#maybe this sounds overly dramantic but when you work what we do your colleagues become your comrades in arms become your family of sorts

[soryualeksi]

You will be missed so dearly.

It's like a hole has been torn into very structure of the station, and we're all just standing around it reeling from the shock.

It was good to cry with everyone. It was good to put up black ribbons. It will be good to say to curious outside voices, "We are in mourning, please do not badger us."

A man missing forever.

You had the brightest future ahead of you. You would have risen to be one of the greatest. You already were for us.

I will miss you dearly. We weren't personal friends, but we were colleagues, and I will forever cherish every minute I got to work with you. Your dry humour was the highlight of many a day. Your work ethics set an example I want to follow. You lived and breathed medicine, you were loyal, 100% dependable at all times, smart, diligent, literally wise beyond your years - what do you mean, I was a DECADE your senior?? Also the absolute funniest person around, no contest. Driest humour. Wittiest comments.

I wanted to listen to you talk more and I wanted to learn from you more. I can't believe I won't get to.

You were indispensable, and I think that hole in the structure will remain. We'll learn to live with it. With something being blown out in a blast. It's good to clear the rubble together, I think this helps.

I'm crying again.

Rest in peace.

#mourning #death cw #soryuchan's personal issues #maybe this sounds overly dramantic but when you work what we do your colleagues become your comrades in arms become your family of sorts #also that might be my personal hangups but it was so validating that grown men could just openly cry and sob and hug without judgement #it's good to mourn together #better would be not having to mourn at all #i can't believe this #also my heart goes out to the station chiefs who had to keep it a secret for several hours to prepare a less chaotic announcement #they pretended business as usual and i was only wondering WHY one of them seemed so curt and angry on the phone with me #turns out it wasn't anger at me at all but someone trying not to break down shouldering the responsibility of no chaos breaking out #it's good i was sick in bed when the announcement came bc i know myself. i would have put the car off the road in shock probably #damn why why why why why i can't believe this #also very validating to share the feeling of 'no I'm fully expecting the car door to open and him jumping out right now' #honestly it's so good to have someone to mourn with #daaaaamn this is all so unfair #going through the motions of posting my remaining whumptober stuff for formality's sake now #but then i will need a break from everything