Good Morning World!🙏🏾 Today's Thought: The point is clear: freedom does not consist in the word “freedom,” or in words, but in relationship to JESUS CHRIST, through abiding in His Word, and being His disciple. John 8:36 If the Son therefore shall make you free, ye shall be free indeed. #faithoverfear #activateyourfaith #keephopealive #christianapparel #christianclothing #allkingdom #tshirt #logotgif #printful #JESUSistheway http://allkeeda.com/ https://www.instagram.com/p/CgUCaF5OpxO/?igshid=NGJjMDIxMWI=
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The Devil is My Father.
For I was once little, coming into the world with no question about it.
A little girl seeing a man and adapting to him being the one who protects, guides, loves unconditionally, wants the best for me, and could no wrong.
as a child, the faith, hope, imagination, will to create, love of life, and trust was so strong.
he protected me against my mother who i thought wanted me for me, but turns out.. the money drove her.
“she doesnt want you.” “im all you need.” im the only one who cares about you.” “ill give you everything that you want.” with all that spewing out his mouth, how could i not believe him? he’s my father! he cant do no wrong.
i thought.
with me giving up hope on my mother, the faith, hope, will to create, love of life and trust started to diminish.
he was all i needed.
little did i know, he was self projecting too.
as i got a lil older, words that started with “You’ll always be my lil girl.” went to “i wouldve sent you back with your mom but i kept you for the money she owes me.” “You need me.” “nobody wants you.”
my faith, hope, will to create, love of life, and trust.. disappeared.
his harsh words, along with his sweet words, wrestled in my head. he was my voice in my head now. there was no escaping.
i did need him. at times he needed me, and i thought just for a second that he wants to do better as a father for me.
once he was back on his feet, every single time, i was the gum on the bottom of his shoe trying to scrape it away.
“Youre a bum. You should be disappointed in yourself for not having a job.” (i didnt have it because i was taking care of him when he got shot) went from talking to every thing he said was a jab. “thats why your mom didnt want you.”
he ran through so many women. so many. just for me to find out that yes he’s lustful, cant stay tied to one woman, and wants to be a hoe but every woman he wanted to marry was only because he wanted his daughter to have a mother figure.
it was sweet and thoughtful, i thought.
but he gave them all free reign over me while he went out working all the time, not having time for me or my brother. went out and cheated. and living his best life. he brought pain to his own life and got confused. but then i became the one who suffered through the hands of him and the women he came across. all because of his actions.
it started off rocky with the woman i now call my mother. but as we fixed things we realized he was the problem. i endured pain, suffering and abuse all because of his actions. stuff i never should’ve gone through or seen.
secrets are now told as i got older. things became a lot clearer. “your dad only married me, to be a mother for you. he didnt love me.” she was always there for me and my lil brother. she did everything a father was supposed to do. shes my mother and my father. he abandoned us all every single time just to come back and sleep for work and be gone.
he was never a father to me.
he was the devil in disguise.
God says to love our enemies and honestly i feel like i tried. no matter what he has done, or said to me.
But now i pushed our father/daughter relationship off the cliff. he pushed me to that point.
you may wonder is he trying to fix it.
the answer is no. he’s perfectly fine with how we are. and since he is fine with it, and didnt want to be my father in the first place..
i became okay with that. even if it hurts at times.
because he showed me, i was only an inconvenience to his life, controlled everything in my life while i catered to him all the time just to turn around and be tossed like trash.
i decided to stop recycling and leave it in the trash for good like he want it.
the devil is my father, and he had my life in his hands.
-Tinz.
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Yeah.........I just can't with this humor. LOL! Not today... This is all of the truth. I'm 99.9% certain I'll be sitting at home with my kids...again. But, they're the BEST Valentines I've had in years, well, ever actually, so it's all good. On a serious note though, there shouldn't be just one special day to celebrate love. Celebrating love, with the one(s) you love, should be done EVERY day. Don't save it up! #SingleMom #SinglesAwarenessDay #SAD #BeYourOwnValentine #CelebrateLove #EveryDay #AsYouWish #ValentineHumor #SingleSupportGroup #KeepHopeAlive #Singles #GodHasNotForgottenYou #TexasGirl #Over40 #GenX #Follow https://www.instagram.com/p/CoTiwvytn_DEk3Jvy_YZIz0Qa6nAw_FrQmnS2Q0/?igshid=NGJjMDIxMWI=
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Prepare Yourself / It's Going Down (Part Seven)
Prepare Yourself / It’s Going Down (Part Seven)
We’re coming through on this Terrible / Terrific Tuesday where things can go either way! Prepare Yourself!
Of course we’re claiming that terrific outcome then we’re celebrating , O-Dog Day Partying dropping this good word and we’ll let the music play! back in the day we were told to go on with our bad selves!
Let us pray is also the movement the recipe for some kind of improvement! spiritual…
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Fogs Of Life
The "fogs" of life – ailments, material deprivations, rejections, debts to pay, economic inflation, political chaos – must not be allowed to cloud our vision toward the sole aspiration of our souls. Such darkness that sometimes engulfs our whole being, should not drive us to despair.
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