#let me ponder

[gayspock]

i love it when a tv show has lows that are so low you're so ashamed to ever show it to anyone ever but then highs that melt your brain a bit, like, "good fucking god, this is genuinely such an astounding piece of craftmanship... my perception of the medium, and perhaps of myself, has been challenged/changed in 40 minutes" but you cant even express that to ppl without feeling like youre fucking deranged bc my god the lows .....

#Egg.txt #sorry i saw gar watched Hush recently and like #my god thats such a good episode of television . like sincerely fucking solid. like damn man. #and theres other eps of buffy i'd rank among that i.e a certain s5 episode that just still gives me chills to think about #but this also goes for trek + doctor who + farscape + and any and every lame little campy show out there #that just needs to fuck your head wide open sometimes #maybe that why i have enjoyed bsg but i havent like fucking Melded with it yet because its highs and its lows are both there but it doesnt #ever touch the extremes of either #i need something so so bad and so so good at once that makes mefeel like im insane #god i might go rewatch some tos soon #but yeah ok abt bsg maybe its alsojust #laccking a sincerity to it sometimes #and not just in how its a darker/grittier #but just in general i feel like .........hm. idk.. #let me ponder

[dateko]

i want a halloween theme ohhhh..........

#let me ponder #✧˖°. mina speaking!

[ash-and-starlight]

hades atla bisexual simulator

#id in alt text #hadesgame artstyle is the most poggers thing on this fucking earth let me just YOINK steal it #i haven’t played a single minute of hades in my life btw #but i’m familiar with its bisexuality #it calls to mine like a siren’s song #i wanted to add lil dialogue options to them but my brain farted before it got done so. this is what u get :3 #zuko #sokka #suki #yue #pondering the orb #my art #also: LAST ART OF THE YEAR BESTIE BELOVEDS THANK U FOR MAKING THE MORTIFYING ORDEAL OF SHARING ART SO MUCH FUN #KISSES FOR ALL

[lineffability]

need Crowley in danger from Heaven, need Aziraphale stepping in front of Crowley, need the Guardian of the Eastern Gate, the protector of earth and humans, to protect his world, need the angel to shield the demon, need him to be ready to die for him but so much more willing to live, need Aziraphale to save him, need him to face Heaven and walk backwards into hell, to stand between Heaven and Crowley and choose Crowley, without a doubt and without hesitation

(because he might have chosen heaven when they offered him Crowley's supposed salvation, but as soon as they threaten Crowley's existence the choice will be so SO easy)

#good omens #ineffable husbands #crowley x aziraphale #aziracrow #need so many things #currently in a car share amd the guy is going the avergae speed of 200 km/h so im pondering my own mortality #he IS going too fast for me but crowley is no longer going too fast for az #let this not be my last words #or do actually #my omens

[magioftheseas]

Probably the best fucking au idea for svsss I'll ever have and will never write because I'm a loser: "Platonic" cumplane marriage of convenience that is completely sexless but that's fine because both men think they're straight and don't want to fuck each other. They still end up with Binghe and Mobei-jun respectively.

Binghe was actually so fucking ready to steal a married man and had a fully detailed and convoluted homewrecker scheme and he is...kinda disappointed that SY is so efficient and amicable (or as amicable as he can be) in just divorcing SQH (who doesn't even really try to keep him from leaving) and getting with Binghe instead. But he's not going to complain TOO much...

As for Mobei-jun, he just demanded SQH marry him because SQH was KINDA bummed about losing the tax benefits and SQH was too intimidated to do anything but say yes.

Would've included this exchange:

SY: I'm...in love... SQH: Well our marriage is only for show so I don't ca-- SY: With a man. SQH: YOU'RE GAY?! SY: If it's not gay to be married to a man, then how can it be gay to be in love with one?!

#Magi blah #Magi ponders fic ideas #svsss #scum villain's self saving system #moshang #bingyuan #cumplane #shen yuan #shang qinghua #mobei jun #luo binghe #don't ask me about why I switch between typing out the names and acronyms #Let me live

[shittyalchemist]

worms…?

{This is not my art. The artist’s name is Stephen Gibson.}

#orb pondering #wizard #wizard orb #wizard pondering his orb #wizard posting #wizardcore #wizardposting #pondering my orb #not my art #found it on Facebook #don’t know the artist #if you know #let me know so I can tag

[izvmimi]

gojo and yuuji are such ‘no you hang up’ bfs

#let me Ponder this #daydreams: jjk

[coolgoodandfine]

"To sleep, perchance to dream—ay, there's the rub: For in that sleep of death what dreams may come, When we have shuffled off this mortal coil, Must give us pause—there's the respect That makes calamity of so long life."

I have so many thoughts on the Rolling With Difficulty campaign finale.

#my cool art #rwd #rolling with difficulty #vr-la #dx-tr #tw blood #tw decapitated head #look vrla's a dramatic bot who ponders death and everything so much #when dxtr was beheaded i knew what i wanted to do #i've got plans to do art for all the other main characters #after all i haven't drawn vhas yet #i did not mean to spend so long on this #the shading and lighting got away from me #his staff wasn't even in it until like halfway through #easily spent twice as long (at least) on just the lines for the staff compared to the bg #was going to aim for a more dramatic posing but none of my sketches had a good hand posture #turns out skulls are smaller than a full head #let me know if i need to tag it any other way

[nantokanarusaa]

Ao no Flag (SERIES FINALE SPOILERS!!)

Seriously, don’t read this if you are planning to read Ao no Flag. That being said, go read the manga now!!

Finally finished reading Ao no Flag and I have so many feelings. Non-coherent, rambly, messy feelings. I was looking at reactions online and what mainly boggles me about the reactions to the final 2 chapters is people being “how is Taichi suddenly gay??” My friend living on this big planet he never was (he’s bi). He most likely just realized it later in life. Did the events of his 3rd HS year help him figure it out? Heck yes. Is he suddenly bi? No.

Not all queer people pop out into this world and instantly know they are queer. Heck, it took me 23 years to figure that out. It’s not like Taichi instantly realized he likes Touma and started dating him. He knew Touma mattered to him somehow, but it took him multiple years to realize how, as evident by him maybe starting his relationship with Touma after 5 years when Touma contacted them all. He gained life experience and grew.

People go through a lot of learning, unlearning and growing. Especially if you are outside of societal expectations and norms. Taichi grew up learning to and wanting to blend in with society. “Be normal, don’t stand out too much”. Add to that low self-confidence and you feel stuck. Feel like there is only black and white. only one right answer to life. It can be very difficult to look out of this dark box, trust me, I had a tough time and sometimes still do. But it feels like Taichi thought and thought and pondered even back in high school and came to the decisions that he did.

And isn’t that what the series is about? growing as a person, making mistakes, learning, allowing yourself to be visible and vulnerable, and eventually, making choices, even if they don’t make sense to anyone else, and continuing to do so?

These two pages really hit me hard and I was wondering why. And then it hit me. This is possibly the happiest I’ve seen Taichi be since his childhood. Like genuinely happy. He’s reached max happiness points and is sharing those with Touma. He’s made his choices, and he’s happy. You can and are allowed to choose what or who makes you happy.

That’s all that matters.

#ao no flag #blue flag #blue flag manga #toumatai #is there a point tagging it as spoilers? might as well #ao no flag spoilers #blue flag spoilers #he ending and series in general does have it's flaws but it has become a near and dear one to me #anyways isn’t it amazing how different people have different perspectives and that how you have lived your life changes those #Taichi be gazing at Touma for multiple panels and people be like aww friendship :“) #the way the omamori was want jerked him out of his rage? heck the way he treasured it? their whole conversation on the beach #HE WAS GENUINELY CONSIDERING TOUMA'S FEELINGS FOR HIM!?! NO STRAIGHT GUY WILL EVER PONDER THAT MUCH #i'm alright #also all the hand holing symbolism which im sure other people have talked about better #which also raises the point: let kids express themselves freely without putting gender roles on them #god the hand hold rejection from Touma as a kid was a gut punch #last thing #KAITO HOW DARE YOU NOT SHOW US GROWN UP TOMA AND TAICHI TOGETHER #I WANT TO HAVE A CIVIL CONVERSATION WITH YOU #ok that was long thanks for reading if you have?? <3 #my feeling for this series are immense #oh have i mentioned its from JUMP!? of all the publications??? #granted jump plus gives the creators a lot more freedom but still?? a bi protag?? with a gay main charecter along with multiple queer #confirmed or coded characters? #dint think it could be real #kurosaki rambles #PS i want Ao flag to get a boom in popularity again so that we can get an anime adaptation #if done well and respectfully it will have so much potential #if done well and respectfully it can have so much potential

[chimchiri]

I have yet to meet a furry artist that is not crazy good.

What the hell are those people drinking

Is there a secret furry cult where you are granted insane art skills after sacrificing a toe?! Is that it!?????

#tell me your secrets furry artists #maybe furry artists are bred in secret bunkers #and only let out into the open world once their art skills have developed enough and theyve earned their freedom #what other explanation is there #once a year i ponder over furry artists #I've got such a fascination........ #also the art is just nice to look at #my posts

[theslyvoid9]

still thinking about your sheriff

god you and me both

#norman ruined his ominous villain pondering #also sorry it took a bit to respond to this i had an old wip i was like mm sure let me clean it up for this but then i was busy ndsf #solidaritygaming #void art #nicoandindy #ask

[amburppp]

✨hbd to the LIBRA AMBASSADOR!! RANGIKU!!!✨

(+ some random closeups just because)

#i finished this as my ipad hit 2% it was a very intense moment #LIBRA TWIN!! #she’s just like me fr #I have other rangiku doodles but I haven’t finished them ermmmm they will see the light eventually #gave haineko kitty paws because nobody can stop me from doing otherwise #i only SLIGHTLY regret not putting Orihime in there…. let me not ponder on that any further before I spiral #rangiku matsumoto #matsumoto rangiku #bleach #bleach anime #bleach fanart #marty arty

[hajihiko]

I interpret Kaz's relationship with his dad a little differently from that one convo. He says something like 'he knew better than anyone that we didn't have the money' and I took that as his dad wanted him to go and have fun like a normal kid and not worry about the money. Of course, I don't justify physical discipline and it is abuse, even if the parent is well intentioned. I think that Kaz does love his dad and they're relationship might be more complicated. But you know that's just one of the many things he needs to work out in therapy.

(Again this is just my interpretation and I'm not saying yours is wrong. I do love the art.)

Just gonna use this as a little jumping point to talk about this bc why not, warnings for obviously sensitive topics

I dont think you're wrong, I actually probably agree, but one thing;

It's not uncommon for public perception to weigh more than actual actions or intent. In the example given, I see it like so; yeah, Souda sr. wanted his son to go on a field trip that they couldn't really afford. Yeah, Kaz wanted to help the household by not going on the trip and saving the money. Both have good intent here. It's not about that, though, because in Souda sr.'s eyes, refusing to go on the trip is like admitting that they're poor, which is like saying the father can't provide for his family, which is like public humiliation- in his eyes. In a fit of rage (and insecurity, if it's something that's already weighing on his mind, as these things often go) the assumption isnt that his son was trying to help, just that he did something that makes the father look bad. Which is a bigger trigger than most things, often, for patriarchal authority figures.

And it not an excuse for physical harm, no, nothing is. Probably, Souda sr. knows that, and didn't mean to snap- doesnt think he committed an act of child abuse- but he's been under a lot of stress, and his son was talking back, and, well.

I think they do usually get along alright, and Souda sr. does his best to provide for himself and his son and keep their relationship good, and Kazuichi is genuinely grateful for everything his dad's done for him? But in the end, it's another person Kazuichi trusted teaching him the lesson that people will let him down and hurt him, in some way at some point. If your parent whom you trust has made you genuinely afraid of them, it's hard to come back from it, and someone as anxious and emotionally sensitive as Kazuichi will hold onto that forever, probably, even as he might internalized some of it as his own fault.

It's a lot more complicated than just "bad father, sad son" (but again, not excusable, you don't hit your kids period). It's father and son who love each other and might be the only family they both have, but they clash horribly on occasion, make up (or don't talk about it at all), things die down, stay good for a while, then there's another clash- so it goes, even if the bad times are only occasional. The biggest Thing about these kind of relationships, to me, is that it's so easy to fall into a routine and let things stagnate, and before you know it, it's just How Things Are and it's easier to just deal than start rocking the boat.

#Not an art #Talky talky #Dysfunctional relationships and toxic family is always something I have Thoughts on #cw child abuse #This is also just me blabbing with little evidence so dont come for my throat ok I'm just pondering #I could talk about the kuzuryu family too I think there's a lot more context stuff there #But that's a diff post #I also hc that Kaz started thinking about the death machines before Junko #Not in a serious manner but as a malcontent kid who felt bitter and insecure and wanted to let it out somehow #Who hasnt fantasised about pushing someone down the stairs or sth right? That's where it started for him #Blah blah the 'anyone is capable of evil' theme #But also the 'that entire class was full of kids at risk and no one noticed or helped them and that sure didnt stop them from seeking- #-release and control and company from bad people who in turn affected them'

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

Sometimes I feel that Barnaby and Wally have this friendship like big bro/Lil bro, and Howdy being Barnabys bf has to put up with a lot of Wallys shenanigans for Barnaby (doesn't mind cause he also adores Wally I'm a big bro way)

i view them (as a trio) Similarly! though a little to the Left cause i don't view Barnaby & Wally's relationship as big/lil bro. rn to me they're very close friends - borderline queerplatonic! like... Wally is Barnaby's special little guy, yk?

so in my mind, in this trio, Wally's not exactly a. uh. third wheel to Barnaby/Howdy i suppose? oh this is difficult to translate into words - he's part of the relationship without being Part of it if that makes any sense? like of course he's gonna be With them a lot. Barnaby's not gonna be like "ok go do something else so i can make doe eyes at Howdy". that's his Little Buddy. they're gonna Include him as much as possible, i'd imagine. and i doubt Wally would mind being around while they flirt chat. he'd probably love being Barnaby's "wingman"

#and since its canon that all of the neighbors like wally - howdy would probably be delighted to have him around! #who wouldn't want to hang with him?? #honestly barnaby could probably show up to one of their dates w/ wally in tow #and howdy'd be like 'oh hi wally! joining us this evening? lets go then!' #honestly i view barnaby/howdy + wally similar to like #a married couple whose best friend lives with them #thats the best analogy i can think of atm #hes very involved in my mind. barnaby is extremely important to him yk? #i like to... muddy traditional relationships and Expected Dynamics #i find it interesting and a bit more real in a way? #like not every relationship - platonic or romantic - is gonna be clear cut or 'typical' #love & relationships are much more varied and nuanced than what is more often than not portrayed #plus idk it sorta rankles when i see platonic relationships sorta sidelined or viewed as something to be 'put up with' by the romantic side #theyre important! and platonic love is not Less than romantic love. its just... different. to the Left. #am i aromantic? i might be aromantic. maybe? idk. am i? hm. something for me to Not think about <3 #rambles from the bog #laughingstock #insert meme here of the three of them holding hands #picturing sally introducing them like: this is howdy & this is howdy's boyfriend barnaby & this is barnaby's best friend wally #to be very clear here i do not ship wally with anyone in the Least. like At All. i have thought and pondered on this a lot #hes so aroacepilled in my mind.... #and that only frees up space for him to get Funky with his relationships hell yeah you go little buddy #hes living my dream smh. in my head at least #the imaginings i have are Different from canon obviously #which is half the fun! #in canon i hope things get messy as hell. i hope it hurts me as well as the characters #i hope the dynamics i have in my head get dashed against the rocks and then decimated by ocean waves #i hope i can look back upon these posts and cackle evilly at my past self's naivety #future me i just Know you're having a delightfully painful time. enjoy <3 ill catch up eventually <3

[sagaverse]

Here to make an official announcement that, yes, SagaVerse is canceled, finished, nada.

Hi there peeps and readers that followed through the funky saga of this multiverse until now, not Rev or Levi this time as they are both busy. Gremlin tophat to serve you on a last post of announcement as you'll have seen in red above. SagaVerse is officially canceled. There are many reasons for this, but the main one is that Revolvius has finally completely turned the page on the fandom, while Undertale in itself had been a joy and great inspiration, the fandom was a different story, I won't lie I had expected the series to be closed earlier before now, for both his own good and interest, but never too late I guess.

Some asked about what would become of the cast, like the sweet Nocturne boi. Unfortunately, their stories will remain in the dark, unless we decide to post the drafts of their backstories, which is less than likely.

You are free to use the characters for your creativity, draw them if you want, write about them, craft them, anything your mind may thrive for as long as it is not something heinous and goes under the moral of good sense, with credits of course even if the saga is no more.

The blog won't be touched, though do not expect any sort of update from it, aside from if we decide to delete this blog for reasons of our own.

As for the members of the Team, you can always support us individually :

@revolvius has commissions open and won't stop to art his way in life, now more interested in RainWold with his other blog named @rw-repurposed

@leonightwater25 has a comic of their own named Not a Tale (linked to the prologue page), and they also have their commissions open as well, have a look, they do wonderful work ;)

@levi-weaver and @xtrastuff both are writers with their own worlds and creations, you can find Xtra on Ao3, Levy has college and can unfortunately not focus much on that however

@unclespr also has his own world and creations, you can look at his Discord server (the link will expire in a week) to see it

As for @theia-diki (tophat gremlin), I have commissions open, and occasionally post on media, though rare now

Thank you all for your support, and we hope you all get to find your passion and go through life with it ^^

Stay determined, and don't be afraid to change path.

As a last, have this Nocturne I had done some time ago haha

The sweetest baby for last :3

#I never know what to put as tag so let me just ponder over this- #sagaverse #SagaEnd #The last spotlight #Nocturne #Baby boi #stay determined #undertale #undertale oc #undertale art #undertaleau #undertale au #take care <3

[theangrypomeranian]

FUCK IT I'M GONNA DO IT NO ONE CAN STOP ME

I'm finally gonna write the Zekina FWB au

#pom ponders #zekina #zekina fwb au #I've let my fear hold me back #no more #I'm just gonna do it #AND it's gonna be from my boy's pov #fuck it we ball!