, and I love it whenever bars have their own lineup because it lets me see how creative they get and because it also allows me to try their own spin on mixed drinks.

22.] Do you do any sports or have you done any sport professionally? I play table tennis, but I never played professionally or had formal training. It was a club I joined in middle school just because Angela dragged me but I ended up enjoying it, so I played and played until I unconsciously got better.

23.] What is your ringtone? Just the default Apple ringtones; I never changed them.

24.] Do you like chili flavored chips/crisps? Sure! Chili peanuts are great, too.

25.] Do you curl or straighten your hair? I don’t do either with my hair unless I’m headed to a special/fancy occasion.

26.] What's the nicest smell of shampoo? We used to have this brand that housed black shampoo and it smelled super elegant and nice, but I have no idea how to describe the scent.

27.] What smell turns you on? How about turns you off? It’s generally a turn-on when people make an effort to smell nice, e.g. applying perfume several times a day. BO and the smell of the sun are my main turn-offs.

28.] Whose your favorite comedian? I’ve only been able to watch a couple of her skits but Sindhu Vee is pretty high up on my list. I’m not really too big on comedians, though.

29.] RnB or Reggae? R&B, by a mile.

30.] What brand of batteries do you usually get? I/We haven’t had to use batteries in such a long time.

31.] Are any of your friends pregnant or have kids? A good number of people from my high school now have kids, but I don’t consider any of them friends.

32.] What is in your medicine cabinet? We don’t have one since no one in the family needs to regularly take meds. We do have a jar in the kitchen for multivitamins that my parents take every night.

33.] What's your favorite aspect of the natural world? The ocean. < I’d say so too. Mountain ranges are also beautiful.

34.] What's your favorite man made thing? Probs the internet.

35.] Can you whistle properly? Yasss.

36.] What song do you think is the most widely heard in the world? Happy Birthday or some Christmas jingle.

37.] Where's the strangest place a fast food restaurant was located? I mean...I think fast food restaurants are ubiquitous by nature, so I’ve never seen one and went, “That’s not supposed to be there,” lol. Whenever I spot a fast food restaurant, I’m usually able to make out the reasoning behind positioning it wherever it happens to be.

38.] What countries surround your country? Or are you not land locked? We’re an archipelago, so. Not land-locked. But the nearest countries are Malaysia, Vietnam, Taiwan, and Indonesia.

39.] Do you own binoculars or nonoculars? What do you use them for? I don’t own either.

40.] Do you ever wish you had a telescope on the roof or attic to stargaze? I have always wanted one, yeah. I’ve always dreamed of placing it in my future living room, though.

41.] What's your favorite chocolate bar? Not a bar, but I like Reese’s peanut butter cups the most.

42.] Do you fall asleep easy in cars? How about planes, trains and boats? Unless I am extremely tired, it’s usually hard for me to fall asleep while in transport.

43.] Would you rather live a year of your life in every major country or stay in the same place you live forever without vacations? The latter sounds like an unfulfilling life to me, to be honest. Like I can’t even take vacations??? As much as I like routine, I do enjoy a bit of spontaneity and I think moving to a new country every year can do that for me.

44.] What will you not tolerate in a person? Someone who will make you feel stupid for asking a question. Also those who always have something mean to say about everyone.

45.] Do you forgive others easier or yourself? Why is this? Forgiving isn’t really in my vocabulary to be honest. Hahaha. I’ve always been more at peace this way.

46.] How was God made, if he exists? Key word here is if, so I’m skipping this question because it’s irrelevant to me.

47.] Have you ever done aqua aerobics or polo? Yeah we had to do a bit of water polo in swimming classes in high school.

48.] What age were you when you learned how to swim? I guess around 2? I have baby photos from when I was that age wherein I was having fun in our old inflatable pool. Swimming came naturally to me and I don’t think I ever had trouble with the water.

49.] What shows or characters scared you as a child? You know how older cartoons only featured the legs of some characters, like the housemaid in Tom & Jerry or the lady from Powerpuff Girls? The uncertainty of those characters always made me feel unsettled as a kid.

50.] Do you stay up all night on New Years Eve/Day or go to bed after 12am? I always go to bed well after 12 AM since my family usually holds a get-together for it.

51.] What's currently in your fridge? Some leftovers, some vegetables, essentials like bread and eggs, some condiments that need to be kept refrigerated.

52.] How about your freezer? Frozen goods like hotdogs and ham.

53.] What could you be doing now that is more productive? I should be working out but I’m skipping it for tonight because I hate Sundays, and I don’t want to make myself more tired than I already am.

54.] Give me some lyrics from the song that's stuck in your head? “Red lights, stop signs, I still see your face in the white cars, front yards...”

55.] What's your favorite type of firework? The grander the design the better for me, tbh.

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