#my best friend's wedding was today

[lonestardust]

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#my best friend's wedding was today #and idk from where to begin but the family drama escalated so badly they literally had to stop and cancel just minutes before the reception #my head is literally going to explode I've witnessed so much DRAMAAAAAAAA

[like-the-rest-of-la]

Temptation Tuesday 🙃

@rewritetheending tagged me 💖💖 thank youu! I don't really have that much going on at the moment, I guess my only temptation right now is that I cannot stop drawing Ace from Nancy Drew 😂

I'm gonna tag @spotsandsocks @renecdote @capseycartwright and @buckactuallys 😘

#i don't even know how i got here but yeah :D #I know this is probably not interesting to 99% of you 😂 I'm sorry #I've also written like 5 sentences of the my best friend's wedding AU today #so at least there's that :D #Nancy Drew #nancy drew fanart #ace [redacted] #lisa draws

[non-un-topo]

Talking to my sister can be one of the most aggravating experiences

#just allowing myself a few moments of self-pity today #because i'm a little overstimulated/sick of people talking AT me #i have begun to notice that i'm never asked anything... not a single thing. no questions about my life or interests or how school is going #no questions about my partner or our anniversary and no acknowledgement of the big haircut i just got #no questions about my BIL's wedding. none about my health. #every day it's just people talking AT me. kind of tired at the moment... #and this is made worse by my sister's holier-than-thou attitude about literally the smallest and most insignificant things #like washing clothes? and cooking rice?? idk she talks like a housewife now. #and i get to listen to her complain about her 35 year old boyfriend and not say ONE kind thing for 2 hours straight #not a single question for me. not a single nice thing. and i'm talked over constantly #it's not like i don't raise my voice or speak my mind lol #it's just that. between my family and my partner's family. it feels like no one knows just how smart i am and how much fun i can be. #my partner is perfect in so many ways. my best friend and the kindest and most compassionate person i know. #but i really could brag and boast like my sister does over absolutely nothing. because i have actual achievements. but i don't #because who does that lol. fucking annoying and rude people. #maybe my family just thinks i'm okay and so they never ask me anything or call me. ever. #but see.... i don't talk to them because i want advice or help or money. i talk to them because they're my family #and i would very much like to feel cherished and loved by them #/ end angst and self-pity boo hoo

[bisexual-horror-fan]

It has been a rough day, a very emotional and sad piece I wrote this morning about some grief.

It’s the twelfth of May once again and every year that passes I feel like it sneaks up on me more and more. The first time it came since you went I felt it encroaching on me with obscene heaviness for weeks, a tsunami sized wash of emotion threatening to spill over and colour all my thoughts and interactions with extremely unpleasant and “negative” emotions. 

This is the eighth May twelfth I have faced without you and it does get easier in a lot of ways. I’m not constantly sad like I used to be, the emotions are there, but dulled, swallowing them and sitting with them is not as difficult as it once was. 

There are pieces of me, changes in my life, things you will never get to know about me and in turn growth and new experiences you will never get to have and I mourn that along with your presence. I haven’t cried yet today. I probably will at some point. I’m facing thirty this year without you and that night is going to be hard but it’s still over three months from now so I push it from my mind.

I eventually get out of bed, I put on the sweater you bought at our first concert together, think of you while their music blasts from my phone while I brush my teeth. I linger over good memories while black cherry tea steeps on the countertop and I write this. I love you, I miss you, but it isn’t as hard as it used to be and I think you would like that fact a lot. I have new friends and new people who I take care of and help take care of me and that helps make getting out of bed every day worth it. I do it for them, I do it for you, I try to fill the void that you made in my life by being the kind of person you were because the world needs more people like you. Since you've been gone there is an absence I have decided to take up, since no one else will. I go about my life in the way that makes me the most authentically happy and I know it is what you want. Even though you will never see a new Starkid show, even though we will never scream-sing a song together in a car on our way to the mall again, I still do those things almost because you can’t. I keep living on, doing what I do and having new experiences because I’m still here and hopefully will be for a long time. 

And who knows? Maybe one day your absence will hurt so little I will go to Vegas like you always wanted to and make stupid bet in your honour. Until then I guess I will just re-watch all the FRIENDS Vegas episodes, drink my tea, and think of you.

#I lost my best friend 8 years ago today to cancer #Yes for those remember the post last Friday she died a week after her birthday #She just turned 23 #She died less than two days after her wedding to a guy I introduced her to #I miss her all the time #TMI Bexxx Time #BHF speaks #No obligation to read of course but yeah big feelings

[iguessitsjustme]

Hey Venus in the Sky. Quick question: where is his love interest? Where is he? Give this doctor his own show. I love him.

#venus in the sky #venus in the sky the series #venus in the sky bl #my brain rot is still going strong #i need this man to find someone and then just casually mention his boyfriend to sky one day #and for sky to be like sure yeah you have a boyfriend now #and for the doctor to shrug and move on and then like a year later sky gets an invite to their wedding #and sky is like you're getting married? why didn't you tell me you were seeing someone??? #and day is like i did tell you and you didn't believe me #and then sky goes home to venus and will be like you'll never guess what i learned today #and then it turns out that venus not only already knew but is friends with day's boyfriend #sky is also friends with the boyfriend too but just did not put two and two together #he ends up being the best man at the wedding

[the-woild-is-y-erster]

I'm sorry you're sick man :/

I'm very excited today because my gf said she would like me to get a trans bf becuase she's recently discovered she's poly and knows I want one, so now I'm just trying to find one!

I would love to read any haikus you write!

What are your sheel playlist thoughts?

yeah me too :( and my brother bought oreos and i cant even have any because i have to eat them with milk and milk would just make me feel worse :(((

gl on your hunt bro!! im sure you'll find a good guy xx

ok so i wrote five more than i was sposed to xx whoops

my favourite chicken is gone

she would run right up

to say hello

maybe next spring 

we'll meet again

purple is the best colour, i think

so rare in nature

yet we assign it to kings

there are fawns in my grandparents neighborhood again

they are small, gangly

they hide behind their mother

dainty feet barely ghosting the grass as they run

my guitar has scratches from the time i dropped it

wood hitting pavement, a discord of noise

i find it has a certain mournful sound now

character development

we dance in your kitchen to old love songs

big band music always makes me happy

you're the first person i haven't had to teach to dance

#eel gets asks! #the last one is partly abt me and my best friend and partly abt eel n shoe haha #because every single person who has suggested we dance togther but one #cannot dance. so i always end up having to teach them #and after three years of proms and other dances and parties and weddings #it gets a little annoying :| especially if its the SAME FRIGGING PERSON WHO IVE TAUGHT TO TWO STEP AND WALTZ MULTIPLE TIMES #kys lily mosely/j that girl makes me so mad sometimes #its like she refuses to listen to anything i say when i try and teach her its so frustrating #my sheel playlist thoughts were mostly 'ohhh my god theyre so inlove its disgusting' #but i have a sketch of eel i might post after i finish it l8r tnight #made cornbread today tho!

[quitethepirategal]

._.)

#oh my gods today is going to suuuuuuck #bro so my boyfriend's best friend is getting married right #cute venue great couple #um #they never hired a wedding planner? #they still dont know where to put all the tables and chairsnand stuff? #and #AND #turns out the WHOLE EVENT takes place in this TINY WOODLAND GARDEN #75 people packed into this little place in 99 degree heat from noon to ten pm #the parking lot can only hold like 26 cars #bro they.... did NOT think ANY of this through #i should have known it would be so poorly planned bc the groom only let my bf know what color the suit needed to be 4 days ago #holy shit #moral of the story i dont CARE how layed back your wedding is HIRE A MOTHER FUCKING PLANNER #{ mobile } #x; OUT OF ROSES { ooc }

[newervegas]

KILIAN FITZGERALD — casual in the capital QZ before his disappearance | formal / workwear / “university” in the capital QZ a member of the governmental body | post disappearance, convinced single-handedly for fedra to abandon the denver QZ.

picrew

#oc: kilian fitzgerald #vrs: the last of us #t: picrew #leg.ocs #hehehe baby boy. <3 #yes i am happy you asked besties the scarf IS light blue for olga thx for asking hehe <3 #i am also saying he may be set up with minerva but im also not at all saying he could be available hehe #(im also thinking santo for minnie post p*erry and also saying she’s available too hehe) #HELLO HI so i had a wicked migraine the past two days and slept it off today and now i feel better ❤️‍🩹🥀🥹 #chronic illness my beloved and detested ✨😵‍💫😖 #so i bring to the beloveds he ! olga as far as she’s aware he’s deceased? #by the time she sees him again she’ll have been happily involved with dearie logan for a bit by then <3 #and he would have as well! in fact the point of his disappearance was so that she would find the happy ending she deserved 💞💞💫😌 !!!!!! #so i think as well that adrián gianna and alaias father will have stepped down from fedra AG as well though rn gia and alaia don’t know that #he grew jaded as kilian did and dipped hehe <3 good for them ! #i think also that gigi leaving him put A LOT into perspective? #i mean they were already going to divorce prior to the outbreak but nonetheless u know? i think he still loves her u know? inch resting ! #kilian would have been slated for politics and had been prepared from it from birth <3 #and he was the best friend of yori and his best man at his wedding to gianna just before the outbreak <3 #I NEED TO WORK ON OLGAS TIMELINE bc i have a bit of ideas of the timeline of their relationship? before the disappearance? #she was there in the capital before they left for seattle and she and him meet actually at yoris wedding to ondria maybe? #I APOLOGIZE IF THE TIMELINE HERE IS LIKE ???? im still working things out sozjxjhx but! dear boy! m’love! #he likely said he was the new AG and requested them to leave the qz as it was under his jurisdiction hehe …. swindle them bestie!

[skiitter]

Lmaooooo my dad is fully in the hospital and I’m actually extremely concerned he’s gonna die and my mom will be 100% fucked if that happens and like I simply have to keep functioning at life even though this is happening.

#he has Covid and he keeps fainting because his heart is fucked up #if my moms best friend can’t come get her tomorrow she will literally be on the street #spent the last two days ferrying her and their dog around and spending money I absolutely don’t have getting them hotel rooms and food #poverty is forever #it’s a cycle that cannot be broken unless by sheer luck tbh #because poverty begets more poverty by way of debt #my five year wedding anniversary was today and we spent it doing this #I’m just so scared and stressed #literally cannot take any time off work to handle this #suffering in hell etc etc #I also missed my last two days of nanowrimo so that’s fully abandoned #anyway if I’m MIA this is why

[like-the-rest-of-la]

WiP Wednesday

I got tagged by @mellaithwen @spotsandsocks and @rewritetheending and so many others over the last weeks - thank youuu ����😘😘. I'm currently working on the best-friend's-wedding AU again and things are getting delicious 😌

Eddie's head rolls against the backrest. He closes his eyes and resists the urge to rub his hands over his face because he knows that Christopher is watching—

"You okay, dad?"

—and he's way too perceptive.

Eddie sits up and looks at his son. Christopher got a new pair of glasses the other week and he—he looks so grown-up with them, truly a teenager now, and...Fuck. Time's just moving too goddamn fast these days and Eddie feels like he's running out of breath trying to catch up with it.

"Yeah, sure," Eddie says after he's cleared his throat—and because he's an idiot, he adds, "Why are you asking?"

"You lost, like, every game tonight. And you keep staring at—" Christopher stops abruptly when Buck walks back into the room. He comes to a halt in front of the TV but his eyes are still trained on the phone in his right hand.

"Buck?" Eddie asks tentatively, "What's going on?"

"Umm," Buck looks up and starts scratching the back of his neck. There's a smile on his face but something's off about it.

"That was Kelsey and, umm, the wedding-venue"—Eddie's heart rate picks up—"and… you know how they got this crazy-long waiting list and we couldn't even secure a spot next year. But apparently a wedding fell through and now there's this unexpected opening next month and… they called and asked if we wanted to take the spot, and… yeah, we said yes. So," he drops his hand and a startled laugh leaves his mouth, "I guess I'm getting married in four weeks."

I'm gonna tag @homerforsure @renecdote @gayhoediaz @buckactuallys and @nymika-arts if you want to and haven't already! 💛💛💛

#lisa writes #can you believe i actually managed to write like 1k today 🙌 skskks #i don't know if this makes any sense and I'm way too tired rn but i hope it's readable #the my best friend's wedding au 🤵‍♂️👰‍♀️🤵‍♂️

[oatbugs]

flabbergasted???

#ok so i got a call from my friend saying like. were waiting for u and I realised i had a house viewing so i rushed there #and it turned out the bumped up the rent to 1k a month for a tiny flat. dead and dying. anyway i got an uber back and the #driver was like oh are u a student ?? im a professor. and hr proceeded to do a fast track how i ended up in this situation moment #his wife was studied medicine at my university and became a heart surgeon and he was doing cool poltiics...reporting stuff and then his #son also wanted to do medicine so they moved back. his wife who was now a heart surgeon died of a heart attack #and then he realised the uni asks for like 50k a yr for med school for international students #so now he has to drive an uber while also teaching at the uni to make ends meet #he then proceeded to have simultaneously the best and worst takes ever #he fundamentally misinterpreted philosophy as a discipline and he was like hobbes was right bc humans are by nature corrupt. im driving #next to the white guidelines bc the state has to give us guidance bc otherwise wed be instigators of chaos. etc etc but then he was also #like marx and the hegelian tradition are cool. and he gave me a whole lecture on parliamentary systems and then he was like #today the courses arent rigorous enough and you guys are being taught everything superficially etc etc and then he gave me soooo much #tea on the politics faculty and the press #anyway yh #reeling #also going to manchester tmrw to have a fight w their philosphers apparently #I think [chroma blue] will come to see me on sat if i dont get to kiss them on the neck i will literally die #personal #lol anyway the house thing has me rly sad bc i cant possibly come up w that money but its so so perfect but the person #before me who viewed the house is likely to bump up that offer way more bc she said. and i quote #money is not an object #like ok babez ♡

[vanibear]

back from the animal shelter .ohhhmg. Kittens…….Dies from how cute they are

#my favorite one was a littl calico girl named chickadee she started yelling at us when we walked in like HI HELLO LOOK AT ME #and kept jumping up on the glass whenever id walk by and say hi : #we cant get a cat tho until after we get back from my cousins wedding #so. in my heart I hope i hope she’ll still be available then…….l #like. we r best friends i think #she had just gotten spayed today too she was so little….so technically they’re not available for adoption until tmrw #but like ough. all the cats n kittens i saw there can we take them all please actually #i need a cat .so bad #teddy content <3

[alphalesbian]

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#................................................................................................................................. #so another update on my skin i guess . . . #about a week in and its basically everywhere on my chest and terribly on my back and legs and butt : - ( worst its gotten so far is itchy as #all hell on my side but thankfully so far thats really it....... ive maybe been tired n had a sore ish throat like when i first felt it but #not really anymore.... now its just my skin looking. awful lol everywhere #but....... i found out about this skin thing that looks Exactly The Same As Mine Looks Right Now and that ! was a major relief considering ! #its not a serious skin thing and my symptoms almost entirely align with the process so far ! ! ! #as much as i am still skeptical im just. i dont know that helped a lot i guess. everything else id found n been thinking it could be were #oretty serious things for the most part which honestly raqcking my brain about that for the past week uh #probably wasnt the best mental health decision to make OTL............... #still gonna go up the mountain for some cheap blood work tommorow..... then back to urgent care on wed/thurs to really make sure its nothing #serious which will also immediately improve my headspace regardless so. thats good too #and the help from my best friend . . . . . . . . . i am so so lucky to have him he is literally so special. i was right at the bottom and he #didnt even hesistate . crazy how that can feel so nice and hurt so much at the same time #hurt really from just honestly how immensely empty i was and how much i really needed that support #still though absolutely heated from. the initial situation and how my main support just kinda fucked off in response lmao! but #all that greif and sadness and ugly crying aside today has been a mostly good day in comparison. let alone finding out something it could #absolutely very well be and its Not Super Serious Necessarily and Pretty Common all things considered #is a big plus. . . . a lot to think about and a lot to do as always just really really gotta keep my head on my shoulders . . . . . . . . . #okay and honestly all that aside ladies it looks. so crazy. i really actually maybe am gonna take pictures of this to really document it nd #even if its a serious thing its like. so crazy looking #feels pretty ridiculous dont get me wrong it literally feels like my skin is fucked up where its raised n swollen but the pattern is #idk medically fascinating to me i guess is the best way to say it lol #how would that be for my first selfie in like 4 years teehee 😌 anyways enough of my ranting but in case anyones interested here ya go . . .

[sheshallfromtimetotime]

It was too hot to sleep last night. I finally nodded off, cradling an ice pack wrapped in a damp towel, sometime after 3:00 am. I have to get on a plane today.

#🙃 #have a rapid covid teat marinating (*snort*) at the moment #have a bunch of kn95s #and one of my very best friends and his wedding are on the other aide of today's flight #but ugh #Rachel's life #TEST* #it was a rapid test! #ffs #(and it was negative)

[pixiehouse]

moving every single piece of furniture in my apartment around because i am doing great in the head rn

#about to talk about recovering from my ed so please protect your sanity if reading about that would be bad for you #i feel like i'm finally snapping after about five years of trying my best to minimize how bad my everything is #probably because i've managed to eat consistently this month (a big deal bc every other time i've done this i've intended to give up and #i don't have that intention this time which is so frightening. it felt very safe being under the cloying control of disease frankly and i a #also very terrified that my stomach is just going to straight up explode or refeeding syndrome or what if i give up but #i woke up today and my skin was a normal color with no weird undertone of grey and my fingernails were pink and i felt goodweird about it.) #so now my stupid brain works and it turns out it's overwhelmed by having wasted five years of my life on trying to slowly kill myself #and all the other stuff. the reasons or whatever #meanwhile i have SO MUCH TO DO i don't have time to be recovering from anorexia!!! i have errands to run!!!!!! #i need to go to the dry cleaners and pick up my dress for the wedding i'm going to this weekend #which uhhhhh being seen. cool. cool! #i need to go to my friend who's getting married's apartment and retrieve the makeup i accidentally left there #i need to go grocery shopping #i need to go cleaning supplies shopping #i need to clean the bathroom #i have company coming and need to set up their room #all i seem to be capable of doing is moving my own furniture around #if nothing else i'm great at picking up a table and moving it to a part of my room and going 'no this is disgusting' and moving it again