#long ass fic im sorry

[choccy-milky]

oh boy anon, you’ve activated my trap card. GET READY FOR A SEBASTIAN CHARACTER ANALYSIS ESSAY BELOW LMAO

ok so first off I know im obvs biased, but I don’t actually think my seb is that ooc, AND PUT DOWN YOUR PITCHFORKS IMMA EXPLAIN WHY. but im also gonna explain why I don’t think the other more friendly and lighthearted renditions of seb are ooc either. bc theres so many aspects of seb we get in the game that can be interpreted in so many diff ways, and so this is how i see it/landed on MY rendition of seb:

PROTECTIVENESS/POSSESSIVENESS: this is one of the main aspects of him, imo. his entire questline is about wanting to cure anne, and how he’s not giving up, and how he believes that HE is the only one that can do it, because “she’s MY sister!” seb is super tunnel visioned and has a one-track mind when it comes to this, and I headcanon that he’s this way because of their parents deaths. he’s the brother, the boy, he’s gotta be strong for his sister, and ofc when their parents died, he tries to comfort her and be there for her/be the rock, and it happens again when she’s sick. shes his sister, his responsibility, and he’ll die before he gives up on her and her safety.

SO, I just transfer all those aspects over to a romantic relationship instead. you just replace “shes my sister” with simply, “she’s mine/my gf/my wife/etc.” and in the same way I think seb tries to be strong and reliable and protect anne because he’s the brother, I think seb would be the same way in a relationship, because he’s a boy and she’s a girl and its 1890 and he’s chivalrous and he just sees it as his responsibility. I think the death of his parents and his dynamic with anne has baked this sort of mindset into him, and its even MORE intense in a romantic aspect, because then hormones and puberty and sexual tension and attraction is involved (plus the fact that seb in my fic is 17, so he’s older and has even stronger raging hormones and testosterone LOL.

JEALOUSY: who can forget the lines “between the two of you, I’m starting to feel left out” and “ominis simply needs a moment with you and he’ll change his mind. is that it?” the first one is more playful but I feel like the second one really showcases sebs brand of jealousy, and how biting and uncharitable it can be.

AGGRESSION/VIOLENCE: yet another iconic line with: “fine. but ominis knows, I won’t step back from a fight.” LIKE... the fact that apparently ominis knows this means its come up more than once…and im not saying seb is some unruly aggressor who flies off the handle at anything, but he defs has a capacity and is willing to get violent if HE believes the situation calls for it—basically the same way he feels about the dark arts. he felt justified using imperio to protect anne, and taking the relic to save anne, and so he would have fought ominis to get out of the catacomb. and with MY seb, while he doesn’t go picking fights with any boy who looks or gets close to clora, he’ll definitely be willing to beat up or lay hands on a creep who bothers clora/who is in the process of bothering her LOL.

SO YEAH, that’s pretty much it, and I’ll be the first to admit I definitely ramp up these traits further because he’s older in my fic and i think these traits would only get more intensified with age + being in love and also bc IM A TWILIGHT GIRLIE!!! what can I say. there are so many moments in my fic where you can just replace seb with edward and it wouldn’t seem out of place tbh LMAOO so blame twilight, it was a formative experience for me BAHAHA

BUT like I ALSO said, I don’t think peoples more lighthearted interpretations of seb are ooc either. because even all my earlier above examples, you can just focus on diff aspects of them. like his tunnel vision and obsession to cure anne? instead of seeing it as over the top protective and possessive, you can just view it in a more wholesome determined selfless sort of way. like I said we got so many nice little bits and ingredients of his personality that we can turn into anything we want, really👌just pick which flavour of seb u like best and use what we got in game to create it HAHA

AW TYY QUEEN BAHAHA💖 and aw im always so honoured when ppl tell me they consider my stuff canon that’s like the best compliment I can get, tysm 😭 and im glad you like my fic and art so much (enough for your friends and family to unfortunately know💀 LMAOO)

im adding your ask to this because it kinda ties into my seb essay. LETS GET INTO WHY A SWEET BABY ANGEL WOULD LIKE SOMEONE LIKE SEB. the answer ISSS: the same reason WE’RE also all into him I guess?? BAHHA

ok but to start off im gonna defend my seb, not only cause of what you said anon (i dont want you to feel like this is targeted to you!) but also bc I got an ask recently asking me to summarize seb and clora’s relationship since all they see from my art is that “they fuck and seb is possessive” LMAO, and I feel like ppl who JUST see my art and don’t read my fic have a warped image of my seb.

this may be shocking but I don’t consider my seb a red flag LMAO. I joke about how hes more of a pink flag tbh, but even THAT i dont even really believe, and don’t even consider him overly possessive. like yes he keeps an eye on her when shes hanging around other boys, but I feel like that’s normal (esp for 1890) and all of his most possessive moments have been when theres been a threat to cloras life/coming from a place of love and protection (especially since clora is so self-sacrificial, she’d have killed herself by now if not for seb LOL) so to me id actually put Sebastian as being PROTECTIVE as his first and foremost trait, followed by the possessiveness.

and yeah he gets jealous, but unless a dude is actively trying to get with her/hitting on her/harassing her, he’ll otherwise just kinda be unhappy about it/let it play out/ watch on unhappily LOL. and even when lawley was blackmailing clora and getting in between her and sebs relationship and lying about how close he and clora were, seb demanded answers from CLORA on what was happening between the two of them, but he didn’t touch lawley or tell him to stay away. bc seb thought that was what clora wanted, so he let her drift away. if he was TRULY a red flag, in this instance he would have just beat up lawley for taking what was "his"/not allow clora to leave him/immediately go to lawley instead of clora, and tell him to stay away despite what clora might want. (and clora even WISHED seb had interfered and done this. she was like 'why is he letting me drift away and go off with lawley i WANT him to fight for me...but she couldn't actually say anything thanks to the blackmail)

clora doesn’t just 'put up' with sebs more possessive and protective behaviour though, she actually likes it HAHA. just bc shes a precious baby angel, we all like a bad boy, even back then. just look at jane eyre, and how popular the dark and brooding and assholey mr. rochester was.

she tells seb at one point that she likes those things about him, even his immature competitive side, and his darker sides, and that he shouldn’t try to hide them or change himself because she accepts them. and even putting aside all of the stuff they’ve been through together that has bonded them (like the main canon quests + annes curse and then CLORA being cursed, and then clora being kidnapped and seb saving her) clora thought seb was roguish and charming and witty and intelligent and good looking from day 1. add to the fact that he’s just so devoted to her in everything he does, that even if he CAN get a bit overbearing at times, how could you NOT fall for someone like that😩 someone whose possessive behavior just stems from wanting to protect you and love you and want to keep you safe and cherish you like DAMN…. GET ME A SEB, TOO. WHERES MINE!!!😭😭

clora also realizes in ch 32 WHY seb is so protective of her (the trauma with his parents and wanting to be there for anne) and that she accepts it, and enjoys it, and that she might even MISS it if seb were to ever get less protective of her/might get lonely LOL, and then sebs like "i’ve "spoiled you, have i?"

so YEAH I don’t think sebs protectiveness and possessiveness goes into any toxic territory or red flag territory PERSONALLY (and the time that it DID get toxic was because of the relic, and clora DID put her foot down)

but my normal seb? whose dream in life is to whisk clora away into a tower and lock her up to keep her safe and keep her all to himself, but that he’d never ACTUALLY do because he knows its insane and unreasonable but jokes about wanting to do it anyway bc he would if clora agreed? clora finds that endearing and cute and is touched by how much he loves her and wants to keep her safe.

IN CLOSING: I LOVE THEM YOUR HONOUR AND THEY LOVE EACH OTHER👩‍❤️‍💋‍👨👩‍❤️‍💋‍👨👩‍❤️‍💋‍👨

#LONG ASS SEB ESSAY #this was so therapeutic to write i hope that people who dont read my fic now understand my seb a bit better #like i said i feel like he gets a bad wrap/people think hes super ooc from his canon just based on my art alone #sebastian sallow #i wanted to write this ever since that one ask where they were like what do they do other than bang and be jealous HAHAHA #ANON MY FIC IS 500K WORDS THEY DO A BUNCH OF OTHER STUFF TRUST ME #and even when seb is super possessive and protective im still usually on his side LMAOO #like just based on my art you defs might think seb is unreasonable but #for the ppl who actually read my fic they know clora is on like a self sacrifice speedrun LOOL #forget team edward and team jacob its team seb and team clora #and im usually a girl's girl but sorry clora im usually with seb and his logic when it comes to keeping u safe LMAOO #sebastian sallow x oc #ask

[lovesickeros]

can.. can I ask for an affectionate reader with characters who aren’t normally like… used to the love? like, not just through words but physical affection like hand-holding, kisses, hugs, all that shebang. probably with a few people like yelan, ei, basically any character that is either cut-off from society or seems socially distant or isolated. 😞

☆ affectionate reader with yelan, ei, & furina

[ 4.2 Archon Quest spoilers ]

× yelan

Varies between how you display your affection, to be honest. Just like being affectionate with people? She's cool with it as long as you don't pop by while she's working (mostly because she'll end up dragging you into it for a bit of fun). I don't think she's all that touchy feely herself, but she'll absolutely get you gifts instead– like pretty knick nacks? She'll make sure to snag any she thinks you might like. Like a good meal? Sure, she'll take you out to one of the restaurants in the city, doesn't matter how expensive. Her treat. If you do prefer physical gifts rather then being taken out, you'll eventually get used to the random unmarked letters and packages showing up where your staying pretty often. It's obvious to know who it came from even if she never signs anything.

Flirty reader, though? Whole nother can of worms and now it's a challenge. The more confident you are the more interested she is. The other acolytes would absolutely seethe at the idea but she has no hesitation at just straight up flirting back– she's as charismatic as they come and she's got a poker face that's basically impenetrable. She'll probably also make a bet to see who cracks first (she always wins, unsurprisingly). Probably won't get dragged into any of her schemes this way but if you ask politely maybe she'll consider it, anyway.

The smell of freshly brewed tea and the clatter of dice across wood was a common sight at the Yanshang Teahouse– less common was the woman secluded in the far corner, her lips pulled into a grin that flashed fangs and a look that would scare off the most confident of men.

She'd normally try to scope out any new blood that'd made the mistake of stepping into her teahouse and was equally stupid enough to accept a gamble against her just for the thrill of it, but she was far too absorbed in the warm body at her side, one of her die clasped tightly in their hand as she guided them through the motions– they had a knack for it, she had to admit. The thought made her preen, the clatter of the die as it rolled across the table giving her that subtle, familiar rush.

Even if she knew exactly where it'd land.

"Six. Hm, maybe you're just lucky," She muses, plucking the die from the table and holding it up to her eye like a prized jewel, "Or maybe you're not as innocent as you'd have us believe." There's a sharp glint in her eyes at the prospect, but everyone else has the sense to keep their heads down and their words to themselves as she tosses the die herself.

"So why don't we find out and make a bet, just between you and me?"

× ei

Varies between Ei and the Shogun, because you'll probably be seeing either as much as the other. Sometimes you gotta really squint to tell who it is sometimes, but you get used to it. Both are fairly similar, though, in that their first instinct (especially in public) is to tense up like you're about to attack them or something. Difference is Ei eventually relaxes after a solid minute of trying to process your sudden affection and, if no one else is around, she might even reciprocate. Just don't tease her for being a little stiff and awkward about it, she's trying. That's what happens when your only company is a robot and uh. Nothing. For like 500 years. She's trying. Raiden, on the other hand, is just about as awkward as you can imagine. She's polite (blunt) about it because Ei is fond of you and also you are. The Creator. But she's not really built to deal with personal relationships and so she doesn't know how to deal with affection.

..Depending on what you do you may or may not blue screen Ei hard enough that she retreats back to PoE

Ei usually isn't fond of sitting still, unless it's to meditate. At least then she goes in with a purpose, something to achieve– but now, she's just focused on trying not to make a fool of herself. Her muscles are starting to ache from how hard she's tensing, though, in an effort to sit as straight and still as possible as their hands glide through her hair, weaving it into a single braid.

She can just barely hear the subtle lilt of their voice as they hum– and though it is soothing, it is also..very distracting. She can't focus long enough to try and meditate, too lost in the gentle rise and fall of their voice and the care they take to braid her hair. If she'd had a heart, she'd sure it'd be beating so wildly against her ribcage they could hear it.

But then it stops– their hands fall back to their sides and their humming falters. She freezes, too, racking her brain for any slights she must have committed. Instead, she is met with a calm, tender touch on the back of her neck, making her inhale sharply.

"Am I making you uncomfortable, Ei? You're so tense.." She has to grit her teeth to stop herself from bowing so low her head presses against the ground, her hands folded in her lap, clenching instinctively. "..No, Divine One." She answers simply, trying to contain the adoration swelling in her chest.

Yet as much as she tries to relax, to ease their worries, she finds that she cannot.

"Hm." That small murmur, a simple sound that nearly made her jump, was the only warning she got before they scooted closer, wrapping their arms around her stomach and resting their chin on her shoulder with a grin she would liken to Miko's, if she dared to make such a comparison. "Really?"

She swears she must've been feverish at the affection, lightheaded and dazed until she thought she might simply perish at the brush of their hands against her own.

Much to her embarrassment, however, she doesn't realize she's instinctively pulled back into Plane of Euthymia until she sees the familiar dull purples engulf her vision once again.

Though only a small solace, it seemed a little..brighter, this time.

× furina

Varies between pre 4.2 and post 4.2 archon quests to be honest.

Pre 4.2 she comes off as very vain– of course the most Divine would see fit to spoil her with affection! She deserves it, and is obviously their favorite! Just don't look too hard because she's terrible at hiding how flustered she actually is. Absolutely goes home right after and screams into her pillow for at least thirty minutes minimum.

Post 4.2 she's a lot more openly bashful and flustered. She's really not used to affection and even the smallest show of it has her folding immediately. Now that she doesn't need to worry about being found out she's a lot more receptive to affection. Cup her cheeks and compliment her and her knees are buckling. Like. Especially weak for compliments and praise (she deserves it. please spoil her).

She swears she must be hallucinating– she had been having trouble sleeping recently. But..no. The visage of the Creator was as real as the sweat beading on her brow as she stared at them for a long, awkward moment. Should..she let them in? But then they'd see the pathetic state she was in, and the last thing she wanted to do was make a fool of herself in front of them-!

Her choice was quickly made for her, anyway, as she let out an undignified squeak of surprise when they suddenly tugged her forward into their chest, enclosing her in a hug.

Her first reaction was to freeze– her second was becoming absolutely flustered, her cheeks flushing a soft pink and her mouth closing and opening as she tried to find her words.

"I– ah..um." She stumbled over her words instead, floundering like a fish out of water. Yet she felt a distinct sense of emptiness wash over her when they finally pulled back, looking a touch sheepish. "Sorry, sorry– you just looked like you needed a hug."

The silence spoke for itself, her shoulders tensing slightly. But the way the concern and affection bled through their voice made her waver, her hands trembling as she let out a shaky breath that almost sounded like a sigh.

"It's..It's fine! Fine, I'm fine." She repeated, trying desperately to ignored the way her voice cracked and how hot her face felt– though it was more an attempt to affirm herself that she was not thinking about how warm they felt, how much she..actually enjoyed the hug. She wasn't thinking about it all! Absolutely not!

..Maybe a little.

"Just warn me next time, please?"

#asks #sagau #genshin sagau #self aware genshin #genshin impact sagau #self aware genshin impact #fic tag #genshin cult au #genshin impact cult au #yelan #furina #ei #THIS DIDNT SHOW UP IN MY INBOX UNTIL LIKE #NOVEMBERBIM SORRY IM ANSERRING IT SO LATE?????? #tumblr working right is a miracle that will never happen #anyway can u tell i have. biases. there r so many characters I wanted to write for this (shenhe.........) but I forced myself to limit it #to 4 for my own sanity and everyones elses #also didnt know if u wanted just yan or sagau so I went for my specialty 🧍‍♂️ #was gonna include my beloved cryo archon but decided against it #ei the pathetic lesbian that u r....mwah #I'm sorry this took so long it took me 50 yrs to figure out yelan.. 😭 #i am still not confident abt my characterization of her but shes so good at her job even im confused abt her #reading her lore crying and sobbing in the corner. shaking her like a can of soda #checks note idk uhh cocky doesnt let herself form personal relationships charismatic uhhhhhhhh #idk dont ask me i just started praying and hoping for the best here #i think she'd get a kick out of getting reader into like. fudging rolls and shit. create an absolute menace out of reader #set them loose and see what chaos happens #just kicks back and watches it all unfold internally laughing her ass off #i didnt know whether to just do headcanons in uh. bulleted list or like #full on drabbles

[frownyalfred]

me when one more person passive aggressively comments on ASOH:

#I KNOW A CERTAIN CHARACTER HASNT SHOWN UP YET #I KNOW #IM NOT STUPID #IM WRITING A PLOT #THERE ARE REASONS #PLEASE STOP TELLING ME THIS FIC WOULD BE BETTER WITH X #I KNOW OK #HOW ABOUT WE READ THE POLITE AUTHORS NOTE #AND STOP MAKING ME SAD #GOD FORBID ANYONE READ THESE LONG ASS CHAPTERS #AND YOUR ONLY COMMENT IS DEMANDING TO KNOW WHERE ANOTHER CHARACTER IS #HOW ABOUT WE JUST SAY NICE THINGS HUH #okay end rant sorry #writing #myfic #a sky of honey

[otrtbs]

any chances ppl would be allowed to bind ahb for personal use ??

hiya!!

at the moment, and for the foreseeable future i am saying no. just because there are copies of ahb! circulating around SEVERAL websites and vendors being sold for oodles and oodles of dollars. despite my requests for the sellers to stop.

i have had people (etsy vendors) in the past lie to me and say they've made "too many personal handbound copies and are only selling those extra ones" which ,,, was obviously a lie. also they were getting the copies through lulu and selling them just btw.

i have also had people tell me that they are binding them and selling them to others for personal use but not making profit off of them even though they're selling art heist for over $100 a book. so. yeah. another lie

so, sorry! but yeah!! there's not much i can do about people actually listening to me and respecting my wishes etc etc and lord knows they don't, but i would super appreciate it if we kept ahb! an ao3 exclusive for now!

it just makes me feel slightly better to put more rules and boundaries in place! though it's never stopped people in this fandom from bulldozing right through those anyway :/

#asks #art heist baby! #and sometimes i feel like the wrong people get the short end of the stick #bc the people who will listen to me wouldn't sell my fic on etsy anyway #but the one's selling my fic give less than 2 shits if i ask them not to bind it... #but idk. idk what to do about this anymore. honestly #im tired of filling out copyright requests and proof-of-ownership forms etc and going through customer service reps #just for ahb! to pop up somewhere else for sale the next day #like it takes HOURS. of my time to do that. and a lot of my limited energy. #so im truly at a loss w what to do #but anyway sorry you didn't ask for that long-ass rant !! i vented a bit for sure

[starsandwriting]

This is my gift for @denzartriste for the @mcythorrorgiftexchange !

I was so hyped when I got matched for bedrock bros And you said you liked Tma agsbdj. Hope you enjoy reading it! :D

#im SO SORRY this took so long college has been kicking my ass😭 #but i had fun writing it and also i finally wrote my first ever fic :D huzzah!! #mcythorrorgiftexchange #bedrock bros #myar #writing

[dishsaop]

does anyone have recommendations for fictional media that has like. actual lesbians in it. not like supergirl Two White Skinny Girls, One Blonde and One Brunette Kiss media, or "its implied lesbianism!!!" but just regular fucking lesbians

#i say lesbians but i guess i mean sapphic #im just like. tired of gnawing #and of men also. sorry men in my life i love you but on god if i have to pretend one more man is butch just to get #content that isnt m/m or m/f im going to turn into a horse and run into the wilderness until im saved from the glue factory by a plucky #young woman except instead of letting her have her formative summer where she trains me and bonds w me and wins a competition w me #im going to commit horse suicide in front of her & change her life forever. just because im so tired of bland CW-marketable women kissing & #digging for scraps in a refuse bin while brushing aside 7002993829292929939292929399394 gay and het romances #m text #i will also take nonfictional lesbians if its like a story #not to be whiny on main but one of the hardest hurdles i had to jump wasnt realizing i was a lesbian. i came out to myself and to friends a #lesbian multiple times. but i would always walk it back when a friend would express doubt or a male friend would ask me out #bc i dont and especially then didnt know very many lesbians in person. and so i had to turn to examples #and all i fucking had were fictional women who liked men. or fictional lesbians who were so cleaned and sanitized and prettified #(you all know what i mean right. the 2 skinny white girls one blonde one brunette. im not crazy right) #and i would be like. i dont feel things when i look at these fictional lesbians so i guess i belong back here #(this is also bc my gender ended up being fuckier than i realized but shhhhh) #I WAS GOING SOMEWHERE WITH THESE TAGS but theyre too long and im lost. #anyway the point is if people werent so fucking weird abt fictional or onscreen lesbians maybe thered be a lot more people comfortable bein #out as lesbian #like sorry but this awful ouroboros of 'all lesbians onscreen have to be cute and sanitized' meaning that people write and believe wlw has #to be cute and pure and sanitized (OR a 'badge of honor' bc good for u u doodled two women together or had it as a background in ur fic) #meaning that therefore all portrayals of lesbianism continue to be like this. is just #and im also gonna be honest theres probably a lot of good sapphic media im just in the wrong circles to have stumbled into lol. so #yknow. personal viewer bias here #but i still like swing wildly between overly brandishing my dykeness as a badge to feel like im proving im lesbian #and like. backing up under a blanket bc i dont wanna be weird or annoying or freak people out #but if people just Saw Normal Ass Lesbians. aough. #im going to watch revolutionary girl utena one of these days even if i struggled w the writing style the first few episodes #I JUST WANNA SEE AN OLD BUTCH ONSCREEN GET SOME PUSSY. #like it also doesnt help im mostly femme4butch so seeing 2 femmes on screen is like. okay cool so what. but only femmes are 'marketable'

[boxwinebaddie]

sooooo is peppermint ever updating like...lmao....

woah.

wooooooah.

okay, like maybe i'm being sensitive, but i do NOT fuck with this energy. do not come at me with this passive aggressive bs. thx! <3

jokes aside, i'm sorry for being unprofessional, but this message feels very meanspirited and not chill to me....please take several seats.

so, no one asked me to, which is fine, but since about april, i have written over 100k, which is about the length of two novels. i wrote very detailed plot journals, meticulously planned my fanfiction out, did extensive research, nearly destroyed my fingers formatting, spiraled mentally several times, cried several nights over peppermint, self isolated, frightened several people in my life, ate and slept so infrequently that i developed a bacterial infection, and nearly failed my finals trying to put peppermint out every single week without fail.

and i do it for me...but mostly...

i do it for all of you.

because i love and cherish you all very much. ( even you, ominous energy anon who is currently polluting my hot girl vibe palace. )

a lot of you have expressed to me that my fanfictions bring great joy, that you feel seen in them, that they positively influence your real lives, that you get excited about my updates and like my writing style, characterizations and storytelling. that gives me great purpose.

recently, the tags have been dry as hell, the sp fandom feels almost nonexistent, my faith and inspiration is fading, but i am doing my very best to hang in there because even though sometimes i get stuck, or my fingers hurt or i feel inadequate or uninspired, it is worth it to me...to make you happy. making you happy makes me happy.

but this...this is really not cute.

and i have had a lot of self doubt and struggles with writing and wondering what the hell i'm even doing and if it's worth it and stuff like this...this energy...really makes me want to irish goodbye! lol!

i do not know when my fanfictions are updating. i wrote old chapters 11 and 12 under a lot of stress, pressure, with no planning, just because i was anxious about keeping you all waiting and i have never felt worse or more embarrassed about something i've written.

so those chapters are gone. because i care about quality. and i cannot rush to produce quality or i will produce garbage which benefits no one. i care about you all too much to half ass my shit.

i don't like to write when i don't want to. and this....really does not make me want to, so thank you very much! feeling the love, bestie!

but to my friends and dear devoted readers who have been kind to me, patient and supportive of my journey as a writer/whatever twists and turns i may make, whether i stop or start, take off or take breaks. i love you very, very, much and i really do write for you. ily, ncu. <3

so when rm 4 drops ( if it does ) and new pep 12 ( if it does ), it will be for all of you kind, lovely, wonderful people and it would be my honor.

but as for you...my friend.

...clearly, there is something hardening over your heart.

something in your life....something you can't process...something that you're projecting onto me...whatever the case...

negativity is a disease, darling,

and from the very bottom of my heart,

i hope you heal. :)

-uncle nina

#sorry for being kind of intense but this...respectfully kind of pissed me off #i do not exist chained to my writing desk no food no drink no sleep writing #and to be honest! i did that! it was very unhealthy! it sucked! my work sucked! and im still reaping the damages #i got so unhealthy writing pep that i literally malnourished myself worse than kenny and got a bacterial infection #i already felt like going into hiding and never posting again bc i was frustrated and felt tired and lost #but this message.....to quote u 'lmaaaaoo' does really not make me want to write ever again! #like i licherally write because i love you guys and u light up my life and i want to give u a safe happy place #but when u pollute my safe happy place with this whack ass energy...its a no for me... #for the people invested in my stuff and kind thank u so much im excited abt my fics its just hard to write multiple chapters #its tedious for me im tired i just want yall to know the plot details the tag is dead its taking so long...ugh #but when theyre out they will be my platonic love letter to u #hopefully this anon was just weirdly worded but if not...please kick rocks and maybe never read my fanfiction again lmao

[soldier-poet-king]

i gotta read more weird literature. poetry. fiction. nonfiction. idc. i need to be unsettled. i need to see the profound.

the problem is. so much of it is just. bad. or not meant for me. which is fine! but i have a limited amount of hours and a limited amount of energy, i do not always have time to sift through it all to find the incredibly profound life changing art.

so it just. becomes easier to stick with genre fiction. (which can be profound! it often is! i am no 1 genre fiction is valuable truther) but, to my tastes, even mediocre genre fiction is entertaining, if not 'deep', whereas mediocre weird lit is just. bad. boring. tiresome.

(or im just not looking in the right places, smthn smthn that post about how 99% of poetry is bullshit but 1% is lifechanging, but the 1% is different for everyone)

#franposting #this doesnt make sense im sorry #it's a further reflection after my whole long ass stream of consciousness #that started about careers and moved to existential purpose of storytelling #<- is an insane person #anyway i want more weird profound shit but i have so little time #THIS IS ALSO NOT A DIG AT GENRE FIC #GENRE FICTION IS MY FAVOURITE ART FORM #i just mean that i think i personally would benefit from a little varierty #but while i can enjoy bad sff in a certain way #bad quote unquote literature. is just. bad. no enjoyment OR profundity to be found anywhere

[stanakin96]

here to announce that i am a solid 40k into my quinobi mafia au and NOBODY has kissed and nobody is even CLOSE

#sorry if you enjoy fics where characters like each other #one thing about me is im gonna write a long ass quinobi fic #quinobi

[sweetsuke]

yuta developes a crush on kohaku after the events of fruitful october (the story where he almost falls down a cliff and adonis, kaoru, and kohaku save him). he bakes kohaku some traditional japanese sweets as thanks with the help of niki (who's none the wiser) and starts to hang around crazy:b more often despite still claiming to not trust rinne.

the only people who know about his crush are hinata, shinobu, kaoru, rei, and nagisa (he only told shinobu, the others found out on their own).

kaoru and nagisa, being his roommates and friends, try to give him advice which sometimes works (kaoru) and sometimes doesn't (nagisa). kaoru also tastefully teases him about his crush, though he makes sure never to take it too far.

rei offers cryptic advice while also playing wingman, as he wants to see his "beloved child" happy.

shinobu's super supportive, though he has no clue how to help as he's completely oblivious when it comes to things like romance.

hinata's the worst, trying to play wingman all the time and not being subtle about it at all. yuta's surprised and grateful that kohaku hasn't found out about his crush despite all of hinata attempts to get them together (including but not limited to: shoving them into a locker together, inviting crazy:b to have dinner with 2wink, complimenting kohaku and saying it was from yuta, etc).

little does anyone know, kohaku's been developing his own little crush in the meantime. but that's a story for a different night >:3

#hi sorry idk what this is just felt like sharing some kohayuta thoughts on this fine evening #im down bad for them #like bad-bad #like writing a long ass fic bad #kohayuta #yutakoha #yukoha #koyuta #ensemble stars #enstars #kohaku oukawa #yuta aoi #:3

[thecreelhouse]

please. I am Begging yall. the read more button is right. fucking. there. if your fic is over 5k long maybe. perhaps. Use the fucking button. please. PLEASE.

#if i have to scroll endlessly through a tag to pass your long ass fic im not fucking reading it im sorry #back in my day we didnt even have a button yall got it easy #this is like. the equivalent of not using your blinkers while driving. dont be that guy for the love of all that is holy please #house.txt

[cryingincrocs]

Happy Valentine’s Day! Have some pining, unrequited Doc angst in celebration! This is in reference to my fic your faithless love's the only hoax I believe in but it's for a scene that's yet to come. :)

under the cut is the original sketch and the same piece without the lighting!

#hermit shipping #bdoc #but unrequited #for now #docm77 #my art #docm77 fanart #the fic is a long ass slowburn btw my bad #but im not actually sorry teehee

[broflovski-brah]

i saw a poll a week ago that asked what the worst sickness induced feeling is

it’s sore throat. 100%.

#i can’t sleep #i can’t swallow #i can’t even yawn without feeling like wolverine is clawing my throat from the inside out #i physically can’t sleep because one wrong movement sends my throat into aching #im complaining too much #sorry yall #im just in a lot of fucking pain rn #i’ve been sick for four days now #ive never been sick this long and it fucking sucks #abyways #tw sickness #vent #one moment i feel fine and the next im shivering under like four blankets #i can’t keep anything down #im getting so frustrated #sorry for no art or fic this week #i wanted nothing more than to write and draw and this whatever the fuck sickness knocked me on my ass #i feel bad for venting so much about some stupid sickness #i just feel like i don’t rlly have anywhere else to turn

[fortheb0ys]

Cooking up a Will Graham fic cause he's got me twirling my hair rn🎀

#someone sent an ask sent an ask #just saying they wanted to dress will graham up just to undress him #like over a week ago #and it was like 2 sentences #it got me thinking and i wrote a whole ass fic #not done it yet #still working on it tho #so sorry to the anon who sent it #im not ignoring you #i jist take too long to write shit #☆*charlie's rambles

[prettyboybuck]

I’m probably gonna change my theme soon and make it more Merlin coded…. Just a warning to all my incredible stucky/marvel mutuals

#i love you all forever okay #stucky is forever for me and I appreciate everyone I met and grew with in that fandom #I just hate marvel now mostly I feel like they really produce some trash ass content I’m sorry lmfao #and Merlin and merthur have been such a constant in my fandom brain for 10 years and I just love the Merlin fandom #I want to be more involved like I want people to look at my blog and know what it’s about you know #cause rn it reads as as marvel blog still #idk what my new url should be agh #I wanna write Merlin fics too but im SCARED I haven’t written in so long idk how to do it #anyways #just thought I’d post cause a lot of my mutuals are still marvel esque blogs #i absolutely will NOT be offended if anyone unfollows I love you forever and you can always find me on insta leejordana if you want

[candyskiez]

Catradora grief for WIP Wednesday!

"That was probably Adora speak for "Be nice to me, I'm just too guilty to ask you to because I think it'd make me sound sensitive." She's never been good at being nice. Catra doesn't really know how to be polite or gentle. Or how to be tactful in any way whatsoever. That's not exactly something they teach you in the Horde, nevermind her just being like that. Asshole is kind of her default setting. So honestly, her next best bet is trying not to be a dickhead.

She doesn't really know how to do that either."

thank you I was having SO MUCH trouble with this fic and I haven't even gotten to most of the grief dude. I am. Suffering. holy hell. wish me luck gang. these two are so hard to write especially in a complicated situation like this. also this is a very rough draft , very big wip, sorry 😭

written for wip wendsday! a lil late but. yk how it be.

#catradora #catra #adora #she ra #spop #shera #spop spoilers #shera spoilers #she ra spoilers #to the person who made the og request for this fic im so sorry for the long ass wait