#my body is a playground

[ortie-pnk]

I'm happy to find someone who is so similar to me.

I wish you were not like me, it's not good, for nobody, and I wish nobody ever has to be.

But at least if we set ourselves on fire, if we chop ourselves in millions part, if we ruin our bodies on life's stage we will do it together.

And it will be spectacular.

#freak love #impulsive #bodmod #punk #my body is a playground

[theres-whump-in-that-nebula]

If watching true crime has taught me anything; it’s that the criminal justice system very often does jack shit about obvious cases of child abuse, and only takes it seriously after the parents kill the child.

#It’s disgusting how literally dozens of people all living in the same apartment complex can all make the same reports #about the same apartment for the same reason (extremely loud sounds of child abuse) #and neighbors can even make RECORDINGS OF THE CHILD’S AGONIZED SCREAMING to give to the cops #only for the bastards to take one sweeping glance at the apartment and go “welp… looks fine to me!” #death tw #child abuse tw #For the record: I’m specifically interested in crimes against children because I work with kids #When I am at work; I view them as my own babies #I’m extremely protective of them; so I want to know how bystanders and the system failed other kids so I don’t make the same mistakes #I want to know what abuse looks like from every angle conceivable to mankind #I want to be prepared to Handle Shit if I have to. #Which is why I’m constantly vigilant not only about the kids in the playground; but also the area outside the playground #Every few minutes I do a visual sweep of the area outside the fence to make sure no one’s there #If I see someone; I watch them like a hawk and make it clear with my body language that I am watching them just as much as the kids #even if they’re not that close to the fence

[uzumaki-rebellion]

Whew...

I've been out on an Indigenous retreat doing some ceremonial work with elders and finally got to log on today and my goodness, I have never seen a hit dog spiral like this from a celeb in so long.

#My God Tina Snow bodied everybody on that new video too #I felt like I had did something and I ain't even in no beef with nobody lol #Like ma'am put it on a track or keep it on the playground cuz Ms. Pete is not playing with anybody

[echo-s-land]

That moment where you remember a random place from your childhood you'll probably never go back to

#the pharmacy #the doctor office #the playground right beside my house #the horses. there were horses. we gave them bread to eat sometimes #daisies everywhere in spring. i cant recall if it was sheeps or cows in the back #the playground in my kindergarten school #the playground in my elementary school #the library from my elementary schools #my grandparents' house who got sold #my great grandmother's house that shell never go back to and us neither #the south. the fireworks. it has all changed too much since my childhood. #that awkward moment where you feel nostalgia for a time you remember longing to die #or experiencing some near death experience #love the sea but i hate not touching the bottom of bodies of water for a reason

[pjunicornart]

Color Puke (cw: eyestrain, body horror)

Jock PJs but they're

m e l t i n g . . . .

Wanted to experiment with colors and such. Tagging as eyestrain, 'cause duh. For RNaJ PJ, they've got melting line art and shading, Playground PJ has half his face melting off, and for Soul Carving PJ I just said fuck it and went ham.

Inspo -> Killing the Darlings by Nyanakaru - I love Kadacore.

RNaJ PJ -> @miasudare Playground and Soul Carving -> Me

Who's your fav?

#art #my art #digital art #undertale #undertale au #rebooted naj au #paperjam #rnaj pj #playground pj #soul carving pj #colors #colorful #bright colors #color puke #cw: eyestrain #cw: body horror

[daredevil-vagabond]

Your truth becomes overtaken by flowers / now there is parallelism between the divide and the underground

ALT under cut:

The lyrics are from バケモノダンスフロア - Monster Dance floor

#jason peter todd #red hood #jason todd #batfam #batman #lazarus pit #resurrected jason todd #robin jason todd #jason todd fanart #body horror tw #eyestrain #my art #its about the rebirth and its about the daisys springing from concrete #and about the playground next to a cemetery #happy new years may you crawl out of this one bloody and hurt but alive!

[dhmis-autism]

happy night fellas!

anyways rewatching and i am continually haunted by the visual of Ducks corpse lying on the kitchen floor, his head crushed by a TV and the footage on TV being of him waving at the camera.

Which is not a thing I think he’s done? I’ve tried to line it up with other similar shots and either I am stupid (very possible) or he straight up does not do this from what we see in the show and THAT SPOOKS ME OUT FOR REAL.

#I FEEL LIKE NOBODY TALKS ABOUT HOW STRIKINGLY WEIRD AND SCARY THIS VISUAL IS???? #HEY WHERE DID THEY GET THAT FOOTAGE #HEY. HIM SMILING AND WAVING TO HIMSELF FROM THE TV CRUSHING HIS DECAPITATED BODY IS HORRIFIC. #HEY. i love the horror elements in this show. theyre sooo well implemented and shit like this unsettles fully grown adult me which is nice. #bc while elements of the og webshow still do definitely unsettle a big part of why i talked about it on the playground as a kid.. #was DEFINITELY the OMG BLOOD!!!! factor #anyways love this scene and love u TV head duck wherever u are <3 #my dhmis postings

[eclipsewarrior101]

A fun angsty oneshot for @missparamelontea Poppy playtime Matron in the playground au. ( none of this is canon)

Please check out @missparamelontea au for poppy playtime it’s really cool. She did read this but I did add done more details to help.

Trigger Warning: this story will contain mention of blood, body horror, gore, torture and stress. ( please don’t read this if any of this triggers you)

LOST BUT FOUND, ALIVE BUT BROKEN.

No one had seen daddy long legs for a full day. It wasn’t supposed to be this long. He said he had needed to go face to the game station, it should have been a quick trip. But something was wrong. Eve got nervous and after a day she wanted to go find him despite Dog day saying it was a bad idea. He reassured her daddy long legs was a tough toy….god if only he wouldn’t regret saying that later

Three days later Eve went off to find him. She looked around trying to avoid catnap and his minions. Which was not easy. It seemed like they were more protective of something which gave Eve suspicion. What were they protecting, or maybe…they were guarding something important.

After following a hunch she eventually found something that gave Eve chills….daddy's hat. It was torn up bad and looked bloody. Eve tried to hide her fears and immediately moved onward. She after sneaking down further came into an area not explored. She saw the mini critters were more grouped up in a certain area, biting on something on a giant wooden cross in a corner of the room and as she moved closer she heard light groans of pain. She moved very carefully around trying to see what they were biting.

She could see a person but couldn’t make it out, until she saw a familiar shade of blue and had to stop herself from making a sound. Eve immediately waited until the critters went off after hearing a noise and what she saw horrified her and made her heart stop.

Daddy’s body was tied very tightly to cross with thin but coarse barb wire, you could tell that it was too tight due to the blood dripping from the wire cutting into him. The wire looped all the way around, painfully pinning his arms and legs to the piping so he couldn’t move. The other wire made an x shape on his chest keeping him from moving. His clothes were bloody and torn up, exposing some of his rubbery skin to the elements. When he weakly looked up due to her feet making noises she saw to her horror his mouth had been sewn shut with coarse wire, forcing him into a permanent bloody smile. When he saw her, his eyes weakly widened and flashed with exhaustion but fear. He didn’t want her here, especially if she could get hurt. His eyes also looked very bloodshot and puffy. Despite being in so much pain and close to another sobbing fit he tried to hide how much pain he was actually in, not wanting to stress his friend out.

Eve immediately ran over and tried to test the grip of the wire seeing if it will come loose, but every pull of the wire made him groan in pain, shaking lightly. His body had deep bite marks and nibbles that looked like animals had used him as a chew toy, some were fresh and lightly bleeding while others were old. He groaned at her weakly though he couldn’t tell her anything, his mouth in so much pain. Though she knows it will be very painful, Eve knew she had to free him. She tried to think. She tried to look for anything to cut him loose.

She then remembered her axe and began to swiftly but carefully cut him lose. He groaned as the barb wire that was in digging into his skin stuck a little making him lightly bleed as Eve tried to carefully pull it off. She helped him to his feet though he was very light headed and his body didn’t look like he was in a good condition to walk far. She gently let him use her shoulder to help him walk and he gave her a soft nod as a thank you in the only way he could since his mouth was sewn. He was so close to collapse but he stayed awake for as long as he could and he was scared to go to sleep then wake up and find out this was a sick illusion or dream.

#matron in the playground au #not my au #daddy long legs #this au belongs to @missparamelontea #tw: blood #tw: gore #tw: body horror #this is dark but I promise it has a good ending…unless I make one where it doesn’t 😏

[zappedbywho]

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#Diary #So here’s something I remember DEVASTING me for some #I was at the playground with my step sibling. and we were playing this game where we would swing and point out the smaller kids like ‘Thats #my kid’. Choosing babies basically and not much else. And this one girl was getting teased so we invited her over and she sat in my step #siblings’s lap while they swung. Well this girl chats like the 5 year old she was and I stumbled over my words or something and my step #sibling laughs at me hysterically. That hurt my feelings but I remember thinking that I wanted to be more thick skinned than I was when I #was the girl’s age so I just pushed it back and kept swinging. My step sibling had to #pee or something. so it was just me and this girl. I wasn’t as chatty as my sibling but when the girl slipped off the swing and couldn’t #Get back on. I asked her if she wanted me to help her get back on. and she was like ‘My mom doesn’t let me talk to strangers’ #Of course this confused me. because we just met and I am also a child? #She looked. like. uncomfortable near me or something and I just felt so weird in my body #Cause like. I know I’m chubby and taller than other girls but am I really scary like an older boy? #My sibling was an average size and a little malnourished and I was already incredibly insecure about our differences #Like I was wearing knee shorts and a t shirt to swim in the lake and they were wearing a girl’s bikini lol #Then this little kid gets right back on their lap when they got back and I was like ‘😬’ trying not to cry and just walked away to sit by #myself. Now there’s a picture of my clueless father sitting next to me when I’m like ‘Oh ‘extremely high kid voice crack’ sure you can sit #next to me dad😃 Please drown Em in the lake for me because I hate them and that people like them better’ from behind. #This was a pretty regular experience for kids but I was a little off and even kids sense these things lol

[hybbat]

You know a world where your ability to carry something is determined by quantity rather than size or weight is very easy to accept in a video game, because of mechanical convenience, but would probably be so strange in a story in any other medium, and I think a few more books and shows could stand to get a little funkier with the fundamentals of their reality like that.

#just casually make a setting that functions different on a fundamental level #this is genuinely my favourite thing about minecraft fics is the absolutely alien setting #that gets treated very casually and with a 'thats just how the world works' mentality #people can exist in multiple worlds and the code that makes them them can be accessed and casually altered #and no one has any ethical problems with admins doing so #there is a clear and defined divide between players and mobs on all levels except emotional #but also players treat their own body as a toy the change and throw around because death means nothing #minecrafts a good one for it because the game has zero story its just a playground for creativity #but i think about final fantasy where entire skillsets are contained in some item or clothing and swapped between #or gta where it costs money to come back to life #theres plenty of media that explores the idea of lives or retries as a mechanic and a story element #but what about the fact that man made objects being and inherent part of the reality to where #a fundamental function such as peoples lives can be restored by paying money #not in a theres a god of greed sense but in a thats just how reality works #a lot of these things get placed on a godlike being when they do pop up and i think thats the boring route #let your setting just function different beyond magic being present #have the characters world and thus mindset be alien

[lululawrence]

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#today my second grade autistic joy of a son came home from school #with the information that a kid in his grade threatened him on the playground #told him he had needles and knives at home and maybe had some in his pockets #and if my son got closer to him he would kill him #SECOND. GRADE. #WHAT THE FUCK #So anyway I’ve been staving off a fucking panic attack since then #so WISH ME WELL #and please for the love #send your best most loving and kind vibes for my son #he’s already had older kids at church being cruel to him #and a kid he thought was his friend at school told him #sometimes you would be a little cooler if you didn’t talk #and my son told my husband that ever since he learned that school has been a lot less enjoyable #and like WHAT THE FUCK #THIS KID IS LOVE AND JOY AND SILLINESS AND BRILLIANCE WRAPPED UP #IN HIS TINY EIGHT YEAR OLD BODY #Deep breaths #anyway it’s fine #I’ll have a good cry and then get out of the house for the evening #and hopefully hear back from the teacher and principal soon #and all will be well #but fuck I worry so much about him 😭😭😭 #thank you rant over #cw death threats #cw knives #cw needles #cw bullying #cw bully of an autistic child

[orionangeline]

Someone take me by the hand and gently explain that it's fine to be weird and clueless in public even if it's right in front of my apartments office and anyone could see me

#basically rent is due #like a little late due #amd i need to put my rent in the supposed drop box #but ive only been here like two months and ive never needed the drop box so i dont know where/which one it is #and im pretty sure I can figure it out or whatever but 😭 #what if my neighbors find out im a dumbass 😭😭😭😭 #what if i look suspicious 😭😭😭 #what of theres no label on the drop box 😭😭😭😭 #but our apartment... manager? is only here like two hours early in the morning and my body is on night crew hours #so i NEED to get it done and I NEED to use the drop box #but what if i mess up amd somehow the rent is super late and i get secret fined??? or maybe they'll kick me out for being stupid loser?? #i KNOW its just some sort of anxiety talking but that doesn't help 😭😭😭😭 #haha im so. normal and used to human living #AND THERES A school next door what if the schoolchildren see me and mock me with a schoolyard rhyme 😭😭😭 #i dont THINK the playground is at an angle they could see me. but you know children. always seeing things. and such. #BASICALLY this is all because I would have to spend maybe two minutes in front of my building btw. #'doesnt have anxiety' my ASS my tummy hurty and its over like. nothing big #TMMUY LITERALLY HURTY

[fearfulwonderfulmonster]

Hickeys from three hungry femmes

#me #fearfulwonderfulmonster #sapphic #my body is a lesbian playground #terfs can rot

[manicpixiefelix]

Took a nap in the middle of the day and had the most bizarre series of dreams, some were in fact nightmares, HOWEVER Ollie and Felix were in the last one??? Felix Catton continues to be the most beautiful man I've ever seen in my conscious or unconscious life???? All I got was one of the best and most real feeling kisses I've ever had in a dream, and I'm so mad I woke up. :(

cannot escape Saltburn or the Felix/Reader/Oliver fantasies even while asleep it seems...

(my tags are for posterity lol sorry but if you wanna read the full dream go right ahead. I reached the tag limit but all that was left was essentially the main text of this post lol)

#i will say the early part of the dream was very different. i Was jason momoa for a while there. also a child. also maybe peacemaker #evan Peters as magneto was tearing apart school buses and children and also he fucked my (whoever i was as jason momoa) mom which i saw?? #then there was two of me (jason momoa)?? he also may have become peacemaker i might be misremembering. we were in the jungle #no metal so he wasnt a threat #except he was peacemaker and i (artie the writer in the body of jason momoa) am not a good fighter and he bullied me for it. womp womp #then we were saved by a tribe of superheroes who lived in the jungle and were definitely pitting us against each other #but i wasnt Jason momoa anymore except i was when i was swinging through the jungle like george of the jungle #but i was me when i got to the beach and started swimming and hunting for food and shoving every random piece of food into my mouth #except the eel which i was told i had to cook 😞 #cooked the eel over a tealight at the beach camp/tribe which i was apparently part of even though i was meant to have been with the forest #also spoke to some irl collegues from the festivals i worked at last year and aparently as an 'initiate' to the tribe i and the others #have to find a place to sleep in the open #also that theres some kind of game???? some weird game that happens with the forest tribe initiates???? like hide and seek #and we on the beach only have a set time to prepare #immediately me and the rest of the beach initiates are like Get Fukt were not sleeping on the sand and gravitate towards #the weird warehouse based playground?? that was there for some reason?? and had so many security cameras??? what was my mind doing honestly #its under cover but the two other initiates im close to now dont feel like its secure enough to not be found #also the hide and seek aspect now has sinister undertones for those doing the hiding it seems. its more nightmare again #im a very awkward person irl with touch (its the autism lol) so it was big of me to hold hands with this dude #because we were running out of time to hide and i was afraiddddd #for the record i shouldnt have been lmfao #ANYWAYS idk when or who gives me the tip that i should hide on the other side of these weird black bed frame situations #but im assured by a girl i went to uni with (maddy i lov u thanks for cameoing in my dream???) that it works??? #so im squeezed up in the corner behind this loft bedframe and it turns out the hiders can see like it's a sunny daytime #seekers are going around in the dark #makes it much less spooky #also it means i just got to watch fi and ollie (and others) being hot and essentially hunting people down #(hm do i have a thing for predator/prey dynamics??? that's future arties problem to think about) #the point is fi and ollie find my friend maddy #who is just in front of me but i duck out of their grasp consistently but they're weirdly persistent so much that even maddy comments on it

[dragqueenpentheus]

discuss: juno steel

my thoughts are. i love him. show stopping gender

and mommy issues on that lady

#reply #darkpaladin #i didnt listen past season one bc season two got FAR TOO REAL INSTANTLY #holy shit theres four seasons now thats crazy #i listened to season one while it was aring and it possesed my entire being for ages. i have his same last name and almost changed my name #to juno. bc it made me so. !!!!!! #i LOVE juno and i LOVE peter but i think ill love them best as memories of listening to them in season one #but who knows maybe ill take another stab one day!!! but i could t be having real life mommy issues at the same time as fictional ones just #then lmfao #TOO much for little old me!!!!!! #but juno was really one of the first characters i saw playing with gender in a really intersting way and i LOVED it so much #started using they/them and feeling around the gender playground bc it felt so much more approchable after that podcast #also. that music is fr seared into my body. theyll autopsy me and hear strains of #thief without a home will play out of my ribs

[yoshiyakiryu-archive]

Mad. Angy. I want to talk to people but don't want to subject them to my bad mood and will probably just sull anyway. Probably understimulated but everything is the wrong kind of sensory input.

#those bars in kids playgrounds? #the ones you can get on top of but they're just a single bar #you can hang from them and do chin ups or w/e? #i used to sit on top of them and hold my legs and body perfectly straight while falling backwards #and when your momentum pulls the bar out of your hand it also drops you to the ground on your feet #i miss having energy and more manageable pain levels #but I always felt better after doing that a few times #i think if i could still run that'd help too