#like my luck today is insane !!!!!

[front-facing-pokemon]

#okay i did not have to edit this one. score #shiftry #anyway i really don't like this pokémon or anything about it. SORRY but it's true it's really ugly and its mouth and the nose #and it has the same things i don't like about it that i talked about with nuzleaf. i just don't get it but this time it wasn't in psmd #so i'm not attached to it just by virtue of that. and well. that contributes to me not really liking it i suppose #ahh well. better luck next time TPC you can make a good grass/dark-type eventually (it's meowscarada) (it took 6 generations) #hi it's me from two weeks later like the actual day this post is going to post. i came back to edit the tags so i could respond to some #comments. crazy‚ i know! but i saw the tags on this one were a bit short so let's beef 'em up. the nuzleaf post got some comments #about the whole prosthetic memory thing. where i set reminders on my phone to do shit or else i will not do the shit #i literally have a reminder set for 2:30 PM today to eat food. or else i won't even do that i bet #and folks are saying it's a common ADHD experience and that i'm not a fail and i do appreciate it. i think i was joking a bit #i was probably just frustrated i had to edit the image after taking it but the gist is. i don't *think* i have ADHD? i do have autism #which i suspected for a loooooong while until i finally up and got diagnosed when i was fucking 21 years old. which is insane. so i wonder #if that's an experience that overlaps. i imagine it is bc they proooobably would've been able to tell me if i had ADHD‚ too #okay. i moved these tags over here from nosepass‚ actually‚ which is the pokémon i just queued up. so i'm gonna go remove them from there #see you in street fighter five everybody

[nobodybetterlookatme]

Okay I'm not saying that this semester's students suck ass bc I'm not there to teach them, but isn't it just such a coincidence that the vast majority are failing so miserably and they don't have someone who will tutor them outside of class and go over notes and skills with them, while the previous semesters did have that and the majority passed? Super interesting stuff. Too bad we'll never know if things could've been different if they had just fucking paid me :)

#can you tell I'm peeved lmao #i went to one of the classes today just so i can keep it on my resume #and holy fuck #weeks into the semester and they should have the basics down #they do not #absolutely floundering #granted I'm sure I'm not actually the reason lmao #like yeah i helped a shit ton of students outside class too #but they probably could've passed without me #these new ones tho are awful #no drive no nothing just looking for others to blame for their own failures #i didn't even stay the whole time like i was planning #bc i found out that they hired four other fucking people for the program #who all have less experience than me #and have been with the program for a way shorter time than i have #who don't do half the extra shit i do #and don't get me wrong this isn't a slight at them they're all fully qualified #but why the fuck not hire me #like i genuinely am so pissed #have to email my supervisor but I'm too upset to make it sound civil #like fucking fine if you don't wanna pay me you never get to see me again #I'm not working ten hour days plus extra outside of class for nothing anymore that's insane #I'll keeping being a private tutor for the students but I'm not doing a single thing for the program without pay #i mean holy shit hiring at least four other people and not saying shit to me?? #like fine that's fine fuck you you're getting an email ultimatum good luck finding someone else willing to do all that for free #i cried about it for like an hour and now I'm just mad lmao having a super normal one rn #anyway #not snz

[dont-offend-the-bees]

We need better fucking care infrastructure. I should not be trusted with anyone's care ever 💛

#thing is caring for myself? I'm not GREAT at it but i can scrape by #i know my limits i know how much or little i need to survive i know that i can usually more or less bounce back after a tough time #i think if my life fell out from under me i could probably scrape it back even if i wound up doing a lot of couch surfing in the meantime #i genuinely don't know how I'll survive if i have to be fucking sole carer for someone #dad's on his way back now and he's been prescribed antibiotics and hopefully that's that #but at least a couple of times a year there's some shit like this #an awful cough or an infection or a fucking insane choice to like do some diy on the outside of the house standing on the windowsill #he fucking nearly chokes on his food once or twice a week #maybe he's just one of those cockroach type motherfuckers who'll never die no matter how the universe steps on him #but I'm fucking PISSED that he's taking that for granted and won't even sit and fucking talk to me about what happens when his luck runs out #I've been looking after mum alone for what four hours today and I'm already so tired and frustrated i wanna die #i am. a deeply impatient and unsociable creature. #i can be infinitely patient with friends! those are my fave people i chose to have them in my life I'd wait like a fucking mountain for them #mum and i were.... already sort of At Odds before all this started. #i'm the kid she never 100% really wanted and who never really 100% wanted to be here #and now we're stuck together and one day possibly sooner than any of us want it will be. just the two of us. #and i just. i don't know what that looks like. i really don't. #anyway. mental breakdown over hopefullly. #with a bit of luck dad and i actually fucking TALK before the next one #idk man. i never really knew what i wanted to do with my life but i thought I'd have time to figure it out #but maybe I'm just. the unqualified burnout with covid memory damage and a whole ass other human to care for #the exact thing i set out to avoid when i decided never to have kids #anyway. enough oversharing. #thank you anyone who's read my spiralling tag rambles in solidarity i love you #mr. bees speaks

[orcelito]

The drive for chapter 12 has not abated

As soon as I am able I'm gonna be finishing that shit TODAY. So long as nothing truly catastrophic happens, then I should be able to post tonight

#speculation nation #itnl shit #not promising anything bc ive had some shit ass luck today #but. it Should happen. i want it to. #i have like 17 comments to reply to too on the last chapter hfkshfhshxkdbxkdb #which im gonna do Before i post the next chapter #it's honestly Wild how many comments ive been getting. the comment to kudos ratio is INSANE #might not be widely known yet but those that do know it Love it #anyways im pretty damn proud of what ive got going for chapter 12. #it's the first one where i feel like ive really gotten to display my writing skills. aside from chapter 1 I Guess #but even then chapter 1 was mostly experimental. you know what's Actually harder? writing Action. #coming up with action beats that are actually fun and exciting and then following through with prose #and word choice and sentence structure matters Even More than usual. bc those can directly affect the motion of the words themselves #thus affecting the perception of the actions being described #shit like that! it takes some practice and skill to do that & make it interesting #and i cant say im perfect at it. but im still pretty proud of what ive gotten done #and i am VERY excited to show it to u guys heheh

[ningtual]

anyone who says that materialistic things don't bring you happiness LIES

#after uni i went downtown to actually find my mom a present for mother's day #which i did! #but i also made this insane thrift find (which i never do i suck at thrifting kinda) #like the perfect grandma cardigan with little flower stitching and everything #and then i wanted to replace my broken snoopy mug if anyone remembers that #but unfortunately it wasn't available anymore :( #BUT THEN #i found the prettiest mug ever handmade with little strawberries on it 🍓 #and now i'm the happiest person on earth #oh and the summer dresses didn't fit me nicely unfortunately but i also found a super cute one in person today !!!!! #like my luck today is insane !!!!! #the universe loves me today #next stop today is the next flower shop bc i couldn't find an orchid for my empty pot that wasn't robbing me senseless #determined to find one under 10 bucks 😈 #thank u for reading i don't think i've ever wrote tags this long on this blog wowie #but yeah my day has been successful so far ! #000

[missingn000]

#attempting to write ALL DAY today. schedule cleared #wrote for most of the day on saturday too but as it turns out! 39.1 is insanely difficult 😁 even for me #26.1 is in my top 5 favorite scenes in tpg and i keep comparing everything in this section to it so T__T going a little insane #i DO like what i've written so far but. IT AINT MUCH #i will finish this chapter by the end of this week if it kills me. and tbh. it might #anyway #wish me luck #tpg

[inkykeiji]

waaah happy first day of october everyone!!! 👻

#LET’S GET SPOOOOOOKY #i kinda wanna do halloween matchups again but like #what an insane amount of work HAHAHA #i did just hit another milestone again tho………… #i’ll think about it!!! #godspeed to everyone doing kinktober <3 #i like that kinktober has kind of evolved from being 31 short oneshots to a few longer fics for a lot of people #i think that’s rly cool #either way! good luck to everyone participating! c: #i am SO SLEEEEEEEPY ITS AWFUL 。ﾟ(ﾟﾉД｀ﾟ)ﾟ｡ #also i did some major blog maintenance n reno last night!!!!! #revised my pinned n all of that so! check it out if u wanna! <3 #have a fab sunday everyone n do something spooky today to celebrate october!!!!! #clari chatters

[acesammy]

Ugh man I am so not looking forward to work tomorrow

#My coworker didn’t show up today #and I know it’s bc she’s pissed #and I’m p sure it’s at me #and I know I haven’t been pulling my weight properly but also we’ve been like.. steady #not insanely busy #so she doesn’t need to go as hard as she does. I do what’s required of me #and on Wednesday she froze me out bc I didn’t immediately hop up to print versa and I made her do it #but it wasn’t fucking unreasonable of me to do that bc I only had /6/ to print #which probably took her like a total of 10 extra minutes #whereas she had So So Many #and idk how it worked out like that bc last week /I/ did it bc I had an INSANE amount of them to print #and it took me MORE THAN SIX FUCKING HOURS #she was gone for Three MAX and she was so pissed off at me #like??? Idek what to say??? I’m sorry???? I didn’t pass those orders by Adrianne /YOU/ just happened to take them #just like last week I happened to get orders for HUNDREDS of versa #I’m OBVIOUSLY not just passing by the versa orders #IT WAS LUCK #and guess what I got like 4 approved today #IT WAS GODDAMN LUCK #Anyways I did most of her approvals today and we are still caught up so I hope she doesn’t bitch at me tomorrow #I KNOW she’s just stressed but I’m gonna be real I was already barely holding it together at work on Wednesday #bc I got the news that my dog was dying the day before #like I /did/ cry on my lunch. I didn’t even make it the whole day #and I didn’t tell her bc I don’t want her pity but UGHHHH #even if I WASNT barely holding it together #it would not have been an unreasonable ask that she print the versa #after I did it last week #AND SPENT MORE THAN SIX HOURS DOING IT #lea speaks #vent

[paeonie-s]

genuinely so emo abt the fact that i have friends who want to do stuff w me now omg

#i was v scared for college bc i have had. such awful luck w finding ppl who want to do things w me #the closest friendship ive ever had was online lol and even that ended w me being ignored and pushed away so its a v foreign experience for #other ppl to v openly. enjoy my company and continously invite me to things just bc they want me to be there #like ik a good part of that is everyone trying to not be lonely as shit these first couple weeks but all of the friends im referring to #were part of a summer program where they got to show up like 6 weeks early and so they already have friends and ppl to hang out w #so its still rly cool that i showed up made friends w like 2 of them and now 3 weeks later im having to actively plan time to do hw and #watch my shows and stuff bc im being invited to eat and walk around and watch movies and do things all the time #shit is surreal !! im so grateful esp when my suggestions for things to do are well recieved like today alone i invited some of them #to go to the barnes and noble opening in a town near us next month + to a open house at our states observatory. and other ppl were actually #excited to learn abt those. its insane im so used to being ignored and treated like the things i care abt dont matter i love life rn omg #ppl are so cool and interesting sometimes i still feel like i am the most boring person in the room bc i never had the time money location #or motivation to explore a ton of my interests but when i tell ppl abt that feeling theyre like bitch me too !!! lets go snowboard and hike #and have observing nights and paint and dress up for halloween together and its makes me so happy. that is all #actually one more thing i was initially thinking abt dressing up as asa csm (which is. already an improvement from younger me feeling so #isolated she avoided dressing up for halloween for a decade bc she never felt close enough to go w anyone) BUT NOW im a part of a 2 month #old plan for like a dozen ppl to dress up as monster high girls AND im gonna be draculaura. literally such a slay i cant #🌸.txt

[futuregws]

Lmao ofc you're critical of pedro pascal yet you stan the most basic white men. Your yt faves can commit hate crimes and you'll defend them but pedro doesn't update his who he's following on social media oh noooooo

Baby who pissed in your cereal??

Do you need help reading?? Bc I can help you with reading comprehension, it's a tough thing to learn so it gets even the best of us, I would advise, you take care of that tho don't want you embarrassing yourself like this again

#Bro pleaseee I've been reading so much stupid shit today you really don't wanna come at me bc I swear the filter I usually have is gone #Like for the love of God learn to fucking read before you go and be your nasty self to people that didn't do shit to you #And please tell me when was the last time I even thirsted over a white dude the only guy I've been talking about is pedro #And I certainly don't sound very critical but okay hun the only guys I've been thirsting over are pedro and another guy #Who is also not white so if you wanna use the list on my bio to attack me better luck next time bc that shit isn't updated #yall are insane #Pedro pascal

[aletherancaspar]

oh?

#him #i’ve been #working on this art for a MONTH #and today i finally got the #strength to finish #let it not be said that muse luck isn’t effective #i’ll #fix it when i wake up i think #edit after waking up: #i love this i love him i love the universe #i showed muse to my ex bf and he said that muse looks like an average punjabi guy #AVERAGE??????? MY MUSE???? ARE YOU INSANE #i’m never going to meet ex bf again. dosti cancel #@enbyly suggested that this could be a particular… form of muse #but in my heart that variant is very vulnerable and cute #this is the original goods :D #someone probably pushes him in a pool; pool guy #i love him #pata hai. whenever i post him i always want to add a quote from a song too #but it’s hard to translate 😩😩😩 by the time i’m done i’m either sick of the lyric or think the lyric is a Bit Much #for this song i wanted to use; from Neray Neray Vas: #that i keep looking on and on upon your face / come; sit by me; let me coax you

[starbuck]

was marveling at how many new species i’ve added for my patch this year and thinking “that’s weird… i hammered it just as hard in past years…” only to check ebird and realize the most times i’d ever gone in a previous year was 38 and i’ve been 62 times so far this year and it’s only October 😂😂

#like. lmaoooooooooo #part of that is because i went throughout the summer this time and i didn’t add any new species then #so i feel like luck and skill STILL play a pretty significant part here #but like. Damn. lol… #i wonder if ANY other person in this state can say they’ve been to one spot 62 times this year… #truly getting into patch birding was the best thing i’ve EVER done #i’m OBSESSED with this place while simultaneously knowing that it doesn’t actually matter at all #i’m literally ONLY in competition with myself here #and meanwhile i’ve put this place on the map and have a whole gaggle of new friends now bc i’ve attracted them there with my reports #it’s insane #literally nearly 25% of ALL the checklists for this place are mine 😂😂 #i love it so much #the real question is: how many more new species can i add by the end of the year? #optimistically i’d say there’s potential for five or so depending on how much hawkwatching i’m able to get in #but 1-3 is probably more likely #WE SHALL SEE!!!!!!!!!! #i’ve already broken my record for ‘most new species added in one year’ as of today!! #which is impressive considering the fact that once i add a species - i can’t add it again - so repeats don’t count #i’ve just had some REALLY good luck this year istg… #but i’m proud of myself #and i’ve gained the respect of a bunch of the old-timers which is also fantastic

[witchwhaat]

😶

#i hate being mean on accident i hate it #you know when you have only one spoon left and you'll either use it for. surviving the day. or acting nice and friendly towards people? yea #god people from my studies must think that i'm a mean bitch😶 #long story short we had to work in pairs and idk any of these people so i just sat with the only lone guy and he was like okay sure #and then when we started working he basically thought that i don't give a fuck which was not true #i was just tired and my migraine was already starting and i really didn't have any nice ideas for the work we had to do #so i apologised and tried my best but i'm 100% sure i still came out as mean and not caring ;-; #like he still did most of the 1st task but i did most of the 2nd but yeah. yeah i just. idk. i feel bad about it yknow. #i need a friend there or i'll go insane aldjdhajjdjdjd #and i still have one more thing in the evening which i was excited about earlier but now i'd just rather stay home :( #good luck for me with curing my migraine in 30 minutes🥴 #anyway. here's your oversharing on the internet for today #neg #agnes talking

[strwbrymlkshake]

literalyl insane if my dumb feelings don't go away I'll have to start a normal normal rant tag for him I think –_–

#mine #i feel so bad i havent talked to anyone except my group thats involved in my hyperfixation recently uwagh #i will try to take a break tomorrow. hyperfixation doubled with guy im kind of obsessed with creates literally no time for anything else #im still taking care of myself while being so fixated i cant move for several hours. good on me for that #anyways anyways i tried not to be deranged today. not even fathoming romance atm im just happy i get to be around him teehee #made me rly think about how hes been very chill with everything ive ever said to him even tho i am a little freak . which is uncommon #i am not daydreaming about it because itll break my fucking heart but im content for now i think :) i like hanging out with him #'im normal about him' proceeds to talk abt him on my yandere blog. #im not feeling yanderish i just dont have another place to talk abt this stuff so here it is! bon appetite #im not rly freaking out as much and im good at distancing myself from him. even tho idk if anything will happen im trying to #practice controlling my insane person feelings when around him ;-; im doing good i THINK i havent been as weird #my thoughts around him are all weird and distorted and not quite romantic (yet?) but i know that i just feel comfortable w him #im:) im happy im enjoying. watch him get a partner immediately after this and i go batshit bc that is my freakin luck #well it doesnt matter i had a good time while i could and thats what counts ig . had only a smidgen of hope anyways! but its ok #i am so jaded to romance i am going to accept whatever happens and hope its atleast funny . and he finds humor in it #n i would get to hear his horrid laugh. itd be nice. i like it its very contagious. his voice maxes my brain out in serotonin #he was messing around w me in [hyperfixation] and i really enjoyed the attention hwuwhidhekfn made me flustered #i was saying like Romantic CodedTM things to him and he was just giving indecisive responses but not elaborating . so who knows #im not fretting or anything like its fun its chill i feel relaxed !! very casual stuff am having a good time. he has beautiful eyes also. #hes so talented and knows what hes doing. and hes so freaking smart he knows so much stuff oh my god. #i keep having repeated dreams abt him its weird fjdjfjdk. normal things to say abt ur friend btw. normal #i think his fascination w [redacted] is so beautiful his memory is rly good too. im NORMAL i swear #i like to cause spectacles that are memorable and funny so he pays attention to me more. i like attention from everyone but his is esp. fun #i love my friends so much i tell them that i appreciate them everyday. i hope they know they are loved so much #i probably just love the side of himself he chooses to show n not his authentic true self bc online stuff oh well #tho i do feel if you spend an ungodly amnt of hrs straight with someone then you are bound to know them more intimately #i love doing absolutely nothing with my friends and make our own fun in boredom. reminds me of my childhood #maybe i am allowed to think abt him awkwardly patting me on the head. as a treat #this guy reminds me of a previous love interest too except he doesnt emotionally abuse me or himself and has a freaking soul #💿

[kaeyaphile]

I AM MANIFESTING THAT MY ONE AND ONI, ARATAKI ITTO, COMES HOME TO ME!!! 🥺🤞🏻

#kayleigh.txt #🎮 kayleigh plays genshin impact #hopefully i don't lose to qiqi again like i did with xiao 🥲 #i've got 92 wishes as of right now to use today #and in 9d 13hr 15min i can buy a bunch of intertwined fates with my stardust that i've saved up #but i'm REALLY hoping i get him tonight 😭 🤞🏻 🙏🏻 #but yeah i lost my 50/50 to qiqi and then got xiao the 10-pull i immediately did following that massive letdown #which was absolutely insane luck jfc i am not expecting it again r i p #I JUST NEED A GOOD CLAYMORE AND GEO USER AND ITTO IS BOTH AND ALSO I ABSOLUTELY ADORE HIM GDI

[missingn000]

#okay off 2 bed #meeting today went really well btw!! like actually insanely well i dont think it realistically could have gone better #the prof was SO COOL and we rlly clicked!!! our research interests are perfectly aligned and he seemed so excited about my research #and potential projects ;___; #that program is one of my top choices i feel like i might actually have a shot now. perhaps thats just wishful thinking. time will tell #i have a meeting w a prof at my other top choice tomorrow @__@ please wish me luck #gn!!