#me w autism fr tho

[kirishimaswife2819]

I think I might have a mental disorder and I don’t know how to feel about that 🫡

anon this is wild. and im probably so late to replying.

#me w autism fr tho

[the-force-awakens]

newbie anon is right. to me, you’re the royalty of the poe dameron fan club/defense squad. your word is the law.

lyra

I mean, wouldn't necessarily say that of myself? Fndjdkd I mean, I don't even consider my word law, I'm constantly teasing apart his canon and reconsidering my own perspectives on elements of it and my stances on certain headcanons or how I want to extrapolate from canon — y'all got a pretty good look at my thought process with the bloodburn thing. I went from a hard "oh no" to a "hm wait if I think about this-" in the span of about ten minutes after going to research things. That's just how I operate, I'm constantly just fiddling with my own fictional sandbox.

Honestly, the only thing I really do is just focus on stuff that is reiterated a bunch? Like if it's in the movies, that's canon, and if something goes against it...well it's probably not canon, but with expanded material it gets trickier.

Like, personally, I do not consider anything in the visual dictionaries "canon" besides the little character details like Poe breaking his arm as a kid, just simply because a) the writer for those dictionaries really doesn't seem to like Poe at all, b) the tlj dictionary completely rewrites Poe's storyline to make it seem like fanon's interpretation of his actions in tlj were correct (they're not), and c) despite freefall almost definitely being in development at the time, the tros dictionary cites Poe being with Zorii for way longer than he was.

What I do count as canon is the stuff that gets backed up frequently by other bits of material. I consider the novelizations - even if I don't personally vibe with the tlj or tros ones - to be far more canon than, say, the last two arcs of the Poe comics just because they're more closely tied to the movies + you have the sequence of events in the tfa novel reiterated in the flight log, and the book that shall not be named is closely tied to those last two arcs of the comics, and the rise of skywalker + star wars.com has retconned it. twice.

There's still plenty of things I don't get about him! Sometimes my friends will just point out an angle I had never considered before (such as @/dameronalone who is a Poe expert - poexpert? - in her own right and gets him on a level that is simply just 😘🤌 amazing and showstopping, just to give one example) and it makes me reconsider things!

Mostly, I just like gathering facts abt him because I like tucking away information on things (or people) I love, and I like making sure I stay on top of things + read all his stuff because back in 2018-2020 sections of the fandom had a nasty habit of taking scenes of his out of context to make it seem like they were ruining his character, and after believing that for about a year just to find out it wasn't true fhdjdkddk left me determined to make sure I knew absolutely everything abt him so I wasn't duped again lmfao.

#mostly tho. its just the autism nothing special abt it #i think abt him all the time too which helps #but fr - even if i can rattle off all this stuff #there's people out there who get him on levels even I don't or hadn't previously considered! #im just a nerd w some fun facts abt him #nothing to it #it's late so im having trouble wording this but i kind of hope that i do not come across as 'the blog abt poe that knows everything/better #than anyone' y'know? yeah i do know a bunch but a lot of it is still just how ive personally arranged timelines/extrapolated data #there's always going to be other people with better insights on poe that are phenomenal and are *just* based off what we see in the films #bfjckxzkd that's me getting rambly tho #ask box #natrace #this whole answer is really rambly oops

[transmascaraa]

HAAIII ME AGAIN had a new idea all of a sudden

OK SO HEAR ME OUT RIGHT. hcs with gaming, scara and uhhhmm. Blade hsr with autistic gn reader!?!2?1!2??! basically like reader tells them theyre autistic, how would the charas react? would they treat the reader any different? would their view of their s/o change???

IT LOOKS RLLY CUTE IN MY HEAD OK TRUDT

+ if it isnt too much im asking here, how theyd interact w reader when they go nonverbal bc theyre upset :3

THANK U MOOTIE ALSO HOPE UR SOING WELL!!!!

multiple characters headcannons!

you tell him that you're autistic.

characters: gaming, wanderer, blade x autistic!gn!reader

author's note: alright this one and might do one more tonight it's fucking 20 minutes till 1am lmao might do a few tmrw i hope i do lol ANYWAYSSS I'M DOING GOOD THANKS I HOPE YOU'RE DOING WELL TOO<33 LOVE THE REQQ

✧ Gaming

-so accepting fr. sweetheart. perfect bf. everything good.

-when you tell him he'd be so sweet and understanding frfr

-will literally sacrifice his whole being for you

-"you're autistic? that doesn't change anything, my dear!" he will love you eternally no joke.

-and when you get upset, you go nonverbal.

-so he spends hours trying to learn exactly what you mean by the gestures you use so thag he can help. he'll take it slow.

-he'll be patient with you.

-i promise.

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✷ Wanderer

-nobody knows if it's sass or sarcasm at this point.

-HE WOULD LOOK AT YOU AS IF YOU TOLD HIM THAT YOU LIKE SLEEPING WITH YOUR PILLOW ON THE WARM SIDE.

-but he'd definitely be understanding. don't trust his physical expressions.

-you'd tell him and he would say some shit like:

-"you're acoustic?" before you playfully hit him and scold him.

-throughout the whole thing, his smirk never leaves his face. fuck that idiot, sometimes, honestly.

-when you're upset tho, he's really fucking nice. it's a rare case that he ever acts nice but at times like these he knows the limit.

-nahida will teach him more about autism after you told him

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๑ Blade

-eughhh he's a complicated guy

-not like he would show any type of much reaction if you told him he'd be like "okay and?"

-sitting down beside him and telling him.

-he'll listen, sure. he'll be understanding, i guess. but his face remains neutral

-"and how am i supposed to help?" maybe he hurts your feelings js like that sometimes he will apologize with night cuddles

-but overall, he would help you. even tho he'll say he wasn't being all that nice at all but you know that deep down you keep that little bit of happiness in him

-if you're upset and go nonverbal, he will try his best to understand you and help you calm down, taking it seriously. he's really good at it

-he just wants to make sure that you're okay, nothing else matters to him.

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i like this one

it's really good imo

i laughed my ass off while writing wanderer's one lmfaoo i hope you like it @chezsxapcake <3

#genshin #genshin impact #genshin headcanons #genshin impact headcanons #genshin fluff #hsr fluff #hsr #honkai star rail #hsr headcanons #honkai star rail headcanons #gaming x reader #gaming x you #wanderer x reader #wanderer x you #scaramouche x reader #scaramouche x you #blade x reader #blade x you #first time writing bladie i like it

[autisticgirliesbracket]

What makes Asa Mitaka from Chainsaw Man the autistic girlie ever of all time? Here's what the people have to say:

Asa-related asks/reblogs: x This post will be updated after each round!

Image ID in alt text and under the readmore.

[Image ID. White slide with a manga panel of Asa in the top right corner, she has been edited to be wearing a blue cap with the words "Please be patient I have autism" printed on the front. She is surrounded by text boxes which read,

"Goes to the aquarium with a guy and infodumps about sea anemonies."

"I kin her unironically. Unbelievable social awkward. Goes to an aquarium date where she spends the entire time explaining facts about the Animals fully in an attempt to impress her date. She must be avenged from the ADHD vs Autism bracket. Is isolated from her peers. Chronically lonely but won't open up to anyone(not sure if that's an Autism thing or just a personal problem probably a combination of both) Have you read the Manga?"

"has a VERY hard time with social interaction"

"She is absolutely baffled by everything + doesn't get most things at first"

"there's an extended scene where she flirts with a boy by lecturing him about sea anemone life cycles, breeding patterns, and other extended trivia. the whole time she is thinking to herself "he must be falling in love with me right about now. this is an irresistible date." "

"Literally infodumps to the boy shes on a date with for like 3 straight pages and then goes "i'm so alluring. he definetely wants me now" "

"from the scene that was all over tumblr where she infodumps about starfish on an aquarium date and considers this her Ultimate Seduction Technique. a guy on reddit literally got diagnosed because he could relate to her. it's awesome"

"Tried to impress a guy on a date by monologuing starfish facts about him, was genuinely astonished that that didn't drive him wild with desire. Also she's sharing her body with a horsewoman of the apocalypse but that's unrelated."

"If her long-winded rant about sea creatures as an attempt to seduce someone wasn't enough, then a lot of her trauma is based around being ostracized for being weird and quiet. She doesn't understand people but wants companionship anyways, even if shes also afraid of it."

"She feels disconnected to her peers. She literally infodumps while on a date for thirty minutes about starfish. She doesn't see this as a social faux pas, but rather something any sane person would do. (Basically, doesn't realize this is abnormal.) She misses social cues frequently. She feels below average empathy, I'd say. Asa also said she wanted to die after embarrassing herself in public. That doesn't mean she's autistic or anything, but I'm autistic and I do it a lot. Also, I'm autistic and I relate to her, so she kind of has a peer reviewed diagnosis by me lol."

"Socially awkward and prone to info dumping."

"shes cringe fail and has no idea what shes doing ever i love her so much (shes just like me fr"

"I’m sure you’ve seen her failgirl cringe aquarium infordump that she’s sure will charm any boy (note: fails to charm the world’s loosest teenage boy.) She sucks at a lot of social stuff but also doesn’t get why and just thinks she’s wrong or cursed or smth. Likes animals over people. Doesn’t have a single friend until another loner who happens to be more extroverted basically adopts her as her friend."

"1) thought lecturing her date about sea creatures for like 30 minutes each would impress him and make him like her and was confused when he wasn’t into it (I would be into it tho it’s ok bby he just has adhd). 2) had the date planned out to the MINUTE and told the poor guy to shut up when he wanted to do something different. Literally a formula for how to have fun and she thought it was foolproof. 3) encyclopedic knowledge of sea creatures either points to a special interest and/or she just decided to research all that shit the night before for the date (she did say she went to the library in preparation), either way. tism I love her I’m rotating her in my brain" End ID.]

#autistic girlies bracket #autistic girlie masterpost #chainsaw man #asa mitaka

[littleblueberryartist]

Genshin Neurodivergent Headcanons!

Note: Most of the hcs I have are ADHD related! I know that there's a lot more to neurodivergency than just ADHD, however as someone with ADHD myself I tend to base hcs off on my own experiences and projections lol so if you were wondering this is why

Anyway on with the hcs!

Venti: ADHD

He is. So full of love. He loves deeply and wholeheartedly and cares so damn much be it romantic or platonic attraction (adhd making your feelings feel so big they'll burst right out of your chest)

I think they used to be a lot more emotional back when they first became a god (he's far from stoic and still super expressive now, but he keeps his true emotions under lock and key)

the NB and the Old Mond Gang taught him to love and care and fight for freedom, but they weren't used to the sheer intensity of human emotion (emotional disregulation go brrrr)

holds strong to his ideals and beliefs

the wind is constantly blowing and venti is constantly moving

tons of dopamine from music fr

Coming up with sick rhymes is really mentally stimulating

fast paced brain + 2.6k years worth of experience is how he comes up with new songs and rhymes so fast

Good with words but can get rambly and a bit long winded (not as long winded as ZL tho)

He would do the stimming hand flaps he absolutely would

wing flap stims in archon form too

vocal stims this guy thrills like a bird and makes wind chime noises

hates the texture of cheese specifically but I don't think he says much about the actual taste?? kinda like me with tuna so sensory sensitivity???? (I love cheese tho)

despite being my most brainrotted character I don't have too much in game evidence for ADHD Venti lol it's all vibes

also he's my comfort character so they're just like me fr (and that includes the they/them pronouns)

Yoimiya: ADHD

Easily excited and feels deeply and wholeheartedly (adhd dials feelings up to 100 and that includes the positive ones)

She talks a lot, runs on sentences and sometimes doesn't even realise that she's doing it, changes topics a ton

talkativeness is a way that adhd can manifest and it's one of the ways it shows up in me

her vibes and how she talks reminded me a lot of myself and I got attached (she's just like me fr)

hyperfixates on fireworks don't @ me

Man I sure am lucky I hyperfixated on my family business and never stopped

the colourful lights of the fireworks are a visual stim for her

vocal stims and echolalia

the latter happens a lot when she's hanging around kids bc I do it with little sister

She runs all over the place and is just generally super active and lively (see: her dashing around in the genshin lantern rite promotional vid)

Albedo: ADHD + Autism

only puts in effort and excels in shit that interests him

hyperfixates on art and alchemy he's my inattentive adhd bestie

absolutely twice exceptional (gifted + neurodivergent)

this entire link: https://www.reddit.com/r/Genshin_Impact/comments/mehjk5/hypothesis_albedo_has_adhd_inattentive_type/

He doesn't exhibit many outwardly hyperactive traits but his mind is constantly going

I've seen the Autistic Albedo hc much more than I've seen the ADHD one and I agree with both. Co-morbid king

He likes Dragonspine bc the snow absorbs sound and helps with overstimulation

Sucrose: ADHD + Anxiety

lost her friends before. I'm a bit luckier in this aspect I think, but a lot of adhd peeps have a hard time making and keeping friends

Past rejections have affected how she views herself and her relationships

RSD from both the anxiety and ADHD god help her

This sense of guilt for bothering people just by talking to them even though she knows logically that that's not how it works (aqua your projection is showing-)

Particularly prone to overstimulation by noise because of her enhanced hearing

ND to ND communication with Albedo (and honestly Timaeus too)

Alchemy hyperfixation. Specifically bioalchemy and sweet flower modifications

either way she's the genshin ver of my biology special interest so I want to be friends

Hutao: ADHD (This hc was absorbed over from a friend bc I don't actually know her lore that well)

Whismy!!! Sillay gal!!!

she pulled a me when she was younger and decided "Oh I'm weird? Well guess what I think it's cool so now I will be cringe and free"

would rather die than be bored (me too)

loves pranking and poking reactions out of ppl

Some ADHD ppl like to start drama for the thrill/stimulation

This entire chunk of her character story 1

A lot of ppl with ADHD study or read better while moving around or standing

Doing handstands can also be her way of making things more interesting or challenging (gamification to get rid of boredom)

She's very whimsy as a character but takes her job as a funeral director very seriously

Man I sure am lucky I hyperfixated on my family business and never stopped

Kazuha: some flavour of nd but also ???

very in tune with the environment and good with slight sounds and smells

adhd brain taking in all the sudden random changes maybe???? nature is his interest so it catches his eye and keeps his focus perhaps???? idk the adhd "hey look at that bug" meme

particular about how his food is made even tho he may not always get that luxury with his life as a wanderer, food/sensory sensitivities?????

yeah not too sure on this one but putting here anyway bc I like him

#genshin impact #Venti #Yoimiya #Albedo #Sucrose #Hutao #Kaedehara Kazuha #headcanon #aqua's ramblings

[charliespringverse]

iwbft — thursday: a brief summary of my annotations

all highlighted quotes: 135

· ouch/ow/owie: 7

· real/felt/relatable/so true: 0

· aroace: 0

· ☹/☹☹/☹☹☹: 3

I like knowing that I've been there since the beginning. — lol hipster... me w BiT tho

I can't stop myself laughing, trapped under the cape, and I catch a glimpse of Lister grinning at me, a soft smile, one that reminds me of years ago, back when this was all new and exciting and fun, back when we really were children. — god i love this bit . it is so gentle and tender

People are coming up with some hilarious explanations for the Jowan photo and the Rowan/Bliss reveal, such as it's a ploy by their management, out to stir up some extra publicity to keep attention on The Ark [...] — devastating phrasing for rpf shippers everywhere

it didn't destroy me in the way I thought it would when the news eventually came that Jowan, love itself, wasn't real.. Maybe I sort of knew it was a lie all along. — 10 points for recognising that rpf ships aren't real, -2 for the nihilistic depressive worldview . get therapy x

Unpleasant phone call? Yesterday morning? I heard nothing about that. — well u definitely heard Hints but i'll let u off due to the autism x

Playing our songs when the entire audience is empty is always a laugh, because we're just playing for ourselves, and we can deliberately get stuff wrong and play games like Lister trying to get us out of time and Rowan adding in harmonies where there aren't normally and me changing the lyrics of our most famous songs. — i'd die for them fr LET THESE BOYS HAVE FUN MORE OFTEN

every time the laughing stops his expression drops and he looks like he's about to cry. — me when i leave my friend's house & the mental illness comes back

He just leans in and kisses me. My stomach lurches. Not because I'm excited, but because I'm shocked and I'm getting flashbacks of the last time I did this. Never my idea, is it? I want to, I want to kiss a boy in some dramatic way but I don't too, not when it doesn't feel right. — ☹ bad parallel

You think you've got it all sorted but you don't! You're just the same as me. You're both just as bad as I am. — ,,,,, he's not far wrong tbf

'You don't have to... like me back,' he says, and his voice breaks but I can't tell whether he's laughing or trying not to cry. 'But please don't hate me.' — AGONY (note: this is written in huge letters)

I thought the three of us would be friends forever. I can't deal with these unsaid feelings. I don't want to know about them. I don't want to think about them. — kick me in the cooch it'd hurt less

'Everything's bad.' 'Nothing bad is going to happen to you.' But it feels like it is. 'I am not afraid,' says Rowan softly. 'Remember?' — KILL ME OFF (note: this is written in huge letters)

I'm gone, I'm already gone, I'm up above the three of us and gazing down at the three bodies and wondering who on Earth decided that these three pathetically flawed human beings deserved so much worship. — i wanna write an essay on depersonalisation in jimmy's narration

Jimmy's smile is so wide - a youthful, dreamlike grin - as he gazes over the crowd — to the tune of the maybelline jingle: maybe it's a youthful dreamlike grin, maybe it's dissociation

There is something inexplicable tying them together. — it's trauma

Most fans would defend them until their last breath, form an army to keep them from harm or discomfort. — can't speak to how deliberate this was but . army in the bts sense is a fun connection

I didn't get to meet The Ark. I didn't get to tell them anything. — give it a day luv x

I am dragged into the flood. — BORN TO SURVIVE THE STORM BORN TO SURVIVE THE FLOOD

He doesn't look like himself without the airy smile that I always see in the photos and videos. — false! he looks more like himself then you've ever seen!

Of course he looks impossibly beautiful too. I desperately want to hold him. — NOT THE TIME

He's afraid of me. Me. Me. The human embodiment of a caterpillar. — something something self perception vs other ppl's perception, parallels the fandom vs celebrity experience something something

His eyes are wide and fearful. The beauty that I'd admired there has gone. — he's becoming real...

It just makes me feel like I'm really here. Holding this piece of me in my hand. — depersonalisation & grounding .......

God, I want to hug him. I want to hold him and let him cry gently into my shoulder. — not the time for a wattpad self-insert y/n imagine queen

I just stop registering what's happening around me. It's not really happening to me. It's all just happening to this body that people call Jimmy Kaga-Ricci. — depersonalisation!!!!!

It's funny because it's true. — TORI?

'I'm not in here any more,' I say, pointing at my chest. 'This is all happening to someone else.' 'Are you... okay?' I laugh at him again. — depersonalisation (note: this is in big letters and double underlined)

I'm sure that when The Ark arrive, I'll feel happy. I know that when The Ark arrive, I will feel happy. — ow . it's almost like relying on external factors to fix ur mental health is like a plaster on a bullet hole

I'm sure that when we start playing, I'll feel happy. — they're so nsync

Why do I feel like he's died when he's right there in front of me? — because you loved a fantasy and now reality has kicked in amen

I just turn back and stare up at them, waiting, praying for something good to happen, something good to make me feel okay again, just as it always has until today. But I don't feel anything. — yeah yeah the emotional void we all know it

— future college/uni essay idea: religion vs fandom with a specific focus on the osemanverse/hstv fandom w iwbft & rs as backup

#posting this at 4am friday bc i was toddler sitting all afternoon and then Wiped Tf Out w a pain & fatigue wave all evening #but heyyyy to those of u that check the tag like the morning paper #iwbftreread #side note i should've added a counter for how many bastard times i reference depersonalisation #a job for a future reread i think #also that final one isn't tied to a specific quote i just find it interesting . bc the way the exact fandom toxicity alice has been — #— exploring in their work for years has started playing out in (some parts) of the hs fandom is so interesting to me #also infuriating . but also i find the most interesting things tend to also be a fair bit infuriating

[steampunkagumon]

Misc. Headcanons - Digimon

NSFW under the cut as necessary

Magimon

So it's shown on multiple occasions that he and Wizardmon are two separate consciences (hence why he has his own section)

And he's suspiciously familiar with a good amount of things from the human world

Basically I think Wizardmon was the original, Lucy/Yeehaw was sad he couldn't really come back to the human world with her so she made Magimon as a vessel for him

His favorite movie is The Prince of Egypt, which eventually inspires his attack, Familiar Rain

Duskmon

I don't think he can actually see out of all those eyes. That would get real trippy coming from Impmon and especially going (presumably) into Reapmon

He also doesn't consciously only cry out of a specific eye. He tries to hold back the tears all over but the one on his left foot is the weak link

Chase did you actually count how many there are in the art or is it in the Reference Book somewhere or did you just pull the number 26 out of your @$$?

Also has an eyelid/scar on his chest as Impmon from where the Firewall impaled him

Monodramon

His preferred fighting style is based on his current partner. As to why that is, we'll get into my Purge Program theory another day

He likes headbutting things now bc ER has a thick skull, but he was “a big claw guy before” as Meteromon put it bc Dragon Abbey was a boxer

Or maybe they were in roller derby

Actually scratch that, roller derby would probably give him a higher Flight stat

Could make for a cool second character tho Red

totally not saying that out of spite

I know Pyro needs to focus on his mental health and I respect that but why was THIS your solution?!

Wizardmon

I don't care what Pyro says about not wanting to risk misrepresentation, Wizardmon is absolutely autism-coded, *inhales* PUN INTENDED!

I have Asperger's and he reminds me of kid me like

He doesn’t pick up on social cues, doesn’t know a sarcasm when he hears it

he just like me fr

Sistermon Noir

Hehe, nun-binary

Any pronouns (neo repulsive) but prefers he/him as Salamon and she/her as Noir

Will step on you and then get pouty if you end up liking it

And not in a condescending way, she genuinely thinks that’s messed up

Agunimon

He and Duskmon are so down bad for each other

I don't know when it started (as in when they got the idea) but it just makes sense

“That guy's tougher than he looks. He took down a Firewall.” *casually gives bf all the credit???*

Like, when they're Flamemon and Impmon it's obviously all “eww cooties” but once they Digivolve-

Would experiment writing eroguro w/ them (namely, eyeball licking)

“What big eyes you have~”🤣

Gargomon

There's actual paws under those big bulletey stubs. They retract into wristbands, he just doesn't know how to do it

“The Devi's stay on during sex.”

I really wanted to put “[REDACTED]” instead but one of his Flaws is Blunt I’m trapped

#digi-destiny #sistermon noir #gargomon #agunimon #duskmon #monodramon #magimon #wizardmon #headcanons

[mirsvintagesonytv]

i would be pumping out so much Kunikidazai if i could work out how to characterise Kunikida properly like MY MAN I LOVE U but GODDAMN like. i find it so hard to write him for no reason even tho he's literally me fr. I think BECAUSE I like him/relate to him so much but in a way that I don't fully understand about myself yet i find it hard to articulate his character in words. Like yk how when u have the characterisation in ur head and then when it comes to putting it on paper u come up empty? yeah thats me w autism man Kunikida.

ONE DAY!!!! ONE DAY I WILL WRITE THE MOST HEARTWRENCHING KUNIKIDA FIC AND MAKE EVERYONE CRY. But today is NOT that day so sorry xxx

#mir speaks #mirs bsd rambling #mirs thoughts #bsd #bsd fic #bsd kunikida #kunikida doppo #like idk i find it sm harder to write the fics im genuinely so excited to write??? #maybe its the pressure because i want it to be perfect #esp w dynamics i dont write for a lot #like knkdz #so i tend to stick to my “safe” dynamics #like skk #and angst #probably why i dont write a lot of hopeful stuff #or fluff #a horse named cold air was rlly a shot in the dark but im getting more comfortable w yuans character now #but then again she’s a minor character with little to no canon characterisation so I can do what I want w her #idk writing characters that I’m not 100% confident w is daunting #and so we stick w comfort skk bc I’m autistic and hate doing anything out of routine (I am kunikida) #slowly getting more comfortable w Ranpo and Yosano tho #and higuchi bc if no one else will write higuchi centric fics i guess it’s up to me

[little-cereal-draws]

so i've been home from school for almost three weeks now and it's been nonstop hanging out w family and job searching. and i understand that they want to see me but jc it's a lot. i need to be alone. and job searching has been really difficult.

BUT

a category five autism event happened to me this morning! I applied to a job at the Morgan Library and Museum! AND LOOK AT IT

I'M SCREAMING!!! This is a dream come true. it's part time but it pays $19 an hour!!! they've got lots of old texts and some of the oldest Sumerian codex ever found. the actual job is just checking tickets tho and I keep telling myself "you're not the bloody tour guide, stevie."

but fr when i saw this, i started crying. literal tears were coming out my eyes. i would love to work here. i was screaming and eating my shirt too lol I usually don't do those stims but this,,,,,,, this got me lol

in other good but less exciting news, I may have gotten my old job that i lost a few weeks ago back. i still have to upload some documents which is where i messed up last time but hopefully it works out this time. tho i would much rather work at the museum/library but it's more guaranteed

#you're not the bloody tour guide stevie #oh but i will be #one day lol #i really hope i get it #this turned my whole day around. i was going to isolate myself and cry all day but this is too happy

[astrallouis]

🦋🔮 🐶

🦋 Describe yourself in three words.

weirdo autism personified

🔮 What’s your dream job?

if we r being as idealistic as possible here i would fucking Love to be a muppeteer fr. on the more realistic side id love to work in childrens programming or smth like that or more broadly movies/tv in general

🐶 Are you more of a dog person or a cat person?

dog person tho ive only had a dog and i def get along w them better but my allergies will never stop me from being obsessed w my friends cats.

emoji ask game

#ask #hi :3 #i sat staring at the first one for so long before just deciding to go with that #its accurate so #ask game #asks #gaydiaz

[gayforjuza]

time 4 itaru love posting lets GOOO

basically hes pretty and i give him a kis

srsly tho he's like the lov of my life bcus he has POTS and also autism and i also have those so hes like me representation and the fact that hes one of the most popular a3 blorbos is so wow cus hes just like me fr

and his lore is also literally so me coded like i too was bullied in school for not being able to participate in PE and so I tried to hide it or pass it off as "im just soooo not like other girls actually" and so id end up w fake friends n BICHES i had to deal with yk and it had a lasting effect on my LIEF and so I mask more and try to just avoid topics like sports n exercise cus i dont want mfs to be WEIRD about it

and hes got the gamer autism which i also have and thats so cool we could ramble about viddy game together while eating salty snacks (good for pots) wow and wowow

and so basically and like and anandn and so and like ok and so

#act addict actors #a3! #a3 #itaru chigasaki

[acaiasahi]

WOOHOOO I FINISHED MY EXAMS !!!!!

other than that, i just found out that ppl were making more rumours abt me and this senior i went to camp w 😭 nah cuz why is there so many rumours of me dawgg 💀 and who's the one starting them 🤨

anyways, how r u?? <33

- 🌱

yayyy congrats!!! tell me how they went when u get results back!!! <333

it's gotta b someone who dislikes u or smth bc 1) there's nthn wrong w dating lots of ppl at ur age!!! (even if u aren't dating), ur young n shiii, no reason to be tied down n if i wanna b, nthn wrong w that either!!! do what u want, this person doesn't have a life... n also doesn't slay as hard as u, obviously!!! 😭

cw: rant, racist/toxic/annoying-ass coworker 😭

doing okay, my coworker (she/her) at my boba spot is fr putting me in a weird position bc she js got broken up w their partner (they/them), n ngl, my coworker's crazy af like she needa go to therapy frfr. she told me that one time, she js started crying randomly and hid in her car while hanging out w her s/o n when her s/o came out to check on her, she locked them out even tho she said she wanted their company??? and another situation, she got upset over the amt of gifts she got for her anniversary... n her s/o still gave a thoughtful gift bc it was smth that he liked n assumed she would like too n she was being a total bitch abt it 😭 n this one time, she started crying while her partner was DEPRESSED and made it abt herself like BOIII 😭😭😭

she also keeps asking me if we're friends to the point where we can hang outside of work n... no, not to b mean but i don't view her as a friend, js a coworker that's easy to talk to. she trauma dumps on me and only talks abt autism or neurodiverse topics n makes self deprecating jokes that yas r funny at times but not all the time. she wants constant reassurance from me, it gets tiring. one day, we were talking abt kpop n i told her that i don't rly like skz music one way or the other, i could care less if someone else did but i js don't like their music n i think that's valid/don't need to explain myself but anyway, she literally said "how do u not like skz music but i like nct's??? their music is literally shit, basically bg noise" n i was so upset n take aback bc i didn't even shit on skz's music, i js said i didn't like it, didn't even say "hate" lime what??? 😭😭 n she constantly shits on bts' newer music that's obviously targeted towards international folks like fuck off AND she's racist too bc this one older filipina lady came in and it was obvi from the get that english was not her first language n so i had to slowly speak her thru the menu, the milk options we have, etc. and by the time we made the drink, wished her a good day, and she left, my coworker literally was like "omfg could she speak any fucking slower" n i was like "well, be open minded bc eng is not her first language, obvi." n my coworker fr said "well eng isn't my first language n i don't suck 😐" GIRL BFFRRRRRKFDISN OMG N THIS ONE TIME I HEARD HER HELPING A CUSTOMERS IN SPANISH N I WAS LIKE "oooh when did u learn spanish," n she deadass said "my s/o's mexican, i have to learn it" AND HER PAETNER DOESNT EVEN SPEAK SPANIS H TO HERRENEIDNSKWMEK SHES JUST A BASKET OF RACIST OMFG

ANYWAYS SORRY FOR THE RANT BUT TY IF U MADE OT THIS FAR 😭😭😭😭

#[ 💭 ] asks. #[ 🌱 ] anon. #[ 🫙 ] anons. #[ 📢 ] answered. #[ 🎲 ] rants.

[twinstarlovers]

Hii. So yeah I start my new job tmr as a behavior techhh! It’s kinda weird you don’t need experience, it’s actually very bad but hey… look at me 😭. I decided I don’t think ima do college because no. So yeah idk I explained but ima be going over a child’s house & be a one on one & give them services for those who has autism. Ima be starting off w one kid tho, I can add another case if I want or whatever. So I got a 4 year old girl & she lives 10 minutes away from me thank goodness, so convenient fr. Ima be working from 3-6 M-F. I will earn a lot more than my daycare for sure but because I’m starting off w one kid for 3 hours it’s only a $100 dollar difference but I’m working an hour less than my old daycare job. Anyways my last day wasn’t too hard. I’m not necessarily in my feminine energy rn so it was a little hard to process I was leaving & feeling emotional about it etc. but I am gonna miss the kids fr. I already do but new beginnings! Spiritually I’m not doing so well for my own reasons. I’m aware of it & im you know feeling all the consequences internally & externally a bit as well but letting go of certain things is very very difficult for me. Especially people (as you know lol). I understand I gotta learn the hard way & won’t let go unless I’m on the verge of losing my mind or dying & im not at that point yet & I know I don’t have to be but idk it’s just how I am. I think once I let go of this one thing, ‘paradise’ is on its way & I feel it but you know it’s just really difficult. I find it kinda cool that this new job is like carving out the path of what I want to really get into. I’ve always been in the mental health/psychology type of careers & i can’t imagine what my next job would be or the one after that yk, what doors can open just from this job. Idk it’s interesting to think about. I hate working tho. I rather be rich & help people for free than work for money for helping people. I mean that makes no sense tbh lol. But yeah I tried to a moon on my face but I fucked up & it ended being a half sun lol but I’ve been thinking about you a little but have been tryna ignore it… for my own reasons, has nothing to do w you. I know it’s not the way to go but idk, I think I’m just reallyyyy in my masculine energy & it’s been burning me out fr. But I’ve also been curious about you as much as I’ve been avoiding you at the same time lol it’s weird. But mmmm I’m seeing mom in June (Jhene Aiko) I’m sooo exciteddddd. Anyways I hope you are doing okay. I’ve been speaking to a ghost for years now it’s kinda funny but I know you see everything from my dreams & because sometimes I have urges to look through this page even tho ik what I be posting but it feels comforting? Idk. Anywayssss I’ll talk to you soon, bye bye 💟

[wonusite]

okay but fr watching ExChange made me ✨project✨

relationships (platonic or otherwise) are hard for me sometimes because of my autism. i have specific needs and ways of feeling my emotions which neurotypical people don’t understand which is fair? to an extent? but if you’re a neurotypical person and you date a neurodivergent person it’s important to understand that the way they feel emotions, the way the process things, the way they act in relationships will be a little different.

Keeping that in mind, im changing up my previous ExChange ask a bit lol

cheol x reader who’re both people casted in the show but w diff exes. reader’s ex isn’t necessarily a bad person but is definitely not understanding of how reader’s autism works and paints reader as a person who’s unfeeling.

cheol who immediately connects w reader and it’s not like he necessarily understands how autism works either or how it manifests differently in diff people but he is much more proactive in trying to understand. reader comparing the relationship “ah, this is what it feels like when someone tries to understand you instead of moulding you into their idea of a partner”

anyway, sorry for projecting in ur asks but my brain is filled w cheol and i put him in every single show i watch 😭

don’t worry about projecting in my asks bc this is literally what my blog is here for! it’s a safe space lol. and stop putting cheol in every show you watch is real lmao. this concept is really cute tho!

#brilliant mind fr #love it #nonny

[inkushel29]

my opps (in order)

my art skills

dead ends on flash archiving

Pen Frens

Zeebarf

my 5:20 alarm clock every weekday morning

school

myself

femboys & traps (sorry some of y'all are weird)

twinks (except Orderly)

people who spam my messages with videos (except one mutual because I'm chill w/ them)

anatomy

getting started on a drawing

bara (male muscle proportions exceeded to inhuman and horrifying standards)

the NSFW art community

Canihavepromo aka Lottie (I hope she gets deplatformed fr)

any problematic interest artist/animator I really don't like

Stamper

people who perceive lesbians in THAT way (screw y'all)

BL Yaoi Manhwas

fujoshis

proshippers (or comshippers i have no fucking idea)

finding 0 fanart of shit I like (Ballads of Reemus & etc.)

Alphazekko getting cancelled for no reason

my right ear ringing for no reason

MHA fandom

my antisocial ass

my broken bed

scenecore aesthetic and its music

instagram reel comment sections

my autistic ass for making my weirdass posts

Sia

Zeebarf for being in the NFT community

NFTs & AI

down bad mfs in comment sections

tumblr p0rn bots

my goofy ass being scared of showers

Calobi Productions

TikTok

Alex Emery's Wizard Hunt part 3 not being made

Queers of War for disappointing and traumatizing me

procrastination

the anime community in general

animating

myself trying to animate on flash cs6 but failing

Spazkid for drawing underage sonic characters and not finishing Nightmare Cops

my chronically online ass

Ipad kids

skibidi toilet (I still meme it)

my forgetful ass

finding out a person I like is an absolute piece of shit

myself again

vent people (sorry)

cutecore aesthetic

Roblox (i still play it tho)

sketchers united/pop jam kids

shitty clickbait youtube thumbnails

youtube kids

rule 34 content on youtube

content farm videos on youtube

Youtube (i still watch it)

myself again for making this list too goddamn long when it didn't need to be

uhhhhhh

the Pokemon community

people using the Pixar Mom term in the wrong way (a lot)

Discord

having to sleep early because my parents tell me to

people who harass others for no reason

Miguel O'Hara stans

myself for forgetting to start/finish shit (not school related)

my fatass self

BookTok/White woman who are obsessed with dark romance books

bad Webtoons

those AI disney mockup posters

MCYT fandom

Countryhumans fandom

TikTok art community

Twitter art community

almost any art community that's shit

l0lic0ns & sh0tac0ns (PLEASE FUCK OFF.)

this list for being too long

Nitrile & his weirdass tr@p obsession (he collaborated with Shadman and drew Mandy from Billy & Mandy as a femboy in a very suggestive way. And sometimes drew femboys that looked like children. So yeah fuck him.)

Shadman (OBVIOUSLY)

Zone for ruining The Modifyers and any cartoon in general (they got away with sexualizing minors so idk how y'all looked past that)

Jaystation

my goofy ass for staying up too late

humanizations of non-human characters being skinny white cis young anime boys

my goofy ass for being unoriginal

my goofy ass for still writing on this dang list

Gross people on Spacehey who ruin everything

FNF fandom (kind of)

FNF creepypasta mods (Sonic.exe)

Twitter/X in general

my little brother when he has a tantrum

night terrors

Astrology girls

people who use their autism/disability for a defense mechanism/excuse for when they get called out for something bad they've done

Stamper again (how tf can you be racist and fetishize WOC at the same time nevertheless you're still racist fuck you)

A Small Favor not getting it's chapter 3/final chapter and the story getting reimagined instead of finished

family vlog channels

people who hurt animals for clout

captioning my youtube videos by myself

editing my videos bc its hard

people doing stupid shit for clout in general

MojoMontebon's character Trixie (I don't like her she scares me)

finding out an artist I like is an absolute piece of shit

people who hate selfship/ oc x canon artists (leave em alone theyre just doing what makes them happy)

Your Boyfriend Game

YBG Fandom

the creator of Your Boyfriend Game

redesign vids where the final redesign is actually shit

false allegations

Apphumans community

Deviantart

Fetish artists

ok I think that's it thanks for reading I added WAY too much on this list.

[huevobuevo]

NOW THOUGHTS ON THE WOMAN WHO FELL FROM EARTH (and really just 13's run in general) BECAUSE I WATCHED EP ONE THIS MORNING EBFORE GOING MIMI NINI AGAIN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I LOVE JODDIIEEEE

I LOVE 13 SO MUCH I LOVE HER SCROMCH HER WIT HER AUTISM ???????

THE CREWDRIVER THE TARDIS THE OUTFIT THE FUCKING EVEYRYTHIGNG 1.!>>?!?!??!>

AUAUFHGHG THE FAMMMM I MISSED THE FAAMMMMM

GRACE BABY AAURURHGHGHGHGHHRHGRHGH .........

i lovegraham :]] dont tlel e=anyone but hes my favorite ...cutie pie

THE MU7USSIIICCC AAUUGHGHGHGHGGHGHG FUCKING HERLL

i wanna give MASSIVE sloppy to the mf in the soundtrack room

i cant wait ot see babygirl (master) again oh my god hes so, sooppy

RAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAGGGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHH THE TIMELESS CHILD ARC 😫 😫 😫 😫 😫

if it werent for chibnalls shit writing this season would've been great. i still love it tho because im stupid but damn... the potential

13 just like me fr i wanna chew her like a wad of paper I LOVE THAT SOFT BUTC !!!!!!!!!!!!! THATS MY BFF !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

THE INTRO IS MY FAVORITE IN THES ERIES AUAUUGHGHGHGHRH\

THE VISUALS THE BASS T5HE FUCKINGF IEYGRIHGHUGIHRGHRIUHRUOGHOGUHFDUHFGPMVWNI W !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! OITS SOPO GOOODODD its so pourrple too got damn !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!fuck !!!!!!!!!!!!

honestly im kinda pissed still bout how fast they just kinda. destroy gallifrey agani ://

BUT ALSO AUAUGH THE CYBERMASTERS ARE SO FUCING COL AND ABOSLTIUELY HORRIFIYNG OUHRIUHROGUHOGRUHOGHRIUHGIUHGRHGUHIUGG i need MORE fucked up shit to happen wit them.

Eldritch Doctor is REAL and i love it . that thing is not of this realm .

13 is the reason for the 1920's rabies outbreak.

shes so so silly and so so. slay. sleighhh.

I love Yazmin and Ryan and Graham but aurughrhg chibnall doesnt know how to fully develop these characters well :[[ (Atleast for the first two seasons?? but also my mind might change as i rewatch the series sooo)

#jippe ! #🏜huevo watches shit