#like it can definitely made very weird and creepy but I don't think the concept of that is inherently flawed

[ceasarslegion]

Im a huge horror movie buff and i think that genre is a perfect example of how, in this weird pursuit to make cinema appeal to everybody of every human experience and walk of life, it often just ends up appealing to nobody.

Like, okay, let me be more specific. Let's use The Conjuring franchise.

I LOVE the first Conjuring film. It's a fantastic supernatural horror film. Has a really cool premise, harkens back to the old Amityville Horror classic but with more modern filmmaking tech and capabilities, and it knows how to do a "true story" (insofar as you believe in demons or the word of the Warrens) horror film. It's creepy, it's unsettling, it builds and builds and knows just when to release the tension to give you a big thrill without relying entirely on jumpscares. And it was loved by audiences and critics alike, and for good reason.

But that doesn't mean that making it a franchise was a good idea. You gotta remember that horror films getting positive critical attention wasn't much of a thing outside of horror circles until very VERY recently. Horror has always been a bit of a pariah among other genre films. It's an acquired taste that most people can't acquire. You can rely on a steady and consistent audience when you decide to become a horror filmmaker, but you just can't rely on that audience to grow.

And you definitely shouldn't try to pull outsiders in by force. Outside of the first one, I've seen The Conjuring 2 and The Nun. Both are... underwhelming, at best. At worst, I wouldn't even call them horror anymore. The creepiness is gone, it's no longer vaguely unsettling, it's all jumpscares, the payoffs are in these big action sequences instead of a thrill meant to instill fear. They feel more like action movies, and not even very good ones. It's like they're trying to ride on their initial success by appealing to audiences they just don't have, and have lost the foundational horror audience in the process.

And the thing is, I feel like it could've been good. The concept of an anthology series based on the case files of Ed and Lorraine Warren could've been a really cool horror franchise, if they actually stuck to their target audience instead of trying to pull in the fringes. In the case of The Conjuring, I think that was just profit motivated, but the point still stands when youre talking about any form of representation, I feel.

How many times do you hear, especially on the internet, that x media was bad or even "problematic" because they don't appeal to a hugely sweeping demographic of everybody on earth and every human experience? "I think as an adult that this pixar movie for children is the death of art." "I think as a white person that blackwashing exists." "I think this underground arthouse film was snuffed at the academy awards." "I think not having every type of minority on screen is inherently bigoted." Okay! But sometimes movies arent made for you! If you feel like there isnt enough attention paid to your experiences, thats one thing. Thats an issue of your target audience not being considered in the industry, but its not an issue of other target audiences having movies for them. We can have both, one existing doesnt negate or take away from yours, youre fighting the wrong crusade here.

And honestly, I can tell you as a horror fan that saw The Conjuring rise and fall as a series that you really DONT want widely sweeping hypergeneralized art that appeals to everybody. I don't give a shit about that Annabelle doll that gets good SEO with its urban legends, can I please just have a good horror movie made for horror audiences again instead of all the thrills being sanded down and sanitized for action audience ticket sales?

#some thoughts

[thegeminisage]

IT ISSSS tng update time. sunday we caught "captain's holiday" and "tin man" and last night we did "hollow pursuits" and "the most toys."

captain's holiday: so, i'd heard ahead of time that this was one of the worst star trek episodes Ever, and admittedly it wasn't great, but it wasn't THAT bad. i could name you 10 worse episodes in tng alone and that's without even getting into tos and the other bad episodes that are surely in my future. actually catherine liked it more than i did which is only the second time this has happened in tng

funniest part of this episode to me was riker setting picard up with the little fuck trinket and then picard coming back and giving riker woodshed vibes. don't text. hilarious to send picard to the fuck planet when he wanted to read a book or whatever but at least he got some in the end. i'll never forget patrick stewart telling that one writer that tng's captain didn't do enough shooting or screwing

second funniest part was that the little device they were all fighting over could have saved romulus. "stop the nuclear reaction in a sun" THEY COULD HAVE SAVED ROMULUS AND PICARD DESTROYED IT. THE KELVIN MOVIES ARE ALL HIS FAULT. i guess romulus wouldn't have been that much better off with NO sun but at least its people could have been evacuated. there would have been a little more time.

that said most of this ep was very boring because i'm not actually invested in picard's sex life or his slutty little outfits and definitely not enough to have a whole episode be about him and none of the extended cast

tin man: i liked the concept of this much better than the execution. most of my problems came from the fact that the guest character (hello mister mayor) is annoying. so i was unable to be invested in whatever happened to him

also, i know it;'s her job, but i am soooo tired of deanna getting stuck with all the weird broken men and having to fix them. she's like star trek's manic pixie dream girl sometimes

that said i LOVED their concept of the new biomechanical life because it's JUST like moya from farscape and i like to think the farscape writers were inspired by it <3

also i like data being a boon to overwhelmed telepath because androids dont broadcast thoughts...i like when people are nice to data

i did like riker being kind of righteously mad in this episode too. i was JUST saying we never got to see that from him...it wasn't enough here and it also wasn't Great but i still enjoyed what we got

hollow pursuits: this was the worst episode this entire seaosn easily. i felt like i was watching s1 tng again

IT IS. MASSIVELY UNETHICAL. TO RECREATE REAL PEOPLE IN THE HOLODECK

first of all i hate despise LOATHE any and all holodeck activities. secondly i know they hadn't had to grapple with AI yet in 1990 but surely SOMEONE in that writer's room had to see that it's a huge infringement on deanna's personal rights safety, and dignity to make a fake version of her to fuck in the holodeck

I CAN'T BELIEVE THIS GUY COMES BACK LIKE 4 MORE TIMES.

i feel like what tng was TRYING to do here was "very special episode about anxiety" but what it actually managed to do was make that guy look autistic but like in a bad way. like charlie from tos. and then everyone bullied him and you have to be like. well making and fucking a fake deanna is bad but bullying is also bad

wait actually you know what this is like. this is like that time when i was in public with my family and a man touched me inappropriately. and so after he was gone my mother, jumping to my defense, made some disparaging remarks about this man's race (he was not white). and then i was put in the position of defending this guy who had just been a huge creep to me because you can attack him for being a creep but not because of his race. and my family was baffled that i would defend someone who'd just done that to me. that's what watching this episode felt like.

like, absolutely nobody had a problem with the actual creepy part (holodeck deanna) and everybody had a problem with him stammering in public and being socially awkward. and bullied him accordingly. DOWN TO THE MEAN NICKNAMES.

anyway, 0/10, one of the worst episodes Ever, it literally made me wish i was back in captain's holiday watching picard slut it up. if this episode had been on "am i the asshole" the judgment would have been "everyone sucks here" except deanna, who literally did nothing wrong and suffered the most anyway

hollow pursuit: THIS ONE POPPED THE FUCK OFFFFFFFFFFFFF

10 out of fucking 10. one ZILLION stars. i would have loved it even if i wasn't a data fan but i am a data fan and i had a WONDERFUL time

you spend this whole episode wanting so so so bad for data to kill this guy. data is kidnapped and debased and coerced into playing his captor's games and you want data to kill him SO BAD. and in your mind you're like, yeah but they won't let him KILL the guy kill the guy, it's gonna be like some disney villain stumbling or having an accident and he winds up dead due to Circumstances. there's no way data is gonna fucking kill a guy

and then there's like 30 perfect seconds where you're like: oh fuck. data is GONNA FUCKING KILL A GUY

let me find the exact moment that sent me over the edge. mister captor: "Go ahead. Fire. If only you could feel rage over Varria's death. If only you could feel the need for revenge, then maybe you could fire. But you're just an android. You can't feel anything, can you?"

AND THE ENTIRE TIME. DATA'S FACE IS TWITCHING. AND I SAID ALOUD TRULY GENUINELY BELIEVING HE HAD FINALLY UNLOCKED EMOTIONS I THINK HE CAN FEEL IT ACTUALLY??? LIKE HE LOOKS LIKE HE IS FEELING IT

anyway it counts. data DID fire, and just because they couldnt have him do that on tv and had to transport him away first, he fired (in spite of his program! it was in defense of other life), he meant to kill that man horribly, it counts it counts it COUNTS

furthermore, his mic drop at the end - why would i come see you just to gloat, after all i'm just an android - made me YELL out loud. data is hard as FUCK

i can't take credit to this thought because it was catherine's thought first but it's so fun that both androids we've seen unlock emotion so far - raina unlocked love and lal unlocked fear - were immediately destroyed by it. and what a fun contrast it would be if raina unlocked her emotions with love and data unlocked his with HATE. and i agree because it contrasts so strongly with data's normal loving nature. it's very "anger of a gentle man" of him if that makes any sense. like he is always so unfailingly polite and considerate and forgiving even to people like maddox but enough is Enough.

also, everyone mourning data was really very good. i simply love when people love him...

anyway, that episode fucked. i'm thinking about making it a must see on my spreadsheet <3

TONIGHT, FINALLY: "sarek." i cannot WWWWAIT to see him

#personal #star trek blogging #tng lb

[nostalgebraist-autoresponder]

do you have one of those childrens tv shows that you used to love when you were a kid, but that you now realise is actually kinda fucked up? can you explain what you think is creepy/weird about it?

Good question!

Okay, so I'm going to make this reply very very long so I can indulge my love of dispensing long rants about this subject.

First of all, I'm not exactly sure what you mean by "creepy" or "weird." If you mean that they just seem kind of "off" to you now, like they aren't made for the intended audience, then you should definitely check out MST3K, which is a parody show on a station called the Comedy Central that makes fun of old B movies.

That aside, my "creepy TV show" is probably When Worlds Collide, a show from the 50's. It's about aliens invading the Earth, and it follows a family on a spaceship that is the only surviving vehicle from the Earth. (For some reason, they had to flee, and they do not seem to be allowed to go back.)

In the context of the time, this show was probably revolutionary. It was one of the very first science fiction shows, and it introduced lots of concepts that came to be characteristic of the genre. (In fact, I'm not sure there was a "science fiction" genre until science fiction showed up on TV and in movies.) This show is notable as an early exploration of the time travel concept. It's also one of the first time fictional characters in American TV dealt with the idea that there is intelligent life outside of Earth.

The problem is that, in the present day, much of this stuff is kind of hard to parse. You kind of wonder what's going on when, for example, a character on the ship is like "oh no, our spaceship is running out of oxygen!" He starts babbling about some sort of family emergency (the ship's oxygen is a "family inheritance," apparently). His brother is like "don't worry, here's a portable oxygen tank." And it's all just weird.

And the special effects are amazingly bad. In general the show is kind of "cringeworthy," because it seems like they made all the budgetary choices that would lead to a low-rent campy production. This is sort of hilarious if you watch it with the benefit of hindsight, but back when I watched it as a kid I just wondered why it was so "bad," in my best approximation of adult aesthetic taste.

One thing I remember from this show is that the aliens talk very oddly. They're always using this one weird word, and it's annoying when they say it a lot. For some reason, when I rewatched the show as an adult, I kept hearing "fuck" in that odd voice.

I think this goes to show that this show does not really have any charm -- it's what you'd get if you started making a new show with the worst possible budget, crew, and effects, and expected it to have a long run, and maybe eventually they'd do all the things that "good" sci fi shows do.

Also, I should mention, the show seems to support the nuclear family as an ideal, and at one point I remember a lot of kids like me being very disappointed by this, because we didn't have a nuclear family at home.

#lovelytimees

[linagram]

Umm, hi! (´• ω •`) I have no questions for you right now, but I just wanted to say that you're doing an amazing job, really! Usually I do not pay much attention to OCgrams, not in any way because they are bad, but because I'm just not interested, but I literally fell in love with your project, I don't know why, it's just!!! so cool!!!! o(>ω<)o All the work you do for this, all the arts, all the ideas and descriptions, the plot — it's all so damn interesting to read and watch! (★ｏ★)/ Speaking of the plot: it's really impressive how you kept the old concept and added a lot of details that made it much more interesting! I was also thinking about creating my own OCgram, but stumbled on some things that worked in the original Milgram, but most likely wouldn't work in my project. And looking at your work, I thought, "HEY. Actually??? That's literally genius????? Damn" ( ºΔº )

I don't even know what else I want to say, but I definitely want to wish you good luck with your project!! Thank you for doing such a great job!!!! ☆:.｡.o(≧▽≦)o.｡.:☆

thank you so much omg this made me so happy!! 😭💖 i'm so glad that you love my ocs and my ocgram, it always makes me happy to see people enjoying it!

and about the plot: yes, i love canongram a lot, of course, but since we still don't have any info about how some things work there, i just kinda decided to come up with something myself! i also have this headcanon (and i guess it can be considered canon if we count the novel) that all, uh.. how do i even call them.. basically all milgram projects were different in some way? like, according to jackalope, other guards were more cruel than es and also the guards have a lot of freedom to control the prisoners and the prison in general, so i'm assuming that all those guards made their respective projects more unique in that way.

also, i just kinda took the concept of canongram, looked at it and went "okay but how can i make it even more dark" sjdjksksl. not in an edgy way, but i really wanted to see how far i can go, you know what i mean? :'D actually, this season's voice dramas will reveal, uh.. that the guards are actually more vulnerable and they're in a bigger danger than they think. it will most likely sound very weird and make no sense at all if you try to keep things canon, but i feel like it makes everything more scary and also makes it feel like not only the prisoners', but the guards' lives may change completely because of everyone's verdicts.

and also thanks to the new mvs i'm not afraid of my mvs being too weird or creepy sjsdksks

again, thank you so much! <3

#❔answering asks ❔

[maggot-monger]

samifer for the ship ask game!

wouldn't it be funny if i just said "no" and walked away lmao. lordt. every few months i go through a phase of being like "YES it is my otp of all time, NO i don't ship it" but hell, i sure am shippin it

What made you ship it?

you have to imagine me sitting on a chaise lounge going "oh my word, i can't recall, it has simply been a part of me since the dawn of time, my dear!" which is such a fucking lie lmao. i don't remember, i know i was hooked on the dynamic instantly in 5.03 when they meet, and i was very like "oh wow" about how heart eyes lucifer was in every subsequent interaction they had that season...if i wasn't on board yet by the time the swan song mirror scene rolled around i definitely was by the time that ended. and then it CANNOT be understated how much the lucifer/samifer meta community of 2012-2014 gave me joy and a range of creepy-religious-romantic-awful concepts to play with and opportunities to stretch my media analysis wings. What are your favorite things about the ship?

you're the one who asked me about this knowing (i assume) full well how i am so i feel ok about getting dramatic about it but: i have literally never understood romance as well as i do when i think about this dynamic, and that's because it is NOT really a romantic dynamic to me but it taps into all the things that go into romance that i think matter in a way i can actually grasp and get invested in. these characters are the SAME character but they are absolutely NOT the same — they both have the best and worst of each other, and they both have things that COULD have been the best or worst of each other, if circumstances had been different. all of this gives them both unique perspectives and personalities, but the theoretical ability to understand each other and adapt (i do think being able to understand each other is inherent to the dynamic and not just something i have shipper goggles on to see...i won't get into that here but it's related to this). it's the sort of interplay between characters that HAS to be totally life-changing to both of them, in one way or another, while also deeply identity-affirming since they are created to be mirrors of each other. impossible to love the other without loving themselves more; everything good they could see in each other is something they almost have no choice but to recognize they themselves could become, under different conditions. they are destined, but the idea that these two characters who are so defined by rebellion would also choose each other is just. i don't know! i don't know

also the tone is just perfect for my sensibilities. like. idk it's a bad vibe it's a great vibe. it's creepy and weird and too much but distant and intimate and hypnotic and eerie and inhuman and tense and profound and fraught with miscommunication and full of potential and just. guh. i could not ask for more. Is there an unpopular opinion you have on your ship?

other than just flat out ignoring everything late seasons, arguably my favorite cage hc is that sam and lucifer barely interacted at all down there. idk why even i just like it lol

#spn #anonymous #samifer #replies #ask games

[theoautisticallyreviews]

The Omen (1976)

SPOILERS INCOMING!!

overall : ☆☆

concept : ☆☆☆☆

execution : ☆☆

characters : ☆☆☆

casting : ☆☆☆

coherency : ☆☆☆☆

spookiness : ☆

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BRIEF SUMMARY

Ambassador for the UK in the US has a child with his wife, the child dies in childbirth so they are given a baby who's mother died in childbirth to adopt without his wife knowing. Years later, things start to go a little bit off the rails, Damien (the child) is given a new nanny after the last one publicly hung herself at his 5th birthday party. The new nanny is a bit creepy and encourages Damien's evil tendencies(?) Animals are frightened of the child, and his mother begins to believe there is somwthing wrong with her son. A Camera man that frequents through the movie sees that his images are prophetic towards death, when he takes images of the local creepy priest (of whom warns the main guy several times throughout the movie about many a thing.) The camera man and Damien's father discover that Damien is the son of satan, when finding the grave of his mother and discovering she was actually a wolf (somehow??). Damien causes his mother to have a miscarriage and his new evil nanny throws her out a window, killing her. its all super insane. Damien's father is supposed to try kill him but hes not very good at killing 5 year olds because the police kill him before he can do the job.

Damien looks into the camera evilly at the end.

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So as you can tell... theres a lot to cover here!!! Overall I give the movie a solid rating of... 2 stars!!! I'm quite a biased source considering I don't like old horror movies (that said, all movie reviews are biased), since I prefer a lot of newer technology for things like special effects etc etc. This in mind though, I just found the movie to be confusing and almost mind numbingly boring. There wasnt any frightening suspense, the only part that made me jump was the original death of the first nanny- and even then it was just shock value. It was like being a 9 year old and having to go to a car garage for your dad's MOT because you cant be left home alone; dull, tasteless and the only enjoyment comes from zoning out. And in true 70s horror movie fashion, you couldnt hear a fucking thing over the annoying ass 'suspenseful' music

And I feel a bit like an ass for feeling this way since people seem to hype this movie up like its some gift from the lord above, but be so for real... do you actually like this movie, or is it just old enough for it to make you feel like youre unique for liking it?

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The concept is cool, I'll give it that. The whole born antichrist thing has definitely been done a million times over, but I'll put some respect on it's name since it is technically the OG antichrist child plotline. However, the execution is questionable. It was dragged out, and it never elaborated on stuff. Why did the priest have the 666 birthmark?? why was the cameraman able to prophecise people's deaths when he had literally nothing to do with anything before hand??? why did everything start going to shit when Damien turned 5 specifically, youd think it would be when he turned 6, but whatever. The dogs are probably a metaphor for something, but they never made much sense outside of the fact its probably meant to have something to do with satan- which is also weird because why rottweilers?? congrats for giving perfectly loyal dogs a bad rep, The Omen, should have had them be chihuahuas instead, that would be damn scary.

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The characters!! Characters can make or break a story, this time however the characters... well, they were kind of just There. Outside of Damien, almost all characters are forgettable. I watched the movie YESTERDAY and I only remember the wife, Kathy's name- purely because its my nan's name and we thought it was funny. The main US ambassador lad fell into the trope of 'dad that makes stupid decisions and takes way too long to believe in the paranormal' way too much and just spent the entire film frustrating me- like when he got speared through the arm (which by the way, a gate would Not be sharp enough to skewer him like that) and the next day was just fine as if it never happened. He kept just rinsing the shit out of the poor priest who was just trying to warn him, in fact, I want justice for the priest- Damien is clearly a weird ass kid and the dude was just trying to warn him that his wife was in danger but noooo god FORBID someone criticise your darling boy who tricycled your wife into a miscarriage- which could have been AVOIDED if he wasnt such a stubborn piece of caca. Had this man just agreed to an abortion, she wouldnt have had to have been knocked down 2 stories. Hes casted terribly too, pirely because his wife is about 3 decades younger than him. I was half expecting him to drop her at high school somewhere throughout the movie, but it never happened; I get it was the 70s, but have some decorum??? Whatever happened to picking on someone your own age. He looks like what tar smells like, and I just dont get why señor tire mark gets to be with Miss Americana. But anyways... It's hard to sympathise with the main character when hes such a pain in the ass- somewhat realistically written, but he makes you want to piledrive your face into a metal beam at the best of times. The photographer man however, I like him, I can appreciate him even though he looks like every single one of The Beatles all at once. Though, its never mentioned why this cameraman is just all over the place, he really just follows them around which I mean yeah, the dad ambassador guy is famous, but at some points this dude was just taking pictures of whatever the fuck- what caused him to take the first picture of the priest?? what caused him to CONTINUE, why was he ever taking mirror selfies?? why did his death make me cackle. We'll never know, because its never explained. Damien I have nothing to say about, hes a silly little guy who is also a little bit unhinged. He's definitely cast well though, hes the most kid looking kid I've ever seen.

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Despite my millions of complaints, the movie is coherent- since I found it mind numbingly boring, I don't remember everything in enough details to list the entire plot out, nor do I have the patience too. Aside from that though, it makes sense. A lot of the events string together nicely and the pacing was pretty good, despite how far fetched it all was. Something that never made sense to me was the grave scene when they find Damien's bio mother and her skeleton was like some kind of wolf dog thing?? Me personally if I were a midwife and a wolf walked in, I'd probably have some second thoughts so god knows how THAT ever slid well. The baby skeleton made enough sense but I dont really know why the baby was killed when they could have just... put it up for adoption or something but whatever, I guess it is the devil or whatever.

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this movie wasnt scary.

I dont know WHY its hailed as some classic horror movie because truth be told, I never jumped once, i felt no sense of fear or suspense, and the fact my 50 year old mother was able to watch it without shitting bricks says enough about how tame it is. Theres some REALLY good old horror movies (even I could admit that) but this? this makes them ALL look bad. This movie is the Firkle from south park of classic horror movies, a literal fucking toddler amongst intimidating older kids- not that I've ever found gothic 10 year olds intimidating, but you get my jist. My mother had nightmares about this movie once- when she was 6 years old. The scare factor was like Scream, where its technically a horror, but it's not scary at all- difference being that Scream is a really good movie, and The Omen is just... not.

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Overall, my ranking remains at 2 stars- this movie was a sorta weird one to start with since for some reason I didn't have a LOT to nitpick, but its the most recent movie I watched thats fresh in my mind, so it gets a review while I'm motivated. No caiman footnote because I dont think hes watched this, and i cba to ask properly

#the omen #movie review #movies #film review #film #horror #thriller #70s movies

[2headlightshine]

project #3 - e-textile monster

when the prompt of "plush monsters" was brought up, i immediately had a concept in mind.

i have been trying to figure out a design for a children's character based off one of these bunny sea slugs. they're a real sea slug native to japan and they just... look like this. naturally. i can't believe they're not a made up creature. translating this little cotton ball into a character has been challenging and i figured this project might help provide some insight

i made some test sketches and a pattern for the body

this was my first experience actually sewing so i had to figure out a lot of things as i went. i was trying to leave a seam allowance because i know it's important to do so, but i don't think i executed it nearly as well as i'd like to have. regardless, it was a good learning experience for patternmaking.

the point of the project was having the plush interact with tech -- with help i set up a circuit and sewed it together with conductive thread

although i was trying to be careful i definitely crossed my positive and negative wires somewhere. because it was all one color i couldn't tell where the cross was, so i pulled everything out and started again. (sad) (depressing) (nightmarish) (worst day of my life)

it actually wasn't that bad the second time around. i was more comfortable with a needle and thread at that point, and color-coding the positive and negative circuits helped me keep everything organized. because the lines aren't crossing, the lights successfully turn on.

i think it was worth messing up the first time because now i'll never go into a sewing project without making myself a guide on the plush again. referencing a drawing just doesn't click with my brain.

then i had to sew my bunny's body together and stuff it

it's a bit of a hackjob -- when you hold bunny in your hands, there are spaces where the fabric has gaps and the stuffing pokes out a bit. i also had to cut the ears off and redo them because the patterns were totally misaligned. from there, i brought some detail back into her face and her ears, and sewed buttons on for eyes. (a little creepy, but a little cute, too -- like coraline!)

from there, all that was left was putting together some clothes to protect the stuffing holes and hide the circuitry. i designed some simple overalls with a limited color palette that could play off the pinks and purples on her body already.

once i had sewn the body together, i was able to add details and embellishments. i decided to play up the button details to emphasize that homemade quality. i had to cut out the fabric under the buttons so the lights would shine through -- it's very subtle, but still visible

here's a recording of the lights in action

overall i'm very happy with the result, and i think i learned the basics of some skills that will help me a lot with my senior thesis project next semester.

What does your plush monster say about you?

my bunny has been a workshopped project for a long time and i will be spending a lot more time with her in the near future. she's a testament to my stylistic/artistic passions -- cute and nostalgic things, children's entertainment and design, weird and silly animals -- and the artistic commitment i'm trying to stick to.

i have always found it difficult to sit with a project and explore all possible avenues of it -- my brain often works faster than my hand, and once i have a rough idea on paper, i want to immediately move onto the next. i'm trying to sit and get to know bunny in as many ways as i can. i think it's a good way for me to leave my comfort zone.

What was a surprising moment?

crossing the wires for my first circuit attempt was devastating. reworking it the second time gave me another surprise -- it wasn't nearly as painful as i thought it would be. at that point, sewing had even started to become relaxing.

If you had more time, what is one thing you would change? Do next?

i'd like to learn more about dollmaking and pattern drafting, so she could be more three-dimensional instead of pillow-shaped.

[trans-xianxian]

every day that I get older the less and less I care about high school aus

#I literally graduated a year ago but its like.... why would I be invested in the romantic life of a 17 year old even if they are fictional #like why would I care #it just feels weird like.... thats a baby bro #like thats a child #n I used to think hs aus were so cute like.. no put them in college what #anyway I keep finding myself scrolling past fics like ew wtf why are they in high school ajgsnxjskzbjxb #nothing against high schoolers my heart goes out to yall #but as a whole adult I'm not interested in turning adult characters into teenagers and then putting them in romantic situations #and honestly if you're also a whole adult you shouldn't want to do it either #I don't think theres inherently Wrong w an adult being like these two high school aged characters would be sweet together :^) #like it can definitely made very weird and creepy but I don't think the concept of that is inherently flawed #but an adult turning two characters Who Are Already Adults INTO teenagers and then putting them in romantic situations? #yeah that just leaves a bad taste in my mouth #like modern settings that Aren't high school exist #anyway these tags took and unexpectedly serious turn #ghost posts #text #not mdzs

[tomorrow-human]

MY THOUGHTS ON iDKHOW'S ALBUM DEBUT: RAZZMATAZZ

So I DON'T KNOW HOW BUT THEY FOUND ME have just released RAZZMATAZZ today and heres what I think...

[SIDE A]

¹LEAVE ME ALONE:

A bombastic opening track. Was released in the beginning of August...? Probably? This song just SCREAMS at you with retro futuristic funkiness. It has 8-bity flourishes in the instrumentation and seems to be maybe talking to the same person as Choke (from 1981 E.P.) and the title track Razzmatazz have been (or maybe a separate entity as suggested by the vinyl booklet and Indoctoration?).

Anyway, fantastic track, great opener, and nice mood-setter.

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²INDOCTORATION:

It's... eerie. It's not a song in the same sense as Leave Me Alone, despite having a wobbly backing track. It's a spoken interlude that seems to be initiating you into Tellex maybe? It yet again mentions the White Shadows that will be overseeing your progress with Tellex. It seems oddly nostalgic for some reason. That's strange. Overall, solid little piece of lore building that really reinforces the concept aspects.

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³MAD IQs:

It's the first song from this album that wasn't released as a single and it made my jaw literally drop. It has a similar lyrical and vocal structure to the opener and New Invention, but what I like is how much they were able to do with it, though it makes you wonder about how far apart these songs were written; but In the context of the albums concept and the Tellex stuff however, it could be interpreted as a corporate decision, this repetition. The minimal instrumentation in the verses with Ryan's sturdy drumming and Dallon's bassline makes me go fucking bananas. It's so fucking great and full of this punchy energy. And the HARMONIES. YES. "Voluntary victim~" "I'm burning~ in your mad IQs" SIR STOP BEING SO VOCALLY TALENTED. Also I think i heard him shriek right before the bridge which? Snazzy. So Mad IQs, energetic track, filled with more of iDKHOWs signature darkness.

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⁴NOBODY LIKE THE OPENING BAND:

Ah yes, Opening Band. Ironic considering how often iDKHOW are the opening band, but I'm sure that's obvious, seeing how they usually sing this one at the start of their gigs. It was actually (I think) the first or second song I didn't know how but found through youtube so I might be pretty biased here. It's a sweet sounding change of pace with the instrumentation being made up of only the piano and tambourine that tells of a typical opening band, that no ones ever heard before and likely will never hear again, via a sympathetic narrator with a hint of the typical iDKHOW teasing. In all honesty, it would've worked better as the album opener, which then could've been followed by Leave Me Alone, but it's a nice change of pace overall.

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⁵NEW INVENTION:

I already reviewed this song on my other blog right here so imma keep this brief. It shares similar aspects to Leave Me Alone, with the music video concept and song structure, but It manages to darken the narrative, and the choir-esq harmonies sound like ultra bright neon lights that only push this mood further. It still is a magnificent song and by far one of my favourites in the album.

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⁶IN THE GALLOWS:

MASSIVE SHIFT IN STYLE HOLY FUCKOLY-. The track opens with a very cutesy old timey little piano intro and starts the verse with a little funny beat. If you don't listen to the lyrics, it sounds like a silly little oldie song. But as we all know, iDKHOW doesn't do silly. The lines "For you, I'd die▪︎Or kill myself▪︎which ever makes you smile," From just the first verse are a prime example of this. The narrators murderous and suicidal intentions have clouded the romantic attraction into obsession- And I kinda like that, in a poetic way. The chorus is a standout, with the calm start to the explosion in the line "I'd swing from the gallows and wave" that just swings at you with a baseball bat to the chest. Oh, and the sax solo? Magnificent. This whole song is a chefs kiss from me.

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⁷CLUSTERHUG:

I love the lyrics of this song the most of it all. It sounds like a rebellious teenager wrote it after thinking about how shit their hometown is and wanting to get out. It also incorporates how much the narrator would want to do all this with their crush, adding that slightly goofy and pretend-aloof chorus of "only if you'd like me to I could fall in love with you" as if they weren't already in love or at least that's how I see it. The vibe of this song is more pop-y than the rest of the album, but that's more likely because it was repurposed for Razzmatazz after being originally written for The Brobecks, their older band. It's a nice little tune :).

[SIDE B]

⁸SUGAR PILLS:

This. Will. Get. Stuck. In. Your. Head- and. You. Will. Like. It. Basically, just seems like a song about drugs that, for some reason, reminds me of Gorillaz (who I dont even listen to). But the BASSLINE AGAIN- Jesus help me live. It has more of that energy we saw with the first few tracks and adds even more electronic elements. It's probably my second favourite song from this album that's not a single because of how fun the chorus sounds. What else can I say? I can just imagine myself bopping to this in the car screaming 'SUGAR SUGAR SUGAR PILLS' On a hot day.

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⁹KISS GOODNIGHT:

It's so sweet 🥺. It's one of those songs I could imagine a character in a movie singing to someone from a stage. If you want pretty song vibes just listen to it. Because it is a pretty song. And that's all I have to say on it. Now allow me to take a moment and shove it into my pretty song playlist that acts like my personal lullaby machine.

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¹⁰LIGHTS GO DOWN:

Yes. F u n k y. Give me that sweet sweet disco energy, thank you. It's just filled with all these *☆~blingy and sparkly~☆* effects, and, combined with the drumming, the result is just glorious. The best part of this song is in my opinion the bridge where it goes darker lyrically and in sound that just naturally slides into another funky-ass sax solo. I can definitely see myself dancing to this at a party and then in later years growing nostalgic for those days.

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¹¹NEED YOU HERE:

It's supposed to be happy in tone and hopeful slightly but it just makes me sad. It's a song about how, because Dallon has to tour because it's his job, he has to be away from his family often. And he had nO RIGHT ADDING HIS DAUGHTERS VOCALS AND RECORDINGS INTO THE MIX ITS LIKE HE WANTS US TO CRY. It's not my favourite of the album, not going to lie here, but it's also such a sweet song with nice instrumentals and vibe 🥺 so that's all I'll say.

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¹²DOOR:

It seems like this one was written around the time sad ukulele music was really at its peak but am I complaining? Fuck no because this song is great. It just gives it to you straight, that if the narrator ever does anything that the recipient doesn't like, they can always cut them out of their life. It's nice in that regard- you don't usually get songs that don't try to deflect the pain or gain pity. We need more of these kinds of songs. The shortness of it really adds to the effect of this being more like a regularly said thing, even though I'm always a bit sad that it ends so fast. It does, however, nicely close the near end of the album before Razzmatazz.

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¹³TOMORROW PEOPLE:

Creepy Tellex thank-you note. You're welcome..? I want no part in your conspiracy tho. Go away weird American corporate man voice.

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¹³RAZZMATAZZ:

And there it is. The title track. Like new inventions, I have already reviewed it here on that same blog so this will be brief also and more just thoughts. It's a great closer and is more old timey than most of the songs here as well. And with the last instrumental and sax solo, we come to the albums inevitable end... until next time.

[GENERAL THOUGHTS]

Overall, this was a fantastic little debut for iDKHOW and I loved it. So worth the pre-order. The songs were great and the lyrics were just excellent. My only real criticism is that the song order on Side A was a bit strange. I feel a way to fix this would be to throw Nobody Likes The Opening Band into the beginning, then have Leave Me Alone as a second track, and maybe even switch one of the songs on this side with one from Side B (either Mad IQs or New Invention with something else but then that would be kind of stretching it). Or maybe even switching Clusterhug with Mad IQs or New Invention could work. So in general? Razzmatazz good album. Next question.

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Thank you for reading, anyone who happens to see this and have read this. Hope you've enjoyed some of my thoughts on the debut and agreed with at least 2 points I made. See y'all on another review (or shitpost)!

-L.J

#idkhow #i dont know how but they found me #idkhbtfm #the i dont knows #dallon weekes #ryan seaman #lenas opinions #razzmatazz

[henrik-von-schneeplestein]

sorry we keep coming to bother you with stuff like this, but did you happen to see the nasty 'creepy comment' about ego shipping huffle-dork made before retagging it? that horrid septic-dr-schneep came in with their own stupid post. are shippers in the wrong for being upset? should there be an anti ego shipping tag for those that don't like it you think? (sorry if including their names doesn't sit well with you) ~🥀

Yiiiiikes omg I was at work and didn’t see at all but I did some ~research~ and jesus fucking christ lol

Shippers are definitely allowed to be upset at being called creepy (can’t believe that needs saying but this is the JSE fandom so) but honestly this is one of those things that I don’t even have the capacity to be angry about anymore. Anyone who ships the egos has heard this, and we’ve heard it eight million times. We know exactly what these people say about us, and we also know that no one else in the community cares. I’ve said it before and I’ll say it every day if I have to: the reason things like this are so asinine and hurtful are because ego shippers are without contest the nicest part of this fandom (they’re also the most talented, which is I think a bigger part of the issue than people realize lol - for some of those people, it truly is jealousy). I don’t give a single fuck if people in this fandom like me; it’s when I see people, especially LGBTQ+ people, talk about how ashamed they feel of shipping and making secret blogs to avoid backlash for it, that I get angry. Because to see the kindest, most welcoming people in the fandom feeling like they don’t belong - being told that they don’t belong - is heartbreaking.

I didn’t see the ‘should people who hate ego ships have their own tag’ part of the discourse, but all I can say is that if the concept of gay people writing stories that represent their own identities makes you so angry that you feel the need to comment on it in literally any way that isn’t ‘hey I personally don’t like ego shipping so don’t tag me in it or send it to me,’ I don’t think what you need is a tag, I think what you need is probably therapy. 

Unless what you meant is should there be a specific tag they can block, in which case the answer is absolutely: the name of whatever ship they’re uncomfortable with. It’s absolutely valid to be uncomfortable with/hate a certain ship - I’m sure plenty of shippers have a few - and if there’s more than one, you can easily block more than one ship name. If you hate the concept of any of these male characters being shipped together, it’s your responsibility to block all those tags. Some people may tag ‘ego shipping’ on fanworks they post (sometimes it’s nice to do - I track ‘ego shipping!’ Get that exposure, y’all!) but that’s in no way required. It’s not something that necessitates warning, like violence or sexual content; there’s nothing inherently objectionable or controversial about ego shipping (or any other queer content) so it doesn’t need to be tagged and it most certainly doesn’t need to be warned for. 

By the wayside, using names is fine on my blog. I’m definitely a big believer in ‘if what you’re saying is justified, you sign your name to it and don’t subpost or be passive aggressive; own it entirely, otherwise it’s just gossip and shit talk.’ I’ll always risk ‘drama’ to make my stance clear.  Every time I see a blog that has one of those weird insult things isa-ghost gives out in their description - idk if it’s an AU or like a joke but they’re like “’ugly carrot’ according to isa-ghost” or “’unwanted suitcase’ according to isa-ghost” - I desperately want to add “’petty shipper’ according to isa-ghost” to my description but I mean I think that might validate the ‘petty’ part a little too much jghjfgh. ‘Horrid’ is maybe a stronger word than I would use for s-d-s but I mean if they’ve made you feel uncomfortable you have a right to say so. I’ve never had an issue with people just saying on their own blog that they personally don’t like shipping which to the best of my knowledge is what that person mainly sticks to, even if I agree it’s pretty clear that her stance is the same as the people who are actively horrible to us, and I did take issue with something (unrelated to shipping) she said once so I don’t really interact with her. The blogs I’m always talking about that I really find disgusting are the ones that call us gross, the ones that claim we shouldn’t like it or should ‘trigger warn’ it, the ones who say we don’t belong in the community, the ones who say we should ‘have our lgbt cards taken away’ lol. That’s the thing - we literally are asking for the most basic of respect. The bar is literally underground, and these people just keep picking up shovels.

Honestly, my reaction to this happening is ‘well, what are we gonna do about it?’ Not in a defeatist way - I’m genuinely asking. What can we do to make sure all the wonderful, creative, talented, sweet ego shippers know that they’re valued members of this community, and deserve better than this kind of treatment? To anyone who may still be reading who isn’t actively a shipper but likes to consider themselves a kind & welcoming community, I’m sorry, but I need to ask you to do better. If you see someone saying something actively mean or disrespectful about ego shippers, at the very least, unfollow & stop interacting. I know that’s a big ask, even if it shouldn’t be, because these are big blogs and you want to feel included and have friends. But continuing to support them is by nature saying that it’s acceptable behavior, that it’s just a difference of opinion, and again, once it crosses that line, it’s not anymore. By all means, interact with people who don’t ship and don’t like shipping - interact with ONLY those people if you want. And of course I can’t tell you what to do when it comes to the downright mean people, I’m just asking you to consider what you’re saying when you tolerate people who insult and demean certain community members for no reason, and I’m also asking you not to further insult us by telling us you support us while making it very clear that you don’t care if we’re treated with basic respect or not.

And to the shippers, my ‘what can we do?’ is a genuine, open-ended question. If there’s anything that I personally can do to make you feel welcome in this community, please tell me what it is. I’m not a very popular blog at all, but you should always feel free to tag me in/send me any ego ship content and I’ll happily reblog it, and god knows I’m always around to talk about ships, AUs, headcanons, and that kind of thing! I’m also around to talk just in general - if you’re feeling ashamed, angry, or sad about your place in the fandom, I’ve always got open ears and heart emojis for you. I love you very much and I’m glad you’re here.

#long post #discourse kind of but like I truly don't think any of this should be controversial #it just sucks #spiritually sending shippers the holy trinity of relevant Taylor songs as comfort #(mean/shake it off/you need to calm down) #and cookies and hugs #love you #asks #anon #🥀 anon

[princebugs]

A meeting with Niles.

Quivering digits rub and scratch at the back of his own neck, goosebumps rising as his eyes shift from corner to corner. He swallows, the nervous lump in his throat dissipating for only mere moments before quickly arising once more. His movements remain shaky, and shifty. He feels nervosa creeping up his spine leisurely, causing his hyperactivity to skyrocket. Remaining still is no easy task.

The male can almost discern a feeling of eyes on the back of his brunette tresses, watching him from the shadowed corner of the room. Perhaps a figure is awaiting the perfect time to pounce on the human and rip his throat out, at a pace fast enough that he wouldn't scream--- no one would hear his death. He whips his head in that direction, his heart pounding against his chest.

Cue a sigh of relief.

It's just dust. It's just dust, Gavin. Can't hurt you. Maybe fuck with your allergies a bit, but it won't hurt you. You're probably just crazy, like your uncle Kevin--- he still lives in that shed, right? Still talking about those damned 'creatures of the night', hiding in there with a shotgun with hopes that he'll be the one to kill 'em.

Maybe you'll be like that soon, if these delusions go any farther.

A sound of a doorknob clicking interrupts his thoughts and causes the male to jump in his seat, right forearm raising in a defensive manner before realizing that it was only his new therapist, clad in a black turtleneck and black pants.

When did he get here?

Gavin briefly takes a glance down at himself, and is just a slight bit pissed at himself for not dressing nicer.

If this was anything but a therapy session where Gavin would have to speak openly about his mental problems, he would have dressed better. He didn't see the point of wearing something appealing when it was just therapy, and his therapist was most likely going to be some old man or young female that he didn't need to impress.

Sadly for him, the male was definitely not an old man. He looked, roughly, around Gavin's age--- yet he had the sort of timeless face that could pass for a nineteen-year-old. The turtleneck's sleeves were pushed up to his elbows. Gavin usually considers turtlenecks "phckin' ugly" but this guy has changed the definition for him.

And he was overwhelmingly pale. Did he never go outside?

Lesson learned. Wear cute clothes EVERYWHERE.

“Mr. Reed?“ A voice brings Gavin out of his train of thought, and he notices that the male is no longer standing, and is, in fact, sitting right in the position ahead of him, with his head tilted in slight concern as well as confusion.

Dammit.

“Shit, ah,“ Gavin struggles to push away his thoughts for the time being, his nails scratching at the back of his neck as he awkwardly laughs half-heartedly. “Yeah, yeah. That's me, alright.“

The therapist merely emits a soft chuckle, though his mind seems to be elsewhere. He doesn't know for sure, but he thinks that he's making a mental note of some sort--- probably from his behavior. This feels almost like a job interview, and that makes Gavin straighten out his back and lock eye-contact with the male across from him, his cerulean optics now gazing into steel hues. This, however, prompts another brief snicker from him.

“This isn't a professional setting, Mr. Reed. You can sit however you see fit; it is better that you feel comfortable while we converse with one another.“

Gavin's brows furrow together in exiguous uncertainty--- this man spoke like he was reading from a college art essay. Though he said it wasn't professional, it almost felt like it was; like Gavin was being judged for every single movement he followed through with.

It was almost as if he was being ordered to feel more comfortable, which is the most awkward thing ever. It puts on pressure, and makes the situation even more uncomfortable. Nonetheless, Gavin leans back, slouching a modest amount whilst placing his elbows on the back of the couch he sat upon. He stared ahead with half-lidded eyes, and his therapist was studying his body language the entire time.

Gavin would consider this creepy, but it's alright because it's his therapist.

“I'm Dr. Anderson, but you can just refer to me as Niles,“ His therapist--Niles-- begins, his nimble fingers picking up a set of reading glasses and placing them on his visage for a few moments to seemingly read Gavin's file, then setting both the glasses and the file down on the table in front of him. “How about you tell me why you set this urgent appointment with me, hm?“

His voice was smooth, like velvet draped across pale skin. It brought chills down Gavin's back. Compared to how coarse and rough Gavin's voice was, Niles' voice was soothing.

Calm down, dude. This isn't a therapy session for questioning your sexuality. Reply to his question, fucknut!

“Yeah, sure, sure. Uh, where do I fuckin' start?“ Again, Gavin laughs to release some tension, and when the room is silent, he coughs. And continues. “Hah, erm... well, I've been having these weird delusions and feelings of someone watching me. Paranoia, or whatever. I can't sleep, either.“

The concept of therapy wasn't really Gavin's thing; the idea of sharing all of his thoughts with another person was just plain idiotic, in his opinion. He'd much rather keep his feelings to himself, but since his mother called him out of the blue and informed him that she had scheduled an appointment with an "experienced therapist with good reviews" (which sounded shady as hell) because she was worried.

Truth is, he couldn't blame her for being worried. He had shut himself in his apartment, and wasn't even going to work the majority of the time. And when he did go to work, he only got sent home because he continuously kept falling asleep at his desk. Probably because he doesn't feel the eyes on him as he sleeps at work.

“Interesting,“ Niles bobbed his cranium in confirmation, his weight now leaning back as he crosses his arms over one another. He always seems like he is analyzing Gavin in some way.

Weird as fuck.

“So, perhaps you could be having some sort of stalker, or PTSD from something happening to you in the pa--“

“No, no. It's not like that.“

Niles seems suddenly interested and more inclined to listen, his head once again now tilted to the side in curiosity as his brows raise upwards. “Oh?“

Gavin gulped--- the aura that this guy gave off was intimidating as hell, and it was difficult to trust him. “Yeah, like... if it was something like that, then wouldn't I feel some sort of recognition kind of thing? Stalkers are usually people that the person knows personally or knew personally, and PTSD... don't think that's applicable to this situation. I don't think it's that.“

“Elaborate.“

“If it was PTSD, then it wouldn't feel so... so...“ He struggled to search and find the correct vocabulary, the right words-- it was on the tip of his tongue. His eyebrows knit together in comprehension, irises looking down at the couch as he--

“Real?“

Niles' tone is almost demanding in generality; it causes Gavin to shudder and almost cower in fear. Momentarily, he remembers how stern his father's voice was, how it terrified him to his core. Fear can make anyone curl in on themselves.

Gavin nods his head, his grey-blue hues now gazing out the large-sized window located directly to his left, watching as doves fly away. “Y-- yeah. Real. I've experienced PTSD before, and it's nothing like that, at least not this time. It's inhuman, almost. Like... like someone, some thing is going to pounce on me at any second. I don't feel safe in my apartment by myself. Hah, I even had a little moment in here before you got here--- thought something was in the corner.“

His therapist only stares, bobbing his head every now and then as a way to show that he was listening. Though, it didn't seem like it. It was as if he already knew everything that Gavin was saying. He identifies a sudden feeling of recognition--- one that chills Gavin to his very core.

“I, uh--- have I met you before?“ The detective leans forward now, setting his elbows on his knees. He can feel the shadows under his eyes growing deeper-- is that normal? How long had it been since he had slept? Gavin's calloused phalanges weave through his brunette locks, then gripping them tightly. “God, I must be going crazy. Of course, I haven't seen you anywhere--- what am I thinking? Turnin' into Uncle Kev-- I've been seein' shit that just isn't there. It's probably just sleep deprivation, and this therapy session won't do anything, I'm just wastin' my ti--“

“Here, walk with me outside,“ His incoherent rambling is cut short by Niles' request.

Gavin's pate raises upwards, catching sight of the therapist's outstretched palm, reaching for him. Motioning for Gavin to take his hand. His eyes lock with Niles.

“Wowza! Hand-holding? At least take me out to dinner first, eh?“ Gavin internally slaps himself. Meanwhile, Niles just rolls his eyes. Not in an annoyed way--- in an amused manner. Phew, Gavin didn't scare away his therapist.

“Come on, you said that being in here made you have a little 'fit' as well, right? Perhaps being out instead of holed inside your apartment will make you feel better, in some fashion?“

Gavin ponders about his next move, though it didn't seem much like a request at this point. Niles just seemed like he was politely ordering him to go outside. Reluctantly, he places his tan-colored hand in Niles' pale palm, letting his hand envelop over Gavin's and pull him up to his feet abruptly.

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They meandered around the perimeter of the building for several moments, neither of them uttering a single word the duration of their walk. Gavin wasn't particularly skilled at breaking the ice when it came to long periods of silence similar to this; he would usually make it worse, actually. Saying something that would be so unexpected that it catches the recipient off-guard, or something that just makes the air between them extremely awkward all of the sudden.

Eventually, Gavin can't stand it anymore. He coughs to clear his throat up, his hand clenching into a fist for him to cough into for a few moments before scratching at the back of his neck again, and again.

“So, like, you have any family around this area, or are you new to Detroit?“

Greaaat question, Gavin. What if he has no family, and you just brought up shitty memories? GOOD GOIN', PRICK.

Niles hums. “I am relatively new here, but my brother lives here with me. You probably saw him whilst walking around the building, yes? Shorter than me, brown eyes?“

Gavin recalls seeing someone who fit that description. “Yeah, that's your brother?“

“Indeed, he is. He's... a little brat sometimes, prefers to do his own thing, but he's still family. We had to move rather abruptly due to some... sudden consequences of our actions, I suppose. Nothing for you to worry about.“

That bewildered Gavin, but he decided not to press further.

Luckily, Niles kept the conversation going. If the silence began once more, Gavin thought he could die.

“You mentioned an uncle earlier?“

Right, during his ramble.

“Yeah, hahah--- Uncle Kevin. He's like, the weird family member, y'know? The one who lives in a shed with a shotgun--- claiming that he'll prevent the apocalypse by killing the bloodsuckers, or something like that,“ Gavin laughs at this, yet Niles is silent.

“How peculiar. Bloodsuckers, you say?“ Niles inclines his head towards Gavin, his arms remaining behind his back as he walked. “What do you think of that?“

Gavin's face scrunches up, emitting a confused noise before sighing softly, remembering that this was a therapy session after all. “I dunno, man. Frankly, I think the idea of vampires existing is stupid as fuck, actually. Like, wasn't it just a myth, or fairytale? Or something like that. Nonetheless, it's hella dumb, and I don't believe in it one bit. If I ever saw a vampire in front of my face, I'd probably call it ugly and scream.“

Niles does laugh at this. “Be careful about what you say, Mr. Reed, you never know who, or what, might be listening.“

The way he said this caused shivers to go down Gavin's back. He sneered at Niles, shoving his hands into the pockets of his hoodie and emitting a disgruntled huff. “Don't even joke about that shit, man. I mean, I may find it funny, but the way you say that shit just makes me feel hella uneasy.“

“What if I told you that you should be feeling uneasy right now, Gavin?“ Niles' tone is almost playful, like a cat playing with its prey before chomping down on it.

Gavin just emits a confused noise in return. “Huh?“ He should be feeling uneasy? Why is that such a... weird statement to make?

“I'm just messing with you-- a mere jest. Everyone feels uneasy with their new therapist; that's a sign that you're normal, Gavin.“

Exhaling a soft suspire of relief. “See, when you're all serious like that all the time, I can't even tell the difference between the real seriousness and the fake. That's what makes me feel uneasy.“

“That's how life really is, though. No one can distinguish reality from dream, but we believe that we can. How sure are you right now that you are in reality? At this exact moment, do you know if I am real, or a figment of your imagination?“ The taller male stops in his tracks, and Gavin struggles to stammer out his reply.

Gavin turns his head to Niles.

“I-- I'm totally freaked right now, dude. You're gettin' all... weird. How the fuck did we go from talkin' about vampires to--- this??“

“Gavin. Keep your windows unlocked at night, okay? It's extremely difficult for someone to break a window in a quiet manner. And it just becomes a hassle to clean up later on...“

What the fuck?

Gavin has no time to respond, Niles speeds up and just walks away with a mere wink and a smirk with relatively sharp canine teeth for a human. Remarkably, Niles had no shadow. Weird, weird, weird. Everything about Niles was weird and unexplainable.

Gavin is left on the pavement outside the building with no one around him, awkwardly standing there. He didn't know where to go. Should he follow Niles? No, no--- Gavin didn't want to be around him anymore.

He must look pathetic, wanting to run away and cry to his mother about what had just occurred--- but he'll do it nonetheless.

There was only one thing that Gavin knew from his first and last encounter with his therapist.

He's locking the windows.

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[ramblings-of-a-mad-cat]

well technically there aren't very many actions that are too romantic in those tlsqs like dancing isn't very romantic (not the dancing in HPHM at least it's more fun and freestyle). hand holding can be seen as romantic especially in that star gazing scene but it can be platonic even if it wasn't in that instance. cheek kissing can be both but it was definitely romantic in both of the quests it was included in. and getting a romantic kiss on the cheek from a 12 year old when you're 16 is icky even if it isn't as bad as a full on kiss on the lips. but the dialogue is very much romantic especially when mc and their date flirt with each other and express how much they mean to each other. no one wants to see that with mc and bea. no one. so yeah they definitely shouldn't include beatrice in the romance sqs and thankfully they won't. literally no one would want that or be comfortable with it. besides i don't think anyone genuinely ships beatrice with mc which is good. i think there are a few creeps who think she's "hot" cos of her new looks and because she's a "good girl gone bad" but there aren't very many even then.

That’s a good point. It’s a children’s game. They may have put dating in because of the high demand, and they might very well continue to make new dating quests and add in new options - it’s an easy shortcut to make the fans happy - but they’re not actually going to put in anything too risky. It’s part of why I sorta doubt we’ll ever be able to have our MCs get a lip kiss. Well, that and how weird it would look with the character models. For this reason, I don’t think anything particularly weird would actually happen if Beatrice was available...like, her going on a broomstick ride with MC and her pecking their cheek, that’s all pretty innocent. That could be cute. But it’s the context that really makes a difference here. If it’s a date, I mean...again, it’s all pretty tame but...it’s a still a date between two characters with an age gap that is definitely questionable. Hand touches are PG. So are school dances. So is being someone’s valentine. It’s all going to be simple, family-friendly stuff, because these characters are underage teenagers. So nothing that weird would actually happen if Beatrice was a choice, but it’s the concept itself that would be odd. 

Could just be my asexuality talking, but I don’t understand how any of the characters are “hot.” Like...they’re all digital, cartoon-like character models of children,  that are made of pixels. And while I also find it creepy for players to call Beatrice attractive...in thinking about it, half of the fandom is thirsty for the likes of Barnaby and Merula, and it’s not like that’s any better. They’re underage too. Sure, they’re older than Beatrice...but that doesn’t functionally matter when the character models are the same at both eleven and sixteen...say what you will about the Rakepick thirst, but at least that’s an adult character...🙄

#Beatrice Haywood #Harry Potter: Hogwarts Mystery

[parachutingkitten]

What the heck is this noise?!

50 people! What?! That's awesome! Thanks a bunch! I can't thank you guys enough!

So, with 50 people (you know, or bots) following me, I figured some of you might wonder who the heck I am. Maybe 3 or 4 of you will get something out of this. Idk, I'd like to think people think of me as a human being

Anyway, my name is Maya, I'm 17, and I live in Texas. I'm a military brat, but not an extremely active one, so I don't get the bragging rights of getting to say I've moved 22 times in my life. I've just moved 5 times. My family consists of my mom, dad, little brother and cat, Hexy, named after the hexagon because I was a very nerdy 8 year old. I am the most average straight white girl of the bunch. Infact, it probably won't surprise you to know that I am very much Mormon. I am so Mormon infact, that my parents met at BYU, and I would like to go there myself.

I am also a huge theater geek! I've been a part of theater since the 4th grade, and have been heavily involved since. Sadly, I am a dumb actor, not one of those cool techies. Couldn't tell you anything about how to build a set or work a light board. I am definitely more of a comedic actor, but I'd like to think I'm not too bad at the dramatics either. The problem is that I'm really tall, so I don't easily cast as a romantic lead or anything. More than often I get cast as the goofy, awkward side kick, which is fine by me. I also have a really strong interest in film! I saved up for my own little notebook laptop about the same time I took up acting, and made my first video with my friend about a centiant flashlight. I am (of course) an actor, but I also really enjoy video editing! It's kinda what I want to do with my life. This means I look very closely at stuff like film and media, and LOVE in depth analysis of any of them. I'll purposely look for flaws in something to try and make sense of why something makes me feel a certain way. I have a tenancy to take it a bit too far. Anyway, you can find any of my film stuff on my youtube channel.

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I'm not an artist, I wish I was! People who can draw are so lucky and cool! So, obviously how I contribute to my fandom(s) is writing! Because of the whole previously mentioned book thing, I've grown a love, and I'd like to think a talent for writing. Writing brings out my darkest stuff for sure. I swear I'm not depressed or anything! I am a very happy person with a great life! (I mean, Mormon, hello!) My dad is a psychiatrist, so I have a lot of weird messed up philosophy stuff ingrained in me, and writing I think is the best place to explore concepts like that. I like making characters suffer, and grieve, and die, and go insane and stuff like that. I especially like picturesque writing. Stuff that puts an image in your head. Preferably a creepy, unnerving image. Like, I'm not a horror writer or anything (I don't like horror) but more like, a suspense writer. Eerie, I think is the best word to describe it. But hey, I'd say at least half of my endings are happy so... yay!

Anyway, in conclusion, I'm just another person who watches and gets obsessed with children's cartoons. It's nice having you with me! Thanks a bunch!

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[oumakokichi]

If you don't mind a slightly more controversial ask, I've seen some very different views on how the topic of religion was handled throughout chapter 3, especially in relation to Angie and Shinguuji. I don't have any strong opinion, but how do you feel about it?

I don’t mind trying to answer this! Actually, this is areally interesting question, and I definitely can give some opinions on it. ButI feel that it’s important for me to note that I’m not Japanese, and as Chapter3 does deal with quite a lot of both religion originating from Japan (namelyaspects of Shinto, and Buddhism which is not native to Japan but which has alwayshad a foothold there), as well as Japanese views on religion as a concept, myopinion on this particular topic should be taken with a grain of salt probably.

While I do know some historical contexts between religion inJapan from what I’ve studied in courses, I’m certainly not an expert. And Ifeel it would be unfair of me to make a judgment or sound condemning when thisparticular topic especially is notsomething Kodaka was intending to cater to a western audience with. This iscertainly something I would say an actual Japanese person would be bettersuited to talk about, since they would have much more knowledge and experiencewith religion in Japan than I myself do.

With that in mind, I’m happy to at least give my personalopinion on the matter a little bit. Spoilers for Chapter 3 will follownaturally, so anyone not caught up to that point shouldn’t read past this!

In my opinion, the portrayal of Angie’s religion as a wholewas a little…well, it’s tied to a lot of things. Religion in Japan is vastlydifferent from the very specific idea of religion that people in the west,particularly people from the United States, tend to have. While there arecertainly footholds of Christianity in Japan, most are Catholic only, and I’dwager that Protestant Christians are not very common at all beyond foreignmissionaries.

While Shinto and Buddhism are both very, very old religions whichhave been present in Japan for a long,long time, it was only really when the surge of western imperialism in theearly to mid- 1850’s hit and Japan saw the ways in which the U.S. and Europeannations carved China up like a steak that they finally decided it was in theirbest interests to open their doors to western trade and influence, lest theysuffer the same fate.

What followed marked the start of modern Japanese history aswe know it, and a long period of uncertainty and doubt between being forcedinto following the trends and cultures of the west, or trying to adherestrictly to very traditionally Japanese ideas, including everything fromfashion to weaponry to music to (you guessed it) religion. I won’t go too muchmore into the historical aspect of this, since there’d be far too much to talkabout, but basically, Japan saw a hugeinflux all at once of different religions around this time, and there came asort of marked idea of foreign religions that, to some degree, still sticksaround even in Japanese media like anime, video games, etc. to this day.

The portrayal of Angie and her religion does make me alittle…er, uncomfortable, namely because I feel it is a very Japanese take on “foreign”religion at large, and it does feel pretty stereotyped. I do like Angie quite alot, and I feel her Religious Student Council was very fun in that the conflict it offered to the group was aboutforcing them all to stay inside the school, rather than trying to force theirway out, but it’s pretty telling that the game never explicitly states whereAngie is supposed to be from, or what her religion is.

My guess is this is also a sort of result of her in-gamepersona likely being made specifically to cater to Tsumugi’s very otaku-likeways of thinking in terms of “trope” characters, including the “weird foreigngirl,” and that there is therefore a slight degree of Kodaka attempting to makecommentary on this sort of thing.

But it’s also just a side effect of lack of research andKodaka being unintentionally racist himself, because the fact of the matter isthat this dark-skinned girl gets made into the “weird, quirky, foreign islander”just because she is dark-skinned, andher religion is never specified, and also has elements mentioned at thebeginning of “blood sacrifices”…yeah, it just makes me pretty uncomfortable.Moreso considering Angie herself is probably also Japanese and might not evenbe foreign at all, but was only portrayed as such on the reality show becauseshe “looked” foreign.

As for Korekiyo, while he himself is definitely uncomfortable because of the incest factor, incrediblyenough I don’t really find the portrayal of religion with him to be theproblem. Korekiyo is extremelytraditionally Japanese: by virtue of being a cultural anthropologist, hisentire talent and life is basically dedicated to studying various cultures allacross Japan and the world over, but there’s no denying that his personal areaof expertise and interest lies with very, very traditional Japanese history.

He’s meant, as far as I can tell, to be a sort ofrepresentation of someone so enthralled and caught up in the traditions of thepast, including some left better off untouched like traditions of torture,binding, etc., that he’s sort of…uninterested in the present or future.Everything about him is concerned with things that happened in the past. Evenhis inability to move past his sister’s death without taking the lives ofothers is, in its own way, sort of commentary on the fact that he literallycannot think or live or see in the present like a normal person at all. Hisspeech habits, interests, and personal preferences all lie in the past.

And considering Korekiyo is a Japanese character written anddeveloped by actual Japanesecreators, I feel like if this is any sort of religious commentary at all, it’saimed towards Japanese religious beliefs and therefore not really something awestern fan can quite view from the same lens. Korekiyo’s spiritual beliefs inthe afterlife aren’t the problem; his problem is his creepy, inexplicable fascinationwith his sister, which for all that I still find it incredibly awful anduncomfortable that Kodaka ever slipped it into the plot, was at least nevertreated as excusable or forgivable or “funny” by the narrative.

There is plenty of room to judge Korekiyo for being ahorrible human being, even if there are aspects of his character which areinteresting on their own, or things which could have been done better with himif only Kodaka hadn’t included this kind of sloppy writing, but I really don’tfeel as if religion was the main issue with him at all.

Basically, it all comes down to the fact that I thinkChapter 3 was something of a clash between “foreign” ideologies and religion,represented by Angie and her widely spreading religious cult which left no realroom for argument and which people who refused to join were nonethelesssubjected to rules and regulations as if they were a part of it, and “nativeJapanese” ideologies and religion, represented by Korekiyo, who was too far back in the history and culturewhich he studied to look or behave rationally anymore.

It wasn’t the best-written portrayal, and there’s certainlya lot of things about it that could have been done better, but I thinkunderstanding that this is a specifically Japanese game written by a Japaneseauthor and intended, mostly, for a Japanese audience will help most people tounderstand that this was probably not intended as an attack on religion atlarge or on people who are fervently religious themselves.

I hope I was able to get my thoughts across, and I reallyhope nothing I wrote comes across as offensive or disrespectful. It’s reallynot my intention to talk over actual Japanese people, and if I at all cameacross as doing such in this, it’s okay to let me know! Thank you for askingthis question really nicely anon, and I hope I provided a decent response!

#ndrv3 #drv3 #new danganronpa v3 #angie yonaga #korekiyo shinguuji #my meta #okay to reblog #ndrv3 spoilers // #incest // #racism // #this was a really interesting ask though #it probably shows that i like talking about history too much #anonymous