LAST DAY OF 2023 DUMP & CHECK:
• it was literally the hardest years in my life. started with visiting bestie every 2nd days at traumatology ward and praying for her coma’s end, and ending the year with celebrating NYE with the same bestie! the hardest thing was in this whole procedure (expect my suffering with irritable intestine syndrome and insomnia, also the disgust which i started to feel about my place at the healthcare system, i wanted to instantly quit) when my friends was gone because we hoped in bestie’s improvement when she was in vigil coma, and yes, i was selfish because for me some love life shit wasn’t enough problem to think about when my best friend was in a coma and was in between death and living. continous reading articles and researches about comas and traumatic brain injuries, looking through her medical stuff, cry above them… it was truly hard. but she woke up and she’s in the path to full recovery. i lost literally my old friend group’s 90 percent, but i’m not mad about it. they literally left me in the best possible time, also my bestest best friend is with me still. our medical miracle🤍
• after 3 years suffering with applications into medical school, i gave up and ended up in engineering. medicine was a forced destiny for me, after 21 years of my life i realized, it’s not for me. i knew that it’s totally okay to quit a path which isn’t for you, bit i was scared, because the other way was too new. but! to be honest, i’m the happiest alive studying in that major! i have a lot of interesting classes, yes i have difficult times to understand calculus 1 and programming, but even with the little disappointments i’m so sure about my place there. i found my best mates in molecular bionics class, we are a big family together! i can’t be more grateful for them to appearing in my life after all of this 2023’s shit!🌞🦾
• also, i had an opportunity to start working as a pre-thesis work at a lab that works with microglias and investigate about brain and neuroimflamattory, overall i have a huge chance to be a part of some amazing experiments and researches about the mice/human brain!!🐁🧫
• i’m not very sure about what i wanna do or not to do in 2024 (get well in school, being there to every best friend, find a job, studying a lot at lab, etc basic things) but i hope that i will have some kind of like 2023 was, but please, without the hospital visiting part!:D i’m so glad that i’m here, nothing is perfect, but i have everything what i want, so just don’t mess up this circle, 2024!✨🌻
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