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justablah56 · 6 months

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ee hee @iersei I finished writing another Glenn gender post :3

todays glennder post is specifically abt transfem Glenn , so buckle the fuck up <333 SO I've mentioned before that my person hc is that Glenn was transfem from when she was abouutttt 15-16 ish until Morgan's death p much . She was always sort of gnc before that , being a teen boy who's kinda emo/punk/alt with an absent father will do that to ya . I think for a while he didn't really think it was anything and it was totally normal and not a gender thing when he liked his hair long or his nails painted or a bit of makeup on here and there, he was just a rebellious teen who wanted to look cool . but then I think he started identifying as a demi boy at first, like yeah I'm not cis , but I'm still a guy , right ? (wrong) through their teenage years it slowly morphs into just they/them , not minding he/him , it just wasn't what they used most often . then he meets Morgan . Morgan , known lesbian . at first glenns like yeah wowie were such good friends , plus even if I liked her I'm a guy , a manly man , id have no chance , even if she is so so hot .. but they're like . besties for a few years , and at one point Morgan brings up the idea of crossdressing when they're probably in their early 20s. she mentions she thinks it'd be fun to try a sort of drag-king vibe , and glenns like haha yeah I could be your matching drag queen and Morgan's like 👁️👁️ so they go out to find outfits . Glenn finds some fun black leather dress or smthin like that and puts it on and comes out absolutely grinning . she doesn't think this is a performance , it feels too real . meanwhile Morgan is sitting there's like holy shit that is the most beautiful woman I've ever seen . both of them are seeing *Glenn* for the first time and she's beautifully herself . after that Morgan and Glenn go to a lot of dress/skirt shops . I think Glenn does really like the sort of drag vibe to her femininity though . she just loves the exaggerated makeup and the eccentric outfits and the ridiculously tall heels , and Morgan just thinks she's hot as hell <3 after a bit Glenn goes on estrogen bcs she can and life is good for a while between Glenn and Morgan . I think they do drag together super often , Glenn for the most part just glams herself up , bcs we love a transfem drag queen <3 and Morgan prefers to do more masc drag , and they like to correlate their outfits to match whenever they do it and it's just v sweet <3 I think though , (and I believe I've mentioned this in previous glennder rambles) that as Nick comes along and Glenn is given more responsibility he kinda starts regressing back in his gender journey . Glenn gets kinda ... burnt out . to the point that putting effort into his gender presentation isn't worth it anymore . when they first have Nick she starts using she/they . her and Morgan stop doing drag as often . as Nick grew up it morphed into just they/them , and Glenn didn't want to try to come up with a parent word for themself so they were still "dad". when Morgan died Glenn stopped presenting female completely . to him , he didn't have the time anymore to be worried about that kind of thing , and it was easier to just ... be a guy again . it also had to do with the fact that any of his feminity just reminded him of Morgan bcs he had been with her the whole time , so he couldn't dress up like he used to because every time he tried to dress up he would be turning around expecting to see Morgan's smiling face with her own outfit on , ready to tell her how pretty she looked all dolled up . and then she wasn't there . and that hurt . and as Glenn does , if it causes any kind of negative emotional reaction at all it's better to just shove it into a closet and pretend it doesn't exist , and that's what he does with his silly goofy transed gender . he does still stay on estrogen though , I think . bcs it's the one thing that he's just gotten used to and it would be more difficult to suddenly stop than it is to just keep doing it . he tells himself it's because he doesn't like change . and that's part of it , but y'know . she's still there .

anyways this got kinda longer than I thought it would but I'm so insane about transfem Glenn literally thinking about her constantly , she's my babygirl , my malewife , my girlhusband , my silly rabbit , I love her sm <3

#just blahs #glenn gender <333333 #shes everything to me #dndads #dndaddies #dungeons and daddies #glenn close dndads #dndads glenn close #transfem glenn close

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mikumutual · 3 days

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ooh can i have do-yoon and date :3 thank u

yeas :D

do-yoon han

Sexuality Headcanon: gay... there's a few different lines that point me to this, but the one i have on hand is "do-yoon: what celebrity? inha: [sigh] you have no interest in anyone, do you? juyoung, of course" and like well i can think of Someone he has an interest in

Gender Headcanon: the trans potential is very convincing. i didn't think of it while playing but ur so real

A ship I have with said character: GYU-HYUK

A BROTP I have with said character: uuuhhh plughole lol. honestly do-yoon has so many potential ships but like i think hyesung is just his homie, i don't think he likes seil that much, i think suyeon would kill su-chang if he got together with do-yoon, do-yoon and woo-suk are totally exes, and gyu is just the realest and only option. oh also him and inha being besties is a great headcanon

A NOTP I have with said character: don't ship him with the girls are u crazy

A random headcanon: i think he puts a lot of effort into his appearance, and he canonically knows a lot about makeup, but i also think he had no strong opinion on bstars' costuming. like he fully cut his hair for the show and was like ok. i think he just didn't care about that very much. though if canon contradicts me lmk

General Opinion over said character: he's sooooo good. i always love protags. he's pretty funny in an unintended-by-him way, and he's a great conduit for the story. i LOVE his outfit and sprites. i love his commitment and dedication. i love the big reveal. i love everything he does and how much he cares. everything about him. god do-yoon is great

kaname date

Sexuality Headcanon: this man is bisexual

Gender Headcanon: i think he's cis but it'd be so fucking funny if he were trans. like. Which One

A ship I have with said character: kagami. look i know him and hitomi are canon but let me have this EDIT: AND AIBA. I FORGOT ABOUT AIBA

A BROTP I have with said character: date and mizuki family... date and boss fascinating... date and renju intriguing. i love how much he gets along with all the characters, but nothing will ever surpass the mizuki roommate friendship familyism

A NOTP I have with said character: there's like nine fucking people who flirt with date in these games and i don't mind most of them. my no-gos are ryuki and iris though. i respect ryuki for having a crush but it's not happening. and i forgive iris for being weird, because she wasn't telling the truth, she just wanted a bodyguard. but yeah date will never

A random headcanon: i think post-ai1 he ties his hair up in the same style, it just looks different 'cause it's spikier. i don't necessarily think he dyes his hair but i do like the fanart where he does and his roots show

General Opinion over said character: god he's so fucking funny. one of the best protagonists i've ever had the honor of playing. my favorite character in aitsf. so funny. so persistently horny. so good at what he does. so dedicated to solving the mystery. so kind when the time calls for it. dude literally goes into peoples brains and fixes their problems, how can you not like him. i love him so much genuinely. also his outfit is fucking fantastic. i do like his appearance throughout the game more than the epilogue but i'm so happy for him at that point that it doesn't matter. also the timeskip between aitsf and aini didn't happen

#thank you sylwek this is so much fun!!!!

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theydeservedasoftepilogue · 3 years

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If you're a Braime shipper, you should check out Y The Last Man

So @hulu has a new show called Y The Last Man, based on a comic series. If you are unfamiliar with the premise, a disease hits the earth that wipes out every animal with a Y chromosome, with the exception of Yorick Brown (the main character) and his pet monkey Ampersand.

In some ways it is a traditional post-apocalyptic TV show (Walking Dead, Battlestar Gallactica, The 100, Jericho), with a heavy dose of explicit gender politics.

(Side note: I really have to complement the show for being smart and nuanced about the way it discusses and frames the issue of biological sex and social gender. The plight of trans men is explored early on, as is the fact that many groups of women have Y chromosomes, and were victims of the disease)

BUT, I wanted to say that one of the main plot lines of the show has a LOT of parallels to Jaime/Brienne's storyline, particularly their journey from the North to King's Landing.

~*~

So the show has basically 3 plot lines that follow different members of the Brown family - Yorick, his sister Hero, and his mother Jennifer (a US congresswoman who gets promoted to being president after virtually everyone in the line of succession is killed).

Yorick's plot line essentially consists of a road trip through apocalyptic America with a genetic scientist, Allison Mann (who is going to do research on him to figure out why he survived the plague) and Agent 355, a member of an elite militarized intelligence force who gets put in charge of guarding Yorick and keeping him safe, so he can be studied.

Allison Mann is a lesbian, but Yorick has a romantic and sexual dynamic with Agent 355, who is charged with protecting him as they go on this hazardous, harrowing journey.

Agent 355 has a lot of Brienne in her. She is an incredibly skilled and competent warrior, and would lay down her life for this mission. She is very serious, and treats the mission with deadly seriousness. She also has a troubled past that the show is clearly going to explore more as time goes on. She is VERY closed-off and secretive at the beginning, but it is clear that Yorick is going to slowly break down her emotional barriers as they bond along their journey. (Sound familiar?)

Yorick is less like Jaime than Agent 355 is like Brienne. He is not a warrior of any variety. However, he does cause Agent 355 a great deal of trouble along the way, more through incompetence than through any deliberate effort. Her effort to try to keep him in line reminds me more than a little of Brienne's efforts to stop Jaime from causing problems early on in their journey.

But the strongest parallels between Jaime and Yorick actually have more to do with their circumstances than their character traits. Yorick is the son of a powerful political figure who has a lot of enemies, and a lot of people plotting against her (one of the other main plot threads of the show). He is an important asset, but he's also in danger partly because of who his mother is, and his connection her. Hiding that Yorick is a cis man is important, but hiding his familial connection to Jennifer Brown is debatably even more important in keeping him alive.

Additionally, Yorick in the beginning is most concerned with trying to track down his girlfriend, whom he was separated from just before the plague struck. He still holds a lingering attachment to her in early episodes. However, it is pretty obvious he is starting to develop feelings for Agent 355, and I suspect one of the conflicts he's going to have to wrestle with as the series continues is his feelings for the woman he was in love with before, and the woman he is growing more attached to as she protects him through their treacherous journey.

~*~

Obviously, it's not an exact parallel. There are significant differences, for sure. But I realized recently as I was watching the show that it was starting to fill that same gap for me that Braime does/did. So i thought I would share that with you all, if you are looking for something new in that same broad vein.

(Also, just generally, I think the show is well written and well-done. Not perfect, but solid B+ work most of the time. And it has occasional glimmers of greatness that I think could be expanded if the show is allowed to continue and really find its footing)

#Braime #jaime x brienne #y the last man #Yorick Brown #Agent 355 #Game of Thrones #Jaime Lannister #brienne of tarth

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spookypotato · 3 years

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Leo - Just Leo 2

Characters by @lumosinlove

Thank you to elisa my beta <3

And thank you everyone for being invested! I did not expect people to care that much, but I'm happy you did :))

part 1

TW: coming out, anxiety, stess

He started sobbing. This is ridiculous. Everything was alright. Nothing had gone wrong. He could cry if they rejected him. He could cry, if everything he feared for became reality. He should not do it now. He had no reason to.

Finn’s hand on his back and Logan’s on his knees, drawing small circles with his thumbs, grounded him a bit. He tried to focus on his breathing. Leo knew the process. He counted things in his head, took a few more deep breaths and the tears pretty much stopped again. He could feel a hand on his cheek.

Finn wiped away the wetness there and Leo had to actively hold back the new ones that were threatening to roll down. He inhaled deeply.

“There you go.”, came in Finns voice from next to him. “Are you alright, baby?”

Leo only nodded. He didn’t trust himself with words just yet. He should take a few minutes to calm himself down and then tell them. Bursting into tears in between his words wouldn’t be good for any of them.

Finn’s hand stopped on his back, feeling the muscles underneath it relax. He slowly got up and went to the kitchen.

“He’ll just get you some water. Can I do anything else for you, Nutty?”, Logan asked as he also got up to move next to Leo, his hand replacing Finns.

Leo shook his head. He could feel his throat getting less tight and letting more air through. Maybe even enough to start the conversation, the one he wanted to have for quite a while now.

He hadn’t practiced. He still had no clue what to say, but he had his boys next to him and his determination had returned.

Leo downed the glass Finn had brought him. It helped, he was positive, he would get out more than a sentence without crying again. He could do this.

“So”, he croaked out the same fucking opener he wanted to use less. Now was not the time to try to change his habits.

“So”, he tried again. Fuck it. “I have something I wanted to talk about with you.”

Both of his boys looked at him. He felt less nervous now that he had started and was still feeling their hands on his back and knees. He turned a bit to face them both more fully.

Just start in some way.

“I don’t want you to call me your boyfriend anymore.”

And damn. He could have said anything else and it would have been less stupid. He needed to fix this. Logan’s hand was no longer on his back and Finns had simply fallen to the ground next to his feet. He looked over to Logan, who’s eyes were beginning to become shiner than usual. He looked hurt.

Of course he looked hurt dumbass, you basically told them you want to break up with them. He hit himself mentally for his poor choice of words.

“Leo, do you not want to be in a relationship with us anymore?”, Finn asked softly, his bottom lip worried between his teeth.

Seeing both of them this distressed at once seemed to snap him out of his paralysis.

“No! No, no, no, no, no. I really, really don’t. I would never. You two are the best thing that ever happened to me. I love you so much I meant it differently. I’m sorry.”, Leo had forgotten to take a breath in between. He needed to correct his mistake. He needed them to know how much they meant to him.

Finn’s expression turned into a more relaxed one, which quickly became confused. “I love you, too. Why don’t you want to be called our boyfriend anymore though?”

Finn left the question open ended. He provided no potential answers. He didn’t try to guess what was going on, he just asked and Leo was grateful for it.

He started again. “If I’m going to say this, I need to say it all at once. So until I’m done with the main part, please don’t interrupt me, yeah? I don’t know where this bravery is coming from, but it’s bound to leave at some point. Can you do that?”

He looked at Finn, who nodded. They both looked over at their boyfriend. Logan was clearly still not over the fact that, Leo almost told them he wanted to end their relationship. A few tears had rolled down his cheeks and Leo moved his hand to wipe them away, tilting his head up so green eyes met blue.

“Can you listen to me, sweetheart?”

Another tear rolled down Logan’s face and Leo wiped that one away too. He saw the brunet nodding.

Okay, here goes ... everything, he thought to himself.

“I’d like you to use they/them pronouns for me, please.”, Leo saw things click behind Finns eyes, but they both knew Leo wasn’t done, so the boys listened as they continued. “I’ve thought about this for a good amount of time and I’m not completely sure how I feel, but I don’t feel like I’m a cis man. I know I’m trans. I figured that out, but I don’t know what label would fit me best yet. I do however know, I’m not a man and I’m not a woman. That’s why I’d like to try out they/them pronouns.”, their stare was fixed on the ground. Leo couldn’t bear to look their boys in the eye. They couldn’t bear a rejection. Curiosity got the better of them though, and dragged their blue eyes slowly off the ground and into brown and green ones.

Leo knew, their eyes must look stressed, nervous or even desperate, but they needed some kind of reaction.

“If I call you Leo, are you fine with that?”, Logan’s voice came from beside him. Not disgusted or distant, just as loving and considerate as it always was. Hope bloomed in Leo’s chest.

“Yes.”, they answered the question. “Leo is perfect. It’s gender-neutral and I like it. It makes me feel comfortable. Thank you for asking.”

This didn’t feel real. Neither Logan nor Finn had moved a muscle in an effort to get up or scream at them or push them away. They were both simply sitting on the couch next to them, listening.

Finn must have seen the distressed expression on Leo’s face and moved closer, his thigh touching the blonds. At least Leo now knew he couldn’t be that disgusted with them, that he couldn’t even bear to touch them. That wasn’t a lot, but it was a piece of hope Leo didn’t want to let go.

“Peanut, baby. We love you.”, Logan moved closer to them as well, putting his hand back on Leo’s back, “We love you for you. That will never change. I don’t care what your gender is, the thing I care about is that you are you. That you’re comfortable in your own skin and feel understood and accepted and loved. Unconditionally.”

Leo was so close to tears again and when one slipped down their cheek, they couldn’t help but let the rest stream down as well. They weren’t sad, but the pure relief they felt was enough to coat their cheeks with tears.

Logan and Finn knew. Both of them just moved closer and hugged Leo. It was grounding and it actually slowed the sobs down that had started escaping their lips again. Just as Finn pulled back and kissed them on the cheek, Logan whispered in his ear, “Sweetheart, we love you for you, not for your gender. Nothing can change that.”

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The following Monday, there was luckily no practice, so they all slept in. The doorbell was what woke them up at about 9 am.

Finn grumbled something an got up, kissing them both, Leo on the shoulder and Logan on his cheek, maybe whispering something, but Leo was still to sleepy to care.

What they did however care about, was Logan getting up as well, leaving them alone in their bed, cold and with no body heat to snuggle into.

After a few minutes of rolling around, trying to get comfortable again and failing, they reluctantly got up as well.

“Leo!”, he heard a shout from the main room.

Answered by Finn in an almost scolding tone. “Let them sleep, Logan. They had a few stressful days.”

It warmed Leo’s heart to hear them use their pronouns correctly, even after only a day.

Their boys were in the living room, grinning at them like they knew something Leo didn’t. They probably did.

Leo was almost in front of them as they pulled out, what had been behind their backs.

Light blue, pink and white was staring back at them. Logan and Finn had bought them a trans pride flag.

Both of them were beaming and Leo couldn’t help themselves from covering their faces in kisses. They really were loved.

“We can get another one, if you decide on a label, you like more, but we got you this. You also don’t have to keep it, we just thought you might like it.”, Finn told them.

“And it’s a part of you and as we in this household love all things Leo Knut related, we wanted to have a symbol for that. For you figuring out your feelings.”, Logan added. He got a bit quieter at the end, like he was questioning if they had done the wrong thing.

Leo’s eyes, their fucking eyes, just didn’t want to give them a break. Tears were starting to form again and they had no way of stopping them. Logan and Finn accepted them. Not only that, they embraced Leo’s gender identity. And they had shown them, just like Eloise and Wyatt had.

“Thank you.”, Leo got out through their tears, “I love you both so, so much.”

#lumosinlove #harry potter #sweater weather #leo knut #logan tremblay #finn o'hara #o'knutzy fluff #o'knutzy #written by meee #leo just leo #leo just leo 2 #coast to coast #trans character #trans!leo knut #accepting boys #pride #trans pride #tw coming out

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racebox-of-higgars · 3 years

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i would like your whole stock of trans race hcs

Okay this I can do!! - he/they Race my beloved<3

It's trans Racetrack Higgins headcanons with Ezra hours, more commonly known as Ezra projects onto this poor boy for too long!

I digress. Let's get into this!

-He realises sorta late, around 10-11, just as they hit puberty

-He's always known something wasn't right but they never had the words to express it

-Being that little bit older, they know that not everyone will accept him for who he is, so he stays closeted for a while

-When he's 11 he comes out to their parents. He's not looking to make any drastic changes yet, he doesn't even have the right words for what they are yet, but he asks to cut his hair and change their name.

-His parents aren't accepting. They're passive-aggressive about it, and tell them that it's probably a phase and to wait a couple of years.

-Because of this, Race tries to force himself to be/act cis. He suddenly becomes a lot more feminine in the way they act, and he does this for about three years until it all becomes too much.

-At the end of this three years, he cuts their hair himself. Naturally, this angers his parents, but they say that it's just a new fashion trend and they reluctantly let it slide

-After this period, he tries a lot of labels, not entirely sure where he fits, they just know that he isn't a girl. After a few months he realises he's a trans man and comes out to his friends, telling them his new name and that he uses he/him pronouns. He's 16 at the time.

-Of course, all his friends are incredibly accepting and immediately switch to their new name and pronouns. They all chip in to buy him a binder, and they cry because they've never felt so loved

-After their friends acceptance, Race decides to try to come out to his parents again, which goes even worse that the first time, and Race considers going back into the closet for a while, but chooses not to.

-They struggle with body dysphoria most, mainly focused on his chest, voice, and hips. On bad days his friends come over with blankets and chocolates and they all watch his comfort movies together. It doesn't really help much, but it's better than nothing, and having them all there means he doesn't have to be alone with his thoughts

-Race is angry at the world for not being accepting, especially their family, and he feels hopeless because he can't seem to do anything about it. He ends up in a pretty dark place, and things get really tough for a long time, but he manages to push through it.

-After coming out and switching pronouns, he still feels like something is missing. He does some more research into different labels, and finds demiboy, and realises that that's what he's been looking for and that's what they are, and they change their pronouns to he/they, to which his friends are all very accepting. He still has a side of himself that is feminine/androgynous, and he realises he doesn't quite fit "man", and that demiboy describes who he is better

-He moves out at 18, as soon as he possibly can, and from there starts to transition as soon as possible, and they've never been happier than he was after doing that

-He doesn't talk to his parents after they move out. A few times they've tried to get in contact with him, but it's usually about how they don't support his transition, so he blocks them

-They don't want anyone else to feel the way he did growing up, so he creates an activism group online, and raises money to provide free trans essentials (i.e binders, breast pads, packers etc) to trans youth all over the world, and does his best to educate people about trans issues. While there are of course people that refuse to listen, they do their best. They also try to fund as many other people as possible to get them out of unaccepting homes or to fund surgeries or hrt. He starts this when they're 20, it starts gaining attention when they're 22

-He starts hrt at 21 with the help of the other newsies, and gets top surgery at 27. He documents it all online to show others the effects as well as to try to show that it doesn't have to be scary to anyone who might be afraid of the changes. They also document it to educate about lesser-known changes

-After hrt and top surgery he feels a lot more comfortable in himself and expression and he's able to start embracing his feminine side more, which he does in an effort to show that trans guys can still be feminine.

-Overall he just doesn't want other people to feel the same way he did and he aims to educate and help others to make sure that no one else has to go through that

I hope these are good, have a good day!

#me: *slaps roof of race* this bad boy can fit so much fucking projection #ezra projecting onto race for 806 words #this got very long i'm sorry i could ramble about him for hours #trans racetrack higgins #newsies #newsies headcanons #racetrack higgins headcanons #racetrack higgins #ezra answers asks #he/they race my beloved #please send me asks for headcanons i love doing these #or come scream at me in the dms thats also good #thanks #have a good day

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bottlecaprabbitgames · 3 years

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So like when ya gonna tell us more about these ROs 👀

I suppose I can give you heathens the RO informations. I suppose. (I’ll also be including their race/ethnicities as if they lived in our world! Just remember that the game world will not reflect this in a way that necessarily makes sense, though the continents for this world are very similar to ours!)

RO #1: Callian/Calliope/Calysan “Cal” Jackson

Race: Indonesian/black

Gender: Cis man/trans woman/genderqueer (tends to lean masc but not always outside of pronouns being he/him)

Age: Two years older than MC.

Physical Features: 6′2 with a lankier build with chub around their hips. Skin is a medium brown with warm undertones and tons of freckles. Eyes are honey brown with heavy lids. Hair is 3A curls that’s dark brown with faded red dye, and each one keeps it a little differently: Callian keeps it short with faded sides (think a mop of curls with faded sides basically lol); Calliope keeps it pulled back in a low ponytail, and Calysan tends to have it in two big braids.

Personality: Cal is a very cheery person for the most part. They tend to be a little protective of MC, but also very supportive. They’ve been MC’s rock for a long time because of their overall bubbly attitude about things. However... they do not do flirting well. Like, at all. They short circuit and, well... You’ll see.

RO #2: Astra Corvid

Race: mixed Greek/Italian

Gender: Cis woman

Age: Appears to be in her late thirties-early forties

Physical Features: 5′7, with an average build, though has muscular arms and legs. Her skin is tan and olive, with a lot of moles. Her eyes are emerald green and almond shape, though the right one has a bad scar along its inner corner that makes it a little lazy. Her hair is very straight and appears to be dirty blonde that’s a little longer than her shoulders; she usually wears it up in a tight sock bun when working.

Personality:Astra is a natural leader, and is someone who easily takes charge of situations. She’s very confident in her abilities and her people, even if many of them call her a “hardass”. However, she cares greatly for her troops and those she leads, as well as anyone close to her. Outside of work, she tends to be very laid back and much more open.

RO #3: Zederec “Zed” Dupont

Race: Unknown

Gender: Cis man

Age: Early thirties

Physical Features: 5′10, well-built; he’s not necessarily broad, but he’s a lot more agile than he appears. His skin is tanned darker than it actually is, though his non-sunkissed skin is more of a darker sandy color. He has hazel-blue eyes, though sometimes they shift to an almost amber color, and tends to have a seductive look about them. His hair is auburn and wavy and parted on the right; he tends to keep just above his shoulders, and very much takes the time to make it look both stylish and natural.

Personality:Zed is a flirty, charismatic man who has no trouble talking his way both in and out of things... usually. He does seem to attract trouble easily, even though he’s supposed to be a talented infiltrator. His trust is hard-won, but if you manage it... you’ll find out there’s so much more to Zed than what’s on his surface.

RO #4: Seth

Race: Egyptian

Gender: Cis man

Age: Appears to be mid to late thirties.

Physical Features: Seth is 6′2 with a muscular build. He has very darkly tan skin, though burn marks alter it and its tone in many places. His eyes are whisky brown. His hair is crow black and kept a little past his shoulders; it has loose curls, and usually keeps the left side braided away from his face.

Personality:Seth is... well... Seth. If someone he highly respects or cares for is even slightly insulted, he goes immediately in a full-on aggressor mode as he is fiercely loyal. He’s also very much an asshole a lot of the time; or treading the water of being one. It takes a LOT to get to who he actually is under his armor, but, a lot would find the effort very much worth it...

RO #5: Azeri Ren

Race: Latina/white

Gender: Prefers she/her, is probably demigirl or genderqueer though doesn’t like categorizing such things.

Age: Looks to be in her late twenties.

Physical Features: She is 5′2 and averagely built. Her skin is a very light tan. Her eyes are chocolate brown, though they turn pale grey when using her powers; they are round and soft. She has loosely curly black hair that seems to be greying early that goes to her waist; it’s usually kept loose or in a loose braid.

Personality: She is... rather strange. She’s rather kind and soft-spoken and quiet at first, though she gets into moods of high idealism and talks about her hopes to keep humanity safe from the [REDACTED]. She is a hard person to get to know, and even harder one to get to know personally, but... what all will you find if you uncover her secrets kept close to her heart?

And, as a little bonus, a little treat... I’ll tell y’all about the world and the MC but only a tiny bit.

So the continent/empire of Iterra takes place on what would be Africa! And... MC is from what would be the northern points of South Africa, and is currently living in the most southern point of South Africa :-)

#the iterrian tribulations #ro ask #asks #character description

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ssummerscyclops · 3 years

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“YOU HAVE A DREAM ; I HAVE A PLAN.”

BASICS

POWERS / ABILITIES

+ scott’s mutation allows him to shoot red rays of force out of his eyes, made from the cosmic rays that his body is continually absorbing and metabolizing. he can control the trajectory of these rays to varying degrees of success. + he is immune to the powers of his younger brother, havok + scott is an expert level pilot, like his father christopher, and an expert level hand to hand combatant.

TRAITS

+ selfless, intelligent, resilient

- overly cautious, control issues, emotionally closed off

THE PAST

in a very literal sense, scott summers is born before his father’s plane ever begins crashing. there is a life lived, a happy little boy eager to grow up beside his younger brother, to see the world from above, parting clouds without effort--scott cannot remember that life, that little boy, but he’s there somewhere, forever just beyond the tips of his fingers. for the man who would become the cyclops, would become the face of a struggle that had been fought for years before he was even born, the world began in fire, in pain. the world began the moment scott summers opened his eyes, in an effort to save his own life, and saw red for the first time.

he did his best to keep alex safe after that--got them to a hospital without injuring anyone, refused to leave his younger brother’s side to get his eyes looked at, but it wasn’t enough. the younger summers would be the first and most bitter failure that scott would swallow down, would lock away. they were seperated due to the influence of a man who called himself by many names, but who scott would come to know primarily as mr. sinister--alex to a nice family who would protect him behind their white picket fence, and scott to the state home for foundlings where he could be subjected to any number of tests on sinister’s whim in an effort to unlock the full extent of his power, his potential usefulness.

scott endured physical and psychological abuse from mr. sinister throughout his early teenage years, as the older man continued to test and experiment with his power. it wasn’t until an uncontrolled blast erupted from scott’s eyes, hitting a crane and sending its payload swinging towards a crowd of people, that scott managed an escape from the orphanage by fleeing. he was once again alone, only this time his eyes would not, and could not save him. they could only hurt, they could only continue to paint the world in shades of red.

it was charles xavier that saved him--wrapped his hands around scott’s wrists and gently moved them from where they pressed into the sockets, brought him home and gave him the first prototype of the visor, the thing that would allow him to see, to breathe again without the searing pain in the back of his skull. it was charles xavier that gave scott summers something to continue living for, something to hit with the pain and anger that burned red inside of him. under the professor’s guidance he became the cyclops--he became so much more than the boy who fell to the earth that day could have ever hoped to be.

he was barely a man, still twisting his limbs in an effort to rid them of growing pains, but the professor trusted him with the team, trusted him with the dream they had come to share--if xavier was the head, scott summers, the cyclops, was the red right hand. it was as close as he had ever come to being happy, it was as close as he had ever come to being able to forget everything that had come before--he had a goal, he was finally making up for not being able to save alex, to save himself when it mattered. he didn’t need to be liked, he didn’t need to be loved, he just needed to be good at what he was doing--he just needed to control his life for once.

but like most things scott had come to love, had come to cling to, the x-men had an expiration date. with no team to command, with magneto’s arm draped firmly around the professor’s shoulders, scott had nothing left, scott was exactly where he had started, alone with the earth around him razed and smoking. but he was older now--he was more now. he tried for six months, to live just as himself--but the cyclops did not allow himself to get knocked to the ground, the cyclops may stumble but he always got to his feet. so scott made his way to sokovia, made his way to what remained of his family, and he’ll be damned if he doesn’t see it through to whatever end it takes--because while red would always be the color of blood, of fire and chaos and destruction, it was also the color of rebirth.

THE PRESENT

scott retired, after the x-men dissolved--tried living just as scott summers instead of cyclops. he tried just teaching at the school, helping emma where he could--but he’d been a soldier ever since he was a teenager, and he knew in the back of his mind that peace, as someone once said somewhere, was never truly going to be an option. he was miserable, his eyes ached from behind his visor--he needed to be on the front lines, he needed to know that he was doing everything he could to keep the dream alive, even if charles had given up on it for his own version of peace. so he packed up, wrapped his visor carefully in familiar yellow and blue, and he headed for sokovia--for the only family and the only cause he’s ever known.

HEADCANONS

+ scott favors his visor, but even he knows it’s not exactly a fashion statement--he has a couple of pairs of sunglasses with ruby lenses in them that he wears if he goes out in public.

+ the only person he trusts completely is alex, but even then he finds himself wanting to give his younger brother a certain amount of distance--alex didn’t ask to walk in his shadow, and alex has his own issues to work through without getting caught up in what scott deals with.

+ scott is a secret history geek--he has a couple of podcasts that he listens to religiously, and his personal library is very thorough. his favorite movie is lawrence of arabia, and his ideal day is being left alone to watch all four hours of it by himself. it comes from being on his own a lot, with only books to keep him company.

+ scott, in reality, has a hard time controlling his eye beams thanks to some brain injuries sustained after falling out of the plane as a child--because of this, he’s prone to getting really painful migraines. not that he would ever tell anyone he was suffering.

+ scott is a very skilled pilot, but part of his reasoning for learning how to fly is that he is on some level scared of it--he’ll never forget the accident that changed his life. his stomach always drops for a half a second before he boards a plane.

PLEASE don’t hesitate to break down the door and throw your lovely characters at him <3

#srisingintro #how many times can u type eye beams before it gets weird: a novel #YOU IDIOTS WANT TO KNOW WHAT CYCLOPS WOULD DO? | ABOUT

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hi angels !! i’m cami and i realized that the name elliot is usually spelled with two ls after i wrote his bio and applied so we’re just never gonna talk abt that <3 but i’m very excited to be here & plot with u all, info abt eli under the cut !!

dev patel, cis man, he/him — whenever i see elliot bhagat meandering down agnes street the adults are talking by the strokes starts to play inside my head. maybe it is the vibe they give off. a cup of hot coffee with just a touch of oat milk, a soft smile in the early morning light, a brief case filed with meticulous notes and a perfectly fitted suit ; you know ? the roundabout is what keeps them interested in agnes. i heard they are a thirty two year old environmental lawyer. they look like the kind of person who always tips well.

BIOGRAPHY.

eliot grew up curious about the world around him. his parents immigrated to boston four years before he was born, and by the time he came along they were the proud owners of a successful restaurant. he spent his childhood questioning any customers he could about their lives, the regulars all knew him well. he wanted to know about people, what made them tick. each person’s story gave him a new idea for what he wanted to do with his life. while his parents expected a lot of him, the burden was lessened by being the youngest of three. he could have any dream he wanted so long as it was practical and lucrative.

by the time he reached middle school the many dreams had solidified under one central tenet, he wanted to make the world a better place. he was the kind of kid who watched the discovery channel and then came to school the next day ready to tell everyone about the latest environmental issue. his passions were wide and strong.

by the time he reached high school it was clear that he was more than a little bit of a hopeless romantic. with each relationship he found himself in he swore he had found his soulmate, burning mix cds and pouring his heart out in journal entries. while he was falling in and out of love over and over again he settled on what he wanted to do with his life, becoming a senator was his goal. a real way to bring change to the world.

his dream led him to university and then to law school. he was always an excellent student, quick witted and well read. school had felt like a sort of dream to eliot, the ivy and stone beautiful enough for his romantic tendencies to thrive and the relief of being surrounded by like minded people was equally engaging.

he graduated top of his class and was quickly receiving offers from multiple prestigious law firms. he still knew what he wanted to do with his life, but a few years of work first seemed like an ok place to start. as time passed however, he found it particularly draining. he had always wanted to make the world a better place, but what he was doing was far from that.

then he fell in love. not that he hadn’t before, but this one gave him a certainty that it was going to last forever. so a year in he was picking out a ring ( an antique emerald surrounded by ethically mined diamonds ), and a year after that and a month before his wedding when he returned home from work to find a note on the table. she wasn’t ready, she couldn’t do it, their love simply wasn't strong enough.

that’s when he heard about an opening at a smaller environmental law firm in ilsesbury. sure, it wasn’t quite as high paying as his old job and he still wasn’t anywhere near running for office, but at least he’d be saving the planet. plus the thought of ever having to run into his ex made getting out of town an appealing option. so almost three months ago he packed up his things and moved to the city and taking the job and a small apartment with a view of the water, with a heart that’s just a little less open to love.

HEADCANONS.

eliot loves cooking and food. he doesn’t always have time to cook for himself as he’s very career oriented, however when he does he savours it. it reminds him of his childhood, growing up in the restaurant. also he was raised vegetarian and became vegan in university.

he’s an avid journaler and has been for most of his life. he has a pile of old journals on his book shelf.

has always wanted to be a dad, he’s always wanted to get married and settle down and have kids, but each year he gets older that dream feels further away.

tends to live below his actual means, is very frugal. his parents instilled that in him and his siblings growing up, and it’s a trait he very much still possess. he’ll splurge on things like clothes enough to make sure he’s well dressed ( especially for work ) and going out for dinner or coffee. he’s a big tipper, having been a waiter himself through all of high school and his first few university summers in his parents restaurant. but his apartment is tiny, and apart from plants the furnishing is pretty basic.

as sweet as he can be he can also be very very stubborn. once he makes up his mind about something it’s rare that he’ll change it.

volunteers a lot, is constantly looking for ways to help out around the community.

he has a mostly positive relationship with his parents and his siblings. while they did have high expectations for their children,they primarily just wanted them to be happy and were very loving, especially with eliot being the youngest.

he was terrified to come out to his parents as bisexual, which he did his senior year of high school. while they were a little bit confused at first they were on the whole loving and supportive of him.

he is left leaning politically with a strong emphasis on social and enviromental issues. while his own dream is on hold for the time being, he does make an effort to get involved, doing things such as canvassing for candidates he supports.

he’s a hopeless romantic and has always been the type to write love letters and buy flowers for no particular reason. this also has caused him to have his heart broken one too many times.

he speaks english and some gujarati, he also took latin in his undergrad but doesn’t remember much of it apart from legal terms and is taking spanish on duolingo

can very much be a workaholic, can be seen in a cafe on weekends working on a case and drinking a coffee

loves to read and has a book shelf over flowing with just about every genre, particularly inclined to romantic era authors and poets

he was raised hindu but isn’t practicing

( alcohol/drugs tw ) he doesn’t really tend to be a drinker or do drugs, he will enjoy a glass of wine with dinner or the occasional cocktail when he goes out for dinner but it’s rare that he’ll get drunk. the only drug he’ll ever really go for is weed, which he’ll smoke occasionally. probably did shrooms like once or twice when he was younger. honestly probably too concerned with the ethics of the drug industry to do much else.

enjoys hiking and being in nature quite a bit.

pretty good at chess actually,, not like really good but like isn’t awful in a casual match, same with scrabble.

#agnesfm.intro

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December 27, 2015 by Suzannah Weiss

I was young when I came to discover masturbation, and I had orgasms long before I knew what they were.

Nothing about it seemed complicated. I just rubbed “down there” for a few minutes, and it happened. But later, magazines, comedy routines, and sitcoms taught me that my body – and vaginas in general – were mysterious and complex, often too complex for those without them to figure out.

Confirming what I’d been taught, orgasms weren’t as simple with partners as they were by myself. This is to be expected to some extent. There’s a learning curve when you’re getting to know someone new. But what confused me was that not everyone seemed eager to learn.

“Sorry,” I (unnecessarily) apologized to a partner for taking what I thought was too long.

“It’s okay. I know it’s harder for girls,” he said – and then stopped.

Compounding the lack of effort I encountered from some (though not all) partners, it became harder for me to orgasm when I started SSRI antidepressants. When I told my doctor, she said, “Oh, that’s hard for a lot of women anyway.”

I knew my body long and well enough to know being a woman wasn’t to blame, but others didn’t share my view that the problem was fixable. I grew hesitant to bring it up with partners out of fear that asking them to perform the supposedly impossible feat of getting a woman off was too demanding.

Orgasm doesn’t have to be the focus of sex, but if a woman wants one, she should have as much of a right to request it as anyone else does.

When people say that women’s bodies are more difficult – and these generalizations typically refer to cis women and are accompanied by rants about how complicated vaginas are – they teach cis women that an orgasm is too tall an order.

Trans women also have a slew of sexual stigmas attached to them, which Kai Cheng Thom describes here, though they’re beyond the scope of this article. In addition, though most research on orgasm inequity has studied cis women, trans and non-binary people with vaginas may relate to the frustrations of being taught their genitals are impossible to decode, too.

The view that cis women are hard to please maintains what sociologists call the orgasm gap, in which men have three orgasms for every one a woman enjoys, and 57% of women orgasm during all or most of their sexual encounters, but 95% say their partners do.

These statistics may appear to confirm the stereotype that women’s bodies are more complicated, but there are other forces at work.

As sociologist Lisa Wade points out, the orgasm gap is conditional. Lesbians report orgasming 74.7% of the time, only 10 percentage points lower than gay men. In addition, women take under four minutes on average to masturbate to orgasm.

If these statistics don’t convince you that there’s more to the orgasm gap than biology, here are twelve cultural factors that contribute to it.

1. People Believe Women Are Less Sexual

Women, the story goes, aren’t that into sex.

They may enjoy it, but they do it partially in exchange for validation, commitment, or financial support, popular wisdom says. As long as a woman is getting one of those things, she doesn’t need much out of the sex itself.

To the contrary, a lot of research and lived experiences indicate that women are as capable of wanting and enjoying sex as men.

Until we acknowledge this, we won’t prioritize making sex as enjoyable as possible for women because we’ll believe sexual pleasure isn’t as important to them.

It may not be because women themselves may buy into myths about their gender, neglecting their desires because they’re not supposed to have them. If they do, they and their partners miss out on balanced sexual interactions, not to mention fun.

2. Pornography Privileges Male Pleasure

Most people who have watched porn videos know they typically culminate with a “money shot” in which the man comes, and then the scene ends. Most woman-focused orgasms depicted in porn are merely incidental events on the path to a man’s pleasure.

Additionally, most mainstream porn scenes feel incomplete without blow jobs, while cunnilingus is less common.

All in all, the message is clear: It’s imperative that a man gets off, and if a woman manages to in the process, props to him, but it’s just an added bonus.

3. The Myth of ‘Blue Balls’ Persists

Blue balls, according to Urban Dictionary, is “the excrutiating [sic] pain a man receives when his balls swell to the size of coconuts because of lack of sex, unfinished bjs, and just not cummin when he knows he should.”

The entitlement reflected in this description is characteristic of most uses of the term “blue balls.” While vasocongestion, the accumulation of blood flow to the genitals, can occasionally cause mild pain in people with any genitals, this is not what men are usually referring to when they complain about blue balls. And whether they’re experiencing this or just sexual frustration, it’s never anyone else’s duty to relieve it.

Even though most women know no medical condition results from an erection that doesn’t lead to an orgasm, many of us feel guilty for not providing one. So, in addition to some men’s lack of effort to pleasure women, the pressure many women feel to pleasure men maintains the orgasm gap.

4. There’s More Information in the Media About Pleasing Cis Men Than Women

As a teenager, my secret guilty pleasure was buying copies of Cosmo from the drugstore and hiding them under my pillow to read at night.

I read all their sex articles just because I found anything sex-related titillating, but along the way, I learned all about different tricks to please men – and cis men, specifically. By the time I encountered a real-life penis, I already knew all the basic tricks in the book, plus some out-there ones my dude friends urged me not to try.

I don’t know what most teenage boys’ secret reading material was, but there aren’t many mainstream men’s magazines as obsessed with pleasing women as women’s are with pleasing men. If anything, I’ve heard it’s common for boys to sneak glimpses of Playboy, which is also geared toward pleasing men.

Maybe this explains why 25% of men and 30% of women can’t locate the clitoris on a diagram.

Amid all the advice we read about different ways to hold and touch a penis, many remain in the dark about vulvas and vaginas.

5. Hookup Culture Privileges Male Pleasure

“I will do everything in my power to, like whoever I’m with, to get [him] off,” one woman said in a study by Elizabeth Armstrong on college hookups. But when it came to their own pleasure, women held different expectations.

“The guy kind of expects to get off, while the girl doesn’t expect anything,” a woman in another study by Lisa Wade said.

Accordingly, one man in Armstrong’s study boasted, “I’m all about making her orgasm,” but when asked to clarify the word “her,” he added, “Girlfriend her. In a hookup her, I don’t give a shit.” Perhaps he sensed that women don’t expect much from their hookups.

Statistics about women’s orgasms reflect these attitudes.

The ratio of men’s and women’s orgasms is 3.1:1 for first-time hookups, but only 1.25:1 for relationships.

For whatever reason, hookup culture appears to have embraced the message espoused by the media that women’s orgasms are optional, while men’s are obligatory.

6. Sex Education Doesn’t Teach Us About Pleasure, Especially Female Pleasure

Like many schools in the US, mine only had a couple of days a year dedicated to sex education in middle and high school. During the initial classes on puberty, the portion about women was on periods and the portion about men was on erections, ejaculation, and wet dreams.

Already, our bodies were associated with making babies, while boys’ were associated with sexual arousal and pleasure.

Later on, we learned how to use a condom – along with how to complete a very normative sequence of events. You put it on, we were told, and then you have intercourse, and then someone ejaculates, and then you pull out and take it off. Men’s orgasms, but not women’s, were built into our safer sex lesson.

Nobody said “then you stop whenever you feel like it” or “your partner may need you to pull out” (because, contrary to what we see in porn, not every woman is multi-orgasmic and many have a refractory period, so we can’t all comfortably keep going until our partner wants to stop).

This is one sneaky way we learn to prioritize men’s pleasure without ever really learning about pleasure at all.

7. Self-Evaluative Thoughts Can Disrupt Women’s Arousal Process

Due to the emphasis on women’s appearances in mainstream porn and throughout the media, women learn to picture themselves during sex.

“How does my stomach look from this angle,” “Does my face look sexy or silly in this expression,” and “Would it be sexier if I made more noise?” are a few thoughts that have distracted me in the bedroom.

And I don’t think I’m alone: 32% of women say that when they don’t orgasm, it’s often because they’re stuck in their heads or focused on their looks.

Orgasm itself can become a source of performance anxiety.

Because the women’s orgasms are dramatized in porn and the media, with exaggerated moans and calculated facial expressions, some women feel so much pressure that fear of not coming keeps them from coming. This pressure can also lead women to fake orgasms instead of sticking it out for a real one.

Once again, women’s magazines don’t help.

Cosmo even provides a guide on “how to look even hotter naked.” Though “even” implies the reader looks hot already, the pre-bedroom workout routine and self-tanner application tips make it clear we don’t look as hot as we could – and even if we do, the focus is still on our partner’s pleasure, not what we see or feel.

Thoughts about partners’ perceptions place women outside their bodies, looking in, rather than inside them, feeling the sensations the sexual activity is causing. It’s hard to have an orgasm when you’re not even thinking sexual thoughts.

8. Sexual Trauma Can Impede Arousal and Orgasm

It’s extremely common for women to experience sexual trauma within their lifetimes. One out of six women has been the victim of attempted or completed rape.

According to sex therapist Vanessa Marin, this trauma can have lasting effects on one’s sex life.

“Sexual assault can rob your enjoyment of sex and can make any type of intimacy feel scary,” she said. “Some survivors experience feelings of disconnect or dissociation when they’re having sex. Others can easily get triggered by being touched in certain places or in specific ways.”

Marin recommends that survivors seek out therapy or a support group so they don’t have to deal with the effects of their pasts alone.

In the short-term, Marin has written that reminding yourself you’re with your partner, not the person who assaulted you, can quell trauma-related sexual problems. “Of course your brain knows that it’s [them], but this exercise can help the more subconscious parts of your psyche start to relax,” she writes.

Other emotions women disproportionately experience around sex, such as guilt and shame, may also lead to anorgasmia.

9. More Women Than Men Are on Antidepressants

SSRI antidepressants, like Prozac and Zoloft, can cause anorgasmia. This side effect isn’t gender-specific, but antidepressants themselves are.

Between 2001 and 2010, 25% of American women (but only 15% of men) had been prescribed medication for mental health conditions.

This may occur because women are more likely to suffer from anxiety and depression, both frequently treated with SSRIs, the medication class most commonly known to cause anorgasmia. There are many theories as to why, but one possible source of this difference is societal misogyny.

As Ally Boghun writes of her anxiety, “A lot of the stressors that impact me the most are actually stressors put upon women by society to look and act in certain ways.” In addition, women are more likely to seek therapy, since toxic standards of masculinity deter men from discussing their emotions.

This is one case where the orgasm gap may be related to biological differences, but the sources of these differences are still societal.

10. Women Are Discouraged from Asking for What They Want

Women are taught to accommodate others’ wishes and put their own on the back burner, to be pleasant and polite and grateful and not ask for more, whether that’s food, payment, or sexual pleasure.

To bring back Armstrong’s research, one woman said she didn’t have the “right” to request an orgasm and “felt kind of guilty almost, like I felt like I was kind of subjecting [guys] to something they didn’t want to do and I felt bad about it.”

I can relate: I’ve said “sorry” many times for requesting or giving myself the stimulation I wanted, for taking what I thought was too much time, and for receiving pleasure without immediately returning it.

The same fear that keeps women from voicing their opinions in work meetings or negotiating salaries also keeps us from speaking up in bed.

But until we can “lean in” without bumping into hostility, women can’t singlehandedly solve this problem in any domain. It’s also up to our partners, coworkers, and others to make it clear they want to hear and accommodate our wishes.

11. The Normative Definition of Sex Isn’t Optimal for Many Women’s Orgasms

When someone says “sex,” most people think of penis-in-vagina intercourse, even though it means many different things to different people.

For example, some couples may see oral sex as sex. Some may also put oral or manual sex on the same level as penetrative sex, but this is still not the norm.

When someone talks about losing their virginity, for instance, we usually assume they’re talking about the first time they had penis-in-vagina intercourse.

This assumption can be problematic for women who get off more easily through other activities.

In one survey, 20% of women said they seldom or never had orgasms during intercourse. Only 25% said they consistently do. In another, 38% said that when they don’t orgasm, a common obstacle is “not enough clitoral stimulation.”

Since penetrative sex often doesn’t directly stimulate the clitoris, this could explain why other types of sex – or clitoral stimulation during intercourse, which women considered the most common way they got off with a partner – may be more optimal.

When we consider the activities that often help women reach orgasm as warmup or extra, we deprioritize women’s pleasure.

12. People Think the Orgasm Gap Is Biological

Orgasm inequity is a self-fulfilling prophecy.

When men believe women’s bodies are an impossible puzzle, they don’t try to solve it. Neither do women who are taught their own pleasure is inaccessible.

That’s why it’s important we acknowledge all the societal factors that contribute to this discrepancy. Genetics can’t be fixed, but a lot of these problems can, which means that closing the orgasm gap is possible.

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If you’re a woman having trouble orgasming, it’s likely not you. It may not be the result of any carelessness on your partner’s part either. You may just need to talk about it, challenge the myths you’ve learned about sexuality, and, if necessary, seek help for any psychological or medical conditions that could be contributing to the problem.

Or maybe it’s not a problem at all. Maybe orgasming isn’t important to you, and that’s your choice as well. But if it is something you would like, you have the same right to ask for it as your partner. If he expects orgasms from you, he shouldn’t mind you wanting one.

It’s not too much to ask, and your anatomy isn’t too complicated. The only thing that’s complicated is the toxic set of messages we’re taught about sexuality. But that’s not on you or your body.

#sex cw

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( samara weaving , cis woman , she/her ) i thought i saw shadows that looked like luna kolzer . they say they've been here for 5 years but i'm not sure . our priest claims they're really a 29 (appears) year old / ageless demon ( bartender ) but how could that be ? they've been called organized , flirtatious but dishonest so i would be weary of them . thoughts conjure up of freshly manicured nails , blood dripping on the hardwood floor , crimson red lipstick which explains why i've seen them with the ring the vessel’s mother gave her when she was still human .

** triggers: mentions of murder / death

hiiiiiii <3 i’m amanda (20, she/her) - i never know what to put in my little intros?? but basically, a rundown on myself is that i’m an introvert who loves horror (but also gets scared easily?) & true crime. i also love my 4 pets + cheesecake ♡

♡ ﹕ BASICS,

full name. luna estelle rosetta-mae kolzer

nicknames. none

age. appears 29 years old

gender, pronouns. cis woman, she/her

sexuality. doesn’t label

residence. augustus avenue

♡ ﹕ BACKSTORY INFORMATION,

› luna was once a kind young lady - charming and full of life. she used to bring fresh batches of cookies to the church every sundays before she attending the service

› luna was once a loving young lady who store the heart of a loving young man named donavon (or donnie, as she called him) - figuratively, of course. the couple became official 4 months into their relationship & 2 months before high school graduation. they were planning a life together and were as happy as can be

› luna was a lot of things before being inhabited by a demon; but now she’s nothing but a vessel - simply the face for someone else

› she stole donnie’s heart - literally this time. why? because he wouldn’t stop with that god damn chewing! chew, chew, chew, pop! and also because she wanted her arrival to be known - although she ended up just hiding his body & came up with the story that he ran away to be with another woman, leaving nothing but a goodbye letter behind

› luna is not a nice demon woman. she lures people with promises of liquor and lust; she leaves a trail of broken hearts behind her. she loves starting fights with men who think she owes them something & don’t even get her started about the men who expect something from her. and when she feels a little frisky, she leaves a trail of blood behind her

› despite having little-to-no emotions, luna can’t help but feel a connection to the ring her vessel’s mother gave her - 5 years and still without a reason as to exactly why but she simply cannot shake the feeling of love and protection associated with the ring - luna is always seen with it around her left pinky finger

› she makes no effort to seem like the human she inhabited & even goes to great lengths to ensure people know the difference; now, 5 years later, people most definitely have. luna lives in a house on her own, she much prefers her own presence over the company of others (but don’t take that too personally .. she doesn’t like most people)

♡ ﹕ OTHER IMPORTANT INFORMATION,

› the demon has only inhabited her body for 5 years but luna, the actual human being, grew up in ambrose so she’s technically been there her entire life

› the consumption process started waaaaaaay back when luna was 19 - her bff was like “lmao demons aren’t real” and luna basically went “ok watch this” and summoned one but the demon didn’t leave once they were finished; it stayed and slowly started consuming luna

› & despite it taking about decade to fully consume, it seemed like an overnight change from the outside. one day, she’s her normal sweet self & the day after, she’s spitting sarcasm and making sly comments. her laugh changed, the way she smiles changed, the tone of her voice even lowered a bit. she was just .. an entirely different person and no one ever quite understood why

› oh, she was a preschool teacher when she was human but then she was like “ew...... kids” and decided to change jobs also so she can have an easier time finding people to flirt and sleep with

♡ ﹕ CONNECTION IDEAS,

people she knew before becoming a demon

one night stands

frequent visitors of the bar she tends at

enemies, frenemies

exes (ex-lovers, ex-friends, etc)

bffs from hell???

#sorry this is so long <3 #also i'm sorry if there's any mistakes - it's 3:30am and i'm too tired to proofread DFJKSGH #goryintro

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mcthmanscousin · 4 years

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❛ ✶ ( BOOBOO STEWART , CIS MALE , HE/HIM ) — did you see JOEL SAITO walking around campus earlier ? i hear a lot of people talking about the TWENTY ONE year oldSOPHOMORE . from what i know , they are studying UNDECLARED and are a part of DELTA PSI BETA . they come across as + GENIAL but also - AIMLESS , which makes sense because on their instagram ( @MOTHMANSCOUSIN ) it says they are an AQUARIUS . when i see them , i think of BLOWN OUT SPEAKERS THUMPING TAME IMPALA THROUGH A MARIJUANA-CLOUDED TOYOTA SIENNA, THE KISS OF SALT ON YOUR LIPS AND THE GRIT OF SAND BETWEEN YOUR TEETH AFTER WIPING OUT ON A PARTICULARLY ROUGH WAVE, & SPEAKING OF CRYPTIDS AS IF THEY WERE CHILDHOOD FRIENDS AND RECOUNTING CONSPIRACY THEORIES LIKE OLD BEDTIME STORIES. the most interesting thing i’ve heard about them though , is the fact that [REDACTED] , but don’t tell anyone i told you that .

howdy everyone, i’m kayla and i 100% chose the above gif bc it looks like booboo’s sarcastically saying “joel” and we love synchronicity in this house! anyway, it’s been over a year since i’ve been in a rp group, so i’m by all accounts rusty, BUT i’m good for plots and wiener dog pics, soooo ¯\_(ツ)_/¯. anyway, feel free to slide into my ims or like this post and i’ll hit up your ims and we can plot there or move the party to discord. whatever makes you most comfy :) and without further ado, lemme introduce this lil meme of a man:

BACKSTORY:

Born in Oahu, Hawaii as the second child of a marine biologist named Jiro and a spa owner named Cynthia. Siblings are his brother Callum (23) and sister Jocelyn (20).

From a young age, his father instilled an interest for marine life in he and his siblings by taking them to tide pools and teaching them about the creatures that resided there. As the children aged, the boys found themselves venturing deeper into the water, taking up surfing lessons.

What started as a fun hobby that the brothers could bond over turned into a full blown sibling rivalry, one that Joel never seemed to have the upper hand on.

By all accounts, Joel was a talented surfer but never talented enough to place in any competitions. He’d laugh it off or offer a convincing “I’ll beat your ass next time” to his brother but years of taunting and poking and prodding at his inadequacy wore on him. Eventually he just stopped trying to be good at anything?

Easily distracted and disinterested in anything he wasn’t close to obsessed with, school never came easy to him. So, he just kinda stopped trying as much over the years, barely skating by with Cs. He and his friends would skip class, smoke weed, spray paint dicks on the cars of people they didn’t like, and just continually dare each other to do stupid shit.

Somewhere in the middle of all of this, Joel found something he was good at: entertaining. He had an impeccable ability to make his friends laugh by being a loose cannon who was down for absolutely anything. And admittedly, he liked the validation, so he just never said no no matter how ridiculous or illegal the suggestion was. He still carries this habit to this day. Peer pressure? A lifelong friend of Joel’s.

Life goes by fast when you’re not prepared for literally anything, and before Joel knew it, he’d graduated high school and had to make college plans. So, he applied to the out-of-state college one of his cousins was attending: Beaumont.

And he’s been a menace to the campus ever since. :)

QUICK STATS:

Full Name: Joel Darwin Saito

Birthday: February 1, 1999

Sun, moon, & rising sign: Aquarius sun, Leo moon, Sagittarius rising

MBTI: ENFP

Enneagram: 7w6

Moral Alignment: chaotic neutral

Sexual & Romantic Orientation: bisexual/biromantic

Languages Spoken: English, some Japanese and Hawaiian Pidgin

TRIVIA:

He once broke his right leg and sprained his left ankle jumping off of his friend’s roof trying to land in the pool. His ankle still makes a weird clicking noise to this day.

Once tried to follow what he thought was a UFO he saw after drinking some shroom tea and got lost in a forest and was lost for like 3 hours until someone who was walking a trail found him lying on the ground, thinking he was homeless or dead.

The first seed of his love of mythology/lore/conspiracy/cryptids was actually planted when he watched “The Little Mermaid” with his younger sister. He had a lil crush on Ariel as a kid, going as far as to plan a life as a pirate in search of finding her and the two of them falling in love and spreading knowledge of ocean conservation efforts. His sister still teases him about it to this day.

Actually learned how to give really good massages from working part time at his mother’s spa the summer before he went away to college.

Wears a lot of Hawaiian shirts for the irony and will chastise someone for criticizing “the garb of my people” if someone has something to say about it.

Has a beta fish named Alpha and a Red Ear Slider Turtle named Madame Chickpea Stevens who he nicknamed Chicky.

CONNECTIONS:

Cousin: Admittedly, Joel’s parents have little faith in his ability to not get into trouble over dumb shit while being so far away. So, they probably asked his cousin to keep an eye out for him. Whether they enable him or prove to be a good influence? Your call.

Bros: Could be his frat brothers, could be friends in another frat or sorority. Regardless, these are his close knit friends who he hits up at 3a.m. to go get Burger King with him when he can’t sleep, do face masks after getting obscenely high together, or get into shenanigans they’ll regret the next day.

Ex(es): Could’ve ended because they decided they were better off as friends, could’ve ended because Joel can’t take anything seriously to save his life and your muse got tired of it, or could’ve ended for another reason entirely.

Hookups/Friend with Benefits: Self explanatory. He has needs.

Good influence: A friend who tries to have him take life seriously for 2 seconds and maybe consider his future because they’re concerned for him.

Tutor: Someone to help him cram before a test because he actually has to be there and take those.

Customers: Does your muse smoke weed and need a dealer? Well, here he is.

#bu.intro #drugs tw #i think that's everything that needs to be tagged?#if not plz let me know <3

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trans-advice · 4 years

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Hey, for the past 5 or so years I have privately identified as nonbinary or not conforming to any gender, and even recently requested that my boss and coworkers use they/them pronouns. About a month ago I stumbled across a "gender critical" blog and started reading it. I know it's a bad idea to engage with trolls, especially when it will impact your sense of self, but I felt restless that my existence was being debated and wanted to hear the other side. Now I am feeling confused (1 o 2 asks)

I’m feeling confused and gross, wondering if all this time I have been actually working against my own feminist beliefs, or if I’m just being naive and getting indoctrinated. Like,I worry about me being a female who simply didn’t subscribe to gender stereotypes, tricking myself into thinking I"wasn’t like the other girls". I have also been wondering about what it means to identify into an oppressed group, and why we can’t talk about it without being dismissed as a dumb TERF. (1 o 2 asks) Thx

— Eve: CW: long post, possibly rambley, could’ve used better editing, transphobia, “gender critical”, recuperation, discussion of “terf” politics, recuperation of liberation movements, politics, oppression, rape culture, anti-fascist, anti-capitalist,

So basically I have tried for almost 4 weeks to write a response detailing this stuff. however it’s gotten too unwieldy. i tried to condense it, but this was as close as i got. it’s practically like 3 drafts back to back. I couldn’t figure out the differences & when i saw similarities it seemed significantly different enough. so I’m not editing any further. here’s a mindvomit. i wish i had this more polished but I can’t do that & i didn’t get a response.

however I’m going to make a history book recommendation, a referral to gendercensus2020, and i need to emphasize that these are much more like personal beliefs & not generally the tone of this blog which aims to give advice & positivity, while this is inherently political, the good bad & ugly. and there are trans people of various persuasions so I don’t want alienate them. i dissecting some ideologies that are transphobic, how they became that, how they got recuperated, and how you can find the same concerns being addressed. I’m answering this because it totally makes sense to me that this is asked in good faith & I want to respect your concerns & show that there are better methods of liberation activism that are trans affirmative, or at least must become & develop into such.

So I’m going to recommend the book “Transgender History (Second Edition)” by Susan Stryker, which I have put on our blog’s google drive account, so hence a link. It goes into the historic common ground between the feminists & LGBT+ peoples. It also gets into historic movements. And on top of that, the first chapter is literally a list of terminology deconstructing gender, which is also helpful for analyzing topics feminism analyzes..

https://drive.google.com/open?id=1IvCwNvCJ_EiDmOer4zS8SbFGz4m-WDJ1

another thing you need to know regarding the label lesbian back in the day is that it was a catchall for any woman who didn’t have sex with men. now granted, this was a cisnormative understanding, but basically lesbians included celibate women, asexual women, and of course bisexual women in addition to gay women.

basically the normal advice of wait til you have your own money to have sex, wait til your mid 20s, don’t rely on a man to pay your bills etc, all of this comes from political lesbianism, which was like be celibate or else have sex that doesn’t involve sperm. (granted, communities cannot be monoliths if they want to be ecosystems, like any movement label there are different interpretations made by members of it, and therefore there are some strands that uphold a homonormative appreciation for conversion therapy. perhaps a middle ground for understanding how that happened is that joke about macho sexuality purity “if a man masturbates with his hand, he’s using a man’s hand to get off, then it’s gay.” granted, there was of course a political/economic reason to this, but still, it seems in terms of history that this joke was considered actually legitimate.)

“lesbian” was a catchall for women who didn’t have sex with men. this included ace, celibate & gynephiliac women. part of the reason these communities were conflated again had to do with the economic pressures to get married which I’ll detail a few paragraphs from now. (while this next thought could be incorrect because I did just learn about ‘compulsory heterosexuality" a month ago, I think the vestiges of those economic pressures are basically the gist of “comphet”.) the goal of political lesbian as well as lesbian separatism was to build an economy/get money that didn’t require submission to patriarchy, via marriage, pregnancy etc. so basically in an effort to build like support networks, “men” were shunned as much as possible.

however these networks ended up replicating capitalism, (partly due to oppression against communes & other anti-capitalist activities) which then replicated the oppressions of capitalism. it makes sense that transphobia had formed of assimilation/respectability politics for such feminists. To quote from the criticism section of the Wikipedia article on the women’s liberation movement.

> The philosophy practised by liberationists assumed a global sisterhood of support working to eliminate inequality without acknowledging that women were not united; other factors, such as age, class, ethnicity, and opportunity (or lack thereof) created spheres wherein women’s interests diverged, and some women felt underrepresented by the WLM.[208] While many women gained an awareness of how sexism permeated their lives, they did not become radicalized and were uninterested in overthrowing society. They made changes in their lives to address their individual needs and social arrangements, but were unwilling to take action on issues that might threaten their socio-economic status.[209] Liberationist theory also failed to recognize a fundamental difference in fighting oppression. Combating sexism had an internal component, whereby one could change the basic power structures within family units and personal spheres to eliminate the inequality. Class struggle and the fight against racism are solely external challenges, requiring public action to eradicate inequality.[210] >

birth control helped to liberate women & that accommodation/handicap for reproductive health disabilities (disability is merely inability to do something that’s Normative. so if having a uterus, pregnancy/menstruation/having breasts etc aren’t considered normal, which is especially common in a patriarchal society for these examples, then it’s disability.) It should be said that due to the desire for bodily autonomy to regulate our own body parts, as well as a desire to manage our fertility & sterilization, the transgender movement has a lot in common with feminism’s female-as-disability movement.)

it should also be noted that before the medical transitioning became accessible that us trans people relied a lot more on social transitioning than medical transitioning. it should also be mentioned that the medical procedures are available & used by cisgender people too.

that being said, since both cis females & transgender women were denied birth control etc, there was a very intense fear of impregnation happening & trans women going back in the closet not only to get money under patriarchy but also because life raising a kid is hard. like if you’ve ever seen “the stepford wives” & look at how the ally husband betrays his feminist wife, then that should clue us into how a lack of birth control scared us.

the problem with the school of feminism that emphasizes physiological sex over gender identity (in order to deny the existence of trans people with female-organs or not) is that it doesn’t account for birth control & how that’s affected the landscape, the economy etc, the revolutionary impact of birth control basically. it also ignores that trans people & cis women feminists have the same goals when it comes to getting freedoms about reproductive rights & bodily autonomy. therefore it ends up being transphobic & wanting to run back into the times when we didn’t have abortion access because they want to hurt us.

That being said though, we need to have birth control & more in order to help liberate trans people too, so if somewhere doesn’t have birth control, then we’re not doing well either because it’d pay a lot more to be transphobic (which of course it doesn’t now when we have birth control & various medical & other technologies). i think what I’m trying to say is that similar to disability accomodations clashing with each other, if we of the women’s liberation, the trans liberation, and the gay & lesbian liberation, and the bisexual & ace liberation get stranded then we’re all doomed. granted we might be doing that due to defensiveness with hostility similar to how in the 1980s feminism got very conservative in USA & how some transgender people get spared in systems with strict gender conformity & anticolonialist values, it’d be wrong to say that all our liberations are in conflict with each other. they can be mishandled, but ultimately, safety still tends to favor cisheteropatriarchal people. internalized patriarchal thinking is like internalized queerphobia, and so forth.

I want to emphasize that it is relatively easy for transgender people especially nonbinary people to find gender critical discourse somewhat appealing. Here’s why: TERFs & Gender Critical discourse is agender-normative disability discourse regarding reproductive health & other AFAB organs. (a disability is being unable to do things that society considers normative. so if you can’t drive & your locale de facto requires it, then that’s a disability. also in usa you’ll find that pregnancy & disability are the main things welfare programs prioritize. a pregnancy can be harmful, but can be easier with the right monitoring etc. which again is the same with disability.)

the problem though is that they then insist on misgendering you as one of the binary genders based on objectification of your body (specifically, “morphology”). point being, because you feel dysphoric over being misgendered as something nonbinary as being mislabeled as cisgender, this implies that you are indeed transgender.

https://gendercensus.com/post/612238605773111296/the-gender-census-2020-is-now-open

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Now to be clear, there are historical economic considerations that made the decisions to specialize on the intersectionality of cisgender AFABs, but the economy & technology has changed. Basically marriage back in the day was economically necessary because there was effectively no birth control available. Therefore, to get child support etc, required getting the father to pay the consequences. However, marriage was very much a chattel property institution, marital rape was still legal, and women couldn’t get credit etc in our own names.

At the same time, similar to birth control being unavailable, hormones & other procedures for medically transitioning trans people were unavailable as well, which meant social transitioning & wardrobe etc were the main methods of affirming our gender. however, we sometimes got lucky & had a doctor write us a note affirming our gender & sometimes we got even luckier & govts accepted this. this however required getting labelled sick & begging doctors to give us treatment & getting money for this since insurance companies etc still discriminated against transgender people even when we agreed to have our gender identity situation labelled as sick & medically necessary. (similarly insurance companies still refuse to cover abortions & so do some doctors & hospitals.)

So this meant that AFABs were concerned about getting hijacked via impregnation. Because of the patriarchal economics of the whole thing, people were afraid of “the stepford wives” repeating itself in their own lives, where the mind can only handle what the ass can stand would mean trans women would go back into the closet.

Granted, that’s a bit misrepresentative of trans women & trans people because trans people & cis women who can get pregnant do have a lot more in common. we take the same meds, go to the same clinics, menopause etc gets taken due to distress over how our bodies work, etc. then again, how would trans AMAB people have gotten the money for child support?

historically & still to this day we basically had to beg doctors for the ability to get hormones to get a surgery to get a gender marker change & so on, which granted, what we trans people had available to us varied from locale to locale because it required collaborations of trans people, doctors, and the local govts & especially their police stations. again, before roe v wade abortion providers were super underground & secretive & there were specialized units at police stations for hunting down patients & providers under the charge of “murder”. it’s the same dynamics.

seriously trans people & people with bodies that can get pregnant, menstruate, menopause, etc, we go to the same clinics! women’s health clinics take trans patients, planned parenthood takes trans patients, do i need to go any further on how trans people & feminists have the same interests regarding reproductive health?

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as for political lesbianism:

basically the normal advice of wait til you have your own money before having sex, wait til your mid 20s, don’t rely on a man to pay your bills etc, all of this comes from political lesbianism, which was like be celibate or else have sex that doesn’t involve sperm. (i’m not sure what the conditions were like surrounding not piv sex among the straights, and therefore what the likelihood of avoiding piv sex was. I do know that rape culture was much more heavily normalized than it is now.)

“Lesbian” was a catchall for women who didn’t have sex with men. this included: - ace, - celibate - bisexual - gay women. Part of the reason these communities were conflated again had to do with the economic pressures to get married, (while this next statement could be incorrect because i did just learn about ‘compulsory heterosexuality" a month ago, i think the vestiges of those economic pressures such as weddings are basically the gist of “comphet”.)

The goal of Political Lesbianism as well as Lesbian Separatism was to build an economy that didn’t require submission to patriarchy, such as that of marriage, pregnancy etc. In efforts to build like support networks, “men” were shunned as much as possible.

However these networks, (partly due to lacking radicalization) ended up replicating capitalism, (partly due to oppression against communes & other anti-capitalist activities) which then replicated the oppressions of capitalism. It makes sense that transphobia had formed of assimilation/respectability politics for such feminists. To quote from the criticism section of the Wikipedia article on the women’s liberation movement.

> “The philosophy practised by liberationists assumed a global sisterhood of support working to eliminate inequality without acknowledging that women were not united; other factors, such as age, class, ethnicity, and opportunity (or lack thereof) created spheres wherein women’s interests diverged, and some women felt underrepresented by the WLM.[208] While many women gained an awareness of how sexism permeated their lives, they did not become radicalized and were uninterested in overthrowing society. They made changes in their lives to address their individual needs and social arrangements, but were unwilling to take action on issues that might threaten their socio-economic status.[209] Liberationist theory also failed to recognize a fundamental difference in fighting oppression. Combating sexism had an internal component, whereby one could change the basic power structures within family units and personal spheres to eliminate the inequality. Class struggle and the fight against racism are solely external challenges, requiring public action to eradicate inequality.[210]”

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gcldveins · 4 years

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HELLOOOOOO everyone !!!!!!!! i just wanna say .. thank you SO MUCH for joining misty hollow with jin and i , you have no idea how happy it made us to see so many people interested and join and like .. just clearly so in love w their own muses so like i just wanna say i love u all with my whole freaking heart !!!! ok enough w the sappy stuff let me introduce to u all literally the worst muse i have ever created .. malcolm o’sullivan. but he goes by sully bc he was ur og e-boy who goes “ oh ? my favourite band ? you wouldn’t have heard of it .. they’re called the rolling stones uwu ” and i rlly do hate him for that... it’s okay tho i punish him accordingly :~)

overview

✎⌠paul rudd. cismale. he/him⌡❝ — well, look who’s just arrived ! if it isn’t the one and only malcolm o'sullivan. though, around here they’re known as the harlequin. don’t tell ‘em i said this but the forty-seven year old owner of o'sullivan’s books kinda has a reputation of being stubborn and irresponsible. but y’know, they can be creative and analytical too. typical aquarius. anyways, welcome home and stay safe sully ! ❞

statistics

full name: malcolm eamon o’sullivan

nickname(s): sully, anything else and he twitches ..

date of birth: february 2nd, 1973

hometown: misty hollow, connecticut.

gender identity: cis gender

preferred pronouns: he/him

sexual orientation: bisexual

hogwarts house: ravenclaw

aesthetic: an old leather jacket thrown over a wrinkled t-shirt, dog-eared pages, the smell of alcohol and cigarettes, untied laces, the soft rumbling of a motorcycle engine, messy handwriting, calloused fingertips

distinguishable characteristics: is looking homeless a distinguishable characteristic..

pinterest board: here.

their song from the sigh no more album bc i love this album and it makes me Sad™ : little lion man

background ( murder tw )

— born in the town of dingle, a small port town in ireland, malcolm and his family immigrated to america when he was ten years old. they moved into misty hollow after his father opened up his own bookshop and the o’sullivan’s have been there ever since.

— always having been a rebellious child, malcolm ( slowly gaining the nickname sully in school ) seemed to have a knack for doing anything that pissed his father off. his greatest act ? moving out as soon as he graduated without so much as a goodbye.

— malcolm was only a wee lad when the misty hollow murders were happening. his older brother, his only brother, was unfortunately one of the victims, being eight at the time. he’s not too torn up about it, he was only two years old. but his father reminded him everyday growing up, how much smarter and accomplished and just overall better his brother was than him.

— the only thing that sully was grateful for about his father was the love for books he had ingrained into him. growing up, he developed a knack for writing and he ended up going to the university of pennsylvania for journalism. after that, sully moved out to new york where he worked as a journalist for the new york times and wrote articles on political updates and reports.

— he met his wife in new york and they had three children together, two girls and one boy. sully was living the classic american dream. until, of course, it was all ruined in a single camping trip.

— it was just sully and the three kids, except the trip was cut short and he had to come home with two kids instead of three. sully’s youngest, nancy, was taken at the campgrounds and evidence of her murder was found in a nearby cabin.

— this tore sully’s family apart. the tragedy forced him towards a downwards spiral, an endless cycle of destructive habits. it got to the point where his wife decided to divorce him and to take the kids with her.

— sully eventually, reluctantly, made the decision to return to misty hollow. there, he stayed with his parents for a bit until he got a job at o’sullivan’s books and was able to take a couple months to get back on his feet.

— his parents initially pushed him towards trying to work at the mystic herald but sully hasn’t written a single sentence since his daughter died. now, his father has essentially left him to run the bookshop for him, which sully doesn’t mind. it’s quiet work that doesn’t require too much effort.

personality

— to sum it up in one sentence .. sully has essentially has regressed into a man-child in the more recent years of his life, but the inferiority complex is a tried and true constant.

— he hasn’t really properly dealt with his daughter’s death ( even though it’s been over a decade.. ), just lives in a constant cycle of whenever he does try to think about it, he feels like shit and just thinks about all the things he could’ve done differently so he stops immediately.

— sully always wanted to be a dad, to prove that he could be a better one than his own father. so he feels like he really failed in that retrospect. he’s like a human pity party. though he does that classic thing where he glosses over his sad feelings with destructive behaviour and inappropriate humour.

— very self-indulgent, does whatever he wants, whenever he wants. as long as it makes him feel better, even just for a moment, he’ll do it. doesn’t take anything very seriously, just kinda jokes around all the time. is one of those people that just give off.. kinda pathetic vibes you know? like you look at him and you’re like ?? what are you doing with your life dude ?? and he’s like idk

— but, on the bright side, this makes him pretty easy-going and down-to-earth. definitely a roll-with-the-punches and no bullshit type of guy, isn’t discouraged by much and doesn’t care a whole lot about what others think of him. it’s easy for him to engage in conversation and be all charismatic when he feels like it.

— despite all .. of that, sully actually comes across as a relatively okay guy. he can be friendly and crack a few jokes while he’s at it, he’s one of those people that, as long as thinks you’re chill, treats you like you guys have been friends forever. but he can be pretty crude / vulgar at times, sooo how others react to that is kind of a gamble !

wanted connections

his one true bro <3 just someone that’ll be a complete idiot with him and they are definitely a bad influence on each other. this person probably hangs around the bookshop alot and they just spend all day with each other doing and saying stupid shit. like you know that gif set of seth rogen and joseph gordon-levitt where one’s like “ i’d fuck you ” and the other goes “ thanks :3 ” that’s it.. those are the vibes..

drinking buddies ! these two just get really drunk off their ass together and probably don’t even know each other that well despite of like.. several years of sort of friendship. one night they’re probably five drinks in and sully goes “ when i was married — ” and they’re just like “ wayment .. what the fuck . ” and ! maybe if your muse has something to get emo about ! maybe they can get drunk AND emo together <3

casual relationships ? he could have one or two of these ! sully.. does not date. tried being in a serious relationship once after his divorce and it ended... terribly. like imagine asking your adult boyfriend if he wants to move in together and his response is essentially just “ ... yeah i’m ok thanks tho. ” and you never hear from him again ndijgnk

that being said... if anyone wants that plot alluded to above .... let me know......

for the younger muses out there ! anyone that he’s kind of ? taken under his wing. pseudo-children essentially. i can’t promise that he’ll be a good influence.. he’s probably not even aware that he’s done this lmao but deep down, sully’s still a dad. he’ll probably be protective over the youngins but shows it in the form of tough love, y’know ? probably tells your muse to stop being a shithead all the time, cute stuff like that.

and some more casual connection ideas that we can further flesh out through some plotting / brainstorming:

old friends from misty hollow

regular customers

co-workers

an unrequited crush ( either on sully’s end or your muse’s )

a good influence on him .. please... i’m begging you

someone that can nerd out over books with him !

friends !!! everyone needs friends and lucky for sully, he’s pretty good at making them !! in a pushy and annoying way..

enemies / frenemies pls ... these are always so much fun

anything and everything else !! if we can’t figure out a plot between sully and your muse, we can always just do it old school and throw them at each other in a random thread and see what happens !!

#misty.intro #this is a whole ass novel im sorry nfidjmfsdl

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smallvxlle · 4 years

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CHARACTER SHEET repost. do not reblog.

𝐛𝐚𝐬𝐢𝐜𝐬 !

FULL NAME. clark joseph kent / kal-el NICKNAME / ALIAS. boy scout, the red-blue blur, the blur, superman GENDER. cis man HEIGHT. 6′5″ AGE. verse dependent ; by smallville canon he is 32 as of 2019 ZODIAC. that’s adorable. LANGUAGES. fluent ; english & kryptonian ( after being taught by jor-el’s AI ) conversational ; others

Afficher davantage

𝐩𝐡𝐲𝐬𝐢𝐜𝐚𝐥 𝐜𝐡𝐚𝐫𝐚𝐜𝐭𝐞𝐫𝐢𝐬𝐭𝐢𝐜𝐬 !

HAIR COLOR. black EYE COLOR. blue SKIN TONE. a pinkish, ruddy fair. he looks very healthy, but he never keeps a tan very well due to his cells’ metabolizing UV Rays rather than being damaged by it. BODY TYPE. built like a barn. this boy is BROAD ACCENT. he’s pretty flat american due to slightly different development of his hard palate in his mouth. he doesn’t hold the nasal twang that is more typical in kansas VOICE. that’s a man, maury DOMINANT HAND. right for writing, but his fine motor skills are through the roof for both hands POSTURE. as far as smallville canon goes, the clark kent persona looks stiff and kind of like he has a stick up his butt; this is in contrast to the comics clark kent persona whose posture is horrific and he slouches in a way to make himself look on the brink of overweight. as superman, he’s calm and collected and looks like a perfect statue. as clark the person, his posture is easy and he holds his frame really well. he’s fluid and calm, and that calmness demands attention. SCARS. timeline dependent ; he has the mark of el burned into his chest for some time TATTOOS. none BIRTHMARKS. none MOST NOTICEABLE FEATURE(S). his broad frame & bright eyes ( verse dependent with his spit curl )

𝐜𝐡𝐢𝐥𝐝𝐡𝐨𝐨𝐝 !

PLACE OF BIRTH. krypton HOMETOWN. smallville, kansas BIRTH WEIGHT. i wish i knew kryptonian units of measurement but... baby-sized? BIRTH HEIGHT. see above. he was baby-shaped MANNER OF BIRTH. wow guys i do not know what a kryptonian birth looks like, the WB never told me FIRST WORDS. pa SIBLINGS. none ; verse dependent he and kara have a sibling-like relationship PARENTS. born to jor and lara-el ; adopted and raised by martha and jonathan kent. PARENTAL INVOLVEMENT. hilariously involved

𝐚𝐝𝐮𝐥𝐭 𝐥𝐢𝐟𝐞 !

OCCUPATION. investigative journalist , published author , vigilante CURRENT RESIDENCE. his mailing address is in metropolis but he really spends most off time in smallville on the family farm he now owns. CLOSE FRIENDS. chloe sullivan , oliver queen , lois lane , tess mercer RELATIONSHIP STATUS. verse dependent but if he had a tattoo it would say “property of lois lane :)” FINANCIAL STATUS. he gets by. as his reputation as a journalist and then as a prize-winning author rises, any real financial struggles go away. on the farming front, he puts in just enough effort to bring a minimal profit to the farm to avoid any suspicion, but it’s not a commercial farm at this point. the main source of income comes from writing. DRIVER’S LICENSE. yes CRIMINAL RECORD. not as clark kent ; he’s been a fugitive a couple of times as a vigilante VICES. tunnel-vision

𝐬𝐞𝐱 & 𝐫𝐨𝐦𝐚𝐧𝐜𝐞 !

SEXUAL ORIENTATION. timeline dependent ; he’s a little fluid with his sexuality, but clark is also a person who does not do a lot of exploring. he wanted to be done with “finding someone” when he was pretty young. he picks one person and he pines. hard. strictly speaking, he’s pansexual with a preference leaning toward typically-feminine presentation ROMANTIC ORIENTATION. hug-oriented PREFERRED EMOTIONAL ROLE. submissive | dominant | switch < -- I’m not really sure what this means but just hug Clark PREFERRED SEXUAL ROLE. submissive | dominant | switch. < --- see above LIBIDO. not something that really figures into my writing since i’m SFW TURN ONS. ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ TURN OFFS. kryptonite LOVE LANGUAGE. words of affirmation!!! RELATIONSHIP TENDENCIES. monogamous AF. clark was born already dressed in a sweater made of boyfriend/husband material.

𝐦𝐢𝐬𝐜𝐞𝐥𝐥𝐚𝐧𝐞𝐨𝐮𝐬 !

CHARACTER’S THEME SONG. sun by sleeping at last HOBBIES TO PASS TIME. that’s really hilarious. clark hasn’t had freetime since before the recession. MENTAL ILLNESSES. nothing that affects quality of life ; clark has fairly healthy doses of acute stresses which provide opportunities for healthy coping mechanisms. the chronic stresses he has do not cause the same hormonal shifts in his brain chemistry due to his alien physiology. basically, he was built to handle stresses really well. as long as his emotional health is where it needs to be, he handles mental stresses really, really well. PHYSICAL ILLNESSES. none LEFT OR RIGHT BRAINED. right-brained. very emotionally driven! heart definitely leads first, but his logical side is NO slouch! he is a natural-born leader and that charisma also comes with the confidence of competency. PHOBIAS. being truly alone ; failure SELF CONFIDENCE LEVEL. fairly high. he has a sense of loneliness which keeps his confidence in check so that it does not often become arrogance, but his abilities make him not unlike a god. clark worked hard to gain the confidence he needed to effectively become superman. VULNERABILITIES. anyone he cares about, which is why his secret identity is so preciously protected.

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