#might take the tags down later

[kendallroygf]

#kendall roy #shiv roy #succession #to expand kendall taking charge reminds shiv of logan and the way he abused/overpowered her and that’s why she’s so resistant to kendall in #a position of power over her and kendall (the same as shiv) doubles down and tries to exert/maintain control when he’s distressed or in #response to trauma like when logan just died. and in turn shiv overpowering him by being ‘boss’ distresses him too due to proximity to logan #I’m the real you you’re the real me etc. #might add to this later bc the safe room parallels are off the charts #shivken #<- platonic tag. ok. #p

[mattodore]

not many people online atm so i figured i’d show off theo’s freshly customized moles :) i'll post a proper close up of his face moles later because i'm obsessed, but for now here’s the full thing.

also this is how this background looks with the character page (this isn't the pic i'll be using, i was just testing things out). i'll probably alter the code to match the background rather than editing the background’s color, i think.

#the cas background was much closer to the page’s color before i turned my preset on </3 #river dipping #theodore doe #echthroi #ts4 #i might delete this later... we shall see #i just don't like posting theo when he's showing a lot of skin idk why... #ig it's bc i know how theo feels abt his body and everything so eyeeee am just like. everyone close your eyes. #but i want to show his moles off because they took me forever to place where i wanted #he has four!!! moles on his left palm that i love so bad and no one is ever gonna see them kjfdhnkfdjhn #i imagine matthias kisses theo's palm there all the time #…jotting this pose idea down expeditiously ✍️ #i’m laying down for bed now so hopefully i get at least four hours tonight 🧎 #also i only took test shots today while in cas so tomorrow i have to hop back in there to actually take the pics i want for the oc page #i want to do everyone’s but i just know i should just keep it simple with mattodore first #oh—also! downloaded a ton of clutter cc yesterday and today so i’m hoping i might actually get to that in-my-bag tag game soon #but yeah . . . nothing else to say and my eyes are watering from yawning so i’m going to sleep 🚶 #everyone watch over theo for me while i sleep 🔫 #gn!!!! <3

[fyodorkitkat]

Hiiiiiii <33333 so! I know we know next to nothing about fyodor and Nikolai’s relationship BUT I had an epiphany and since we know that fyodor is inspired by Ivan Karamazov and specifically the scene with his devil, how do you feel about Nikolai=Ivan Karamazov’s devil and whatever this implies???

Tomà idk if you love me or want to torment me by sending me this.

I haven't reread The Brothers Karamazov still (I read it when I was a teenager so my memory is not great) so I don't know that I'm a great person to ask about this at all. I'm also not great at analysis posts and I am doing this all on my phone. But I like you, so I want to try at least, so I reread the part with Ivan's conversation with the devil in his delirium. You're welcome.

Is this a good fit for Nikolai's role? I'm not so sure that it is.

Because what I get from that part is that Ivan is having a conversation with an apparition born from his delirious state, and that the "devil" exists within himself.

Not to say that he has no hope or is literally the devil, it makes sense with some of the other things the devil explains and the nature of the conversation that makes it seem like Ivan is angry for being in his mind. (It seems more like anger for him appearing and being in his room but if we are going off it being a hallucination influenced by Ivan's subconscious the room is his mind then that is where the devil actually is)

Wait a damn minute where else have we heard this reference to rooms...

"I am crime. I am punishment. Crime and punishment are close friends. Borders vanish. Rooms awaken. The incarnation of death, the master of the ability-consuming fog… Eat, howl, and make violence as your instinct desires. This is neither a loss of control nor a singularity." Fyodor Dostoyevsky - Dead Apple

**I'm going to come back to this after i finish explaining why I don't think Nikolai is fit to be representative of the devil to Fyodor's Ivan but you can probably already guess *who* i think is**

Anyways back on track sorry I'm not great at this sort of thing at all. So Ivan's conversation with the devil to me comes across as an internal struggle between good and evil. The devil's statements (and he really does most of the talking) are around the nature of the devil and the idea of the necessity of evil (the devil goes as far as to say nothing would happen without evil, like if there was nothing to go against there would be no events and nothing to life). He also explains the devil exists in everyone's daily lives in mundane ways, but also that the devil (and God) can exist inside of people too.

“All the rest around me, all those worlds, God, even Satan himself – for me all that is unproven, whether it exists in itself, or is only my emanation, a consistent development of my, I, which exists pre-temporally and uniquely” 

There is also a part where the devil explains that without him, there would be nothing but hosanna (/joy) and that life of nothing but joy isn't a life really at all, basically saying that it would be a life with nothing happening and no suffering but a life without suffering and only joy could be it's own hell.

This is doesn't really align with Nikolai's beliefs right? He sees awareness of what he views as the cage he (and people that just aren't aware) is in as the cause of his issues. That people are unaware that they aren't truly free, but he is aware and has to rid himself of what he views as chaining him (settling on his feelings for Fyodor in the end).

Now you could argue that maybe Nikolai would agree with the devil here in the sense that a life of blissful unawareness is similar to a life of nothing but joy, with nothing happening, and that is a hell in and of itself. But I think they are talking about two different things, because I don't think Nikolai thinks people who aren't aware of their cage lack suffering, or lack the existence of evil in their day to day lives. They don't have that life of nothing but joy that the devil is talking about so I don't think they mesh well enough to say it works as a representation of Nikolai.

Also, Nikolai doesn't appear to be trying to convince Fyodor of ideas, his battle is with himself, so that also doesn't fit the role of the devil in this chapter I don't think not for Fyodor.

Basically, none of this to me is screaming Nikolai. But if you had ideas as to why you think it does I'm definitely down to hear them.

If Fyodor is inspired by this scene in tbk it think this means that Fyodor is Ivan and Fyodor's ability (or also Fyodor himself at the same time) is the devil. Because the devil in the form Ivan witnesses is part of Ivan in the first place, it comes from his mind, and from what I rememeber he is lonely in comparison to the other characters in that book, so who does he wrestle with these issues with around his guilt and concerns? Himself, and he figures out his path from there. Ivan even says it himself to the devil at one point, "You are myself.”

The words the devil speaks and the concepts he argues aren't created from nothing, but related to the role of Satan and evil, this is just him essentially arguing outloud with himself about these things. It also why he probably is really not into accepting a lot of the ideas about faith the devil also explains to him, because it is like he is presenting them to himself via hallucination.

Anyways I am absolutely rambling, so back to the dead apple quote.

"I am crime. I am punishment. Crime and punishment are close friends. Borders vanish. Rooms awaken."

If the devil is born of Ivan's psyche and loneliness is that not similar to a sort of friend? The devil appears in his feverish delerium, maybe exactly when he needs him to, to have this conversation about evil, God, and challenging Ivan's reliance on logic. Maybe you could argue the border between the "devil" or "evil" in him and the rest of him disappeared for that moment, and "the devil" awoke in his room with him, letting them talk as if he was a separate being.

Maybe that's Fyodor, and the writers for dead apple (since they got that speech from Asagiri about Fyodor's character) took inspiration from that?

To me, Nikolai doesn't have anything to do with it. And that also makes sense I think, because from what we do see with their relationship and Nikolai's own words, he didn't know him very well. It didn't sound like they were very close or had deep conversations prior with what Nikolai said after his death.

Plus when you take into account the breakdown that might be lies or might have truth where he says he was weak and his ability took over because of that, and that his ability is evil, the constant references to him being a demon, and the weird differences between Fyodor's separated ability in dead apple compared to everyone else's.

I think there is more of an argument to be made that Fyodor's ability is more akin to the devil in The Brothers Karamazov in that chapter, or Fyodor himself is both. That he's based off Ivan in that scene and the devil is part of Ivan's psyche because of his condition, so Fyodor is both because that part is also a part of him as well. But since abilities are tied so closely to their users, it makes sense either way to me.

#sry if this is disjointed and incoherent i wrote so much just to disagree with you but it made me think and also break out tbk to do so #when i havent even read it since like 2006 and havent started my reread of it yet even though i said i would #so im mostly joking about the torment thank you so much for the ask tomà im mostly touched that you thought to send this to me #bsd analysis #bsd fyodor #bsd nikolai #bsd #ill tag this but sry sry i did this on my phone pretty quickly #but i am totally down to hear other ppls takes or potential additions on it so that is why #-Lue asks #sry for any grammer and spelling errors too i might edit this later idk #i didnt want to nit pick it forever

[avephelis]

technoblade was an incredible creator, entertainer, and above all else, person. a lot of his content got me, and many others, through really tough periods of life. and I will miss his astounding ability to make us laugh.

it's okay if you need to take a break. i might need one myself. it's also okay if you feel the need to continue and create, in his honour, and for yourself. it's okay to be grieving and ill and sick and crying, and it's okay if you don't feel as phased by the news, or aren't reacting as strongly as other people. Your feelings are valid. Your experiences of grief are valid. there's no right or wrong reaction to something as complicated as this.

just make sure you take care of yourself. and be kind, let's not turn on each other right now. spread positivity where you can.

I wish all the best to Techno's family, and I sincerely hope people respect their right to privacy. Here's a link to the Sarcoma Foundation of America, if you wish to donate, and here's a link to Techno's merch store (where i believe proceeds will now go towards the charity).

o7 Technoblade. ♥

#/srs #technoblade #tw death #ask to tag if you need anything filtered out #i might private this or take it down later #depending on how im feeling #stay safe and take care <3

[twentyfivemiceinatrenchcoat]

OKAY LOOK I'M SORRY I KEPT DOING THE STUPID QUIZZES AND I FOUND ANOTHER REALLY COOL ONE AND I JUST IMMEDIATELY THOUGHT OF YOU (i'm moving into your inbox i live here now) no but fr i thought it was so cool and their poem lines were so fcking good???????????? woww

i got violent; "it is the way you would walk through glass to see a smile"; "give and never take for the guilt that comes with wanting is suffocating" THIS QUIZMASTER IS COMING FOR ME a bit life-changing quotes though i hope this person is having such a good day omfg

https://uquiz.com/quiz/evn4G3?p=6133991

- @softgirlgonehaywire

NEVER APOLOGIZE MICKEY I LOVE UQUIZZES LIKE I LOVE NOTHING ELSE ON THIS PLANET its literally my love language u know the way to my heart <3333 FEEL FREE TO MOVE IN i will make my inbox cozy just for u. i can leave a pillow fort in the corner. a cat plushie . make urself at home <33

BUT okok ive done the soldier/poet/king quiz before bUT i did it again (and realized how ihtctaot coded it is that kinda stung huh) and!! i got :D

… the king!! hehe. dare i say prince!gojo coded.. u see the vision i know i can trust u. ”you are tired of being steady” ohhhh they are coming for our LIVES mickey………

AND AND ANDDD the other quiz was soso lovely i adored it!! i loovveeee quizzes w lots of pinterest image / song lyric questions they r my favorite ever <33 THIS RESULT WAS SO CUTE TOO WAHH (AND THE WAY WE GOT VIOLENT/SOFT…. the ari/mickey parallels r once again unparalleled)

THAT WAS SO FUN TYSM MICKEYY… if u have any more quizzes at any point PLEASE break in i lovelovelove taking uquizzes ppl send me and also forcing other ppl to take uquizzes i like!!

… so ofc i had to return the favor:

what are you to your friends?

what highly specific emotion are you?

i hunted down two of my fave quizzes <3 hope u enjoy them hehe. i think theyre so fun n wellwritten. these were my results!! (i resonated a lot w them tbh….) i wanna know urs so bad too!!!!!

(AND ALSO just as a side thing. if u r interested here are my top recs for jjk bf and gf quizzes <33 i got shoko and gojo life is good i think the results r soso cute and real)

#IM DOING WELL BTW!! #have been feeling a little burnt out recently i thinkkk :’3 bUT things will calm down more next week! or the week after!! so im doing good #im visiting my brothers place for a bit and his kitties are SOOOO cute mickey theyre the skrunkliest eepiest little creatures #HOW ARE U DOING how was ur day? did u do anything fun (or not so fun)?? tell me tell me 🎤🎤 i hope ur taking care of urself!! #i cant wait until uni stuff and life stuff calms down a bit so i can listen to ur soundtracks n watch ur movies!! #i just wanna be in the best possible headspace when i do it!!! im mentally preparing myself oh great cinema teacher #im also so excited bc its been a bit since i wrote a full fic and!! i think my next one might be knight!sugu x royalty!reader 👀👀 #alexis infected me w it and then i just spiralled from there #I WILL TELL U MORE LATER i need the mickey thoughts / approval first !! #ask tag ✩

[darlingsart]

Been drawing Pyrrhus a Lot lately…. Don’t know what that’s about but I thought I’d post a few sketches anyway lmao

#tsoa #the song of achilles #girl how do I even tag this LMAO #Pyrrhus #??¿ #angies art #I’ve been taking a break from social media BUT I thought I’d share some art #ft. this snot nosed little TWERP #he’s unfortunately very fun to draw #I might make some changes to his design later down the line but 💁🏽‍♀️

[atomic-sludge]

Flipping violently back and forth between "Imposter is overrated and gets too much fandom content. I dont want to contribute to that" and "Imposter is such an intriguing and interesting villain I'd love to explore that."

#not art #text post #the thing that gets me is that for all the fancontent he gets like none of it has anything to do with how he ACTUALLY is. #man is a serial identity thief. his second and last appearance is him TORMENTING A MENTALLY ILL MAN TO HIS BREAKING POINT #because idk he fucking felt like it??? bc dan didnt take a dude stealing his identity lying down and actually did shit abt it??? #but nooo. 'teehee hes sooo gay coded' 'hes so hot ong' 'heres him in a maid dress' #lets ship him with the afformentioned metally ill man he tormented. that sounds like a reasonable and healthy relationship. #hes a shitty dude who hides his malice behind charisma and charm and yall FELL FOR ITTT #not tagging this with the fandom. dotn feel like it. if you see this and know what im talking abt good for you. #and if you happen to like the character/ship im talking abt. good for you aswell. this post aint for you move along. #rant in tags #vent in tags #character hate #ship hate #might delete this later. who knows haha not me #i pretend to hate him but when i need a villain for a psychological horror/torture scenario? guess who i think of? #dont look at me

[kate-m-art]

Gosh it's late, I shouldn't be up and might change my mind in the morning but brain just won't let it go tonight sjdjfk

I just,, I've been going back and forth about sharing these cause on the one hand I'm very emotional about them right now and happy with how the sketches turned out but on the other ajsjfk I'm Very Emotional About Them right now and harder to put stuff out I'm attached to and feel a little self conscious sharing anything heavy but sjdjkf for now I guess

Putting below the cut because,, well, dealing with grief (and also partial nudity I guess)

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First set I was just rambling about it to Arin a lot but I don't know, haircuts have been getting me emotional this week. Theres a few scenarios in our different stories w emotional or significant haircuts, but Maggie's has been on my mind a lot.

Any pics I've shared with modern au Link and Maggie's family you'd see 5 kids, but they actually had 6. Their second oldest son Aster's twin (think we decided her name was Autumn, before Autumn Link was ever a thing) passed away at only a few days old. The loss was awful for both of them, even harder to navigate while still having a toddler and newborn to take care of. Maggie especially struggled with her body still trying to recover from twins. She'd usually be the one between them both to be able to stay hopeful but,, I kinda think she already had a tendency towards PPD and following months really were some of the darkest moments of the lady's life. Grateful that Link was right there for her the whole time.

And yeah, at the point she's just trying to survive, her princess-length hair isn't manageable anymore. Link's been something of a hobby stylist since his teen years, so he helps her with it. Hurts him too though, not because she isn't beautiful in his eyes, he just knows how much it used to mean to her. For as long as they've known eachother, she wouldn't let him dye or cut it and always took extra special care to keep it healthy and pretty.

It took a long time, and the pain never goes away but the two did manage to find peace eventually and keep going (bigger age gap between Aster and Ivy than any of the other kids though.)

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And I guess haircuts got me thinking about visible changes and lots of feelings about these two aging together. Link doesn't always look like a rockstar, chronic illness leaves him pretty weak and frail at times. And then Maggie, I mean the lady had 6 kids, she doesn't keep the same petite pixie figure she had when they met- softer, stretchmarks and scars but- I mean just get really emotional I guess about how none of it is a turnoff for either of them. Just love each other even more deeply as time goes on. Knowing the story and sacrifice their partner's gone through for every "blemish" just makes them find each other even more beautiful then when they met

#like i said might take this down in the morning im not sure #kinda heavier than i normally talk about outside of dms but ive just been thinking about it a lot lately #dont want to sound like a broken record to friends but i just #heart hurts i just love them so much #i um #dont know how to tag this so apologies in advance #link and maggie #depression #PPD #kate rambles #quick sketch #delete later #minor character death

[nerdie-faerie]

Apparently I timed my quitting perfectly

#work tag #the new manager is absolutely awful and since hes taken over nothings been done properly #the managers that are left are sick of everything they barely do anything on shift the slackers are worse than ever #the newbies dont take anything seriously or have any common sense whatsoever so its just completely downhill #we had an EHO visit last week on the boss' close had lost a star on our rating as a result so the area manager came in a couple days later #he bollocked our boss for the way hes been acting but then he went right back to being a prick #so apparently after i left last night the district manager visited and they had to shut the store early for cleaning #but this was after my manager told me that the boss has been blaming everyone for the state of things but #when they offered to close the store and do a deep clean he refused because of money #the district manager was not happy he pulled both managers aside and now theyre gonna have to close the store for a deep clean #but they might also have to shut down temporarily to get everything sorted but the thing is since this new guy took over only about #half of the closing cleaning tasks have been being done because close is usually made up of the slackers and they just dont wanna do #anything properly its been an ongoing issue for months now and now its catching up with them cus theyve got in the habit of not doing it #one of my managers has kept saying he doesnt think the store will last until Christmas but everyone else is sure were gonna be shut #well before that point like its gotten the bad its part of why i quit #anyway i just got the rundown from my coworker who was on close when this all went down last night

[trashcanbutterfly]

some little doodles of maybe an eventual fallout x cytus au

paff, neko and robo head centered, paff is a vault dweller and robo head and neko run the radio in diamond city 

#cytus ii #Cytus 2 #cytus neko #cytus paff #cytus robo head #sorry for the lazy doodles #maybe i'll... make full pieces and refs for that #idk if anyone would be interested though #i like the idea tho #i have places for nora and xenon too muahaha #the blue and pink parts are grafitti that robo and neko added to their costumes #i even have what weapons they'd use #robo head would use a laser musket #and neko would use a modified deathclaw gauntlet #big claw weapon #she calls it her cat claws #also to that one person with the cytus and wings of fire au #you better tag me when you figure it out #>:D #ok i might take this down and post coloured versions later #or i'll post actual coloured refs tomorrow

[ishmerra]

I KINDA LIKE THEM 🫢

#mayurei #??? #i’m a little surprised there are no posts under this tag #if i feel ashamed about this later i might take down this post #but i kinda wanna draw them #non art post #gsnk

[shortpplfedup]

The new ep needs to hurry up and cleanse the tag.

#kinnporsche #y'all doing too much for real #grass is going untouched #reminder that people are allowed to be wrong! on! the! internet! if that's how you feel #the takes been flaming hot like cheetos #we could really use some of that oishi drink thing for folks to cool down #over in my corner being a happy little trash panda and here y'all go with the Discourse #soapboxes are littering the tag #feeling cute might delete later

[scalproie]

Where did you find the datamined script? I really want to check it out and hurt myself more :)

knock yourself out 🥹

but just so you know: while it's still 675 datamined lines, there's no way to say the final expansion script will be 100% accurate to this, they can still tweak things or change the plot to an extant, or the entire thing might be a red herring and we will be getting smth completely different! OR THE WHOLE THING COULD BE FAKE EVEN! Anything's possible, so as long as it's not confirmed, it's to take with a grain of salt. And also as you'll see, there is a lot of context missing, as well as lines.

#apparently the same thing happened for aftermath back in mk11. script was datamined a year in advance #assuming its the same thing here and it's for kombat pack 2 (or -most likely- 3) we wont see this for quite a while #I might take this post down later tho so get the script while its hot. or dont. if you hate leaks and/or spoilers #tagging later #regret-with-a-u

[erabundus]

i  could  only  sleep  for  three  hours,  i’m  still  REELING  ...

#𝟎𝟎𝟏 : 𝘴𝘦𝘭𝘧-𝘢𝘱𝘱𝘰𝘪𝘯𝘵𝘦𝘥 𝘱𝘳𝘦𝘴𝘪𝘥𝘦𝘯𝘵 𝘰𝘧 𝘴𝘤𝘢𝘳𝘢𝘯𝘢𝘵𝘪𝘰𝘯. ◟ ooc .◝ #tbd . #( i promise i'll cut down on the ooc after this but WOW ) #( i'm going to be posting a starter call later ) #( little bit of a soft reboot. ) #( i think the current state of things moving forward will be i'll default to wanderer unless otherwise specified. ) #( i have no problem writing any other era of scrunkly but his arc & writing out how it develops hits the dopamine button in my brain ) #( i'll be tagging spoilers for the next week or so............ maybe also might take a nap later u know )

[realboutfatalfury]

it might just be bc it's late and i get sad sometimes when it's late but i'm sad i like feeel soooo bad about several things and i feel like i want to cry but i can't ughh idk...

#just gonna like write out my problems in the tags bc that like helps me process them 👍 #first of i feel like i can't connect well with people at all #especially with people in school.. there are some people i am fine with i can like talk with them fine and feel a connection #but then like with others i just feel..so out of touch with them idk #i just feel like they don't want to be around me anymore and i'm just some annoying guy that is there #but like i know that isn't true (hopefully) #ugggh and then like i go back to thinking they do actually not like me and yeah just a whole loop going on #after i get tired of thinking about that i think about school in general and start getting stressed about it #even though i am doing alright it's idk.. #it;s just i'm like thinking of stuff that happens later through the school year and thinking i want things to get finished quickly #i like want to get my paintings and projects done already but i gotta think and take my time and shit! #i want it done now so i won't have to do it anymore even though i do like working on them #when i work on something i want to like sit down and work on it till it's done #which is kind of a not good habit to have i know i've been trying to like try to get rid of it #or like minimize it #ok i'm like reading over these and like. i think it's bc i might be neurodivergent. #i keep forgetting i got a high score in that autism test...hmmm #anyway also stressed about this camping trip for school that happens next week #1) my mom keeps nagging me about how i am physically weak to like go camping but still wants me to go to it #2) we have to be in groups and you don't like get assigned one you have to like just form it... which like #if you've read above i am having trouble with people and connecting hence i haven't found a group yet orz... #and that's like it for that. #school is just stressing a bit and i don't want that.... #last problem is like kind of dumb but like my youtube feed has sucky videos i don't want to watch and i haaaaate it. #it's like it doesn't get me at all.....whatever... #ok i think that's like enough...feel a bit better laying it all out #still feel those things but like doing this made me feel better feeling this way and understand them #feeling things is good and alright 👍