sorry to everyone that has to interact with me in these following days, i have finished torchwood_cascade-CDRip.tor and i am going to make it EVERYONES PROBLEM
LIKE WHAT WAS GOING ON!!!!!!!!!!!! (exetremely positive)
Tell me about a song you like right now, maybe an animation you just watched that made you think thoughts and feel things
Only Acting by Kero Kero Bonito!! I want to make an animatic for Macaque using this song and some parts of Shadow Play and the s4 special.. although im still mapping it and deciding whether I want to use the radio edit or not lol
Hear me out: I feel like despite being mates to the Shaw packs alpha and beta angel and babe are pretty unbiased to most members of the pack.
Like yeah, they’ll form their own opinions on members ofc but won’t be inherently biased towards anyone because of the influence their respective shifter holds towards people (With exception to Christian. It was on sight the minute they could put a face to the name)
Like when Darlin first started coming back to the pack I feel like these two would be the first ones to offer genuine kindness and be positive towards them. This naturally sketches Darlin out. With all they’ve done and been through, why are these people treating them this nicely for no reason?
Pretty sketchy if you ask Darlin.
So of course Darlin acts aloof and distant from them because who knows why they’re actually being nice to them and want to get to know them? Surely David and Asher told their mates all about them and how terrible of a person and pack member Angel and Babe must think bad of Darlin.
So it’s weird when Darlin is forced invited to David and Angel’s place for coffee and they see Angel and Babe there.
Needless to say it’s awkward at first. Despite not being shifters they’re surprisingly intimidating together and puts Darlin on edge.
It gets them on the defensive when the two start to asking questions but when it devolves into cheesy, typical questions to get to know them which is far from any interrogation Darlin thought they’d be getting. Darling also able to let their guard down more as Angel ensures David’s not in the house or aware of their coffee meet up although they do still remain guarded
This ends still pretty awkward but the three end up slightly closer than before and the two get to see a slightly different side to Darlin than what they heard and get more insight into them.
David did eventually find out and while he was upset with Angel for inviting a shifter with homocidal maniac vampire blood bound and trailing them into his house and putting their life and Babe’s life more at risk he could tell they had good intentions and begrudgingly let it slide, although he stayed in the house from then on just incase.
Being a non-brit Doctor Who fan is so frustrating like, what do you mean I have no legal way of watching the show? Not even the revival? Surely I can get my hands on the books? Or the comics, audios? WHAT DO YOU MEAN SHIPPING IS MORE EXPENSIVE THAN THE ACTUAL PRODUCTS
SIGH. I JUST. listen. i’m gonna do what i do best on this blog and ramble. geordi and cutie’s arc is so good. it’s cute and sweet and fun and sexy and then it’s awful and anxiety-inducing and frustrating and a little scary. i love how messy their relationship is. the separation put a knot in my stomach to listen to because you can tell how much both of them are hurting and traumatized in their own ways.
and things sometimes have to get bad before they can get better. cutie can love geordi with everything they have and it still isn’t enough when they keep hurting him. their trauma and insecurities aren’t an excuse to repeatedly cross his boundaries. they think love is a bandaid when it isn’t. you can’t treat someone like that and think just because you love them however much that it’ll wave away the hurt. it wasn’t until geordi really put his foot down that cutie had to listen to what he was saying. they needed that wake up call, for someone they love and trust but who they’ve hurt so deeply to show them how they’re hurting him and to say “i want you to heal. i deserve happiness, and safety, and peace. and so do you. and right now you don’t have that, and that’s leading to a lot of hurt. i don’t want that for you. i love you.” to make them see that they can’t keep acting the way they have been because it isn’t going to fix anything. it’s just going to keep hurting everyone involved.
and getting to see them work on that, on bettering themselves for themselves, was just… man. that audio left me emotionally exhausted almost more than the initial separation. they kept in touch and they were comfortable enough to hug and geordi got them their usual drink order and it’s like. sometimes love does prevail past all the ugliness. and it’s not fixed overnight, they both still have their things to work through, geordi himself says he wasn’t blameless in sort of why cutie acted the way they often did, but it’s progress. and that matters. it’s proof that cutie recognized that they were in a bad place and that they wanted to be better, and that means a lot to geordi. and i love that this is an ongoing process, i love this in-between bit of them figuring themselves out and i hope we get more of it. it makes them feel realistic and flawed and just so fantastic to listen to.
anyway at the end of the day it always just comes down to love, you know? love for others, love for yourself. love driving you to be your best self and to want the same for the ones you care about. it comes down to “i love you. i loved you then and i love you now. you are worth work and effort. i want us both to heal from the things that have gotten us to this moment.” idk if any of this makes sense i just really care about them and i miss them constantly </3
there is something so special about a guy moaning "your pussy's gonna make me cum." there is something even more special when its coming from eddie as you're bouncing on his cock.
neurotypicals are so weird. like yeah im sorry that our voices and the scraping of cutlery are physically painful to you but unfortunately its rude to wear headphones at the table :/ yeah i know you can still hear us but it looks like you cant which is rude. its like you're blocking us out. why are you still pressing the issue. why are you being so difficult just take the headphones off before i take them off for you. why cant you just exhibit basic human decency. what do you mean im being ableist.
actually i said neurotypicals bc this post is specifically about spd/autism (both neurological disabilities) but ive never met a single disabled person who insisted i remove a sensory aid out of this all-important need for good manners. its too loud and it hurts. my pain is more important than these ridiculous, made-up social rules. stop clutching your pearls when an autistic person wears headphones to dinner. you're being rude to us.