#maybe it's just burnout? idk

[burnhamandtilly]

genuinely thinking about quitting being a graphic designer altogether because I really don't know if I can stand this job anymore. two years of this and I'm exhausted. what the fuck am I even gonna do with my life if I quit that tho.. why is living so exhausting, I I wish I could quit this shit too

#man I've been so tired lately #maybe it's just burnout? idk #i need to go to therapy fr #because i really can't stand living like this anymore #still thinking about that post of someone asking if everyone else had that feeling they were just decaying and YEAH. I feel like that. #anny.txt

[maudiemoods]

I told myself I wouldn't but my hand slipped

I was rewatching Steven universe and couldn't help myself aararraar

No full au djjwjd just doodles and ideas djsjjdsj

After leaving home world, they both change their appearance. Idk to what exactly because that last doodle is just casual wear but they definitely have a set outfit they like. Moon's hair changes into a shaggy cut! He likes a more scrappy look. He keeps his hat of course jejsjsj

#i know cats eye is synthetic but i dont care JSJSKDJAJSJ #they both give each other their new names because yeah #YEAH this is a sun x moon i cant help it they WORK #sun x moon #moondrop #security breach moondrop #maudiemoods art tag #fnaf security breach #doodles #sundrop #security breach sundrop #idk what type of weapons or abilities they might have #i would think moon can hover or fly? maybe his ribbons are his thing?? hrhrbrb #moon is suppressing a TON of emotions and personal issues but he hides it really well #he just wanna go ape shit #hes going through burnout basically

[birdsong-warriors]

Putting off uploading because I kind of hate this comic right now, lol.

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#ive been forcing myself through burnout to get pages done anyway for MONTHS #maybe its just irl stuff still kickin my butt idk #im just so tired #sorry aaah #anyway #swifthawk's chance #blood and bone #comic pages #swiftpaw lives au #firestar #redtail #brick #scorch #scourge #tawnypaw #swifthawk #tigerstar #redtail was always fire's starclan guide in place of spottedleaf #last we saw mention of it was like 300 pages ago oh my heck #ok shutting up now #sorry #excuse me thats just pages in bab it was more like 500 pages ago lmao

[kylominis]

𝐒𝐰𝐞𝐞𝐭𝐥𝐲 𝐝𝐞𝐜𝐞𝐢𝐯𝐞 𝐦𝐞 𝐈𝐧 𝐦𝐲 𝐝𝐫𝐞𝐚𝐦𝐬... [♡]

#ominis gaunt #hogwarts legacy #hogwarts legacy fanart #mydrawings #i had a burst of inspiration today after thinking about anatomy lol #i'm actually quite happy with how this turned out even coloring wise #i normally hate my coloring lol #i actually miss drawing omi-chan #i think i'm experiencing bg3 burnout...idk tho maybe that's just today

[roitaminnah]

okay i'll bite,,,, but just so you know I am doing these sketches day of with zero preperation..... n e ways... stargazing....

also I re-read maybe I'm not all you thought yesterday (one of my faves) so a little of that too... for sleepover....

#butterfly soup #butterfly soup 2 #ppkm #ppkmweek2023 #is that the tag? idk idk #the first 'week' i participated in i genuinely thought everyone was making the drawings day of . like fully rendered drawings #so I did that. alas now I am no wiser. #I like how so many people chose stargazing because sleepover is hard to be honest. but I love maybe I'm not all you thought that's my. #favorite ppkm sleepover but I've already drawn it so alas! a different section of the story then #tried to draw them kissing in an industrial dryer yesterday it didn't go over well. #in general none of my drawings have gone over well as of recent. alas I fear I am experiencing extreme art block and burnout #u know I really need to finish roses are red. I re read that one to and it was good! and I just left that poor baby unfinished. #alas #roi draws #roi writes a short novel in the tags

[heylittleriotact]

All the uncertainty about Astarion’s age due to the numbers on his headstone very possibly being incorrect absolutely fucking tortures the mortician in me: errors on monuments are sometimes a thing and they fucking SUCK, especially when the error is incorrect dates of birth or death - families understandably tend to get really upset about that sort of thing: what do you mean you put the wrong day or year of birth? That day each year was so special to us when he lived! What do you mean you put the wrong date of passing? We’ll never forget the day that he left us, but it obviously means nothing to you if you can’t even bother to confirm the date yourself!

Errors sometimes mean the monument company is eating the cost of providing an entirely new one to the family (rightly so) and they’re not cheap, and they take a decent amount of time to make so it’s not like there’ll be a replacement ready in the next week or two. No. It can take months to finalize a new one and arrange for it to be placed, and in the meantime the one with the error is just… there for everyone to see, robbing the deceased of the simple dignity of having their correct age - the span of their entire life - displayed.

So what gets me - what reaaaally gets me in regard to Astarion’s headstone, is that if it is in fact incorrect, it has been incorrect for around two centuries, meaning no one who knew him in life noticed the error - or cared to have it fixed. It also serves as one further little cosmic “fuck you” to Astarion: a reminder that he matters so little that no one even gave a shit that the permanent monument over his resting place in the cemetery had a glaring error on it.

He neither seems to notice or care during the graveyard scene because he’s got other (better) things on his mind, but that doesn’t mean that I can’t be annoyed about it.

#astarion #astarion ancunin #astarion brainrot #v talks death #idk maybe he deserved it and someone did notice and they were just like hahaha you were a prick so whatever #but stiiiiiiiill #anything that’s permanent record and wrong is an absolute nightmare of guilt to fix #(I was really good at not fucking up permanent things like death registrations and obits btw) #because I cared a lot #arguably too much #hence the burnout and quitting

[danothan]

tough pill i have to swallow is realizing that “getting better” doesn’t mean “getting to do more things,” getting better for me means taking better initiative in protecting myself. and THAT means making sure i do LESS things

#sounds kinda obvious but i only just realized it lmao #feels like i have to grieve a lot of my goals now but no one said the healing process would be easy #danbles #and for anyone else that has a disability that prevents them from doing smth #or trauma that makes certain triggers limit their opportunities #or neurotypes that make it harder for them to love smth like they used to #or whatever else #i don’t want to make it sound like you have to give up on the things that make you happy #I’M certainly not going to #but a huge value of mine has always been experiencing everything life had to offer #and everytime that backfires (whether it’s burnout; triggering a flashback; triggering an episode; putting strain on my body; etc) #i always just thought to myself ‘it was bad timing’ or ‘i haven’t gotten better yet’ bc the endgoal was to always get to that point where #i could experience it. i want to try new things all the time. i want to feel normal and be included in everything #but if smth keeps Making Me Feel Bad then maybe there isn’t a version of myself that can take it on #it’s not resilience to put yourself in harm’s way #idk how well i’ll be able to put this into practice tbh. i rly rly like exploring different experiences #even negative ones are valuable to me #but the least i can do for myself is recognize that i might not always be the problem #maybe i’ve already hit the limit on all the self-work i can do. maybe it’s the environment or situation itself that’s the problem #fuuck guys ​i feel like i’m going thru a stage of grief here why is this shit so hard 💀

[churbo]

continuing my self imposed tradition of drawing these guys for new years! Happy new years everyone!

#onwards to 2024! this year was just warmup and 2022 and 2021 and 2020 and 2 #jjba #jojo #jojo's bizarre adventure #diu #diamond is unbreakable #josuke higashikata #okuyasu nijimura #koichi hirose #havent posted for a hot minute sorry.... burnout n college sucks ass #even tho i dont draw much jojo anymore it still holds such a dear place in my heart. also my ocs that I DO draw constantly are from it sooo #technically. TEHCNIALLY i am still #id like to post here again tho. maybe ill compile my oc doodles into one huge post and just dump it on yall idk #ocs are hard to share outside of ur friends tbh but maybe you guys would enjoy it :3 aurelio especially ouguh aurelio my dalring boy... #anyways ill get out of yalls hair now have a good one!

[candyheartedchy]

Has any other self shipper ever find themselves kinda falling out of self shipping with a f/o because of a canon x canon ship either becoming canon or hinted at?

#like I know there’s self shippers that end up shipping canon ships as a poly #but I’m just so use to keeping my self ships close to canon that a canon x canon ship kinda ends up feeling well… canon #and there’s some canon ships that I don’t mind but others… I do #like I know self ships don’t have to stay canon and can be a AU #and it’s not the same as other self shippers sharing the same f/o(s) as me #heck I get excited when others have the same f/o(s)!! #it’s just lately I just feel like why should i bother?? #maybe I’m still dealing with burnout and struggling to draw right now #idk if this makes sense I’m tired #ventish #vent #💬 chy chatter 💬

[not-poignant]

Question! You juggle so many projects at once, and I think that's awesome. Do you have any advice for how you stay motivated (and/or organized) to work on so many different things? If I'm inspired by something, I want to focus on That Thing and Only That Thing — I have a really hard time pulling my brain away to work on other projects.

I'm wondering if a schedule would help? How do you even set your schedule?

This is a lot of questions packed into one ask, I realize — I guess I'm just in awe of your NaNoWriMo progress (you are insane (affectionate)) and want to pick your brain about your process a little.

Hope you have a lovely day!

Honestly anon, we all have our ways of writing, and it's best if you stick to what actually works for you instead of forcing yourself to do something different.

I'd recommend looking into some of the coaching / videos / podcasts by Becca Syme. A lot of it is simply based around accepting who you are, instead of forcing yourself to write like other people. Part of that is finding your strengths, but some of it is simply...being like 'okay, I'm like this as a writer.'

I don't write lots of projects because I taught myself to, but because I love doing it. I write more when I work on more projects. If I forced myself to only focus on one thing I'd feel stifled and held back, I'd write slower, and I actually think my writing would be muddier and less good.

Other people do best and write fastest when they're focusing on only one project at a time.

And which kind of person you are anon is something you'll figure out over time. Though it sounds like you might already know.

If you wanted to try working on multiple projects, I'd look at adding just one more into the rotation and seeing how it feels. Does it make you write more? Does it make you want to write more? Is it pulling focus? Is it making you lose inspiration on the other story? It's not so much a scheduling issue as it is simply...which one gets the words out?

The goal isn't to become like me as a writer, just like my goal isn't to become like other writers. The goal is to get your words out in the way that works best for you. If that's slowly, that's amazing. If that's fast, that's great, and while there are techniques you can try, it should always be with a view to respecting your organic process.

Many writers quit, or burnout, as soon as they stop respecting that process, or when they start feeling ashamed of their natural process and put pressure on themselves to do it another way.

Also I'll be honest, I'm working on too many projects right now and even though I'm loving it, I know it's too many. Like, I've deprioritised Underline the Red for my own sanity, and I am actually really looking forward to clearing a couple of stories from the schedule so I can focus on other things. About 3-4 stories is my sweet spot.

I don't exactly 'stay organised' anon. I actively want to work on all of these stories. And tonally they're all different, so if I feel like something more wholesome, or something darker, or something more pornographic, I have options. I do have a monthly kind of idea of what I should be working on (i.e. based on the upcoming schedule), but I can only really do that thanks to ADHD meds and I'm cautious of recommending techniques that I personally can only access and make use of because medication has fixed some of my executive dysfunction issues. If you're playing with any kind of unmedicated ADHD, there are tools that won't be as useful without tangible medical or therapeutic support. D:

I set my writing schedule via a mix of the writing that makes me money, alongside extra writing that I enjoy that doesn't make me money. Ideally I enjoy all of it and it's all fun. But the stuff that makes me money has to come first, because of like...life reasons. Idk where you're at professionally, or even if you want to do this professionally, and that would profoundly influence how I'd even suggest scheduling. If you don't have to schedule your writing, don't do it! If you don't have to make decisions like this, then don't make them!

Also, if I hated any of these stories, I'd put the story on hiatus. I don't believe in writing stuff I hate or resent writing. I know other people can make themselves do this and I'm glad that works for them, but I can't do it and I just...yeah. I have to love the story and enjoy it and not resent it to see it through, it's probably why there's so much drama happening all the time, and angst, I'm keeping my dumb hurt/comfort brain engaged lmao.

Never underestimate the power of also just 'I've been doing this for 10 years and I'm very practiced at stuff that other people will only learn with years of practice.' Some of this stuff doesn't have shortcuts, it just had a lot of time and 5 million words sunk into it. When I first started writing on AO3 I wrote one story at a time (though I did quickly become bored of that and moved to two). I wasn't making money. I didn't have a schedule for 9 years. I didn't want one.

The things I've learned... my wordcounts are reliable because I've just had a lot of practice writing. Unfortunately there's no trick to that, beyond sitting down and writing. The more you do, the more you learn about your own process and respect it, the more you write the stories you love, the better you'll get. And I've had times where I've burnt out, times where I've needed long breaks, times where I pushed too hard or forced myself to be like other writers and ended up wondering if I'd quit.

I want to give you easy answers, but the easiest one I have is - which way of writing brings you the most joy? Which way makes the words flow? Is it just one story at a time? That's great - that's your way. That might change in time, but don't force it to. You can experiment like a scientist and try different things, but be compassionate and accepting of whatever your innate way of doing things is.

I struggled so much with the fact that serials is just my way in a world of novelists. I cannot tell you how much misery it has brought me, trying to force myself to be a dedicated novelist when I always just wanted to write sequential stories live. And I really thought I was doing things wrong and you know, other authors thought I was doing things wrong.

It turned out I wasn't, but self-acceptance of my own methods and style went a long way in that process.

You might not like this response anon, and I apologise for not actually just lining up a schedule for you to try (I don't listen to my own schedules), but...it's okay to be someone who works on one story at a time. Or two stories only. I actually think it's awesome, and my writer-friend in my writer's group whose work I've been helping beta for years is a 'single project at a time' writer and a *rewriter* (no one wishes they could change their process as much as rewriters imho) and her writing is amazing. Like, incredibly good. (That's Stephanie Gunn by the way, for anyone who wants to read some cool science fiction / gothic fantasy).

So that's her process, and it's an amazing one, because it creates the writing that it does. Whatever your natural process is, anon, it's okay to write that way, trust me.

#asks and answers #pia on writing #idk if i am well-equipped to teach anyone anything about writing #but i do know that respecting your way #the way that makes the words flow most #is the way forward #experimentation is fun #but never try and make yourself be a different kind of writer #because down that path lies burnout and just...losing some love for it #maybe one day i'll go back to working on one project at a time! #whatever is right in the moment is the process i follow sdlkjfsa

[jjba-smash-or-pass]

#you know what it might not be because of a general feeling of depression #maybe it's just burnout from the blog idk #I've also had creative burnout recently and it's been hard to work on any writing or drawing #just a general feeling of being in a funk bc it's been too cold to go outside so I've just been indoors all day every day #in the two same rooms (my bedroom and the living room) #anyway. enough about my life. I can't explain it but smash why not #king crimson #golden wind #jojo's bizarre adventure

[canisonicscrewyou]

You know. A lot of the times it really doesn’t feel like it at all. But Ohmygod am I trying and trying and trying and trying and trying and I am. Tired. But I have to keep trying and that’s fucked up.

#idk I’m just tired of being in burnout all the fucking time it makes me forget how to be a person and drop everyone and everything I like #I have been trying to make myself reach out to someone outside of my apartment and job once a day at least #I am trying to do the chores and tasks I dislike and have been putting off #the anxiety is being worked on. slowly but surely. maybe. #I think the whole ‘haha I forgot how to be a person entirely’ isn’t as bad as it was even like. a month ago.

[demonkinguwu]

Hey, y'all, I know I haven't been post personal stuff in a while, but now that my burnout is slowly fading and I'm slowly getting to the groove, I figured I might as well ask this.

I'm good either way, I don't mind having another blog for only my art stuff if yall are only here for that but if not, I'm good just posting everything here and tagging it 'Demon [blank]'

#demon speaks #demon art #Just asking this because they are some peeps who like my art and maybe this will make it easier for them idk #either answer I'm good doing whatever honestly #also sorry for the inactivity #burnout be grabbing me by the throat lol #But I'm slowly getting better and yeah 👍

[swinging-stars-from-satellites]

f ADHD btw

#I just want reward chemicals?? for doing objectively rewarding things?? I just want to care about things please??? #pretty sure that's the adhd. could also be the occasional post-period-hormones emotional burnout and the month I've had lol #just. this whole year so far has been a lot emotionally idk maybe I'm just having a Moment #likely I will be feeling much better in the morning sjfksjflsjfls I usually do

[lovesickeros]

THE QUEEN OF WRITING IS HERE OMFG SKISSJFJJSKSSKDNDN😭😭😭😭😭😭😭🥑🥑🥑🥑🥑🥑🥑🥑🥑🥑

I’m so glad your back tho we all missed your writing and your in depth sometimes chaotic mind

vaguely. maybe. perchance

it's always chaotic in my mind though. sometimes it comes out coherent sometimes I just start throwing words together and hope it gets my point across (it doesn't)

#asks #jjovin3221 #img block #ive just in a pretty big burnout stage and also just. idk the fandom feels like a graveyard i dont have any other writers i talk to #besides obligatory comrade mention but neither of us write too often anymore #poking the sagau fandom occasionally just to see if its still alive and somehow it is #maybe ill write a tsaritsa fic soon thats still my Brand tm and i refuse to let it go #i feel old looking at the fandom now ive aged like 35 years 😞

[rexxdjarin]

I’m going to say some things about fandom and writing here..:

I’m so tired of being treated like a content machine. Sometimes it feels like if I can’t be on here 24/7 then I won’t be supported fully when I do make the effort to put something out.

I write slow. I know that. My full fic chapters are long and kinda few and far between. But that’s just my process and writing what I will be ultimately happy with takes time. I am busy with life outside tumblr and writing of course.

But so often (and I’m sure others feel this way too) it feels like if I’m not the first person to write a story for a canon character then the fandom treats me like my story isn’t good, isn’t worth reading, isn’t going to compare etc etc all various forms of the whole only one person writes canon character correctly bullshit that makes fandoms small and forces creators to leave.

It’s a dual ended whammy of people don’t make time for you because you aren’t constantly churning out material like the content machine they want you to be AND you weren’t the first person to write a fic for the character and so they’re constantly comparing and preferring to only read other people instead of you.

And all of it honestly sucks. It sucks feeling like your work doesn’t matter. It sucks putting out things youre proud of only to be told that “by comparison yours isn’t as good as ____” it sucks watching certain readers move on or give up or find other things to do because you can’t write every single minute to keep people satisfied.

I don’t know if I’m going to take a writing hiatus, given my life situation over the next few months that would probably be smart, but it just feels like the passion I have for what I make is being stripped from me every time I do anything on here and I’m just exhausted.

#maybe I have fandom burnout idk #I can feel people pulling away or ignoring me or just not being excited like they once were #and I just feel like all this is a waste. #ranting #ignore my rambling