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For the past six months, @pixeljazzy and I have been working on a playlist we felt could top last year’s, which was so well received!

We’ve broken it up into sections by individual love interests, multiple love interests, main character, and miscellaneous, which includes side characters, general vibes, etc. Underneath each song are lyrics we believed stood out to us along with explanations as to why we chose it. Like last year, the [p] is for PJ and [j] is for Jade.

Here’s the link to the playlist on Spotify, but we’ve individually linked the songs with each explanation as well!

We sincerely hope you enjoy our 2021 RODAW Playlist!

The Bay, Soft Glas. ft. Mulherin [j]

Leaving you alone is too hard (hard, hard) / I just never know where to start (with you)

I'm not used to leaving someone broken hearted / That might be what really makes this hard (It's hard) / I've never been with anyone this long / If I did it, I really miss you

The softness and apologetic tone of the song reminds me of Logan through and through. He’s so regretful for what he put MC through, both at the beginning when he was lying to her, and by the end when he thinks he’s ruined her life by simply being a criminal and dating her. And by leaving her he’s leaving the one person who’s loved him unconditionally and stuck with him through it all.

Call Me, Nav [j]

They taught me, "Don't forget where you came from" / I regret what I came from

Do you know how it feel to feel alone? / Bought myself a house, to feel like I ain't home / Driving by myself, ain't got nowhere to go / Are you really here for me, I don't know

I hope you mean everything that you told me / I'll try to come back to you, girl, I'm sorry / If you miss me, just call me

This song honestly reminded me of Logan’s backstory that we don’t know much of, besides the fact that he was thrust into a life of crime as a teen and as an adult he hates it. The other lyrics I added are kind of a glimpse into the future I think – wherever Logan is, whatever he’s doing, if he’s not with MC, the woman he loves, everything he accomplishes is gonna feel hollow. And despite him saying that he was leaving to protect her, I know in his heart he’d want her to find her way back to him.

Cold Case Love, Rihanna [p]

I’m torn apart and you know / What you did to me was a crime

We opened up a cold case love / And it got the best of us / And now prints, pictures, and white outlines / Are all that’s left at the scene of a crime / Of a cold case love

The first line reminded me of how MC probably felt after being betrayed by Logan, the one that was arguably supposed to be the closest to them, and then the second lyric is because at the time, MC left and that was the last Logan knew of them with nothing to stand for what they used to have until they eventually came back to help save the crew.

Compass, The Neighbourhood [j]

If I don't have you with me, I'm alone / You know I never know which way to go / I think I need you with me for all-time / When I need new direction for my mind

I've got something to confess / I keep you in my pocket to use / You're my only compass / I might get lost without you / (Could you tell me where to go?)

You're always there to help me when I'm down / I'm lucky you've been keeping me around / You're the star I look for every night / When it's dark, you'll stick right by my side

Like a magnet / Hard to imagine ever changing / Can't help that I'm attracted to you, I am / Could you keep on guiding me? Please

This is a quintessential Logan song – reading these lyrics, it’s like Logan spoke them himself to MC, and that’s why I included so much of the song. All of these remind me of him and his hopeless romanticism, but specifically the line about her being the star he looks for every night? Absolutely perfect. This entire song is like a love letter from Logan to MC.

Don’t Leave Me, Blackstreet [p]

I’m searching for the words to make you realize / That I really, really want you to stay

Don’t leave, don’t leave me girl

This song was giving me Logan vibes from the diamond scene where he’s like “I can’t believe I love someone” and MC is like “you don’t get to say that to me” or some shit like that because he’s trying soo so hard to explain himself to her and to make her not hate him.

Imma Dog, Ugly God ft. PnB Rock [j]

You say you love me, shawty, tell me why / 'Cause I'm a dog and I'ma probably be this way until I die / You say you always gon' be by my side / You say you trust me with your heart and I swear, I just wonder why

Okay, hear me out, I forreal have reasons for this to be tied to Logan. The only verse in this song that’s a non chorus one is related to cheating, but I’m choosing to ignore that for the sake of the chorus. I heard the chorus for the first time and it made me think of one specific moment and point in time in Ride or Die. These lyrics remind me of Logan’s attitude when he was being mean and pretending to be annoyed by MC to get her off of him – despite the facade he’s still in awe of the way she trusts him and cares about him even when he’s treating her like garbage.

Life’s a Mess, Juice WRLD ft. Halsey [p]

Uh, sometimes life’s a mess

Lookin’ for somethin’ real, then I found it

I’m too flawed to hold you down, but / Don’t wanna be here alone

Logan knows all too well how much of a mess life really is (first lyric), and the second lyric is basically what I think he feels about MC. He told MC in the beginning that he doesn’t really stay with crews or trust anyone but himself, but MC was that exception before the rest of the crew became that exception too. And then the third lyric is because Logan looks at himself as someone who probably doesn’t deserve MC, Vaughn even said he was morally obligated to tell MC that she’s too good for his cousin (yes it was a joke (was it) but it fits), but he still wants her anyway (“Look at you...then look at me. You’re going to be valedictorian. I never even went to high school...I don’t have anything, and I wasn’t anybody, and I knew that. I always knew that….Some part of me really wants you to mess things up for me.” - Logan, Ch. 3).

Unfair, 6lack [p]

Hope my mistakes don’t make me less of a man / ‘cause lately it feel like them shits really can / I’m prayin’ I don’t wake up all alone

But know I’m stuck between / What I love and who I love and / I know it’s unfair

The first lyric I feel like is pretty self-explanatory as Logan expresses remorse for his actions (him acting weird and tryna tell MC about his dishonesty in the club, him making the effort to apologize or explain in the diamond scene after the reveal) and it especially hits if your MC is romancing Logan because he doesn’t want to lose them. As for the second lyric, I was thinking about how he was probably stuck between doing what’s best for the crew and doing right by MC

While We’re Young, Jhene Aiko [j]

Baby while we're young / I think we should do something crazy / Like say, "Fuck everyone" / And just run away from the daily routine

I'm tellin' everybody you're mine and I like it / And I really hope you don't mind, I can't fight it

'Cause it's been another perfect day with ya / Wanna lay with ya / Spend the night with ya / Then spend my life with ya, alright

I'll go everywhere you go / You know I'll go, I'll go / Everywhere you go

I'm giving you my heart, please don't break it / Take it and lock it up and put me in your pocket, love

This reminds me of Logan and MC’s brand of romance that’s sweet and clumsy and a little bit reckless when it really gets going. They’re both cautious but they fantasize about throwing caution to the wind even more than they already have.

Angel With A Shotgun, The Cab [p]

I don’t care if heaven won’t take me back / I’ll throw away my faith, babe, just to keep you safe

Sometimes to win, you have to sin

And I want to live, not just survive

Lemme explain because I feel like people may think this song is really really out there for Colt but I was listening to this song one day and thought of him, esp the last two lines I chose: I think of how Colt came up with the kidnapping plan and how it was so crazy because it was like wow he really was ready for murder if it came down to it, but Colt was basically like we need to do something big to outsmart them or else we’ll just be doing shit for them forever (‘sometimes to win, you have to sin’).

Born 2 Be Great, Lil Tjay [p]

I was born to be great / And I won’t let nobody tell me I ain’t / And I can’t stop, won’t stop

Growin’ up, I’m gettin’ old, start settin’ goals / Tryna make more money off my business and shows / And everybody gon’ hate, I’m great, I know / Everybody can hate, I’m great, I know

These lyrics just scream COLT to me all the way. He knows and believes he’s destined for greatness no matter what path he chooses because no matter what he does, he’s gonna succeed in the end. “I can’t stop, won’t stop” reminds me of how Kaneko wanted Colt to choose for himself what he wanted to do, and even though Kaneko tried to shield Colt away from the family business, that’s where Colt wanted to be. The second lyric is essentially Colt just knowing he’s gonna make money and that he won’t be liked (hated by other crews, police, etc.), but that won’t matter because he’s great nevertheless.

Chandelier, B.o.B ft. Lauriana Mae [p]

They say life’s about choices / In the face of defeat I declined / Put your soul into everything, never back down / That’s how you leave a legacy behind

Let my blood keep pumping, my heart keep beating / Shining like a chandelier

Making something out of absolutely nothing / That’s the definition of a survivor

Colt definitely felt ‘put your soul into everything, never back down / that’s how you leave a legacy behind’ because of how much he focuses on carrying on what his family has built, and taking all the risks necessary to keep that legacy alive and make a name for himself. I put ‘shining like a chandelier’ because that’s how bright Colt shines, as I believe he’s destined for greatness and wouldn’t allow himself to achieve anything but.

Down Bad, Real Recognize Rio [j]

I've been out of my head for a couple minutes, for a couple miles / Made the hair stand up on my neck / On a knife edge, comin' at me for my crimes / Got a mind that can leave you locked inside

'Cause you got me down bad, down bad, your deep desire / Carve my name on your soul, then I walk through the fire / Your voice so clear, like you say my name / You got mе runnin' for my life like this shit was a game / Got mе down bad, down bad to feel your touch

This song reminds me of Colt specifically during the gambling scene when he got shot and the last car chase scene, because MC is put in serious danger but it does nothing to shake her love for Colt. She’s scared for her life and her future but she’s still willing to put everything on the line for him and MPC.

Forever Ever, Trippie Redd ft. Young Thug [p]

You gon’ really have to hold me fuckin’ down, babe / ‘Cause I ain’t with the fuckery, that playing ‘round, babe

We Bonnie and Clyde but except the shots

He don’t love you like he should, I can love you better

First and second lyric are because they’re a team, and Colt sees MC as his right hand. In the life he lives, the people on his team gotta be down fr because there’s always a lot at stake. The last lyric is more conditional, as I feel like this could be him if MC was also romancing Logan because in the reveal, Colt’s like you deserved to know and in the car in the chapter afterwards that’s when he’s like bro we could run this whole shit etc. etc.

Impala, O2worldwide [j]

I been watching you from a distance / Sitting back and acknowledging your existence / I made a couple songs but you'll probably never listen / Shooting my shot but i'm always fucking missing / Setting my ego aside / Me and you can go together just like Bonnie and Clyde / I've been tripping over you just like my shoes is untied / And I tried to hit you up its like my confidence died but

I see you everyday but don't past corners of eyes / I'm just gonna act like I didn't see you close to that guy / Not gonna lie you got me head over ears / I'm tryna find love because I don't know just how it feels

Anyone listening to this and reading the lyrics is going to hate me because… is this the perfect “Colt pining for MC because she’s getting close to Logan” Love Triangle song, or what? I listen to this song so casually most of the time that I forget how sad the lyrics actually are. The first couple verses (not the third verse) fit the narrative so well. A lot of my favorite “Colt” songs aren’t ones where they’re outwardly admitting any kind of affection for MC – they’re the ones where it reads as Colt struggling with their feelings for MC and how to express them.

PTSD, G Herbo ft. Juice WRLD, Lil Uzi Vert, and Chance the Rapper [p]

I don’t belong, I see my past everywhere

I got a war zone on inside of my head

A million dollars ahead, I’m still angry and seeing red

I’m too paranoid, I make sure all my opps, they bled

This song always guts me because G Herbo is talking about all the people he’s lost, and for Colt, I imagined this was probably him after losing his father. Reminded of his past when he saw the remains of the shop, reminded of his past every time after that probably when he was rebuilding the shop. As for the million dollars, it’s like he could pull off as many heists as he could but he would never be satisfied until Brotherhood paid, hence the last lyric because honestly I don’t think it’s over until Shaw is dead (ik there’s a line in ROD where he’s like if we were even, he’d be dead, I just know it).

Sun God, Trippie Redd [j]

Went out my way just to love you / Right at the top, no above you / Right off the top, know I trust you / Ready or not, here I come, boo / And baby, you're hot, like the sun, too / Not too hot for me, no I'm sun-proof / Follow your lead, I'ma come through / Just you and me, baby, one-two

I think this is Colt way farther down the line if MC had the chance to really fall in love with him. He’s the type to value trust and loyalty in a bond more than anything else because he doesn’t do either of those easily at all. And I think that the line about being sun-proof is a cute callback to a lot of the fandom comparisons of Colt and Icarus – the title too and the lyrics just scream Colt to me.

Where Does The Love Go?, Maria Isabel [j]

Nightly negotiations with the moon, whoever's listening / All the miles between us got me messed up, got me trippin'

They say lovin' is easy / But not when one of us is leaving

Back on a plane / Two different coasts / When we're alone / Where does the love go? / What if you go / Forget the way home? / Running in circles but never together / So where does the love go?

The more I listen to this song the more I think this song is about Colt and MC. Colt’s not a clingy type in the slightest, but there’s no doubt in my mind that deeper into the relationship, both Colt and MC would have some doubts – the reason I say this is because I’m viewing the lyrics through the lens of Colt and MC doing long distance while MC is in college on the East Coast. This whole song is long distance relationship anxiety summed up perfectly and it’s so Colt.

Yellow Lights, 24kGoldn [p]

Don’t want no yellow light / don’t want no mixed message

For the crown, ‘cause we could achieve it

Love you now, but don’t you deceive me

Second lyric resonated with me esp because of that line in the book where he’s like “But the two of us? We put our brains together, you and me could run this whole town” so he knows he could achieve an empire with MC by his side. Last lyric is because Colt definitely doesn’t trust those around him and for those that he does trust, that trust doesn’t come easy. So MC, who managed to get past that, is loved, but would automatically lose a lot if she deceived him (now imagine….snitch MC? This line would hit a lot more because she ends up deceiving him so like he had a right to be wary of her holding his heart (like if we’re looking at the pov of him saying this lyric)).

Can’t Love, Trippie Redd [p]

She say she love me, I think she love me not / She say she love me, I know she love me not

How could you do this to me? / Yeah, yeah, I thought you, I thought you loved

Another Mona and her ex song teehee but I’m imagining this from Mona’s pov while she’s in jail like wow that girl never loved me like she said she loved me (first lyric) and how could she betray me like this (second lyric).

Favorite Mistake, Giveon [p]

Is my secret safe? / Safe with just you and me / We can’t leave a trace / This is my favorite mistake

Look in my eyes / Do you mind the lies? Do you feel alive?

Even when you’re gone / The feeling just grow stronger / Should leave it alone / But you’re getting closer

So I finally did a Mona route and GOD yes this song is about cheating (Mona and Hieron can’t relate) but we gon ignore that and just focus on these lyrics specifically because wow they really hit me like Mona for one was in denial of her feelings for MC from the jump and at some point she’s like god this is so ridiculous I can’t believe I’m feeling this way again so ofc she doesn’t want people to know she’s in love (like that time Toby is like man she is NOT happy about liking you! in the club scene) hence the beginning of the first lyric but at the same time….. she’s in love… so “this is my favorite mistake.” As for the second and third, the lies are that “I don’t like you” ra ra ra she’s only fooling herself and then it’s like yeah she knows her feelings are dumb but she can’t help but fall for MC anyway <3

Gonna Love Me, Teyana Taylor [p]

Sometimes we say things that we really don’t mean / We do things in between the lines

Please wait up for me ‘til whenever I get home / I know that you’re all alone / Thinking ‘bout what you’re gon’ do / I hope that you see it through, ooh, ooh

Why is it so hard to keep in touch

For the first lyric, I was thinking of the time MC says “Being with you makes a difference to me. It feels safer” and Mona replies that “It’s just an illusion. A blanket. And I’ve told you before not to count on me.” Yeah she said that wit her chest but ik she knows it’s more than that for the both of them. The second and third lyric both have to do with her being in jail by the end of the book (making it literally hard to keep in touch), and even though she tells MC not to wait up, a part of me thinks the vulnerable part of Mona would’ve hoped at least a smidge that MC would, and the last bit ‘thinking ‘bout what you’re gon’ do / I hope that you see it through’ reminds me of the advice in the diamond scene of driving Mona to the hospital that she gave MC which was that to move on, you just gotta keep your foot on the gas and look forward and that eventually, she’ll be somewhere better than she’s ever been.

Love or Lust, 24kGoldn [p]

It’s love or it’s lust, we just need to be clear / ‘Cause if you’re in love, then I shouldn’t be here

Would you walk eight thousand miles just to make me smile on a rainy Wednesday? / If so, then you gots to go, it ain’t mutual and I’m not pretending

Basically in the beginning stages of MC falling for Mona, Mona’s like oh hell nah (“I shouldn’t be here”) and she recognizes that MC likes her a lotttt (MC would definitely walk eight thousand miles to make her smile on a rainy Wednesday) and so she’s like fuck

PLW, Leon Thomas [j]

Left my fear right at the door (ooh) / She's an animal hunting in the wild, yeah (in the wild) / Doesn't move around or groove / But she come from the depth / That's why she's down to earth / An instrument of war

Baby ain't no beginner / I got love for my little winner / Flashing or finessing / That's why I mess with her, yeah

And you don't have to worry, yeah / 'Cause I know what's she worth / No, you don't have to save me / From my pretty little weapon

Ooh my baby smart, and she sharp, and she sharp, yeah / Pretty little weapon

I’ll never ever get over how this song fell into my lap and is absolutely perfect for Mona. This is for an MC who acknowledges that Mona’s a badass and that she loves her because of her strong personality and unwavering confidence because she knows she’s good at her job. The first verse is the best approach an MC could take – leaving her fear at the door because she knows someone like Mona could sniff it out. The line “No, you don’t have to save me / From my pretty little weapon” kills me, because it’s accurate – on Mona’s route, despite any betrayal, the MC is still in love with her and knows that Mona would never actually hurt her.

Sleeping With the Enemy, BbyMutha & Kindora [j]

Creeping around corners / I don't feel like myself / Studying your movements / It's a carousel / And I can't confirm that you / Mean what you say / And I'm pretty sure / That it's / Better that way

Why can't I trust in you / Am I slipping up / Over you / If it really turned to be the way / That I think / How bad could it be?

And I know that we could go for / Round and round like 123 / And I gotta question myself / Is it coming? / Possibly / And I gotta wonder / Am I sleeping with the enemy?

I'm watching my back / Like I got nothing left / I give you all I got / Wish I knew what was next

The first time I heard this song it was a toss up between whether or not it was a Colt and Mona song (or both) but I settled on Mona pretty quickly after a re-listen. Not only is the internal conflict in the lyrics a perfect description of Mona’s own battle, but it could be easily viewed from MC’s perspective as well. The idea of knowing it’s “wrong”, and mistrusting them but pursuing it anyways is quintessential early Mona route.

The World is a Marble Heart, AJR [p]

We could have been, we should have been / What your heart couldn’t handle

Run away, girl, ‘cause I let you / Now you found some other man, you see / I’m better off without you, ‘cause the man ain’t me!

I’m going right now / To the beginning / What you denied from the start / And now you can’t go breaking my heart

The world is a marble heart / It’s bullshit and we know it

I think the first lyric is definitely MC to Mona because Mona was afraid to allow herself to be in love, and then evidently their relationship couldn’t blossom because Mona ends up arrested (“we could have been, we should have been”). This song called out to me because Mona always comments on how MC’s heart got them into the Brotherhood mess, how MC always think the crew is something they’re not, so MC’s heart is the marble heart and the last lyric (“it’s bullshit and we know it”) is essentially Mona being like girl you know we are not what you think we are. The second lyric is because in a scene after the reveal, Mona drives MC to Riya’s house and MC goes I wish we could run off together and Mona is like just say the word and MC is like I can’t :/// and then Mona is like the only one stopping you is you, and then “I’m better off without you” is Mona being don’t call don’t write don’t text

Would You, Pink Sweat$ [p]

Would you die for me? I would die for you / Would you shoot for me? I would kill for you / Would you run up the bag if I needed you to? / Girl, all the things that I’d do for you / Would you do for me too?

I wanna know when it pops off that you gon’ be right next to me

This was giving Mona and her ex from that scene where MC got a glimpse into Mona’s past. Essentially, Mona’s ex and her were thick as thieves, and when they got arrested, Mona didn’t say anything and her ex did, so Mona was always ten toes down but her ex never had her (Mona) like she (Mona) thought she (her ex) had her (Mona)

Both of Us, YFN Lucci [j]

Stay with me when there's no one else to call / If you got me then I'm in it for the both of us

Look, ayy, do you love me like you say you love me? / Ay, do you vow to keep it cute when everythin' get ugly? / Ay, if I ever leave, girl would you come lookin' for me?

I think that this song and these lyrics fit into the title of the book and how “ride or die” each of the love interests are for MC and vice versa. I think the softer parts of this song are MC for sure, and Logan at times, and the second bullet point is Colt and Mona. For them, it’s more of a promise of loyalty rather than love like the earlier lyric is (which is why I think that’s a bit more hopeless romantic like Logan).

C U Girl, Steve Lacy [j]

I haven't seen you in a while, you know I miss you babe / When you hear this song, feel flattered, it's about your face / And how I miss it and I wish that I could see it more / But you're in college now and I'm about to go on tour

I love this song because it makes me think of the possibility of MC and the LI having a “song” – one where any time they hear it they think of each other. And that when they hear it it makes them happy but at the same time they’re forced do think about the distance between them and how much they miss each other.

Collide, Tiana Major9 and Earthgang [j]

Everybody's got opinions on our thing / Say we're flying down a path with no ending / And if I die before I wake / Ooh, don't let me wake up from this dream / When we collide / When we collide, it's a beautiful disaster / When I crash into you, you, you

And I don't care about the future or the past / Riding slow, 'cause you know the world's moving too fast

Without you, I'm just a fraction / Closing in on my demise / And I love you religiously / With everything inside of me / As long as I'm alive

So I think it fits for all three because the relationship is taboo since they’re criminals and she’s a valedictorian getting ready for college. Their relationship is sloppy and dangerous and comes to an inevitable end, and they both know that, so this song for sure encapsulates how little both the LI and MC care about that. They don’t that it’s a trainwreck, because colliding is all that matters :)

Heaven, Clairo [j]

Alone, for the last time / You're just a loner / Give it a try / And you're hard on yourself / And your laugh, it just melts in my hands / Lonesome in the streets

I'll get by with you on my mind / I'll get by with you on my side

I love the idea of this song being viewed as MC’s perspective of her LI, because I’m sure the other LI’s haven’t been appreciated in the way that she appreciates them. For example, the line about the laugh melting in her hands makes me think about how they’d react to her saying that to them. None of the LI’s probably have never been told their laugh is cute, and I’m sure they’d be confused about it at first, so this whole song gives me a cute late night summer drive vibe. Like the MC is in the passenger seat of Mona or Logan’s car or draped around Colt and she’s just appreciating the things she loves about them.

Heaven Ain’t Hard 2 Find, Tupac [j]

Simply because you nervous, let me start off with my conversation / Hoping my information, elevates the hesitation / I can see it clearly now / Catch you smiling through your frown / I'm askin' Baby Boo are you down?

Heaven ain't hard to find / In fact you can have it just have faith / Just like a little kid, still believing in magic / It takes a lot of sacrifice / With all the lonely nights on tour / I need somebody I can trust in my life

Oh god help me identify me truest thoughts / Your hidden motives full of passion who would of thought / Come holla at me baby, love me for my thug nature / Far from a player hater, label me a money maker / Straight heart breaker

I originally added this song because it’s canon that Colt loves old West Coast Rap, so that makes me think he’s a huge Tupac fan. I can see him listening to this in his car driving down a California highway at like 2 a.m. On the other hand, though, the beginning of the song reminds me of the first meeting with Logan at the party, or the second meeting when they go to the car show – young love jitters and all that.

Keep Me Up, Charlotte Lawrence [j]

My heart starts beating and my hands start sweating / My chest starts sinking and sometimes will even start shaking / It's physical and emotional

And I don't want you all inside my head / And I can feel you running through my veins

When I say, and I say, and I say / That I want you in my life / But you stay, and you stay, and you stay / And you never leave my side / And you take, and you take, and you take / And you say you feel so nice, boy / And you keep me up all night

I think this fits with all the LI’s and MC and how they cope after the LI’s had to leave. Read it from both perspectives and it honestly fits so well for both of them – like the first couple months of restlessness staring at their ceiling while reflecting on how much they miss each other.

Kitchen, Kid Cudi [j]

Hmm, you wanna find somebody you trust and lay low / But it seems they all on the same mission / You wanna find somebody you trust and lay low / But can't stand the heat of my love, then stay out the kitchen

Oh baby here we are, I made a wish on shootin' stars / I ain't even mad at it, we made it this far

The attitude of this song reminds me of both Mona and Colt’s feelings about relationships – they both know they’re intense people and that they don’t trust or love easily, and that whoever’s interested in them needs to know that. They’re not going to apologize for it, but they appreciate anyone who sticks around and loves them despite that.

Meet Me Halfway, The Black Eyed Peas [j]

Can you meet me halfway, right at the borderline / Is where I'm gonna wait, for you / I'll be looking out, night n' day / Took my heart to the limit, and this is where I stay / I can't go any further than this / I want you so bad it's my only wish

I think of all three LI’s when I listen to this, because it fits into the idea of them struggling to maintain both of their lifestyles and have them mesh together. And it plays into the distance when MPC has to scatter.

Moonlight, Trippie Redd [j]

I can still be your man / I was tryna see your plans / 'Cause I was tryna have this dance tonight / Your body, girl, I'm a real big fan / And I cannot lose this chance / So, baby girl, grab my hand / This moment I'm waiting for, I fantasize / I just wanna be with you, I just wanna be with you tonight / Under the moonlight

This reminded me of the prom scene and how despite the chaos, all three love interests took the time to appreciate MC and soak up their last “date”.

out for the night, 21 Savage [j]

Five foot five (Five), she my ride or die (Die) / Never tell a lie (Lie), we like Bonnie and Clyde (Clyde) / Lookin' at her thigh (Thigh), like, "Do it come with rice?" (Rice) / She don't like FaceTime, she would rather Skype / But I'm out for the night (Straight up) / Out for the night (Straight up)

When I heard this song I could definitely see Colt listening to it, but I think the flirtiness of the song fits for all three love interests! Also, I mean… “she my ride or die” and “we like Bonnie and Clyde”? Self explanatory.

Part of Me, Teo [j]

I believe there's no one in your place / So much lovely / You can cure my mistakes / You reside in me no room for escape

You're my darling / You're my love / You're rocking all of your diamonds / All dressed up / And girl I lost my mind, no, I messed up / So now I'm knocking at your doors with my chest up

You're part of me / Come again and see / Diamonds make you sparkle

This reminds me of the prom scene from the LI’s perspective. And even more so than that, it reminds me of post prom/car chase where they have to say goodbye to each other the last time. It’s like a bittersweet tribute to MC about how much they mean to them and how much they’ll think about them when they’re apart.

Special, 21 Savage [j]

We got something special / I was finna text you / But I don't wanna pest you / Even if we ain't together (no matter we're forever) / I'm still coming to your rescue

Ride with me (ride with me) / Tell the truth and don't you lie to me (lie to me) / You know I need you on my side with me (side with me) / Tell the truth and don't you lie to me (lie to me) / Baby, roll with me (roll with me)

I'mma hold you down forever / You my round forever / They just want to use you, but I'm tryna help you

I think of Colt mostly with this song, but it definitely fits with all of the li’s in my opinion! Logan, Colt, and Mona would all approach their relationship with MC this way – constantly affirming that they’re there for MC no matter what, even if things go South with them, they’re always one call away. And especially the last line “they just wanna use you, but I’m tryna help you” that’s for sure an overprotective LI about the Jason Shaw situation and generally people taking advantage of MC’s kindness.

Drunk on Love, Rihanna [p]

Take me away / I wear my heart on my sleeve / Always let love take the lead / I may be a little naive, yeah

I feel like I’ve heard MC being described as naive, and even in the book Mona is like man it’s your damn heart that got us into this mess because you thought we were more than who we are, so yeah this song reminded me of MC.

Final Goodbye, Rihanna [p]

Thought that you would stay forever with me / But the time has come to leave

Promise you our love will carry on

Final goodbye, MC saying goodbye to their LI, you catch my drift.

The Good, the Bad, and the Dirty, Panic! at the Disco [p]

If you wanna start a fight / You better throw the first punch / Make it a good one

I feel like this lyric specifically is saying that if you’re gonna stand for something, you better give it your all, and it reminded me of how MC came up with the plan to defeat the Brotherhood in the last few chapters of ROD, and to get out of it, they really had to go all out (AKA MC telling the police everything, meaning the gang had to go on the run). Also, MC just nose-dived into this life and I feel like this lyric is like ‘well sis if you gon be a criminal you might as well do your best’ (and she did when she bodied her first heist I know that’s right, my driver forever <3).

Harder We Fall, Jessie J [p]

So, whatever path we choose to take / There will be highs and there will be lows, the same / Oh, we’ll never run from our mistakes / The harder we fall the harder we try again

I just feel like this is a good song for MC to listen to in the car on her way to Langston yk crying but the windows are down and the wind is wiping your tears so you just keep it pushing because you’ll live and you’re stronger than your lows.

House of Memories, Panic! at the Disco [p]

If you’re a lover, you should know / The lonely moments just get lonelier / The longer you’re in love than if you are alone / Memories turn into daydreams, become a taboo

I think of you from time to time more than I thought I would

I just feel like this is a perfect song for MC going through the motions of leaving their lover behind and thinking about the times they shared because her life with the crew will always be so drastically different than the life she was went to have (going to Langston, being the ‘goody two shoes’, etc.).

Let It Out, Trippie Redd ft. Myiah Lynnae [p]

I need to know, before I tell you, can I trust you?

Idk man this song really just spoke to me.

Saw You in a Dream, The Japanese House [j]

I saw you in a dream / You had stayed the same / You were beckoning me / Said that I had changed / Tried to keep my eyes closed / I want you so bad / Then I awoke and it was so sad

Haven't talked to you in months / And I thought that I might cry / But I'm not that kind of girl

All good things come to an end / But I thought that this might last / But you came and left so fast

I wonder if you'll come visit me again / You're taking your time to reappear / I'm starting to believe that when I call your name / You just don't hear me anymore / And I know that I shouldn't even try / It's a waste of time

I don’t think I need to go super in depth as to why this reminded me of MC, but I do see this as MC’s defeated approach to it in the months/years after meeting the MPC.

Silent Nite, Tink [p]

I put your joy and your feelings ‘fore mine / These days I’m angry, angry inside / No words to say (oh) / One thing to do / Move on and fall back from you / It’s gonna be a silent night / No one here to hold me tight / It’s gonna be a silent night / No one here to hold me, oh, oh I’m lonely / Lost for words (lost for words)

It’s a short song so I just put the whole lyrics in here LMFAO but I feel like this could be MC during her first few nights at Langston. For Hieron at least, I know she went through a range of emotions processing this new chapter without the people she holds dear, angry at the way this is how things had to play out, but all that’s left for her to do is get over it, move on, and get used to not having that support anymore (i.e. like if MC is used to cuddling with [insert LI], they deadass gotta sleep alone now f in the chat).

Smile, Juice WRLD ft. The Weeknd [p]

I’d do anything in my power to see you just smile / I want you to prosper and come proper / Even if that means I ain’t by your side

I spent every day right beside you (‘side you), ‘side you (‘side you) / A hundred pics of me on your phone / Now you’re someone that I used to know

OKAY so I’m absolutely obsessed with this song and the first lyric was definitely giving me Logan x MC because I feel like this is something he could’ve said during his goodbye, like saying something that vulnerable and heartwrenchingly sweet is def on-brand for him, but the second lyric I feel like fits all the LIs. Like because they were part of the crew, they spent so much time with MC, and now that they’re gone, MC has all those pictures and memories that they want to hold on to them so badly even though they can never be together again (‘now you’re someone that I used to know’)

Stuck With Me, The Neighbourhood [j]

Now I'm feeling guilty for it / Didn't wanna leave / Realized I'm less important / Than I thought I'd be, yeah / I'm not tellin' you for any certain reasons but / I just want your empathy

Our lives keep on gettin' shorter / Losin' opportunity / There might be some other ways of looking at it but / That's just what I see / I been gettin' over myself / Thinkin' about what you need / Then I realised that neither of us matter

You always end up stickin' to me / Somehow, somehow / You are stuck with me / So I guess I'll be sticking with / You are stuck with me / So I guess I'll be sticking with

So I think this song covers a lot of topics for MC. I think the vibe of the lyrics suit MC when she’s dealing with her relationship with her father, being pressured by Jason Shaw, and grappling with whether or not she’s making the right decision despite it all – homegirl was falling in love throughout all of it, too. Reading the lyrics with that lens made me think of each of the lines as a different conversation. The first part sounds like a tidbit of a conversation she could’ve had with her dad or about her dad. The next one is like a realization that despite how careful she is with her choices, nothing matters anyways, if the MC takes a nihilistic approach to it. And the last lyric is her conclusion with the LI that despite everything, she’s happy that she’s with her LI and she’s grateful for their loyalty.

worst behavior, Ariana Grande [j]

I been on my worst behavior / But, baby, I don't need no savior / I'm way outta line / But I kind of like the way I / Feel when I just don't give a fuck

This ain't no game, won't play with you / This time I know I'll stay with you / Just promise you won't say nothin' / Don't you be actin' like that, don't you be actin' like that, babe

Said baby it's just in my nature / To be a little troublemaker

Know you really like the way I / Taste when we kiss, you reminisce / But this ain't the last time / Just stay by my side

This song reminds me of rebellious MC before the gravity of the situation really hits her – the short span of time where she’s not worrying about being Valedictorian or college or her dad’s approval. She’s just living and falling in love for the first time. This could probably work for all LI’s but the specific “troublemaker” line makes me think of an MC who is trying to reassure Logan that she can make her own decisions.

1Day, PnB Rock ft. Ugly God [j]

Momma told me that I wouldn't be shit / Told her one day / I'ma be rich (huh)

One day, I'ma buy a big ass crib / One day, I'ma buy a big ass mansion / One day, all my fucking diamonds gon' be dancing / One day, I'ma fuck a bitch in the Hamptons / One day, I'ma eat the sushi with the salmon

Dropped out of college, everybody said I'm tripping / Told them be patient, but they ass wouldn't listen / Made it big time, now they fucking with the vision / Now I'm really rich, and my diamonds really glistening

The lyrics kind of remind me of the lifestyle that they live – whether or not they fell for the MC in the process, they all kind of have the motive of money and being successful in their own way. Even though the li’s and MC have their own shortcomings and wants and needs outside of MPC, I like to think of this song as an ego booster and probably representative of their attitudes when they joined MPC at the beginning. Reminds me of Logan especially since he joined the life so early and probably romanticized it for the longest time before it really went to shit. And to add to that, the last lyric is Colt all the way.

92 Explorer, Post Malone [p]

Ooh, baby, I see these muhfuckas’ glancin’ / When my whip stop, then my wheels keep spinnin’

Made a lot of M’s, made a lot of moves

This song is literally all about Post Malone’s precious car so I was like LMFAO why not because everyone in ROD loves their cars and then the last lyric is because they be making a lot of money with their transactions/steals.

Best Friend, Saweetie ft. Doja Cat [p]

Beep beep, is that my bessie in a Tessie?

Listen... I feel like we were robbed of the peak best friend dynamic that could’ve existed between Riya and MC so this whole song is for them (also c’mon MC could’ve snatched a Tesla if she reeaaally wanted too so yup that’s Riya’s bessie in a Tessie).

Lost It, Rich The Kid ft. Quavo and Offset [p]

The Bentley don’t cost shit / I walk out the bank rich

Okay, drank sippin’, lane switchin’ / I done brought my gang with me

Ooh, I might snatch the coupe

First one because they really could get any car they wanted, second lyric because gang always together yk, and last one because they really be stealing cars out here LMFAO.

Royal Rumble, Lil Tecca [p]

My life is a movie, you not ready for that clip

It’s a Royal Rumble

ROD really is a wild ride (‘my life is a movie’) and the ‘it’s a Royal Rumble’ just reminded me of the fact that it’s basically a showdown between two crews where one wins in the end but at what cost.

Runnin’, 21 Savage and Metro Boomin [p]

Runnin’, runnin’, runnin’, runnin’

We run the motherfuckin’ city

Fuck your crew, [redacted], we’ll kill your crew

First lyric is because literally everyone has to scatter by the end of the book, and the second lyric just gave me their vibes, whether or not they truly ran the city. The last lyric makes me laugh because Colt really was about to kill the other crew, the ‘we’ is a lilll bit loose in that sense though LMFAO because I know damn well Toby was not ready to go down like that.

Stuntin’ Like My Daddy, Birdman ft. Lil Wayne [j]

What we doing? Getting money / What they doing? Hating on us, but they never cross / Cash money still a company, and, bitch, I'm the boss / And I be stuntin' like my daddy, stuntin' like my daddy

Colt and Teppei don’t get along, but I like to think that Colt not only bumps this song in his car, but secretly imagines that him and Teppei run L.A. – either together or with Colt taking the reins.

Takin’ Shots, Post Malone [p]

Drinkin’ all night, but we ain’t done yet / Waitin’ on the plug, but he ain’t come yet

Already losin’ control, this is the life that we chose

The first lyric and this song overall just give me club vibes, like the underground one they went to where MC wears that neon fit. The part in the second line that always gets me is ‘this is the life that we chose’ because being a part of this crew was a choice for most, and they knew what comes with this lifestyle.

Trouble on Central, Buddy [j]

So the entire song is pretty much the idea “I wish life were better and I’m daydreaming about how good things could be for me”. And to be honest, I think that the vibes of that fit Logan when he was young and broke, but at the same time, I could see Colt bumping this song in a convertible.

VEGAS, ABRA [j]

The whole song reminds me of the gambling scene and the high stakes of it. It kind of reads like the MC trying to fit in with dangerous criminals while she’s there despite the MPC thinking she’s not ready for it

#playchoices #choices rod #rodaw #ride or die: a bad boy romance #choices ride or die #playlist

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lovingkaneko · 4 years

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Sharing is Caring (Logan x MC x Colt)

Summary: Logan sees the way Ellie’s been looking at Colt Kaneko and who is he to deprive her from her deepest desires?

Author Note: Hi guys! It’s been a while, but here’s a bit of content for y’all. Enjoy this heavy smut story ;D

Book: Ride or Die: A Bad Boy Romance | Choices: Stories You Play (AU)

Pairing: Logan x MC (main), Colt Kaneko x MC | Ellie Wheeler

Word Count: ~2.4k

Rating: Mature (explicit sex- lots of it, cursing, threesome)

Every night ended the same way, after a long day of work, I would always manage to find myself tangled up in the sheets with Ellie Wheeler. Although, I promised I would only help her do homework, we always gave into the tension in the room. It’s never anything new, I knew her body like the back of my hand. I was sweet with her, always, I knew what she loved. She preferred to take things slow and the passion was surely there.

Ellie and I made up a long while ago after she found out about why we met. Truthfully, I did fall in love with her since then. I’m thankful she forgave me, every night after that day was filled with us having sex in my bed. It was her way of making sure I truly loved her and it worked. As the nights ended, she cuddled against my bare chest and fell asleep. She was truly beautiful under the light that came in through my window.

Tonight was different, however, Ellie hadn’t been paying much attention to me throughout the day. I would grip her hand under the table and she would turn and smile softly. She seemed to be looking somewhere else. My gaze followed where she was staring. My eyes fell upon Colt Kaneko, the boy who hated me more than anything. He was focused on fixing his bike, his leather jacket thrown on the ground beside him. The guy was drenched in sweat and covered in black oil. He looked disgusting. But Ellie couldn’t take her gaze away from him.

For a moment, I felt a twinge of jealousy. I hated how she was looking at that guy. I looked back to my girlfriend and it was clear in her eyes.

She wanted him.

The rest of the day consisted of her losing track of time with her focus on him. She would barely even acknowledged me and I was getting annoyed. He’s done nothing but treat her like she’s nothing. Is that hot or something?

“I’m going to sleep early today, I don’t feel like doing anything tonight. Goodnight, babe,” She kissed me goodnight, knowing that I won’t go sleep until way later.

I continued to work in the garage, fixing the AC in my car. However, curiosity didn’t fail to make it’s way into my mind. I looked over and watched as Colt scrolled on his phone, absentmindedly. What did that bastard have that I didn’t?

I sighed in defeat and got out of my car, heading to my room. Before I could open the door, I heard something I didn’t expect. I could recognize those moans anywhere. I pressed my ear against the cold wood of the door, hoping to hear more. She was whimpering as she did when I fucked her. I began to think that she could be in there with Colt, before remembering he was in the garage on his phone, like a dumbass. I didn’t have the balls to open the door, I was addicted to hearing her noises and wouldn’t risk them stopping.

But the only question repeating in my head was, why didn’t she wait for me? Did I do something wrong? However, what I heard next answered my question.

“Colt,” She moaned before the noises stopped and all I heard was her panting.

She was touching herself while thinking about the person I hated. For any normal guy, this would make him angry, but I felt my chest beam with an unexpected feeling... Arousal.

I waited a few more minutes outside the door before slowly opening it. She was curled up in the blankets, pretending to sleep. I sat beside her, running my hand down her ass.

“I know you’re not sleeping, Ellie.”

She didn’t move, but her breath quickened.

“Come on, baby, quit the act.”

She sighed and sat up, her eyes meeting mine. I could sense that she was guilty about something. I placed my hand on hers.

“You’ve been sleeping with Colt, haven’t you?” I asked nonchalantly.

“What?!” Her mouth gaped open and her cheeks flushed, “No, of course not! Why would you even ask that? Logan you know I would nev--”

“Would you want to?”

She froze and went silent.

“Be honest with me, Ellie. I see the way you look at him, would you want to have sex with him?”

“Babe, I--”

“Then I have my answer,” I chuckled, pleased with getting her to confess to it.

“Don’t get me wrong, it’s just simple attraction. I love you, not him,” She brought her hand to my cheek, caressing it gently, “I’m such a slut. If you want to leave me--”

“Leave you? No, never. Not over something as small as this,” I pressed a kiss to her lips, “I have an offer, actually.”

She was dazed after the kiss, as she always was. She came back to Earth a few moments later, curious to hear my offer.

“You can fuck him,” I whispered in her ear and I felt myself get hard when she twitched in shock.

“W-What?!” She was flabbergasted as she pulled away from me.

“Under one condition,” I continued and she bit her lip nervously, “Only if I get a part in it too.”

“Like-- A threesome?!” She couldn’t believe what I was saying. I chuckled at her reaction, it was cute.

I wasn’t nearly as innocent as she took me to be, I was trouble a long time ago before I met her. You wouldn’t find me at my high school parties, mainly because I was somewhere having sex with a schoolgirl. I only became loyal once I met Ellie, I had no reason to look at anyone else. But it wasn’t fair that she hadn’t had the chance to try out sex with other people. I was planning on keeping her with me forever, but I felt guilty at the thought of her never experiencing new things. Colt Kaneko was the best person for this, she would see what being treated without respect would be like. I don’t doubt her love for me, ever. She seemed to lose her mind when we argued, as I did. We wouldn’t leave each other for anyone else, that much was clear. I’ll let her try out someone new, just this once.

“Yeah, why not?”

She gulped nervously and I admired her bright pink cheeks.

“A-Are you sure?”

I laughed again, capturing her lips with mine. After a few heated moments, I pulled away and brushed a strand of hair from her face.

“I’ll go ask him,” I said, standing up, but she put her hand on my arm to stop me, “What?”

“I love you,” She smiled softly before giving me a gentle kiss.

“I love you more,” I gave her hand a squeeze before leaving to go find Colt.

As expected, he was still sitting and scrolling on his phone, but he seemed to have showered. This guy really had nothing better to do with his life, wow. He looked up as he saw me coming and rolled his eyes.

“I thought you and your girlfriend turned in early already,” He said in his normally irritated voice. I sighed and sat beside him, he looked me over with disgust.

“How do you feel about Ellie?” I asked him and he furrowed his eyebrows.

“What?”

“Would you fuck her?” I reworded my sentence to make him understand. He laughed mockingly, I hate this guy.

“Of course I would, have you seen her? Damn,” He stared off into the distance with a smirk. I held back the temptation to punch him.

Why couldn’t my girlfriend want to have sex with someone else?

“I want the best for her, you know? I want her to live out her life and experience crazy things,” I explained as I looked at him.

“Okay... And?”

“She lost her virginity to me and plans to be with me for the rest of her life. Which makes me think I’m taking away the chance of her to have fun with other people,” I sighed as Colt kept his poker face, “It seems she’s taken a liking to you, of all people, for some goddamn reason.”

“Not surprising, you seem boring.”

“Shut up and listen,” I snarled, “That’s not what it’s about. She loves me, I don’t doubt that. But she wants you too.”

“So what do you want me to do? You want me to go up to your room and fuck your girlfriend? Because if that’s it, I won’t complain.”

“You’re hilarious if you think I’ll let you have her all to yourself,” I scoffed.

“Oh my god,” Colt laughed again, “You’re asking ME to have a three-way with you two?”

“Yeah, I guess,” I sighed, realizing how pathetic I seem.

“Alright, I’m in,” He shrugged, “But you and I will have zero contact. We focus on Ellie, only.”

“That’s the plan,” I nodded before continuing, “You can go see her first. I’ll join in a second.”

Without another word, Colt went to my room to meet my girlfriend.

I heard the door close and took a deep breath. This situation wasn’t ideal, but who was I to stop her from her going after what she desires?

Once again, I pressed my ear to the door and my heart skipped at what I heard. The sounds of lips clashing together was clear. I made my way in and watched as his mouth sucked on her neck, her eyes basically rolling into the back of her head. His jacket was on the ground and her shirt was tossed to the side.

I could tell the obvious difference between him and I. He wasn’t taking his time with anything, Ellie wasn’t used to that. I made my way towards them, Colt didn’t acknowledge me but my girlfriend’s jaw dropped slightly as she saw me. I leaned forward and captured her lips with mine, she moaned into my mouth. Colt’s hand had trailed down her shorts, playing with her through her panties.

He pulled her bottom pieces off and brought his face down to meet with her core. I can only assume he began to swirl his tongue around her folds, because she whimpered loudly against my lips. Her hands made their way onto my shirt, pulling it over my head, then she proceeded to feel up my toned stomach. With one hand, I unclasped her bra, pulling it off with my other.

She was still whining as Colt ate her out, I attached my lips to her breast and moved my tongue in circles. Her left hand tangled in my hair, while her right pulled on the other male’s. She began to tremble.

“C-Colt, I’m gonna--” She began to say before yelping when I gently scraped my teeth against her nipple, “Logan!”

Her body went limp as her orgasm washed over her. Colt got up and kissed her lips, making her taste herself. She sighed into his mouth and I slowly dragged my hand across her thigh. She looked over at me and winked while her lips moved against his.

Not long after, we had her on her all fours, Colt was positioned behind her as I kneeled above her. Without hesitation, he moved inside of her and she screamed out. She seemed to forget that I was there and I was alright with that, watching as she lost all thought because of someone fucking her. He held her hips tightly and pulled her onto him harshly, the sound of skin on skin filling up the room. She was a mess, moaning like crazy. I would have to try that position with her someday. She lifted her head, her eyes lined up directly with my dick.

I grabbed her hair and pulled her lips onto me. She sucked on it, moaning and sending vibrations. I hissed at the hot feeling of her mouth.

This was new, I had never fucked Ellie as aggressively as Colt was doing. But she seemed to love it, maybe I didn’t know her as well as I thought I did. All of this was a learning experience, I would know how to pleasure her in different ways now. She continued to suck and lick me as Colt thrusted into her repeatedly. I felt her slow down, growing weak as she reached her second orgasm. She took me out of her mouth and turned to face him.

“I-Inside,” She said as her voice trembled.

“You want me to come inside of you, babygirl?” He put his hand on her chin and gently sank his teeth onto her earlobe.

��Please, please,” She begged with tears in her eyes. I moved my hand up and down as I watched them.

“That’s what I like to hear,” He smirked as he moved away from her and finished up. She screamed in pleasure as they came together. When her orgasm faded, she looked me in the eyes like a begging puppy. She got off of all fours, sitting on her heels. She crawled over to me before moving her lips to my ear.

“I want you too.”

The Ellie I knew would’ve never talked dirty, we were as vanilla as it gets. We would only ever moan words of adoration, but I was liking this version of her too.

I helped her onto my lap as she sank herself down onto me, taking all of me in. She sighed heavily and kissed me with a desire that I didn’t recognize.

She rode me as I held her by her waist. Colt had made his way over and sucked on her neck, his lips trailing down to her shoulder and back.

That night was definitely not the last time we had sex together. But, Ellie and I had never been better. She went back to paying me attention throughout the days, we were at the top of the world. Just me and Ellie. We were unstoppable.

Colt still hated my guts, nothing changed. We shared the same girl in bed, but she was all mine. He had no interest in having her all for himself and he only spoke to her on those sinful nights.

“I love you, Logan, forever,” She placed her head on my shoulder as we watched cars on the freeway speed by. Our hands rested on her lap and I kissed the top of her head.

“I love you more, Ellie, until my last breath.”

#logan x mc #logan ride or die #logan rod #colt kaneko #colt kaneko x mc #rod #ride or die choices #rod choices #rod fanfic

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ezekielbhandarivalleros · 4 years

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The Messed-Up Kiss Bet

Characters: Logan, Colt Kaneko, Mona and Toby

Summary: Logan takes Colt’s bet of not being able to kiss him for a full day seriously, can Logan last a full day? Can he?

Fourth Chapter of Gay Bad Boys Series

I sighed for what could have been the hundredth time that day, I didn't keep count anymore. I let out a frustrated puff of air, causing Colt to lightly chuckle against my neck. If only he knew the things he did to me...scratch that, he most certainly did know how each one of his seemingly small actions affected me.

"Colt..." I said in a warning tone as his lips lightly grazed my neck.

"Logan." He said simply, his mouth turning upwards into a crooked smile against my neck. I closed my eyes in frustration wishing he would stop his pointless little game. He'd been doing this all day, a bet really between the both of us. Well I didn't mean for it to be taken seriously, but apparently he thought otherwise.

"Please" My voice came out as a whisper causing Colt to stop momentarily from his attack on my neck, it had only lasted a few moments though before he resumed again, ignoring my plea with a small smile. I rolled my eyes, that almost always worked.

"Colt...I don't like this game anymore!" I huffed, crossing my arms in a childish manner. Edward chuckled, pulling away from my neck slightly to look into my eyes.

"It hasn't even been eight hours yet love, can't you live at least half a day without one?" He murmured quietly, kissing my cheek lightly.

"Technically you just broke your own rule, you just kissed me." I pointed out his mistake, hoping that now he would finally just kiss me on the mouth...this game, bet, whatever, it was stupid.

Colt let out a laugh, rolling over onto his back so that I was now lying on top of him. "Nice try, but that doesn't count." He stated as if it was a real rule.

I thought back to how this stupid bet thing started in the first place, I was just joking with him. We had been kissing on my bed...I wouldn't exactly call it 'making out' since he almost never let me go farther than running my fingers through his hair. And I had just jokingly bet that he couldn't go a day without kissing me, and of course since he's Colt, he took my bet as real.

Ugh, me and my stupid words trying to make myself sound sexy...thinking back now I don't even know why that sounded sexy in my head in the first place.

Suddenly an idea struck me; it was brilliant, well not really... I actually don't know why I hadn't thought of it earlier. I would just kiss him, easy as that.

But of course things are always easier said than done, especially when there's a vampire involved. I smiled and turned my gaze back to Colt, who looked as though he was trying not to laugh at what I could only imagine was my blank looking façade I had on for the last few minutes while I thought to myself.

"Alright, you win." I stated simply. Colt raised one eyebrow in amusement and what looked a little like confusion also.

"I win." He repeated.

"Yep." I fake yawned, as I rolled on top of him again, nuzzling my face against his cold neck.

"Now if you don't mind I would like to go to sleep now." I said as I closed my eyes.

"Logan, its two in the afternoon." I heard his muffled voice say, with what sounded like a hint of confusion added to it.

"Well sorry if someone kept me up all night." I said accusingly, lifting my face up from his chest to look at him. His brows furrowed worriedly as his eyes flashed with a hurt and guilty emotion.

"Logan, I'm sorry you should have tol—"I put a finger to his lips cutting him off. Now was my chance, when he was feeling bad. I knew it was kind of harsh, but I wanted to win at something against him for once, and playing dirty was a needed asset to complete that goal.

"I know how you can make it up to me." I whispered, removing my finger from his lips. His eyes lit up as he cupped my face gently with his hand.

"How?" He asked eagerly. I didn't answer; instead I just leaned forward very fast, even for me. I closed my eyes waiting to finally feel his lips on mine. Instead I just kept leaning further forward until my face hit something very soft and feathery, definitely not Colt's chest. I opened my eyes to see all white, and let out a frustrated growl into the now recognized pillow.

"Nice try. You really are a conniving little woman Mr.Troublemaker" Colt's voice came from behind me. I sat up, crossing my legs and arms as I stared at him with a scowl on my face.

"I'm older then you." I stuck my tongue out childishly. I cut him off as he opened his mouth to retort. "Physically" I added quickly.

He smiled lightly and before I knew what was going on my back was once again pressed back against the bed as he hovered over me.

"That you are..." He seemed to trail off, or I just didn't hear the rest of what he was saying. My mind was too clouded from the touch of his lips on my neck and slowly trailing upwards towards my cheek and finally to the very corner of my lips, but not enough to be actually touching them.

"Now you're just teasing me!" I complained, this was totally unfair.

Colt chuckled. "Am I now? And what were you doing just a few minutes ago?"

"That wasn't teasing, that was what you call strategy." I stated. Logan rolled his eyes at my theory.

"More like manipulating." He murmured under his breath, but loud enough for me to hear. I lightly pushed his arms away and sat up, turning my back towards him.

"Logan..?" His voice came from behind me, sounding slightly panicky. Probably thinking that what he said actually hurt my feelings.

I faked dramatic sigh before speaking. "I guess I'll just have to go find someone who is willing to kiss me then." I acted...horribly of course, but at least Colt would know that I didn't mean any of it. I heard a light growl from behind me and the next thing I knew I was being pulled back by two cold arms.

"Over my dead body." Colt growled softly into my ear, his lips pressing hard against the hollow of my neck. I giggled lightly before speaking again.

"Colt you can't die." I stated the obvious.

"Over the dead body of anyone who ever dares to even try to kiss you." He corrected for himself for me, his arms pulling me closer against his chest. I laughed quietly to myself, this was fun. I wonder if I could drive him over the edge, make him break and forget about the bet.

I sighed again. "I'm sure MC or Mona would be willing if I asked them." I said to myself loud enough for him to hear.

Colt tightened his grip around me, but not tight enough to hurt me. "Not funny Logan." He growled lightly into my ear.

I huffed in agitation...this obviously wasn't working. I tried again anyway.

"Or Toby, I'm sure he'd would just lov—"

I didn't even have time to finish my sentence or even breathe since before I could even think I found myself lying down, again, with Edward on top of me. This time with his lips roughly against mine. I smiled into the kiss; obviously he did go for the bait.

I closed my eyes as I wrapped my arms around his neck, my fingers fisting his hair as I pulled him closer. He pulled away abruptly, I opened my eyes in disappointment, thinking he would say we were about to go too far again. Except that wasn't what he said.

"I will never let anyone kiss you ever again." He said menacingly, referring to the Leah (MC) incident a few months ago. I cringed at the memory; never would I let anything like that ever happen again either.

"Your mine." His voice once again interrupted my thoughts as I looked up into his topaz eyes; I opened my mouth to speak but was cut off by his voice again.

"I know it's selfish, I know that. I know that I don't deserve you...and, I know you don't actually belong to me. But I...I, belong to you Logan Even if you ever change your mind about me, leave me, hate me..."

I tried to open my mouth to tell him that I couldn't possibly ever hate him, but he silenced me with a finger to my lips.

"I am yours, more then you'll ever be mine...and that's all I need. I've told you before that I'd be happy with me just having even a part of you, and I meant it." He kissed me lightly on the lips again.

"..." I whispered his name as I cupped his chin and turned him to look at me, this was not what I had expected.

"You silly Bad boy." I smiled before I continued.

"First of all, I could never hate you, no matter what so I don't know why you would even mention that." I sighed and continued before I he could speak.

"And I want to be yours, and only yours. Forever, eternity, till the end of time, whatever." I tried to explain...though not very well. What would I have to say to have him believe that I only wanted him and no one else?

"Colt...I am yours, I guess in a way I always was...I just didn't know it yet." I smiled...wow that sounded cheesy but oh well; I think I was getting my point across.

"And I can't believe you think I would ever even consider changing my mind or leaving you!" I poked his hard chest, hurting my finger more then I actually hurt him, if at all.

"Logan.."

I cut him off again. "I agreed to marry you, change for you, and I'm never going to change my mind about any of that." I finished as I gave him a hard look, trying to get my point across of just how much I loved him.

He smiled and leaned in to kiss me, a lot more passionately this time. I felt his tongue enter my mouth and I gasped in surprise, he never let it go this far. I closed my eyes in bliss, slowly turning red...from embarrassment or lack of air, I wasn't completely sure nor did I care.

Colt seemed to sense that I needed to breathe and pulled away, kissing his way down my neck.

"Logan Logan Logan..." He murmured, almost so fast that I couldn't understand what he had said. He placed a kiss to my collar bone as I took another deep breath.

"You'll never know how much I love you..." he whispered just loud enough for me to hear. I sighed in frustration, like he could actually love me more than I did him, impossible is what it was.

"Not possible to love me more then I love you." I voiced my thought to him and felt him smile against my skin, choosing not to retort but instead place another cool kiss to my collar bone.

"So this means I win." I said after a few silent minutes passed he lifted his head from where it was resting on my chest. He leaned forward and kissed me softly on the lips.

"This is a bet that I am happy to lose." He stated simply against my lips. I rolled my eyes at his answer.

"What? So you meant to lose?" He smiled at the question.

"Maybe I did." He answered. I huffed in annoyance; he was turning it around again!

"I think you're the conniving and manipulative one." I murmured to myself, causing him to laugh lightly against my lips.

I wrapped my arms around his neck and pulled him down closer. "Just promise me this." Colt looked at me, his eyes turning serious.

"Anything." He stated simply, staring at me with a confused look.

"Don't ever do a bet like this again. I don't want to waste one minute not kissing you." I said, bringing my lips to his again. He immediately responded, kissing me even harder than usual pushing the back of my head deeper into the pillow, but I didn't mind.

"We have an eternity of kisses ahead of us love, don't worry." Colt said after pulling away slightly, smiling that crooked smile I loved so.

"Eternity" I repeated staring at him. He leaned his forehead against mine, pecking me quickly.

"Eternity, love." He assured me again before crashing his lips against mine once again.

An eternity of kisses like this...

I could get used to that. " Logan said braking the bet

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Always Be My Driver - A RoD Rom-Com [Colt x MC/Logan x MC]. CH 3

Book : RIDE OR DIE

PAIRING : Colt x MC/ Logan x MC

SUMMARY: Emma and Colt have been childhood best friends since forever, they were both inseparable. In middle school they became something more but when Colt had to move with his mom away from LA all the way to Miami, things started to change between them. A small misunderstanding leads to the end of their relationship. Years later they meet again at the most unlikely place. Will Emma and Colt be able to mend what has been broken between them? Or will it continue to crash and burn?

Characters except my OCs belong to Pixelberry, I am just borrowing them

Word count : 3500 ish..

Chapter Summary: Now that Colt is back and spending the whole summer at the shop, will things get better between him and Emma?

A/N : So this chapter was sort of inspired by an episode of FRIENDS. If you’re a big fan of the comedy series than you know why. 😬 Also this is a dialogue heavy chapter. Plus I hope you can look past my grammatical errors, which must be a lot cause I haven’t done much polishing.

Warning/Triggers : Pretty safe PG-13 stuff... for now.. *Evil laughs here* But just to be safe make sure you’re 18 and above before you read this series.

Catch up with the series HERE

Dear Diary,

This past year has been awesome. I met the most amazing guy, who I am so in love with and best part is he loves me back. Made a few awesome new friends along the way, got in to the perfect school, kept up good grades, won a lot of races.. you get the whole idea.

But see here’s the thing, just when you think things are perfect, life somehow manages to find a way and kick you in the gut. Yes I’m talking about a recent visit of a certain someone from my past. Colt Kaneko. As if meeting your ex boyfriend who you haven’t seen in like forever wasn’t weird enough. Now we have to live under the same roof for the entire summer.

That’s not even the worst part, the worst part is he acts like I don’t exist. The only time he talks to me is when he has something snarky to say other than that he completely ignores me. I mean it’s not like I care. This first time I noticed this was when Colt came walking into the garage asking for a sharpie. I offered to borrow him mine, I tried to be the mature one by offering him an olive branch and you know what he did?! He gave me the look and said he’d just buy a new one from the store. I literally had on right there in front of him and he just.. He is acting like I was the bad guy and was responsible for us breaking up.

Logan doesn’t know about our history at least the part where we dated. He already can’t stand Colt, why should I stir the pot hot on something that happened when we were kids. It’s not like I’m still in love with Colt Kaneko.

I’m not in love with Colt Kaneko.

[[MORE]]

A few days later..

Okay Emma this is your chance, just walk up to him and ask him what’s his problem. You’ve tried to be nice but if he is gonna be a jerk about it..

“Colt.”

He turns around then raises an eyebrow at her.

Why are you being such an asshole to me?

“The customer with the broken tail light wants to know if his car is already fixed?”

“I’ll be out to see him in a minute.” He answers flatly.

“Ok, cool I’ll let him know.” Well that worked out great.

****

A week later..

Colt slumps on the couch in the backroom reading the latest edition of top gear while Mona sat across him busy texting on her phone when Toby enters. “Hey Colt, Mona. Ximena and I are heading out for lunch. Wanna come?”

“I just ate so I’m gonna sit this one out.” Mona replies and shift her focus back to her phone.

“Sure, I’ve got nothing better to do here anyway.” Colt responds then tosses the Megazine on the table.

“Anyone saw Logan and Emma?”

Logan and Emma walks in with their face flush and hands entwined, Emma giggles at something that Logan whispers in her ear. Colt rolled his eyes at the sight and pretends to scroll on his phone, anything to avoid looking at the two.

“Oh. Hey didn’t notice you guys were here.”

“Great timing we were just looking for both of you. Where have the two of you been?” Ximena asks raising an eyebrow at them while folding her arms.

Emma and Logan gave each other coy smiles. “We were at the loft.. getting some workout done. Gotta stay healthy these days you know.”

“Right…” Ximena answer in a skeptical voice. “So we’re about to go out for lunch. You two want to join us?”

“Oh that sounds awesome. What do you say babe?” She turns and beams at Logan.

“Yeah sure I could use a bite to eat after all that workout.” He replies emphasizing on the word followed by a grin.

Colt gave a sarcastic eye roll again. “I think I just lost my appetite.” He mutters under his breath but it was enough for Mona who’s sitting near him to hear. She raises her eyebrow but doesn’t say anything at least not yet.

“So it’s settled.. Oh I call shotgun!” Toby beams excitedly and heads for the door, the others follow behind. “Colt, aren’t you coming?” Ximena asked.

“Nah.. You guys go ahead. I’ve got a bunch of stuff to do anyway.”

“I thought you said you didn’t have anything better to do a few minutes ago.” Mona pressed.

“Yeah, well I do now.” Colt retorts giving Mona glaring look.

“Alright if you say so..” and left with the others leaving Colt and Mona behind. Colt grabs the TV remote from the coffee table, surfing the channels to avoid having a conversation with Mona.

“So, What’s the deal between your and korean barbie?”

“I have no idea what you’re talking about.”

“Don’t play dumb Colt, we both know you’re too smart for that. Now spill the beans or I’ll find out myself one way or the other.” She demanded with her arms crossed.

“Honestly Mona it’s none of your business. And why do you care so much?” He seethes.

Mona snorts a laugh. “I don’t.. But I like knowing things because knowing things gives you leverage. So talk junior.”

“We were friends and now we’re not. End of story, now leave me alone.” He abruptly stood up and starts walking towards the door.

“Colt,wait! I don’t know what went down between you and Emma but that was a long time ago, you were just kids and she’s been trying to reconcile since you got her.” She heaves a sigh. “All I’m saying is you’ve been friends before and I’m sure there were more good times than bad. Emma is a pretty good friend, hell don’t tell her I said this but she’s a great friend. And a friendship with her isn’t worth losing over some silly fight you had as kids.”

Colt gave Mona a thoughtful look. Who knew Mona had a soft side. I hate to admit it but maybe she’s right? He shook his head and without a word walks out, closing the door behind him.

****

A few nights later..

“Emma, oh thank God. Listen what ever happened we can fix this okay. Just talk to me please.” Colt pleaded his voice cracking.

“Colt, I don’t want to talk. I don’t want to hear excuses. We’re over for good. I’ve changed my number so don’t bother trying to contact me you won’t get through. Goodbye Colt, I hope you’ll be happy there.”

“Emma, wait!”

“How could you?”

She turns around and sees.. “Logan?”

“How could you lie to me Em, I thought we promised each other no more secrets.”

“Logan, what are you talking about?”

“I think we need a break and probably shouldn’t see each other for awhile.”

“What? Logan no wait!”

Emma wakes up covered in sweat trying to catch her breath. Logan lying next to her with her head on his chest, she could feel his chest gently rise and fall as he breathes.

She heaves a sigh of relief. It was just a bad dream.

The sound of thunder rumbling, echoes through the night sky and catches her attention.

Great as if the nightmares weren’t enough now there’s rain and thunder outside.

She closes her eyes and tries to go back to sleep but between the rumbling noise of the thunder and thinking about the dream of Colt and Logan, it just made her insomnia go into overdrive.

This is so frustrating! I can’t sleep! maybe I need some milk or a late night snack.

She gently moves Logan’s arm, careful not to wake him. She puts on a pair of bunny slippers and slip out of the room, slowly closing the door behind her before heading down stairs.

*****

The whole place was extremely quiet since everyone was asleep, the only sound she could hear was the loud continuous sound of thunder crashing in the background. She opens the door to the back room and sees Colt bending down in front of the microwave.

“Colt?”

Colt jumps at the sound of Emma’s voice with one hand pressed to his chest. “Christ! Emma you almost gave me a heart attack. What are you doing down here at this hour?”

“I couldn’t sleep.” She said and saunters over to the island, taking a seat on the stool. “What are you doing making popcorn at this hour?”

“Isn’t it obvious? Why would anyone make popcorn?” Colt replies in a flat voice. “So what’s got you up at this hour? Prince charming a loud snorer or something?”

“I’ll have you know he sleeps like a baby.”

“So he cries in his sleep a lot?” He grinned.

Emma rolls her eyes at him. “This was a bad idea, I’m going back to bed.” She got off the bar stool and turns toward the door.

“Em, wait.” He stops her before she could leave. Emma turns back to face him. “What now Colt?” Her voice flat when she answers. This better not be another snarky comment about Logan.

Colt nervously rubs the back of his neck. I can’t believe I’m doing this. “Look if you want, you can watch the movie with me and I’ll even share my popcorn. It’s.. melted butter and caramel.”

Damn it, that’s my favorite! Emma crosses her arms giving him a skeptical look. “What’s the catch?”

“Why’d you think there’s a catch?”

“Uh… I don’t know maybe cause you’ve been sort of a jerk and Ignoring me since you’ve got here?”

“I wasn’t being a jerk. I was just… Look do you want to watch the movie or not? Decide before I change my mind.”

Well I can’t sleep so might as well, nothing wrong with watching a movie right? “Ok fine. Only because melted butter and caramel is my favorite.” She replies and saunters over to take a seat on the couch.

Colt joins her a few seconds later handing her the bowl of popcorn.“So what are we watching?” She asked while nibbling on a piece of popcorn in her hand.

”The Conjuring.” He murmured while looking through the options on the screen.

“The what?!” She belted sitting up right from her slouched position. “There’s a real scary thunderstorm out there and you want to add to the terror by watching a horror movie?”

“It adds a cool effect to the experience Em.” He emphasized then gave her a questioning look. “You’re not still afraid of some silly storm after all these years?”

Emma throws her body back on the couch, her eyes focused on the popcorn that she keeps stuffing in her mouth.

Colt snorts a laugh. “Really Em? I thought you’d outgrow this silly fear by now.”

“I’m not afraid anymore but that doesn’t mean I like it either. Not everyone can be as cool as you Colt.” She said and gave a sarcastic eye roll.

“There first step to recovery is admitting you have a problem.” He grinned.

“Can we just get this over with already? But I'm warning you if some scary shit goes down I’m jumping right at you.”

Colt shrugged. “Fine, whatever.”

The movie played on for about thirty minutes and the two watched it in silence sitting Five inches apart from each other. There were a few awkward moments in between like their hands accidentally touching while trying to grab some popcorn, both quickly shy away as they did..

As the movie progressed and got scarier Emma started to move closer to Colt closing the gap from three to two inches, her hands nervously fidgets with a lock of her hair. Colt noticed this from the corner of his eye and grinned. Damn it, she's still cute when she gets flustered. He subtly shift his body closer to her and clears his throat. “So um, how long have you been with Logan?” He bit his tongue and cringed as soon as he heard the words come out from his mouth.

“A little over a year now.” She answered. “It was at Billy’s party during senior year.”

“Billy? As in big bully Billy? Shouldn’t he have graduated by then?” He cocked an eyebrow.

“The very same, he got held back for failing a few classes. Anyway Logan was there to deliver a car to Brent. Long story short that’s how we met.” She explained and stuff a few more popcorn in her mouth.

“Hey remember that one time you kicked Billy in the nuts?” Colt recalled grinning.

Emma chuckled. “How could I forget, he was going to punch you for calling him a wuss and I guess.. My self defense instinct just kicked in.”

Colt gave a half shrug. “I could have taken him you know..”

The two shared a look before eventually bursting into laughter at the memory of that day. And there it was the sound Colt didn’t realize he missed so much until that moment. It was the sound of her laughter.

Their laughter slowly fades and there was a minute of silence before Emma decides to broach the question back. “So uh.. What about you? Do you have someone special waiting for you back in college?”

Colt gives half shrug.“I don’t really do relationships. I mean I’ve dated a bunch but nothing serious.”

“Oh. Yeah sure I completely understand.” Change the subject Emma you just made progress don’t blow it.

The two continued to chatting and laughing at stories basically ignoring the whole movie. “I really miss this you know... just talking to you.” She confeses giving him a sincere smile. “I miss talking to you too.”

A piece of popcorn got caught on Emma’s long rose gold hair and Colt reaches his hand out to take it. “You um. You have some popcorn stuck on your hair.” He said, his fingers brushed against her cheeks and there was this intense gaze between them for a moment, Emma could feel her cheeks start to blush. Shit Em look away before you do something stupid. Emma tilts her head down, averting her eyes from Colt. “We um—. Should get back to watching the movie.”

Colt blinks and shakes his head. “Yeah totally.” He agreed but there was a slight disappointment to his tone. He leans back on the couch, looking at the TV then back at Emma.

“Hey, so there’s The Conjuring 2 if you want to watch it after this?”

It was well after 2am, the rain was still heavy outside and she found the first movie one scary as shit but somehow Emma didn’t want their time together to end so soon.

“I’d like that.”

The two continued to chat as they watched the movie, both making snarky comments when a character in the movie was being stupid, sometimes debating about what the whole thing was about.

“What’s with the Nun, is it a ghost or something?” Emma asked curiously.

“It’s not really a ghost, it’s a demon. They actually already did the origin story about it.”

There was a sudden loud sound of thunder outside the building at the same time a frightening scene from the movie appeared, Emma instinctive moves right next to Colt, her hands clutching onto his arm while she buries her face in his chest.

Oh.my.god did I just bury my face in Colt’s chest? Damn it, why does he smell so good. Well this just got awkward. Maybe he didn’t notice.

She tilts her chin up and sees Colt looking at her cocking an eyebrow. “Sorry.. Reflexes” She said in a shaky voice. “Do. Do you mind?

“It’s alright.” He grinned.

Emma sits right up and raises an eyebrow at him. “What’s so funny?”

“Nothing. It’s just..I think it’s cute that you’re still afraid of a little thunder after all these years.”

“Shut up, Colt.” She said then playfully swats him on the shoulder before leaning back right next to him. Colt wiggles his arm from behind her back and wraps it around her shoulders just like old times whenever they would watch a movie together. “If you’re gonna lean on me at least give my arm somewhere comfortable to rest.”

It wasn’t long before the two eventually fell asleep laying on the couch. Colt had one arm wrapped around Emma as she lay her head on his chest.

They wake up a few hours later as the sunlight pierce through the window hitting their eyes. Colt slowly rubs his eyes and lets out a yawn, when he finally opens them he sees Emma fluttering her eyes open. Both still feeling half asleep.

Shit! Did we just fall asleep on the couch together? Damn, I forgot how cute she looks when she’s tired. Okay, play it cool like it’s no big deal.

“Morning.” He smiled.

Shit, did I just fall asleep in Colt’s arms? He’s so warm and comfortable to sleep on. Not that Logan isn’t.. Oh shit he just said good morning to me. Is he freaked out? He doesn’t seem freaked out. Play it cool Emma.

“Morning.” She sheepishly smiled back.

“Ahem!” Mona croaked.

Emma and Colt’s eyes go wide open when they realize they weren’t alone. They turn their heads to see Mona grinning with her arms folded, Ximena with her hands on her waist and Toby munching on some fruit loops.

They both sit up with a jolt, the other three continue to stand and stare. “We um… Anyone hungry?” Emma nervously chuckles, getting up from the couch. “I could really go for some omelettes and bacon.”

“I need to use the bathroom.” Colt mentions and excuses himself from the bathroom.

“So this is going to be a whole thing now?” Toby murmurs to the other two ladies.

“Apparently…” Mona replies with a grin. “Now let the games begin.”

*****

It was quiet around the table as the five ate their breakfast, so quiet that Mona could hear the sound of Toby’s teeth crushing the fruit loops in his mouth from across the table. Colt was seated in front of Emma and Mona between them, her eyes move back and forth at the two, who were awkwardly trying to avoid looking at each other for a second there they failed but quickly move their gaze away.

Ugh… Watching these two is more depressing than that finally episode of Game of Thrones. I wonder what’s going on in their heads?

What were you thinking Colt? Last night was a mistake, you weak son of a bitch! It only takes one smile.. One smile and suddenly she’s all I can think about. Who am I kidding I’ve been thinking about her since that night at the sideshow and that was before I knew who she was. It’s like we're magnets and there’s this strong force trying to pull us together.

He quickly tries to get a glance at her and it’s as if she could read his mind, she tilts her head up and gazes back at him. They both quickly avert their eyes mere seconds later. Colt shakes his head.

No You can’t do this, she broke your heart Colt. There’s a reason why You have all these walls up and You don’t plan on letting them down anytime soon. Just get through this summer as friends and nothing else. After that you won’t have to see her again.

Emma you’re such an idiot, falling asleep with Colt Kaneko, even if it wasn’t intentional and you didn’t do anything wrong but still! Why, after everything that’s happened between us, last night hanging out, it somehow still feels like home when we’re together. No! No! Get yourself together Emma you have a boyfriend who’s sweet and kind, who loves you and would never break your heart. OMG! I forgot about Logan, he already hates Colt’s guts. I can’t imagine what he would do if he found out and not just about falling asleep on the couch thing but about our history. I haven’t told him yet about the part where we dated at least and I don’t know if I should, Colt’s only going to be here for the summer then he’s back to wherever he came from. We can get through this few weeks as friends. Hmm.. Honestly I’m surprised Colt hasn’t said anything to him, since he seems to like getting into Logan’s skin.

“Morning.” Logan announces himself as he enters. He glares at Colt before taking a seat on the empty chair next to Emma.

“Morning beautiful.” He grins and kissing her on the lips. She could see Colt roll his eyes from the corner of her eye but pretends to ignore it.

“You’re dressed early today?” She smiled

“Boss needs me to get somethings done today, thought I get an early start.” He pauses to look at her. “Why aren’t you dressed? You’re usually the one who gets ready before I do.”

“Yeah.. Umm… I decided to take it slow today. Bacon?” She offers Logan a piece on her fork and he takes a bite, moaning as he did. Colt merely oggles at the site, if he keeps it up at this rate he is going to get a headache before noon.

“Aw how sweet, I’m not even pregnant and I suddenly got morning sickness just by looking at the two of you.” Mona said in a sarcastic tone.

“You jealous Mona?” Logan sneered.

Okay time to stir up some tension. Mona pretends to clear her throat. “So Colt, I heard you slept well last night. How bout you Emma? How did you sleep?”

Emma slightly chokes on her orange juice and tries to kick Mona under the table but hits Colt instead.

“Ouch! What was that for?” Colt bellowed and quirks an eyebrow at Emma.

“Sorry.. Hrk.. reflexes.” She apologizes trying to compose herself, her eyes fixed on Mona with a glare.

“Babe, you alright?” Logan asks in a concerned voice, rubbing soothing circles on her back.

“Yeah… I’m fine… totally..” I mean I fell asleep in the arms of the boy I once loved but other than that totally fine. Emma replied trying to hide how nervous she was. “I um.. need to get ready. I’ll see you when you get back?”

“Sure. I’ll be missing you till then.” Logan leans in to kiss her but she quickly gets up before he manages to. At the same time Colt gets up from his seat and walks out the opposite way.

Logan looks curiously at the group that were still seated at the table. “Did something happen while I was asleep? Everyone’s been acting weird all morning.”

“You’re reading into things too much pretty boy, nothing happened.” She answers trying to hide a grin on her face. Not yet anyway.

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fallenangelsjenniferanddani · 5 years

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~~Fallen Angels~~ Chapter 2- Partners

Chapter 2-Partners

Find Chapter One here- “When the FBI Comes Knocking.”

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MC: Ellie Wheeler Language, adult, I don’t own their characters. Just borrowing them for our story.

Angry tears spill on my cheeks but I’m too mad to wipe them away. I don’t care that the agents are watching us, I need answers and I need them now. “They found me in New York. They offered me immunity from past crimes to do this.” Logan murmurs in a soothing voice. “Have you lost your fucking mind?” I snap.

“No. I’m doing this for you. For us. You told me to come find you. Well this is the only way. I didn’t want you involved at all!” He looks at me softly before snapping, glaring at Agent Shipley and Agent McKenzie venomously. “She forced our hand. She’s already involved. Rubbing elbows with them, she’s already in. She might as well help.” Agent McKenzie says sadly looking from Logan back to me. “We know this isn’t want you wanted neither did we, but we need help and Ellie can do that.” Agent Shipley says quietly. “This isn’t the crew she knows. They’re the scum of the earth. If something happens to her, it’s on us!” Logan says raising his voice pointing at both of them. “What were you thinking Ellie?! Do you think I could live if something happened to you? What did I spend the last year trying to protect you for?!” His anger is directed at me now. I flinch at it, he’s never yelled at me before. Sighing still seething Logan looks out the window before saying, “Can we get a minute Rebecca and Evan?”

“Sure.” They both murmur at the same time. I see Agent McKenzie pat my knee and Agent Shipley squeeze my shoulder. They both slip out the front door quietly.

After a couple minutes I break down in sobs. Heart wrenching sobs that feel like I’m tearing inside. It’s all too much.. the arrest, the FBI, and now Logan.

I curl up into a ball on the couch. I feel Logan’s hands on my face wiping my tears. I relish the feel of his hands on me. I pull him closer desperately wanting more, needing more. He obliges without hesitation crushing me to his strong chest. We hold each other until my tears are dry. “Why Ellie, just tell me why you were doing this?” He whispers in my ear. “It’s the only way I feel close to you.” I whisper into his neck. I feel him shudder holding me tighter. “You weren’t doing this for me, you were doing this for yourself.” He says softly. “What would you know about it?!” I scream. Anger coursing through me, I push him away. I can’t think when he’s this close. I thought I’d be happy when we saw each other again. Instead months of pent up emotions come at me all at once. Most of them are not happy, they’re angry. He looks sad and disappointed. I look away... I can’t stand the look in his eyes. I hear him say, “I know you Ellie.. this isn’t you.” “No you knew the old me.” I say looking into his eyes. “That girl is long gone.” “So this is it?” He whispers. I shrug, “You need an in with this crew and I have that, you need me.” “I’ll call your dad.” He threatens eyes hardening. After everything we’ve been through he never looked at me with real anger before. He thinks he can call my bluff but he can’t scare me. “Go ahead, I’m sure Agent Shipley and Agent McKenzie would love to hear you compromised their case.” I say with a dead pan expression. “You wouldn’t dare.” He mutters, tensing. “Oh Logan you really don’t know me at all do you?” We stare each other down. “You’re right I don’t know you. The old Ellie would do anything for her friends, but she was smart.” As he says it he turns away from me. Putting space between us. Just then the door opens and the agents walk back in and I’m saved from answering. “Everything okay here?” Agent Shipley asks. “Yes.” Logan and I say at the same time. Clearing my throat I add, “I have some conditions before we get started.” “Conditions? Such as?” McKenzie says raising an eyebrow before looking at her partner in disbelief. He looks back at both of us and chuckles. “I think you met your match Bec. All right I’ll bite, what conditions?” He says with laughter in his eyes. “I need in writing that Mona goes free. That Logan and my record is expunged. I also want to recruit Colt Kaneko if he agrees.” I say calmly not daring to look at Logan. “Why would we do that?” Logan asks looking angry. “We need people we can trust. We can trust Colt.” I say matter a fact. “Done. We’ll have the paper work ready by tomorrow. As for Colt Kaneko we can’t guarantee that’ll he agree but I think it’s smart to try.” McKenzie says looking at me with approval, almost like pride. I sigh with relief before saying, “I’ll talk to him. I’ll go to LA. School is done in a couple days for the summer. I’ll make up some excuse to my dad about needing to stay for summer classes. Then I’ll come back here in a couple days.” “Good, the sooner we get started the better. You’re both going undercover to try to be a part of this new crew, if they let you in that is. We’ll take care of the details like where you’re staying and getting your car out of impound.” Shipley says nodding in agreement. “So I don’t get a say in this?” Logan says drawing our attention back to him. “I’m sorry Logan but we need you both. Ellie especially, she knows this world already. She’s made quite a name for herself, some crews have been courting her to join.” Shipley says shrugging apologetic. “I’m sorry Logan but that’s just the way it is.” McKenzie says calmly. Logan looks at me clearly exasperated before muttering, “Fine I’m going to LA with you then.” “No.” I snap at him. “And why the hell not?” He snaps back at me. “Because it’s stupid for you to go back to LA. Plus you and Colt don’t have the best history.” I say smugly, knowing I’m right. ‘I can’t handle being around you right now,’ I want to add but don’t.

“I wonder who’s fault was that?” He asks sarcastically rolling his eyes. “Omg it was a kiss and I was upset you with you for lying to me. Plus you guys couldn’t stand each other from the beginning.” I say, frustrated for having to defend myself. I continue on, “You know what I’m not getting into this. We need to learn how to work together again or were screwed.”

“Fine.” Logan says snapping his mouth shut in a hard line. McKenzie and Shipley both look at us with a mixture of amusement and exasperation before Shipley speaks up again, “Well I’ll go to LA with you Ellie. We can divide and conquer. As a team.” “Right.” I say looking at Logan. “Look you guys I know there’s a lot of history here but can you put that aside? Once we’re in, you can’t back out. Our lives will depend on working together.” Shipley says staring down Logan and I. He looks more serious then I’ve seen him in the last couple hours. “Evan is right. We can’t waste any time and we can’t involve you if you can’t work together. We’ve been working on this case for a year.” McKenzie says crossing her arms in front of her chest. I sigh deeply meeting Logan’s eyes heart aching, “We can do this, right Logan?” He softens, “Yea we can.” I turn away.

“Right I…umm…better get going. I’ll see you guys tomorrow Agent Shipley, Agent McKenzie, Logan.” I murmur feeling anxious. “No more Shipley or McKenzie we use our first names from now on. We’re partners plus you’ll blow our cover otherwise.” He says smiling, extending his hand to shake mine. “Partners.” I say smiling shaking his and Rebecca’s hands. Before turning to Logan feeling awkward. He steps towards me like he’s going to caress my face but he drops his hands at the last second. We stare at each other for beat and look away. Rebecca looks at us doubtfully like she doesn’t think we can do this. “We’ll figure it out I promise.” I say giving her my best reassuring smile before walking out of the apartment.

Making the short walk towards campus, I head to my dorm. Once in my room, I throw myself into my bed and sleep dreamless.

The next day goes by in a flash. I’m able to convince my dad that extra credits will be more beneficial in the long run. He begrudgingly agrees after promising not to work myself too hard and visit.

That night after packing a small carry on I relax on my bed when I hear a knock at my door. “Eve, I told you I don’t want to go to the party.” I say through the door from my bed. “It’s me Ellie, can you open the door.” Logan’s voice sounds through the door. I jump off of my bed in surprise. Looking at myself in the mirror, before chastising myself for doing it. I take a deep breath and open the door.

The sight of him leaning on the frame of the door makes me weak in the knees. “Can I come in?” He finally asks clearing his throat. “Right yesss of course!” I feel anxious, worried we’ll start arguing again. I walk to my bed and sit down as he closes the door behind him. I watch him carefully. He looks different, not just his hair and clothes but his body. I gulp. He was always sexy but his muscles are bigger more defined now. Straining under his t-shirt. Once the door is shut and locked he turns to me with a goofy smile. Making me smile in return putting me at ease. “What is it?” I say curious at his reaction. “Oh I just can’t believe I’m here in your dorm. I’ve thought about this a lot.” He says with a chuckle. A wicked glint in his beautiful blue eyes. I start to laugh throwing a pillow at him before saying, “I bet you did!” “Come on Ellie not just for that… I missed you okay?” He says throwing the pillow back at me smiling softly. “Uh huh sure!” I throw more pillows at him with more force, laughing- ensuing an all out pillow war. We continue on like this until all of the pillows have landed on the floor. As I lean back, he grabs one last pillow above my head and I find myself under him. His hard body is pressed into mine. His gaze lands on me.

Life starts moving in slow motion.

Hands wrapped around my wrists, his eyes connect with mine as he brings my hands above my head. He’s being gentle enough that I could break free if I wanted to, but the thing is- I don’t.

Brushing a strand of hair from my face, he whispers softly “I really did miss you.” “I missed you too.” I say softly.

″Yea?” he leans back, eyes vulnerable.

“Yea, more then you’ll ever know.” I whisper softly.

“Show me Ellie, show me how much.” He says nuzzling against my neck.

I lick my lips and run them against his jawline.

I feel him shudder against me, it eggs me on and I slowly kiss my way to his lips.

His breath hitches before I roughly press my lips against his. Logan moans, deepening our kiss.

Our tongues finding each other and I feel myself melt. I bite his lip and suck it, making him pant my name. I lose myself to him as our lips collide again.

Then just as suddenly as it began, it ends.

He releases my hands and moves his body off of mine. I feel the crushing disappointment at the sudden change of mood. I feel awkward at it. Now is not the time to be hashing out your feelings here, we have a job to do. Plain and simple. “So the reason I came here was to ask you,” he clears his throat continuing on, “Is there really is no way to talk you out of this?” He asks, his eyes now boring into mine. “Logan.” I murmur. “No, listen to me,” he takes my hands in his, holding onto them tight. “Is there anyway I can convince you not to do this?” “You know that there isn’t, you said so yourself, there’s no other way. If this is really about us, then we need to do it together. Please understand that.” I plead, holding his hands tight. Sighing he grips my hands before saying, “I understand Ellie. Maybe you’re not so different after all.” “Maybe.” I whisper softly. “I should get going. I’ll see you tomorrow.” He stands abruptly making his way to the door. “Aren’t you going to tell me what’s been going on in the last year with you? How did you get talked into this?” I say urgently, I need to know. “What’s to tell Ellie? We walked away from each other. I vowed to let you go and I didn’t.” He shrugs look away. “Stop it. Don’t be like this.” I say. “Like what?” He asks looking back at me. “Hot and cold. One minute you tell me you missed me, the next you push me away. I can’t do this if you’re like this. We’re going to fail.” I say getting closer to him. “I’m sorry. I know I’m not making this easy for anybody. It’s just so much, I thought I’d say and now in front of you. I just can’t. I’m not ready.” He whispers looking away. I take my hands, putting them on his face, gently forcing him to look at me again before saying, “I get it, we don’t have to do this now. Let’s focus on the case, we’ll work the rest out.” “I can do that.” He says a small smile on his face. “Good.” I smile back. “I really should go though, you’re going to have a big day tomorrow before your flight. Crash course in undercover can be overwhelming, believe me.” He says chucking. “Ok I’ll see you tomorrow, but you’re not off the hook.” I say in a warning tone, poking him in the chest with my finger.” He gently grabs my hand that’s at his chest. “I wouldn’t dream that I would be.” He says laughing, pulling me into a hug. We pull apart after a minute and smile at each other as he gets up to leave. “Should I be worried about the crash course?” I ask feeling nervous. “You’re great at everything troublemaker, I’m sure this won’t be the exception.” He says smiling confidently at me. It brings the sparks of old memories into mind. Past jobs and nights spent in his car... learning to drive, among other things. They fill me with hope because despite it all we make a great team.

We bid good bye to each other and I slide into bed. The smell of his cologne lulls me to sleep. The memories of driving lessons, kisses and his callused hands making me his filling my mind.

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Logan- What happens when fate brings you back together?

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Was It Real or Just For Show

Book: ROD

Pairing: Logan X MC, Colt X MC

Rating: PG-13

Note: I needed to write this chapter to sort things out a bit before whatever happens next chapter for my confused MC Gabi. The entirety of this chapter is contained in Ride or Die Chapter 10, and most of the dialogue comes directly from the book. I did make some additions and slight changes to fit my MC Gabi’s scenario. I played through twice to dance with both Logan and Colt at the rave. Since they only allow you to pick one in the book, I wove in her dancing with both and how I envision that could have played out.

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Gabi smiles proudly after impressing Kaneko with her knowledge if nitrous tanks. He's offered her one for her car to assist with the the stadium job the next day and has agreed to teach her how to use it. "Straight A's in chemistry thanks to Ms. Mitsalas."

Teppei Kaneko grins back at her. "I can see why my boy's taken a liking to you."

"He has?" Gabi is taken aback. She knows full well that Colt is into her, but she hadn't known anyone else had a clue. She is still with Logan and only Logan as far as everyone else is concerned, and she and Colt have been careful not to do anything in front of others that would make them suspicious. If Kaneko knows, Colt must have said something, so she risks telling the truth. "I've taken a liking to him too. He's smart. And ambitious. You should be proud of him."

Kaneko works in silence as if carefully considering his response before answering. "I am."

They get in her car and and Teppei takes Gabi to a spot he used to take Colt to practice, so the conversation naturally shifts to him. She's trying not to pry too much, but she cares for Colt, and all he wants is his father's approval. "Why'd he get into motorcycles?" Gabi asks thinking the question is innocent enough

"I think he wanted his own personal rebellion against me." Kaneko frowns. "He was getting more and interested in my life...and I fought against it. I didn't want him to end up like me. I didn't choose this life for myself. I was raised in this life. So was my father. I just wanted Colt to choose his own path."

“You say you wanted him to choose his own path, but you’re trying to stop him from doing just that.” She’s getting bold calling him out like this, but she feels an odd level of comfort with him already, and if anyone knows what it’s like to have a father try to control their path in life, it’s her.

“Perhaps you’re right.” Kaneko sighs heavily. “Perhaps I was always lying to myself. I did want to choose for him. And now, despite all my efforts, he’s here. Living the life I feared most. The worst part is...I’m happy about it.”

“You missed him. That’s why you bonded so closely with Logan. He was a replacement. Someone you could mentor and guide...but at the end of the day...” Gabi doesn’t want to finish the sentence out loud, but she doesn’t have to.

“At the end of the day, Logan is not my son. So if something happened to him...I could live with myself,” Kaneko admits the brutal truth Gabi already knew - what Logan himself always knew and tried to tell her, even though Gabi had hoped for Logan’s sake he meant more to Kaneko.

Although Gabi feels for Logan, she still understands the stronger bond between father and son, and she cares for Colt too. “You don’t have to keep this up. You can change your mind. I know you’ve enjoyed having him back and you’d feel guilty about pushing him away now. But you still can. You can make him leave, go back to his mom, to college... It’s not too late to save him from this.”

Kaneko stares out the window, a somber look upon his face. “I wish you were right but as I said...his die is cast.”

There it is again. That same phrase. “His die is cast.” The first time Kaneko had said it, Gabi thought it was just some expression a mechanic would use, but for him to repeat it seems significant. It’s not just saying Colt has made his choice, but that his path is set with no going back. She can’t think of anything thus far that he’s done that he can’t come back from, and now she’s worried about what she doesn’t know. She tries to push it out of her mind for the remainder of the lesson and has already gotten back to worrying about tomorrow’s task by the time they return and she sneaks back into bed.

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Gabi can’t believe she’s going to a rave, but she also can’t believe she drove the getaway car through the narrow tunnels of Badger Stadium undetected either. Attending an illegal dance party is one of the least risky things she’s done lately and the crew deserves to celebrate. So what if she can’t dance? She did alright the first time she danced with Logan, but that’s a whole other issue. Who’s going to be her dance partner tonight? That’s a question for later as she wiggles into the bright orange fishnet stocks, cutoff pink jean shorts, and zip-up neon green bustier top. It is ridiculously bright and way more revealing than she’s used to, but it's fitting for the occasion and at the risk of being too vain, she thinks she actually looks kind of hot in it.

Gabi makes her way downstairs to unveil her new look. “Okay, I’m ready!”

Colt coughs awkwardly like he’s forgotten how to breathe. “Er, uh...Took you long enough.” It’s a typical response from Colt that might not alarm anyone else, but the look on his face gives him away.

Unsurprisingly, Logan is more composed. “Perfect. You’re gonna love this place, Gabi.” She almost prefers Colt fumbling to pretend he’s not affected over any praise Logan could offer.

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The area surrounding the rave is nondescript and less than desirable, but Gabi supposes that’s the point. After heading through a pitch black entryway and wondering if she’s being led astray, it opens up into a huge warehouse filled with people dancing to upbeat music. The neon graffiti on the walls is illuminated by the black light and her clothing is glowing just as bright. She’s a little intimidated at first, so she follows Toby’s lead and joins him jumping around on the dancefloor. Not to be upstaged, Salazar displays his surprisingly graceful moves and the whole crew laughs and applauds. Gabi points out a guy who appears to have eyes for Toby, so Toby wastes no time in introducing himself.

Her dance partner gone, Gabi looks to Colt and then Logan wondering what she should do. She wants to dance with both and neither at the same time, afraid of what the other may think. Colt’s wrapped up in conversation with Ximena and Salazar while Mona has just left Logan to go grab a drink. Seem’s her decision has been made for her.

Gabi makes her way over to Logan and nudges him on the shoulder. “Dance with me Logan?”

Logan smirks. “You know you don’t have to ask me twice.” He takes Gabi by the hand and guides her to the middle of the floor. He pulls her close and they easily move together in sync with the music. “Just like we practiced back at the sideshow, right?”

“I’ve still got those moves.” She still barely knows what she’s doing, but with Logan taking the lead she doesn’t have to. As they sway to the beat she thinks back to their conversation in the car, just before Colt had interrupted to give them the go ahead for the job. “Hey..what was it you wanted to tell me?”

“What do you mean?” Logan is oblivious or at least pretends to be.

“Before the stadium job. You said you wanted to get something off your chest.”

“Oh, yeah! I, uh...can’t remember. Today’s been a blur.” He continues dancing but seems distracted.

The way Logan started talking in the car, there’s no way he would have just forgotten by now and the reasons why he won’t tell her leave Gabi unsettled. “What’s going on with you tonight?”

He grips her hips a little tighter. “You ever feel like things are..almost perfect, but not quite? And you know you should be happy and in the moment, but you can’t stop thinking that something’s wrong?”

“....I feel that way a lot. I’ve never been able to get everything lined up just right. There’s always been something eating at me.” Like right now and the fact that she’s falling fast for Colt and is afraid to admit to herself she could like him more than Logan.

“Exactly.” Logan smiles softly at her.

“Do you think we ever will? Feel perfect I mean?” Gabi contemplates out loud, not necessarily looking for an answer.

“I hope I let myself feel that way one day. But I don’t think I’ll ever get closer than this moment, with you in my arms.” His words feel bittersweet, and she’s not sure if that’s her fault or his.

Gabi doesn’t want to worry about any of it at this moment. She run her fingers through Logan’s hair and almost loses herself in his eyes. “Stop thinking about it. Better yet, stop thinking altogether.” She swings her hips, and Logan presses finger to her waist bringing body closer so she’s flush against him. “That’s better just how I like you.”

Logan’s gaze never falters. “You were incredible today, you know that right?” His lips are so close, inviting her in and she forgets that Colt could be watching.

“I do now.” She presses her lips to his, and he clings to Gabi and kisses her like he can’t breathe without her.

Logan pulls back and tenderly brushes a wisp of hair from her forehead. “This can’t be right. I’m not this lucky in life.”

Her heart sinks, knowing at some point she’s going to have to choose, but she tries not to let on. “You deserve everything you want, Logan.”

“All I want right now is you.” He holds holds her to his chest like it might be his last chance. She wonders if deep down he knows.

They make their way back to the others and Gabi avoids looking Colt in the eyes. She doesn’t want to see the disappointment on his face, or even worse, if there isn’t any at all. Logan keeps looking for Gabi any time she’s out of view, like he’s terrified she’ll disappear.

Gabi grabs his hand and squeezes. “I’m not going anywhere. Have fun!” She feels bad because she’s wishing he’d go off and have fun on his own so she’d have a chance to talk to Colt.

“I’ll try.” Logan gives a half-hearted smile.

Gabi’s prayers are answered when Ximena drags Logan to the dance floor with her and Mona only moments later. He tries to make Gabi come too, but she convinces him she needs a breather.

She turns to look for Colt, but he’s already there. “I thought your shadow would never leave your side.”

“Well I’m free now.” Gabi motions to the dancefloor. “Come on Colt”

Colt hesitates and looks over at the rest of the crew. “I...don’t really dance.”

“Me neither! Now, come on!” Gabi doesn’t give him much of a choice, lacing her fingers through his and leading him to the opposite side of the room and out of the crew’s sight.

“Been waiting to get you to myself all day.” Colt wraps an arm around Gabi’s waist and pulls her close. He lifts a finger to her chin and tilts her face up to look at him. “Like this, follow me.”

“I thought you didn’t know how to dance?”

Colt shrugs. “I didn’t say I can’t, I just said I don’t.”

“I’m starting to think you might like me.” Gabi teases.

“I don’t like anybody,” Colts insists but he’s uncharacteristically all smiles. He lightly touches her waist and Gabi wraps her arms around his shoulders in response, dancing as close to him as she can get. Colt pushes her away with beat and pulls her back so she’s close enough to feel his breath on her lips. “Is Logan watching?”

“You don’t want him to see us?”

Colt smirks “Is it bad that part of me does?”

She doesn’t want to admit that maybe part of her does too, to force everything out in the open so she has to make her choice. “I’m not a possession for you two to fight over, Colt. I’m a person.” She feels hypocritical saying this because she’s kind of playing them both herself, but at least Colt knows the score.

“You’re far more than that, Gabi,” he responds sincerely, caching her off guard.

Her heart flutters in her chest, and she’s far more affected than she wants to be so she deflects. “So, your plan worked. I think you really impressed your dad today.”

“Did I impress you?” He cleverly brings it back to her again.

She’s enamored of everything he does lately, seeing him use his intelligence and take charge, but she can’t let it get to his head. “It takes more than that to impress me.”

“Good.” A smile tugs at Colt’s lips. Maybe he sees through her bluff, or maybe it's just that he’s always valued her for who she is. He knows she’s smart and he’s not threatened by it, and he respects her conviction. He holds her close enough she can feel his body heat. She gives into the feeling and grinds her hips against his. “I thought you didn’t know how to dance.”

“It’s like Ximena said. I’m doing what feels good.” And god does he feel good.

Colt leans in again until his lips are only a breath away. “Then you should keep doing what feels good.”

It’s all the invitation she needs. Gabi pushes her hand through Colt’s hair, and kisses him hard. Colt matches her intensity, and they make out on the dance floor like they’ve forgotten anyone else is around until they both need to come up for air.

Colt doesn’t go far, his lips still close enough to whisper in her ear. “You’re my driver forever, you know that, right?”

The butterflies in her stomach return. Coming from Colt this is a good as a proclamation of love. “Promise?” Gabi blinks up at him through her eyelashes. Colt doesn’t answer but kisses her deeply again. They dance as long as they can before raising too many questions and then rejoin the rest of the crew.

Logan sees them walk up together, but doesn’t ask any questions. He hovers by her like he had before, like he doesn’t want to let her out of his sight again. Somehow Colt finds a way to stay close to her too the rest of the night, sneaking in touches when he thinks no one's watching. Gabi excuses herself to use the restroom and Colt not so coincidentally needs to go at the same time. Down the hallway and out of view, he pushes her up against the wall and crashes his lips against hers, working his way down her neck before regaining his self control and they return like nothing happened.

Gabi finds herself alone with Ximena as the night comes to a close and the guys are rounding up Mona and Salazar. “So...there’s something between you and Colt, huh?”

Apparently they weren’t as discreet as they thought. If Ximena noticed, Logan very well may have too. “What?” Gabi tries to shrug it off. “Oh, I don’t know...He’s very...complicated.”

“That wasn’t a ‘no’,” Ximena astutely observes.

“No, no it wasn’t,” Gabi sighs. “But there’s still something between me and Logan too. You probably think I’m a horrible person.”

“Oh Gabi,” Ximena wraps her arm around Gabi’s shoulder. “I was your age once too. I get it, and I’m not judging you, but from what I can see, they’ve both fallen hard for you. Take whatever time you need, but make sure you get it right.”

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Gabi crashes as soon as they get back but bolts awake only a few hours later hearing a loud crash from the garage. She hurries downstairs to see toolboxes and equipment everywhere before she notices Logan and Colt pummeling each other.

“Lying...son-of-a...” Logan takes another swing at Colt.

“I’m not gonna...let you...ruin this for us!” Colt throws logan into the side of car and charges at him to throw another punch. Logan ducks and then hits colt in the jaw.

“Will you two stop it already?” Gabi yells.

They pause mid fight, but neither lets go of the other.

“Gabi...Gabi wait.” Logan pleads. He’s afraid she might run out of there, and he’s right. They release each other and Colt straightens his jacket.

Gabi looks back and forth between the two of them and hopes the disappointment is evident in her eyes. “What is this? Is this about me?”

Logan hesitates. “...Yes.”

“You’re out of control, Logan.” Colt hisses.

“No, you’re the one who’s out of control. And you’ve put us all in danger. You owe Gabi the truth!” Logan asserts angrily.

Gabi flashes back to her conversation with Kaneko. Does he know what Colt’s hiding, and is that what he meant by his die being cast?

Colt scoffs. “You really wanna go there? Don’t you think you’re the one who owes Gabi the truth?” Logan’s face suddenly drains of color, and the pit in Gabi’s stomach grows. “Don’t you think she deserves to know how you tricked her?”

Gabi can’t begin to comprehend what’s happening here. She thought they were just fighting over her, but there must be more to it. “...Tricked me?”

Colt wipes blood from lip and shakes his head in disgust. “Haven’t you ever asked yourself about how you met Logan that day? Why a guy like him would even look twice at a girl like you?”

Colt’s words sting, and she doesn’t know if that’s a slight at her or if he’s just trying to make a point. Hurt, anger, confusion. She doesn’t know what to feel and who to direct it at. They are both claiming the other has something to hide, but Logan is in the spotlight now. “I don’t understand. Logan, what is he saying?”

Logan stands motionless, eyes on the floor.

With Logan unwilling to speak, Colt doesn’t hesitate to chime in. “He knew. The whole time. He knew your dad was the cop investigating us. The entire reason he even spoke to you was because my father told him to.”

Gabi’’s blood runs cold, tears of hurt and anger welling in her eyes. “No...”

“I mean, come on! Who do you think called the cops on that house party? He did it so you’d owe him! So you’d trust him!”

“Logan? Please tell me this isn’t true...” Logan again fails to be able to speak or defend himself. “You can’t, can you?”

Logan finally looks Gabi in the eyes, his face expressionless. “No...I can’t.”

She can’t think, can’t breathe, and doesn’t know who to trust. All she can think to do is run.

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lovehugsandcandy · 5 years

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Eight Days a Week, Eight Seconds a Kiss (Part 3) (Colt x MC)

A/N: Sorry, y’all. I was writing other things and having a rough week and I definitely didn’t forget about the series, but it was on the back burner (thanks for those who asked about it, it makes me feel so touched!). But now we back! With wingman Colt, oblivious Ellie, and day three of JUST KISS DAMMIT!

Pairing: Colt x MC, ROD

Length: 2320 words

Rating: PG-13 (Swearing, probably, because I swear a lot.)

Summary: Ellie wants to live her life to the fullest, starting with her first kiss. She just needs a little encouragement.

Monday: I Was Young and I was Selfish

Ellie pulled into the shop, driving her very own freaking car, through the bay doors, carrying her very own license, smiling ear-to-ear. This was amazing! Her time on the bus was over!

She jumped out, spring in her step, and made it five steps before almost walking straight into Logan. “Oof.”

He caught her, strong hands wrapped around her forearms. “Hi, troublemaker.”

She looked up and flushed. He really was impossibly handsome; she definitely wouldn’t mind if he was her first kiss. Maybe Colt was right and she was really getting in her own way. She had just started daydreaming about how soft his lips would be and what it would actually be like to kiss someone when he interrupted her.

“Uhhh...Ellie?”

She snapped to attention. “Yeah?”

“Your car is rolling away.”

She turned and froze. Her car was, indeed, moving, rolling down the slight incline of the shop, headed towards a giant toolbox and the lanky figure digging through shelves in. She started to sprint but knew she wasn’t going to make it in time.

“Toby, MOVE!”

Toby looked up just in time to dive out of the way and her car rolled right into a toolbox. Luckily, it wasn’t going fast, but still; the boom of the collision made her wince, as did the three wrenches that rained down onto her hood.

“Oops....”

Toby stood up, brushing himself off dramatically. “I’m ok! I’m ok!” His grin turned to a frown as he looked at her car. “It’s ok! I can fix that! Just the bumper. And a few dents here. And here.” He caressed the paint with a frown.

“I am so sorry! I could have hurt you.”

“No worries!” He squatted to look over her bumper. “It actually doesn’t look bad at all.”

Logan walked up behind her, putting a comforting hand on her shoulder. “Did you put the e-brake on?”

“Apparently not.” She put her head in her hands.

Logan laughed. “Hey, troublemaker, don’t worry about it. No harm, no foul.” Ellie could feel the eyes of the entire crew on her and her face burned. He pulled her into a hug, squeezing her tight before letting go. It made her feel marginally better, though her cheeks were still hot. “Give me your keys. I’ll move it and start fixing it up with Toby.”

“You’re the best.” With a wan smile, she turned to head into the shop.

I am such an idiot.

Head down, she didn’t notice where she was going until she felt someone grab her wrist. She looked up and groaned, holding up a hand. “Stop. Don’t say anything. I don’t want to hear whatever insult you have up your sleeve.” Colt studied her silently, so she continued. “I know, I obviously don’t belong here, I am shooting myself in the foot, blah blah, I don’t need to hear it from you.”

“I wasn’t-”

“Yes, you were.” She rubbed her temple, headache already starting to form. I can’t believe I crashed my car already.

“Come on. Let’s get out of here.”

“What?” Ellie sighed, rubbing her hands over her face. “What, I can’t stay here and embarrass myself anymore?”

“As great as that is for my personal amusement, no.” Colt stood, clutching a spare helmet, unsnapping it and handing it over. “Come on.”

“Are you sure?”

He rolled his eyes. “I don’t know if that look is because you don’t think I can refrain from kicking you when you’re down or because you don’t trust me to get you there safely, but I don’t care. Come on.”

She sighed and took the helmet, looking up at him as he tightened the strap and then brushed her hair away from her neck. “If you kill me....”

“You can haunt the garage all you want. Let’s go.”

~~~~~

Once they stopped, she realized that she could definitely see the appeal. On a motorcycle, everything was more real, the pavement racing by, the air whipping around, the roar of the engine underneath her. She didn’t think she could be converted away from her car, but she could see why Colt liked it as much as he did.

They were outside some bar and Ellie looked around, anxiously, trying to smooth down her hair as much as she could. “Where are we?”

Colt took her helmet from her and put it under his arm. “Just a dive. I was going to head up to the cliff but then I realized that the cliff was not conducive to meeting our two objectives.”

“What do you mean, two objectives?”

“Stop your moping and get you your kiss. Duh.” He held the door open for her and followed her into the dark. The dingy hallway opened up into a bar, exactly as dark and forbidding as it looked from the outside.

There were only a few other patrons here; Ellie would have guessed it was a quiet night but, judging by the exterior of the building and the dinginess of the room, all nights were quiet nights here. At least they could spread out. “Colt, why are we at a bar?”

He shrugged, sitting at a bar stool, putting their helmets on the bar next to him. “I figured a drink would loosen you up.” He laughed when he caught the look on her face. “Relax, relax. It has really good fries and no ones asks any questions.”

“Apparently....” She couldn’t help but look around again. Was it still legal to smoke in bars? She didn’t think so. “How do you know about this place?”

He laughed, bitterly. “What, did you think my parents would ever step foot in a Chuck E. Cheese’s?”

She watched him as he turned to order to a soda and loaded fries from the bartender; what must it have been like, growing up with Kaneko as a father? And Colt never mentioned his mother.

“What do you want to drink?”

“Huh?” Ellie looked up to see both Colt and the bartender staring at her. “Sorry, a soda, please.”

She flushed as Colt raised an eyebrow at her. “You still thinking about your car? Toby will make it just like new, you know.”

“I just feel stupid.”

“You think that’s the worst thing to happen in that shop? Ha.” He tilted his head, thinking. “Once, we were doing electrical work on the lifts and something shorted, dropping two cars straight down, 8 feet to the pavement. I was sweeping glass out of the corners for weeks!”

Ellie chuckled despite herself.

“This other time, Toby had it in his head that he could rig up a NOS system to work both in drive and reverse. If you look closely at my dad’s office, there are still burn marks from when that exploded.”

“Oh crap.”

“But the worst. The WORST.” Colt leaned over the bar, edging closer, eyes sparkling. “Mona was hooking up with this psycho, this absolute nutcase, and, when she finally smartened up and called it off, this girl spray painted the entire exterior of the garage, all f-bomb this and c-word that, with the evil eye thrown in for good measure, all hot pink like your car. My dad flipped his shit.”

Ellie started giggling and could only laugh harder when Colt threw a napkin at her.

“Not funny! Who do you think had to clean it all up?”

She laughed, playing with her straw; when she looked up again, he was watching her. “Colt? Thank you.”

“Yeah, whatever, don’t-”

“Seriously. Thank you.” She caught his eye, holding it, as the bartender worked behind the bar and as the crappy music filled the room and as she wondered why on earth he was actually being so nice to her.

He coughed, breaking the spell, and rubbed the back of his neck. “Don’t thank me yet. Still working on that kiss. Hmmm....slim pickings.” He looked around the bar until his eyes lit up. “How about six o’clock, by the jukebox?”

She groaned. “Are you seriously picking the worst people in the world?” She watched the man stuff another dip of tobacco into this mouth.

“I got the demographic right this time, at least.” He looked around halfheartedly, sipping his soda before focusing on her again. “You know, why are you so hung up on this? It’s like eight seconds out of your life! Why are you so desperate for it to happen?”

Ellie rested her chin on a hand. She never should have said anything to Colt, of all people. “I guess it’s what it represents. I never did anything except what my dad wanted me to do and I think I missed out, on a lot, you know?”

“Your dad sounds like he’s trying to protect you. I mean, you’re sitting at a dive bar, on a school night, trying to kiss someone you don’t even know.”

She rolled her eyes. “Out of all the trouble you and the crew get into, this is what you’re worried about?”

Colt’s eyes flashed, trailing down her face. “If I were your old man, I would be very worried about it.”

Ellie swallowed, grateful for the fries that arrived between them. She wasn’t quite sure what he meant, but she didn’t think she was brave enough to ask. “I don’t know...Maybe he’s going about it the wrong way.”

“He’s doing it out of love, you know.” Colt caught her eye meaningfully. “It sounds like he thinks you’re God’s gift to earth. But it also sounds like he needs to respect who you really are.”

“Yeah.” She studied his face, thinking. “Colt, you know your dad-”

“Stop.” He rubbed his temples. “You don’t even know him.”

“He seems protective of you too.”

Colt looked at her, hands gripping the bar, teeth gnawing his lower lip. “My pop’s never been protective of anyone or anything. Ever.”

She raised an eyebrow at him, watching him eat. “You know, I didn’t think you would care so much about what someone thought of you.”

“I don’t.”

“Then why do you let your dad’s opinion of you rule your life?”

He stopped chewing, mid bite, to gape at her. “Are you seriously giving me family advice? You?!?”

“You know I’m right. You may hate the source, but you know I’m right.”

“Easier said than done.” He looked down at the bar.

“What isn’t?”

He looked over at her, considering her for so long she started to feel uneasy, fidgeting in her seat. He shook his head as the bartender walked over to take their plates, glancing between the two of them. “You know, I don’t mean to intrude, but I heard you were looking for someone willing to kiss you.” He looked meaningfully at Ellie. “I’m single.”

Ellie froze, caught in his gaze. He was cute, surprisingly, for the bar, a little more clean-cut than she was typically attracted to but definitely handsome, especially with the smile he was throwing her way.

Next to her, Colt choked on his drink, sputtering as both she and the bartender gawked. Once he could breathe again, before she could even think of a response, Colt jumped in, voice rough, bar stool dragging across the floor as he stood. “No. We’re actually leaving.”

Ellie stared at him in surprise, watching as he threw some money on the bar, grabbed the helmets, and turned on his heel. Ellie smiled apologetically at the bartender, shrugging, before following, heading out into the warm night.

“The hell, Colt?”

He shrugged. “I thought you wanted them to think you were tolerable.”

“Yeah?”

“Pretty boy didn’t even know you.”

“He would tolerate me enough to kiss me! And neither did chewing tobacco guy!”

Colt stopped next to the bike, leaning over it with a dramatic sigh. “Fine! Just go back in there!”

Ellie stared at him, the crease between his eyebrows, his eyes fixed past her, staring into the distance, avoiding her eyes. She sighed. “You know, you’re right.”

“No shit.”

She rolled her eyes but continued. “You are. I want it to be real, not just some rando you find for me.” She took a deep breath. “So I have a request, an addition to the deal. I want them to think I’m attractive.”

“Wait, what?” Colt did a double take. “What?”

Ellie stared him down, hands on her hips. “I want them to think I’m attractive. Do you think that will be a problem?”

Colt wisely paused before saying anything. Ellie waited, eyes sharp, waiting for the insult. However, she was surprised when he opened his mouth to speak. “I am just commenting, with no ulterior motive, not insinuating anything so stop looking so exasperated, Christ...it seems like you are adding caveats after the fact. I thought they only had to think you were tolerable?”

“Someone said it was a low bar. Maybe I am trying to raise my standards a little.”

He looked at her and she was taken aback; instead of the usual insolent smirk or fixed glare, he was considering her, eyes almost soft, voice even softer. “Maybe you should.” He looked like he wanted to say more, to continue, but he paused, just looking at her. “Fine. Fine. They will think you are tolerable and attractive. Anything else?”

“Nope. That’s it.” She smiled. She didn’t know why he agreed to help her but at least he wasn’t being a total ass about it. “Thanks for taking me out tonight. I needed it.”

Colt looked away. “Don’t mention it.”

“No, that was really-”

“Stop.” He put up his hand. “Seriously. I told you. I don’t want you to mention it. To anyone. Including me.”

She blinked, watching him turn and put his helmet on, bathed in the streetlight, before he turned and handed her the spare helmet. Their fingers brushed as she took it, yet another thing from tonight that she resolutely was not going to think about.

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Fast cars & Freedom: who do you love? (11/?)

Ok.. it took me longer to get this done than I liked but here it is... A second paternity test, and the guys lay it on thr table. What will Ellie do now? Catch up HERE, also if you would like to be added to the tags, drop a line.

Pairings: Logan x Ellie, Colt x Ellie

Raiting: Mature. Ccontains nsfw situations.

“Seriously, you're fucking with me right?” Ellie snapped. “I wish I was Ellie, but we have to retest.” Logan sighed. “Shit, my phone. I need to go get my phone.” she shot up running for the door. Of course something like this would happen, that was just her luck. Her thoughts now on Colt, who she was sure was flipping out. She got to her purse grabbing her phone. 17 missed calls she thought, all from Colt, except 1 that was the Drs office. As if on cue her phone started buzzing in her hand. It was Colt.

E: Colt? Whats going on?

C: Where the hell have you been ellie? I've been calling you non stop.

E: we're at the track with Logan.

C: Did you get the call from the Dr? He says we can be re tested today but we have to be there by 4.

Ellie looks down at her phone

E: 4? Its 3:30 Colt. And that's all the way across town in traffic. How are we supposed to get there by then?

C: Looks like you or Logan are going to have to channel your criminal driving. I'm on my way to the office, I'll see you there.

Logan and Stacie ran up, her dad, sally and Luca joining them. “Whats going on?” Logan questioned. “That was Colt. The Doctor said we can be re tested today, but we have to be there by 4.” Logans eyes went wide as he took note of the time. “I can get us there.” Logan stated confidently “lets go.”

Ellie asked Stacie to take her car and meet them at the office, her dad and Sallie heading home. Ellie hooked Lucas car seat in Logan's car quickly and they set out for the office. 20 minutes to go, the panic starting to set in.

Logan grabbed her hand, trying to calm her down. “You ok back there Luca?” he shouted back checking on Luca.

“This is fun!” Luca squealed, Ellie shook her head, Logan just chuckled. She definitely had speed in her blood, that's for sure.

They pulled up to the office with five minutes to spare. Colt stood next to his bike. “I was afraid you weren't going to make it.” he gave Logan a cocky smirk. “Come on Kaneko, you know better than that.”

Ellie grabbed Luca from her car seat, she immediately ran to Colt throwing her arms out. “Hey princess, I missed you.” he wrapped her in a hug as he lifted her off the ground.

They walked into the building, being taken right into the back. Logan and Colt going first. Colt held Luca while they swabbed her mouth. The doctor told them they would be sending it off for testing right away, the new lab turnaround was 2 to 4 weeks for dna testing, however with the amount of labs that would be flooding in it could take longer.

They walked out of the office finding Stacie waiting for them with Ellies car. Luca was complaining she was hungry so they decided to get something to eat. Colt had a customer picking up a car who had a custom job done that he had to be there for, so Ellie said she would catch up with him later that week. Ellie dropped stacie off at work and headed to meet Logan at the restaurant. He already had a table waiting for them when they arrived.

After ordering and finally eating, Luca was content playing on Ellies phone. “Ellie I need to talk to you about something important.” She could sense the seriousness in his tone.

“Ok, but quietly please.” she nodded towards Luca.

“Ellie, i'm pretty sure you know how I feel about you. You were the first and only girl I ever loved. But being with you and luca these past few weeks, well it made me realize that I want a family. I'm ready to settle down.” She took a deep breath, she wasn't expecting that. “Logan” She let out a long sigh. “I dont think thats a good idea right now.”

“I know, with the divorce and all. But really Ellie, I'm not getting any younger. I'm willing to wait, but.” He hesitated. Ellie reached out giving his hand a squeeze “I understand Logan. I do not want you to put your life on pause because I'm indecisive. If someone comes along that you think could lead somewhere, see how it goes.”

Logan sat there contemplating her words. “Thanks Ellie.” he finally spoke.

After they paid for their meal, Ellie took Luca home. She walked through the front door holding her sleeping child. Her dad and sally were sitting on the couch watching a movie, laughing and enjoying each other. “Hey kiddo. Someone passed out huh?” Frank looked up from the tv screen. “Hey guys. Yep long day. I'm gonna put her in bed and crash myself. Back to work tomorrow.” She said goodnight, put Luca to bed and headed there herself.

She put on her pajamas, and climbed into bed. She thought of her dad and Sally sitting on the couch, just enjoying being with each other. Her dad was happy, it was written all over his face and it made her happy for him. She thought about what Logan said at dinner, he was ready to settle down, but was she? She was divorcing Colt, was it fair to jump into something with Logan? Did she want to be with Logan or did she want Colt? She wasn't sure what she wanted that much was obvious, the thought of settling down, expanding her family and spending the rest of her life with someone who loved her and treated her well was all she ever dreamed of. She closed her eyes trying to escape her thoughts, after tossing and turning for a few hours she finally fell asleep.

A a few days had gone by, she had just got off work when he phone rang, Darnells name flashed across the screen.

“Hello.” she answered. “Hey Ellie, its Darnell. I just wanted to let you know that Judge Mitchell scheduled a date for the hearing.” Ellies blood ran cold, it was one thing to file but another that it was actually happening. “oh, ok. Um when is it?

“The Thursday before labor day.” Ellie went silent, her heart pounding in her chest. “Thats. That's two weeks away.”

“Yes. She wanted to get it in before the holiday. It'll be done soon. Have a good weekend Ellie.”

“Yeah, you too Darrell.” Ellie hung up the phone, tears now falling. The Realization that Colt would be served soon hitting her like a ton of bricks. She calmed herself down enough to call her dad and make sure Luca was ok a little longer with him.

She started her car and made that all to familiar drive. She pulled up, trying her best to calm her nerves as she exited the car and walked through the open bay door.

“Were closed.” She heard a voice shout from under a car. “I'm not her for that.” she spoke, her voice carrying throughout the shop. Colt rolled out from under the car, standing up quickly. “Hey. What are you doing her? Is Luca ok?” he wiped his greasy hands off, tossing the rag down on a nearby table.

“She fine. I came because I need to tell you something.” Colt arched his brow “Those words are never good.”

“Darnell called, the divorce has been scheduled.” she watched the expression on Colts face change to curiosity to a mixture between hurt and anger. “When.” His tone colt and flat.

“Two weeks.” She looked to the floor. This was what she wanted, so why was it so damn hard to tell him?

“Two weeks?!” he shouted. He turned grabbing a tool and chucking it across the room. “Fuck!” He screamed, Ellie flinching. “I'm sorry Colt.” she squeaked out. His eyes widening as he turned to face her. “Oh you're sorry? You don't seem sorry to me Ellie. You didn't even give me a fucking chance. All I wanted was to be a family. You, me and Luca,” he ran his hands through his hair. “You just don't understand do you? I love you Ellie, I never stopped. Everything I did, was for you. The house, this garage, everything!”

“Colt I, I don't know what to say.” She was at a loss for words.

“I didn't want to be my dad. I wanted Luca to have both parents, together. Now that will never happen.”

“Colt, we don't know that she's yours.” She regretted saying as soon as it left her mouth. It was like adding salt to the wound.

“Shes mine. I know in my heart she's mine, and even if she wasn't..” He shook his head. “You know what. You can have it all, everything. The house, the garage, all the money. All I want in this life is to be able to take care of you, and Luca. And if you won't let me do it at your side, take everything.” he threw his hands up in the air, walking away.

“Colt.” she hollered after “Colt!” she followed him into to small apartment that used to be logan's loft. “I can't see you right now Ellie. I think we probably should keep our distance until i cool down.” Colt had his back to her. Hands splayed out on the counter, his breathing heavy. He was upset, very upset. “But the zoo, and Lucas first day of school.” She whimpered, holding back tears.

“I'll be there, I wouldn't miss that for her. I will be cordial to you. But I won't be ok with it, I never will.”

Ellie hung her head in defeat, walking down the steps and then to her car. Colts words ringing in her ears. She grasped the steering wheel with a white knuckle grip, the tears streaming down her cheeks. She knew telling him was going to be rough, but she wasn't expecting the overload of emotions that came with it. She thought back to the day they took the brotherhood down.

****

She walked up to her house, Colt had a loose end to tie up with Toby and ximena. The crew skipping town, laying low from the FBI. She crossed the front yard when Logan slid out of the shadows. “Logan? What are you doing here? I thought you left town.” her eyes darted around, assessing her surroundings. “I am, but I needed to see you first.” he came closer, closing the distance between them. “Look Ellie, I had every intention to apologize for dragging you into this. But now that I'm here, i'm not sorry.”

“You're not?” She looked at him confused.

“No,” He shook his head. “If I didn't seek you out, I would have never met you. And though I may not have been the guy for you, I couldn't live in a world where I never knew you. You changed my life for the better Ellie.” he softly brushed the bruises on her face.

Ellie threw her arms around him, burying her face in his chest. “I don't want you to go, please don't go.” she sniffled. “Believe me Ellie, I don't want to, but I have to. Go off to college, kick some ass. And remember I'll always be thinking of you.” She lifted her face, looking in his eyes. She pressed her lips against his, savoring the feeling one last time. “I hope this isn't goodbye forever. Promise me you'll stay safe.” she pulled back resting her head against his chest. “He pressed his lips to the top of her head. “I promise. Goodbye Ellie.” he took one last look at her before disappearing into the night.

She turned heading toward the house spotting colt standing there. “You kissed him.” He clenched his jaw. “You were spying on me? How long have you been standing there?”

“Long enough. And no, I wasn't spying on you. I finished what I needed to and came back for you.”

Ellie hesitated at the door. Could she really give up everything she had worked for? Could she really skip out on her dream school for a life on the run with Colt?

“Colt. I don't think we should do this. We rushed into this, its crazy. We. We need to get an annulment.”

Colt stumbled back. “What? Ellie come on, We love each other.”

“I know, and i do love you Colt. I do but.”

“Its Logan isn't it? You wanted to be with him, I was a mistake.” he retorted.

“No. Colt that's not-”

“Save it Ellie. Go live your life, I'll get an annulment.” he climbed on his bike.

Ellie felt sick to her stomach, what did she do? She was scared, she didn't want to lose him. “colt.” she called after him, he put his helmet on kicking his bike to life. “Colt. Colt, come back. Please.” it was to late, she watched his tail lights fade out of view. She was alone, truly and completely alone.

*******

She pulled into the driveway of her house, she pulled her compact from her purse attempting to cover the evidence of her crying. She walked into the house to hear laughter. Frank, sally and Luca sat around the table eating ice cream, having a good time. “Hey guys.” She peaked her head into the room. “Hey kiddo. Everything ok.” She gave her dad a half hearted smile. “Yeah, everything's fine.”

“Will you give me a bath mommy? I'm all sticky.” Luca held her ice cream covered hands up. “Sure thing sweetpea.”

After bathing and getting Luca to bed, Ellie walked over to a box that was left unpacked. She pulled out a medium sized shoe box, removing the lid she pulled a few items out. A ticket stub from the drive in, a small cactus, a bullet necklace, some photos of the crew and the last two. A picture of Logan and her, taken after the pool game, the other of her and Colt at Prom. She laid the two in front of her, her eyes burning into the paper. What was she going to do?

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bladesoflightandshadow · 5 years

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what are your thoughts on the three li in rod?? who are you romancing?

i actually started writing this a few days ago and only managed to catch up with rod yesterday, so HERE are my final thots on the rod lis now that ive already revealed myself for the fool that i am

(this ended up being mostly an excuse for me to rant about logan because. i love one (1) man) (also it’s literally so long i’m sorry you probably weren’t expecting all this anon)

so initially my plan was to string logan along so i wouldn’t get bored while waiting for mona’s diamond scenes to start showing up bc she was meant to be my endgame but……..i ended up liking him way more than i anticipated ! and now he’s my prom date and i guess my final choice 🤡

for real though he’s literally so sweet, and his and mc’s relationship felt like it developed really naturally? like logan is obviously really hardened from living as a criminal and from having to fend for himself pretty much from the moment he was born, but underneath that exterior there’s this desperate need for connection and a desire for normalcy that makes all of his scenes with mc really sweet and also really tragic. i think logan’s genuine devotion to mc is what sets him apart–while colt is occupied with proving himself to his dad and later avenging him, and mona’s detachedness makes it difficult to get her to open up, logan has pretty much worn his heart on his sleeve around mc since they met. he has no issue telling her exactly how he feels about her, and even when he has to lie to her, you can tell exactly how much it pains him to have to do so.

logan so very rarely lets people in, but you can kind of tell by how easily he seems to fall for mc that it’s more of a case of people never giving him a chance, and always hurting him when he does try, rather than a genuine lack of desire to connect with someone, if that makes sense? this boy is literally so starved for love, not just romantic, but also in the sense of wanting a family and crew that cares about him. (you can literally TELL how he has to grit through his teeth when he tells mc that the crew meant nothing to him; no matter how much he says otherwise, he wanted to find a family in them, wanted to trust kaneko, so badly.)

outside of that he’s literally the sweetest and most supportive boyfriend you could have?? he’s never condescending to mc, aside from lying to her initially lmao, and even when he does eventually admit it he completely accepts that it might be the last time he sees her, never forcing her to choose him. from their first interaction he recognises how strong and intelligent she is, and he’s always reminding her of it. he supports her dreams and ideas, he helps her study, he’s literally willing to go to jail so she can get a better life, like!! logan’s genuinely so devoted to mc and i’m literally getting emotional just thinking about it, i love him so much.

MOVING ON to the other lis bc i actually do love all of them,,,,

MONA is an absolute babe. like i have a lot of Thoughts™ about the way she’s so far being written as just a side character who has little to no bearing on the plot (though with her ‘betrayal’ in the latest chapter this might change?). i can think of plenty of ways they could’ve made her more involved earlier on (which deserves its own post lmao), but as she is, she’s genuinely fascinating as a character. mona makes her intentions very clear from early on; she has no desire to form attachments with the crew or to the mc, and her loyalties will shift very easily depending on her own interests. even when she flirts with mc initially, it always feels like she’s deflecting, never letting mc know more about her than she wants her to. her relationship with mc feels just as, if not more volatile than colt’s because of her alleged lack of loyalty; she barely offers her a glance before driving off after kaneko’s death, which kind of sucked, but it was definitely her way of protecting herself from getting hurt any further.

it makes the genuine moments she does share with mc all the more special. it’s pretty much a running theme with all the rod lis that they’re emotionally constipated yet have a deep desire for connection, even if they don’t show it–with mona, it’s subtle because she’s a lot better at hiding her feelings, yet her vulnerable moments (right before she shuts down, anyway) really leave you screaming let me love you goddammit because you know she’s been through so much shit.

there’s also the fact that she literally went through the same thing that mc is going through right now?? mona was an honor roll student who fell in love with someone who only brought her trouble, and now she’s stuck in this life of crime that she can’t leave, can’t imagine leaving. it makes her so-called 'betrayal’ in the latest chapter (if you can even call it that) a lot more poignant because the girl she was in love with betrayed her as well; now she has a chance to right those wrongs, to actually use being part of the brotherhood to help the crew and mc. like the poetic cinema of it all.

outside of that she’s honestly just really fucking hot. people kept going 'mona hot’ but like, i only now realise they’re absolutely right.

i can’t speak much on colt mainly because i didn’t really romance him, and i’m sure plenty of other people have spoken about his character, but i really like him as well (even if he is a giant ass). where mona deflects with apathy, colt deflects with anger. he’s unpredictable, and his ability to be as cold as he was during the ardizzone job was kind of scary. he’s absolutely relentless in his path to prove himself, yet underneath it all you can tell he’s doing it because he thinks it’s the right thing, or at least the best he can do given his situation. he tries to hide the hell out of it but he really does care about mc, and you can tell even if you don’t intend to romance him. he’s also just genuinely funny in his own obnoxious, smartass way, and i love him. my son.

#ask #anon #ride or die #mona #logan #colt kaneko #you bet your ass i'm saving this in their tags because i spent way too fucking long writing this #stfu nisa

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lovingkaneko · 4 years

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Ch.2: Here For Business (Colt x Mc)

Summary: He simply cannot get this girl out of his mind, good thing he sees her once again.

Author Note: I hope people find these stories someday <3 Part two of She’s Perfect. Next part here, Part one here

Book: Ride or Die: A Bad Boy Romance | Choices: Stories You Play (AU)

Pairing: Colt Kaneko x MC | Ellie Wheeler

Word Count: 2.2k

Rating: VERY N*FW (Sex, Swearing)

I have never been so distracted by the thoughts of a girl before. Not even in my adolescence, the idea of being tied down to one person always disturbed me. I’d never overthink a one night stand, I would leave first thing in the morning and never turn around. But she was messing with my head, she was ruining me. I was not weak, I was not vulnerable to anyone. Especially not her.

Everyone had noticed I was on edge lately, always bouncing my leg up and down anxiously. Toby wouldn’t leave me alone, no matter how many times I’d begged him to stop asking me questions. In fact, the whole crew took turns interrogating me ever since I came back from the meeting.

“Colt,” I heard a voice call for me when I got inside, I nearly jumped a bit in shock. I was home so late that I thought everyone would’ve been asleep already. Toby was holding a magazine with a cool looking car on the front. I didn’t bother to ask about it. I wanted to go into my room and yell into a pillow.

“Hey Toby,” I answered as I placed the case filled with cash on the table where he sat. I took a seat beside him, knowing that he would want to talk about the cars in the magazine. Honestly, a distraction was exactly what I needed.

“Check this out,” He began to flip the pages, he stopped at one and when he turned to look at me, his jaw dropped.

“Wait a minute, what is THAT?” He reached his hand to move the collar of my jacket, examining my neck. I grasped his thin wrist and pulled his hand away.

“Don’t even--”

“I thought you were in a meeting?” He asked, curiosity obvious in his voice. I nodded slowly, biting the inside of my cheek nervously, hoping he’d stop asking questions.

“Unless... OH MY GOD?!” Toby connected the dots and placed his hand over his mouth to contain himself from screaming.

“You hooked up with Wheeler’s daughter?!” He asked way too loudly, I was about to tell him to shut up before Mona came into the room.

“Wait a second, who did what now?” Her eyebrows were raised and her jaw was dropped, clearly in shock.

“Colt had sex with--”

“Jesus Christ, Toby! Shut up,” I groaned into my hands as I realized they would never let this go.

“If her dad finds out, you’re dead meat,” Mona explained as she shook her head sarcastically. I was silent, I had no idea she was his daughter.

“Fuck,” I breathed.

“I heard that her dad found out she was dating a member of another crew and scared the guy so bad that he moved across the country,” Toby explained to me enthusiastically, as if this was funny.

The one girl I ever showed interest in, the ONE person that I allow to roam through my mind... She just had to be the completely unattainable.

“Good luck with that,” Mona patted my shoulder as I groaned. She subtly moved my jacket over to examine my neck as Toby had.

“Hey!” I called out and pushed her hand away.

“Oh my. I never thought Colt, motherfucking, Kaneko would let a chick mark him up. Today is one wild day,” Mona teased as she laughed and left me alone with Toby.

“I’m outta here,” I stood up, waving at Toby and ignoring his pleads for details.

Since then, they haven’t let me live it down. Even Ximena knew what happened at this point, her reaction was even worse than Toby and Mona combined.

“You’re so grown up now,” She wiped a fake tear as she watched me walk into the room the next day.

“God dammit,” I muttered and attempted to ignore her cooing at me like a baby.

But even through all of this, I couldn’t help but wish to see her again. I was at the front desk again, doodling in my journal. It’s not a fucking diary, Toby.

I only found myself drawing her body over and over, although I had never seen her undressed... My imagination could do incredible things. Most of the sketches were of her leaning on her bike, arms crossed. Sometimes, I’d catch myself drawing her eyes on the paper, her long eyelashes curling up.

“Son,” Came a voice, making me jump awake, as if I was in a daze thinking about Ellie Wheeler. What the fuck was wrong with me lately?

“Are you drawing?” My dad asked and I roughly shut the notebook closed. I cleared my throat.

“No.”

“Alright then... The Wheelers have made a special request for our next deal,” He explained seriously, and I found myself lighten up at the news.

“What would that be?” I asked nonchalantly.

“You’re the only one who can do the deals. For some reason, the girl has a preference as to who she meets with. She chose you, son.”

She remembered to tell her dad. She remembered me and wants to see me again. My heart leaped at the idea of being with her. Gross.

“When will I be seeing her again?” I asked, trying my best to not sound excited.

“You sound eager to meet with her again,” He stated blankly.

“What? Of course not, I’m simply asking because--”

“I don’t need an explanation.”

I felt a bit saddened, but not surprised. My pops never wanted to hear me out.

“She’ll be here tonight, her dad wants her to check out some of the cars we have. They’ll be buying from us again for her birthday,” He grinned, enthused to receive another great amount of money. I could truly care less about the payment. I just wanted to see her.

“Alright,” I said, understanding. He patted my shoulder.

“Seems you were a good representative, good enough that she wanted to see you specifically. I’m proud of you, boy.”

Those were words I’ve never heard from him, even he was shocked by what he said. I gave him a nod and he walked out without another word. I was beyond happy at this moment, nothing could possibly kill my mood.

Until...

“Psst, Colt!” whispered a voice behind me that I recognized to be Toby.

“What?” I asked as I felt irritation enter my body.

“Ellie’s coming tonight, the crew is gonna head out to do... Stuff. This means you’ll be alone with her, you’re welcome,” He teased.

“Get out of my face right now,” I closed my eyes with anger as I realized the crew was trying to set me up with her.

“Logan will be here too, though. But I bet you can sneak away for a few moments without him noticing.”

“Out.”

At exactly eight, I heard a motorcycle outside the shop. My heart raced and I took a few breaths to calm myself down, why was I reacting like this? She’s just another girl I’ve been with. I got a grip and fixed my jacket. I heard footsteps approaching. Then... I saw her. All reasoning in my head had died off and I couldn’t help but smile. She was just as gorgeous as I remembered her. Except, I could see her features clearer with the lights of the shop.

“Excited to see me, Kaneko?”

“You’re punctual,” I managed to say after collecting myself, I sounded confident.

“What can I say? I would hate to waste time,” She smirked and looked around at the cars surrounding us.

“I was surprised to hear you wanted a car, I thought you loved your bike,” I asked as I walked closer to her.

“Well... I’ve decided to try new things,” She answered and went silent for a few moments, “Show me what you’ve got.”

“Alright,” I guided her over to the cars and she listened to me explain them.

“This is the fastest car we’ve got, a 2019--” I was saying but she groaned.

“You don’t care about the cars, do you?” I asked and brought myself to finally look into her eyes.

“God, of course not. There’s something I want more than a stupid car.”

My breath got caught in my throat, she surprised me constantly. Just as we were approaching each other, I heard footsteps.

“Is that the one and only Ellie Wheeler?” asked a voice that I immediately recognized. My fists clenched as I stared at the person I hated most in this world. Logan.

“Depends who’s asking,” She raised an eyebrow and crossed her arms as she looked at the intruder. Logan gave her a flirty smile and I wanted to knock him out cold, but I knew better than to do that.

“I’m Logan,” He took a few seconds before continuing, “I never thought I’d be so fortunate to see a girl like you in person.”

“Lucky you,” She flirted back and I felt myself fuming.

“Sorry to cut in, but I was just showing her the selection of cars. She’s here for business, not to hear you try and get in her pants,” I blurted out without meaning to. Logan’s eyebrows raised and I swear I heard Ellie chuckle.

“I could take it from here. I definitely know more about these cars than you do,” He suggested and Ellie responded quickly.

“No need, Colt is doing just fine.” With that said, Logan’s eyebrows lifted in shock once again.

“If you say so, gorgeous. I hope to have the luck to see you again soon,” He licked his lips and waved before leaving the room.

“Gosh, what a whore,” She sighed as he left. I couldn’t hold back a laugh at her words. She said exactly what I was thinking, “You’re wrong, though,” She continued.

“What?”

“I’m not here for car business,” She smirked smugly and wrapped her arms around my neck, slowly bringing my down to her level.

“The deal is still on, you owe me,” She breathed into my ear. Her lips trailed down to my neck and she pressed a soft kiss to it.

“You up for round two?” She asked and my breath hitched. I didn’t answer her, instead, I brought her lips to mine and kissed her roughly. She moaned into my mouth and I guided her onto the nearest desk, thankfully an empty one. I couldn’t wait any longer, I wanted to make this girl feel things that she had never felt. I wanted to hear my name rolling off her tongue as I pleased her in sinful ways.

At this point, I could care less about my own pleasure. I owed her and I was going to make her trip here worth it. I sucked on her neck, finding the spot that made her gasp and squirm on the desk under her. She was breathing heavily as I continued to trail my teeth.

“Colt,” She managed to say, her voice shaking.

“Yes?” I asked as I unbuttoned her blouse.

“Please,” a whisper so desperate, I wondered what she would do right now if I didn’t comply to her orders.

“Please what? What do you want me to do?” I pressed my lips onto her breasts kissing slowly, as I moved her bra aside to take a nipple into my mouth.

“Fuck,” She whimpered as I swirled my tongue around, “Please.”

“Say it, baby, and I’ll give it to you. Anything.”

“I want you to-- Oh my god,” Her eyes rolled back as I pressed a hand onto her pussy. Her chest heaved and she had tears forming.

“Fuck me, please, Colt.”

Those were all the words I needed to hear, I unbuttoned her shorts and pulled them down along with her underwear. I continued to lick my way down her body, pressing kisses every now and then. I finally reached eye level with her sweet opening.

Her hands made their way into my hair, tugging with need. I gave her one long lick and she hissed with pleasure, her legs shaking.

I continued to do my work, now focusing on her clit, my fingers positioning around her entrance. Once they were inside, she moaned loudly. Normally, I would’ve freaked out by her volume, but it was only Logan. I wanted him to hear her, I wanted him to witness the noises that I managed to get out of her.

I pumped my fingers in and out of her at a speed that made her pull my hair as she breathed heavily. I felt her walls tighten and I knew she was close. I continued to move my hand inside of her, but brought my lips up to kiss her. She kissed me like I was oxygen and she was suffocating. Her teeth sunk into my bottom lip and I knew she was done for. With one last push inside, she let out the hottest sigh I’ve ever heard. Her head fell onto my neck and she whispered my name over and over.

“You’re so good, baby,” I whispered into her ear as I felt all the power in her body give out, she was doing her best to ride down her orgasm. After a few minutes of silence as she caught her breath, she chuckled.

“I guess we’re even now.”

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lovingkaneko · 4 years

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Ch.3: Addicted To You (Colt x MC)

Summary: Colt realizes that Ellie Wheeler has more to her than he thought.

Author Note: Wow, another chapter huh? I’m on a roll here, I hope you guys are keeping up with the story and enjoying it <3 Part two, Next part

Book: Ride or Die: A Bad Boy Romance | Choices: Stories You Play (AU)

Pairing: Colt Kaneko x MC | Ellie Wheeler

Word Count: ~1.8k

Rating: Mature (swearing, descriptions of sex)

She left soon after, telling me that she’ll come back when there’s a wider selection of cars. The one night stand had turned into two. I really didn’t expect myself to feel even slightly attached to her. But she did what she usually did and teased me to the very max, promising to return. From the second she drove off, I found myself already eager to see her again. The look on Logan’s face was extraordinary, for a week after our encounter, he was silent. He had not said a single word to me.

“Colt,” I heard someone call me as I was wiping down my bike with a rag. I turned to make eye contact with my dad.

“What?”

“I need you to come to my office,” He said seriously, motioning me to follow him. I tossed the rag onto the seat and trailed behind him. He sat down and I simply leaned against the wall with my arms crossed.

“It’s come to my attention that you’ve involved yourself with Ellie Wheeler in an unprofessional way,” My dad informed me, making my heart skip a beat.

“Pop--”

“I don’t want to hear it,” He sighed, “It’s not a big deal. Wheeler, himself, has feared that his daughter was throwing herself at his clients. You can stop this now and there’ll be no problem.”

I wish I could explain the fury that I felt in that moment, hearing someone refer to her as a whore... It made him shake with anger.

“She’s not a slut, pops,” I scoffed.

“That wasn’t what I was saying, son. I’m just saying, it’s not the best idea to--”

“Well I don’t care, I’ll see whoever I want to,” I talked back, my voice raising.

“I understand what it’s like to meet a girl you... Find interest in. But, I’m afraid you’re getting too close to comfort. I won’t let you ruin yourself,” He explained calmly.

“Ruin myself?” My jaw clenched.

“I won’t have you fall in love with her!” My dad finally slammed his hands on the table with anger, “Do you know what love does to you?”

“I’m not--”

“Once is fine, temptation is a crazy thing. But to keep seeing her? You’re playing a risky game,” He said as he slowly composed himself.

I knew he was right and maybe that’s what pissed me off the most. I knew that hooking up with her constantly would drive me insane. Even though I had only seen her twice in the span of two months, she took over all of my thoughts. My journal was filled with pictures of her, at first, they were sexual. I would draw her body and the marks on her neck. But now, I found myself drawing her lips. I would draw her smile over and over, along with doodles of her pretty hands. My pops was on the right track, it would be best to get some space away from her. But, I didn’t want to.

“Why should I care about what you have to say? I’ll ruin myself if I feel like it, you haven’t been there for me before, why do you care now?” I spoke harshly before leaving his office and slamming the door.

At this point, I didn’t know if I would ever see her again. My pops would definitely not let me do anymore business when she’s involved. I had a chance to prove myself worthy to him and I fucked it up. Honestly, though, I didn’t care. I had worked too hard to prove myself, but now I didn’t want his goddamn approval.

Toby was standing outside with his eyes wide open, I blinked slowly a few times to stop myself from knocking him out.

“You were listening?” I asked him with my eyes closed, trying to diffuse my anger.

“I-- Colt, are you alright?”

“For fucks sake, I’m fine!” I yelled, feeling irritated by his question.

“I know who told him,” Toby said in a whisper.

“I can just guess who it was,” I snarled before making my way to the garage, knowing where to find that son of a bitch.

His eyes widened when he saw me stomping over to him, I punched him as hard as I could and he stumbled backward.

“You just couldn’t keep your mouth shut, could you?”

“It’s my job to inform my boss on anything threatening to the crew,” Logan said as he wiped blood from his mouth.

“And how is my business threatening to the crew?”

“Do you know what would happen if you fuck things up with her?”

“I don’t need to know shit from you,” I retorted, fully aware of my actions, “You’re a nobody. I’ll be glad the day my pops finally gets rid of you.”

I climbed on my motorcycle, driving off without another word. The wind blew in my face and I squinted, regretting not wearing my helmet. I had one place in this world that calmed me down more than any other. After a few minutes of swerving through slow cars and having air burn my eyes, I finally made it to the spot. I parked my bike off to the side and exhaled slowly.

I calmed down as I watched the waves crash, this cliff place being my safe place. I needed to collect my thoughts after everything that happened. My dad truly believed that I was falling in love, as if that would ever even-- It was just impossible. I just felt sexually attracted to this girl, our relationship would only consist of us casually fucking from time to time. I never even considered actually settling down with her.

Yet, the thought brought a stupid warmth to my chest. I hated to think of her as just a fuck toy, because that’s not what she is to me. She’s more. The loud ocean below me was relaxing me, bringing tranquility to my normally hostile being. There was a noise that distracted me, I was back and alert quickly. I looked around to make sure there was no one there. I could’ve sworn I heard an engine pass by, after a few moments, I decided that I was alone again.

“I definitely didn’t expect this to be the kind of place for you, Kaneko,” said a voice I recognized instantly, my mood lifting within seconds.

“Ellie?” I accidentally smiled at her appearance, she didn’t seem to be doing the best. Her cheeks were flushed and her eyes were red, as if she had been crying.

“You look terrible,” I said and she chuckled.

“Thanks for pointing it out, mind if I join you for a bit?”

I felt a pinch in my heart and I nodded slowly, she sat at the very edge of the cliff with her feet dangling above the ocean, I took a seat beside her.

“I’m not supposed to be seeing you anymore,” She scoffed after a while and I turned to look at her, “My dad found out I’ve been hooking up with you. You’re safe, but I have to stay away from you.”

The words that came out of her mouth made me feel as if a dark cloud rained above me. She bit her bottom lip in concentration.

“But I can’t,” She whispered.

“You can’t what?” I asked sadly and watched as she breathed softly.

“I can’t stay away from you, Colt,” She finally said as if she had been holding it in, “I’m addicted to you.”

I opened my mouth to say something, but I was speechless.

“Stupid, I’m so stupid,” She placed her face in her hands in frustration.

“Ellie--” I began to speak but cut me off.

“Don’t, please...” She exhaled shakily and began to get up to leave. Normally, I would’ve let her go, this was her problem and whatever she felt for me was completely childish and immature. But I understood her, because frankly, I was addicted to her too.

I managed to pull her back to me, pressing my lips to hers, taking her breath away. She placed her hands on my cheeks, deepening the kiss. After a few seconds, she pulled herself apart from me.

“You don’t understand, Colt... The things my dad would do if this goes wrong--”

“I don’t care,” I said as my mind screamed insults at me, “Live in the moment, Ellie. It’s all we can do now.”

She looked angry, not at me, but at herself. She exhaled and nodded, “Fuck everyone else. I want you,” She whispered before kissing me again.

An hour passed and we simply enjoyed each other’s company, her head resting on my shoulder as we watched the sunset. This wasn’t sexual anymore, this was stupid. This was definitely not what I had planned.

“My dad doesn’t trust me,” She told me, breaking the silence, “He thinks that I’m not fit to run the crew. I had to prove myself to him, he wouldn't believe me otherwise. I’ve had to do stupid shit to make that man see me for what I am.”

“He thinks he needs to protect me, save me from this life. But I don’t need his protection, I know how to defend myself,” She spoke to me, but it seemed she was talking more to herself, “I’ve been his sweet little girl for too long. It’s hard, Colt,” She looked at me and her eyes watered, “I’m top of my class, I’m set to be valedictorian but that’s not enough for him to trust me.”

“Wait a second,” I raised my eyebrows in shock, “You’re still in school?”

She chuckled softly, “Yeah, crimes are just my side job.”

“Wow,” I whispered.

“Look, I know you probably don’t think of me as more than a girl you’ve fucked--”

“What?” I asked before she could finish her sentence, “Of course not.”

“I doubt you mean that,” She scoffed, looking off into the distance.

“Ellie, listen to me,” I placed my hand on hers, “I don’t care about people as much as I should. But I can’t help but feel something for you,” I confessed in a low voice, embarrassed.

“Holy shit,” She breathed, “Kaneko feels emotions?”

“Trust me, you’re just as shocked as I am.”

“It's best for us to not see each other, I know how stupid it is for us to be together,” She said, her voice trailing sadly.

“It is extremely stupid,” I acknowledged playfully, looking into the ocean below us.

“You may never believe it, but my dad’s a Christian, he thinks me having sex with you is against the laws of God,” She laughed softly.

“What can I say? We’re sinners,” I answered as I brought my lips to her neck and placed a gentle kiss to it.

“If being with you is a sin, then I’ll happily accept hell.”

Once again, she connected her mouth with mine again and that was all. Our clothes stayed on, yet, we were completely exposed to each other. We were stupid and vulnerable, but you would never catch me complaining. We parted ways after a few more hours of talking, there was so much more to Ellie Wheeler than I thought.

#colt kaneko x mc #colt kaneko #colt x mc #ride or die choices #colt choices #playchoices fanfic

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