#man I am losing brain.

[d0not-disturb]

#mcyt #hermitcraft #grian #mumbo jumbo #starsaysgarbage #hermitblr #grumbo #waffle duo #random ass nonsense #hermitcraft season 6 #hermitcraft season seven #hermitcraft Season ten #Grumbot #I mean like kinda #man I am losing brain. #hhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

[thekittyokat]

you ever just have a lot, a LOT of feelings all at once about a character and not even remotely enough words or brainpower to FORM the words to describe everything you're feeling. so it feels like you may explode. yeah

#sorry i got really into my feelings about mark hoffman again #the very specific version of him in my brain that i really really wish i had the time and energy to properly share with you guys #saw #well until i muster the energy to explode all of my feelings out into a fic. if you want to TRY and understand #know that my three biggest hoffman fic insps right now are as follows #your best kept secret hoffman. a series of mistakes hoffman. and rushed like a dreadful wind hoffman. #there is a very clear throughline just know i am extremely emotionally compromised rn #thinking about theee fics vs the canon path hoffman spirals down #something something the absolute tragedy of watching a man's descent into madness #the transformation of a man into a monster #and what could have saved him from himself and kramer's corruption #sorry i'm rambling so much oh my god i was just having such a crying fit out of nowhere about this #do you think he could feel it happening. do you think he was aware he was losing his mind. #the script version of him fucks with me so bad. the crazed rankings and the longer hair and him not being well kept anymore #it's impossible to think he didn't know he was deteriorating #fuuuck okay i need to either chill or write a whole longfic rn #i project on that guy so much i truly don't know if i could properly write my vision of him #until i do something more substantial the full extent of my hoffman exists for me and my boyfriend only. they get me like no one else #well ginny and jenna also get me. please read best kept secret and a series of mistakes Oh My God #where am i going with this. i like tag rambling actually this is a nice way to do it without forcing EVERYONE to read my delirium #anyways if you've read all of this i think i love you? feel free to dm me about hoffman and my very specific headcanons and aus #maybe soon i'll try and start writing my fics about this tragic man #i could never say any of this on twitter btw they'd string me up for my opinions on him as a sad wet beast who could have been fixed #if only he hadn't been weaponized first #god i'm too tired to even be as embarrassed about this as i should be. thought i unlearned cringe already #but i've been spending way too much time on twitter and they HAAATE hoffman there #rip. i know it's not that serious but i'm sensitive rn and hate feeling lonely in my thoughts #ok bye for real otherwise i'll never shut up. i might tag ramble more often bc this was therapeutic in a way i needed badly #cat chat

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

assorted scribbles and Love Bites!!!!

#THEYRE IN MY BRAIN THEYRE IN MY BRAIN MY FUCKING GOD THEY'RE IN THERE!!!!! #i want to PUNCH & BITE SOMETHING theyre soooooooo aghh bsdkjcJKDFNJSVDSL #sorry. sorry. look away im losing my Absolute Marbles #they make me so emotional.... #having breathing problems while typing #they Affect Me and Effect Me and Everythingggggggg #literallyyyy FUCK everyone else theyre the only ones who matter #scribble salad #laughingstock #barnaby x howdy #howdy x barnaby #watch barnaby's gonna end up being the token straight- #hes bi In My Heart (until proven otherwise. probably gonna be proven otherwise) #tho man... his pokemon au design is So fruity.... WAIT WHAT EAR WAS THE EARRING IN?! hold on i need to look something up #THE LEFT EAR NOOOOO THAT'S THE STRAIGHT EAR- #again Im Just Joking! Joshing! Jesting! dont take this seriously please dear fucking god dont- #im simply a jester in this giant court. jingling my lil bells and doin a jig #fr tho when i first saw all the neighbors i looked right at barnaby and thought 'ah. thats probably the straight one huh' #BUT! WE HAVE NO CONFIRMATION EITHER WAY! #AND I AM AND ALWAYS WILL BE DELUSIONAL ABOUT LAUGHINGSTOCK! SO!! #straight barnaby can't hurt me he isn't real- #and ofc. howdy has always been so so fruity To Me <3 #idk what it is about him! hes just! i look at him and my entire brain goes 'oh that mf has four limp wrists' #AND TOGETHER THEY ARE THE FLUFFY HUSBANDS!!!! WHO WONT LEAVE ME ALONE!!!

[aq2003]

really love how throughout a lot of smith and jones martha is really skeptical and apprehensive towards ten (+ one of my favorite exchanges between them - "what, people call you 'the doctor'?" "yeah?" "well, i'm not. far as i'm concerned, you've got to earn that title."), not taking everything he says at face value, even doubting the fact he's an alien until over halfway through the episode.. And like. i really truly think the thing that wins her over isn't him kissing her or any of the other insane mixed messages he manages to send, it's this scene here, where he /earns that title/ in her eyes:

(+ david's bit in the commentary, where he says: "[the doctor] has actually sacrificed himself, and - i would say, that that final act of selflessness is what finally, eventually, welds martha to him. [...] and she now returns it. she returns that act of selflessness.")

this is what their relationship is built on. it isn't about martha being the second-best replacement to rose or a rebound or whatever. bc it isn't really about rose. it's about doctor-in-training martha meeting someone (quite literally, "the doctor") whose ideals she aspires to, and doing her best to be the same person to him as he is to everyone else. it's about ten in return admiring her intelligence and inquisitiveness and how she cares for human life, recovering his compassion, letting himself lean on her for support - and then remembering at the most inopportune moments that he's supposed to not need anyone and be on his own forever. And around in their little nightmare loop they go where they save each other over and over until one of them breaks

i've seen ppl look at martha and go "why she does she admire/why is she so in love with ten if he acts like that to her?" or something along those lines and like. it's not just the fact she's in love with him (in fact i'd argue she actively tries to push it aside post-gridlock). it's the fact that she knows he's the kind of person to put everyone else's lives/well-being over his own. she trusts him to save her when she's in trouble even though it's been like two days at most that they've known one another bc she recognizes that same "deep all-encompassing drive to help others" in him. and she also recognizes, much much earlier than him, that he needs someone to save him, especially when he's unwilling to save himself. and yeah for a bit she thinks he returns her feelings and is just playing hard-to-get, but she realizes pretty early on that this probably isn't the case, and i think that realization fully solidifies here:

(this is when she's listening to ten talk abt gallifrey). And idk it might just be me but i think this expression isn't just her empathizing with his loss. it's also guilt, for wanting something from him that he's clearly unable to give when he's wracked with so much grief. (and you see it in the next episode, where tallulah asks if they're together and martha says for certain that they're not, and that he doesn't know about her feelings for him. she keeps everything to herself bc she now knows that when he shut her flirting down at the end of 3x01 it was the genuine reaction of someone who a) isn't interested and b) is scared of getting close with someone else again)

freema described their dynamic as "she's keener than him" and i think about this all the time. martha doesn't really take what ten throws at her. what she does instead is constantly poke holes in his already-failing front of "i will show someone the wonders of the universe so i can ignore what is wrong with me". what she does is stand up and fight him when he tries to go off on his own. what she does is put aside her well-being in favor of helping someone - just like what she saw him do for the people in the hospital when they first met. tldr, that's the doctor and his doctor and rip martha you would've loved who's gonna save u now by rina sawayama

#THIS ISNT ABOUT ROSE WE CAN STOP THINKING ABOUT THAT WHITE GIRL FOR 1 SECOND. IDC #ALL SHE DOES W REGARDS TO MARTHA IS REMIND HER THAT TEN ISNT GOING TO FALL IN LOVE W HER. #ALL SHE DOES W REGARDS TO TEN IS REMIND HIM THAT EVERY TIME HE LOVES SOMEONE HES FATED TO LOSE THEM. WE CAN IGNORE HER PAST THIS. GBLESS #martha jones #tenth doctor #dr who #ten and martha #'theyre like a rebound' shooting you with my laser eyes sorry. martha says it when she still thinks he's taking her on dates #if he hadn't opened up about gallifrey she would've been totally fine w him taking her back home #and meanwhile ten is very unaware of any kind of romantic element until like the fuckinn. last possible moment lmfao #they are doctor and mentally unstable bus driver. Or perhaps grieving man (genderneutral) and their One (1) friend that has to support them #um idk what this post is. i wanted to pick apart martha's brain for a hot second. #edit: #it's not like 5 am and i'm reading these tags and they're a lot more mean than i meant to put them down as #Not changing them bc i already wrote so much it's out there in the world already sorry. just imagine i'm saying this all nicely #10 era

[mblue-art]

man's skull feels like the fkn sun <3

my artjuice is going into shitposting

#cross!sans #self insert #mblue art #shitpost #(i think its bc im just drawing for fun and not thinking abt how clean itll look) #(jus wanna draw a silly impulsive thing bc brain thinks the visual is funny) #may or may not connect to previous doodle<3 #this is going to be my art for awhile maybe i hope its ok #also I FLUSTERED THIS MAN TO DEATH. I AM WINNING. he is losing. look at him. lightbulb-lookin-ass #what if its dark out and i need to look for something so i kiss him and his magic blush glows bright enough to light up the area a little #10/10 would fluster cross again tbh #absolute cutie #(affectionately) bullying cross is my fav pastime as his datemate /j #thats what he gets for saying something he thought would trigger the tsundere-fluster 😎 #get got idiot /aff #CM

[hrokkall]

TEAR ME APART!!! TEAR ME APART SO I FEEL WHOLE!!!!!

#Inscryption #Inscryption Spoilers #James Cobb #Cw: #Blood #Gore #Is this the first James fanart? Not really an accomplishment but still #Anyway I don't know where I was going with this one #I just wanted to draw a dude who looks like he'd enjoy whatever the hell is happening in the console ARG #And then ended up with Toxic Slutch #(He's toxic slutch color because I like how most Mullinsverse NPCs have non-human skin tones despite being human. It's so fun to me) #I'll change the design if I ever draw this guy again (read: probably not) but I had to get the worm out of my brain. You know how it is. #Longelk raised a really good point though. Why WAS James reassigned to P03 #I personally think it's funniest if they just drew straws and P03 won. Then realized ''what the fuck am I going to do with this'' #Like a drunken bet gone wrong but instead of losing five dollars it's full-on human experimentation. Fun stuff #Anyway imagine being such a freak that you make the in-universe god of wizards kick you out. Good job man #Hrokkall Art

[bitfruity]

i have never been so obsessed and in love with a man before in my life

like as a teenager i liked bands and thought some members were kinda cute but NOTHING has prepared me for the teenage girl in my 20’s level infatuation i have for this man

and then he had the AUDACITY to bring another one into the mix

words cannot explain the amount of gender envy tommy gives me do i want him or do i want to be him?? i look at some pictures of him and go THATS ME THATS HOW I SEE MYSELF

#WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME?? #IS THIS JUST WHAT YOUR 20S ARE LIKE? #I AM DOWN BAD #i thought i skipped all this #i never understood all the girls that obsessed over celeb men #but now i get it!! #i kinda feel like i’m losing my mind #this 30 year old man is the only reason i smile #like when did that happen?? #tommy got me feeling some type of way #i cant quite explain it but he’s changed something in my brain #i am not the person i was before listening to racked #the amount of gender envy he gives me is unmatched #am i even a girl idk anymore #I AM SCREAMING INTO THE VOID #käärijä #tommy cash #fruity thoughts #i made this at 2am last night in a feverish state but i’m still gonna post it

[x-nephophile-x]

You still haunt the corners of my heart

#yeah im so perfectly normal about this man and this thing that has distracted me from Starri #Aeris please do better pick yourself up ma'am #im unfortunately losing my mind about this man and these two in their past and in a maybe future and i am brain rotted- #i cannot handle him yall dont understand #ive been in love with mister ardyn izunia for 5 years do you see why im HERE!!! #gortash x durge #dark urge x gortash #enver gortash x dark urge #X: Psychosomatic Freedom #OC: Aeris Adler #bg3 #baldur's gate 3

[taikanyohou]

WOODZ. Who Knows (2023).

#woodz #cho seungyoun #* #faiza gifs #so cinema so horror of him THANK U KING. #honestly i HOPE??? we get an mv for who knows with EXACTLY this vibe man #i just. LOVE. how he GETS the idea of ......... not knowing who you are and then just PROJECTING that into this song LIKE THIS #like this is EXACTLY how i feel ... im running round and round and i feel like im losing my sense of time .... #im here (yes physicallly) but am i??? WHO KNOWS!!! and then those LIST of questions WHO ARE YOU WHO THE HELL ARE YOU idk man #HE JUST GETS ITTTT. #like. journey is the answer to who knows HIS BRAIN. YALL.

[cobaltfluff]

YEEEEESSS LETSGOOOO IT'S BEEN 10000 YEARS!!! FINALLY!!! MORE FALLING INTO DARKNESS!! KINDNESS AS A FATAL FLAW!!! GETTING POSSESSED AND FIGHTING YOUR FORMER BESTIE!!! MY FAVOURITE TROPES!!!! THANK YOU FOR THE FOOD UTSUMI-SAMA I AM FEASTING SO WELL 🙏🙏🙏

#bucchigiri?! #watch and yell #spoilers #I AM SCREAMING SO HARD GUYS #YOU DON'T UNDERSTAND THIS IS MY FAVOURITE TROPE #NOTHING MORE STRAIGHT THAN HAVING A FISTFIGHT WITH THE BESTIE YOU BROKE UP WITH #YEAH TOTALLY STRAIGHT NOTHING SUS HERE #GUYS I LOVE THISSSS #bruhhh throwback to ygo gx with jaden vs possessed jesse #that must have changed my brain chemistry so much #I LOVE IT WHEN CHARACTERS FALL INTO DARKNESS!! #WHEN THEIR KINDNESS IS THEIR DOWNFALL!!!!!!! #WAAAAHAHAHAHAHHA WOOOHOOOOOOO YAHOOOOEYYYYY #i feel like it's be SOOO LONGGG since we've had a good one of these man #utsumi-sama you have blessed me once again #HOOOOOOO BOYYYYYYY I AM SO EXCITED #i love it when a character i love loses the light from their eyes #YAAAS GET IT B GO LET OUT YOUR ANGER #DON'T LET THAT KINDNESS HOLD YOU BACK ANYMORE GO GETTEMMMM #maybe this is just what i would like to do LOL

[babiebom]

it's so EMBARRASSING how QUICKLY I have started to simp for this man!!!!!!

I need to be LOCKED UP

And the key needs to be THROWN AWAY

There is NO REASON that Johnny Slaughter/Sawyer should be THIS SEXY

He EATS PEOPLE I am going to CRY

There isn't enough fanfics for me to read and i am sufferingkalakdkalwndkwowldmwpxkwkpwmfoekwbd

Someone HELP

I want to[REDACTED] until he [REDACTED]

#tcm #tcm game #texas chainsaw massacre #texas chainsaw massacre game #johnny slaughter #johnny sawyer #i am genuinely losing my mind #this man #he has taken over my brain #i am going to die #and when i get to the pearly white gates #god is going to immediately send me to hell

[cuddlebugmonster]

WEEEEEEEEE

Let's float in space together

(funfact: 'space' is one of my names too!!)

Weeeeeeeee XD

(Dat so cool, i got a space kid, i so lucky :3)

#am currently losing ma brain because my lack of sleep #XD #this is so funny #man i love my kids #bugs fam #bugs kiddos #<33<3

[corfisers]

i really need to finish this one day

#one of my fave ideas but i keep getting stuck or starting over. third time's the charm hopefully #anyways. posting it as an excuse to rant because i'm losing my mind over this rn for no reason #incoherent but i just need to Talk or my brain won't shut up #you ever think about how fucked up it is that aoi feels guilty over what happened. i do. i think about her a lot #he can't even look at me. we aren't even blood related but he still had to go to jail because of me. i still love him #in reality none of it is her fault. it shouldn't be about doumeki in the first place. baby girl you were 15 when it happened. #you can say that yashiro is cruel in his dismissiveness (on the surface) of doumeki's trauma but you can see where he's coming from #you got a glimpse of what your sister was going through? of what i went through? and now you're sooo guilty over it? and who does it help? #doumeki's so focused on his own feelings that he ignored aoi when they were living together. “saves” her by pure chance #proceeds to focus on his guilt and ignore her again. if yashiro didn't get involved she'd be sitting in the rain for god knows how long #yet she still loves and to some degree idolizes him #yashiro and aoi both saying that doumeki isn't the type of person to be a yakuza too. doumeki's good doumeki's better than that #and then ch 24 happens. where yashiro says that he's going to throw up and doumeki's response is “i probably won't stop even if you do” #“guess i am like my father after all” and yashiro still goes “you're not. you're pure and im the problem” #(touches doumeki's face. rare gentle gesture. he's gentle afterwards too before leaving. man.) #he's not cruel enough to repeat what he said in the earlier conversation and he doesn't actually believe it anyway #but i wish yashiro was cruel there. it shouldn't have been about doumeki and his feelings. again. #something about yashiro throwing a knife at another person and it flying back at him huh #for all the talk about how doumeki supposedly romanticizes yashiro it really is the other way around. always has been #which is a whole other conversation but yeah. everything about aoi and yashiro in relation to doumeki makes me so fucking sad #but this is also what i mean when i say that aoi doesn't haunt the narrative per se but still has this weird presence? #she's in the parallels. she's in the brief but important mentions. she's in the “your sister was lucky she had you”. #wips tag

[jennycalendar]

i am having an emotional breakdown. we were watching the scene where xander arrives to giles's apartment in order to inform him that angel is back, and noticed this:

the hand stays there until the shot is over.

#celia watches btvs #rupert giles #xander harris #giles and xander #i am losing my mind!!!!!!! #someone ! fucking ! taking care of giles a little #AND OF COURSE. IT IS XANDER #that man has the world's biggest heart and the world's stupidest brain. #xander haters come fight me in the pit i will throw this in your face

[bitterkarmaa]

“They seemed to like me well enough.”

The orange and black tinted daycare attendant ducks under the larger security bot that hovers around him like a fly, doing more listening than talking, as it usually does.

Nimble fingers slide a couple of double A batteries into one of his newer projects, eyes lighting up as the device whirls to life.

“Did you like them?” The sharp-toothed guardian asks curiously, plucking the buzzing object from his son’s hands with a quizzical gleam in it’s brilliant red eyes.

“Yes, I- hey! Give that back! It’s important!” He jumps in an effort to snatch it back, but it proves futile as his father pulls it out of his reach with ease.

“Oh? And what does it do, exactly?” It’s tone is only mildly interested now, staring into Eclipse’s bright eyes as he stands, silently fuming, by it’s side.

“It distracts the kids so that I can get some cleaning in before closing. Now-“ The jester-themed animatronic leaps for the object once again, only for it to be pulled away like before.

“Can you ask nicely?”

Eclipse pauses, hands balled into fists at his sides. He opens his mouth a few times, biting back much more bitter words before he finds his nicer tones.

“May I please have my prototype back?” He barely manages to keep the annoyed drawl from his voice, lighting up once the device is lowered back into his reach. He snatches it before the older animatronic can play more games.

He steps back to begin working once again, but is stopped in his tracks by his father’s abnormally gentle hand laying onto his shoulder. He pauses, glancing over to it.

“Has your new battery come in yet?”

Eclipse’s face falls into a frustrated frown once he processes the question.

“No. It hasn’t. It’s late, as usual.” He replies bitterly, nudging KC’s hand off of his shoulder so that he can continue his tinkering.

“Then you should charge.”

Eclipse stops once again, slowly looking back to KC’s stern expression. They hold one another’s gazes for a moment before, eventually, Eclipse lets out a heavy sigh.

“You won’t let up until I do, will you?”

As KC shakes his head, Eclipse sets the project back onto his workbench with a last longing glance before he turns towards the door.

Almost as soon as he turns, his father has scooped him up into his arms with a contented hum.

“Hey! I can walk myself, you know!” Eclipse shouts, crossing his arms in a pout as KC lets out an amused chuckle.

“Yes, yes, I understand that you’re a big boy now.” He jests, earning an offended scoff from his son.

“I’ve always been a big boy, you just refuse to see it.” He huffs, settling down in KC’s warm hold despite his sharp words.

“Mhm…does Mr. Howls see it, then?”

Eclipse raises a hand, playfully swatting at his father with a sour expression on his face.

“Mr. Howls helps me connect with the children!” Eclipse snaps. KC gives him a dubious look.

“Since when was a stuffed wolf a child? Next you’re going to say it ‘helps you understand the kids perspectives.’”

Eclipse grumbles to himself, but makes no further attempts at justifying his plush companion.

However, he does tell Mr. Howls all about the woes of dealing with a father like KC before he settles down to charge for the next few hours.

#karmas bitter but so am i #karma’s bitter #sun and moon show #the sun and moon show #tsams #sams eclipse #kb eclipse #fnaf sun and moon #fnaf sun and moon au #tsams au #sams au #sams kc #sams killcode #kb killcode #kb lore #kb drabbles #I just wanted to write about them okay #KILLCODE AND ECLIPSE 😭😭 #they have my heart and brain rn man #sorry about the shitty writing I’m currently fighting and losing with writers block #killcode is actually a decent father ™️ #bad stuff comes later

[takenbythestarcatchers]

Just saw this on Facebook???? HELLO?????

#gretavanfleet #my brain is malfunctioning #I’m losing my absolute shit right now #am I missing something or is this really something new??? lmao #Greta van fleet #Josh Kiszka #Jake Kiszka #Sammy Kiszka #oh I’m sorry he’s a grown man now I mean SAM Kiszka #danny wagner