#just two lying liars

[tardxsblues]

Tell you what, seeing as it's goodbye, should we break a habit?

What? What habit?

Hug?

Why not? Within reason.

#just two lying liars #sharing the world's saddest/most awkward hug #the little consenting nod in the third gif? #and there's something just so sad about the way that he slowly embraces her back #like he's fighting against every instinct in his body that is against hugging/physical touch #but he's knows it's the last time #(or so he thinks) #and it just spirals me into depression #doctor who #dwedit #dwgifs #dw companions #twelve #twelfth doctor #clara oswald #dws8 #episode: death in heaven #peter capaldi #jenna coleman #gif warning

[tragicotps]

Lyra, Asriel and Marisa + Calling each other out on their lies

#lyra belacqua #marisa coulter #asriel belacqua #chaos family #truly #his dark materials #hdm #hdm edit #its kinda funny how they're all doing the same thing #they all lie but none can handle being lied to oh well #Asriel's the worst at it though #hes calling himself out on his own lies lol #he's just trying to keep up with the two experts 😂 #the lying theme is much more clear in the books #its ultimately what saves them all #new headcanon is masriel naming lyra lyra cause it sounds like liar and them having a running joke about it #this is an ugly edit sorry #mine

[woozingie]

pillow talk

pairing: woozi x female reader word count: 1.7k genre: smut! minors I FORBID YOU content warning: intercourse! fingering! and some boring food/grocery talk note: as promised... my first ever nsfw content because after a challenging academic event, let’s have a challenging fun time! written all in lowercase because i don’t know why and now i can’t be bothered with changing that </3

you’re perfectly toasty in bed tonight after a satisfying evening of self-care, keeping you busy until your boyfriend came home. ever the efficient guy, he went straight to the bathroom, getting his bedtime routine out of the way to join you quickly. when jihoon slides under the covers next to you, his hands immediately find your cheeks, guiding you to meet his lips in a slow kiss. he smells like toner and tea tree spot treatment, and it’s hard to resist his embrace.

he moans in relaxation as your hands trace the muscles of his back while he places open mouth kisses along your neck. "had a good day?" you ask with a smirk. it’s not out of character for him to be all over you like this, but it’s rare enough to make the most of it. jihoon’s hands are squeezing at your waist now, and the worn out fabric of your night shirt is the only thing keeping him from bringing his tongue to your breasts. your eyes follow his every move as he comes back to kiss you some more, short, deep kisses almost distracting you from the slender fingers pulling at the elastic waist of your sweatpants. he looks up at you then, asking softly "can i?" before you nod and lift your hips enough to allow the clothing to come off. lying on your sides, facing one another, jihoon decides he should be a little more caring, or at least less desperate for your touch. in between soft pecks, he explains, "i had such a great accidental nap in the car earlier," one hand travels along your side and lands on your ass, stroking the skin in appreciation. "i feel so well-rested, i thought we could enjoy some quality time?" the warm smile illuminating your face gives him the quiet approval to slide his hand up to your lower back and pull you flush against his body. 

the room is always cosy; it’s the one place entirely dedicated to you as a couple, where no one else can interrupt your cuddles, arguments and belly laughs. but tonight, the carefully picked furniture and framed pictures only make the slow teasing of his tongue on your bottom lip that much more delicious. you can feel him harden in his sweatpants, so you lift your leg to rest on his hip and slowly grind on him. he hums in pleasure, speaking into your mouth, "busy day today?" if you were in the middle of hooking up with anyone else, you’d tell them to stop teasing and shut up. but this is lee jihoon, and you know he’s really striking up a conversation right now. it’s his brand, catching up on all the small talk you can’t exchange during the day while making sweet, sweet love to you. because of course, when he rolls on top of you, effectively laying you on your back, the comforting weight of his new personal bests at the gym grounding you to the mattress, he still expects an answer. "it was alright actually. i rushed everything in the morning but ended up having so little to do in the afternoon, i went shopping and took a bath before you came home," by the time the sentence is over, your t-shirt is bunched up at your neck, and jihoon is leaving a trail of kisses from your collarbone to your stomach. "did you have the leftover chicken for dinner?" his tone is so conversational, if you were only eavesdropping, you would never know he was in the middle of triggering some exceptional tingling sensations everywhere his mouth and fingers went. but you are right there with him, and you’re still rational enough to notice how he makes sure you’re not lost in his touch, still up for a chat. talk about wanting to have your cake and eat it. 

your hands travel from his shoulders to his sides, hooking your fingers into the material of his sweatpants to gently pull them down. "yeah, and i had the last of that strawberry ice cream for dessert," his eyes don’t leave your face while his pants land on the floor, proving you have his full attention. the hand you place on his erection leaves him choking on his laughter before he manages to compose himself enough to comment, "the last of the ice cream? the one that was still half full?" teasing your inability to share your favourite flavour of ice cream is risky, but jihoon chose his moment particularly well; it sounds affectionate now, like he might even love it when you give in to your cravings instead of enjoying your favourite things with him. like maybe, he loves it because he just loves you. "good, i got a new tub on the way home anyway."

when his fingers dip into your underwear to finger you, jihoon is surprised to find you so wet already. "does it turn you on to picture me grocery shopping at late o’clock for your damned strawberry ice cream?" the two melodic sounds of laughter come together in the quiet bedroom, and when you throw your head to the side in amusement, jihoon plunges to nip at the skin of your neck lovingly while two fingers work you slowly. he leaves yet another kiss, this time right by your ear, and you think you might be in heaven when you hear him laugh so closely as you reply, "it’s just that i’m thinking about all this ice cream i’m gonna eat…" your chuckles die on your boyfriend’s lips, and you decide he’s kept you waiting long enough. you moan suggestively into the kiss as you wrap your fingers around his dick inside his underwear. he gets the message and rids your bodies of the remaining pieces of clothing. to your surprise, he hoists himself up against the headboard and once a condom produced from his bedside table is rolled onto his cock, he sits there prettily, cheeks flushed, patting his own thighs. thighs that could probably break your neck. thighs you wouldn’t mind sleeping on. 

"oh, so i’m doing all the work?" your words of protest carry little weight when you sit up and settle on jihoon’s lap, hovering slightly to allow your hand to bring his cock to your delightfully aching entrance. you stay there, his tip barely entering you, until he groans and guides you onto him with soft hands on your hips. in this position, he’s not only reaching deeper into you; you’re face to face, lost in the texture of each other’s skin, tempted by red lips, safe in loving eyes. he guides your hips once more to draw tight circles against him, and it’s not much action, not enough to get off, but it’s what you were seeking in the first place. the feeling of his presence so close to you, your tight walls making him feel pleasurably light-headed, the complete absence of self-consciousness allowing you to communicate through your bodies just how much of yourself you’re willing to give one another. always on the same page, always respectful of one another’s desires and boundaries. making love so casually like this felt like reliving all your most intense realisations of love within seconds, without a word. and the feeling wouldn’t be complete without some oddly timed banter. just as you’re thinking of quickening the pace after jihoon’s cock hit a particularly sensitive spot inside of you, he observes, "if i turn on the tv right now, it’d be heaven on earth." you snort in disbelief, playfully slapping your boyfriend’s chest. "and i don’t deserve some entertainment?!" from the controlled look on his face, it’s easy to guess he has actually been preparing this comeback for a moment. "doggy style is too much work right now, you’ll catch up on the show later." no one has ever made you throw your head back in laughter while you ride them until lee jihoon. but when you try to argue further, he gets you on your back, head resting on the opposite side of the bed, and quickly inserts himself back inside you. "if i make you come, will you let me watch tv next time?" he awaits no answer before quickening the pace, lifting your leg by the back of the knee to give him better access to that spot he knows will get you good. his free hand traces patterns on your stomach, climbing slowly to your sensitive left nipple, thumb rubbing the delicate bud with expert technique. you’re in the perfect mood to react to all the right buttons being pushed, and you don’t need to rub at your clit for long before your back arches off the mattress, presenting the expanse of skin to jihoon who ritually lowers his lips to the spot right above your left breast, feeling for the beat of your heart under the flesh and ribs. the rhythm of his hips goes uneven as the way your walls squeeze his length brings him closer to his own high. that’s when you give that meaningful tug to his elbow, and you come together in one final intense kiss, lips only coming apart to whisper i love yous. 

you take a moment to bask in the afterglow before duty calls: a quick stop by the bathroom to clean up and avoid any discomfort tomorrow morning. jihoon stretches with a groan so loud you can tell exactly which limb extends in which direction from your spot in front of the sink. you come back to the bedroom, scolding him for his lack of elegance, but you’re greeted with sleepy eyes, extended arms, and: "my woman!" you stop dead in your tracks, staring at your boyfriend in disgust. "eww, don’t ever call me that again!" you get into your side of the bed, giving the man in a laughing fit a seriously heavy side eye. "wow, you’re exhausting," you mumble as your turn off your bedside lamp. jihoon does the same, and from your position, facing the wall, back towards him, you can feel him shuffling into big spoon duty. he knows he must pay for his crimes. "teasing you after sex is like fresh kimbap with the right sauce, it makes a good thing absolutely divine." you snort at the vaguely romantic quality of his comment. "forget song lyrics, this is the most romantic thing you’ve ever said." jihoon stretches one last time before planting a noisy kiss into your hair. "you inspire me like that." 

#hiding in my pillows kicking the blankets #it was a challenge what can i say #it's still disgustingly domestic so you know from a thousand miles away that it's ME #I AM BEHIND ALL THIS #anyways i just like lowkey domestic casual chit chat type sex #i have another one in the works that is less <3 domestic <3 so im struggling big time but ya know #it's not like im trying to write good stuff...... this is my lols area #i allow myself to be completely crap at this it's my only perfection-free place #woozi smut #seventeen smut #lee jihoon smut #svt smut #i lied actually i have two more smuts in the works im a lying liar who lies

[deityofhearts]

I have so many thoughts about mlp, especially trixie

#deity dialogue #mlp had an ‘I hate magicians’ agenda #justice for trixie all she wanted to do was put on magic shows to entertain and inspire :/ #she quite literally wasn’t hurting anyone until someponies showed up and started acting like she was being an evil liar #y’all ain’t never heard of magicians??? :/ #I feel like in my own imagining of mlp it would go like this #twilight thinks there’s right and wrong ways to do magic and doesn’t like how trixie does magic and gets upset about that #limited worldview that she needs to move on from #applejack would see the act as deceitful and lying and get upset #pinkie would love the show because she knows what acts are #fluttershy would also find it nice #rainbow dash supports her friends and if they’re mad so is she basicaly #idk where rarity stands #and basically the episode would be about acknowledging that sometimes you’re wrong and can just hurt people and lash out because of it #and like basically them going ‘hey we were really rude and hurtful to trixie’ #like hey started shit first from what I remember then trixie acted accordingly #like idk y’all started bothering her at her own damn show unprompted for what reason? yeah she did magic shit to y’all but it can be argued #that one it was because it was a part of the show to her and two it was because y’all were acting out first #thank you for coming to my Ted talk

[patheticpat]

FINALLY AFTER SO MUCH FUCKING STRUGGLE, I HAVE GOTTEN THESE FUCKING ACHIEVEMENTS. NOW ITS SMOOTH SAILING TOMORROW TO 100% COMPLETION BABY LETS FUCKING GOOO

#slimer.post #Slimer.LIVEBLOGGER: Slay The Princess #We have to get 13 more achievements and the majority of them are in the beast route so im not worried about those #just concerned cuz for some fucking reason Adversary's achievements are hard as hell to find?? #There was easily an hour spent in Adversary trying to clear the achievements and ended missing two cuz- #1.) accidentally saved over the save file at the beginning of the route and was stuck in the basement w the knife and #2.) got really fucking confused and the guide i was using was a liar. I swear to god I seen that I got the achievement out of the corner of #my screen. I did not :\ #anyway; im looking forward to tomorrow. We have over 24 hours in this game and we started back in december. Seeing that 100% completion- #-will heal me I think (it won't. I will become worst. But lyings fun :) )

[crossbackpoke-check]

56 and any Yamo pairing! 🫶

i just wheezed so hard when i saw what the song was i almost snorted coffee out of my nose i am so sorry for this one

#56 - kyoto phoebe bridgers + yamo

the story of how this song ended up on my wrapped is too long so it’s going in the tags but. let me set the scene for you.

2026 NHL GLOBAL SERIES™️ JAPAN - Presented by YPPI

November 13 & 14, 2026: Dallas Stars, Montreal Canadiens, Seattle Kraken, Vancouver Canucks

Saitama Super Arena, Saitama, Japan

It’s a pitiful excuse of a consolation prize for not being able to go to the Olympics, but Kailer’s not going to look a vacation horse in the mouth. The arena’s cool. It’s huge. The people are cool. There’s so many more of them than he thought there’d be with jerseys that have his name on the back, and a lot more that have the familiar orange and blue. He takes a picture of the fifth Oilers Yamamoto jersey he signs—this one’s the good Reverse Retro—and texts it to Connor, says,

no one here has even heard of mcjesus

and gets a moon face emoji in response. Leon’s influence. Kailer’s still never really deciphered what that one means, and he doesn’t think Connor knows either.

They don’t have a lot of time off between games, but Kailer’s trying to be a good tourist. His dad had been so happy when Kailer had told him about the series that Kailer’d had to stop him from trying to book a flight a year in advance, and his mom’s been just as bad, sending him every article she sees about Best New Spot in Tokyo! Cool Restaurant! Have You Seen This Japanese Cat Café? that she scrolls across on Facebook since June. Suzy’s in the same boat, so they’ve been crossing off their compiled travel-guide list together, looping in as many guys as they can. Everyone’s been pretty game. All the teams are crammed into close quarters at the same hotel, which means everyone wants to spend as much time as possible outside of it, and it helps that Kailer’s gotten pretty close with all the other guys that the NHL picked up as Global Series figureheads. Robo’s memes? Absolutely fire. The groupchat loves them.

For every item he crosses off the list, Kailer takes a picture and keeps it tucked in his phone notes. It’s like speed-running a scavenger hunt—they’re only here for four days—but he’s doing a pretty good job. His favorite so far has been all the gardens. They’re stunning, trees shining bright red and yellow, and every vendor has been selling maple candies, maple cakes, and even fried maple, though the official maple festival doesn’t start until next week. The second garden he visits, he does it on his own after practice, buying two cakes from a cart near the gate and walking until he loses the bustle outside. It’s easy to get lost in the winding pathways, heading deeper into the quiet, and there’s dozens of benches underneath the burnished leaves where young couples are tucked away on dates, or old friends are laughing and catching up. In some of the little clearings, there’s small shrines where people leave offerings, a prayer for good luck or good fortune.

Kailer stops at one without any people and sets the second maple cake on top of it, then sits and scrolls through all the texts that he’s missed. His mom gets replied to with a picture of him outside the garden gate, grinning and surrounded by other travelers. He sends his brother a picture of a trashy graphic I Love Japan t-shirt with the threat that he’ll buy one for him, and Kailer’s dad gets a picture of the meticulously arranged and cut bonsai that are across from the bench where he’s sitting. The Seattle groupchat gets a recycled meme from Robo, and he gets two thumbs up and an “LMAO” before he can even exit the thread. Finally, Kailer takes a picture of the half-eaten maple cake in his hand, holding it next to a fallen maple leaf on the bench, and gets halfway through typing another message before he thinks better of it.

(On the plane over, Drieds was reading them a story about how when they first introduced the high-speed railway, people were afraid to use it because they thought it would be too fast for their souls to keep up.

“Bro, if that were true, you just left your soul in the middle of the Pacific,” Ebs had laughed. “Planes are faster than trains.”

“Are they?” Matty asked. “Isn’t the train in Japan the fastest in the world?”

Drieds couldn’t make it through the rest of the story over the sound of everyone ripping Matty to shreds, so Kailer didn’t get to ask whether or not they found out anything about planes. Kailer’s not worried about his soul, but the logic makes a strange kind of sense; after all, he traveled 429 miles in five and a half hours once, and that was a little too fast for his heart to keep up.)

Fuck it. Kailer’s been trying to write a response for the past ten days, and he’s sick of swiping in and out of the message, staring at the keyboard so long he starts to see swirls in his vision.

Kailer drafts the text again and sends it, no context, no caption. A text travels faster than a high-speed train or a jet. Maybe it’ll pick his heart back up on the way.

#I don’t know how this song ended up on my Spotify wrapped because phoebe bridgers is too emotionally damaging for me to listen to like. #at all unless i am In It HOWEVER. there is this one silly video that brings me so much joy and made me feel semi-reasonable about listening #to kyoto & it’s the one video of the two painter guys painting the room & the lil guy is being a menace & the other guy just looks at him s #fondly & so lovingly & is that not the thesis of kailer yamamoto. be small be a menace be beloved by everyone. ANYWAY #liv in the replies #look this was going to be such a different thing and then. my brain went HEY BUDDY GUESS THE FUCK WHAT kyoto is a city in Japan. #day off in kyoto. guess who’s Japanese. guess what the nhl loves to do as HIFE publicity. also growing the AAPI audience is HUGE and i thin #they should. like originally i had NO idea what this was going to be (i’m so lying. the line ‘i’m gonna kill you’ but incredibly fond a la #the two painters video kept replaying in my head and i was like l m a o. klimmer & kailer. no plot all vibes it’s klimmer & Kailer that’s i #there is no real plot there is no actual idea the amount of googling that i did to write just this is UNREASONABLE i would love to be norma #about anything ever but i ALSO invented so much backstory to this that has no way of appearing in the actual fic and also jokes for ME #for instance. YPPI is the american manufacturer for yamaha motorcycles and. suzuki. yamamoto. (it’s not my brainworms it’s due to a fancam) #respectfully also i cannot write this fic. i have never been to japan and i think it would take me eight years to google enough #to be relatively comfortable like y’all have never seen the extensive research i put in to fucking phiLLY and a whole other COUNTRY??? #where the premise of the fic is learning how to be a tourist in your life and sometimes you have to grow out of things? #yeah i AM going to make something with the idea of Momijigari and life is ephemeral. is that a plot? no it’s vibes. #kailer goes to japan in the fall and realizes he’s a liar. who lies. (he misses [redacted]) (the redacted is because i haven’t decided) #also also. the garden reference is because a) i spent WAY TOO MUCH TIME ON GOOGLE and found out things to do in saitama and also that #kailer’s grandpa had a meticulous garden and i just think that’s neat #hiding-from-reality-56 #random ficlet is unbeta’d un-anything’d i don’t know WHERE this came from or the real plot of it at all. ok thanks byeeeee

[orphanbasement]

I'm a bit fucking dense

#posts from the orphanbasement #Context is that I just implied I was a Phangirl. Swear to holy Christ I never once drew a fanart of those two kissing #Am I going to correct myself on the original post? No this is funnier #But I promise with my whole heart and soul I was TRYING to say that because of the reputation this site had in terms of phan. yk. #some people might be lying. but i am not one of those liars. I promise #The way it took me a full two minutes to realise the accidental implication too #i swearrrrrrr im not one of the liarsssssssss i voted no in total honesty

[darabeatha]

Who from my muses would ur muse consider to be the boyfriendest of boyfriends

#;ooc #ooc #i know my g.il would be fascinated over c.onstantine or a.sclepius #or a.rju even like 'you intrigue me' #OR D.AYBIT TOO #independently of g.il; i think d.antes is boyfriend shaped (biased) beloved kuhahahaha shadow #m.oriarty too... evil gentleman save me- save me evil gentleman- #not f.go related but k.aveh was also so bf shaped; a nice man indeed #AND C.ONSTANTINE- WOUGH #t ezca too like he is peculiar but he just gives me the vibes that it woule feel comfy to lounge around with #its like when u see two catd taking a nap together; thats the energy #d.aybit... d.aybit is so dreamy... #S.ALIERI! #o.beron would suck bc hes a lying liar who lies/j

[niishi]

Gonna be real, I only donate to gofundmes if I know for a fact the person needs money/help. I donate usually every paycheck to one of the few indigenous ones posted by my friend who works directly with homeless indigenous people. But otherwise? It's hard to trust y'all. 2 recent ex friends would get paid, go to the mall and spend $400 on anime merch, send us pictures of it all on discord bragging about all that they got, and then immediately go onto Instagram and Tumblr etc with cash app links saying "my paycheck was nothing this week and we can't afford groceries or bills because of the horrible bad evil economy please donate". I also had these evil ppl who used to live with me and I was already paying all of their bills and buying all of their food and they'd do the exact same thing, except pretend they were going to be homeless, and that they were starving and then they'd use the money to buy loveca on love live.

#the two times i got a look into cashapp posters #in real life #both times #they were lying scammers #and a lot of the times ill see ppl on here #who just came back from a 3 day out of state con where they had a hotel and wore 6 different extravagant cosplays #post cashapp links saying theyre starving and can't afford rent #idk #maybe you guys are okay with helping financially privileged ppl who are irresponsible liars #but I'm not

[perksofbeingasunflowerblog]

It’s not like they’re obligating Louis to release a documentary. If Freddie features so heavily maybe Louis is trying to tell you *something* about his life and you should go in with an open mind regardless what you believe is true. This is the most personal project Louis is going to release, and I think people should listen what he has to say and what he’s going to show you before doubling down on anything

this isn't twitter bff

next thing you'll say is "they're screaming but nobody is listening" or whatever that is

#I'm still gonna go watch the movie #i know it's going to be really good #i just don't understand the point of this #harry also said the personal project thing about cherry when two ghosts literally exists #stop taking words out of their mouth as absolute truth #lying liars who lie

[carrieway]

grips you all by the shoulders i dont know how much longer i can keep doin this man

vent n suicide mention in the tags i ran out of tags so i cant tag it dear lord it's all angst

#just woke up and feel like im dying already #all because of two very dumb factors #ooga booga i have bpd . i am burning from the inside out #i saw a post about bpd saying there are no metaphors to describe it because there is no beauty there is nothing poetic #it's just neverending pain and suffering and knowing you will die by your own hand very soon #and . yeha . no matter how i try to twist it into words that can help others understand while also not making them uncomfortable it doesnt #work #i can tell you it feels like knives are stabbing and dragging down through every inch of my being inside and out but that is still not close #enough !!!!!!!!!!!!! #your brains just . convinced everyone is out to get you #everyones saying shit behind your back and you are hated by every single person you love #and no matter how many time you're reassured you're just pushed deeper and deeper into that belief #n you're also just . so angry #so very angry #furious at yourself most of all but you also hate everyone you love #because they don't love you . they're lying to you . #they say they aren't but no liars want to get caught #ans then you're absolutely sure abandonment is happening so you push and push and push away #maybe you're a piece of shit to them bc then you know they left you bc of that and not because you're you #maybe you bring them too close in an attempt to stop it from happening and it happens anyway and you want to die #and you will die . it's so easy to die with bpd . it takes every fiber of my being to stay in my room rather than going to try and die #it's just batshit . you feel like you're inherently wrong and you dont have a place anywhere #you feel like you're losing your mind when mood swings happen because they will happen and they happen fast #a moments silence from someone you love is disastrous and world ending but on the other side they're just doing a small task #and forgot their phone #and it builds up and up and up and up until you cant mask anymore you cant pretend you're healthy anymore because you're not and then you #lose everyone #ive lost everyone so many times and i dont have many people now so im more or less clawed into them . they cant leave me too #i dunno . i dunno . bpd is so impossible to verbalize it's physically painful and i mean that i really do #you feel it in every part of you and you feel so empty and so alone even if you're not and then you feel nothing

[docresa]

2 years ago, on this day, I started my surgery rotation - with the sole purpose of „getting to know the other side of the drape“.

Today I’m traveling to interview for general surgery residency.

#oops #i guess that escalated #not too quickly #but it did escalate lol #i know how bad I felt that day because we were given a massive lecture on how we as future surgeons should get adequately involved #me being there just hoping for an interesting time while being absolutely sure I was going to do anesthesiology #well… here we are lol #i at some point found 2 other guys who at that point didn’t want to do surgery #we didn’t dare to speak up about our choice of specialty after that first day lecture #so we called ourselves ‚the little liars‘ #turns out the only one I’ve been lying to was myself lol #anyways I love these kinds of small coincidences #makes we wonder what I am going to think about this day two years from now… #resa rambles #residency applications #surgery #medblr

[tyrannuspitch]

loki covering up his actual panic in the throne room with an obviously inauthentic mock-tearfulness is very him but also so so funny to me. literally villain-coding himself to cope. What's Wrong With That Man!!

#space viking tag #*sarcastically* oh NO. i might have ''killed two thirds of my family'' and ''ended the world''. how will i EVER live with myself #okay not sure how much it's actually Deliberately inauthentic #vs how much it's just... too many layers to keep full control #but there is a strong possibility he's goading / challenging the w4 here. so. hmmm. something to think about #anyway. such a liar he lies about lying and ends up telling the truth But Then No-One Believes Him #character of all time!!! #meta #s: t1 #ch: loki #th: playing the monster #th: manipulation + mind control

[bleuberrygliscor]

idk what happened to where everything is a '100% all in pick sides' kind of fight, but im tired of it now lmao

#rem rambles #look. if i see one more quirky tiktok compilation of miss lady in court im am going to scream. #if i get one more ''feminist'' out here screaming because we arent believing all women all the time i will also scream. #both of you are wrong and weird. please. stop. #like can we STOP making real people into uwu cinnabons please. no one here is holy. everyone fucked up. #look at me. look. at. me. she lied. she lied about her assault. she lied. #did she lie about all of it. i doubt it. im sure theres truth in there. but she is lying now. under oath. #you cannot just say that eeeeveryone else is a liar here. eeeeveryone else lied but her. makes 0 sense. #even the people who have NOTHING to gain. cops and doormen. dude she lied. #but he isnt magically better. he did some shit too. was it reactive? possibly. but that doesnt make it right. #and that doesnt make him an owo smol bwean top 10 compilation of times he giggled in court #like yall are weird. its weird. please stop. #we need to bring back nickleodon national day of play. for real. i need yall to get grounded for two seconds...

[dan-sing-in-the-rain]

personal vent in the tags

#today i had a sort of therapy appointment (but like for a specific event thing) #and i've met this counselor several times before and i'm not really sure what it is but my weirdness really comes out #and for context i am at this point like 70% sure i am not autistic from two years of exhaustive research #but the research journey did make me loosen up a bit and make me be ok with fidgeting weirdly when i feel like it #or not making eye contact if i don't feel like it #just bc i realized i don't really have to act like completely Serious Stable Sane Adult at all times when i am feeling the opposite #but then we started talking about social rules and how i understand them and i explained that i do know all of them #but i said it in a way that led her to talking about how social rules don't need to be intutitive and i saw when she decided that she would #try something different with me and then she started on a new approach about systems and justice and belief systems logically relating #and i actually understood her for once and the therapy actually started to help #but then after i felt like i was lying because i think she thinks i'm autistic and don't know it (she said 'script' and 'sensory' etc) #but i know i am almost surely not autistic #i just feel very guilty now and like a liar or something even though i don't think i said anything definitively false #but i hate hate hate feeling like i have lied about important things #i just feel like a fraud and a liar even though i don't think it hurt anybody and if anything it did help me somewhat when she switched way

[nexus-nebulae]

my fucking god why do i have to do all the fucking work with communication

#like its a fucking two way street i cant be blamed for every single fucking time you dont look at me #i have been pulling ALL the fucking weight in this relationship 100%. i do ALL the talking i start EVERY conversation #i am not HEARD unless I'm asking for help and even then i have to ask FIVE TIMES IN A ROW to even be considered #I'm literally not even LOOKED AT most of the time i am literally fucking furniture to these people #like oh my fucking god 'you didn't say anything' no i quite literally said out loud 'can you help me' VERY FUCKING LOUDLY #I'm literally blamed for every minor miscommunication like every time it's my fault or I'm lying or I'm misremembering #like i KEEP FUCKING ASKING hey if this isn't working WHAT SHOULD I CHANGE and then i get 'no you aren't doing anything wrong' #AND THEN IT'S MY FUCKING FAULT AGAIN NEXT TIME #AND WHEN I SAY HEY YOU DON'T FUCKING TALK TO ME EVER I'M JUST A LIAR #BC 'I RESPOND TO YOU WHEN YOU MESSAGE ME!!!' YEA BUT YOU DON'T EVEN LOOK AT ME OTHERWISE #I AM NOT A PART OF YOUR LIFE I'M THE ANNOYING DOG YOU DIDN'T WANT TO HAVE TO TAKE CARE OF #negative #i literally ask over and over and over 'what am i doing wrong? what do i need to change' #and every time I'm told 'no no it's not you you don't need to do anything' #but then the second i bring up a problem it's 'BUT you didn't do this' or 'BUT you did this' #i have to be proven wrong on everything i can't just say i have a problem with anything #literally anything even if it's something entirely unrelated if i have a problem with ANYTHING it's MY fault #my game breaks? my fault. my body fucks up? my fault. nobody fucking listens to me? my fault #i HAVE to be proven wrong but then when i say 'stop telling me it's my fault constantly' it never ever ever happened