#its 2 cities over

[agayconcept]

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#booooo i have an early morning orthodontist appt and i h8 everything #its 2 cities over #Ugh #and ofc its in an area w atrociously bad public transit #the joys #i've already moved money in my bank acct for an emergency uber / taxi if it takes too long #h8 everything #h8 that i even have to go bc #a) this orthodontist is a POS and treats me (and most ppl) terribly #b) i shouldnt even have to go bc its HIS fault my teeth moved #(took off my permanent retainer when it broke and wouldnt replace it. told me the teeth wouldnt move. they did. when i called to say so #he told me i was imagining it and making things up out of anxiety. told him no but he wouldnt listen. cut to 3 months later #and i have gaps where i shouldnt and my dentist did xrays and was like Damn Dude. they've moved a lot. go back and demand he fix it. #so now i have to do fuckin invisalign to fix the gaps before getring another wire on & its gonna cost a LOT of money that i dont have. cool #and also c) they want me to make a decision Today but i told them i need a quote to then ask insurance / disability. they threw a fit #and r def gonna do so again when i show up #ughhsgshshhs #they're also gonna blame it on my vitamin deficiencies. which ya can contribute but does Not exolain the rapid shifting my guy #that was u screwing up and now u dont wanna own up to it #he legit refused an appt w me so im seeing his colleague. real mature bro. real fuckin mature #but there's no other ortho for me to go to around where i live plus there's the whole legal thing of like. #he screwed it up so i can fight for it to be his responsibility to fix if necessary #anyway #i am anxious rambling bc i DONT WANNA GO DO THIS #i h8 dentist shit enough as it is bc of autism / anxiety / ptsd #and this office is the same one that verbally abused me as a teenager for having anxiety and as an adult for being disabled #fml #wish me fuckin luck im gonna gd need it #into the trenches we go

[caspercubed]

the sounds of the city 🏙️

#lmk #lego monkie kid #lego macaque #lmk macaque #six eared macaque #caspart #tw eyestrain #visually kinda a lot but hopefully yall still can look at it okay! #i drew the lines by following my heart and thats enough JKDFJK #supposed to be sorta uh. like soundwaves and echoes of all the city sounds and thats wy its so visually A Lot #bet its a bit much for mr Six Ears over here #i need 2 post more art !!

[ra-vio]

semester is almost over. im dying

#my oc #rune #mori #i have a project due tomorrow and its finally scared me back into drawing #even though i should be working on this project but im SO SO SO TIRED #i went on an outing like 2 weeks ago the same week that i walked everywhere cause i was desperately #trying to get my taxes done but thats a different story but the point is i was walking a lot and i went on an outing where i stood all day #and then i had to go to class the very next day thinking i was fine but i wasnt. #and that same day after i walked across the city because i absolutely had to pick a thing up. i think the same week i met up with my mom #a couple of times but i was walking the whole way there. my point is that for 2 weeks straight i have been rigorously walking everywhere #and on my feet all the time with little breaks in between and my feet fucking hurt man #i need this semester to be OVER i need to sleep for a MONTH #but i cant because i have to scrape together SOME of this project and finals are next week #this class this project is for fucking sucks. all semester ive been teetering the line between pass and fail #and its not even my fucking fault. im so burnt out so i dont want to do this project. but i might fail if i dont #i need to at least demo it but i have like. one thing done and i dunno what to tell my TA about i #how do i tell my TA and prof that everything is too much for me so i absolutely could work on this project #my laptop is broken so im afraid to use it. the server kept going down last month so i was afraid to use that #so many stupid little things keep piling up and i'd sound really weird trying to explain why i cant do my work #because my desk is on the floor and it makes me really sad so no i cant do my hw. my fave candy has red40 in it so i had to stop eating it #but now i cant do my work because i was using it to help me focus on my hw. LIFE SUCKS BRO #anyway whatever happens. i cant wait to play video games again

[lil-vibes]

bro the author of 'I was screaming your name through the radio' has got dazais "cat brings you a dead bird as a gift" caring side so right im eating rocks

#im in SHAMBLES over this fic #bro im not even done with this fic and its legit top 2 #the one above it is as the petals fall #but BARELY #both are so so good and also as the petals fall has infected me with kitsune!dazai brainrot and i havent recovered #when when he searched all over the city to find chuuya imgbkaf #crying sobbing throwing up #gay gay homosexual gay #im so so SO normal about this fic #trust me #fic rec #bsd #skk #i was screaming your name through the radio

[nabsthevulture]

I'm going to go feral and start fucking biting people if I don't hear back from a job in the next two weeks

#I am applying and applying #and if i dont get this city kennel job then i really don't know what to do #its the only kennel job in the surrounding cities #and I'm right next to it #like #ugh dude fucking hell #my friend has applied to hundreds of jobs over the past 5 months and has gotten like 2 interviews #so im considering myself lucky that i at least got a few interviews #but im fucking pissed about that one that had my drive out into the middle of fucking phoenix TWICE just to ghost me #im just really frustrated

[opens-up-4-nobody]

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#my dads back in ohio again so im back on my own. i still feel terrible but at least i have a plan #i have 2 weeks of this semester left. so i have to not fail my genomics exam and work on a group project plus grade a bunch #shouldnt be too hard but everything makes me so tired rn and i just feel this barrier between myself and everything else #even when my dad was here. i just dont kno how to feel happy. just varied levels of stress #but after the semester is over ill have to find a job for the summer. which super stresses me out bc i havent really had a real job outside #academia and im worried about how stressful ill find it bc im sure its gonna suck but at least i wont have to work on my project #i just think if i had a normal job that doesnt dominate every aspect of my life id feel a little less terrible. or at least i wouldnt send #myself spiralling so much. if i stay here i might not survive it #but what if ill just make myself miserable wherever i am? i dunno. but im gonna try to find a non academic job this summer with the epa or #maybe the usgs. i mean ive gota a bachelor's and a masters in environmental topics. that's gotta count for something #just get a government job. pray for a not terrible set of coworkers. and build something from there #it just sucks bc i feel like everythings falling apart and like i kno if i gave it my all i could pull thru and get my phd but im just so #tired of struggling against something everyone else can do. i just cant read at a level appropriate for what im doing #ugh. i dont wanna study for genomics. i just wanna sleep. i just wish i wasn't in this position #and now i a baby about it. i mean my sisters r in similar positions bc the youngest is currently looking for a teaching job. and my middle #sister is looking to move to new york city in the next 6 months and she'd be quitting her job for that. so we're all sorta in flux #i just wanna not be flailing. not watch my hopes and dreams collapse. be excited about anything. im just sad bc i have to make hard choices #even if i know theyre the right ones to make if i want to continue to exist. sometimes u cant have the things u wany. #and that sucks and i hate it. theme of the year: sometimes life sucks and theres nothing u can do abt it #unrelated

[shiroikabocha]

great to see TTP2 continuing the venerable Talos Principle tradition of giving me every dialogue option except the thing I really want to say

#the talos principle #the talos principle 2 #ShiroiKabocha plays TTP2 #guys I was born 45 minutes ago WHY are you inviting me on the camping trip #purple I think your voice is great! if it makes you uncomfortable you can change it but don’t change it on account of me #atal the thing is it’s not that death gives life meaning it’s more like… #a cat is a complex machine just like you #and complex machines can do wonderful things but they also break down #the same complexity that gives a living organism its personality and uniqueness makes it vulnerable to eventual breakdown #also if you guys put a dome over the city how will the plants get watered

[crushedoranges]

Over the course of the year I've cheated on J, tried to break up with them, became homeless, got fired from my supervisor position because of J, taken so much physical and mental abuse from them, and for some reason whenever they come around I keep letting them come back. I don't even know what I'm doing anymore.

At least I'm losing weight again.

#but hey at least im not doing drugs again #and im not even drinking as much its not everyday anymore #and ive made 2 really good real life friends #one id absolutely fuck and i told him that so now he constantly gets under my skin and knows it #j spent so long accusing me of cheating i just went and did it #after being kicked out of their moms and finally thinking the relationship was over and living in a different city for a month #now I have dudes hitting me up every weekend and its a mess #the dick is good tho so 🤷

[mistermorale]

one thing abt me, no matter how many times i listen to good kid maad city, when i reach the last few tracks i ALWAYS start crying. without exception. always.

#especially during sing abt me im dying of thrist when between pt 1 & 2 daves brother starts crying #and during the end when the old lady comes up to them and starts talking to them and then makes them pray #kendrick lamar #good kid maad city #zsófi rambles #i also cry over the literal last thing in the whole album when kenny says hes taking the van nd he'll be back in 15 mins BECAUSE THE CIRCLE #STARTS AGAIN & ITS LIKE ALL THOSE KIDS IN THE CITY DO THIS ALL THE TIME THEY FUCK AROUND ON THE STREETS GET INTO TROUBLE DIE ETC & THEY CAN #BREAK OUT OF THE CIRCLE AND IT ALL GOEs around and around....... BUT kenny did break out he did get out of the hood!!! and idk that part #gets me every time... ALSO HIS MOMS VOICE MESSAGE AT THE END OF REAL... WHEN SHE tells kenny to come home a man and also to tell the #the stories of the black and brown kids of compton and all that..... #anyways. yeah. mr duckworth best storyteller of our time fr

[lymooniee]

OK THATS IT IM GOING OFF ON A SPECIAL INTEREST!!!! N's theme in black 2 and white 2 NEEDS more recognition i swear, it's so beautiful and really encompasses everything i love so dearly about the Unova region and N as a character in general. Gosh, the way it starts off with his theme that he had in black and white but then suddenly you hear this more uplifting tone and how you can just FEEL his character growth. He no longer let's what the past affect him as a character anymore and he can feel free and happy, as he's able to share with us (the player), his new found love for training pokemon. He doesn't try to change you or force you to follow the fabricated lies that Ghetsis led him to believe of the world of people and pokemon anymore as he now follows his own path and dreams. He now has an open mind and heart and has moved on from what Ghetsis has done to him. N is such a brilliant character in the pokemon franchise and I'm so glad he's as popular as he is. From his design, dialogue, and characterization, how much it all tied to the themes these games represented TO HOW MUCH DETAIL IS WITHIN THEM UGHDHDH. I could go off about him in so many ways. I love N and I love his music within the soundtrack DONT EVEN GET ME STARTED ON EMBRACING ONES DUTY UGHHFHFHHFJFJDH SO SOS OOSSOOO GOOD. FsshajsldjHhdhdksa I love N

I had to ramble I just literally if i sound like i was spitballing I WAS HAHSHA SO IF IT MAKES SENSE BUT NOT AT THE SAME TIME I APOLGOZIE- IM SURPRISED I HAVENT SAID ANYTHING ABOUT THE POKEMON GAMES YET IM NGL HAHSJA

#pokemon is something so dear to me if you cant tell heh #pokemon black and white #pokemon black 2 and white 2 #pokemon N #i love him so much #N is just ugh #He is by far my favourite charactsr from any franchise i have to admit #other than shadow tbh #both of them #and well theres some other ones from my other special interests #but i guess i just grew up with shadow and N the mosf #IDK BUT LIKE #PLEASE DONT MIND ME AS I LITERALLG DROOL OVER THIS SOUNDTRACK AND JUST #ADMIRE HOW AMAZING IT IS #embracing ones duty now that one THAT ONE IS AMAZZINNGG #also wvrryone has heard one song at least from this soundtrack and its driftveil citys theme #SO UH YEAH THAFS HOW GOOD THIS OST IS #Youtube

[coramatus]

“Oh yeah, we just had to shake Subway Boss Ingo loose from the planet with an earthquake. Poor guy got caught in the folds of space-time apparently.”

#pokemon #pokemon legends arceus #pokemon black and white #pokemon black 2 and white 2 #over the garden wall #under the city streets au #submas #subway boss emmet #subway boss ingo #warden ingo #coramatus's artwork #tw: blood #its spare drawings time i guess #have stuff that is utterly divorced of narrative and context

[kittykatinabag]

Astarion really taking a page out of Mary Shelley's book by initiating romantic happenings over his grave.

#bg3 #bg3 spoilers #but also me on the verge of tears watching him grieve over giving up the opportunity for absolute power #the realization that if he took it then it would be killing the person he had finally started building away from his abuser #that intertwing complexity of wanting to make all his own decisions but when the ultimate choice came he still had to be persuaded by tav #that 'thats what you want right?' line to tav about taking the power of acendence piereced my heart because thats such a familiar feeling: #thinking you're doing this all for the person who believed in you but realizing that doing that isnt fundamentally different than before #and that the choice you want will destory your entire identity as you understand it #anyway i still need to level up more because fucking hell i was the same level as cazador and he wrecked me 5 times before i beat him #and lae'zel is currently trapped behind a level 16 boss that basically 2-3 turn total party wipes me rn #will say im really annoyed at how fast orin comes after one of your camp members when youre doing the logical flow of the game #like cant this wait until ive at least exolored more than 50% of the lower city? #why does going into the elfsong taverns basement for a quest (not even down to the emperors lair) trigger this? #its gonna probably be like 10-20 more hours of gameplay before i can even attempt a rescue mission now #late night ramblings

[revindicatedbyhistory]

the thing is that by the time i read house of leaves it probably wont live up to the hype because ive looked for a copy of it in like every library on earth

#including probably the biggest one in buenos aires #bro if you cant find a book in buenos aires its over that city has a library every 2 streets

[buttercupart]

@scientistredacted @valmun

level 99 cataclysmic nostalgia event dropping in 3, 2, 1

#sorry im so nostalgic over everything undertale and undertale adjacent right now and im making it into YOUR problem #its equality #maybe its equality maybe its autism #Actually maybe moreso the tism im literally in ut interest hell. im in the pits lads #anyways you know that meme thats like 'i miss him so much everyday oh my godd keep thotting it up in heaven king' #thats me. that was me like half a decade ago and its me now #Belated sorry on behalf of 17 yr old me for creepin on yer rps all the time like a freak #i literally had the social abilities of a chair back then. but it brought me so much joy! so [dr. phil voice] thank you. for that #lika month ago when The Brainrot was just hitting kendall rb'd an old redraw they drew of these guys #and i was like ooooooooooooooooohhh beans do not get me started #and then i got started #ok sidenote how on earths bountious pastures do you blockquote stuff on the new editor i cant stand this #HHAAAAAHH got it. liveblogging the making of this post in realtime to stall loggin off and goin to bed #Also sidenote 2 yeah i ref'd the pose of that one dana lumity drawing and i'd do it again. my city my freaking city #ok thats enough ive babbled enough kay thanks BYEEEEEEE #wips #alex my friend alex

[katandsquad]

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#basically having a mid distance relationship because my partner is living on the other end of the city #best case it takes us 1 hour to get to each other #worst case is 1 1/2 hours #shit sucks ass #he works really close to be my home #but he gets off work at ass o clock for me #he ususally gets off at 8pm #i have to go to bed 9pm to get up at 5:30 / 6 am the next day #he also has to work on saturdays and only gets them off like once maybe twice a month #i'm sick rn and i just wanna cuddle with him #horgh #he came over today because its his free day but i wont be seeing him until next week on saturday #probably #sometimes i just stop by after i finish work

[pinacoladamatata]

I need to be up in 4 hours and here I am, writing fic

#not me. up way later than i should be #basically rewritting all of drow lore bc i started writing a dadstarion fic #but tbh mostly the drow lore is just disgustingly racist and needs to be done away with #like if the 2 hallmarks are 1 its a matriarchal society and 2 the society follows lolth #why tf is Menzoberranzan not like THE place for MFM or high risk pregnancy? #like im supposed to believe a matriarchal city doesnt prioritize maternal care??? okay lmao #like why would they not cherish and protect any pregnant person. #and i dont want some weirdo in my inbox linking that racist writing. and calling it source material. #fuck all the source material. you hear me? #anyway. we should decide that Menzoberranzan has like top tier midwives and maternal medicine/clerics etc #also think they should have like a whole thing with the entire house pitching in for support after birth. #again. fuck the source material #we're starting over. #like we can still have political intrigue and violence etc #without the slavery and misogynoir