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iamanonniemouse · 2 years

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for the wip ask, 3, 6, 7, 8 and 9! (bc im greedy for all the mousie fic)

okay I'm splitting this one up too sldkfjalsdkfj Y'ALL ARE CRAZY

(but thats okay cuz i love talking about fics and i love that you all enjoy listening to me rambling nonstop smooches you)

3. Reality Dating TV Show for @flosculatory

Okay, so I haven't written actual words of this yet (flos actually texted me when I posted the wips list like ??? bitch you havent even written that yet, and i was like OKAY BUT HAVE YOU SEEN THAT OUTLINE THO)

flos and i wrote the outline together, for the record. flos is the one who has actually watched the ultimatum on netflix lolol

So the premise is like couples go onto the show and basically one of them wants to get married and the other doesnt? And they mingle w the other couples for 5 days and have the option to just marry their current partner then. Or they can continue onward and then pick someone else from one of the other couples to cohabitate with for 3 weeks. and then after those 3 weeks they go back to their original partner for 3 weeks, and then at the end decide if they want to marry their original partner or the other rando they picked lololol.

(did i mention that flos actually watched this :eyes: love you boo)

SO STARTING PAIRINGS ARE

Dom/Mal (Dom proposed)

Rob/Nash (Rob proposed)

Eames/Saito (Saito proposed)

Arthur/Ariadne (Arthur proposed)

After the five days of mingling Rob/Nash run off into the sunset together. An excerpt from the outline:

On matching day, Saito chooses Rob but when it’s time for Rob to choose, he’s really hesitant, then looks at Nash, Nash has a eureka moment of omg wait you actually want to marry me????

Rob: uh yeah, thats why i proposed to you in the first place, idiot

Nash: i know but i just couldnt think you ACTUALLY wanted me you deserve BETTER but now i see saito is everything you could want, should want, but you still want ME???

Rob: youre so stupid and i love you

Nash: omg we should get married

Rob: YOURE SO STUPID AND YES WE SHOULD GET MARRIED

Nash: fuck what are you waiting for then???

So then the others pick other people to cohabitate with for three weeks. The selection bit is a hilarious hot mess and the final cohabitation pairings are:

Arthur/Eames

Ari/Mal

Cobb/Saito

We have so much thought put into literally every pairing in this, both og relationship and cohabitation relationships. Like, the fact that Saito was attracted to Eames because Eames didn't give two shits about Saito's money, but now they've been together a long time and Eames still doesn't give two shits about Saito's money and all the responsibilities Saito has running his huge corporation.

And Arthur proposes to Ari because he's just kinda following this plan in his head and he's like, okay this isnt explosive but is it really ever like that irl?? we get along well together and i like you and you like me so why not? And when he and Eames end up together they're both sorta stuck together by last resort because everyone else picks each other, so A/E go into the 3 weeks like okay looks we're just biding our time to get back to the others. And Eames starts coaching Arthur on how to properly woo Ariadne and Arthur talks Eames through various emotional things and it's only when they go back to their og partners that they realize how much they liked each other.

Dom wants to settle down and be Domestic AF and Mal is like BUT I AM A FREE SPIRIT AND WANT TO TRAVEL AND DO WILD THINGS. When she and Ari get paired they go wild and sneak off and act all crazy then have a scare and go back to their respectively dull partners like okay yes calm is good for a reason (but still ultimately end up with each other)

Saito loves how sharp Dom is business-wise and also the fact that Dom does want to settle down and be domestic. It's nice for Saito to have someone to talk business things over with cuz Eames never cared and didn't want to hear about it.

Oh and also Rob/Nash come back on for like a Celebrity Coaching thing right before the very end and everyone else on the show is like what the fuck?? you were just here, you’re not stable enough to be giving us advice!

Anyway final pairings at the end of it all are:

Rob/Nash

Cobb/Saito

Arthur/Eames

Ariadne/Mal

It's gonna be SO GREAT seriously. I am very excited. Flos is threatening to fly to America to force me to write this ASAP because she wants this story to exist already and you know what I DO TOO OKAY

#mousie rambles #omg i get asks now #fic #my writing #flos my mouse spouse #chats with friends

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imagining-in-the-margins · 3 years

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Assorted Anon Asks!

(Only a few more left, but I'm exhausted and done for now)

1. Ah, yes. I do get a lot of those messages (on and off Anon, and in DMs). I have a lot of complicated feelings about them, honestly. I do wish that people would be a bit more cognizant that the ambiguous being behind the screen is, in fact, a person with feelings 😅 but I also understand where they're coming from.

It can be a bit stressful, I won't lie. Especially since a lot of the times they are people in crisis, and I know virtually nothing about them (and can't check up on them later, either). But at the end of the day, the person you all know here (Pom) is a caretaker. My entire purpose is to care for scared, traumatized people. While I desperately want to help everyone I can, I do hope people realize that my hands are very full right now simply within my own mind.

And I won't always have the right answers. Most of the time I won't even come close. It's hard feeling like I'm failing someone. I can try to be a friend to you, but I can't help you like a trained professional who knows you in person would be able to. I'm not a savior by any means.

2. Not on here, no. It's not necessarily a secret, I just don't like looking at pictures of myself (dissociation) and I prefer keeping my writing and personal life separate. If you know me IRL, I don't need to know that you read my Spencer Reid porn 😂

But, really, a lot of people know a lot about me. Not a secret, although I don't appreciate people seeking out information about me. Because you could, like... literally just ask me, lmao.

3.-4. Thanks, friends. Your encouragement is very much appreciated. It's not an emergency situation - but it will be a great source of stress for the foreseeable future. But I believe in my family to make it through it!

It's just hard being so far away from them and feeling a bit useless. Especially since, when it comes to medical stuff, I'm the only one who understands everything that's going on and manages to calm everyone down. (aka, I've been on the phone nonstop for about 24hrs now 😅 )

5. Bahaha, I kind of want to now! I eventually want to release a poetry chapbook about dissociation... It's actually a really great idea for that. Also, thank you! I love you!

6. You are so sweet. Thank you so much for taking time to share your kind words with me ❤️ Being able to evoke emotions with my writing is all I could ever ask for.

7. Sorry I had to chop this ask up, lol! Hello friend! I definitely relate to the disability aspect of your story. I'm sorry you're going through that all right now, and I'm honored to be a little sunshine in your day.

As for ethical/moral debates... that's my jam! I'm so happy to hear that you find that in my writing, because it's truly my favorite thing to think about (I'm an insufferable nerd).

As for authors and books... I unfortunately am not an avid reader. I haven't been able to focus on non-work related reading for some time. That being said, one of my favorite lesser known authors is Brent Weeks, but it's been ages since I read his work. Otherwise I'm very boring and recommend the usual Ray Bradbury, Nabokov, etc. The ones you already know.

As for fanfic writers (and specifically those who write for Hotch!), I unfortunately don't know many people who write him. I know @andiebeaword , @ontheoddoccasioniwritestuff , @willowrose99 and @dontkissthewriter have all written him (and are wonderful writers).

If anyone else has any recommendations, please share them here!

I'm sorry I'm not in my usual peppy mood, so my answers aren't as long as I wish I could give you! But I hope you know how much I appreciate you.

I hope you all have a wonderful day, and thanks for always being so supportive!

#answer #answered

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suhmayzooka · 4 years

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cursed child broadway, December 28, 2019

my sister (S) and i were fortunate enough to get tickets for the third row, right by the aisle, making us right in the center. I was a bit worried about the seats being so close to the stage, but it was absolutely amazing to be so close to the action. it was immersive, and i felt like i was part of the action.

S is my polar opposite. she’s not a potterhead, for starters, and likes to call me (and everyone else in the theater, especially those in cosplay) a loser. she’s heavily involved with her school’s theater -- acting and stage crew -- and i call her a theater nerd. she’s an aspiring actress, and almost gave my mom a heart attack when she announced her plan to study acting in college (they compromised, and now S intends to major in psychology in addition to acting). i didn’t know she was interested in cursed child since she eschews all ‘nerdy’ things, but she said that she ‘wanted to see how bad it was.’

she’s been the only extrovert in our family since she was born. she’s a hatstall between gryffindor and slytherin (although she identifies with the lion). if you’re reading this, i’m assuming you like cursed child and perhaps are involved with the fandom. ever read the tea time series on ao3? S is lily luna. she’s the embodiment of how everyone writes lily luna. she cursed out our dad a few days ago. she made me spend the equivalent of two hours of work on fucking soda and popcorn because she didn’t listen to me when i told her to pack a clif bar. this is what i put up with.

she actually enjoyed the show! i was shocked. she loved the effects.

after part one, she turned to me and went, “please just tell me one thing: do albus or scorpius die?”

i was surprised by her question.

she explained: “because at this point all i care about is their romance, and if they don’t get together or if they die i’m leaving the theater.”

this is coming from someone who ranted to me about how she doesn’t understand why people ship non-canon pairings since ‘not every friendship has to be romance.’ and here she was genuinely invested in scorbus? my heart…

i’m a good big sister, so i told her really vague statements like “our heroes will find themselves in danger several times during this act...” “one person’s pain is used to inflict pain on the other” and similar things. eventually, she became convinced that scorpius would be revealed to be voldemort’s son and harry would accidentally kill him. not sure how she came up with that.

i guess everyone caught the plague? the coughing would Not stop. S started making fun of them. and it’s like...everyone was a-okay during wand dance. there were no coughs in the opening choreography for part two. no, everyone had to succumb to coughing fits during the quiet, emotional moments.

“i always wanted a best mate to get up to mayhem with--”

COUGHCOUGHPHLEGMCOUGHHACKHACKHACKPHLEGMPHELGMCOUGHCOUGH

“--you’re my best friend--”

COUGHCOUGHPHLEGMCOUGHHACKHACKHACKPHLEGMPHELGMCOUGHCOUGH

for every. emotional. scene. maybe they were choked up on their tears.

at the last minute we decided to do stage door. as in, we had already left the theater, saw the line outside, and were like, “sure.” unfortunately we had left our playbills in the theater since my hands were occupied holding her soda and popcorn since apparently she’s incapable of doing so…

i’m using google and my shitty facial recognition to remember who was who. we (she) spoke to zell steele morrow (young harry), karen janes woditsch (mcgonagall), nadia brown (rose), james snyder (harry), and nicholas podany (albus). unfortunately, we had to catch our train and left just as jonno roberts (draco) came out :( i think he was S’s favorite.

anyway here are my (our) thoughts:

1. Characters

~nicholas podany is a really good albus! he’s very mischievous, and you can see the wheels in his head turning as he comes up with his (increasingly more ridiculous) plans. whenever he comes up with an idea he looks at scorpius like :O and it gets funnier as the play goes on.

~bubba weiler is a lot of fun. he’s very physical actor, and he really hams it up. his scorpius is meant to be seen rather than read. most of the comic relief is written for scorpius, and there seemed to be roars of laughter after every other line. he shook his hips at “MALFOOYYYY THE UNAANXIOUSSS” and (exaggeratedly) pretended to march in place for “MY GEEKNESS IS A-QUIVERING!!” he purred at rose. he flailed his entire body around when he was crucio-d :( one thing i noticed was how he carried himself. scorpius spent a lot of time sitting hunched over, rocking slightly back and forth (most noticeable when he was introduced, but he hunched over and rocked on the staircase several times as well). when he stands he’s rubbing his thumbs or the hems of his robes. his leg was bouncing nonstop in the library scene. anyway what i’m trying to say is scorpius malfoy is neurodivergent. ableists don’t interact.

~for some reason S says that both scorpius and albus are unlikeable, but they’re cute together. she was very proud when scorpius yelled at albus for being “the most terrible friend.”

~the chemistry between scorbus is There. it’s clear podany and weiler are close friends irl; they’re extremely comfortable together and play off each other really well.

~matt mueller is great as ron. he works well with what he’s been given...not his fault thorne/tiffany decided to make ron a caricature with very little resemblance to canon ron...but that’s a rant for another day :] he’s delightful on stage. he’s funny and charming.

~i’ll admit i wasn’t really feeling jenny jules as hermione, at least in part one. she’s really playful, especially in the scene in her office where she offers harry a “to~fee~!” she was really great in the dark timeline, however.

~my romione heart

~the man himself, james snyder as harry potter! was um, very shouty? very angry all the time. he’s under a lot of stress. his son disappeared in time. i’ll let it slide.

~jonno roberts was literally draco malfoy. his sneer, his swagger, everything was absolutely as i imagined draco 20 years in the future would be. he’s so protective of scorpius...when the adults travel back to 1981 to find their sons, he picks scorpius up as they hug? and then instead of breaking apart, he sort of...put one arm around scorpius’s neck? like a backwards neck travel pillow thing. scorpius held his arm as draco looked around behind him for any danger. it was really cute.

~diane davis was a really protective ginny. all the fiery ginny from the books that was absent from the films made its way into her.

2. Scenes

~one criticism i have is the fact that everyone speaks really quickly. it’s a five hour play and i get that they’re trying to contain all the dialogue within that time but like...it’s a dialogue-heavy show. i knew what was going on since i’m familiar with the script and the story, but there were parts when S and other members of the audience were confused. this was especially noticeable during the trolley witch scene. literally nothing could be heard over the music and the sound effects, and several people around us were audibly confused and asking each other what was happening. i mean, it doesn’t make a lot more sense with the dialogue, but at least let us hear what the characters are saying!

~podany, snyder, and (at times) weiler were the worst offenders. weiler’s good at physical comedy, punctuating his iconic lines with clownlike movements for laughs since no one would know what he’s saying otherwise. e.g. “we stand over the baby and scream” was almost inaudible, so we just heard “HEEELLLPPP HEEEEELLLP!” it was effective since the whole theater laughed, i guess. take this with a grain of salt; we were only a few feet away from the stage, so maybe our audio wasn’t the best.

~roberts was crystal clear at all times

~S fell in love with scorbus during the staircase ballet. if you’ve seen that one clip from this cast you know why. the YEARNING.

~the LIBRARY scene! i reblogged audio of this a few months ago. oh my god, it’s perfect. it hits the emotional highs and lows. when albus said, “i wasn’t a loser before i met you,” there was a collective gasp and we all “OOOOOOOOOOH”-ed. everyone was invested in this. weiler’s performance is really emotional, he’s holding back tears, i’m holding back tears. podany’s gets so soft when he talks about how kind he is. i actually clenched my heart. “friends?” “always.” audience: “OOOOOOOOOH!”

~i can confirm that myrtle’s “girls...AND BOYS” is directed straight at albus. his eyes widen, and he sheepishly shrugs his shoulders and is very excited to change the topic.

~scorpius’s imaginary friend was named hector. idk if he improvises it every time, or if he decided to change it to hector from flurry, but his delivery was great. sweetly: “oh, i had one of those too!” scathing hiss: “HECTOR.”

~the biggest jumpscare of the play was when scorpius emerged from the lake at the end of part one. it was all dark, and then he shoots out of the water, gasping. i jumped.

~voldemort walked down the aisle right next to us. S was terrified that he’s jump or touch her, so she curled up next to me.

~i was interested in how the penultimate scene would play out, since i heard that weiler and podany really play up their relationship, but scorpius had spent every scene with rose purring at her. she came and imitated a scorpion when she said “scorpion king,” curving her hand and making a hissing noise, which elicited a few “oohs” from the audience. then the Hug...the “new version of us” line is said as they hug, and they just. stood there for a few moments, hugging. when albus goes “you better ask rose” scorpius looks up at him and blinks, goes, “.........uh oh yeah, rose….” and goes off stage. right before he exits he looks at albus, and albus keeps watching him after he leaves. uhh anyway scorbus is canon and so is pollyrose

~“dad...i don’t want to be a wizard anymore.” (dead silence) “i want to go into pigeon racing” *breaks into the biggest shit-eating grin and cracks up*. the last shot is harry holding albus as he silently weeps. Ookay.

~due to several instances of childhood trauma, my sister’s biggest fear is birds (especially chickens, ostriches, and...pigeons). she didn’t know why people laughed at harry’s confession that he was afraid of pigeons, because to her that’s a valid fear. we saw a pigeon in the train station and she almost cried.

3. Stage door

~S did most of the talking. she told everyone “so sorry we don’t have our playbill! you did such a great job!” and then struck up mini conversations. i stood nodding like “good job!” looking like this :]

~first up was (i believe) zell steele morrow! he’s so cute and was really upbeat. S finally found someone shorter than her…

~karen janes woditsch asked what houses we’re in. S was like “gryffindor!” and she smiled, i told her “ravenclaw” and she was like, “well...i love all my students equally….”

~i didn’t recognize james snyder since he was dressed like he was in the arctic. neither did S.

~nadia brown was so sweet! you could tell she really loved seeing fans. there was a group behind us in line who apparently were here for their third viewing, and they conversed like they were old friends.

~nicholas podany came out wearing a t shirt. in december. i was cold because i forgot to wear gloves and he came out in a t shirt. the group behind us asked if he was cold and he said that he was hot from running around the stage. S told him that he did great, she asked how long he was performing (ten months since february) and her response was “oh, that makes sense, you were good!” he went on about how he loves performing, how each night is different based on the crowd and how we were such a great crowd, and i could feel S like. sinking into the sidewalk. i just nodded at him and went “good job.”

~he’s my height, maybe slightly shorter (i’m 5’6/167 cm) and very pale. i think S has a crush on him since she wants to go back to “apologize for being so awkward.” growing up she had a crush on daniel radcliffe, too, so i guess she has a thing for potters.

~the group behind us went on about how much they loved harry potter, had been fans their whole lives, etc. podany’s apparently a huge potterhead, but not the biggest in the cast: they all came together to see who was the biggest potterhead, and the answer is the actor who plays cedric (forgot his name and the internet isn’t helping, sorry!) -- his tv (?) remote is in the shape of a wand! the rest of them are nerdy enough to fact-check the director lmao

~we didn’t get to actually speak with jonno roberts, but we saw him interacting with other fans. he seems like a cool guy.

#ccsquad #cursed child #i see cc

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katal0gue · 4 years

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no offense but i feel absolutely fucking awful about a bunch of things and i am going to blog about them (binge eating cw)

You make me feel so much and I feel like I am always trying to figure out your humor and how your brain works and it does not help that it seems to be supported by your whole friend group, creating this impenetrable cloud of references and jokes and meanings and levels of irony around you that i will never fully Get, not because I’m too earnest but because our snark is often aimed in opposite directions. Why is the only thing that has made me feel better about this that “cringe and cancel culture” joke I reblogged last night. Seeing you hate on astrology and polyamory in a “kids these days” way is making me want to rip my fucking hair out

On that note why is everyone else’s aggression seen as Powerful And Necessary and mine is seen as like, a wild animal who needs to be controlled. Yesterday my boss told me “don’t get upset!” after I responded in an annoyed tone to her saying “no, no, no, no, NO! why would you do THAT” in response to me explaining how I was going to put in a kids’ schedule (after wee talked it out I was right lol) when like a) girl that ship has SAILED and b) you! are! the! one! getting! upset!

The online version of the above is that when you participate in cringe culture or what the fuck ever that is just you being a hilarious lovable grouchy old man but when I do it it’s because I’m a toxic evil monster

I am lonely. I feel like I agree with a lot of things people in my circles sort of scoff at and am sort of scoffing at a lot of things people in my cirlces agree with and I would just like to have a strong sense of mutual understanding with people, I want someone to make eye contact with and nod, I want someone to be in the audience when I stare at the camera. I have this with some people about certain specific issues but then we’ll disagree on something and I’ll conclude that Specific Issue was actually superficial and REAL connection is about [thing i perceive to be Deeper] but its actually all just a bunch of bullshit and I am a lonely idiot

I am lonely. I want irl friends who I can see and hear and hug and do irl activities with. I have not been out to a party since New Years Eve, which is not quite as bad as I thought now that I’m actually reflecting on it, and the winter is better staying-in time than the rest of the year, but like....when I do want to be out and about, who am I going to do that with. I want gal pals. I want bros and broettes. Please for the love of god someone friendzone me, I need some friends. I am so fucking self conscious about how I socialize, and what is and is not Cool, and how much the definition of Cool changes. It’s all a bunch of bullshit and I am a lonely idiot. My brother and I are good friends I think but he does so much Man Bullshit to me like acts like I’m talking his ear off when I say lke two sentences meanwhile will talk At me and my mom and the room at large pointlessly for literal hours and get mad when any single one of his Jokes or Comments is met without a response. And I know he’s irritated with a ton of things that I do as well.

Regarding the two above bullets, I will say that my online friendships (which I am including irl friends who no longer live close to me in) have improved a lot recently as I have Gotten Real with myself about a lot of things and allowed myself to set boundaries. I am acting more respectfully to myself and to you guys i think? But I just need irl stuff too.

I have no idea where I want to live. I can’t live in my parents house on long island forever and it’s getting to be to much to just live there on the daily because we’re all getting on each other’s nerves. But I don’t know where else I would want to live. I mostly know what i don’t want: not someplace cold, not someplace too far inland. But the latter point is the sticking point because while Long Island is Very Expensive, so is pretty much anyplace near enough to the ocean, and like, the ocean is my wife. I know that is irrational but she is my wife and we are in love. I want to live someplace non-bougie that is also magically a beach town. So that is all compounding the above issue of IRL Friends because I do not even know where I want IRL to take place.

My body is under scrutiny in my house and I just want to make sure it’s okay. I have been WAY better with moderate aerobic exercise and resistance training (go me!), but I’ve been slacking with stretching (which is even more important now that I’m doing strength training) and I fucking hate intense aerobics with my entire heart. The thing I hate the least right now is the elliptical but god it is still so boring and sucks. Swimming is my favorite cardio but it’s not very accessible to me at this moment and there’s no public pool in my town and I would have to pay to use the one in the neighboring town. I love dancing but I don’t have anyplace to do it (maybe the basement when no one is home) and wouldn’t know where to start with making it into a workout - I really fucking hate following videos. Sorry this is so whiny and self defeating. Food wise I just keep bingeing. My diet is not perfect outside of that but it’s not as bad as it used to be, but the binging. Every single night. It’s literally self harm but it’s the only thing that makes me feel like I’m not being punished because everything else does.

I want to get along with my dad but similar to my brother on a way more intense scale he just is such a man and it is really grating. Again, I know I am also grating, two negatives don’t make a positive and we just keep pissing each other off. I’m getting better at not showing it.

I keep having terrible, disturbing dreams: i am violent to others, others are violent to me, there’s always some kind of work/school stress in the picture so sleeping isn’t even relaxing, I just wake up stressed. Maybe it’s because I keep stuffing my face before sleeping.

I feel like I am not very good at my job and keep making stupid mistakes, because I cannot focus, because I keep thinking about the above bullets nonstop. I am not a very good leader and managing people is so difficult and I say sorry like 850 times a day and everyone thinks I’m a fucking idiot. Or maybe they think that I’m not only an idiot but an idiot who tries to use Big Words. Which i guess i am. fuck me huh!

i want a baby really, really badly lmao. But I don’t know enough about myself to really begin dating I feel, like I keep going on “dates” that end up not being dates and actually end up just me making out with some guy, which is fine but I want romance, but don’t know how or where to find it, or what I even want in a partner lol, or where we would live together or what my career would be or anything lmao. I just find everyone annoying, especially myself.

I can’t stop thinking about stuff from the past and reliving feelings, mostly irritation, like the thing just happened a second ago. These aren’t memories of trauma or violence just of things that were incredibly annoying, usually condescending.

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freewheelshippin · 4 years

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30 utapri questions!

Thanks @dekiaibadchoices for the tag, this was an awesome way to wind down after a ton of nonstop busy busy busy!!! (and thanks for tagging this blog vs the general utapri one so i can REALLY gush LOL) Here’s the OG meme!

1. Your best boy?

BANANAMAN RAN WHO ELSE

2. Your least favorite boy?

“least favorite” implies dislike which...not true! truthfully it’s much of HEAVENS by nature of ‘I haven’t spent as much time getting to know these characters so I don’t really know who they are.’ (though I already know I love to go for drinks and snacks with Van hehe) i do like all of HEAVENS quite a bit from what i’ve seen so far but that affection has not had time to ripen!

3. A character that you never thought you would love as much as you do now?

mnmnj ranran tbh

4. A character you can relate to in any way?

I can’t answer everything with Ranmaru but like. His ambition, straightforwardness, and how the soul and spirit of music motivate him to move forward beyond a tough past are things I same hat so much ;; But HONESTLY I also relate a lot to Masa and Tokiya, especially in their moments of self-doubt and dramatic commitment to to their art?

5. A character that you think deserves more love?

Oh, Cecil, without a doubt. He’s such a resilient, committed, and open-hearted cutie and gets really shafted by canon tbh. Which makes it harder for everyone to see what a great boy this sweetie is! But I appreciate how Shining Live has given him some room to have really cute and standout moments so everyone can love him more but okay like, give me more Ceci and Ran palling around I love him most when they’re up to shenanigans

6. A character you would want as your partner?

well we’re posting this fuckin here so you all fuckin know (im very embarrass rn i can barely say it lmao)

(for the record i would also very much like to be friends with reiji and syo, they are cool people i think i’d get along with! and i know myself, if i knew otoya or masato IRL i’d just be like ‘well. that’s my son now’ and basically appoint myself their tough big sis-type-friend lookin out for them lol)

7. A character you would want as your mentor/senpai?

I would swallow a pinecone before I called him ‘onii-san’ but teach me how to network kotobuki-senpai

(No, like, forreal, I suck so, so bad at a ton of stuff Reiji is aces at, and I respect the hell out of his *waves* general everything and skilll navigating the industry. Since I’m a goofy, jokey, overenthusiastic teacher for work a lot it’d be nice to be on the receiving end of all that energy! and be a fucking decent kouhai that isn’t so horribly unappreciative of all his hard work and good cheer )

8. Your favorite ship?

shut your whore mouth i dont have the marbles to write it out

(tbh it’s also Haru/Tomo, I just feel so much more romantic chemistry between those two than Haru and any of the boys u___u Friends’ selfship stuff goes without saying, haha, and ngl I’m kind of About a Ren/Van rivalry hatemance? can i call it a kismesis thing? it’s a kismesis thing.)

(actually no I think I’m just a member of the “Ren Fucks and sometimes it’s Hatesex” club)

9. A character that you want to cosplay/have already cosplayed?

I had plans to cosplay Ranmaru a couple months ago bc it’s really not much of a stretch for my wardrobe, haha, but I dunno about that anymore! Part of it was wanting the Euphoria of looking like a tough, twunky, princely anime character but tbqh I’m already that every day of my life so

I suppose if you were to pull my leg I’d go for cosplaying Van, mostly because I wanna try that mullet on for myself.

10. Favorite side character?

TOMO!! LOVE U BITCH WHEN WILL I HEAR U SINGGGGGG

11. Your favorite solo song?

god this is horrible how can I decide??? so many good ones??? I think it’s a draw between Top Star Revolution, No. 1, Brand New Melody, Wild Soul, Seien Brave Heart, and Junketsu Nara Ai ~Aspiration~ ???

12. Your favorite duet song?

HMMMMM again too many good ones. Three-way tie between Haru Hana, NorthWind and SunShine, and Original Resonance!

13. Your favorite trio song?

Ahhh Dream More than Love is really nostalgic bc it’s the first Utapri song I really loved, but i gotta be real. It’s just Egoistic. There’s just no getting better than Egoistic

14. Your favorite group song?

mmmm i’m be basic. Poison Kiss

15. Your least favorite song?

I love Ai and Shouta Aoi’s incredible voice but......I’m really not a fan of super slow, overly-saccharine songs. u__u so A.I. really, really doesn’t land with me, much less so than easygoing (like Knocking on the Mind) or somber (like Winter Blossom) songs.

16. Your favorite singer?

ranran...it’s always ranran...

(I do also adore Natsuki’s and Camus’s voices! I tend to like deeper, richer vocal qualities, but you just can’t beat Ranmaru’s subtle growls and high-energy rock!!!! <3)

17. Your favorite group/trio/duo?

god what combo of these idiots DONT i love? I could watch Reiji prank and tease Ranmaru all fuckin day, and I also really like it when Ran’s at his most ‘tuff big bro-y’ with, like, Ai, Otoya, and Cecil!!! but honestly I do like how the Ran/Masa/Ren trio isn’t so straightforward and is more or less held together by a thin string of professionalism, there’s something i appreciate about not forcing ppl to just bury the hatchet and be Perfect Friends but you all can still care about each other? (Ranmaru needs to be nicer to them still but...)

i need to suggest one that isn’t ranmaru centric fjdsioafjsa i fuckin love Soccer Buds (otosyo) and I loooooove it when Otoya and Cecil are good to each other!!!

18. Your favorite member of Starish?

they’re all my favorite but if you REALLY had to make me pick.....Masato, probably, haha. I just...if you take yourself too seriously and care so much about everything but still know how to be Nasty how can I not love you???

19. Your favorite member of Quartet Night?

what do you fuckin think, hoss

20. Your favorite member of Heavens?

I mentioned earlier I don’t really know Heavens well, so ofc this is all liable to change! But off the bat I love what a conniving yet wholesome bastard Eiichi is and Van is just the kinda guy I would rib and pal around with IRL!!

21. Your favorite seiyuu/voice actor?

Ahhh that’s tough! I love all these goofbags, and Tattsun really is just so cool and makes music I’m pretty about. But I think I gotta give it to Suwabe, his performances are always so him but still pretty varied, and how can you not adore a man who loves his chihuahuas that much???

(if i’m being 100% honest Tattsun lost points bc he voices my absolute least favorite character in granblue ffjsfjisda)

22. Favorite Drama CD?

HMMMMMMM see as a certified Giant Tool for Everything Mecha and silly and extra, I enjoyed the hell out of Polaris, but it really suffers from a lack of Ranmaru in my humble fuckin opinion lmao. So even though I’m not one for pirate stuff most of the time, I gotta give it to Pirates of the Frontier!! I really loved Ranmaru and Otoya’s dynamic in that one, and Camus was juuuuust the right amount of shitheel, too.

I haven’t heard the whole thing but that thing from Egoistic where Natsuki squeezes Ranmaru to death and Eiichi’s just like ‘WUAHAHAHAHAH’ is also the mcfuckin best.

23. Your favorite shining live card?

CAN’T PICK

HOW COULD I POSSIBLY PICK?????????? LIKE??? I love the fucking dumb, dumb, dumb ostentatiousness of Evil Villains, I LOVE a good heel, and I also worked so so hard to t1 that event and had a lot of fun doing it!! But also, I just love his big smile and all the energy and mixed prints from Fortune and Prosperity, and it was literally the first time I ever got the exact card I was rolling for in a gacha on the last pull I had left!! (He also came home during a time I was really going through some shit, and ngl it rescued me a little bit!) but AHHHH Soulful Bass also came out right around my birthday, I love all the textures in the outfit and it’s generally the most My Aesthetique thing Utapri has ever released!!! And god, I just love it when he’s so confident and in his element like this, it sets me on FIRE to see him light up the stage wurghjgfj ;___; They all make me just want to HUG SO MUCH ARGGHHHHH

24. Your favorite song beatmap?

Ahhh I think Shining Live really has great beatmaps across the board so that’s a tough pick! Almost all of them are super fun in their own way, but I think I gotta hand it to Wild Soul, Top Star Revolution, and Innocent Wind!

25. Your least favorite song beatmap?

A.I. u__u Sorry, Ai...it’s just not fun for me.

26. Black Deja Vu or White Gravity?

Actually I’m really glad for this question bc I’ve been so busy lately I hadn’t given myself the time to really check them out! checking .........

and yep. Black Deja Vu. (I mean...Ranmaru is on it, haha.) But I’m so about this. Love this heavier sound and all these harmonies, this is so juicy. (White Gravity also absolutely kicks ass though!! I’m really liking that voice group, it’s making especially good use of those higher registers!)

27. Utapri merch that you own/want?

Honestly I don’t have much u__u Not a lot of Utapri merch is my thing...you know? I’m mostly shopping for Ran merch if I’m getting any, but I’m very picky about how he gets drawn? Keeping his toughness and a particular clothing style about him is so essential, haha, and barely anything hits that sweet spot for me. But I will say I adored the whole ‘My Favorite Things’ series, and if I had the budget and space atm I’d love to get some of the Ran goodies from that line!

28. How did you get into Utapri?

I first heard about it through some acquaintances from cosplay before Quartet Night was a thing. It didn’t appeal enough to my heavy metal ass to make me drop everything and try it, but I did have an interest in it I couldn’t explain and I’d always intended on trying it out. (especially after I got into Love Live and idol anime for a bit.) But it was Shining Live that got me! And I really only downloaded Shining Live because I was super exhausted after a business trip, didn’t want to leave bed once I got back home, and just wanted to sink my teeth in something new I could enjoy for hours while lying down, haha.

29. A set theme in shining live that you want to see in the future?

This will surprise nobody, but something tougher. More rock, more punk, more metal. I want all of them in studs and spikes and leather, and I want less polish. More rough!

I’d also love a wrestler set complete with who’s-a-heel-who’s-a-face but that’s a pipe dream and a half, lmao.

30. Why do you love your best boy?

Oh boy.

I think he’s this powerhouse of a human bean who can face a ton of pain and meet it with a big middle finger. And that middle finger is chasing after ambitious dreams, of spreading the power and soul of the same music that made me who I am and influences so much of my work, but also being ... you know, smart about it? He’s an idol because like, sure, maybe it’s not the OG dream, but you can’t dream if you’re dead, and you also deserve to give yourself a life and platform to share some of who you are, and you can do a lot of good with that, too. (And I won’t lie, I respect the drama of a man who takes his hair that seriously and commits so hard to the aesthetic he wears fuckin mismatched contacts i just. charm point )

But at the same time....I don’t know, this might sound presumptuous, but. I think. I just think he’d think I’m as neat as I think he is. I’m an ambitious, passionate person, too, and I also furiously stick to my ideals, and I also love the same kind of soul of music he does. I lean a little more metal than I do rock, but I think that’s nice, like sharing it has that ‘alike but different’ kind of familiarity and novelty all at once. Sometimes it’s tough sharing just how deeply rock and metal have sculpted me and my artwork (and therefore my career), bc it’s so deeply personal to me, and sometimes there’s weird elitism/misogyny/racism to deal with, too. But. The way he talks about rock, the way he describes the passion and how it transcends identity and is just a pure rush of power and sharing your feelings..................it just feels like he Gets it the same way I do. Just that unspoken, burning passion and understanding. I know it sounds weird to feel that strongly over just a music genre, but I just vibe with how to him, it really isn’t ‘just’ a music genre. I feel more accepting of myself for it, and I’d like to think he’d be real proud of himself for that.

And listen, like....I’m very sentimental, but I really don’t like saccharine, flowery, romantic kinds of affection to be lavished on me. Just be straightforward but also a little tsun about it fjdsjfas and ..... those are the kind of feelings I can accept. And that’s the way Ranmaru is, and it’s also grounded in the kind of reality that I don’t like to be swept away from. He’s just so cool and hardworking and unwavering in his passion, it makes it easier for me to do the same despite all the bumps in the road. This got real long but Ran’s a cool dude, haha, I got a lot of positives to say.

Anyways, I never tag folks for these things, but I love seeing everyone’s answers! If you see this and wanna fill it, feel free to count this as a tag from me :) I know this got real long, but with 30 questions how could it not haha? Thanks for reading and sticking around!

#iron maiden & rocka rolla #memery #long post

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I hate the john's mind bungalow theory so I'm with you on that, just curious about whether you think The Final Problem is in Sherlock's head instead? because I think there's plenty of evidence that that isn't the case either, and yet it feels like everyone in the Johnlock ship swears by one or the other.

I absolutely think that The Final Problem took place in Sherlock’s head. I think all of series 4 did. I think all of TAB did. I think that everything in HLV after Mary shoots Sherlock did. If this seems far-fetched then I suggest reading up on EMP theory because EMP is literally “the only explantation of all the facts.”

The thing with the “John’s bleeding out” theory is that it’s kind of the definition of Sherlock’s number one warning: don’t “twist facts to suit theories, instead of theories to suit facts.” People are craving The Johntent™ (I get that, I do) and they don’t even want to consider the fact that we haven’t seen Real John since the beginning of HLV. But that’s exactly what has happened and what needs to happen. Sherlock must figure out how to “save John Watson” from Mary before we can see any more development in John’s romantic arc. Because as soon as Sherlock does save him, we will get the resolution for both of their romantic arcs.

Remember: The “I love you” scene showed us that Sherlock has to be the one to say “I love you” first, not to Molly (who is a John mirror), but not just to John either. He must first acknowledge it unambiguously to himself, and thus the audience, as well, before we get textual confirmation that John returns his feelings. And yes it will most likely be catalyzed by a Three Garridebs moment with Mary behind the gun. That’s what the scene where Eurus shoots John was: a premonition. That’s why Sherlock talks about intuitions in T6T. That’s why the gun turned out to just be a tranquilizer gun. Because it hasn’t happened… yet. I’m not getting into it anymore right now lol, but just know that Eurus is dark!Sherlock trapped in Sherrinford (an abandoned name/characterization for Sherlock) and her disguises (self-portraits) represent all of Sherlock’s worst fears (The East Wind) specifically about losing John.

And here’s the other thing: EMP theory has been around since January 2016. Right after TAB aired. And the vast majority of TJLC people dismissed it immediately, myself included. But as soon as T6T aired I acknowledged that maybe EMP really was a possibility. And then I actually went and read some meta. And I realized that it’s the only possibility.

Really I’d say that mainly people’s reasoning against EMP is that “they just wouldn’t do that.” No explanation given, of course. Because there is actually no evidence that directly contradicts EMP. Everything points towards it, in fact. Name one fucky thing that has happened in the past five episodes of this show and EMP has an airtight and clever answer. Honestly and genuinely if you really do think you have “plenty of evidence” that says otherwise I’d be totally excited to hear it. (Possibly cause I’m confident that I’ll have an answer for anything you say, but I digress.)

So not only does EMP account for essentially everything, the John theories (”alibi” and “John’s TAB”) account for very little, at least on their own. The theories are actually super attractive and clever but unfortunately fall through when you think about them for more than 30 seconds. Here’s a short list of things I can’t reconcile regarding them:

How would John know about Redbeard or Victor Trevor?

How would John know that “deep waters” is a motif in Sherlock’s dreams?

If John is the one dreaming why does he specifically mention in TLD that he hasn’t been sleeping?

If Sherlock isn’t the one dreaming then why does he specifically mention that he’s been having a recurring dream and why does S4 contain so much blue/water imagery?

If Eurus really did shoot John, then how does Eurus exist (because she clearly can’t)?

If it was actually Mary that shot John then why would John need an alibi in the first place, didn’t you say he already killed Mary and that T6T is his fake alibi?

How does Rosie exist (because she also clearly can’t)?

If Mary isn’t drugging Sherlock while he’s still in hospital from HLV then why is there nonstop subtext that she is?

Why is Mr. Blue Skull intermittently glowing (throughout all of S4, not just during scenes relevant to a potential alibi)?

Why is John’s blog no longer updating irl despite the fact we see it is in T6T?

Why is S4 an amalgam of cases that Sherlock has already solved (The Six Thatchers, Cereal Killer, The Yellow Face, The Flight of The Dead, etc)?

Why are Ella’s office and John and Mary’s house, two places we’ve never seen Sherlock go to prior to S4, different from the way we’ve previously seen?

And that’s only the tip of the iceberg. The only way I can see the John theories being accurate in any capacity is if they’re somehow incorporated into EMP as the-7-percent-solution describes here, but I still subscribe to good ol’ pure EMP over that.

I was initially convinced of EMP by Nattie loudest-subtext-in-tv, aka the creator of the original and most influential TJLC metas ever produced. I figured if T6T made her believe in EMP then I should probably look into it. So I did. And I didn’t look back. I recommend checking out the EMP tags of LSiT, the-7-percent-solution, and tjlcisthenewsexy, as they were the ones whose metas did the most to convince me of EMP. I’m in the middle of writing a couple of long EMP metas, one about what Eurus really is and one about Mary drugging Sherlock, but between my school schedule and the fact more EMP proof surfaces every day who knows when I’m gonna finish them lol.

And if you still think that “Moftiss just wouldn’t do that,” I’m gonna go ahead and assume you haven’t watched the Moffat Era episodes of Doctor Who. Particularly “Amy’s Choice” and “Last Christmas”, the latter of which Moffat wrote himself. Moffat loves the ~dream within a dream~ thing. Unless you think all the Inception airplane references are for nothing… (TAB was set in a different, Victorian world because it was a dream within a dream, not just because Sherlock was high, though that does reinforce the subtext that Sherlock is being drugged. The jump into the Reichenbach Falls was the “kick” that was supposed to wake him up, but it only sent him deeper into the waters of his mind palace. Perhaps because he fell forwards instead of backwards? That line of Molly’s in HLV right before Sherlock enters his mind palace was significant, though it’s hard to pinpoint exactly what each direction represents. Did Sherlock “just go the wrong way last time”? Mycroft says he’s in too deep in TAB, implying he’s ventured into a deeper level than he’s ever gone before, the mind palace within his mind palace. As Sherlock says in TLD, “I’m at the bottom of a pit and I’m still falling and I’m never climbing out.”)

So on that note I’ll leave with you with one of my favourite pieces of EMP evidence: John’s new chair when they rebuild 221B at the end of TFP is the same as John’s chair in Sherlock’s Victorian mind palace from TAB. Try and give me a non-EMP explanation for that one lmao.

#answered #sherlock meta #emp theory #disclaimer: some of my fave people on this site believe in the john theories so pls don't take this personal #i'm just super convinced i'm right and want y'all to be right too #as per usual this was longer than i expected it to be lol #Anonymous

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