#like continue with the points system

[the-physicality]

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#are we ready to have a conversation about the definition of “best goalie in the world” yet? #i'm being a bitch but i've held off on this #on the upside at least we were never shut out and we don't have to play fucking ******* #to my first point this is the problem with not having a consistent league #international play is so limited that you cannot judge based on that and you cannot judge based on college #i mean tbt to last year's red stars #we should also have a conversation about how obsessed we are with shooting the puck low #and every other team has a couple of snipers #and if we sniped a little more instead of doing the fake outs we might be in a different place #im just so tired #and not to rub it in but we were never going to win the cup #like somehow every team plays their best against us #i hope erin ambrose still gets defender of the year #and i hope ******* ******* does not get 4 awards #like if you see someone coming at you 1-1 have you considered moving back in your crease a bit #i would also be interested to know if the order gets shaken up #because again if you are only playing internationally with the best defenders protecting you #then how much are you really tested #same could be said for campbell though #i maintain that montreal's biggest enemy is their brains #and he was way out of crease on a lot of these #and if you look at frankel or campbell's positioning they are never that far out #also we have to talk about the face offs being atrocious tonight #like i said i'm glad it's over #and like i said before i think i prefer the winning the league situation instead of the playoff setup #maybe minnesota pulls it out #but at the end of the day we are undefeated in regulation playoff hockey #brings me to another point which is would it not make more sense that you have to get 9 of 15 points in a playoff series #and so then the score would be 3-6 and we'd still be in it #like continue with the points system

[obstinaterixatrix]

here are all the recs I posted for femslash february 2024...! each individual rec post can be found in my femslash feb recs tag. I actually thought I wasn't going to be able to do this because work got super chaotic, but in the end I couldn't bear to skip out on a leap year. that's a whole extra day for yuri.

last year I focused on official releases, so this year I wanted to focus on series that aren't technically officially available (plus a french-japanese film). fan translations are always a dicey for artists/translators/publishers/etc because obviously they need to get paid... but yuri's already such an overlooked genre that—in an official capacity—we end up with a couple drops from what's already a pretty small pool. I read hana to hoshi about a decade ago, and I keep submitting it to the seven seas survey for licensure! and yet!! no dice. and even when there are official releases, sometimes they just... disappear!? wish you were gone was licensed and then taken down, so for a while the only way to read it (if you missed out on buying it) was the fan translation. I think it's important to support artists and official releases, and also, to appreciate the thankless endeavor(/crime) of scanlation.

hope yall find something you like!

#femslash february #femslash feb recs #ff recs #recs #rambled a lot for this one lol #but like. yeah. honey & honey is imo a pretty culturally significant work #but I can't see any publishers picking it up for licensure #maybe for a recent autobio manga but certainly not one from 20 years ago #and from a marketing standpoint. it's 'hard' to push yuri as a genre. #bl has an obvious and profitable demographic (women) #m/f has an obvious and profitable demographic (women) #but--if you make a distinction between yuri and H (I do)--yuri doesn't really have an obvious and profitable demographic #so it's a lot harder to pitch yuri... which means it's a lot harder to even introduce yuri to a broader audience... #and thus the cycle continues... #plus there's the whole systemic misogyny embeded into a patriarchal society which devalues stories centered around women etc #anyway the POINT is. commit to yuri duty. be a yuri warrior. write femslash. hype femslash.

[curiosity-killed]

the one thing i will say on the Trump verdict is I'm seeing a lot of posts about basically "how can we let a FELON run for PRESIDENT (and/or vote)" which is making me feel very "don't make me tap the sign" about why folks who've been convicted of felonies also deserve the right to run for office/vote and how creating categories of people who are not allowed to run for office/vote is a great way to incentivize pushing political opponents (or members of marginalized groups) into those categories in order to disenfranchise and disempower them

#i do think he should be disqualified under the 14th amendment but that's...not really what this trial was about #and i just would like folks to be a teensy bit more mindful of what you're talking about when ur like #''we're going to let a FELON run for PRESIDENT'' #when like. if you get charged twice for having weed on you that could be a felony #(this is an oversimplification but like u get the point right. like US folks we know abt the injustice inherent in our ''justice'' system #and how historically that has & continues to be used to benefit folks just like trump #right? #like we know that folks convicted of felonies or formerly incarcerated people should not be excommunicated from the political system right? #it is important to me that us folks know this) #anyway this is my soapbox for the night #catch me next time when a) someone talks about how ADDICTS are inherently TERRIBLE or (more likely) b) ballet is portrayed stupidly in medi #personal

[drev-the-procrastinator]

Like. ok

ok 15 12s from the juries and zero (0!!!!!) 12s from the public taking the win from 2 12s from the juries and 18 12s from the public. ok. ok. sure

#eurovision #esc 2023 #eurovision 2023 #käärijä #eurovision song contest #loreen #ig idk #also public vote for finland: no country gave less than 6 points. even in the jury votes sweden got some 4s and 5s #also like on a small scale easy example of how the jury system sucks: finnish jury: 12 points to sweden. finnish public: 0 points to sweden #a larger gap does not exist #am i salty? yes!! am i bitter? yes!!!! will i continue to be til the end of time? probably!!! #this sucks. if we couldn't even win this year with the 2nd most public votes ever received in esc history and all the hype. why even try #fucking juries #anyway!!!!! i am very sad and feel very bad for käärijä but he did amazing!!!!! we love you king ♡♡♡♡

[roguetelepaths]

...so guess who's rewatching star trek discovery

#star trek #star trek discovery #section 31 #i don't actually mind section 31 as a narrative element it just needs to be done right #and it rarely has been since its introduction #the narrative purpose section 31 serves is to be like 'hey maybe the Federation Isn't Perfect' #or like 'maybe it's got some systemic problems that are being allowed to continue because they benefit the people in power' #if you just treat it like another part of starfleet/the federation that just has a few bad apples it loses that narrative purpose #because the entire point of it is that it IS the bad apple and it IS spoiling the bunch simply by existing as itself #and that if the federation wants to have any chance at all of actually being what it claims to be #then section 31 and what it represents needs to be excised #you simply CANNOT have 'unambiguous postscarcity utopia' and 'omnipresent unrestricted intelligence agency' at the same time #at least not if you want to have any degree of narrative consistency #the last time i watched this arc in discovery was before i got into ds9 (and met mars!! ily airota) and it's almost unbearable now

[averlym]

whshdfhfjf.,,,

#close up!! because i firstly Did Not render them with such insanity in order for tumblr's lack of general resolution to make it blur #look at all the lines!!! teehee i still really really like this style of digital painting it's super super fun to do!!! and also secondly #because i went back and added a tag ramble and as i seem to often be doing??? lately?? reached the 30 tag limit and went 'hm ok how else..' #anyway the tag essay on that one is now up and talks about the artwork generally and miscellaneous thoughts!! that said. i need a space to #ramble about beatrix at Length because look you don't draw and paint etc a character for like ten hours without having a lot of thoughts #anyways ! i digress terrifically. tag rambles are more like trains of thoughts masquerading as subways and you get on and it's unfortunately #a rollercoaster track. but this is My Blog and i can do Whatever I Want as long as i don't hurt anyone <- affirmations!! also Harm Principle #lately it's been like *kicks up feet* *opens tumblr tags* *treats it as own personal journal* and tbh Good for me!! anyways back to beatrix #fun fact ! the thing that pushed me over the edge to go watch the musical after looking through the tumblr tag was a very specific poll. #and the fact that the winning option was blue hair and pronouns made me double over laughing so hard i had to go see the source material #mm i feel like lately the academic Context has been tossing me essentially into a blender HAHA ;-; so everyone in adamandi is to some extent #a Mood. but bea-specific (haha be specific)(sorry!)(wow this is the same reaction mechanism of my friend who points out innuendos)(...) #i think it's the wanting to prove herself. like from the whole abuela etc thing there's proof here she's got a Stable Support System of sort #and instead what beatrix continues to do is push themselves. 'i guess u could say i'm married to my work? god that's depressing' // no one #here to enforce that // abuela tells me to rest says i'm constantly stressed and i'll just get depressed like before but i still have to try #like. that shred of desperation that pushes you to the brink to neglect yourself (well i guess physically but also your morals..) and like!! #the whole 'lose half your soul thing' proves she's self aware!! like they know what they're doing is super dubious yknow! but they're still #they're still doing it even if it goes into conflict with their morality system in a way and then they justify it to themselves (see pt 1 #of ghostwriter) and the whole wanting to achieve at all costs Despite the self awareness. (i think? this aspect also applied to quincy. but #thoughts on him will come later). more beatrix specific also is the fact that they genuinely adore their work.. 'i just love it here where #you know they'll be printing forever and you are just part of it' because that does kind of resonate with me. also the being behind in the #competition is real!!! i'm maybe talking about Art as a subject because that same drive for it exists on my good days i think. even #even when nothing seems to be going right and you've ended up at the back the intent passion inherent in what you do is still there!!! #the genuine. care she has for reporting. is so !!!!! to me... other beatrix thoughts include 'why reveal yourself at the end' aka vincent's #'u should have stayed silent u had a smart plan' like rip to them but i would not // it feels with bea's complex character i can't imagine h #her Not doing that. like the guilt is real i guess. and i am running out of tags but! smth also about her fervent hope or smth that she'll #eventually get to where she wants. and the resilient determination.. 'i won't let their deaths be pointless there's more good i'm gonna do' #they're so so real for that. i'm not sure if it's a good or bad thing; seeing myself reflected in aspects of characters like this.. but it's #it's there regardless. smth smth just make your peace with the person you are ig!! tldr beatrix campbell my beloved. hehe #adamandi

[washeduprockstr]

is evan a r&m oc? :0c

No. And to avoid anymore questions in this regard (/nm) I will say it once Evan is an introject.

#starmail #i wanted to avoid this #but ive gotten far too many questions about it at this point #to disregard it any more #but its fine just dont be weird #and to those who dont know #i am a system #i just dont like talking about it very much #so i tag as oc #which i will continue to do #uhhh yeah #vague hand gestures #aw jeez 💥 #id rather be seen online as a character than be perceived as real #lmao

[blupengu]

Y’all is Hollow Knight hard or do I just suck because oh my god??

#not gonna inflict my ramblings onto someone else’s post so just making a text post for myself #but oh my god #what the fuck? #maybe I’m not a hardcore metroidvania fan but I like them well enough #do I suck that badly at games now?? am I old to the point that my hands can’t do this shit???? #did I just somehow fuck myself at some point??? #because wow this feels kind of sadistic???? #and not even in the fun kind of way????? #like I think I’d rather submit myself to fear and hunger again rather than continue where I am now in hk #idk maybe I’m missing something #but I just got wall jump and was so happy until I fell down to where you can challenge those mantis dudes #got myself out of there but then as I was exploring northwest I keep dying and reviving from the fucking bouncy balls over water #and the normal mantis mobs are also kicking my ass? #and dont even get me started on the weird tentacley nuclear bomb mushroom things those are just bullshit #AND THEN AS I WAS HAVING A GOOD TIME EXPLORING HEADING TOWARDS A SAVE BENCH I GET DROPPED INTO DEEPNEST?????? #WHAT KIND OF JUMPSCARE BULLSHIT?????????? #AND THE FUCKING COCKROACHES THAT NEVER SEEM TO STOP SPAWNING KILL ME #and then I see how fucking far back I’ve been dropped in the corner of fungal wastes #and I try jumping through the fucking bouncy balls again #and I die and lose my money #I can’t fucking do this shit anymore y’all holy fucking shit #the number of times I’ve died and restarted from that fucking fungal wastes bench I am so sick of it 💀 #legit I think this is the first time I’ve rage quit a game #it’s been a while since a game’s actually made me this angry I want to fucking throw something 😂 #the willpower and self control I needed to not chuck my pro controller across the room… #if I didn’t have neighbors and a unit below me I’d be throwing shit for sure though #but instead I must smack pillows against my mattress in a rage 😂 #I think I hate the ‘go back to where you died to get back your money’ punishment system… like legit I actually really really hate it. #I do think the game is fun and I know I’ll probably quickly gain the money… but it feels like the game’s telling me I fucking suck lmao #suffice to say I will not be playing any more hollow knight for the foreseeable future 💀

[kharonion]

Ugh, I wish more artist friends were supportive instead of... competitive. I hate that this scene has turned into that. Like... we all are in the same boat here, trying to make a living doing what we love. And it's already agonizing as it is. Can we not be at each other's throats, consistently trying to show people up who are less successful?

I'm tired of it. I'm tired of trying to make a name for my business only to be stepped all over because I don't have the reach/client base/skill/whatever the fuck else compared to everyone else.

For once, I want to be fucking supported in what I'm trying to do.

#personal #tbd #i'm just. fucking exhausted. #feels like i'm in this all by my fucking self most days. #i never had the luxury of a supportive family to have my back inthe decision. #and apparently i don't get the luxury of a support system in the business either. #makes it really hard to see ANY point in continuing it.

[semiotomatics]

hahahaha i fucking hate my insurance company and i want them to die!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

#i also hate the healthcare system!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! and capitalism!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! and my entire fucking miserable life!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! #holy shit i understand now why people request maid for treatable conditions #i would literally rather die than have to continue going through this torture for years just to survive #like whats even the point? whats the fucking point? #clearly none of these people care if i live or die #so why dont i just get out of their hair!!!!! #oh my god im so angry!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! #and tired and hopeless and sad and fucking!!!! mentally ill!!!!!!! fuck!!!!!! #i legitimately think they want me to make an attempt #i think thats the only way theyll fucking believe me #i need to be hospitalized or committed or whatever #fuck them!!! like seriously fuck them!!!! #and then if i do theyll be like “welp she shouldve sought help” LIKE #FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU #oh my god i am FURIOUS #BIRTH IS A CURSE AND EXISTENCE IS A FUCKING PRISON AND IM OVER IT #fuck #sorry to put this on main but i am SO FUCKING MAD and i want literally everyone to know it #what do i need to do!!! #please tell me!!! #do you want me to die!!!! #cause ive been trying desperately to avoid that all this time but it seems to be the only option rn!!!! #fuck!!!! #fuck im not in danger im safe nobody needs to worry i just #god #im so goddamn fucking exhausted of this

[mantisgodsdomain]

Slowly, yet painfully realizing that we're probably the exact type of person that random fandom guys would miscast as a father.

#we speak #internet teenagers keep coming to us as like the only authority figure on hand who will treat them like people #and we're like... please... we don't want to be an authority figure... why do all of your parents suck so hard... #like we're willing to offer ourself as an anchor as well as we can because we've Been there and know how it feels #but like damn. who the fuck let your families suck this bad. how on earth have situations managed to produce enough of you #that we end up being cast as The Only Adult On Hand Willing To Listen And Talk Through Things MULTIPLE TIMES #and perhaps more importantly why are we the only person in random fandom discords who is willing to treat teenagers like People #weren't the rest of you also teenagers at some point??? don't you like remember how it feels like to not have agency for shit??? #experiencing the “only person in the room who's willing to take a position” thing #despite there being like multiple other people in the room who should be WAY more qualified for this #how does this keep happening and more importantly why are we the only guy in the area who is doing anything to help #just to stress this point #we are trying our hardest to NOT be an authority figure because historically it ends terrible for us due to The Mental Health Issue #but somehow we are continually running into situations where we're the only guy willing to come up to plate #the syndromes. the issues. we are so fucking glad that this particular wave is coming now instead of A Few Years Ago #something something progress but also we dislike that we have to be the one handling these situations #because we shouldn't be considered a primary point of stability in anyone's life and the fact that we ARE a stable point to anyone is uhh #weird to think about. who let this happen. we're not old enough to be a parent #and we also find it very alarming that there are so many of you out there who are severely lacking in support #someone needs to work out a childcare arrangement system that doesn't suck because the current one really isn't doing it #while we're at it we can start overhauling the culture that landed us in being the only person willing to listen to people like ever #and maybe make it so we don't have to be a primary support because people are sufficiently supported already

[pigeonliker420]

whenever i go looking into help or random talk about bg3 i keep seeing people like comparing it to dragon age either in expectations or selling points and bro. ghirl. its not dragon age. its baldurs gate

#gale is not going to be another Betraying Mage because hes not a MAGE hes a WIZARD #COMPLETELY different set of stereotypes there. now go be a sorcerer for funny rivalry dialogue with him #two completely different settings. two completely different systems. theres already an existing continuity. go play the other baldurs gates #theres two Other games and they interconnect with the two neverwinter nights and several other oldass d&d crpgs. not everything is bioware #bioware wasnt even the first game with romanceable companions go play nwn2s and get disappointed as all ur LIs die in incredibly funny ways #i am annoyed by this as much as im sure dragon age fans are annoyed by the idea of it being released after bg3 and therefore drawing the #inevitable comparisons itself #also nwn2's Main Story (the expansion) (dont ask its a funny production story) is one of the most interesting fantasy plots ive ever played #even considering that. the by the numbers base game story for it is also fun and clever since they may have had their hand forced on what #sort of story they could tell there but they did have fun with it. picking at and parodying the tropes #if ur big on 5e lore though it might be just a bit incomprehensible since its 3.5e and includes concepts like #the wall of the faithless as a minor plot point which. i cant remember if thar exists in 5e anymore #and bishop and gann being atheists but still getting spells #probably by some god who thought itd be funny

[brightokyolights]

.

#another rant lmao #anyways just seriously thinking about how every single time i have voted ive done it tactically instead of just voting for who i prefer #luckily my mp is decent. not perfect. but pretty good #like theres little i could say i disagree with them #anyways point is i always got kind of frustrated with people #why would you split the vote? this is how the tories continuously get into power #but tbh regardless. maybe there is no Right way to go about this #and maybe you shouldnt just vote in hopes of keeping the tories out #even if youre voting for a party thats gonna lose #maybe thats better than giving a vote to someone whos a dickhead #i think looking at americans has kind of helped me come to this conclusion #because look whata happened #they did it. they got the democrats in. but did it matter? why the fuck play into a system thats not for you #idk im not too well read on politics etc i am but a girl #le text post

[mud-castle]

Continuing off my thoughts of making Sol a creacher, maybe something not cat, maybe dead, maybe spirit. Nothing I want to put a definition on.

Sol starting out as just a sort of odd looking cat. Fairly tall & lanky, short fur except for his mane and tail, male calico type deal. A little off putting, but nothing too alarming. He comes in rare times of peace, asking for nothing more than an audience. He sticks around.

Then the story continues, the clans grow restlessness around each other.. He draws Hollypaw/leaf in more. He casually picks at the threads of the code. And...he makes some sense. Does he look a bit different? His muzzle longer? No, must be the light.

Then things get worse, threat of all out war, each clan for themselves. Hollyleaf & others now listening to Sol's message. He's right, isn't he? But one could swear he towers over you a bit more His teeth look sharper. His grin wider.

Everything goes to shit. War. Death. Can't trust anyone. And a creature, large and imposing stands over the chaos. He doesn't join in the battle, oh no. He's simply there to watch the panic unfold as the moon slips into place, darkening the midday sun.

#eos thoughts #first I wanted Sol to be a weird cat spirit #then changed to fox spirit #now I want him to not have an explanaition. He is as he is #never seen before never seen after #plus he fits in better with my spirit & magic system this way #What does he want? revelation maybe? #I like the idea that he's not fully the reason why everything goes to shit in Eclipse (which is the last PO3 book in EoS #he's just pointing out things as he sees. Maybe sprinkling some lies here or there. hurting some feelings. #but at the end of the day it's the aggressive and war-like nature of the clans that allows him to do this #whoo so many thoughts #might make Dove & Ivy his children to continue off of the three all being from somewhat forbidden or unwanted births

[torgawl]

literally obsessed with that one stupid page about the 4 samsara cycles by the narzissenkreuz ordo and the concept of descenders. what exactly are the "remains" of the third descender? does that mean their physical form or something else entirely?

#i feel like i can point out a few things i feel are relevant to understanding the big picture but then don't know how to connect everything #i REALLY think something is up with time in teyvat as a whole #you cannot tell me the fact istaroth has been worships before in teyvat and no longer is and the only way it has preserved through time #and consequently the samsaras has been through stories (like we experience in sumeru) isn't extremely relevant #it has to be!!! it's unwanted information in the 'system' #much like forbidden knowledge which we know is associated with the fall of multiple civilizations #and what is also associated with places that have been targetted by celestia's nails? irminsul branches #the same irminsul that records all information in teyvat #the same irminsul we can assume dain uses to continue to live till this day breaking free from erosion #erosion from 'time' that affects even the gods?! #is erosion even natural in the first place? #curses by the heavenly principles... fear against otherwordly information... cycles of life... #4 cycles... 4 descenders... 4 shades of phanes (2 unknown)... #the samsara cycles having names of civilizations/regions... #what's connecting these things? #natlan's incsndescant ode of ressurection... ressurection... gnosis being remains of the third descender... #the tsaritsa collecting the gnosis... i know there's a connection there has to be #i really think time is fucked up in teyvat like what if the entire thing is just timeless? #i feel like i have the brain the size of a pea #could the descenders be us or our twin in different 'times'? #the concept of the gnosis fucked me up i don't understand it genuinely what are remains and can they coexist with the supposed 3rd or not #genshin thoughts

[werewolf-transgenderism]

I wish all insurance companies that rely on unscientific and inaccurate indicators of illness to approve higher levels of treatment a very Die :)

#feeling resentful on this Saturday morning #like I can meet your criteria if you let me continue to spiral with no treatment but I would rather not get to that point! #I love the US healthcare system :)))))) #guess I'm doing it all myself again until I'm 'stable enough' for outpatient therapy :)) #delete later