#it's good to mourn together

[soryualeksi]

You will be missed so dearly.

It's like a hole has been torn into very structure of the station, and we're all just standing around it reeling from the shock.

It was good to cry with everyone. It was good to put up black ribbons. It will be good to say to curious outside voices, "We are in mourning, please do not badger us."

A man missing forever.

You had the brightest future ahead of you. You would have risen to be one of the greatest. You already were for us.

I will miss you dearly. We weren't personal friends, but we were colleagues, and I will forever cherish every minute I got to work with you. Your dry humour was the highlight of many a day. Your work ethics set an example I want to follow. You lived and breathed medicine, you were loyal, 100% dependable at all times, smart, diligent, literally wise beyond your years - what do you mean, I was a DECADE your senior?? Also the absolute funniest person around, no contest. Driest humour. Wittiest comments.

I wanted to listen to you talk more and I wanted to learn from you more. I can't believe I won't get to.

You were indispensable, and I think that hole in the structure will remain. We'll learn to live with it. With something being blown out in a blast. It's good to clear the rubble together, I think this helps.

I'm crying again.

Rest in peace.

#mourning #death cw #soryuchan's personal issues #maybe this sounds overly dramantic but when you work what we do your colleagues become your comrades in arms become your family of sorts #also that might be my personal hangups but it was so validating that grown men could just openly cry and sob and hug without judgement #it's good to mourn together #better would be not having to mourn at all #i can't believe this #also my heart goes out to the station chiefs who had to keep it a secret for several hours to prepare a less chaotic announcement #they pretended business as usual and i was only wondering WHY one of them seemed so curt and angry on the phone with me #turns out it wasn't anger at me at all but someone trying not to break down shouldering the responsibility of no chaos breaking out #it's good i was sick in bed when the announcement came bc i know myself. i would have put the car off the road in shock probably #damn why why why why why i can't believe this #also very validating to share the feeling of 'no I'm fully expecting the car door to open and him jumping out right now' #honestly it's so good to have someone to mourn with #daaaaamn this is all so unfair #going through the motions of posting my remaining whumptober stuff for formality's sake now #but then i will need a break from everything

[crawley-fell]

Aziraphale not picking up Crowley in 1827 when he was small and cooing at him mockingly will always be a missed opportunity

#the flirt that could have been #we mourn our loss together #good omens #ineffable husbands

[seaworthit]

The black brides

#elinor costayne #rhaena targaryen #jeyne westerling #fire and blood #asoiaf #valyrianscrolls #asoiaf art #f&b #i made an active choice to make these outfits mismatched and devoid of heraldry given the circumstances of the wedding #elinor getting a simple dress thrown together rheana picking a dress from the targ vault with as many buttons as possible and jeyene wearin #one of her good dresses she already had dyed for mourning in the past few months as the death of her husband died with aegon rather than a #a week previously like elinors #also kinda headcannon her son was the first in a longer marrige so i could make her a little older design wise #also the faint dagger outline in rhaena's dress is meant to be bellow the garmet the outline was just my way to show its presence #btw the background lines was a texture study of birch bark from my sketchbook i recoulored visually #also pin on rhaena's viel is an heirloom last worn by visenya added at the last minute #my art

[korixae]

i want an episode of doctor who where someone important to the doctor dies and all the pain and heartbreak of all their lives piles up and they get so broken and so full of hate that this keeps happening and why can’t they just be happy and why is the universe so cruel that they turn evil and then while out and about being evil and not giving a fuck about saving people they run into the master and the master is shook that the doctor has changed bc how? that’s impossible the doctor and the master are opposing forces! it’s their whole dynamic now everything’s out of balance! and so they make it their mission to show the doctor how much good there is in the universe and the doctor is cold and harsh and vulnerable and heartbroken but the master whisks the both of them off on an adventure to demonstrate all the brilliant wonderful extraordinary happy parts of the universe but what finally gets through to the doctor is that it’s the master showing them all this. they’re so far gone that the master is trying to fix them. and they realise that the both of them have more in common than they think and that they can see it from each other’s perspectives. and then they kiss

#i’m in a thoschei kinda mood #i feel like this would be really good character development for both of them #and then they’d go through a ‘i want to be with you’ ‘but we can’t we’re too different’ kinda trope #and they’d both forever mourn the fact that if the master could just give up their evil ways they could’ve been together #and then every future master/doctor scene in the rest of the show would have loads of tension bc they love each other #idk i just want some canon thoschei #and some dark doctor #doctor who #the doctor #the master #missy dw #dw #thoschei #twissy #doctor x master #doctor who angst #the doctor x the master #upon review this might have to be a two part special idk if we can cram all that into one ep

[cienie-isengardu]

Tomas brought that mean talk Bi-Han gave him on himself. Bi-Han only said he's tired of waiting and Tomas went on a speech why that's disrespectful to their dad. Tomas was out of line. Bi-Han should have been even harsher.

Mortal Kombat 1 made it clear that Bi-Han was not at his best mental state. Kuai Liang himself admitted to be aware that his brother’s frustration ran deeply while at the same time apparently neither Scorpion nor Smoke figured out it was their own behavior and treatment of Bi-Han that fueled the frustration in the first place. The one thing the game consequently showed is that whatever Bi-Han will say, be it an opinion about Lin Kuei’s future or just angry complain, all his brothers have to say back to him is father this, tradition that and I think even the most patient person at some point would reach the breaking point. And Bi-Han did reach his, otherwise I doubt he would openly confront Kuai Liang about their father’s death. 

So as much as it is understandable (human) that whenever Tomas or Kuai Liang mentioned father or the tradition Sub-Zero lashed out in frustration, anger alone is a poor excuse for saying mean things - unless in that scene Bi-Han did in fact speak his mind about not considering Smoke to be a true Lin Kuei. Which I doubt is the case, as they were called for the first big job in a while, and looking how

Liu Kang did not recognize Tomas through the whole story mode

Bi-Han had a final say in who is accompanying him, as he rejected aid of Raiden (Fire Lord’s current Champion) and Kung Lao and Liu Kang did not try to impose them on him

I think if Grandmaster truly had an objection to Smoke performing Lin Kuei duty or not deserving being one, he wouldn’t take Tomas on the top priority mission ordered by a very concerned Liu Kang when there were plenty of other more experienced warriors to pick up. Frankly, even if Bi-Han had a doubt about his younger brother’s skills, it wasn’t a baseless assumption, as the infiltration of the enemy's fortress proved Tomas lacks battle experience in that regard. As was seen during his fall after Nitara’s attack - instead of using his powers that literally allowed him to fly, he screamed in panic and using a knife to stop the fall was his second option after instinctively grabbing the wall with his hands failed. Which proves Bi-Han’s point but it didn’t override the decision to include Tomas into Lin Kuei duties. 

But I digress, so let’s come back to the awaiting scene alone. 

Bi-Han: “How long are we expected to linger?" Kuai Liang: “Patience, Bi-Han. There are many demands on Liu Kang's attention." Tomas: "Were he here, Father would advise us to wait without protest."

For one, Tomas did not say anything about Bi-Han being disrespectful to their father nor even to Liu Kang, only that the man would advise them - mind you, them, not Bi-Han alone - to wait as long as needed without a protest. Considering the real possibility that up to his death, their father was the final authority whose words settled any dispute between brothers, Smoke brought an argument to support Kuai Liang’s Patience, Bi-Han. There are many demands on Liu Kang's attention. He simply said what father would do himself in their situation. Something he and Kuai Liang take comfort in, as they held father’s teaching in high regard, while Bi-Han did not recognize the man’s authority any longer - what the younger brothers may know already but still ignore due to their own grief, or Bi-Han up to this moment managed to keep down his frustration under more or less effective control.

This exchange led the discussion away from Liu Kang’s treatment of high-ranked Lin Kuei to the more dangerous subject of father’s teaching and tradition:

Tomas: "Were he here, Father would advise us to wait without protest." Bi-Han: "But now he is gone and I am Grandmaster." Kuai Liang: “His teaching did not pass with him. They should still guide us." Bi-Han: "Guide us, yes. Shackle us, no." Tomas: “We can't abandon tradition." Bi-Han: "Mind your place, Tomas. Father may have taken you in, made you one of us... but your blood will never be Lin Kuei."

For me, Bi-Han’s response was harsher than Tomas’ words deserved, especially as the “your blood will never be Lin Kuei” has nothing to do with the main course of the argument - i.e., following father’s teachings and upholding tradition. If Bi-Han wanted to point out that Tomas is not in position to decide the course of the clan's politics, as it was Grandmaster’s choice alone, he could have said so instead of bringing Tomas’ past. However, at the same time, Sub-Zero’s words could be much harsher and hurtful, for example to deny him the brotherhood or right to consider himself one of Grandmaster's sons. 

The whole bicker was avoidable or at least could be toned down much better if Tomas did not bring their father into discussion. Considering that Kuai Liang was aware his older brother’s patience is a thin ice due to deep frustration, we can assume Tomas knew that too. I feel like if they acknowledged Bi-Han’s complaint or at least allowed him to vent his anger in peace, none of the following arguments would follow. 

I mean, Liu Kang called Grandmaster for top important mission (capturing Shang Tsung and destroying soulstellers), so we can assume Bi-Han and his brothers drop whatever they were doing at that moment and came ASAP only to be forced to wait for unknown to us period of time - that could be a ten minutes or hours, so Bi-Han’s complaint is not baseless. 

At the same time, I feel it is unfair to accuse Tomas of stepping out of line, as that was no formal meeting and he did not undermine the authority of the Grandmaster and older brother before outsiders. The scene was solely about them and their relationship and if Bi-Han felt comfortable to break out of his Grandmaster’s role to vent his frustration to younger brothers when they were all alone, Tomas had the same right to feel comfortable enough to state his opinion in the following discussion. This is them being brothers not the leader and subordinates, the way they were during the war meeting with Liu Kang.

Please, note, Bi-Han  as Grandmaster is singled out and to whom Fire Lord addresses only, while Smoke and Scorpion stood in their place in silence and won’t speak until the meeting is officially over, i.e. after Sub-Zero’s final decision (“We will leave immediately”). If Tomas spoke during that meeting anything contradictoring Sub-Zero’s words, even if his words were correct, then yes, that would be stepping out of line and deserves any lecture the Grandmaster would consider fitting or even dealing with Tomas’ behavior once they returned to home. 

But during the moment between brothers alone from any outsiders? It is different situation, different power balance to begin with (and really, if they didn’t feel comfortable in each company and didn’t consider waiting together as the quiet moment between just them as brothers, outside the clan politics, I doubt Tomas and Kuai Liang would sit while Bi-Han, their leader, was standing).

Did Smoke really need to bring their father into discussion, especially if he knew the late Grandmaster was a sensitive topic around Bi-Han? It could be easier to just avoid that topic however if we can acknowledge Sub-Zero’s frustration as the reason for his harsh behavior and lashing out in anger, I feel we should also acknowledge that Tomas, the same as Kuai Liang, was a son mourning the loss of father. As Smoke and Scorpion had no idea about Bi-Han’s (passive) role in their father’s death, and we don’t have an idea how long time passed since that incident, so there is a chance it was still recent occurrence and the brothers tried - and failed - to find a common ground between Sub-Zero’s ambitions and Smoke & Kuai Liang’s mourning.

Maybe Tomas was so wrapped up in his grief, he didn’t care or didn’t notice he was provoking Bi-Han? Maybe he on purpose kept bringing the late Grandmaster (tradition) into discussion to force his brother to talk about their father, because grieving people sometimes avoid talking about the dead and he did not want repeat what happened to him not speaking about mother and sister, as intro dialogue implied he did not talk about his biological family after their death (Scorpion: You never speak of your mother and sister.)

For me personally, this scene is not about who stepped out the line and who should be lectured, but rather a needed indication from the narration point that the brothers are drifting apart after their father’s death. Both sides have said things that rubbed the other in the wrong way (hearing non stop about father and tradition adds fuel to Bi-Han’s frustration, Tomas’s hearing no matter how hard he will try, he will never be a true Lin Kuei hits into his sense of self-worth), but even the closest siblings sometimes argue and it happened here.

The argument should not even happen in the first place, and maybe would not happen in any normal circumstances  but since Bi-Han and Tomas and Kuai Liang are affected by things outside their control - frustration and mourning respectively - it is understandable the heavy emotions led them to clashed over relatively small things. 

If there is one thing to say for sure, they have some serious communication problems and that is only partially about Bi-Han not saving their father and lying about that. The story mode showed us Bi-Han trying to explain his reasoning - and as much as game keeps his arguments as vague as possible, he still openly states what he wants for Lin Kuei and himself, while his brothers cling to "tradition" and "father said so" but won't present any countrarguments why those things should matters. Which is a major problem, as both sides want different things and can't find a common ground to agree on.

So no, I don't think Tomas was at fault in this scene, at least not in the sense he wanted to hurt Bi-Han by bringing father into discussion, the same as I don't think Bi-Han should be harsher. What they should have done was to talk about the issue in peace and work out the solution, but alas they weren't given a time nor opportunity until it was too late.

#mortal kombat #bi han #sub zero #smoke #tomas vrbada #my replies #i feel like this scene and their clash is blown up out of proportion by fandom #either as bi han being bastard just to be bastard or tomas being bastard for talking about father when no one asked him to do so #but we needed this little clash to know things aren't okay between brothers #bi han is frustrated #tomas is a son mourning father #the same as kuai liang for the matter #but whatever they said here did not indicate bi han hated tomas or tomas was afraid or abused #bi han had right to complain #tomas had right to talk about father and looking up to his teaching in stressful situation #still it didn't stop them working well together on mission and bi han showed his worry for the adopted younger brother #so the clash here did not affect their relationship that much #thus wasn't a serious argument to be remembered i guess #and also i know sometimes it is good to avoid subject that may frustrate your companion #but sometimes confrontation is also needed to move on with the problem #i feel like tomas falls into second category here #he wants to acknowledge the elephant in the room #and as kuai liang's bio says he was concerned about bi-han's politics and new path for lin kuei so tomas probably felt the same #even if he went about it clumsily

[merlinssaggyyfronts]

i just think theres so much more to that time merlin was freeze-dying (get it? like freeze drying? im funny i swear) from the dorocha attack. like what if after those events, hes become extra sensitive to the cold??

like that man absolutely cannot STAND the cold, it not only brings back bad memories (and, unfortunately, reminds him of lancelot) but his body as an in general is weaker to it. so hes always looking for warmth- im talking sitting practically inches away from the fire, stealing blankets, jackets (particularly arthur-), cloaks (particularly arthurs)- you get the gist

and the others catch on, obviously- though they dont realise the severity of it til merlin nearly lights his arm on fire on a particularly chilly night on a hunt (“MERLIN what on EARTH DO YOU THINK YOU’RE DOING?!” “im cold” “you’re ON FIRE” “im cold :(” “?!?!”)

after that arthur, the knights and gwen start gifting him little things- an old cloak arthur insists is too damaged and fugly to wear (its in nearly perfect condition), one of elyan’s old jackets he’d long since outgrown from gwen

and the knights, well their gift to merlin is their physical body heat (gwaine in particularly enjoys holding onto merlin like a koala with the excuse of keeping him warm. the only reason arthur doesnt kill him for it is cause of merlins content smile at being warm)

#also ive had this idea in my head of merlin going into lancelots room after his passing and wearing his clothes over his own #cause with lancelot was the last time he ever felt warm #and gwen finds him and they mourn together #i just think there were fanfic opportunities here #like merlin is a dragonlord (lizard) so #hes probably not good at regulating his body temp #the knights r like his heat mat or something #honorable mentions are leon gifting merlin new boots and percy knitting him mittens #elyan (who i still think really likes amphibians and by extention reptiles) probably redesigns merlins room to be a proper habitat for him💀 #but like sorry my memory of merlin is rlly rusty! i havent been able to rewatch it ever since netflix took it down #and plus its been years since my hyperfixation ended #tho its recently come back… anyway #bbc merlin #merlin #merlin emrys #lancelot du lac #lancelot #the dorocha #the darkest hour

[ahamkara-apologist]

As killer as their brief interaction was in canon, I'm actually kind of sad that Eramis and Osiris didn't talk more. Both of them are proud, grumpy old farts that had stints at leadership that went awry because their own paranoia/desires to protect their people ended up getting themselves in trouble, and both have lost people near and dear to them as a direct result of their own actions. Plus both of them have more respect for the other side than they may let on, because they are much more concerned with what tf the Traveler has going on than something as petty as space racism. I just KNOW that the bitching sessions would be legendary and the tea extraordinary in a better world where Eramis wasn't exploited and isolated to the point of her giving up on herself and going home- even if it may have been the only reasonable way to save her

#the narrative made a good decision but im still pining for more eramis content #i just want these tired old gays to bitch together and mourn their poor choices in life okay #destiny 2 #eramis #osiris

[tiptapricot]

Thinking ab Liu Kang… thinking about a god who thinks he has lived this new life well, has learned the rises and falls of divine existence and knows what to expect, only to remember he is just a boy given too much power when he reaches a present he cannot control. Faces he used to laugh with, people he has seen grown old, different and changed, but so much the same. Events he thought he had avoided repeating themselves, his timeline slipping from underneath him for the first time possibly in millennia. What is a god meant to do when he cannot escape his own mortality, cannot escape the ghosts yet to come, the blood he must prepare to have spilled at his feet? What is a god meant to do when he cannot fathom his own power? When he is still just a boy so scared to be champion, but must now hold the weight of the universe on his shoulders?

#liu kang #mortal kombat #mortal kombat 1 #mk1 #characters that make me want to shoot myself into space #god…. I cannot fucking imagine what it must be like. to see people that are your friends but also souls you made #a world you shaped but not down to every detail #who you thought you’d grown to expect the shifting nature of only for it to be altered so fully #does he look at Kung Lao and wonder how long he will stay laughing at Raiden’s side #does he look at Raiden and wonder how long he will stay calm before the shadows come for him #does he think of children yet to be conceived #bodies yet to be broken #and mourn them before their time? #does he remember the split memories of the netherrealm and his death at Raiden’s hand? #does he remember all the good from his young self? #the friends banding together across timelines and the friends he saw fall at his side? #can he go through that again? again and again and again? #what do gods fear? #the fruit is talking again

[pittsburghhockeybirds]

F this, F that, F everything

#are.... ARE YOU FUCKING KIDDING ME? #THATS HOW YOU KILL EDDIE? #JUST LEAVE HIS CORPSE LIKE THAT AND NO ONE BUT HIS UNCLE AND DUSTIN MOURN FOR HIM? #This season has done more damage to the fans than the UD has done to Hawkins this season #ALSO JOPPER!!!! FINALLY. HAPPENED. #JANCY IS BACK TOGETHER!!!!!! #MILEVEN IS OK!!! #LUMAX PLEASE BE OK MAX PLEASE BE OK #FUCK VECNA ALL MY HOMIES HATE VECNA #stranger things #stranger things 4 #stranger things spoilers #st spoilers #st4 vol2 #st4 spoilers #eddie munson x reader #eddie munson x you #eddie munson x y/n #eddie munson #What a season good GOD

[storiesbyjes2g]

We deserve to know...

Part 2: Luca & Yasmine

This boy is my favorite son!

#extra random content #cas adventures #adolting gen 3 #I'm still kinda mourning this loss lol #They look REALLY good together #and these kids are gorgeous!

[aleatoryw]

oxenfree is such a good time loop story imo because it's about grief and it doesn't shy away from that. clarissa is easily taken by the angry, vengeance-hungry ghosts because her grief has manifested as anger too. alex is able to manipulate the time loops and set the characters' fates because she is reliving her grief, living in the same home and visiting the same places she used to live and visit with her brother - she is, in a way, already unable to move forward without "looping". maggie and jonas are both mired in grief and the only way to get a truly good ending is to convince the ghosts not to lose themselves in theirs. ren and nona's lives are significantly less impacted by messing with time because they're not grieving at all.

#oxenfree #the conversations between alex and jonas are so good because they've been brought together BY grief #they're not mourning the same person even! they're just both walking around with a hole in their chests

[stardustdiiving]

Everytime I tell people who know me pretty well I LOVED Pearl from Steven Universe as a child it’s so humiliating bc they’re always like oh of COURSE you did . I bet you loved her thing with rose quartz didn’t you and I have to admit Rosepearl was an integral part me building an understanding of queerness and they’re like that makes SO much sense. I cannot keep doing this

#fern.txt #its interesting looking back bc I feel SU being good at not making u feel ur being talked down to or talked over w how it goes #into emotions when ur watching it as a kid + the ambiguity of intimacy/love with rose and pearl just rlly clicked for me #bc i had known of gay relationships before but I have always been so obviously aromantic so if u explained them to me only in #the lens of romsntic relationships I just didn’t get it esp in how it could relate to my own identity #but idk I remember I watched rose’s scabbard over some classmates shoulder and was genuinely just so fascinated #with how pearl had all these deep feelings for another woman but it wasn’t just for the show to say they were exes n pearl wanted to get #back together with her or they used to be dating etc it was just her mourning her overall love and relationship w rose #and w my aromanticism I’ve always been able to understand love I just feel I hit a wall n disconnect when it’s romsntic love in the confines #of a conventional romsntic relationship%. so with this I was like wow I really resonate w this feeling of just rlly loving another woman and #I am able to kind of understand how those feelings fe n experiences exist outside of just Wanting To Date Someone #its rlly interesting bc I think it just continues to be a facet to my own queerness to this day #when it comes to relationships specifically I still lean towards n love ambiguity in fiction + my own work #bc I think that lets me resonate between when I jsut have this complete blind spot of being able to relate to anything with romsntic #relationships bc I’m on the aro spectrum OFL

[doobydoobydoowau]

i can't believe I just watched two men (metaphysical beings?) skate around their obvious love for one another for twelve hours only for them to ask each other out, kiss, and break up within five minutes and cut to credits?!? i am physically unwell. neil gaiman you better sleep with one eye open bc i'm COMING FOR YOU.

#good omens #good omens 2 #aziraphale #crowley #neil gaiman #I WAS SO CONFIDENT #my father didnt believe it could be but i looked him right on in the eyes and said father #i know these things. i see the subtext that your feeble mind is missing. those two absolutely want to get down with it #no way theyre just baiting us. neil would NEVER right?? #i forced that man to wager an entire dollar that they would end up together. #AND THEN I WATCHED WHATEVER THE HELL THAT WAS WTF I HATE EVERYTHING #I BRACED MYSELF FOR QUEERBAIT NOT QUEERHEARTBREAK #how tf did i miss tumblr posting ab this and not ineffable bureaucracy??? #did the site not go down out of mourning?? #feels like im going through all five stages i cannot do this right now #at this point i might have to resort to watching red white and royal blue and i just know its going to be as bad as the book #sobbing and bargaining and screaming rn ahhhhhhhhhh no no no

[20001541]

anyways I'm done being dramatic, all I have to say now the officials made it more clear that the vestige will make a come back the likelihood that afo and yoichi will disappear together has increased dramatically

#yoichi had like 0 closure so I'm assuming the author is saving something for him later with a41 #and we already got the being defeated in a humiliating manner once and for reasons I don't think tomura will kill vestige a41 #so while I was skeptical about the possibilty of them disappearing together it seems more likely to me now #and this way both a41 and yoichi will get some closure with each other in the end #and TBH I'm a bit wary about it because there's a lot of directions you can take that concept #some I dislike for my own reasons but I'll wait and see how it's executed (if it is at all) I'm just neutral towards it in general for now #anyways mourning time is OVER (for now) #I can guarantee once afo's vestige disappears for good too I will do the same thing again 😤

[dutybcrne]

A little known fact is Kaeya usually tends to cry out of frustration. Little known, because he tends to be so good at masking it and holding back when it comes to a head, with only Adelinde having been the one he felt comfortable enough to cry around, back in his youth.

Nowadays, he will adamantly refuse to cry in front of anyone, even those he’s closest to. But if one who knows him well enough might happen to witness his lashes seemingly fluttering as he rolls his eyes after a verbal bout with Diluc, they’ll know.

They’ll know.

#hc; kaeya #//He felt comfortable w/ Addie bc he wanted to be strong for Crepus & Luc. She was safe to confide. Nowdays; he feels ashamed to w/ her #//Back as a kid; he only (genuinely out of heavy emotion) cried in front of Crepus and Diluc ONCE; each #//Him crying crocodile tears to get something out of them is a WHOLE different story. But yeah #//Crepus; after he got scolded for going to Sumeru—bc he realized then how much the man cared. Crepus realized what it meant to him; too #//With Diluc; he never once legitimately cried in front of him up until The Confrontation #//Would make faces and almost tear up; at times yeah #//But he TRULY cried only that time; and it wasn’t even BECAUSE of Diluc himself #//It was because of Kaeya's Vision #//Kaeya had already only been in a bit of a spiral over Diluc lashing out & conflict of his loyalties; of Crepus' death & guilt of mourning #//But it’d been made worse by the Vision bc how was it KAEYA got to have a Vision & thus be saved from certain death by the gods #//But CREPUS; the good; kind man who’d taken him in and been nothing but loving to him; & courageous to the end was left to DIE? #//WHY would the gods spare a SINNER and not HIM? #//It had been too much to bear and utterly broke him in that moment; his sobs more akin to screams drowned out by the downpour #//Of others he’d cried in front of; Lisa and Rosaria are the only others. And even then; it's been AWHILE since either event #//Even with the extremely vulnerable moment he had with Jean after Diluc left; he kept it together for her #//Lisa and Rosaria both caught him while drunk and his fears and frustrations (respectively) bubbled right to the surface #//Significant others/close friends will NEVER see him actually cry unless it's MASSIVELY serious. Like; genuinely life-or-death serious #//Anywho BACK to the post's actual subject #//With Diluc; ever since he's come back; Kae gets so easily frustrated with how they can't get along; even if he gets Why it's so #//But it's much rarer for him to actually get upset enough to tear up in the moment; so unless you're LOOKING for it; it goes unnoticed #//Those times tend to coincide with when he up and decides to head out early for whatever reason #//Bc he Knows he's about to break; and thus tries to get away #//It's not really that he doesn't think Luc would care; it's that he Knows the man would be utterly Awful handling it #//And thus Kae would much rather take the L and lick his own wounds alone than let Luc's rep take a hit #//He does cry a LOT more than most people think; but Diluc actually has nothing to do with it then—it's actually over his paperwork #//It frustrates him the most of everything; esp since he'd always struggled with writing and reading; no matter the help he recieved #//In the privacy of his office compared to his lessons as a lad; he's actually able to get his frustrations out #//Which does help LOADS bc he's forced to take a break to cry it out; then continue a lot calmer after he's gotten it out of his system #//It's one of; his not his Only; healthiest coping mechanisms

[ghostdrinkssoup]

I’ve been playing omori for the last few days and it took me forever to realise aubrey isn’t kel and hero’s sister </3 by the time I reached the real world segments I was genuinely so confused because kel would be like “aubrey’s really changed…” and I was like ??? your sister ??? why are you acting like you don’t live together 😭

#I literally thought aubrey and kel were twins or something I’m SILLY #it’s my one complaint about the game #the relationships aren’t really clear at first #like aubrey kel and hero all have the same colour palette in headspace #and they all live together in the tree stump + kel and aubrey bicker like siblings #and aubrey treats hero like he’s her older brother #HOW WAS I SUPPOSED TO KNOW #and I’m kinda mourning that dynamic tbh… it makes more sense to me #but other than that the game is so good I’ve been very hyperfixated on it <3 #omori #omori aubrey #omori kel #omori hero #ghost speaks