#life.. maybe I shouldn't be someone's whatever you call it 😭😭

[thestarfishinjootsoffice]

Thomas hewitt with short reader who adores him!

I got this inspired from a wattpad story 😭 please I'm gonna die, what if someone I know irl sees this.

Summary: you acted nice to Thomas and now he's glued to you.

Tw: stockholm Syndrome?

You were on your 1999's jeep on your way to Texas. You and your friends decides to move to a very hot place for what unknown reason. You were burning but the opened windows seemed to help a bit. Your two friends in the back seat were making out shamelessly while the driver of the car who was actively tying to flirt with you. It may not be the best car trip right now but you're sure it's gonna be worth it.

The town itself wasn't very loud but you just hoped the cacophony of lip smacking and annoying sounds from the radio would end.

"Hey y/n, have you ever thought about getting into relationships?" The driver friend of yours asked obnoxiously.

"Uh I don't know, I'll meet the right person I guess..." You just blandly answered hinting at your suitor that you have no interest in this conversation.

And as if God answered your prayers you spotted a gas station

"Stop the car right now there's a gast station."

and you hear faint words of aww's from your sappy friends. you got out and proceeded to vamoose into the gas station hoping to find good food to replenish your hunger.

You got distracted and bumped into a squishy big tough chest, you look up and the most cutest attractive man you've ever seen in your entire life, although his eyes were piercing through yours cautiously and with fire as to wait for you to run away but you just stood there looking at him with awe and adoration in your eyes which seemed to catch him off guard as he's never been looked at like this. A sudden voice met your attention.

"Ah it seems you've run into my son Thomas, I'm Luda Mae just call me Mae and don't fear him he isn't going to hurt you he's just a gentle giant, right Tommy?" The elderly woman said.

The man now you know as either Thomas or Tommy slightly nodded his head.

"Hi Tommy! Nice to meet you!" You chirped as if you were talking to a baby or a small animal, this unfamiliar tone of voice caught both of them off guard, Thomas flabbergasted and flustered underneath his mask and Luda with a small o on her mouth which turned into a teasing smile. But before she could say anything your friends barged inside.

"What the- Y/n stay away from that!."

You were roughly pulled away from Thomas by one of your friends, as they so rudely explained that you shouldn't be near someone as big and dangerous as tommy and ordered whatever was on their mind and dragged you away only a small 'bye!' Escaping your lips before seen out of sight from both of them.

Maybe you won't be food.

Now a few hours later and it's dark and you can barely see anything but you were bleeding and scars on your body and was running away from that house with your only remaining friend but now you have none since a chainsaw is going through their body leaving you no choice but to run away alone leaving you scared to death.

You were running as fast as you could but the killer caught up to you and you recognised those distinct eyes.

"Tommy?" You asked, fear and adrenaline leaving your body, why was it that you felt so in peace when you are with him? Before you could process anything further your vision blackened.

And now you found yourself tied to a chair in front of family of 4 Or 5 you can't tell but what you did notice that your flirty driver was hung upside down on the wall. And now you were sobbing because you were scared for your life.

Thomas wanted you to stop crying and aquiver but didn't know how so he decided to comfort you with music he gently placed his headphone over your ears hoping it'll calm you down and oddly enough it did. It calmed you knowing he didn't mean you harm. But you aren't sure that goes for the same from his family, how did you even get into this situation anyways? They all started eating what they called 'your friends' and Thomas even started to feed you. which strangely didn't seem to bother you as much as you thought it would. You started zoning out and before you knew it the tight rope from your hands started to untangle.

"Hey! What are you doing!? First you insist they be tied with rope instead of nailing them and now you're untying them?"

You had absolutely no idea what was going on so you just sat idle and Thomas stood there with his hands pointed at you as to show that you meant no harm.

"What if they run away and snitch?"

"I-i won't!" You cursed yourself for stuttering.

"Well.. It doesn't hurt to have one more family member." Luda mae implies.

"I'm watching you..." The older man snarly says to you.

Few months later you are now very much apart of their family and you help around the house, 8/10 (10 if you don't mind murder and blood and cannibalism)

Now for hc's!

Everytime you talk to him with adoration his heart explodes everywhere. ⬅➡⬆⬇↗↘↙↖

He runs by your side every chance he gets, he's a very busy man but you accompany him and he can't ask for anything more or less.

He's going to get VERY attached to you poor baby rarely ever received this kind of affection before you so DON'T break his heart. (Not like you will anyways)

Ask for anything and he'll bring it to you in 3 seconds.

Will also worry alot over the smallest things like a small cut on your finger, does it hurt!? Are you in pain!? Are you okay? Please don't bleed out!

Will die (out of cuteness) if you do the same.

Very shy about PDA but he's the most touched starved cuddly man behind close doors.

Will probably be dependant on you.

Will also be very scared when you go out alone, incase you'll decide you don't like him anymore and run away.

Also very insecure, what if you find a better man? :(

Will fall for you 100x harder if you help him with the murdering.

Loves the size difference too. You have to stand on your tippy toes smh. 😳

Pats your head, yes.

Sometimes carries you wherever you like when you two have free time.

LOVES nicknames.

"Tommy I'm fine!"

"Tommy it's okay I'm not gonna run away I'm only going on errands."

"Baby I promise I won't leave you, you are my only love."

"Muah, feel better?"

"Oh no, are you okay sweetheart?"

"You are the most handsome man I've ever seen."

"Love you, goodnight darling."

"You're so tall!"

#thomas hewitt x reader #thomas hewitt #texas chainsaw massacre #tcm the beginning #tcm 2003 #slasher x reader #slasher x you #x you #x you fluff #slashers #thomas hewitt my beloved #i love him #my skrunkly

[silvershiningtarot]

✨PAC18+ Channeled Messages From Your FS..... 💘💋💘

🪬Some of you say you wanted channeled Messages from your Future Spouses. But with more detail.💋 Thank You @fae-ngel for the details of the channel's message from y'all future spouses. If some of you guys feel offended about the religion thing don't read this. In the last pile. You can pick more than one pile. Remember this is a general reading.

👋🏽Hey baby, I hope that you are doing okay. I haven't been on my best behavior lately. I wanna tell you something, but I can't. For years I have been lied to. Cheated on and stabbed in the back. Since yesterday I got hurt by a friend. I almost got into a bad fight with one of my friends. I've been out drinking, partying, and smoking. Keeping myself distracted so I won't fucking hurt myself. So I want to cry 😭 so bad. But I can't. I hate that I have to keep a fucking smile on my face. I hate I have to deal with my responsibility without any fucking help. I need help. Not professional. But love help, nurturing help, and support help. I wish someone who is right now out there to help me. But there isn't. I know I can't quit my job. How am I supposed to feed my kids? Feed my family, feed my team. Of course, feed myself. Every time I tried to get a little piece and quiet to myself. Somebody or something always gets in the way. This fucking ex of mine is always on me. Yeah, I know it's my fucking fault. But hell I'm trying. I know I keep getting robbed and played by her. But I won't lie to you. I don't like to be alone. I get scared when I'm alone. I know right, the person who's complaining about wanting to be alone. I don't like to be with my thoughts. It is scary sometimes. You get it right! I've lived in darkness my whole life. Until my kids came along. But still... These thoughts, and memories. It’s scary. That's even half of the shit. I'm telling you about. Anyways, let me tell you something.. I've faced a lot of challenges in my life. Face them!! I did. I dream about you constantly, so my question is this. When are you going to come to me? I've been waiting and waiting for you. I know it sounds impatient. But I am❗. Whatever you go through right now or for a while. Fight that shit. Close your eyes and pretend I'm there fighting with you not against you. Because whenever I close my eyes can see it. You are with me every single time. Fighting my life with me. I know I go thinking that your energy is in my ex. But it isn't but it isn't. Okay, don't be mad at me! I can feel your anger when I said that. Haha 😂. Baby, you should go out and date other people. You shouldn't wait on me. That's kinda fucked up for you to wait on me. While I'm stuck! I should ask myself this! To My future wife! Should I keep you stuck with me? Tuh Hell NOO!! I wouldn't want my daughters to be waiting on some dude they haven't met yet. I haven't met you yet... Ooh, I have a song for us. That's a song I'm dedicating to us. I hope you like it. I just haven't met you yet. Once I do! I'll be screaming 🙀 saying YAY!!!!!!!! FINALLY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! You take my breath away every time I see you in my dreams. The sad part is when I wake up early in the rising... That's right I said Rising! I took your word!! Haha 😂 anyway, when I get up I can't remember your face. Do you honestly think about me? Answer these questions for me. I'm serious Comment it down if you have to. How come you don't invite me back into your dream? What's keeping you from me? Did I do something wrong? I hope that didn't. Maybe, you should talk to me in the middle of the night. With your lights off and just call me in. I bet I'll come to you in a heartbeat. I mean Duh, I am your husband. Well not yet! I hope I can be your husband. It would be an honor to be your husband. This life, the next life, in the stars.. Or whatever I hope I come down being your husband or wife forever. I am your partner. You know what so fucking funny! I think you send me a message in my dream. But fucking deadasss!!! For the life of me, I can't remember! Do you get like that? But For the real answer. The funny thing is. I am crazy about you but again I haven't met you yet. I know you probably won't talk to me! But hear me out. Don't be mad. Please, please 🙏🏾 I won't forgive myself if you are mad at me for this. Hold up let me get myself together. Okay, (clear throat) I told my ex about you. I told her I fantasized about you when I'm sleeping with her. When she was kissing me I wiped that shit off fast.

Whenever her back is turned I wiped her lips off of me. These lips 💋 are yours. My body is yours. But again, I am sorry for the wait but I ain't sorry that you got to wait. I know it sounds harsh. Let me tell you why!! Because your mind, body, heart, and soul are mine. That isn't fair to someone else to have to take it from me. I'll hunt them down if anyone touches you. Even from a far distance, I'll still hunt those dudes down if they ever try. So yeah I haven't been on my best behavior. Now you know why. Anyways, I love you darling. Remember that's your name always with me... Darling.

🌟Hello, my cupcake.

How's my cutie doing? I just wanted to tell you thank you. Thank you for still believing in us and our connection. You holding out strong. I've never had anyone who holds out like that. Thank you. I am dating around. Just putting myself out there. My advice to you is don't check up on me. Don't check up on me on social media, videos, or anything. I want you to start dating yourself. I want you to focus on yourself. So we both can become a little closer🙏🏾. It seems that you were afraid of me. I came to you into your dream today. Don't you remember? But you kept swerving around. So I stop following you for a minute. Until you called out my name in my dream. Only you know who this is. Keep it to your chest. The reason why I say date yourself is because I'm scared for you to find someone that's out there for you. You'll forget about me. I know I never experience someone like you and you never experience someone like me. Are you ready to? I feel like I kinda am ready to experience someone like you. I wanna get to know you a little bit more. Your energy and your spirit are here with me. I know it is your spirit next to me. I can feel it next to me. I told you a little bit about my past. I've cried to you. I am so comfortable with you. You know what's so funny... You always lay on me in your dreams. I can tell that you are comfortable with me too. Shush 🤫 that's a good thing. I'm glad you didn't judge me for my past. The mistakes I've made. You let me tear it down. Thank you. Do you know how special you are? I feel that you've been through a lot. Oh, damn! When you laid on me. I didn't just cry because of my past. I've cried to you too. Are you ready to start a new life with me? A new family with me. Our marriage, relationships, and our kids. Are you ready to be my wife/husband? Ask yourself this baby. It is scary once we are in it together. It's going to be hella fucking scary. But one thing I know today is that we will have each other. I haven't met you yet. But one thing is. I wanna dedicated a song to you real quick. Listen to both songs. I'm serious. They are for you, baby. Slowly listen to my words. Let my words from my song speak to you. Just as your present speaks to me. Your spirit talks to me all the time. I talk to myself all the time. I never thought in my life, I felt this way about you. The closer I'm getting towards you. I can feel you getting stronger. I'm not joking about this. I know I may sound 📢 crazy. I'm being honest with you. Anyways, I'm done talking right now. I'm assigning you homework. Those two songs give you! You better tell me what these songs mean to you. I can feel our connection getting stronger and closer. But of course, I keep thinking it was someone else. But it isn't. I know it's you. I just have to convince myself more.

🧑🏾‍❤️‍💋‍🧑🏾oh my sweetheart.

Have you been eating? I can see you putting on weight. I've been watching you left to right. How's your family doing? You told me you've been dealing with a lot of toxicity. So have I. The reason why is that my mother has been lying to me. She kept a lot of secrets from me. That I haven't even known. She told me things I wish no man or any child had to experience that shit. I felt that my mother wasn't sure about having me. I guess I was a third-party child. It was a one-night stand when she had me. But anyway, let's talk about us. I want to say to you that... You are the most important person in my life. I know I’ve kept talking about my mother. But she told me that you're nothing but a fantasy I'll never get to meet you. Never! You hear that bullshit. I tried telling my friends and other people but they laugh at me. I feel completely alone. Can you talk to me? Can I have a moment of your time? Just for a moment. Don't worry I don't live with my mother she lives with me. Even if I did live with my mother. Would you still date me? That's not the point but I'm sorry for feeling all insecure about us. I know I am the one who's holding us back. I've been wishing that you were right here by my side. Can we run away together once we meet? Please. This distance I can't deal with it. Can just two people who are meant to be just be together? That isn't fair, right? Don't you agree with me? Anyways, my shining light 💡. You light up my world when I think about you. When I talk to my boss and friends or even be on dates with different women I've been zoning out from them. Because they are boring as hell. Like ugh, I wanna have a real conversation with you. I wanna talk to you. I feel like the universe is holding us back. I'm about to say fuck it! Say, let's go ahead and find each other. I don’t care if I have to push through people and other forces get to you then I fucking will. I am tired of being patient here. What do you have to do? What do I gotta do? I am sorry for the yelling and the frustration. But I am frustrated. Anyways, this is what I'm going through. Don't worry everything will be perfect once we both lock eyes with each other. Everything is coming together soon.

💘Ahh, are you Cupid? Because baby your arrow shoot my heart 💘. I wanna tell you my name. But I think you know my name already. Think harder and look deeper. I know a lot of women think I'm very handsome and charming and have a lot of women coming after me. Which I do. But guess what though. You swept me off my feet. The only person I wanna chase after is you. I don't know how you do it but you just do. I love how you shot fire with your words. The way you way rap, move your body, and the way you maneuver your words. God! That shit is fucking sexy. I know I should speak the lord's name in vain. However, I ain't burning in hell. Unless you coming with me. Then I'm alright with that. My health has been up and down lately. In and out of the hospital 🚑 left to right. But don't give me your sympathy. I don’t fucking need it. I know It sounds like I don't open up. But I don't. But you!! YOU!! I don't know what kind of spell you put on me. I've tried to run away from you, ignore you, block you out of my head, dreams, and energy 🔋. You are so goddamn strong. Tell me! What makes you so powerful? What do you do? Are you a witch? If you are then cast me a spell right in front of me. I don't believe in magic ✨ but for some damn reason! Boom 💣 here you come. I won't lie to you. I wanna fuck you. You are drop-dead gorgeous. But even from a distance, you torture me. I don't know if it is a good thing. So it's a good thing. No matter how hard I've tried to forget about you, there you are. It's like ugh, WHAT ARE YOU DOING TO ME?! tell me now! It's such a good feeling. I don't know how to describe this feeling. Maybe it's lust between you and me. Maybe, the truth is. I'm falling for you from a distance. I've fucked so many women just to stop thinking about you. But you won't go away from me. I hope that you know this. Honestly, you did this to me. I hope you are happy. You got me a simp for you. I talk to a psychic just to get you out of my mind, heart, and body. When I lay in bed. I can feel your head and skin on me. Especially, when you are out of the shower 🛁 😂😏😏😏. I'm a horny guy/girl. I'm always horny. But you made me feel like I'm a changed man/woman. I don't even know yet! Whatever you are doing!! Cut it out! Because I will find you❤️ I've got a lot of money 💵 I'll find you I don't know how but I will. The second I rest my head, you come straight into my dreams. You fucking siren! It's your voice and your entire aura pulls into your arms. Nah! I'm a master. Don't tell anyone this keep this between you and me. You make me weak. I can feel my bones 🦴 weak. Ugh, it's sad that you aren't here yet. So whatever you are doing!! I want you to..... Keep doing it. 🫦🫦🫦🫦🫦.

#Spotify #pac reading #tarot reading #free tarot reading #fs pick a pile #tarot cards #pick a pile #divination readings #intuitive readings #love reading #pac reblog #channeled message #future spouse #future lover #tarot tumblr #tarotcommunity #welcome post #500 reblogs #paid readings #paid request

[al-hekima-madara-blog]

Schoolgirls dictatorship and Naruto fandom

After a year hanging around in the tumblr Naruto fandom, I've learned with certitude that men (and women) are forbidden to have friendship and express brotherhood. But also, I've just noticed recently that poor general culture is a must. When you read a story you shouldn't be curious to google what you don't understand and expand your view. but in contrary you should tear down the plot to your limited schoolgirl comprehension of the world. And gaslight everything/everyone that/who doesn't fit to your desires. And if it's not enough, have a tantrum, call people names !

What do I mean by schoolgirl? You don't need to be at school, neither being a teenage not even being a girl. You can be a 40 years old mother of 6 with a deep schoolgirl mindset. Schoolgirl is a concept, a way of life, a philosophy of being. It's rooted from the idea that everything is about you somehow. What you feel is what the world shall feel, what you see is what the world shall see, and in the Naruto fandom what you want is what Kishimoto wanted too but couldn't say it loud enough so he needs YOU to make it more obvious to the ignorant mass of readers. Here is an exhaustive list of what a schoolgirl will demand and impose as canon no matter if it destroys the whole story in the process :

intense emotional romance (love or hate, with me or against me tropes)

intense hardcore sex (hormonal urges)

intense anxieties. Toxic love affairs, taking pleasure in the victimhood's position with a total refusal to acknowledge own mistakes is a peak.

abolition of friendship. It's a shonen but you know those sad and pathetic males in denial of their true feeling, stubbornly platonic who refuse to engage in graphic intercourses for the well-being of schoolgirls' libido.

meowmeow-fication of the world, the cuter the better. Why should we take into account the mysterious attraction in the otherness, the beauty, the paradox and awe in human's nature, human's temperaments, the subtle differences between men and women while it's so much more easy for your lazy brain when everyone is a babygirl.

Decontextualisation. War? shinobi world? history? geography? politics? nuances? foreign cultural norms? No this is too deep for a schoolgirl. You need storyline like junk food, it needs to be fat, heavily sweet and easy to digest. How dare you add subliminal references to others artists from past centuries, arts, mythologies? You mean the schoolgirl needs to actually open a non fanfictional book? Shut up !

I was reading lately a comment from someone stressing that there is "obvious" romance spotted when Madara asks Hashirama to kill him and in reverse when Hashirama chose to kill himself. I thought to myself : Ok maybe not everyone knows what is the bushido (google it!) ...but surely this fandom has seen before a war movie or knighthood movie or even spend time talking with actual soldiers? They seems to genuinely ignore what is a code of honour. Secondly we're talking about a japanese manga and the Warring state era is heavily inspired by the real Japanese warring state era (Sengoku Jidai). If you have watched the documentary Age of samurai on Netflix, they… decide to perform su*cide all the goddamn time! 😭 Often for reasons related to honour, avoidance of disgrace for the group after a general loose a battle. But also a su*cide can be a form of protestation, a way to tell an important message.

Emile Durheim (google him!), a sociologist who wrote a study about su*cide classifies them in 4 differents types : egoistic, anomic, fatalistic and altruistic su*cide. The well-known japanese seppuku performed by samurai is part of the altruistic form. When Hashirama is ready to die, It has nothing to do with emotional turmoil for the love of his life or whatever metaphysical anxiety. He wants to prove how strongly resolved he is to build his village and the new era of peace he dreamed of and for that he's resolute to give up his own life for the benefit of the group. It's true heroism and it's selfless (see, I'm not a fan of Hashirama but I can detach myself from my subjective feelings sometimes)

And just before that, Madara accepting death from Hashirama's hand (a former childhood friend) is also a proof how highly he esteems Hashirama as a victorious winner even if he is his arch-enemy. In his own way Madara shows his selflessness. In this precise moment, even in his personal pain and anger against the Senju, he's still able to recognise Hashirama's dignity and protect him from going through the same despair of losing a brother. But yeah that's too much effort… Schoolgirl fever is way more comfortable, right?

#Schoolgirl cognitive studies phD #believe it! #Naruto fandom #Madara #Madara Uchiha #Hashirama #Hashirama Senju #Hashimada #Naruto #Naruto Shippuden

[robotpussy]

um identity crisis rant ✌️✌️ putting it under a cut because um it's kind of unnecessary. also I'm deleting this soon.

ok so yea I'm not sure if I'm bisexual or a lesbian..... I've felt this way for years. I'm attracted to men when I make them up. or when I barely interact with them. and I know a lot of ppl have this experience and still wouldn't consider themselves lesbians. but lately I've really been.... dismissive of men. when my friend came over a few weeks ago she wanted to talk about boys and whatever and I was just like... I don't care about dating men????? like if I ever do have a boyfriend, they will literally be my butch... my stud... my transmasc (not trans man: trans masc doesn't always = trans man) lover, just anybody who wants me to call them my boyfriend. but not like. a man?

and every experience I've had with a man has been so underwhelming, or at least leaves me feeling anything but bliss. I'm bored, I'm annoyed, I'm angry, I'm sad, I don't feel good 😭😭😭 I also keep "crushing" on men who are unavailable for me. they're already in a relationship or they only date men. and the crushes aren't even crushes, it's limerence. it's obsession. it's "I can't eat or concentrate when you're not around" it's almost like I keep going for ppl (specifically talking abt ppl in relationships) because I know I can't have them but I need somebody to think about... like yea I know when someone is attractive but when it comes to men I don't even like the idea of dating. I just like thinking about how attractive they are? but I don't want to love you..... I don't want to spend my life with you. i just want to think about how I think you're attractive

when I've kissed women/girls in the past, and only kissed, I can't stop thinking about it. I'm always devastated when we have to stop. but in those moments they were euphoric, my chest is going to burst open and my heart will cry from happiness compared to when I've kissed men and I just want it to be over.

I know I shouldn't focus on my lack of desire for men but lately I feel like my attraction to men feels forced!!!!!!!!! it feels unnatural to me!!! when I think about men I feel like I'm doing something wrong. and I've already gotten the dreaded "you just haven't found the right man yet!!!" line when talking about this and maybe that is so! I don't know.

but lately when I call myself bisexual I feel like I'm lying to myself. but I'm not used to calling myself a lesbian yet because maybe I'm not one? I'm young. I have a long way to go when it comes to self discovery. I just wish I knew already. this feeling of not knowing what I am or who I am makes me feel sick (literally I felt so sick at work today my head hurt, my stomach hurt, my chest hurt and yes I did eat today! so I know it wasn't that!!) idk I'm overwhelmed by this now but I'm sure I'll find peace soon. I'm doing too much for someone who knows gender isn't real and doesn't even have one. whatever it's a Tuesday evening. there are other things to worry about like getting to the weekend 😑😑😑

#mine #um........ just needed to get this out. um if any mutuals read this and want to talk to me abt id love to hear it #i dont want to burden anybody tho so yea

[there-are-many-ways-to-smile]

Since I've decided not to watch anymore seasons of Grey's. I want to take this time to talk about stuff I probably have no business talking about because I didn't watch the actual episodes. 😅

This is gonna be very out of order.

☆: As much as I like Bailey, Alex should have the board chair. Cristina left it for him and Richard shouldn't even be allowed to Nominate anyone. He's not even on the board.

☆: Maggie and Jackson dating each other is gross. People keep saying it fine cause they didn't grow up together. I don't care. Them being attracted to each other while their parents are dating/married is disgusting. Like that's literally your legal sibling.

☆: if I watched season 14, Casey Parker would have been a favorite character. I’ve only seen clips on him and top tier, him and Cristina and maybe Alex would have been so powerfully unhinged. Lol

☆: Idk the relationship with Maggie and Meredith but I think Maggie expecting Meredith to tell her everything about her life is a bit much, like it’s so much and she just met you. So obviously she’s not gonna be like here’s my life story. Idk what’s going on with Alex but you can’t fault Meredith for trusting him over Maggie she’s known the dude for like ten years…

☆: Maggie 100 percent should waited to be on better terms with Meredith before dropping the “we share a mom” bomb.

☆: I'm so confused on the Maggie and Jackson getting married thing. Because how would that have worked. Husband and wife while also being step-siblings. 🤮

☆: People keep bringing up Lexie whenever they see Maggie and calling her a lexie replacement. Listen one, Chyler Leigh wanted to be killed off the show, she and Maggie could have been friends or whatever. Stop trying to compare the them. Two, greys anatomy had Maggie planned since day one, albeit more so as a brother.

☆: I would have lowkey loved if Maggie was a brother instead of a sister. I just think would have been interesting. Probably something like

Meredith:"I've never had a brother before"

Derek or someone "what are you talking about? Isn't Alex kind of like having a brother?"

Then a cute scene of Alex and Meredith being like siblings. Idk

☆: the Nathan drama of season 13 is wild, after all that drama that happened when Meredith first met Derek. I can't even imagine her seeing someone know her sister Maggie liked and was actively going on dates with. [Tbh i have no idea if there were dates but the clip made it sound like that.] Nathan is trash for not telling Maggie he liked Meredith.

☆: I just saw Meredith and Jackson goodbye, and I actually like them. I remember when izzie came back to work after the merge and Alex, Cristina, Meredith and Jackson were all eating lunch together, and he said something and one of them was like "who invited you here?" And Meredith was all like "I did." That shit was cute. I wish season 10 and lower had more scenes of them being friends.

☆: I don't like Maggie and Jackson, but emotional cheating is still cheating.. it's exactly like what april was doing to Matthew..

☆: not Stephanie trying to blame the harassment complaints on Leah, like she wasn't one of the reasons Leah did it in the first place. Don't crap where you eat? (This is from the episode where Leah returns, I saw a clip on youtube.)

□: While writing this I'm low-key thinking about going back to binge the show for Alex, but he's goodbye is so bad, and I hate him and Izzie so much. I refuse 😤 also I heard Callie character development suffers a lot 😭

☆: Why would they have Callie keep dating the woman who killed her friend? Hate that (I watched the dinner scene on YouTube)

If I see anymore scenes that I'm like oof to, I'll make a part two

Even though I have zero business complaining 😆

#casey parker #greys anatomy season 14 #meredith grey #jackson avery #cristina yang #greys anatomy #madison bailey #callie torres #april kepner #maggie pierce #alex karev #izzie stevens #nathan riggs #stephanie edwards #leah murphy #penny blake

[iamcuziam]

I just gt into Milgram Project and its my new favorite thing. So far here is my line up'

Guilty:

Shidou - So, what I got from his song and vid is that he killed ppl so that he can play Frankenstein. He felt guilty about doing it but he still did it. And then the monster still went and died 🙄 chile anyways 😒

Mahiru - Y'all this woman is textbook crazy. There's no other way to splice it. Like she gives stalker vibes. The 'if you don't love me, you can't love anyone else'

Yuno - I originally that she was on some stalker type shit. So she was like a escort or something? I think she developed feelings for one of her customers and when they didn't reciprocate beyond being a customer she offed them

Innocent:

Futa - What I got from him was he's a gamer and spends a lot of time there bc the real world is filled with trash ppl. He is the shit in his game and kinda wishes he could wipe out the bad guys like in his game. He got the two worlds crossed and ended wiping out someone irl. He is not happy about some of the others being found innocent in the 1st trial. Which lines up with his views about justice. I feel like I may be off here but maybe there was someone he couldn't save or put on danger with his views and actions. I think he fears that he is just like the rest of the prisoners he sees as awful.

Kotoko - Blood for blood is a tale as old as time. Someone killed someone she loved and she went to kill them back. Same sis. 😏👏🏿

Haruka - Yeah, he was deemed guilty in the second round and I can't see how. He was mistreated for being different. That broke him. He just wanted to be loved by the people that should love him unconditionally... but ok 🙄

Mu - So, Mu was bullied something fierce and when she finally got a friend, for whatever reason she turns her back on Mu. 🙄😒 That is what I call a cunt move. But we'll see what happens in this 2nd Trial...

Unsure:

Mikoto - Poor baby def has a 'split personality' (apologies if the term is wrong, feel free to correct me). I think he deserves a mental hospital more than a prison but he definitely shouldn't be walking around in society if he can't keep that other side in check

Kazui: As much as I want to put the love of my life as innocent I don't really understand what went down in his video...? 😵‍💫 Like he and his wife drifted apart. Are the woman at the bar and his wife one in the same? I assumed he met his wife when she was at a low point in her life and they found live in a hopeless place. That or he a goddamn dirty cheat. And I really hope that's not the case 😭

Amane - I have no idea what her video is about. Like not even a vague idea... 🤷🏿‍♀️

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Do let me know what y'all think, whether you have something to add or a different idea entirely. Would love to see everyone else's thoughts on this.

#milgram project #milgram haruka #milgram yuno #milgram fuuta #milgram mu #milgram shindou #milgram mahiru #milgram kazui #milgram amane #milgram mikoto #milgram kotoko

[77angelnumbers77]

ˏˋ°•*⁀➷ How I organize my Drive!

Do you have a hard time finding projects you started? Do you have 1000 documents called "Untitled Document"? When was the last time you closed all those writing tabs?

I'm going to share how I sort my Drive. Alright, so to begin with, I hate sorting by genre, pairing, whatever within my Drive. It just gets too granular! I use 4 folders (well, 5 if you count the umbrella folder).

As follows:

I feel like a genius for devising this system. I'm going to explain each of these folders in more detail below.

ˏˋ°•*⁀➷ Concepts

This is for 1-2 sentence snippets of text that I think of when I'm out and about. I get an idea, I open a doc and write it down. Observe:

What you see is what you get! The docs themselves don't involve much more than what the title has to offer.

These work for all sorts of things! See:

Writing prompts for when you're blocked

Little moments to incorporate in your longer fics

Just getting a half-baked idea out of your head!

Why shouldn't you keep an idea in your head? Mostly because you'll probably forget it. Things happen in life! You could be thinking about nothing but your fic and still forget some detail you thought up when you were out and about.

In my case, this means . . . a plethora of terrible Christmas puns. But I'm still glad I wrote them down, because frankly I have no memory of creating this document.

ˏˋ°•*⁀➷ Abandoned

I'm skipping a step here, but I want to go in order of the screenshot 😭

Do you ever write something and realize it just doesn't resonate with you anymore? Or that it has too many plot holes? If you've ever abandoned a fic for whatever reason, I encourage you to have a folder for abandoned fics. My rule of thumb is to never delete old work. Why? Lots of reasons!

Older work shows your progress! Something that gives me a big self esteem boost is going back and reading older works to see how I've grown as a writer. There is value in preserving the timeline of how you got to where you are now!

There will always be bits worth saving. Maybe most of the fic is garbage, but there's a little snippet in there that could be recycled for a newer piece. Maybe the characterization is particularly good. Maybe you coined a word that you don't want to forget about! Every piece has something to offer, even if it never sees the light of day.

Having a place to store old work can be just as valuable as having a place to store your concepts.

ˏˋ°•*⁀➷ WIP

Short for work in progress. This is the folder for everything between concept and completed!

Actually, a lot of these follow the same format as the concept folder for me.

The biggest difference is length! Most of these don't even have titles. A good majority of them are <1000 words, which is my minimum publishing length, with no coherent plot. Most of these will never be published, but that's okay! The time I spend on them makes me a better writer, and I have fun.

ˏˋ°•*⁀➷ Complete

This is genuinely just a hall of fame for me.

Not all of these are published, and some of them never will be, but I think it's nice to remind myself that I am able to finish things. Writing takes a while, and it can be thankless, but putting pride in your achievements makes it easier to write long-term.

ˏˋ°•*⁀➷ Naming Conventions

One more thing! You may notice I don't have any documents with the default title. You may also notice a lot of my placeholder titles are overly descriptive. This is just to make it easier for me to find things! Two or three words to jog your memory is endlessly better than this:

Where is the soul? What's in it? Should I be scared?

Do yourself a favor and write a quick title. It doesn't have to be the final working title! It's a placeholder that can be changed at any time, and it'll save you a lot of time that could be used for writing.

Alright, well, I think that's it! Thanks for reading this far. I hope this helps someone! Happy writing ♥️

#txt #fic progress #writeblr #organization #guides

[anarchistettin]

not a gotcha but i dont believe i understand what definition of cult you are using. im assuming the thrust of the argument is denouncing all interconnected groups that cast off social norms together is throwing the baby out with the bath water? so i am assuming that your usage differs from the (in use but still flawed) BITE model.

ja imo the BITE model would be better aimed at the USA government or Christian church. It is a useful set of questions to ask - I can't help but find it particularly evocative though - everything it warns about is a basic feature of the USA. It's hard for me to imagine being the academic hashing all that out & not once going "hm how to disambiguate this from … every single mainstream institution in this nation and 90% of every other…hm"

It's great if reading over BITE gets someone out of a bad scene,

but I do despise, will always have to despise, the basic lazy ignorant common stupidity at its core. It's not a point of order or a quibble about words, it's that my loved ones were murdered and kidnapped by the police because people shut off the idea that MAYBE WE SHOULDN'T DO THIS if their targets "deserve" it.

the depth of ignorance it's allowing the rest of the abusing mind controllers to sink to rather overturns whatever forgiveness I'd otherwise have for those who use the term in its popular form.

past words that have undergone this transformation: villain (means villager) heathen (means rural) pagan (means bumpkin) gay / queer / et al (means pervert, child abuser, rapist, mind controller) negro (means lazy rapist, quasi-communist, Old Gods adjacent)

it goes onnnnnnnn & on & on & on.

there's a book called Strange Gods from the 70s? or 80s? forget exactly, that gently plead for sanity from USAns, trying to show how butt-fucking-simple the switch from "black" or "foreigner" to "CULT CULT CULT" was but… its dream (people not being stupid) along with mine (people not being evil) dies 😭 under the sheer tonnage of american shittiness and eagerness to please the Lairds

it's not that I care that y'all are mostly evil, it's that the blank stupidity of it is vexing & all the cultists I know personally, even the shitty ones, are better people on average and out of habit. would never repeat the insane & ugly fibs that normal people feel okay to spread - while their elected officials & religious officers do everything they claim to stop us doing, in full lust & no shame.

it'd piss me off less if the main voices for these fibs weren't so typical and gross about it, spewing nazi talking points in church lady tones.

the 1980s were bad, conservative kids were scary and violent, but y'all? y'all are the rightest wing "generation" yet! playing by the playbook but wearing team colors! acting out all the behaviors that you're claiming to oppose & spreading all the old lies in exchange for nothing more valuable than a brief orgasmic feeling of having been Wrong (the exact same feeling as being 'Right' prior to discovery that one has been uncritical and thus duped into becoming an important nazi asset)

I try to be good about it, I try to be wise, but I'm not good or wise, so I'm angry and full of hate too, along with them. it's a regular thing for me. "they're full of potenti- oof. okay. they're rightfully angry beca- oof, okay. they're lashing out at who's close at hand because they're scared. it sucks and they are starting to suck, but oka-oof, no that's not okay." and o n a n d o n

when it comes down to it, it's okay. it's fine. for me, I mean. I have the benefits, live in the benefits of good & natural human life. For you it's a disaster. You will not have the grounding, experience, natural ease, or security of the cult when times get lean. You won't know how to interact or trust. You won't know how to disperse and coalesce, you don't know how to keep your identities under control. So many of you still clearly think that another rollicking vote will set things ship-shape. A huge number of you still use "weird" to mean "bad". It's normal! but normal is bad. Duh! even straight kids knew that in the 20th century. SIGH.

You won't know how to fight, which is bad, but way worse: you don't know whom to fight. Which Is Deadly. I don't see a way out for many of y'all. You know that the machine you're living in hates you, but you haven't figured out how it got you to hate you, initially.

Most of the people from my gang wouldn't get angry about it - that's a difference between me & them - but it's because they wrote you all off a long time ago. "Dead alive". "Dead world".

fucking hell they're right and I'm wrong. I wanted to think that you could pass through some more new-fangled stages of being and come out "good" for it, but, that's not going to happen, is it?

not one of you is going to actually fight the cops, you're all going to attack whomever's close at hand & undefended, right? the next-lowest-sexuality or whatever. the flag teams. you'll call the police so you can get back to making important posts.

god I am so disappointed in the lot of you. Can you imagine the experience of watching people go "HM NO THIS WIKIPEDIA LINK DEFINES IT AS"?

the slide toward the modern definition is very recent, and very researchable. I think it's interesting to do that work - I don't mind that not many other people do. However. If you don't do that work and comment in the typical honkey way, I judge and hate you forever. Maybe not fair! but it is at least simple - and safer than continuing to believe in the "quality of young people". It was stupid of me to think there was a point to trying to share anything with y'all.

my bad!

tumblr cult claims a lot about itself but it's a big liar. tumblr cult's not only guilty of all its white dad's crimes & abuses: in emulation of Obama the Saviour, tumblr has perfected the art of targeting previously ambiguous Offenders, and freely given this science to the Overlords, while ever busily expanding the reach these abuses can attain and the damage they can cause.

tl;dr: y'all're too in love with the cops and the church

the revolution went on without you, but you keep looking at your phone for a signal

#it is truly amazing how many people ramp up the nazi talk when their right buttons are pushed #it would be a lie to pretend I don't hate back powerfully in response #it would be a lie to claim I'd never made decisions based on that hate

[cerosin-bis]

Eyyy Cero!! I know I'm prolly a decade late by now but i wanted to pop in and say that you shouldn't stop writing your thoughts on Ghost or any other characters, it's not your fault that fandom comes up with wild bias and take the wrong turn. I don't think you need this anymore in your askbox but i think the whole idea of a married ghost or whatever actually came from him telling those shitty ass jokes to Soap in alone mission to which fanbase refer to as dad jokes for some reason even though Ghost calls em little army humor. Basically led some people to think that he has wife and kids 😭😭 for the life of me especially when someone said ghost seems like a normal guy outside the military.

If you are up for it, please share your thoughts, as i enjoy your takes (you're one of the few that i actually read tbf) !!

I am also a decade late replying to this I apologise!!! 😭 Honestly by now I'm less "afraid" of sharing my thoughts on characters, don't worry. It was the case at the start because very popular characters in very suddenly active fandoms can be a touchy subject.

I'm really detached from most of the community that is heavily into MWII as I mostly just create MW19 stuff (though I mostly play MWII by now. I have just under 300 hours already lol). I'm blissfully unaware of how most people interpret the characters and I am not only fine with this, I also want it to remain like so.

I sort of feel like I've said (almost) everything I wanted to say especially about Ghost. I absolutely love the character like for REAL, but I don't think I have anything new to bring. I think he's a freak with major issues, but he's not inherently a bad person. and he has fantastic, actual dark humour. Maybe one day I'll find the motivation to draw my og ship ghostsoap. maybe. one day. For now other people are doing wonders on that matter.

#ask

[moboxcritique]

I'm sorry but that person who felt attacked by kids being rude is quite funny to me. "Just because they're kids give them no legally rights to hate on autistic ppl :/" Legally?? Legally rights? What do you mean 😭

Do they know what they're talking about?? Cause "legally rights" isn't the right term for it at all.

I don't have ADHD but I am diagnosed with autism and complex PTSD/complex trauma. I do get extremely angry when I experience ableism, like directly when someone calls me the r slur (so many times) the HARD R. And other stuff like "you're autistic? We can tell" and "you're slow in the head"/"you're slow" etc. From proshippers and fatphobics AND queerphobics. On twitter and on tiktok, and throughout high school.

I'd like to see what they define as ableist, cause some people abuse it to the point they make everything ableist. Of course whatever or whoever those kids were, shouldn't be mean and should just be ignored or handled calmly, as I have no idea whats happening or who that person is. If the kids were straight up insulting/referencing their disabilities then yes it is ableism. But that doesn't mean autism and/or ADHD is a excuse to be the victim. You still have your own actions, emotions with ADHD and/or autism can be really hard, trust me I know, which causes you to react in a unresponsible way. But sometimes especially as a neurodivergent, you gotta be independent and cope with your feelings.

If that person is a adult, I wish them good regards but perhaps they should calm down and maybe think on themselves for a while, if they make harassments from kids a big deal, they have a life to use on rather than get pissed off by random kids online who are no better. They could play Minecraft, Roblox, have some fun and ignore the hate they're getting maybe

My longest biggest advice so far, don't always spend your time on the internet as it can get to you with the arguments. you'll start to put your worries to your reputation online. And just because you're autistic and/or have ADHD doesn't mean your excused with behaviours you do, we are still humans. Whatever you go through isn't always directed to your disability :)

Zombify, you keep dropping this 👑

#mod cagney #ask #zombifykid #zombify you dropped this 👑

[thehalfbloodedwitch]

taro ⇢ if someone called you right now to catch up, what’re the things you’d tell them about?

palm tree ⇢ do you have a fictional villain you shouldn’t like but love regardless?

aloe vera ⇢ what’s something (mundane) you really want to experience in life?

edelweiss ⇢ how’d you think of your url/username? what’s it associated with to you?

<33333

If someone called me right now to catch up about things, I would maybe tell them about my exams and how I did in them, them maybe about the dance program I had at my school which was awesome! I would also talk maybe about songs and recommend some songs to that person and yeah!

A fictional villian I shouldn't like but love regardless, hmm, well I have two, Draco (which he isn't a villain technically but whatever) and Henry/001 like he is do bad but so fucking hot 🥵

Something mundane I wanna experience so bad is having a boyfriend, ahhh I wanna experience love irl 😭

Well, my username is halfbloodedwitch which literally means I am a half blood witch. And I thought of it just randomly one day and thought of keeping it as my url cuz I felt it is very cool 😁

Love youuu may! Thank youu for asking! 💕

Get-to-know-me ask game!

#may my bae❤ #may 🥂 #nix responds #nix's moots 💕

[frogsandfries]

I'm not crying

I'm hormonal and exhausted and my test results came back normal for where I should be in my period 😭😭😭

I shouldn't be surprised, but there's so much that can go wrong--like, I'm still kind of surprised my actual organs look good. Which indicates that, for whatever reason, I'm just not producing proper hormones in my own, but then, why? Where are the systems failing? What needs to be charged up?

But I'm thinking, if we try really hard this cycle, we should see some results. I will take any results. Chemical pregnancy, miscarriage--that's about as far as I'm ready to assume.

If snake-eyes, then we reeeaaaalllllyyy seriously need to look at the other contributing party. At whom I am presently very strongly...... not in a good mood with.

Not to air my dirty laundry, but I've been trying to gather my words about it--this coming from the brain that could not remember my date of birth yesterday. The words are something like this: I'm not pleased that my partner is talking to this other person by phone at whatever-the-fuck o'clock, while I'm sleeping. Like, you want it to be not-cheating? That's booty-call hours and blatantly behind my back and I'm allowed to be pissed off about that.

I'm also mad because my partner doesn't give a shit about maintaining our home. The chores pile up because I don't have the time and energy for them and I'm busy working--I shouldn't have to do all the housework. Like, fucking do something around here!! If you don't want to be here......... leave. I'll just buy some sperm on my own.

It's like, it doesn't feel right that my partner is fucking around instead of helping me maintain our home. And I've told them, I've repeated myself over and over: A trick I use personally is, I don't have to do the whole thing right now. Picking at it, little by little, is fine, it's great. It is actually better than not doing it at all.

My standards are NOT too high. They are not high at all. It's not like I need the walls mopped weekly or to bleach everything. We've never actually vacuumed this carpet and we've been here for two years. That's how low my standards are. Plus, fuck this carpet. I did not ask for this shit. Ew.

Like, paying the bills is the easy part. I'm here earning the money to pay the bills. And I'm still expected to manage the household, but I'm not respected for maintaining that role. That role is only meaningful if, when I tell you "the dishes need to be done", they fucking get done.

I mean, I've thought and considered often, maybe it would be better off this relationship was formally, officially dissolved. I don't need to go find another sexual partner. I just want to start my family and get on with my life. I've been prepared to be a single parent. At this rate, it doesn't matter that there's another adult in the household, I'm going to be a single parent any-fucking-way. I can already see, I'm not getting help with feeding or diapers or laundry or dishes.

That's what I'm pissed off about. And I don't know what to do about it. I'm really tired of begging for chores to get done by people who aren't presently going to a money-job and aren't doing much else throughout the day, but are contributing to the messes.

I have actually even lowered my acceptable thresholds when it comes to cleanliness, but I am not being met halfway.

I just am not seeing how adding another party into this is a bigger priority than fixing what exists already. If you add another atom to an unstable molecule, sometimes it stabilizes.

More often, there's some kind of reaction and atoms are lost or ejected first. Then stabilization happens.

That's what I'm pissed off about.

It has been eating at me, but sleep deprivation is making it extremely hard to shove down anymore.

I deserve more than an emotionally good relationship between two people at the exclusion of life-stuff. I need someone who can do the life-stuff.

[lokisprettygirl]

I didn't get time in noon today and you double posted in the mean time (I think). Dammit these were great chapters. I ugly cried on the way home. Which is why I probably shouldn't read in public places. Especially you're fics. I'm either crying, yelling or squealing. It looks bad on my stupid face so yeah not gonna do that again. That reminds me 😅, what the hell is wrong with Loki. I mean I get it he's insecure and he had the right to ask. Ofcourse he did but why right after hanging out with Katlyn. And what she said about her acting like a child, really crossed a line. Can I adopt her and keep her until loki makes this right. I'm afraid she's gonna do something bad. Yes I knoww she won't try to kill herself again after promising him but I thought the same thing about her eating habits. She is definitely gonna do something self destructive 😩.

Katlyn is gonna get slam dunked by me. What is wrong with her!?!?!?!?!? She keeps hurting her without even fucking trying now 😑. Those comment are not ignored either. Loki better make her pay. Hard. Seriously I love loki but sometimes he's too innocent 😭. But atleast he'll learn from this experience and be trusting now. I blame sameera for this. Someone give this man a cookie 😢🍪. Maybe strawberry with melted chocolate if that's better 😏.

And what was it with that reporter, I hate nosey bitchy journalists. Reminds me of that uncomfortable interviews video I watched. These people should get some manner and a work ethic. I get your job is kinda mean but that doesn't mean you get to abuse other people like that.

And why didn't she scream 🥺. Why didn't she fire her manager for talking to her like that? Loki can't protect her everytime. She's gotta understand that what these people say doesn't define her.

Yes this was that sad chapter😭. It comes in everyone of your stories. I hate and love it at the same time because it break my heart but they grow so much stronger each time. I know they'll be kicking everyone's ass after recovering from this trauma. Katlyn watch your bitchy ass. There's a pretty mad Loki and crazy fangirl looking for you.

You're amazing ❤. Sorry if this was in anyway mean or rude. I'm a little frustrated and mad because of something 😅. So I have a half a mind right now. Love ya🙃

🧁

You are never rude to me my dear sweet anon I love you too 💚💚

And yes when I was writing this I figured and hoped that sweet readers won't read it in office, school or workplace or in public 😅

You're right about someone giving him a cookie because he needs it, he's deeply insecure and his need to be assured constantly is born out of all the abandonment he had faced in life. That being said he crossed a certain line with calling her a child and he shouldn't have done that, good thing is he's going to own upto his mistakes:)

I think we have established that she doesn't have autonomy, these people work for her father and not her seperately. Nobody is trying to impress her or cares about her which is the saddest thing.

Katlyn should better watch out now 😅

Awh I hope everything is okay dear, and whatever is making you mad gets fixed, I'm here to talk if you need.

#asks #🧁anon #the bodyguard

[littlepadika]

Hi Padi! 💕

First of all, I hope you are having a great day and that life isn’t too stressful for you. remember to take a break and have a good amount of rest! 💗

Second of all, I might have a little something. Could you write Papi!Javi being out with his little and while she’s maybe admiring some stuffies or something, one of the women he maybe spent a few nights with before the reader came into picture approaches him and like starts offering him to get a drink together and things like that and she ignores the reader completely when she returns to Javi’s side and of course he turns her down. But the reader gets very insecure because the woman was very pretty and she starts feeling like a burden to Javi, so he comforts her and assures her she’s the best thing in his life and shows her how much he loves her? I hope it’s okay. 💗 xoxo

thank you for that sweet reminder elle belle I know I need to rest especially during exams. This idea has me 😭 so I have to write it and make it end well

Warnings: Jealousy, insecurity, ddlg

"Papi look!" You pulled him over to the shop window. The colorful stuffies in the window had caught your eye.

"Ay bebita, cuidado." Javi huffs, jogging to catch up with you.

"I want that one!" You pointed up at the stuffed fox in the top most shelf. "Please papi? Haven't I been good."

"Bebita this is a pet store. You want a pet toy?"

"What's wrong with a pet toy?" You pouted up at him.

"Nothing it's just-"

"Javi?" A stranger interrupts Javi, tapping his shoulder. Javi turns around, faced with an attractive red head. "Don't you recognize me?"

"Uh..." Javi shoves his hands in his pockets, completely ignoring you behind him. You felt invisible. Like Papi was ashamed of you.

"Lucy. I was a secretary at the embassy for a year. We... hung out quite a lot."

"Oh." Javi laughed stiffly. "Yes. I remember now." Your brow furrowed in jealousy. You knew Javi had a lot of girlfriends or consorts or whatever he wanted to call them before you. You were okay with it because he was only with you now. But still... this woman was big and pretty and maybe not as much work as you. You felt bad for begging for another stuffie.

"What are you doing here?" She leaned towards Javi, placing a manicured hand on his shoulder.

"I'm- uh- just browsing." You felt your heart break into a million pieces when your papi didn't even introduce you. Was he ashamed to be with you?

"I"d love to get a drink. Are you free tonight?" The woman didn't even see you standing right there.

You blinked back hurt tears and bolted into the shop, slamming the door. You looked back and saw Papi didn't even care that you left. You ran to the back of the store, letting your tears fall. You couldn't help that you were little and sensitive. A lot of people didn't want it but you thought he was different. Maybe that wasn't what Javi wanted. Someone he could get a drink with. Someone who wore grown up clothes and didn't ask for stuffies.

"Bebita..." You heard Javi calling for you. You ran down another aisle trying to get away. He was probably coming to tell you he was leaving.

"Come on. You're starting to scare me. Where are you?"

"Go away." You stomped your foot, burying your face in your hands.

"Bebita..." You felt his hand close around your shoulder.

"No." You jumped away from him. "I said go away."

Javi felt his heart break when he saw your tear tracked cheeks. You were using your big girl voice against him so he knew he fucked up. "I'm sorry, bebita. Look-" He held out the stuffed fox you wanted, squeezing the fluffy body so you could hear the squeaker. That only made you madder. "I'm sorry that lady made you jealous. I shouldn't have ignored you. I was a bad Papi."

"Yes you were." Your lower lip trembled.

"I know, but I told her no. I sent her away. I don't want to be with anyone else but you."

You hugged yourself. "Why? I'm not big and strong like her."

"Big? No. But strong you most certainly are." Javi took a step towards you, pulling you into his chest though you didn't unclasp your arms. "You're the strongest and you make Papi so happy. I was not happy when I was with that woman or any other woman but you. Mi bebita preciosa. Mi princesita dulzura." His voice broke at the end.

"Papi..." You sniffled finally wrapping your arms around him. you believed him. You knew he didn't say things he didn't mean. And he chose you and most of all he chose you even when other people could be watching.

"Never stop being who you are bebita no matter what. I love when you ask me for stuffies or want to play." Javi kissed the top of your head. "I love you so much."

"I wuv you too." You cried.

"Papi would never ever leave you." He whispered, capturing your lips in a sweet kiss.

"And I- I pwomise i won't run away again."

"Good." Javi smiled, his own eyes welling up with tears. He meant every word. You completed his life. He loved taking care of you. He woudn't trade that for all the short lived hook ups of his past. "Now what shall we call our little fox here?" He held up the stuffie again which you eagerly accepted into your arms.

"Javi!" You announced.

"But that's-"

"Papi's name." You giggled. "Because he's handsome like papi."

"Ay I can't say no to you and I love it." Javi took your hand, and headed up to the register to pay. He knew he had more work to do when you got home to make you truly realize how special you were. How he'd lay awake after you had gone to sleep feeling like the luckiest man in the world.

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