#its not that deep but it IS that deep yknow what i mean

[writers-wrongs]

Could you write yandere headcanons for SDV Shane with a male reader? Thank you!

shane my beloved <3 and happy 1.6 update! quick warning for mentions of suicidal thoughts bc this is shane we're talking about

yandere!shane x male!reader

-honestly, i dont think hed see you romantically until a little after his 6 heart event. before that, he just sees you as a friend

-but after you stop him, he starts seeing you differently. i mean, you saved his life, how could he not think of you as more?

-he starts spending as much time as he can with you. youre his lifeline, he needs to be near you. just being close brings him so much happiness, and when youre apart, he feels worse than he did before you moved in

-if hes still working at jojamart, he loses his job soon. too distracted worrying about you, if he even shows up to work at all. but thats fine! he doesnt need money, he just needs you!

-100% would kidnap you... if he had his own place. its not that he wants to restrict your freedom, he just wants to keep you safe! you saved his life, its only fair that he protects you

-is... fine with you talking to other people. nonono, hes not jealous at all. please ignore him glaring at other people, its nothing. but if people start avoiding you, it has nothing to do with the broken glass youve been finding everywhere (it almost looks like broken bits of a beer bottle...)

-when you start dating, hes going everywhere with you. literally everywhere. you are getting no privacy. and even before he gets access to your house officially, he might break in every now and then to watch you sleep. just to keep an eye on you, yknow? nothing to do with how warm the space beside you looks, or how deep you sleep... or how you dont even stir when he gets in bed with you and gently holds you

-when youre married, its mostly the same. but now that youre in the same bed as him, you can hear him whispering to you as you fall asleep. bits and pieces of "please never leave me" and "youre all i have". if you ask him about it in the morning, he says you mustve dreamed it

-if at any point you leave him, hoo boy. he goes right back to drinking, so much that gus stops selling him beer out of concern. hes going to be following you constantly, crying and begging for you to take him back. he needs you, dont you get it? what did he do wrong? please dont abandon him...

#writing the wrongs #yandere x reader #sdv shane #yandere stardew valley #shane x farmer #tw sui talk

[strawberrycamel]

hguh <- considering making a sideblog for a one piece bending au i have 1) come up with today, 2) want to share art/fic for that i haven't even made yet, 3) keep making more and more notes for to the point my hand is having the very rare yet very annoying occurrence of Cramps, 4) been assailed with so many domestic and gag ideas and a handful of really unoriginal fight scenes, and 5) as i'm typing this i'm realizing none of these are reasons not to make a sideblog and yet i am still paralyzed by the very likely fact that i will not want to bother with this whole idea tomorrow when the coffee has finally filtered fully out of my system and will have to do the proverbial walk of shame that is deleting the sideblog i made less than 24 hours prior

#its not that deep but it IS that deep yknow what i mean #ill probably just make the blog anyway tbh and just slap some random doodles there once in a while #oh i could make it an ask blog even #hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm #thoughts. thinking. pondering even #the problem is. i wanna focus on my main guy. my beloved lil blorbo. but my brain keeps drifting to canon events #and What Would Change In This AU #and its like no!!! i like doing that with other stuff but not this one!!! #just lemme focus on the funnies and the domesticity and the character dynamics!!! #im gonna lose that battle if i keep the blog long enough. i know that. its inevitable. #definitely going to be fighting it as long as possible though bc it'll just make my brain hurt thinking about it too much. #okay if the blog lasts over 24 hours (or maybe a week?? a week is probably better) and i'm not bored with it #i'll reblog this with the name of the blog #yeah. ill do that. and im not gonna force it. if it doesnt vibe i'll just leave it be. drifting in obscurity. #perfect okay #also yeah this is 100% the fault of High Tide by kurgaya; that fic gave me so many brainworms

[strangewiggles]

You were spilling all my will out I was bleeding my last brains It's nothing like the nothingness That normally numbs one's pain

Goodbye, oh goodbye

some closeups for you

#almost forgot to put tags #pathologic #pathologic 2 #my art #pathologic albino #albino pathologic #ill keep my ramblings IN THE TAGS this time . #oomf finished patho2 and we had a long conversation about how the albinos feel like. wasted potential for what they SEEM to symbolize #in the nocturnal ending anyway #this art is of the diurnal ending if that isnt. clear #because TO ME #what they symbolize is. a dying culture. and that seems. like its true? and not just “oh this is how i felt about them” #but some people are bigger pathoheads than me so idk #but they had been presented as fictional or a part of artemy's mind #as theyre first shown in the tumbler human #then the dream #but yknow when things get so unbelievably desperate they have to get out of hiding #and come out of hiding i mean literally cuz i like to think they went into hiding deep in the abattoir #sorry if i am just explaining stuff that is very blatantly in the game . ive been thinking about this for the last few days #let me feel smart okay #“give the albinos a voice” is very on the nose #IN A GOOD WAY!!!!! [SPONGEBOB ROCK FALL IMAGE] #in a WONDERFUL way actually. when i think about the kin too much i start crying #HENCE #THIS DRAWING #i wanna draw some herb brides soon. maybe nara

[pansyfemme]

did anyone actually have ‘kink related pronouns’ in 2020 or was that some more shit people made up to get mad at. baffling, really.

#remember having a convo about my brother once (when he was still leaving his transmed phase meanwhile i was like knee deep into trender #positive tumblr and genderfreak shit in 2018) #and like he was finally coming around to neopronouns but said he’d never call someone anything ‘sex related’ and i was like. sorry what #i think he saw it on tiktok or something but he seemed to think that sometimes people used neopronouns as a kink #and its like. i mean you can use any pronouns as a kink. theres whole fetishes about misgendering and force gendering. but like also #sometimes a bitch wants to be called kittenself and its not a sex thing at all. like i dont agree that this is a widespread issue with #neopronoun users but if it was i honestly would find it more interesting than offputting #i dont rlly care WHY someone is using a pronoun set im gonna use it yknow?

[alstroemerian-dragon]

izuru is so interesting to me conceptually. like i know in canon he’s kind of nothing unfortunately. at least in game canon, he shows up right at the end, says some eugenics-y shit, voices hajimes intrusive thoughts, and then hes gone, but. the concept of him, as hajime, but with everything that made him Hajime Hinata stripped away and buried under so much conditioning and bullshit that he cant reach it, is so. its SO. yknow.

its the whole argument about what makes us the people we are, right? if you take a person, and then erase literally all the memories they have of their own identity, are they still that person? have you taken away everything that makes them Them and made them a completely different one? how does that change, and pardon the philosophical question, their soul?

and the thing about izuru is that you can not tell me the memory repression was perfect. you can not tell me that hopes peak academy perfected the art of lobotomy so well that they completely erased every speck of hajime hinata that existed inside izuru kamukura. that boy felt what was missing he knew there was a hole the size of the fucking ocean in his head and he felt every centimeter of it. did he care? up for debate. izuru didnt seem to care about anything, really (which… i have some thoughts about his eugenics conditioning by the academy in regards to that but thats maybe another post). but i definitely think given enough time, some of that would have started to come back. maybe even after the events of the first game, when the school was open again, and junko was dead, and izuru was able to actually explore the place he was held and experimented in and look at the files, and discover his old name. something like that would definitely trigger some memory recovery, or at least a moderate breakdown of some kind.

i dont know. people have said before that izuru is kind of an interesting metaphor for depression if you think about it, and theyre right, he is. he doesnt care enough about anything in life, he doesnt care about hygiene, nothing is going to catch and hold his attention because he thinks he knows how everything in the world works so whats the point in even trying? but he isnt just a metaphor. thats who hajime was during that time. now im definitely one of the people who thinks hajime was a pretty depressed kid anyway, unable to fulfill what he thought he needed to be, constantly pressured to be something he wasnt and couldnt be. but izuru was so much worse. they gave that boy fucking. ultimate depression. super high school level depression. i definitely think the only reason izuru didnt ever do anything drastic about how utterly miserable he was is because. a lot of it was background noise to him? his brain was just blocked off so those triggers were unable to fire? and because. to be honest. thats truly so much work. especially with the reflexes and instincts and empowerment the experiments gave him. and junko’s despair was just intriguing enough to keep him moving

its just something i think about. if someone had been willing or able to just. talk to izuru and offer him a hand. understand that he was hurting and that he didnt have to be. that just because there were holes in his identity didnt mean he couldnt create his own pieces to fit into them. i truly think that if he’d had that kind of presence during the tragedy his brain would have unlocked itself. maybe not all the memories would come back, but he’d be able to feel stuff again at least. and thats… something.

#personal #meta #danganronpa #izuru kamukura #izuru is such an interesting meditation on memory and emotional resonance #and the game and anime do NOTHING WITH IT #im in the depths of planning the deprogramming au which means im thinking about izuru a lot #and about healing and depression and trauma and shit #and how just having someone who cares so so much as an example. someone who clearly cares about YOU. #can be exactly what you need to realize how much pain youre actually in #like its not gonna fix it. someone caring about you isnt gonna fix your depression #and thats a balance im trying to figure out how to strike #how to help izuru combat his bone deep depression while not having his relationship with hiko like. fix him. yknow #and i dont even mean in a romantic sense as stated before this ones a SLOW slow burn

[dullahandyke]

i look at some of u guys talking abt a new show u watched or a new thing u read and im like. holy shit thats a thing u can do. im in awe of u. i spend my time slowly ping-ponging between several interests whose base componants i can never experience because i get scard

#right now its danganronpa again grin. did u know ive been into it on and off for lets say 7 years at this point #and ive never once played it myself. i have it installed on this laptop ready to go and i just! never open it! #because if Im the one playing it then i have to pay attention and i get scared #but if im watching a lets player i just naturally pay attention without the pressure #ive talked before how i always feel i need to have the smart cool takes on shit #n this deep plays into that #idk boti was good for me bcos nobody fucking knew what it was so nobody could judge me for pardoning anotsu's crimes bcos he was hot #so i probs need to do that again #yknow a thing where i disconnect from anything that anyone knows about and get really really into some dipshit manga from 2008 #but also like. i get a lot of my media recs from people talking abt what they like #which then means i defacto have someone who is gonna know if my takes are shit #and like even now. im watching mop cycle w dri and im having fun w it #but i feel bad bcos i see so many ppl like This Is The Best Anime Ever and i just like. dont get it #like i can actively feel the messages and shit whooshing over my head #its a fine anime! i'm having fun watching it! but i don't get all the commentary abt pacifism or whatever #idk. something something my need to be The Smart Kid The Bookworm Kid that went unchecked too long without peers to challenge me #so now im here like Uh Oh #and like this wouldnt be the end of the world (save for its impact on my mood n stuff) #but also like. i am an english student. i should know this shit. but i stragiht up do not feel smart enough to sometimes #i keep coasting by on the assumption that im a smart kid and i'll automatically be better than my peers #and im being disproven #i got an english exam back tonight and i got like 63% #and i like college! i just dont like. college. #anywho its approaching 3am and i have a 9am tomorrow morning which means bedtime

[softstuffs]

art programs are a breed of horses I think. Certain ones are better for beginner riders while others are wild stallions that can only ever be half-tamed.

I have No idea what any of these buttons MEAN, i just press them until it looks like how it does in my brainscape.

but like i can kinda figure it out.

versus THIS;

if u held a gun to my head and asked me to explain what any of these mean i'd say "shoot me"

#bone blathers #what is a gamut and why is he masking. #first is firealpaca second is krita #krita is a lot like free photoshop which means it has a million buttons that contain terms i've never heard once. #i open the advanced settings and its like im reading a foreign language. #im so soryr i dont speak frecnh im sorry pleasse please i just want to make the watercolor brush slightly more flowy im sorry please #yknow how when you click a button on your computer and its like super laggy and you know Something is coming #like the deep rumbling of a slobbering giant beast awakening outside the town to roar before it begins its rampage #my computer does that everytime I open any menu in Krita #its terrifying #krita #firealpaca #art

[ichorblossoms]

having ttw Thoughts while reading house of leaves but it's nothing that's lead to a breakthrough yet so i'm just like soaking in the vibes

#ttw's been in limbo for the past few months. as it is wont to do really #there's a lot of nebulous connective tissue that's currently the middle of the story and it needs more direction but nothing has really bee #particularly exciting for my brain to gnaw on #also honeybee's been my brain's Focus for the past few months so it's not like i'm twiddling my thumbs with nothing to write #but yeah house of leaves and ttw it's like. okay the House super parallels what i want of the undertow as this like. nebulous structure #that's kind of alive on its own and doesn't adhere to any actual expectations of space #(the undertow is like. the semi-literal bowels of the city of sanguine) #and i knew that going in to the story that it was going to be similar so that's somethign that's sparking some things #but also the main character. one of the mains idk how to even articulate that. main narrator i think. #anyways he reminds me of leon as someone who doesn't have much going for him being super fucking susceptible prey of sorts for this...nebul #ous entitiy #not to mention my thoughts on the city of sanguine as like how a city is given life by its denizens. and that interpretation of the city- #affects how the undertow manifests for different people #and how it (sanguine) wants people to stay but will happily let you go if it knows you'll come right back to it #but if you want to Leave it'll happily trap you in endless corridors for ever and ever #and serena being the only one of the main cast who was born and raised in the city and therefore has such a deep connection to it before #yknow. realizing it's Alive in a way #vs the rest of the cast who have all moved to the city and don't see sanguine the same #vs leon too who has absolutely adopted this city as their home and what that means #oh that is a Tag Ramble hello #rambles #thicker than water

[waywardsalt]

i. get the vibe that the more mainstream zelda fans are allergic to the idea of liking characters who like. do bad things

#the groups and works i avoid are ones that make characters who do generally questionable things into morally good/perfect people #idk. whenever people get nasty or w/s it seems to be when people ask reasonable questions abt the series’ morality #recent example in mind but like. idk. with more personal/petty examples i feel like people will just sand a character down to being nicer #or more decent to fit some mold and maybe while its still similar to canon its a lot less interesting #idk this is just a mini rant ill delete it later. god forbid we enjoy characters who make bad choices and are mean #idk i dont usually leave my little hole but it feels like the worst zelda fans are deep in purity culture regarding characters #and don’t analyze the text beyond what youre told and never going any deeper bc it would require thought and discomfort #idk ig with [character] (cuz i know thisll get picked ul by tag stuff) i just. dont like how he just gets turned into a decent guy? #like hes an asshole but thats it hes more pleasant than anything? its not not canon but its not interesting. its neuters him #yknow? like hes down for robbing people at the bare minimum shut uo about tax fraud he’s a thief literally in the text #im going off the rails. bht i feel like people lash out at characters who are unignorably grating or morally impure #and sand down the ones whose flaws can be ignored. ofc i feel like the main 3 esp with these last few games get the worst of it #and i can get why considering the issues baked into how this series work but it just makes a lot of things boring

[ofcowardiceandkings]

i might finally buckle up and see who to send an email to about the college apprenticeship workshops using kinda ... mm outdated .. JKR opinions as an example of hard work that switched my brain right off lol

im gonna be mildly more helpful than bitchy and try to find a replacement example but for the sake of not causing them problems lol ...

#the thing is i REALLY like the people who ran the workshop i just think the presentation was a few years out of date #like its actually still fairly underground knowledge to people in the UK who dont use twitter or whatever that she went off the deep end #and the media are purposefully about 3 years behind reporting on it because the dont wanna deal with that #so yknow ... idk #like 'just so you know i get what you mean but this example is very dated to especially younger people entering the college today' right ?? #sigh #rory's ramblings

[skylordhorus]

“notch” as an exclamation feels so organic in soi that i often forget where it comes from, and im wondering if i should just replace it if it skeeves me out, but im struggling to come up with something that doesnt feel off or unnatural; everything is failing at the ultimate test of ‘how weird does this sound if a character were to say it whilst having sex’ lmao

#*deep space noises* #i mean they could still be used as other expletives #/colloquialisms etc #the more the merrier imo #‘dev/s’ is fun #mojang too maybe #its just the notch colloquialisms specifically #i could just use god/s but that seems kinda boring by itself #i think its something about the ‘-tch’ sound- it feels quite weighty if yknow what i mean #like how ‘fuck’ feels good to say because of that hard ‘k’ sound

[reel-fear]

You Know, for the record, I really like Sentinel as a character, I just dont think he should be able to tell BA to kill herself or whatever and still have people redeem him in their aus without addressing that.

I don't think I should have to set the bar for this fandom to be 'dont needlessly demonize or berate the women in the show if ur gonna also defend men with no redeeming qualities [THIS INCLUDES WASP] and also stop calling BA abusive n toxic unless ur gonna back it up with evidence bc I fr cannot recall a time where she did anything to deserve that' but alas, with the amount of dumb asks n posts I see every day...

#ramblez #my followers rn like oh fuck Whirlys going through their BA stan arc again #and I gotta say I'm sorry yall but yknow she also did like nothing wrong and idc what she did to wasp he has no personality who cares #if I went outside and burned a piece of cardboard labelled mean male character that would be just as much a tragedy and deep character mome #nt as Wasps entire screentime in TFA #I just cannot see what u guys see in him lol- #the only good way to write Wasp is either as in love with Ironhide or in love with Bee #Yeah I said it I still really like Wasp x Bee I might even make content of it sometime bc its awesome #its not nearly as deep or interesting as shockbee but it does kinda scratch the same itch for drama as that does for the record #just saying

[soldier-poet-king]

hm so dorian’s personal quest really hits different during The Longest June Of My Life, huh

#and by different i mean a thousand times more excruciating than it normally is #for a myriad of reasons #not just because ive been surrounded by the irl version of halward pavus' garbage rhetoric #as every christian homophobe comes crawling out of their demon pits on june 1st #and dorian. selfish i suppose not to want to spend the rest of my life screaming on the inside #i mean. i will be. will be very much screaming and hiding and burying my heart so deeply #but yknow. its not easy to break tradition and walk your own path etc etc as the inquisitor says #and like yes im a redemption for all truther #but halward pavus can atone and do better far away from the son he destroyed #reconciliation happens on dorian's terms or not at all #it's so much worse when you know they care for you in their own way but will never change or acknowledge what theyve done #it's not like ive not played this game a zillion times. and yet. and yet #dorian goes off to drink himself into a stupor and im two and half in as well. im so tired. not physically. just. yknow. #and dorian wants so deeply to change and redeem the thing #the society. that spat him out. he cares for it. sees its potential. i cannot help but read the paralells #to the institution i love deeply but will never love me back. not truly. not for all the potential i see in it #it's just bitterness and a deep pervasive sadness masked with self aggrandizing humour #ive become good at that. joking about how im the best. it's much better than self deprecating. but it still masks the same emptiness #alas. i am a sad tipsy sop #i am going to go run around the hinterlands. maybe fight the storm coast dragon. #no more serious cutscenes for me today #least of all with church tomorrow. sunday scaries indeed. do i go to italian mass just so i only understand half the homily #it's so much less vile that way

[chisatowo]

Gm I forgot to take my melatonin supplements last night and as a consequence I now have deep backstory hcs for deep cut. And by that I mean for Shiver, Frye and Big man had pretty normal lives fkgndjd

#rat rambles #splat posting #I rly rly dont like ex octarian soldier shiver hcs but I think it could be interesting for them to still be from octo valley #without going too deep into my worldbuilding hcs I imagine that their family sort of split up turing the great turf war #so some of them were pushed into the underground like the rest of the octarians while some found shelter with the other two hero families #I just cant imagine that literally all octarians were forced underground to begin with and I feel like its especially possible for such a #culterally relevant family to be able to find some allies willing to help them wait out the worst of things #I also just feel like its implied that octarians have like been around in greater inkling society before octo expansion #and I dont just mean ppl like marina I mean octarians that have potentially always lived outside the underground #like that diss pair octoling I feel like at most his parents would have had to left before he could remember #I just feel like it would make logical sense for octolings and tbh octarians as a whole to not have literally all been shoved underground #anyways back to shiver long story short they were put under a lot of pressure to be the most flawless at not only shark taming and stuff #but also as a political figure since I imagine the half that went underground probably have to serve a pretty strong political role #but I also imagine the two halves have some contact but its become more strained over the years as the two picked up different ideals #but yeah after shiver learned of the other half and started to also crack under the pressure they were like yknow what fuck this #so at around 13 he snuck out along with master mega which was a troublesome ordiel but didnt draw enough attention to go too badly #and they showed up to the town the rest of their family lived in and they were like holy cow kid ur so good with that shark already woa #and they accepted them without much difficulty leaving shiver to relax and by relax I mean imedietely explode from the change in emviorment #and then abt a year later big man and frye came to crash on their couch leaving to them initially being the grumpy old man of the trio but #eventually the other two help them realise that being stupid is fun so they throw away their braincells #well more like big man has a whole character arc abt independance and such and then helps shiver learn to loosen up s biy #while frye is sitting in a corner being a nerd and trying to learn shiver's dialect of octarian since theyve only ever heard the outer #version from this half of shiver's family #and shiver is having to learn like 50 different laguages gjfbdjf #but yeah I hc that frye has a big interest in linguistics which is why even though frye and big man used to only interact for like a week #each year frye still went out of her way to becomr fluent in understanding big man's language #but like on a deeper level too since I imagine most in the greatwe world at large probably have to learn at least 2 or 3 laguages in their #lifetime thanks to the wide variety of animals theyre having to commune with on a day to day basis #god I am getting off track as shit why do I have to base so much of my hcs on even more worldbuilding hcs fhdjdhj #aaand now Im out of tags shit just know they all have character arcs and shit then move to splatsvile ok by

[oflgtfol]

everyones all like wah i have wrist problems bc im an #Artist yeah well waht about ganglion cysts. Wheres my ganglion cyst gang at

#brot posts #i think this is the first time i puvlicly said whats wrong with me. lmao #and even then i have a weird version of it that like nobody else has 😔 #everybody else can get a diagnosis instantly bc the cysts are very obviously visible outside #but not me baby it took me four doctors appointments and an MRI in both wrists to get a diagnosis #bc mine are so small and embedded deep inside #which also means that they tore my ligaments and caused so much more pain than normal ganglion cysts should (: #i was essentially walking around with chronically sprained wrists for like four years #i say was cuz i think the cysts have finally disappeared since i dont have flareups nearly as much/as bad as i used to #so whenever my wrists act up nowadays i think its probably just the. yknow. longterm side effects of having 4 year long sprains #i cant know for sure without another MRI and its been years since i last got one (for the initial diagnosis) so like. lol. whatever #wait i also had x rays done before the MRI. they obviously did not find anything in the x rays but i think i should mention that #they also had me get bloodwork done to test if i had LUPUS like #it took fucking forever to get a diagnosis it was wild 😭

[megarabane]

me: i won't let this fic get out of control

morgan freeman voice: and yet the fic got out of control

#megara.txt #writing #original fic hit 105 pages (SUPPOSED TO BE LIKE A TEN PAGE ONESHOT) #and i went #“yknow what this needs” #“a companion” #and now i'm 25 pages deep into that #i mean the good news is like...words are happening! which is better than words not happening on anything at all! #but sweet jeezy creezy #fanfic #fanfiction #eta: i want to post it but my new years resolution was to not post any new fics until theyre DONE #bc posting is the fic killer #for me at least #but its close to completion so maybe itll see the light of day soon