#mikasa akerman x reader smut

[witchofhimring]

Not Alone

Warnings: Smut, a bit of blood, angst (18 plus Minors DNI)

Summary: Sometimes the loneliness gets too much  

Pairings: Mikasa x Reader x Eren 

Notes: I can’t believe what I’ve just wrote 

You groaned as the straps of your armor came. It had been a long mission. You had been covering Sasha and Connie as they stole intel from Marley. Luckily the mission had gone well, they didn’t always. More often than not you were forced to watch as your comrades were gunned down. You would watch as the blood pooled out beneath them, and knew that they were gone. No longer would you be able to see them, laugh with them, care for them. The first time you had seen death you were ten. Shiganshina fell and your mother was bit in half by a titan, it’s grin spreading across the lower half of its face. Since then pools of blood blotting out the memories of your loved ones became an all too current recurrence. Your father had died only a year later, shot by a criminal as he tried to stop the man from harming a child. Your friend Thomas had been devoured by a titan, but when you came back to that spot later you found droplets of blood splattered on the ground. Now whenever you thought of the sandy haired youth, you thought of blood staining the ground. Marlowe on the field with half his face blown off, glass slick with his blood and brains. Moblit, torn to pieces. Nothing more than hunks of red covered meat. You removed your hand from your shoulder to find it covered in blood. 

You gagged. Right now someone was one the ground. Someone with loved ones. Right now an innocent child could find out that a loved one was dead, and turn out like you. You had killed to survive, just as those before you had done. 

Had you minimized suffering by any degree? You joined the military to save lives. But all you had done was kill. You collapsed onto one of three beds. Your eyes drifted to your armor, covered in blood. Sobs filled your throat till they broke free. You buried your head into the pillows.   

Someone slid into your bed and wrapped their arms around your waist. You could feel her chest pressing into your back.

“Mikasa.” It came out as barely more than a whisper. The girl behind you pressed her lips to your neck. You were gently turned onto your back. Hovering over you, Mikasa studied every inch of your pained face. Her thumbs brushed against your closed eyes. You always closed your eyes during moments like these. When everything became too hard you shut out the rest of the world. Mikasa remembered a time when your eyes shone brightly with hope and innocence's. It was one of the reasons she fell in love with you. Slowly you opened your eyes to see her gray ones. Reaching up, you tucked a few strands of her short black hair behind her ears. Mikasa turned her head and pressed a kiss to the inside of your palm. Her lips lingered on a small scar caused by who knows what. You gently pull her down so that Mikasa’s body is flushed with yours. 

“I miss you.” Mikasa’s arm hugged around your waist. She was careful not to put too much weight on you. The arm that was not around you was beside your head, propping her up. You gave her a smile and nodded. 

“Hmm.” She pressed a kiss on your forehead. This wasn’t the first time you had gotten like this. Sometimes it got too much. When it got too much you kept to yourself. Hours spent under the sheet, staring at nothing. During those times you kept your space from everyone, including those who loved you. At one time your eyes were bright. But now they were dull. Mikasa had to watch as over time those e/c eyes dulled. Your eyes shut and hugged Mikasa close. The hand that was on your waist rested on your thigh. Her lips gently pressed against yours. She didn’t want to press anything on you. Sometimes when you were like this you need comfort. Other times you hid from the world. Your arms tightened around her as you returned the kiss. Using her strength, Mikasa pulled you onto her lap. Her hands started to unbutton your shirt and pulled it off your shoulders. She unbuttoned your shirt slowly as her lips brushed against your neck. You nightshirt was discarded to the floor and her hands started on your bra. Before she undid it Mikasa looked into your eyes. You nodded. 

Your body shivered as Mikasa’s fingers gilded over your back. Nails lightly dug into your skin, leaving their mark. But not too deep, never too deep.  Mikasa had always been gentle with you, despite her reputation. Your top was bare and you could feel the cold air against your skin. One hand rested on the small of your back as the other untied the knot holding your pants up. Now your bare thighs rested on hers, clad only in your underwear. Hands seized you waist, causing you to grind down. A whimper escaped your mouth as the beginnings of arousal started to dampen your core. Her mouth was on your, giving a searing kiss. The air seemed to become heavy all of a sudden. It had been ages since you’d felt like this. 

“We haven’t gotten to do this in a while.” Mikasa whispered. You buried her head in her neck. 

“Sorry.” You mumbled. Mikasa shushed your apology and her lips latched onto your shoulder. You squeaked as her mouth started to leave a mark. Hips rutted into hers as arousal poured over her thighs. A tightening sensation could be felt in your core. Breathing became shorter and shorter. Your hands had a tight grip on her shoulders. Then the feeling of euphoria crashed over you. 

“What's going on here?” You squeaked as Mikasa quickly pulled you under her. She hurriedly threw the sheets over your naked body. Angry, she turned to confront however had decided to disturb you.

Standing in the doorway was Eren. 

As he headed to bed, the first thing Eren heard was moaning. He recognized it as Y/n’s, as well as Mikasa’s. A flush rose up his cheeks as his pants tightened. Were they really starting without him. He picked up the pace, all thoughts of sleeping forgotten. He opened the door to find Mikasa in full gear with Y/n naked on her thigh. Y/n’s mouth was open and her eyes screwed shut. The second they noticed him, Mikasa pulls Y/n under her. For a second she looked angry till she realized it was him. He took in the scene. A blushing Mikasa, Y/n hiding underneath her and Y/n’s cum dripping down Mikasa’s leather clad let. 

In a few strides Eren walked up to them. He got to his knees and seized Mikasa’s thigh. You gapped as his tongue licked up your orgasm off Mikasa. Oh my god. As if it were a reflex, you covered your eyes. 

“Y/n.” Mikasa towered over you as she removed your hands from your face, which was really heated up. You expected her to tell you off, like she usually did than when she felt you were being too shy. But this time she was staring at you gently. Your hand ran through her short black hair as you pulled Mikasa down for a kiss. 

Eren ran his hands down Y/n’s thigh, nails lightly racking her skin. He noticed how stiff her thighs were. He pressed on them lightly and she let out a groan of pain. He gently placed her legs over his shoulders. He watched Mikasa’s tongue dominate Y/n’s mouth. A slender finger started to make a circular motion on her labia. Y/n gasped as her back arched as her fist tightened in Mikasa’s hair. Mikasa gave a grunt as she let go. 

“Sorry.” Y/n pressed kisses to Mikasa’s face, making her giggle. 

A pained gasp tore itself from Y/n’s mouth as she felt a burning sensation between her legs. Mikasa immediately broke apart as the feeling disappeared. A hand on the small of your back propped you up on your elbows as your legs were spread further apart. You looked between your legs. Eren was frozen in place. The tips of his fingers were tinted red. When he had slipped his fingers in you hadn’t been prepped properly. Mikasa was rubbing your back, speaking softly in your ear. Embarrassment came over you. You hadn’t bled since you had lost your virginity.      

“Oh my god, Y/n are you okay?!” Eren towered over you, nose inches from yours. His hands grabbed your hips so that he could make sure you were okay. 

“M’fine.” You didn’t want him to feel bad. Decides, the pain had mainly faded. You wrapped your arms around his waist so that his chest was flushed with yours. 

“Your hurt.” Eren couldn't seem to be able to meet your eyes. He’d always been careful when handling her. You always thought it was because you weren’t as strong as Mikasa. Though in his defense Mikasa was the same. Your hands pressed into Eren’s back as you pulled his toned chest down to yours. Legs wrapped around his slim torso as Y/n held him to her. 

“I’m fine.” Y/n sounded slightly choked up as she grinded her pelvis into his. A moan tore itself form Eren’s throat. A blush covered his cheekbones. 

“Please.” Y/n whined. Giving in, he grinded back pulling out a whimper. Seizing the end of his shirt you pulled it off. 

“Mikasa.” You sat up and started to take off her vest as Eren got rid of his pants. Mikasa leaned back and whispered something into his ear. 

“Guys?” You looked between the two. Mikasa sat on the side of the bed, legs spread apart, still dressed in her leather pants. She pats between her legs. You got up and started to kneel in front of her. Mikasa’s hands seized your shoulders and turned you around so that you were sitting on her lap. She gripped underneath your knees and spread your legs over hers, leaving you completely vulnerable. Your hands gripped your knees to give yourself something to hold onto. Eren kneeled in front of you. His hands placed themselves onto your thighs. He looked up at you, seeking your permission. You leaned down and took his face between your hands, pressing kisses to his cheekbones. You wanted him to know that you were okay. Mikasa pulled you back up and pressed your back to her chest. Hot kisses were pressed onto your neck. 

“Ahh!” Mikasa’s teeth grazed your skin one hand pulled your head back, giving her further access. Eren’s tongue suddenly came into contact by running up your slit. Hands gripped his long brown hair. He then thrust his tongue into your hole, causing Y/n to whimper. It was almost too much. Mikasa marking your neck, Eren’s between your legs. Eren’s thumbs spread your lips, but was too afraid to put any fingers inside of you. She turned your head and missed you deeply. Arms encircled your waist and you made out. You saw Eren look up, transfixed by the scene above him. 

“H-hey. Mikasa, I think he likes watching us.” You barely got the words out. Mikasa hummed and lay kisses on your shoulders. 

“Add your fingers. Gently.” The last word came out as a warning.  Eren looked unsure. 

“It’s okay.” You reassured him. Eren started off with one finger, slowly pumping. Sensitive walls closed in as Y/n felt her body being prepped. You whined as his tongue started to tantalizingly graze you. He removed his fingers and grinned up at you. 

“Please?” 

“Since you asked so nicely.” He stuck out his tongue again. He ran it down your slit before plunging right into your core. 

“Ah!” Your hand left Mikasa’s hair and gripped onto the base of Eren’s neck. Hunched over and eyes closed, you felt your legs shake. A kiss was placed behind your left ear. 

“Y/n, open your eyes.” Mikasa whispered. When you did open them, the sight almost made you cum right there. His normally teal eyes were now almost completely black. The bottom half of his face was covered in your slick and his spit. A light blush covered his prominent cheekbones. Mikasa’s slender fingers added to Eren’s tongue. Teeth gritted together, your whole body was starting to be overcome with ecstasy. For a second time Eren’s tongue left you, but this time it traveled further back. 

“What are you-?” Your voice was caught in your throat as you felt the tip grace your other hole. You felt his tongue rimmed the outside of your asshole. Mikasa leaned back to give Eren more room. She giggled. 

“See? Told you he wanted to do that.” A while back, Mikasa hinted that Eren wanted to try this. But you were too shy to confront him on this. Suddenly the familiar sensation of an orgasm was coming. You could feel Mikasa’s fingers on your g spot as Eren seemed to be making out with you down there. Sensing you were about to cum, Eren went back up to your clint. Finally, your orgasm was torn from you. Eyes closed, you slumped against Mikasa’s chest, shaking. Mikasa cradled you to her chest as she pulled you onto her lap.

“Can you continue?” You nodded. You felt it wasn’t fair if only you got relief. 

“I have an idea. Y/n, stand up.” Eren had you stand up as he knelt in front of you. He threw one leg over his shoulder as Mikasa knelt behind you. Grabbing your hips, she impaled you onto Eren’s outstretched tongue. You squirmed at the angle. The second you were placed on his mouth your legs buckled. Luckily he was strong enough to hold you up. Mikasa’s tongue ghosted to the back of your slit. 

It was almost too much. You couldn't even say anything. Every now and then Mikasa’s tongue would dart to your other hole causing you to jolt. The stimulation was starting to make you dizzy. Every muscle seemed to be on high alert. Mikasa’s nails dug into your thighs as she pulled you closer to her face. When you orgasm did come over you, your body collapsed. Eren quickly stood up and scooped you up into his arms. You were carried to the bed you had been on earlier. They let you recover from your orgasm. Mikasa’s hand brushed the hair from your damp forehead, stroking your cheekbone. Eren’s hands gently massaged your thighs, helping you relax. 

“Can you keep going?” Eren hovered over you. 

“Yeh.” You gasped. Mikasa got up and shoved Eren back onto the bed. 

“Stay.” She ordered. She positioned your cunt over Eren’s dick. You hissed as she eased you down onto him. The ache didn’t last too long as you'd been prepped. Mikasa then positioned herself in front of you, on his abs. One of Eren’s hands gripped your waist, as another went between Mikasa’s legs. 

“Ah-!” You let out a gasp at the sensation. It felt like your body was on fire. Though Eren was on the bottom, he was in control. He grinded his pelvis into you. You gripped his waist to stabilize yourself. Mikasa pressed her palm to your stomach, causing you to let out a strangled moan. It made the sensation of your position much more intense. 

Mikasa was the first to cum. She bit into your neck as her nails scratched your waist. When yours came at the same time as Eren. Collapsing onto Mikasa, you let her pull you off and onto her lap. She cooed as you struggled to come down. It had been so long since you had done anything like this and you were just so so tired right now. You felt kisses being pressed to your back by Eren. You sighed as Eren pulled you down beside him on the bed. His arm curled around your waist holding you to him. Mikasa layed on your other side, hand resting on your stomach. With heavy eyes you allowed yourself to fall asleep. You would allow yourself to feel fine, even if it was just for a bit. It was times like this that you didn’t feel alone.                                               

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[nightfall-kachiniko]

Happy Mother’s Day to the finest thing the walls have ever seen, the hottest sexiest mommy my wife mikasa 💍🫡

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[digitalinsanity111]

Mikasa x f/reader <3

[nsfw!!, switch y/n, ✂️ing🤭]

(aot college AU)

some lore----

You and mikasa were dorm-mates, you and her were both in your freshmen year of college. You'd known her since the start of freshmen year in highschool, so i guess you considered your self lucky to still have her end up sticking around. You won't lie, you've always had a huge crush on her. She had always been so dominant and independent, something about her gaze had always sent you butterflies making your knees feel week.

"Are you going to that party tonight?" you questioned. "Huh?...what party?" mikasa said in response. "The one that Eren and connie are throwing". Mikasa had a confused expression "What? oh well no then. i'd rather just stay here, plus I'm sure eren will just be fucking sluts in the bathroom the whole time". You were only planning to go if she was as well. "Oh alright, then i'll just stay here with you". - "Are you sure? if you really want to go i'll just come with you i guess..". Your face started to feel a bit hot when she said that, you aren't sure why, but maybe it was just the thought that maybe she said it because she wanted to protect you. She had always came with you to the dumb college party's you always wanted to go to, because she knew that when you got high or drunk you couldn't handle your self. "O-oh no! it's ok! i kinda..i kinda want to just stay here anyways." You had finished up the last bits of your work for the semester the day previous, so you had time to blow off.

"..." It was getting too silent, you always hated the awkward silence that would distance between the two of you. "So uh.. well what are you up to now then?" you asked, trying to fill the awkward gap. "Nothing, i'll probably just relax. You should too, i think you've been working hard." Did she really care? it made your heart flutter, it's corny but almost everything she did managed to fluster you in some way. "oh yeah uh..maybe we could like watch Netflix or something." This was your chance to spend time with her alone, it felt like forever since the two of you had actually gotten to be alone together since both of you were always busy with completing work for the semester. Mikasa looked to the side, wearing that almost expressionless face as usual "Sure." You got on the bed where Mikasa was sitting. Before getting under the covers, you grabbed the LED remote and flipped it to red, it was the only color that was actually relaxing for you. It was dark, but still light enough that you could make out all of her beautiful features. Mikasa switched through the selections and genres of shows and movies to watch until she gave up and found something random to put on. You situated your self, scooting a bit closer to her. Your arm basically kissing hers. "i miss nights like these." you said trying to start a meaningful conversation. "..me too." she shot in reply. "i wish that we could do this all the time, I've really missed you lately. it feels like we never get to be alone with eachother anymore." Mikasa's face flushed a light shade of pink, but the red glow of the lights made it impossible for you to see. It was starting to get too quiet again. "so.. i-" mikasa cut you off, pulling you into her embrace. It was so quick, yet she was still so gentle with you. you gave into her warmth and returned her affection. "M-mikasa?..." you blurted out her name, if she could see how red your face was right now you'd definitely be embarrassed. She lightly finger brushed the pieces of your hair, still remaining silent. Mikasa pulled away "..im sorry, i don't know what that was, i just felt like i wanted to do it." Your eyes bored into hers. Without even thinking, your lips found their way to her soft ones. Mikasa froze still for a second before pulling away slightly, then pushing her lips against yours, mouths interlocking. You swear it felt like butterflies were dancing in your stomach, it felt so right. Her tongue meeting with yours as you held one hand to her cheek. A string of shared saliva connected from both of your lips when you finally pulled away for a breath. Panting slightly, Mikasa pushed you over onto the bed. "M-mikasa...i..." you didn't know what to say, your head felt empty as you tried to process if this was actually happening right now. Before you could speak another word, she pressed her body against yours, her knee digging up into your sensitive heat. she trailed kisses along the side of your jawline, to your neck and collar bone, gently pushing up your shirt to continue the process. She resumed to pressing more gentle kisses down your stomach,your abdomen tensed up. She continued kissing down, stopping at the waist band of your sweat pants. You stopped breathing for what felt like a minute, trying to hold back your voice from escaping. "..Can i continue?" she waited patiently for your reply. Was this real? was this really about to happen? questions filled your head, cutting them off you responded "yes...i want you to..". Mikasa swiftly and slowly pulled down the soft fabric, her face flushing a deeper shade of pink when she saw the wet spot on your grey panties. She pressed her thumb into the spot simply out of curiosity of your reaction. "H-ha m-mikasa..feels good.." she released the pressure and came back up to eye level. "Can i..c-can i remove your shirt?" You flushed, "yeah..that's ok with me" You had never heard her voice like that before, the tone of her words sounded so desperate. Mikasa reached her hands up your shirt rubbing upward your stomach, cueing for you to lift your arms.

You complied, raising your arms as she slid the shirt off of you. Your ears burned hot, you could feel her eyes hungrily examining your uncovered body. She traced her hands down your bra to your ribcage, hands stopping at the sides of your waist. She kneeled down, lowering herself to lick at your upper stomach. You winced at the sensation of her saliva meeting your bare skin. She pressed sensual kisses down your body, stopping right between your thighs. The wet spot noticeably larger than before, she wrapped her arms around your plush thighs, thumbs rubbing circles into the soft warm flesh. "i...i want it mikasa .. please~" The way you spoke made her whole body shiver inside even if she didn't physically show it. She kissed your heat, humming lightly enough for you to feel the vibrations against you. "a-ah!" you cried, from the unexperienced feeling. Mikasa licked over the thin cloth of your cotton panties, it was warm. The heat from her breath making the feeling amplify. You were definitely reaching your limit, or so you thought. Mikasa stopped, "huh w-why'd you stop?" you whined. She lifted up, "would you help me?.." she lifted her arms. Dazedly, you sat up to assist her in taking off her shirt. You trailed your hands up her shirt, feeling over the warm supple surface of her skin before removing it fully. She took off her shorts, leaving the both of you in your undergarments. Both Leaning in closer on your knees, your lips intertwined, breathless pants of desperation leaving your mouth as you yearned for more of her touch. Her leg slipping in between yours as she yet again pushed you onto your back. This time it was more lustful, she interlocked her hands with yours, keeping them from moving. Under her you felt small, she was so possessive, it made you feel safe. Kissing, then sucking into your neck leaving marks. you moaned yearningly, you wanted more of her, it felt selfish but you wanted all of her. She lifted one of your legs over her shoulder, pressing her heat into yours. The sensation of both of your sensitive bits touching together was enough to drive you up the wall. You let out a lustful sigh from how long you had been holding your breath. Your breathing hitched when she stared to slowly move herself against you. You could feel her arousal seeping through the fabric of her panties onto yours. It was hot. Mikasa let her voice out "ahah~ fuck!" Your hips rolled against her, rubbing into her most sensitive areas. Head empty, you couldn't even manage to process a thought, the feeling was overwhelming. She continued thrusting her body into yours, your panties were definitely soaked with both the fluids from you and hers. The sensation was warm and made you feel fuzzy. The feeling burned a hole into your mind as you reached for her hand. "P-please~ *huff* hold my hand" and she did. You involuntary shivered at the feeling, uncontrollably thrusting against her warmth. It felt good, you couldn't put it into words. Her legs trembled as she felt her climax building a knot in her stomach. You felt like you would die if you didn't get a release, you squeezed her hand tightly as you both matched paces. Each Reaching your climax, you cried out, using the other hand to muffle your lewd noises "mmffh~". Mikasa rode out her high with you, softly thrusting hips against one another. It still felt good, the vulgar noises coming from where your bodies connected were so enticing . She panted, loosing her grip on your thigh. Mikasa placed your leg down before leaning down to press a kiss to your lips. Your fucked out expression was one that she would never forget. She laid next to you tiredly, gripping gently at your waist and burying her head into the crevice of your neck, pressing soft pecks to your neck. Falling asleep like this was now your favorite way to spend your days off.

Ty for reading!! i hope you enjoyed and lmk what i can better 😩🙏 i rlly enjoyed writing this one tho bc AHHH I LOVE HER SM😭

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[blueroses789]

I wish I could be stronger Update

I will be redoing I wish I could be stronger on @witchofhimring instead of this one (@blueroses789). It will take several months but I feel my writing style has changed and this story needs editing. Thank you for your patients.😊

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[leepumpion]

Revenge - Mikasa x Reader +18

Summary - eren keeps on bringing girls over and being to loud, so you teach him a lesson by fucking his sister

Words - 1.5k

You were so fucking done.

For what felt the fifth hundredth time, your ass of a roommate Eren has decided to bring yet another girl over and fuck her despite having the world's thinnest walls.

You knew that Eren didn't give two shits about the fact that his horny ass kept you up at night because every time he would have one of his girls over, the next morning he would grin at you as if he had won some sort of trophy.

It was so fucking annoying. So today when he decided to bring yet another girl to your shared apartment you devised a plan. A plan so petty yet so perfect that it might actually teach Eren and his fuck boy antics a lesson.

You see, while Eren likes to pretend that he doesn't care for anything or anyone, he has a massive soft spot for his younger sister Mikasa. While they are not biologically related, they grew up together as siblings and Eren is very protective of her (despite the fact she obviously doesn't need his help). It also so happens that his sister is super hot.

That's right, you are going to teach Eren his lesson by fucking his sister. But being honest with yourself, you're definitely using this as an excuse to try and get with Mikasa as you have had a fat crush on her ever since you had met her in your biology class. So you wait out the awfully loud moaning coming from the room next door and go to sleep while running over your plan.

When you wake up the next morning you meet Eren in the kitchen as normal. But this time as Eren smirks at you, instead of rolling your eyes at him, you smirk right back.

"What's up with you this morning?" Eren remarks, obviously surprised by your upbeat attitude this morning.

"Nothing, what's up with you?" Your reply and that shuts him up completely.

After grabbing something quick to eat and getting dressed you head off to your first class of the day, which so happens to be the class you share with Mikasa. You walk into the half-full lecture hall and spot Mikasa, swiftly sitting next to her. You share your hellos and small talk before getting out your school supplies getting ready for the lecture, but just before the class could start, you lean over and ask Mikasa the important question.

"Hey Mikasa, I'm kinda struggling with the assignment, you wanna come over and work on it together? Plus Eren is home if you wanted to say hi to him"

"Oh, sure! I could probably use some help, to be honest" she said as she gave you that warm smile that makes your heart melt.

The rest of the day was unbearably slow as you couldn't stop thinking about the little study date you have with Mikasa after all your classes.

Of course, if she wasn't interested in taking it any further than just studying, you would completely respect that, but you can't help but get excited thinking about all the things you could do with Mikasa instead of actually studying.

So when you were finally dismissed from your last class of the day, you quickly packed up and headed straight to the parking lot where you had arranged to meet up with Mikasa.  As you approached the parking lot outside of the main building, you spotted Mikasa in the distance waving to you with a smile. God, she was gorgeous. 

The car ride back to your apartment was honestly a little bit awkward because though you and Mikasa were friendly acquaintances, you have never really been alone together. But luckily your apartment wasn't very far from your university, so the small talk didn't have to last too long.   

As you two entered your apartment you both greet Eren, who was surprised to see his sister over unexpectedly, and headed off to your room.  The two of you sat down on your bed and got out the textbooks and papers that were necessary for the assignment you were working on. And surprisingly it went pretty smoothly. Your original intention wasn't necessarily to be productive, but it seems like Mikasa was actually a lot of help, so by the time you remembered what your original plan was, it was already getting late. 

And that's also when you realized you didn't really have a plan when it came to seducing Erens sister, so you just went with the flow. You looked up from your textbook to see Mikasa concentrating on her work, so you get her attention you place your hand on her thigh and ask her a question.

"Hey Mika, do you remember what page number the information about ____ was on?"

As Mikasa looks up from her work to answer her question, you can't help but notice how close your faces are. Being so close you notice how soft her lips are as she responds to your question, and not even hearing her answer you lean in and kiss her. It doesn't take long for Mikasa to relax into the kiss, feeling your lips move against hers, and god her lips feel softer than they look.

Finally breaking apart for some air it doesn't take long for her lips to find yours again as you kiss her again but with more passion and need than before. The kiss quickly turns into a heated makeout as you find your hands caressing up and down the sides of her waist and hips. grabbing at her teeshirt, you lift it above her head and remove the piece of clothing. You softly grab and kneed her clothed boobs as she lets out breaths of pleasure. 

Deciding that you want to hear more, you unclasp her bra and trail kisses down her neck and collar bone till you reach her nipples. You find pleasure in her soft moans and whines you continue to use your mouth to play with her boobs. Trailing down her body with your mouth you finally reach her pants. As place your hands on her buckle, you look up at Mikasa, who is now madly blushing, to get permission to take her pants off.

"w-wait, what about Eren? I'm not that good at staying quiet" she asks while looking down at you between her legs.

"don't worry, these walls are super thick, he won't hear a thing" you lied while rubbing her upper thigh in a comforting manner. Being reassured, Mikasa gives you the go-ahead. You unbuckle her jeans and discard them as you start to place wet kisses on the insides of her thighs. As you keep on kissing her inner thighs, you trace your finger along her clothed slit, making her whine from above you.

Not being able to hold back much longer you remove her panties and dip your tongue into her now soaking pussy. The noises she made as you continued to lap at her core were enough to make you throb underneath your pants. And with the noises and her taste combined, you were hooked on Mikasa. As you continue to eat her out you feel her hand softly caress your head, so you push your head even deeper into her heat.

At this point, Mikasa was in complete bliss. She started to unconsciously buck her hips into your mouth while gripping your hair.

"fuuck ah~ y-y/n I think I'm gonna cum!"  She squeaks out just moments before she releases on your tongue. After riding her through her orgasm, You lift yourself up and kiss her again, sharing her taste between the both of you. In between kisses you start to rid yourself of your clothing until you are completely naked.

You place your hand underneath her knee and lift up her right leg as you line up your cunt to hers. As you ready your position your lower yourself and start to grind down on Mikasa's core. The feeling of your cunts grinding together was making your eyes roll back in pleasure.  Mikasa, still being sensitive, was now moaning louder than before and fuck was it hot.

It didn't take long before both of you were close, so as you felt your orgasm creep up on you, you started to go even faster, at this point you could audibly hear the wet sounds of you two grinding together. Going faster tipped both you and Mikasa over the edge as you rode out your high. 

Finally, as you fell down from your high, you got off of Mikasa and laid down beside her, completely out of breath.

"wow" is all Mikasa said before you both start to laugh. Rolling over you bring Mikasa to your chest and you both start to dose off in a sweaty embrace. But before you could drift off into sleep, you hear a notification go off on your phone. So your reach over to your side table and pick up your phone to see a message notification.

From : Eren

we need to have a talk

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[ethan45]

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[butterfliesinmyguts]

early mornings

summary: you want to be as close as you can to levi

warning: +18 smut, lovely dovey ( ofc ), and fluff

your mouth laid ajar on levi’s bare chest, a light snore passed through your nostrils and mouth, your arms gripping levi waist tight in deep sleep . he couldn't help but to watch you, you looked so relaxed. you seemed to only be relaxed in your sleep, all the running around and being on guard 24/7 did nothing but stress you out to the point of greys.

pushing your hair aside, to get a better look a you. Levi got lost , your mesmerizing. shifting your body to turn away from him, loosening your grip on his body. Levi stared out of the window, the light was starting to grow along the sky.

unwarpping himself from your arms, his naked body shivered by the cold air. walking toward the mirror he examined the damaged from last night, closing his eyes Levi could remember the way your moaned his named in pure pleasure- the red marks on his back that you left. Levi loved that he made you feel like that, he loved that you while deep inside you the words “ I can’t get enough of you..” and his favorite “ your the only one that makes me feel good like this “ you were his, and as much as he was yours.

“ it's cold levi..” turning back towards you, the sun hitting your body. rubbing your sleepy eyes, your body was completely exposed to him down to your hips which were wrapped in his sheets you shared in secert. “ come back please” you begged, patting the cushion.

how could he not come back, a goddess was in his bed? just by looking at you he fell in love all over love again. walking back towards the bed you moved so you could climb back on top of him. pushing your core against his, levi’s hands grabbed on to your hips. as face fell to his chest looking up at stare at the masterpiece in front of you. levi was your muse, you couldn't help but to be in a complete daze, you were utterly in love with him.

“ what time is it?” ear pressed against his chest, his heart was a sound that calmed you. “ time for us to get up..” laughing softly, and nuzzled yourself into him. “ It’s just so cold...” rubbing yourself again him, groaning in relief. Levi stopped your hips sternly, “ we don’t have time..”

lifting your chest up pouting you, slowly grabbed his cock rubbing him between your lips. “ I know I know” moaning, as your moments made him harden against you. lifting you hips, you pushing his tip on your entrance-Levi eyes darted towards you giving your a deadly stare, “please..” you ached for him so badly.

as much as you wanted Levi to fuck you into the bed until you couldn’t remember your name- he was right there was no time. your pussy ached for him though, to feel him deep inside you. you moved on to his cock.

Levi’s bottom lip was squeezed by his teeth, trying not to cum right there. he felt how wet you were as your stretched against him, he groaned.

“ I just want to be closer to you..” squeezing your eyes, you set down all the way down on his cock. “tch!” levi’s eyes closed as your took him in. leaning up you pressing a kissing on his lips, then resting your head on his shoulder. closing your eyes slowly falling asleep.

as much as levi wanted to move his hips against you it felt nice and warm. your walls took him in hugging around him. turning to you, your brows tighten, and mouth apart, he couldn't help but to smile. levi has learned to savor these moments with you, since your relationship was in the private and you both agreed to keep things professional. but it was still difficult, he’d watched you with catuion during everything. training, outings, and missons. levi couldn’t lose you, he won’t.

quickly setting up, you slowly lifted off him. you both watch in awh- your juices coated him. “oh god Levi..” you sobbed thrusting your hips forward -Levi watched in pure bliss, as his cock fell on his lower stomach. something he’d have to deal with later.

“ time to get ready!” you hopped off him darting to the bathroom. you both had a routine together, while you showered he’d brush his teeth and washed his face. while you brushed your teeth, levi straighten up his room, waiting for you to come out so you guys could get ready together. he loved having you there before an important meeting, your the only person who could tuck his ascot the way he liked.

you both were smart and precise peoples, the nights you slept in levi ‘s room. you’d bring your clothes for the next day, he’d washed them and iron them for you sometimes letting you sleep in. you’d make sure to leave before the sun rise completely and your excuse when your cabets asked where you were is that you’d went on a morning walk to clear your mind.

deep down levi wanted to put a end to the sneaking around, he want to tell everyone but it’ll definitely rise questions in his decisions making.

it wouldn’t only effect levi, but it would effect you. you were on the road of becoming a captain, he didn’t wanna hear “ of course she became a captain she fucking Levi”- you were coming a captain was purely on your skill of being able to teach anyone everything and the fact that you knew how to save everyone in the toughest situations.

“ y/n...” you hummed, still down focusing on lacing up your boots. “ when you become captain, I want us to come out..” that definitely got you attention, rising up you turned your body to him. levi had his classic plain stare on his face- he was serious. nodding you couldn’t help but to look shocked, “I would love that..” that beautiful smile playing on your lips as you went back to lace your boots. finally

before handing out, he’d always fix your buttons because you could never get them right. pushing your foreheads together, you exhale relaxing in each other touch “ see you later..” you smiled, heading out. Levi watched the door close, and smiled.

after a long day of training, and formation practice- miskasa, armin, and you chatted under the tree. armin talked about this book that hange let him have, as miskasa and you sat there and listened. at least you tried to, Levi words repeated in your head.

he wants everyone to know about your relationship, you honestly didn’t think it would come this far. your happy it did- it turned out better than you’d imagine, it made you feel warm that he thought about and even wanted a future with you. turning to the side you hide your warm cheeks, “what do you think our future will be like?” Armin questioned. Miskasa smiled “ I will like to think we all end up happy...”

during dinner you talked to sasha about the new formats, explaining to her why that should be good apparently to flirt with the new cook, as she described how tasted his food was you noticed levi walk in with hange- he set down and poured himself tea. typical, you smiled to yourself a sasha caught your attention.

“ where we're you this morning y/n” levi’s ear caught Sasha voice, trying not to direct his attention told you to much levi keep his eye on the tea cup in front.

“ oh I had an early morning”

author notes:

hello! let me know if you liked this and message me on tips to improve my reads. thank you so so so much for reading! good omens!

#levi aot #levi akerman #levi attack on titan #attack on titan x reader #attack on titan #mikasa ackerman #eren jaeger #scout regiment #hange zoë #shall we date leviathan #captain levi #levi x reader #snk levi #snk x reader #smut

[poppywrites41]

Why? Eren x Reader

Pairing: Eren Jeager x Fem! Reader

Summary: Y/N and Eren had always been close friends since childhood. Both of their parents had been lost when they were younger and they both joined the survey corps with their friends Mikasa and Armin. Y/N and Eren began to realize feelings for each other after the first time they went to the beach. Eren couldn’t keep his eyes off of her as she was playing in the water with her best friend, Sasha. Ever since then, they two would always look after each other and take comfort in each others arms. However, after their first trip to Marley with Yelena, after developing the plan with Zeke, she noticed Eren has been acting different…

Warnings: NSWF, Cursing, mentions of death, SMUT

CONTAINS SPOILERS FROM MANGA. DO NOT READ IF YOU DO NOT WANT TO BE SPOILED. This is a pretty long one. It goes along with the manga but I added my own twist.😊 There will be some time-skips bc I can’t write that much LMAO

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“Meeting dismissed. Everyone pack your stuff and head to the ship. We will depart to Marley in 2 hours.” Hange said to the new Levi squad and Yelena’s crew.

Y/N was still in disbelief that they would be taking the fight to Marley, to innocent civilians. She knew that they needed to retrieve Zeke, but she wasn’t too keen on Eren destroying anything. She thinks it would make things worse. Eren on the other hand, was rearing to go. He had a devilish look to his eyes when he stated that he would transform during the ceremony. Y/N almost didn’t recognize the person in front of her. She needed to talk to him before they leave. 

“Eren?” Y/N knocked on his door. 

“Come in”

Y/N opened to door to see Eren putting on Marleyian soldier clothes. She hadn’t realized how much he physically changed until now. He was taller and well built. His hair grew out and he started to grow a stubble. His eyes. His beautiful green eyes seemed to have lost their sparkle that was there when they were younger.

“Did you have something to tell me or are you just going to stand there like a mute?” his monotonous gruff voice brought her out of her thoughts. 

“Sorry,” she mumbled and she played with her sleeves, “I wanted to talk to you about the plan.”

Eren looked at her with his piercing eyes, “You don’t agree with the plan?”

Y/N gulped and shifted on her feet, eyes looking at the floor, “It’s not that I don’t agree with the plan. The plan is to retrieve Zeke, Eren. Do you have to kill civilians in the process? What if they fight back? What if someone we love dies?”

Eren sighed, “Y/N, if you have any doubts, I suggest you leave immediately. We cannot have weak soldiers there to mess things up.”

Y/N’s head snapped up to meet his eyes, her own eyes brimming with tears. 

“Eren...you don’t mean tha-”

“I am going to attack when they declare war on us Y/N. That is final. We need to send a message to them. Yelena came up with a plan to lure their titans away and so do I. The soldiers here are well equipped to handle anything so I doubt anyone will die. If they do, they were being careless.”

Y/N stared into his eyes to look for any sort of emotion, but saw nothing. She was scared, she was trembling. “Eren I-”

“You need to stay.”

“What?”

Eren took a few steps to Y/N and caressed her cheek in his palm looking down into her big e/c eyes. “You need to stay. I fear you will get hurt and I cannot have you getting hurt.”

She looks up at him in disbelief. “No Eren, I can do it. Let me come wi-”

“I CAN’T LOSE YOU!” he yells and brings her into a bone crushing hug.

“Eren…” Y/N breaths as she rubs his back, “It’s okay. I-”

“Please stay here...please. I promise I will come back. I need you here. I need you safe.”

“Why? Eren, I can help!”

“You will be helping! If you stay here, it will help me get home faster! I also need someone here to make sure everyone is safe. Please?” Eren looks into her eyes and her see tears. His eyes are full of sadness and fear and it hurt her. She took his head in her hands and wiped his tears.

“Okay,” She say with a sad smile, “I will stay.”

Eren gives a small smile and leans in to place his lips on hers. It has been a while since they have kissed mainly since everyone was busy planning and training. Y/N and Eren haven’t had much time to themselves. Eren leans back and looks at the clock, “We still have some time left before I leave…”

Y/N smirks, “Let’s make the most of it, Jaeger.”

Eren picks her up and lays her on his bed, smothering her neck and collarbone with kisses and love bites. Y/N slides her hands under his shirt, feeling his toned abs and back.

Eren steals her lips as he slowly unbuttons her shirt and caresses her smooth skin.

“I love you.” Y/N says out of breath pulling her hands through his dark hair.

“Yes I know” Eren says. He loves it when she does that to his hair. It relaxes him.

Once her shirt is off, he trails kisses down her bra and begins to suck at the top of her breasts.

“Ah! Eren…” Y/N breaths, tugging at his hair.

He chuckled and reached behind her to unclasp her bra, freeing her beautiful mounds. His hand immediately goes for her right breast, kneading it slowly as he spread kisses on her left. His mouth latched onto her nipple and began to suck. Y/N moaned and writhed on the bed, panting.

“Eren...please…”

Eren used his left hand to travel down to her pants. He unbuttoned them and began to pull them down, leaving her in her black lace underwear. He marvels at the sight before him.

“I’m glad you wore this pair. They’re my favorite.” He smirks and slids his hand underneath to her core, feeling her arousal.

“You’re so wet,” he says, easily sliding his two finger, earning a moan from the woman underneath him, “so perfect.”

“Ngh...Erennnn…” Y/N begins to writhe in pleasure as he begins to quickly slide his fingers in and out of her. Her hips bucking into his palm.

“You’re close? Already?” He asks in disbelief.

“W-We haven’t done a-anything in a while. Ah!” Y/N pants, hands gripping to his shirt.

Eren gives a small smile when she begins to tighten around his fingers. She’s close. He goes faster and listens to her moans and pants.

“E-Eren!! I’m-”

“Cum.” he says in a low voice.

Y/N felt her whole world shake as she felt her body spasm, giving out a long moan. Her whole body shaking. Eren chuckled and gave her a kiss as she slid her underwear down and unbuckled his pants. He had to leave soon so he only pulled them down a bit to free his cock. He gathered her wetness from her orgasm and spread it over his cock. Y/N watched him through lidded eyes, anticipating the feeling of having him inside her.

“Eren,” she whined, “now.”

“Yes, darling.” Eren chuckled and lined himself up to her entrance. He took her in his embrace and pushed himself him, wrapping his arms around her.

“A-Ahhhh Erennn” Y/N whimpered, wrapping her arms around him tightly. Her walls were stretching all over again. Eren gave her a minute to adjust since they haven’t been together like this in a while and began to rock his hips into her gently, relishing in her moans, memorizing everything about her.

“Fuck Y/N…” Eren breathes, “you’re so fucking tight…”

All Y/N can do is moan in pleasure, too out of it to talk. Eren then sits them up and has her bouncing on his cock in his lap. The new position allowed him to go deeper, earning louder moans from the woman. She wrapped her arms around him tightly, not wanting to let go.

Eren was close. He hated that he was so close this early, but he knew he needed to leave soon. He dug his face into her neck and breathed in her scent.

“Y/N...I’m close.”

Y/N’s hand went into his hair again, tugging at the long dark strands, “Yes! Yes! Eren please!!”

Eren thrusted himself into her a couple more times. He gave one final thrust as he came deep inside her, groaning as his seed spilt inside her. He stayed there for a few minutes, making sure every last drop made it inside her. Y/N on the other hand, was completely spent. Eren slowly untangled himself from her and gently laid her down on his bed, using his hand to move any stray hairs out of her face.

“Eren…” Y/N says.

“Shhh,” Eren hushes her, pressing a kiss to her lips, “Rest. I will be back in a month. Wait for me.”

Y/N’s eyes close, too tired to do anything from exhaustion. Eren looks down at the sleeping woman, the woman he held so dear to him. He sighed and stood up, grabbed his things and left. 

“It had to be done.”

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*Time skip to a month after*

It had been a month since that day and 2 weeks since Y/N found something. She was planning on telling Eren, only to then hear that Eren had been locked up for acting on his own and that her dear best friend, Sasha, had been killed.

“Y/N” Armin said as they all gathered together, “We will talk to Eren and figure something out.”

“Why do you always defend him, Armin?!” Connie yelled.

“Connie...” Mikasa warned.

“No, Mikasa! You cannot defend Eren for what he did! You are doing it because of your Akerman instincts.” Connie looked at us with tears, “I lost my twin...I lost half of me...And do you know what Eren did when he heard Sasha died? That bastard laughed.”

Y/N looked at him in shock, “No...He wouldn’t-”

“Why would he laugh if you all knew everything about him?” Connie pressed.

“Let us talk to Eren. Hopefully Y/N can talk to him.” Armin said.

“What if Eren shares the same goals as Zeke?” Jean asks, “What then.”

“The scouts have medicine that can turn someone into a titan..” 

“Armin” Y/N began to tear up, “No...”

“If Eren can no longer be trusted, we need to transform someone we trust into a titan and feed Eren to them.” 

“But Eren still has time left!” Y/N cries.

“We know,” Mikasa hugs her, “So that’s why we need to talk to him and figure out his motives to see if he is still on our side.

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*Time skip to when Eren breaks out*

“We have an emergency!!” An officer barges into the meeting room, gathering everyone’s eyes on him, “Eren Jeager has escaped!”

“What?!” Armin exclaimed, “How?!”

“He used the War Hammer titan,” Hange sighed, “I guess his is going to meet up with the Jeagerists. We need to meet with Nicolo and figure something out”

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 *At the restaurant*

“NICOLO! Stop it now!” Jean said as he held back the chef.

“She killed Sasha!” the chef cried pointing at Gabi.

“Calm down, we will handle her!” Armin said, “Y/N, Mikasa, let’s take her to another room.”

“I killed your friend. Killing me should be enough. Just don’t hurt Falco.” Gabi said.

“We aren’t going to kill you.” Y/N said.

“You can’t stop yourself from wanting to kill me right?” the little girl asked.

“No,” Armin said, “That’s all you ever talk about huh? Kill, kill, kill. You remind me of a certain someo-”

Armin was interrupted by the door opening to reveal Eren.

Everyone looked at him in shock.

“E-Eren...” Y/N sighed.

“Sit down,” Eren said showing a cut on his hand, “and keep your hands on the table.”

Everyone did as they were told, not wanting to risk and accident. There was a knock on the door.

“We’re leaving.”

“Okay.” Eren called.

“Was that Floch’s voice?” Armin asked, “You came with Floch?”

“Yeah” Eren said, “I wanted to talk to you guys in a quiet setting. We can settle Eldia’s problems without any conflict. Hange and the others will be fine. We’re just moving them.”

“We are the ones who wanted to talk to you,” Armin said, “We just wanted to know what you were thinking Eren.”

“What made you decide on your own to attack Marley.” Y/N said, “If Zeke and Yelena have really gotten you on their side…”

“I’m free.” Eren and said, “Whatever I do, whatever I choose, I do it out of my own free will”

“You met with the Yelena in secret the night of the rail opening right?” Armin asked, “Has this all been your free will since then?”

“That’s right.” Eren said

“You’re being controlled.” Mikasa said.

“Eren..” Y/N began, “You are not the kind of person who would involve innocent civilians and children, even if they live in an enemy state. You’ve cared for and thought about us more than anyone. Haven’t you? You saved us multiple times out of your own kindness right?” Her hand instinctively going down to her stomach.

“I said keep your hands on the table” Eren said sternly. “I hid myself in Liberio and spoke with Zeke brother to brother. I learned a lot then. Zeke knows more than Marley does.”

“Eren-” Armin begins.

“Armin,” Eren said, “You’re still going by and seeing Annie aren’t you? Is that out of your own will or is it Bertolts?”

Armin was taken aback, “what-”

“If memories play a major role in forming who the person is, that means part of you has become Bertolt. A part of an enemy soldiers that feels love for another enemy soldiers influencing a significant part of your judgment. You weren’t soft like this before. You never back to the enemy. Your judgment was always able to lead us to the answer. But every time you open your mouth now, it’s ‘let’s talk’ you’re absolutely useless.” 

“Eren…” YN began.

“Armin you’re the one being controlled by the enemy.”

“Eren stop” Mikasa says.

“I learned about the Ackermans there too. The reason you’re strong Mikasa. It turns out the Marleyian scholars still barely know anything about titans but what came about by accident from the Eldian empires fiddling around with the subjects of Ymir during its long history was the Ackerman clan who maintain a human form but in some cases can manifest the power of the Titans. Still the Ackerman clan was designed in order to protect Eldia’s king as a result the instincts and their blood will still activate once they recognize someone as a host. In other words you only cling to me because of your instincts as an Ackerman. You obeyed my order in that moment when you were facing death. Apparently when all of those conditions are met the instincts hidden inside the Ackerman clans blood will awaken. Not only did this heighten your physical abilities to an extreme, you were even given the experience in battlefield accumulated by every past Ackerman by way of a path. All because you happened by chance to trick yourself into believing I was the host you had to protect.”

“You’re wrong.” Y/N said. 

Eren turned to her with a glare, “Oh? Am I? How?”

“It wasn’t by chance,” she said, “It was because of you she was able to become strong. Because of you and your kindness.” 

“Apparently once an Ackerman awakens they find themselves suffering from headaches. They say this happens out of the true self trying to resist being forced to protect its host. Sound familiar Mikasa? What I’m saying is that the real Mikasa disappeared in that mountain hunt nine years ago leaving only you behind ever faithful to your Ackerman instincts.”

“Eren stop.”

“The clan who lost their true selves created only to follow orders. In other words, slaves.”

“Eren please stop”

“Do you know what I hate the most in this world, anyone who isn’t free. That, or cattle. Just looking at the made me so angry. Now I finally understand why. I couldn’t stand to look at it and doubting slave who only ever follow orders. Ever since I was a kid I have always hated you.”

“STOP IT!” YN slapped Eren but he slammed her to the ground. “Stay Y/N” 

Armin threw himself across the table and began to throw punches but Eren deflected them with ease. 

“Armin we’ve never fought before, huh? Do you know why that is? It’s because there’s no way you could even put up a fight against me.” Eren slammed Armin into the ground and began stomping on him. 

He suddenly stopped when a pair of arms wrapped around his torso. 

“Please... stop.” Y/N said crying. 

Eren looked into her eyes, “I will stop if you tell me where Zeke is. Or you can just come with us.”

 He signaled the guards to pick up Armin. 

“And what is it you even wanted to say?” Armin coughed, “Is that the freedom you wanted? The freedom to hurt all of us? Tell me who’s the real slave to a piece of shit?”

Eren gritted his teeth, “Who are you calling a slave? Let’s go.”

That night they went to the Shiganshina district. Eren had Y/N, Mikasa, and Armin thrown in a cell while he and his group made a plan to meet up with Zeke.

“Why…” Y/N cried as tears flowed down her cheeks, “Why would he do this?”

“I don’t know.” Armin said.

Y/N got up from her chair to lay down, but collapsed due to the pain in her stomach. She groaned in pain, clutching herself.

“Y/N!!” Jean and Mikasa cried out and rushed to help her up.

“Are you alright?” Armin asked.

“I think so…” Y/N said with tears, “But I am not sure about it…”

“...It?” Armin questions.

“I was planning to tell Eren when he got back…” Y/N said, her whole body shaking, “But he’s not the same person, I don’t know what he would do to me if he found out…”

“Found out what?” Connie asked.

“That...I’m…” Y/N shakes uncontrollably, “p-pregnant.”

“What?!”

Armin hold Y/N closer, “And that bastard floored you earlier. That can’t be good.”

“HEY!!” Jean yells through the halls, “We need a doctor immediately!! Please!!”

“Someone please!! Get a doctor!!” Mikasa screams.

“Hold on, Y/N!” Armin rubs her shoulder, “We will get you help! Just hold on. Maybe if Eren knows, he will-”

“No!” Y/N cries, “He cannot know. He must not know!”

“I can’t know what?”

Everyone gasped at the familiar voice. Eren.

There was complete silence and that ticked Eren off.

“What. Can’t. I. Know.” He annunciates. Y/N winces.

“Eren,” Mikasa starts, “Y/N is hurt. You went too hard on her.”

Eren skeptically looked at Mikasa then at Y/N. He saw how red, sweaty and pained she was.

“Are you so weak that you couldn’t handle a shove? I didn’t even do it that hard.” He chuckled.

“Eren…” Jean growled stalking towards the bars. He reached through and grabbed Eren’s shirt, “If you still have feelings for her, you will get her help.” 

“Jean…” Y/N whimpers, catching Eren’s attention, “Don’t.”

Eren laughed, “You care about him don’t you Y/n? Would you hate me if I hurt him?”

“P-please don’t Eren,” Y/N said, “He’s my friend, but you are special to me.”

“Then you wouldn’t have a problem joining my cause. If I’m so special to you.”

Y/N gets up with the help of Mikasa, still clutching her stomach, “Not if it means hurting my friends.”

Eren eyes her clutching her stomach but doesn’t move, “How will I know you are not tricking me to open this cell and you all attack me?”

“Eren” Armin starts, “You have three titans and could kill us at any moment. However, Y/N, our friend, is in serious pain. Why would we risk her safety to escape from you?”

“We will go to the opposite side of the cell.” Mikasa said.

Eren seemed to be lost in thought but hearing Y/N groan in pain brings him back to reality.

“Fine,” He said, “I will take her to get help. But if any of you try anything, I will not hesitate to hurt you.”

“Thank you…” Connie breathed.

Eren took the keys to the cell out of his pocket and unlocked the cell door, “Move.”

Everyone stepped back, leaving Y/N by herself. Eren opened the door and roughly grabbed her, Y/N making her wince. “Y/N!” Mikasa flinched, causing Eren’s head to snap up, his titan marks showing up on his skin. “I’m fine! It’s okay.” Y/N said as Eren quickly dragged her out, looking back at her friends in the cell with a sad smile.

Eren walked into the conference room gathering the Jeagerists attention, “I need a doctor.” he said in a monotonous voice. 

“Eren!” Floch said, “Why is Y/N out of her cell?”

“Get a doctor. Now.” Eren ordered. Everyone went out in search of a doctor while Eren and Y/N waited in an unoccupied office. Soon, a man was led in by a soldier. 

“Mr. Jeager,” the man greeted, “My name is Dr. Kim, I was told you are in need of a doctor?”

“Yes. Apparently this woman is hurting in her stomach.” Y/N flinched when Eren referred to her as a woman and not by name.

“Alright. I will take a look at her and will grab you if there is anything wrong.” Dr. Kim said. Eren nodded and left.

Y/N gave a sigh of relief when Eren left, which went unnoticed by the doctor. “So,” he began with a warm smile, “What seems to be the issue?”

“Please don’t tell him anything.” Y/N whispered.

“Excuse me?”

“Please...and do not condemn him. I am pregnant with his child. He does not know. My friends and I tried to confront him, which ended up in him attacking us. Hurting me. He cannot know. But I need to know if the baby is fine.”

The doctor looks shocked. “You must tell hi-”

“No! Not right now. Please doctor. This must stay between us.”

The doctor gave a long sigh and nodded, “Alright. But I need you to take your shirt off so that I may check.”

Y/N took off her shirt, and laid down on the bed. The doctor began to feel around her lower stomach area on her very small bump. 

“You have some bruising, but I believe it is alright. Have you bled at all since the incident?” He asked. Y/N shook her head and the doctor nodded. 

“Well then, I believe everything is alright. Please try to take it easy. Maybe stay away from him for a while.” Y/N nodded, tears streaming down her face, “Thank you.” The doctor smiled and walked out.

The doctor walked to the other room where Eren was. 

“Well?” he asked while looking out the window.

“She has bruising on her abdomen, but overall she is fine. I suggest you be careful with her.”

Eren was caught off guard by that last sentence and looked at the doctor. 

“Well,” The doctor said, “I must get going. I still have many patients to attend to.”

Eren gets up and shakes the doctor’s hands, “Of course. Thank you.”

When the doctor left, Eren went to the office where Y/N was. He slammed open the door to see Y/N laying on the bed with her hand on her stomach, startling her.

“So you lied.” Eren said.

“What?” she said.

Eren walked to her and stood next to the bed, looking into her eyes with hatred, “You made it sound like something bad was happening, but you just had a few bruises. You lied to me. Did you do it to distract me from them escaping?”

“Wha-Eren! I wasn’t lying!” Y/N said.

“What are you hiding?” Eren asked.

Y/N’s eyes widened slowly sitting up, “Hiding?”

“You’re hiding something Y/N. What is it?” Eren said darkly.

“I’m not hiding anything Eren! You’re scaring me!” Y/N cries backing into the wall.

Eren slowly climbs onto the bed towards her, “You called a doctor for bruising. BRUISING. On your stomach. Isn’t that suspicious?”

“Eren-”

“I will ask you again. What. Are. You. Hiding?” He ordered. His face centimeters from hers.

“Nothing...I’m not hiding anyth-AH” Eren cut her off by roughly grabbing her and slamming her back onto the bed. 

“Eren!” She cried, “Stop it! Please!”

“I will figure it out. What are you hiding…” Eren holds her hands above her head with one hand and with his other, he ripped her shirt off. 

“Stop it Eren! Please stop!” Y/N cried trying to kick him off, “No! Don’t!”

But it was too late. Eren saw the bruises that littered her lower stomach…and the tiny bump. 

At that moment, Eren couldn’t hear Y/N’s cries, only his heartbeat. Y/N kept crying for him to get off and to not hurt her, shaking like a leaf.

“How long…” Eren’s voice silenced her, “How long?”

“A-A m-month. Eren p-please don’t-”

“You weren’t going to tell me.”

“E-Eren-”

“You WEREN’T going to tell me!”

“YOU’RE NOT THE SAME PERSON!” Y/N screams.

She can feel Eren shaking with anger on top of her, his hold tightening around her wrists.

“Ngh! Eren! Stop it! Eren!” She cried.

“Why…” He asks with a shaky breath, “Why didn’t you tell me earlier?”

“You aren’t yourself. Y-You have been acting on your own. Jeopardizing everyone’s safety. My best friend was killed because of you...and...and you LAUGHED!!” 

Her scream caught Eren off-guard which allowed her to push him off onto his back and start punching him.

“Why did you laugh Eren?! WHY? Why did you laugh at Sasha’s death?! Did she not mean anything to you!? WHY EREN?”

Eren laid completely still, letting her land her punches on him, he would heal anyways.

“Why are you helping Zeke?! Why are you hurting us?! Armin?? Mikasa?? Why are you hurting me??” Y/N’s began to tire and her head began to hurt she got one last punch to his face before collapsing on his chest, crying. 

“Why did you turn against us??” she sobbed digging her nails into his skin through his shirt, “What happened to you?”

“I am still me-”

“No you’re not.”

“I am doing what I need to do to to save us.”

“We can find a different way.”

“There is no other way, Y/N. I need to get to Zeke. I need to prevent him from keeping Eldians from having children!”

Y/N looked up at him in shock, “What?”

“I am not going with Zeke’s plan all the way Y/N. He want me to use the Founding Titans power to make all Eldians unable to have children. But I won’t let that happen, I will connect with him and use the Founding Titan to start the Rumbling to destroy the Marlayians.”

“But why hurt us?”

“It’s best if not everyone knows what’s going on so Zeke does not get suspicious.”

He brings her face to his and kisses her lips.

“But Eren. Thousands of innocent lives will die…”

“But not everyone on Paradis,” he says trailing kisses down to her breasts, “Not you. Not the baby.”

Y/N clutches Eren’s shirt as he sucks on her nipples, “You can save everyone Eren. All this bloodshed isn’t the answer.”

“Let’s not talk about this.” He says as he trails his hand into her pants, finding her wet core. “Let me love you.”

Y/N dug her nails into his skin, whimpering as he brought her to her high with his digits.

“Erennnnnnn” She cries out in ecstasy, panting like a dog. Eren looks at her with gentle eyes. The woman he loves underneath him, carrying his future. Seeing her tiny bump awoke something in him. He suddenly rid himself of his clothes, ripped off her pants and underwear and quickly slid his cock into her heat. 

“Eren!” Y/N cried out, “Be careful! I’m still sensitive there…”

Eren gives her a long passionate kiss as he begins to thrust his hips into hers, earning beautiful moans from her.

Y/N had never felt such pleasure before, Eren’s cock was hitting all the right places in her, bringing her closer to another orgasm.

“E-Eren I’m c-close” She panted.

Eren then grabbed her and flipped her on her hand and knees, pressing her head onto the soft pillow under her. He loved this position. He loved to look at her smooth back, the way her hair would be all over the place and how her big e/c eyes would look back to meet his. She was like a goddess. He began to feel her walls tighten around him, a tell sign that she was closs. He leaned over her as he went harder against her hips, earning himself louder moans, kissing her nape. His hand slithered under to to rub her clit, bringing her closer to her high.

“Nghh E-Eren! P-Please don’t stop!!” She cried.

“Cum for me Y/N.” 

And she did. Her body went limp. Eren had to hold her up to that he could finish, spilling his seed into her. Eren wasn’t sure if it was physical or emotional exhaustion, but he collapsed right next to Y/N, pulling her into his arms, laying a hand on the tiny bump. Y/N on any day would love it when Eren spooned with her after sex, but she did not want to stay with him any longer. When she tried to get up, Eren’s hold on her tightened.

“Don’t leave me.”

“Eren, we can’t keep this up.”

“Please…” She stiffened as she felt wetness on her skin. Tears. “Let me hold you.” 

She didn’t say anything more, but she laid back down in his hold and relaxed.

“I love you, Y/N”

Y/N looks up at Eren with teary eyes, “Eren…”

“I am doing this to save you.”

“Eren, please…”

“Please let’s not talk about this. Let me hold you both for now.”

Y/N stiffens in his arms.

“Y/N, I’m sorry about Sasha. I will kill the brat who killed her-”

“No. You will not kill a child for revenge. She knows what she did and she regrets it. Leave her be.”

“Y/N-”

“Please... Just hold us.”

Eren nods and flips you in his arms to face him.

“I hate you.” Y/N cries as she digs her face into his chest inhaling his scent.

“I know.”

“We will fight you.”

“I know.”

“We will fight to kill you.”

“I know.”

“I love you.”

“I love you too.”

WOW! This is my first fic that I’ve ever posted on here! I’m sorry if there are some errors, but I hope you guys love it and my little twist on the story!💜

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[witchofhimring]

I Wish I could be Stronger Masterlist

Chapter 1: When it happened

You read stories about the girls being saved by the boy. But you learn that those are best left in the realm of fantasy. Because the one you love, loves another.

Chapter 2: Jealousy

Once again, you are reminded of your jealousy. Only you might not be the only one.

Chapter 3: Not as it seems

You and Eren talk, it doesn't go well.

Chapter 4: Can we talk?

Eren hates you, or so you think.

Chapter 5: Reconnection

Eren and Y/n hang out for the first time in six years. Mina hatches up a plan to stop their relationship from continuing. Also I know I have Jean x Reader in the relationships but I've decided their relationship will be platonic. Also I'm so sorry the chapters late, life's been a little busy.

Chapter 6: A reminder

The beginning of many Eren and Reader moments!🤗🥰

Chapter 7: A confession

So I know I said that there would be a lot of angst, but I made some changes. There is still angst but not from the reader. This chapter is mainly from Eren and Mikasa’s point of view. The next chapter will be soon since this chapter is so short.

Chapter 8: Reiss Apple Orchard

A relationship ends.

Chapter 9: It's over

A break up happens and Historia looses her shit.

Chapter 10: The calm before the storm

Lots of fluff, and Mina plotting. Because a storms coming.

Chapter 11: Mina's move, Eren's realization and Mikasa's desires

In which we get Eren, Mikasa and Mina's points of view.

Chapter 12: Stronger

The seeds of rage are planted.

Chapter 13: Unwell (part 1)

As the seeds of rage plants itself, the roots sicken you.

Chapter 14: Unwell (part 2)

A small look at Y/n cracking.

Chapter 15: It's roots dig into me

How long can you take it?

Chapter 16: Cruel

Eren and Mikasa sit down for a talk. Eren reflects.

Chapter 17: Tik tik tik

Your this much closer to snapping

Chapter 18: Frenzy

Mikasa happens upon you in your rage.

Chapter 19: A new perspective

You start to look at your mother in a different light.

Chapter 20: Over the edge

You say goodbye to your mother one last time.

Chapter 21: No shits to give

You kick Ymir out.

Chapter 22: Anger is a poison to the heart

Reader is as cuddly as an ice statue.

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[nightfall-kachiniko]

HEADCANON MIKASA GETS SUBTLE ROAD RAGE

LIKE SOMEONE TAKES HER PARKING SPOT AND SHES LIKE “suicide is always an option”

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[blueroses789]

I wish I could be stronger

Warnings:

Mental health issues

Smut

Angst

Domestic violence

next chapter: n/a

Chapter 22/

Anger is a poison to the heart: Chapter 22 (ps. Reader is as cuddly as an ice statue, so those of you used to nice Y/n, well, she's gone)

Decided that going to the mall was the last thing you wanted to do, called Mikasa to tell her. She sounded disappointed which made you feel annoyed. Didn’t she have other friends? And wasn’t your initial silence a clear signal you just wanted to be left alone? Plus you already had a dress for the Valentines day dance. The dance. You honestly didn’t want to go. But it felt callous to just leave Reiner in the dust. So you resolved to go.

You had spent the morning mindlessly doodling on a piece of paper. Today you had no desire for academics. Around 11:00 am hunger finally caught up to you. With a yawn and a stretch, it was off to the kitchen. To your dismay, Historia was sitting at the table. Despite the tension you were relieved that at least Ymir was not here. There was silence as cereal hit a bowl and the kettle whistled. You sat on a high chair in the kitchen. Almost done, you had thought Historia would leave you in peace. But it seemed the universe had other plans that day. As you put the dirty dishes in the sink the screech of a chair could be heard. Your stomach dropped as she walked towards you. After knowing Historia for several years, you could tell her mood solely based on her steps. This time the steps were heavy but fast, a sign she was angry and coming towards you with intent. So you turned to face her.

For a moment the two of you stared each other down. Historia had a slight angry flush on her cheekbones that she got whenever she was upset. “Well? I know you want to say something.” With no intention of beating around the bush, you just wanted to get this over with. “I get you don’t like Ymir but-” You chuckled. Historia winced. “My feelings go well beyond not liking her Historia.” A white-hot rage had bloomed in your chest, a bursting seed too heavy to stay contained any longer. And out of that seed came vines which wrapped themselves around you in their cruel embrace. It seized your organs, lungs, stomach, and heart. Breathing was becoming difficult, your stomach hurt beyond belief, but not worse than your heart. “Ymir harassed me for months and you just let it happen. Your disgusting Historia.” Her face turned a burning red. “Don’t you pin this on Ymir! I know what you’ve been up to.” This caught you off guard. “What?” “How you’ve been looking at me. Ymir told me all about it.” You were now totally confused. “How I’ve been looking at you?” Historia nervously looked at her feet. “I understand, but you have to stop. I’ve been with Ymir-” That was when you finally understood. It now made sense why she had been behaving like this for the past few months. You truly hated Ymir. So you took one decisive step towards her. “Historia, what did she say?” “That's none of your business.” “Oh, I think it is.” Historia finally met your eyes, here's a hard teal blue. “Why can’t you go after someone who is not taken? First Eren with Mikasa and now me.”

Your breathing came out like a drift of wind out of an empty cave. Ancient, steady, with all the mystery of time. You did not know why you suddenly felt calm, but there was a fury that steadied you. No one had ever believed you. First, it was Eren, now Historia, who had been your best friend. All it took was some girl Historia knew to derail a friendship that had endured for over a decade. In all the stories you had read, the protagonist was always able to prove themselves in the end. The bonds of friendship are what saved them. But you didn’t want to be saved. Maybe you just didn’t have that altruism or were just too tired. So you chose another option.

You leaned in so Historia could be able to properly hear you. “Now you listen to me very carefully. I have never, and will never, have any sort of interest in you. All Ymir saw was a stupid, empty-headed girl who she could use. That's all you are, so don’t pretend anyone will like you for who you are, because I certainly don’t.” When you pulled back there were tears flooding down Historia’s face. But you honestly would be lying if you said you cared. When had she ever cared, all the times you were hiding in your room, scared? You went back to drinking tea, and Historia left.

Reiner was nice and attractive. You had decided to go on a date before the Valentine’s day dance. You were actually pretty excited for this. You had never been on a date before. Even if it was something as simple as getting coffee, it didn’t sound so bad. In the end, you chose jeans and a cute red top. It snugly fitted your body and slopped, showing the top of your breasts. Looking at yourself in the mirror, you were actually surprised to find the reflection attractive. You wondered if you should wear makeup. Or maybe it was too much for a first date? In the end, you settled on simply settling on mascara and chapstick.

As you walked through the apartment you noticed Historia was not there. You wondered if she was in her room. It gave you satisfaction for Historia to feel the way you once did. Hiding in her room feeling utterly alone. With that, you felt the bond break.

Reiner got there first, sitting by the window inside. You gathered your courage, feeling nervous. The cafe was decently crowded, but not to the point of bursting. It was a relief because an empty one would make you nervous. When he saw you Reiner gave you a shy smile. At least you were not the only one who was nervous. It made you wonder if Reiner had ever been on a date before. “Hey.” You gave him a smile you hoped was charming. To your surprise, he stuck out his hand. You guessed Reiner was old-fashioned like that. You obliged, firmly. “So, how are you?” He asked. “I’m fine.” It wasn’t a lie, at least not in your eyes. In fact, you had never felt more free. You asked him how he was, to which Reiner said everything was good. Reiner was a good guy. The two of you simply talked about school and how you were liking your subjects. You knew he took the same business course as you these days. It was not a long one and in the end, you watched Reiner walked away. He had been kind enough to walk you home afterward. It felt like an accomplishment to do something you had never done before. Real fucking good.

As you walked into the apartment you noticed that Historia’s coat was missing. Her favorite pair of pink sneakers was missing as well. You felt sad. Not because you felt guilty. But because you did give a damn

 

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[blueroses789]

I wish I could be stronger

Warnings:

Mental health issues

Smut

Angst

Domestic violence

next chapter: Anger is a poison to the heart

Chapter 21/

No Shits to Give: Chapter 21

Your heart wasn’t really into it. People always went on about how exciting shopping with friends for dresses was. You had received a text from Mikasa to go shopping with some friends. No response was sent. Things that once might have held excitement now seemed pointless. Who cared about shopping? It wasn’t even that you were mad, just tired. You had a lecture later in the day, but honestly who the fuck cared. Historia was ignoring your existence in class anyway. You could hear Historia and Ymir conversing outside. With a sigh, you turned over only to be blinded by the light. Annoyed, you got up and made to shut the curtains. In your frustration, you did it a little more aggressively than intended. The bar above gave way and fell down. “Fuck.” You hissed. Giving up you flopped onto the bed. Your eyes closed and mothers face appeared behind the eyelids. Never again would you be able to speak with her. All those things you could have said.

Someone knocked on your door. “Yes?” “Mikasa’s at the door.” Great. It was Ymir. Opening the door you came out, face to face with Ymir. Rolling your eyes, you walked past her to the door. Ignoring Historia, you closed the front door behind you for some privacy. “Are you okay Y/n?” Mikasa was looking at you, up and down. Feeling self-conscious, and then suddenly judged. Your arms wrapped themselves around you as a source of protection, like a cocoon. “Yeh. Good.” The words came out as more of a grunt. Eyes drifted to the side, unable to look at Mikasa properly. Her hand gently placed itself on your shoulder. “It’s okay if you don’t want to, but a few of us are going to the mall. Do you want to come?” You thought about it. On one hand, you didn’t really want to be around anyone. On the other, you did need to get some things. “Okay. When?” “At 1 pm. Only if you want to of course.” “No I’ll come.” You put on a smile. Mikasa gave you a real one in return. It made you feel guilty.

You had a few hours to get ready. Sluggishly you gathered what you needed. Your mother's death hammered against your heart. Sometimes you wanted to tell someone, then nausea would overcome you. Once out of the shower, you realized you forgot to bring clothes with you. Damp and cold, you grumpily trudged off to your bedroom. Ymir was standing in the hallway outside of Historia’s door. Even before she opened her mouth you knew Ymir was soiling for a fight. “Wow. You’re desperate.” She sneered. “Sorry, not my type.” You returned. Ymir’s eyes narrowed. “Not me, dumbass. I’m not stupid.” With a look of condensation on your face you looked up and down. “Well that’s news to me.” And with that, you turned on your heel. But it seemed Ymir wasn’t done yet. “Oh no you don’t, I’m not done.” Ymir placed herself between you and your bedroom. “Well I am. Now move.” “You don’t get to prance around here and try to seduce Historia. Mina was right about you.” So Mina had something to do with this. “Well, I guess then Mina’s just as obsessed with me as you are of Historia. Pathetic.” Then with brutal strength, you hauled Ymir out of the way. She let out a cry of pain as she collided with the hall. At that moment Historia chose to come out. Seeing Ymir slumped against the wall and you standing over her, she made her mind up. “Y/n! What the hell?!” Historia rushed over to her girlfriend. “Maybe your girlfriend shouldn’t be harassing half-naked people.” All you wanted to do was change. But instead, you were stuck out here dealing with these two. Historia looked to Ymir for confirmation. “It’s nothing.” Ymir was looking at you, not with distaste as usual, but in shock. She honestly didn’t think you were capable of getting physical. “No it’s not.” Historia then rounded on you. “Tell me what happened.” She demanded. “Your idiot of a girlfriend thinks I have a crush on you.” Historia looked from you to Ymir, shocked. “Is this true?” “Yes.” Ymir said grudgingly. Historia took a deep breath. At that moment you made up your mind. “Ymir. I’m giving you an hour to take your things and go.” “Excuse me!? Who the fuck to you think you are?!” “Someone who fucking pays to live here Ymir. And let me remind you that you're not even supposed to live here. I want you out. I’ll go inside my room and leave you alone. And don’t touch any of my things.” Historia suddenly grabbed your shoulder. Not hard, she didn’t want to hurt you, but enough to stop you. “Y/n can we just talk about this?” She pleads. It was too much. “No! I am sick and tired of her harassing me, this is my fucking area too!” “I didn’t-” The laugh you let out was full of mirth. “As if, you just didn’t want to do anything about it.” And with that, you went into your room.

It only took Ymir half an hour to get her things out. The last close of the door was a relief. You walked out into the kitchen to see Historia, red-eyed with tear stains down her face. “Happy now?” “Yes I am.” You said it with no remorse.

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[blueroses789]

I wish I could be stronger

Warnings: 

Mental health issues

Smut 

Angst

Domestic violence

next chapter: A new perspective

Chapter 18/?

Frenzy: Chapter 18

Mikasa had not expected to come upon you tearing up paper in a frenzy. You were already in a bad mood. Still angry with Ymir, and Historia avoiding you, your temper was apt to come out. You had slipped on some paper an asshole had left out. A topple to the ground and a sore ankle later, you were ripping the paper out. It might have been someone’s assignment. 

“Well, if it’s so precious then maybe they shouldn't have left it out where people are walking.” You thought savagely. 

“Y/n…hey, are you alright?” Panting, you slammed the remaining paper into the bin.

“Nothing.” Mikasa was not at all convinced. She could hear the frustration in your tone. 

“Just stressed out.” You sighed. 

“Are you feeling well Y/n?” You had always overworked yourself around midterms. Sometimes running on only three hours of sleep. Mikasa could see the drawn lines on your face and bloodshot eyes. 

“Yes.. ?” It was so convincing that Mikasa gave you “the look”. Her gray eyes narrowed in suspicion. 

“You're lying.” You gulped. A vague memory of Mikasa pulling Eren by the ear for lying came to mind. 

“Why are you touching your ears?” Your arms quickly went down to your side. 

“It’s nothing. See ya.” But it seemed Mikasa had no intention of letting you go. 

“Are you going to the dance?” 

“What? Oh. Yeh.” She looked a little surprised. 

“Are you going with someone?” 

“Reiner.” 

“Wait really!” She acted as if struck by lightning. For a moment she was quite unlike the Mikasa you knew. And suddenly you felt angry. 

Did she not believe you were capable of going out? Did she find you so unappealing that the thought of someone going out with you was laughable?! 

Reiner. The thought was completely absurd to Mikasa. Y/n and Reiner was so bizarre to her. Sure, Reiner liked pretty girls. But why out of everyone did he have to choose Y/n?!      

And Y/n accepting? That was even stranger. Never once had she shown any interest in Reiner. Though things change. Y/n might have completely moved on from Eren by now. Likely given their last conversation. But there was a slight throb in her chest. Even if it wasn’t Reiner she wouldn’t be happy. 

Why did you look so angry? 

Mikasa noticed the look of your face change. Had she said something? It was so strange to see you angry. Like a stupid Armin or a Jean without a horse face. 

And then the tears came. 

It was completely without warning. While anger looked foreign to Y/n, sadness did not. 

“I get it.” She choked out. And then she was gone. 

“Y/n!” Mikasa raced after her. While Y/n had a head start, Mikasa was faster. Her hand fastened on Y/n’s arm. She cried out and Mikasa immediately let go. Y/n toppled to the side, hitting the wall. Mikasa cried out in shock and caught Y/n before she hit the ground. 

Everything was blurry. Firstly because there were tears in your eyes. Secondly, you hadn’t seen that wall coming. 

Mikasa was dizzy, but in another sense. The position you were in placed you directly in her lap. Her arms circling your waist. 

All the fight in you had left. You were sore and in pain. 

“I just wanna go home.” You weren’t sure where home was. If it was the dorm or where your father lived. All you wanted was to get away from all this. 

The door to your left opened and two people came out. 

“Y/n?” Their voices were a confusing mesh. They sounded familiar, but you could lay a finger on who it was. 

“Is she alright?” 

“What happened?” 

“I grabbed her and Y/n lost her balance.” Your vision had cleared slightly to see Eren and Mina beside you. 

Great. Just the two you totally (not) wanted to see. 

“Are you hurt?” Eren seemed to loom over you. 

“Fine. Just help me get up.” You stumbled to your feet. It took you a moment to gather your bearings. You were surrounded by Mikasa, Eren and Mina. Your anxiety spiked tenfold. These were the last people you wanted to be around. 

So you just walked away. 

The three of them watched Y/n’s retreating figure. 

“What the hell was that about?” Mina glared after her. 

“I didn’t mean to….. I mean…” Mikasa’s voice shook. Eren’s hand reached and touched Mikasa’s shoulder.  

“Mikasa, what happened?” 

“I just asked her why she was going out with Reiner and she got mad. And then I grabbed her and she fell.” Mikasa was on the verge of tears. Eren took out a Kleenex and carefully wiped the tears from her eyes. He gave her a second just in case. 

“I think we should go after her.” He said. 

“It’s not like we can find her.” Mina turned and walked back into class. 

“I think I need a moment.” Mikasa. She leaned up against the wall and closed her eyes. Eren approached her like one would a scared kitten. 

“Mikasa, I’m really sorry for the way I’ve been acting. If I’ve hurt you at all I apologize.” He reached out to grab her hands. To his relief she didn’t pull away. Lightly, Mikasa squeezed back. 

“Eren, I want you to be honest. Are you still angry?” To say he was unaffected would be a lie. But the anger was gone. 

“No Mikasa. I’m not.” A sigh, more like a shudder, escaped her lips. 

“That's good.” It didn’t matter that a few people had come out of class. Deflated, Mikasa leaned against him. Head on shoulder.            

Ymir and Historia nervously listened to Y/n’s pacing. They would hear her footsteps from one end of the room to the other. Erratic breathing could be heard. 

“Do you think we should go in?” Ymir looked to Historia. She said nothing. Historia was starting to feel guilty. She had always brushed off Ymir’s attitude towards Y/n. Ymir wasn’t exactly warm and cuddly. And Historia always felt that bottling up one's feelings was bad. But maybe Ymir’s attitude was getting out of hand. 

But then why? Ymir and Y/n had hardly any interaction. Did something happen between them? Did they have past history? After all, Y/n had never been in a relationship. 

“Historia, should we go in?” Ymir asked again. 

“No. I think it's better to leave her for now.” In truth, Historia just needed to think. 

Not even a shower helped. Your arms would shake uncontrollably. Goosebumps were scattered across your thighs. Cold toes flexed in an attempt to warm. Too tired to cry, the anger seemed to go inwards. It was like a living, breathing being inside of you. It cried out inside of you, shrieking in agony. Your agony. 

Sometimes it was too much. Though it had always been this way. But never had you felt it to this degree. 

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Mental health issues

Smut

Angst

Domestic violence

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Chapter 20/?

Over the edge: Chapter 20

You hardly left your mothers side. Even as morning came nothing else mattered. Who cared about fucking classes right now. Or the assholes that attended University. Every few minutes you would make sure the blanket was keeping her warm. Your mother still felt so cold, fingers feeling like icicles. 

De ja vu. Though last time it was your mother in the caretaker roll. You remembered long ago when she was there every step of the way. Whenever you became sick it was always her who sat by the bed. She would read you fairytales and sing songs from her homeland. 

In all those memories she was young, barely a wrinkle or hair out of turn. Back then her skin had a healthy glow. Today her skin was stretched uncomfortably across the bones. It made her look small and frail. 

“I’m sorry.” You said for the millionth time. No matter how often you said it, no matter how many times, you felt it would never make up for what she went through. A nurse poked her head in. 

“Miss, are you alright? We can call you when she wakes up.” You shook your head. With an understanding look she left and a moment came back with a foam cup of tea. 

“Thanks.” The warm tea was a welcome relief.

 You remembered when your mother used to make tea in the mornings. It was only a small cup, mostly milk. But it had become something of a routine when it came to your mother. These memories had been at the back of your mind for a long time. But it had been years since you had truly reflected upon them. Any positives your relationship might have had was buried under years of bitterness. Now that the bitterness was directed elsewhere you sifted through these memories. Hours in the hospital gave you plenty of time. 

Now that you looked back, you guessed she must love you. Before the divorce your mother had always been by your side. Everything you heard about their breakup had come from your father. Why hadn’t your mother been more honest? Right now you really didn’t feel stable enough to look through these texts. The ones already committed to memory were revolting enough.

A sudden rattling emanated from your mothers throat. Her eyes went wide and for one moment both of your eyes met. 

“Mom!” You jumped to her side. Then a sharp frantic beeping came from the monitor and your mother started shaking.

Hospital staff charged in and you were immediately led outside. 

“Mom! What's going on?!” You couldn’t move, every molecule frozen solid. Through the glass you could see her twisting, eyes turning white. Whatever comfort the hospital staff were trying to give sounded like buzzing. Your entire world surrounded this woman seizing on the bed. 

Then it flatlined. 

M/n L/n. Death at 4:00 am on February 6. You might have passed out at some point. Maybe. Though time seemed irrelevant right now. You had signed some things and allowed yourself to be taken off to a room down the hall. Some time later one of the nurses checked all your vitals and then they asked you if there was someone to pick you up. 

“No. I’ll get a cab.” It was mid-day when a bright yellow taxi came to pick you up. A nurse was kind enough to help you inside. You watched the hospital disappear, fist clenched. 

You were conscious enough to send an email to your teachers regarding your circumstances. Afterwards you collapsed onto bed and slept. Tonight you dreamed of a warm kitchen and singing. Maybe this was some mixture of both dreams and recollection. Your mother, healthier looking than she had been in a long time, was baking. You greedily took in every image time had preserved. Before the divorce the kitchen was always littered with ceramic cups. Up until now you had forgotten this detail. Your mother turned and opened her mouth, but nothing came out. 

When you woke, it was dark once again.  

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I wish I could be stronger Update

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I wish I could be stronger

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Domestic violence

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Chapter 19/?

Frenzy: Chapter 19

You had woken up in the middle of the night. Almost immediately your body started to shake with superseded emotion. Desperately you reached for the water. It cooled your throat but only helped slightly. Slipping out of bed you went to the window. The street was completely dark. Seeing it was 3:30 am, you tiptoed back to bed. Laying there, you hoped you might sleep. It didn’t come. All you could do was toss and turn until it was unbearable. Cold feet padded the floor. Nervously you passed anxiety spiking. You plugged in the electric kettle. It lit up and you watched the water boil away. It was hot and furious. Just as you felt. Weirdly, it soothed you. If only you could rage and storm, maybe things would be better.

Everything was heavy on your chest.

Your mother Father Eren Mikasa Ymir

More and more names. Each with their own weight in pain. That was when your phone rang.

“What do you mean she’s at the hospital?” Those were the first words you said. It was someone working at the emergency center. All you had been told was that she had a heart attack, and was in intensive care. Forgetting the kettle, you quickly dressed. It was only when outside that you realized there wasn’t a way to get there. So you ran.

Your throat felt like it was bleeding. Every gasp ached. When the hospital lights appeared over the horizon you could have cried with relief. It was busy. Paramedics and patients going back and forth. You walked up to the desk. “Here to see a family member?” The receptionist probably saw people like you every day. Desperate and scared. “M/n L/n. I’m her daughter.” She called over a nurse who took charge. “Right this way.” You followed her, prepared for the worst.

She lay on the bed, as still as a corpse. You let out a sigh of relief. Despite being still, you could tell she was alive. Only sleeping peacefully. The monitor showed a steady heartbeat. “When did it happen?” “Yesterday. Your mother woke up a few hours ago and told us to call you.” “Does my father know.” “I don’t believe so. Is he in her contacts.” “Yeh. I’ll tell him later.” “Are you sure? We can-” “They’re divorced.” Immediately she fell silent. You felt guilty for snapping at her like that. But at that moment your anger had suddenly spiked. The two of you were left alone. You sat down. For the first time in years, you paid attention to your mother's features. She was so thin. Not a natural type of thin, but the type where you’ve been sick for a long time. It was purely on instinct. You had reached for her hand. Shocked, you felt the bones on her frail fingers. Tentatively, your hands reached out for hers. It was just the two of you alone in a room. When was the last time the two of you had been like this? Certainly not since the divorce. You sat in silence for a while. Until the phone rang.

At first, you thought it was yours. But the notifications were completely blank. You realized it was your mother's instead, her clothes on a chair nearby. You walked over and picked it up. It took you several moments to truly process what you had just read.

F/n: M/n pick up right now.

F/n: If you don’t pick up right fucking now I’m gonna come over there.

F/n: Do you really want to face the consequences? Just because we’re not married doesn't mean I tolerate disrespect.

Several missed calls showed up. “What the fuck.” Your mouth barely moved, eyes bulging so much they hurt. What the actual fuck had you just read?! You knew your father could be rough but this was insane. Wanting to know more, yet dreading it all the same, you unlocked the phone. Every scroll through the chat between mom and dad became worse and worse. M/n: I’m really sorry but I can’t make it

F/n: Again with a damn excuses M/n: I just need rest. Please F/n: Go fuck yourself

You seriously wanted to puck. Was that why your mother was here now? You continued scrolling through the messages. Going further down only made it worse.

F/n: I have hardly spent time alone with Y/n. Just because your her mother does not mean you have to be there every time! M/n: I don’t mean to intrude F/n: Then don’t. I don’t need to do this picnic. You come and I will never do something like this for Y/n again.

You looked to the date of that particular text, June seventh. Bile rose in your throat, that was the picnic your father had planned. M/n was supposed to come. When she didn’t you had been horribly hurt. That had been the last time you reached out to her. Looking back, you fathers reaction was odd. He told you to leave it be and he would talk to her. All this time you had resented your mother when it wasn’t her fault. How many other times had you blamed her for something that was your fathers doing? You took a screenshot and sent it to yourself.

F/n had a lot to answer for.

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