#it's been a while see i contributed

[ladymidnight-goesforth]

Tamlin Week 2024, Day 4: (a belated) Happily Ever After

@tamlinweek

We stood atop the hill in silence, until the setting sun gilded the house and the hills and the world and Lucien called us to dinner. ~ A Court of Thorns and Roses, ch. 45

This was inspired by the meadow scene in Studio Ghibli's "Howl's Moving Castle", hence the Ghibli-esque illustration style I went for here.

Many pro-Tamlin fans prefer to think of ACOTAR as a standalone book, and I am no exception. So my contribution to the "Happily Ever After" theme is them walking off into the sunset at the end of book 1. I hope you like it.

I am the artist. Please do not repost without permission.

#i know this is incredibly late #it's been a really rough week #i didn't want to complain on main #so i just laid low for a while #but i still wanted to contribute more to the event #so here you go #i debated over whether or not to stick to canon by portraying feyre's tattoo #in the end i decided to keep it #and show tamlin embracing it #i also gave him a scar #any castlevania fans may recognize the alucard influence #but i wanted to highlight the fact that tamlin did get stabbed so that feyre could win the final trial #and it was with an ash dagger #that's gotta leave a mark #so while sjm plays loosey goosey with her magic rules #i used some artistic license to give him a scar #so there #and as you can see #feyre's hand is on his heart #where she can feel it beating #the end #whew #feylin #tamlin #tamlin week #day 4 #my art #my fanart

[bumblingbabooshka]

Thinking about Vulcans prizing “calm” over “happiness”. 

Like how humans look back on their childhood and remember how happy it was - joyful days spent running around in the sun, getting into a bit of trouble, laughing with peers and family - that’s how they know it was a good one. Meanwhile Vulcans might look back on their childhood and remember how peaceful it was. Quiet days spent studying, the warm glow of candlelit lessons in caves, getting along smoothly with ones peers - that’s how they know it was a good one. Humans typically chose their friends and romantic partners based on if this person makes them feel happy above all. The question of “Do you like being with them?” is interpreted to mean “Does being with them make you feel happy?” But since Vulcans don’t experience (or strive for) happiness there would have to be some other parameter. So I was thinking about like, what is a good relationship to a Vulcan? There’s obviously a big emphasis on ‘togetherness’ in Vulcan unions. The Pon Farr ritual Tuvok does with his [hologram] wife involves them committing to becoming “Two bodies one mind” and it’s stated that they give and receive from each other all that they are. There’s also of course the iconic “Never and always touching and touched”. This is all (as was said during T’Pol & Koss’ wedding) “The Vulcan heart, the Vulcan soul, this is our way.” Vulcans are also (ENT) expected to live together for at least a year after being married - I imagine so that they can bond with and get to know one another. In SNW T’Pring wants for Spock to honor the commitments he makes to her so in that case T’Pring values Spock keeping his word to her and placing her above other things. I see a bit of Tuvok in that, where he prizes his commitment to T’Pel over anything else to the point where he’d nearly rather die than break it: (Even though he eventually agrees to having sex with a hologram it MUST be of his wife and he lets Tom/The Audience know that he will NOT be making a habit of it. There’s no ironclad logical reason for him to react this way as a hologram is not a person but his commitment to T’Pel seems to take precedence and I believe that’s his reasoning. His bond with T’Pel is logical, sustaining and important to him and he’s loath to break it over some bodily need. some desire that will pass even if it kills him.) <- By this way of thinking, betraying T’Pel would be the emotional choice while remaining loyal to her is remaining loyal to his logical self. A strong emphasis on loyalty to one’s mate seems to be a common Vulcan trait. In the beginning this seems to be rooted in tradition but later on its probably assumed that the couple will be loyal to one another out of some sort of actual connection between two people as opposed to pure obligation. In ENT T’Pol says that a certain degree of “affection” is eventually expected to happen within a marriage (though the way she says it makes me think this doesn’t always occur and isn’t necessarily The Goal) and her mother says that she and her husband developed a “deep connection” to one another. All this makes me think that a connection and a sense of ‘togetherness’ or ‘compatibility’ would also be prized over more emotional things like a passion for one another. It’s a partnership above all and that would be prized over a romantic union.  It makes me think of Vulcans’ roots in violence and war. Maybe this commitment to a steady togetherness, two people who don’t know each other being able to work together so seamlessly they nearly become one, is a way to show they’ve moved beyond that despite the pon farr remaining. Vulcans are a naturally very emotional species. Someone who incites that would probably not be seen as someone you should spend your time with. Someone who makes your heart pound, sets you ablaze, fills you with passion - that sounds like a bad Vulcan time v_v  Tuvok says as much when he talks about how he was struck with “shon-ha’lock”. Humans wouldn’t see anything wrong with having a crush on someone (and indeed in that episode Tom only comes to the conclusion that it’s a shame Tuvok couldn’t act on these emotions) but it’s obvious that even a teenaged crush when uncontrolled can become a very big problem to a Vulcan. In one of the Star Trek Novels Tuvok even stops being friends with and talking to a girl because she tearfully admits she has feelings for him and he sees that her feelings for him cause her pain.  Instead of thinking “Oh, she really likes me, good! We’re close friends so maybe we can make this work.” or even “I don’t like her romantically but since we’re close friends we can work through it.”  Tuvok thinks “Oh, she really likes me. That must be causing her to become very emotional and I can see she’s clearly upset. I’ll remove myself from her life so my presence doesn’t incite those emotions anymore.” And while him flat out just cutting himself out of her life might seem weird and kind of cruel and a frankly hilarious reaction to someone confessing their love to you - I also think it’s something he thought of as a kindness. If his presence harms her (stirs up emotions in her) then he will remove himself to keep from harming her. Along that vein, calmness or the absence of strong emotions would be a good relationship and one worth staying in. Not that there can’t be any emotions (Tuvok and T’Les obviously care[d] deeply for their respective spouses) but that they must be controllable and able to be cast aside in the face of logic.  I also think that “knowing” the other person would be considered very important (after marriage of course). If you’re to operate as a partnership, a team, and especially if you’re both telepaths you should be able to know your spouse pretty damn well. I see T’Pring attempt to do this in SNW where she is constantly fighting to get to know Spock which Spock self-consciously discourages since he’s been told/shown that his human side is unappealing to Vulcans.  But yeah man idk...just picturing a Vulcan and a human talking for hours...walking along the beach...sleeping side by side...getting to know one another...and at the end of it all one says “You make me feel happy” and the other says “Your presence calms me” and it means, essentially, the same thing.

#star trek #vulcans #Flipside to humans seeing Vulcan relationships as frighteningly cold and formal: where's the choice? the autonomy? the love! #Vulcans seeing Human relationships as exhaustingly turbulent meandering and estranged: where's the union? the commitment? the connection! #In the star trek universe my only contribution is that I write a book titled 'Vulcan-Human Relationships: Peace & Love' #and it's never important to any story it's just a background gag #Vulcan: Is that your husband? / Human: HUSBAND?? Haha we've only been dating like a year or two. / Vulcan: I can't with this. I have to go. #I don't ever know what to call these things #ummmmmmmmmmm I hope I'm making any sense #alien affections and value systems my beloved.... #people who earnestly 100% do NOT desire human concepts of 'love' or 'happiness' - INTERESTING!!!!! #I like Tuvok a lot when i think about this bc he has a Vulcan spouse whom he cherishes while every other main Vulcan has either: #A human love interest and/or A vulcan spouse they don't want to marry #WHICH IS WHY I WISH. THEY HAD EXPLORED TUVOK'S RELATIONSHIP W ITH HIS WIFE. EVEN A ///LITTLE//// BIT. #-chewing at the walls- BUT ITS FINE. IT'S FINE THAT THEY DIDN'T AT ALL. /lie

[inkats]

Happy new year to the 7 other mysme fans

(no glasses and no gradient map under cut cause i couldn't choose)

#really starting the year off right. #getting back into mysme after five years... maybe ill do redraws of old fanart that'd be fun. #mystic messenger #luciel choi #seven mysme #mystic messenger 707 #707 fanart #707mysticmessenger #mysme fanart #this isnt great i havent drawn digitally in a while #but seven bunny is important to me. #<- not true just wanted to draw a bunny and seven. #there was only like 4 other seven bunnies i could find. so i decided to contribute. #also references are very good and important did you know ? #<- had the webcam open whole time for pose reference and it still looks off. #ahem. ill stop now. tomorrow i find out if i managed to get seven route. #oh maybe ill post some sketchbook sevens too tomorrow. been drawing him a lot lololol; #;;;;;; #god im reverting. #hello yes see i draw

[psychicmisfortune]

guess which ii character i'm still normal about challenge

#posting art on my main? #wow #anyways #i uh. am normal about them #as a system i see them so much differently like #ive been you i know you #i too have someone that's basically my exact opposite that doesn't shut up #here's my contribution since we're trending now??? #ii #inanimate insanity #yinyang ii #ii yinyang #ii yin #ii yang #ii art #fanart #art #my art #psy draws #<- havent used that tag in a while #congrats you made it to my infodumping tags! #basically i think they're wonderful but yang specifically - i think he would struggle a lot with the fact that there is actually good in him #that yes he does have the ability to be good to be like yin #i think he would be terrified of that also because oh my god ive been a monster all my life and i am now realising i have that potential to- #-be good #yin would be the exact opposite. #if he can be good then that means i might end up something like him ad that TERRIFIES the shit out of me #if i end up anything like the person who 'hates me most' (i use '' because those mofos are straight up bretheren aka 'stfu i literally hate- #-you also i need you to ask mom if we can get mcdonalds' type dynamic) #then i am royally fucked tenfold and all will ne badbad. opposites are so winning w this anyways

[rafasbiscuits]

"stop looking at me with those eyes"

"what eyes?"

#i think you guys can see a pattern here #i am obsessed with them staring at each other #ITS JUST SO FULL OF LOVE I CANT HELP IT #anyways been a while since i dropped fedal content #tada #tennis #rafael nadal #fedal #rafa nadal #roger federer #tennis sport #heart eyes at its peak frfr #i just had to pop in the tiktok trend with the what eyes thing #i cant edit to save a life so here's..pictures. #I CONTRIBUTED. I TRIED OKAY. #yes i know the pics are repetitive im so sorry #I PROMISE I'LL FIND NEW PICTURES OKAY SHSBHSHSB im just too lazy

[front-facing-pokemon]

#okay i did not have to edit this one. score #shiftry #anyway i really don't like this pokémon or anything about it. SORRY but it's true it's really ugly and its mouth and the nose #and it has the same things i don't like about it that i talked about with nuzleaf. i just don't get it but this time it wasn't in psmd #so i'm not attached to it just by virtue of that. and well. that contributes to me not really liking it i suppose #ahh well. better luck next time TPC you can make a good grass/dark-type eventually (it's meowscarada) (it took 6 generations) #hi it's me from two weeks later like the actual day this post is going to post. i came back to edit the tags so i could respond to some #comments. crazy‚ i know! but i saw the tags on this one were a bit short so let's beef 'em up. the nuzleaf post got some comments #about the whole prosthetic memory thing. where i set reminders on my phone to do shit or else i will not do the shit #i literally have a reminder set for 2:30 PM today to eat food. or else i won't even do that i bet #and folks are saying it's a common ADHD experience and that i'm not a fail and i do appreciate it. i think i was joking a bit #i was probably just frustrated i had to edit the image after taking it but the gist is. i don't *think* i have ADHD? i do have autism #which i suspected for a loooooong while until i finally up and got diagnosed when i was fucking 21 years old. which is insane. so i wonder #if that's an experience that overlaps. i imagine it is bc they proooobably would've been able to tell me if i had ADHD‚ too #okay. i moved these tags over here from nosepass‚ actually‚ which is the pokémon i just queued up. so i'm gonna go remove them from there #see you in street fighter five everybody

[bootyful-seventeen]

i am too mentally exhausted to even deal with this shit anymore with my mom and grandma and low key wish i'd go comatose for a few years to be left alone tbh

#had a clean up service come by to see the damage and give a quote on the estimate and my grandma wasnt having it #she got upset and started crying to them about she has only 1 daughter and is trying to help her and they're trying to tell her that keepin #all that junk isn't gonna be helping anyone especially my mom but she wasn't getting it and i said i'm not helping clean the junk that's #all around the house cuz i'm tired of it all and having to manage my emotions since i am for sure emtotionally stunted from my childhood #and have to deal with a schitzophrenic mom and an absent sister who's balls deep in denial while i'm struggling to find a job here #and my grandma always stressing me ot saying she's gonna kick me out isn't fucking helping here at all like she thinks it does #so when they left she spent all day sobbing on the phone how i'm a terrible granddaughter who wants to throw out good stuff #when i'm not gonna keep helping sell shit for my mom cuz my sister can do it as her family contribution since she did nothing since dad die #and the thing is i gave them all options on clearing shit out cuz i know this family by now and shit doesn't get tossed but it migrates #cuz i said months ago i can ask some friends if they could come down and help sort and declutter #grandma said no to that and said she'll kick me out if i do it and she didn't want to pay for my mom's shit to get moved into a storage uni #she leaves the clean up to my mom and i think the backyard got worse but she didn't call anyone to throw out the junk like she threatened t #so i call a fucking hoarders clean up service cuz that's what my family is on my mom's side at this point and the city will be called too #and she has this reaction cries all day and calls everyone to say i'm horrible and yells at me saying i'm the one killing her with stress #when she's already been doing that for months to herself when i'm just tired and possibly mildly depressed or something idk #i barely leave my room and don't go outside except to walk my dog but idk cuz my family's attittude was we don't go to doctors cuz #cuz they're for crazy people but of course it's gotta switch up for my mom and no one else and i'm just sick of it all #grandma doesn't accept free help and she won't accept help that i pay for myself with my money set aside for school so i'm done #unlike her when i say i'll do something i stick to it so i'm not doing shit anymore unless i can call a friend to help with this mess #it's gonna sound like such a horrible thing but i can't wait for my family to die so i can live in a clean home again and get help #like deep serious help cleaning and big time grief councelling cuz i barely had time to process my dad's death and being the one to find hi #and that was just this february like god i am going to need so much fucking therapy in my future it's almost rediculous #and probably say screw my mom's side and visit my dad's side a lot more since they seem to be the normal ones in this shit family tree #at least they're not stupid and leave junk everywhere where one neighbour getting sick of not being able to sit outside and enjoy their yar #without mountains of junk staring them right in the face and landing a notice from the city to clean up especially since #we have chainlink fences and at least 7 neighbours can see the backyard and everyone can see the front porch when passing by #i'm just tired of living in these suffocating households and even wanna file a report myself to kick them into gear #its horrible living like this and no one should live surrounded by junk and things they never use or even garbage

[invisiblequeen]

"Oh I'm sorry, you miss the catboy I used to be? Well, too bad. I'm a fucking cat man." (downs beer)

"Meow meow, mother fuckers."

#sims 4 #the sims 4 #sims4 #simblr #n0bodysims #sims4cas #cat man #I have been meaning to do this for a while #It was inspired by someone else's post about wanting to see a middle aged cat man at the bar #so here is my contribution to that dream #why don't some of y'all make some? #ts4

[writhe]

my whole body hurts SO BAD

#my back hurts pretty bad. i can tune it out a little but not ignore it. i think this is making the rest of my spine really tense? and #shoulders too? and i’ve also been getting headaches almost every day #im still a little sick but it’s probably just gonna linger until i can rest which can’t happen for a few more days (i say this like #every week though no?) #hands and wrists are like. bad worse than usual #like both numb and painful and it’s taking a lot more focus to do things nimbly or not stop stuff #*drop stuff #ankles have kinda been sore i think just from walking so much which is manageable #but it’s hard with everything else rn. also i think i kinda pulled something yesterday because i almost hit it onto the concrete while #almost BIT IT not hit #walking at night #felt like a pull? but it was painless but then i ran across the street and a numbness shot up my leg #and it’s a little tingly today #i think i need to build some more core strength honestly #and get enough sleep more than one night per week #also probably more stretches for hands and wrists #ideally i’d also love to not be enormously stressed but i do not see this happening! #im actually less stressed this week but i think the months and months if not years have done their damage #also getting beat up for fun. which i think is objectively funny to layer over all this but yknow. i think that detracts from my overall #stress & doesn’t contribute to bad exhausting pain #(-:<

[oh-gh0st]

is it weird to feel bad for not wanting to drink alcohol

#ghosts rambles #idk a weird ramble im doing while im working on asks #like. i dont usually have anything to contribute to conversations when it comes up cause #i dont drink.... i dont want to drink. same goes with smoking or drugs #i never really liked the taste nor have been keen on wanting to cause of how my family is with alcohol #i know wine is an option too but the wines ive tried in the past all tasted bitter.... idk we'll see in a few years maybe?

[kennys-parka-jacket]

I am once again thinking about The Poor Kid

#(Also actually watching the source material can change your opinion on it. Shocking; i know) #Anyway. As i make my way through season 9 i see just *how* prop-like kenny is #It puts a few things into perspective #1) the 'at least you finally get to do something' line in The Jeffersons #2) the sheer presence of death whenever kenny is used in merch; advertising; and media outside the show- Often that's his only contribution #3) in The Poor Kid we take a look at the McCormick household for the first time in a while #Stuart and Kevin are yelling and beating each other up. Carol tries to intermediate but just adds more noise to the situation #Karen clings to her mother for comfort; including herself in the chaos. And kenny quietly sits on the sidelines to avoid getting involved #And it seems this is nothing new #I always knew kenny was quiet at school and didnt initiate most of the trouble his friends get into #But already there's been a lot of episodes where he might as well not even be there #I've seen with my own eyes just how badly he gets reduced to almost background character status when he isnt suffering a painful death #And it's made all the more tragic to know this was likely a habit he picked up in order to keep himself safe from his own family

[opens-up-4-nobody]

...

#thats me in the corner. thats me in thr spotlight. rocking from side to side and not contributing to the conversation #which is to say. i made it to thr lab get together with an old lab mate. i really truely did not think i would #i was like 20min late bc of the crying and hyperventilating over a 6min drive down the road #i sorta freaked out while driving too. and almost turned around. its just that i kno i havent been sleeping enough and got overwhelmed #but i made it there. and i dont think i looked like id been crying but i probably looked a bit blank faced and miserable #as i rocked from side to side for like 2hrs listening to ppl talk. i enjoyed it exactly as much as i expected. it was good to see the guy #again but i just dont connect in group gatherings idk. im glad its done. also fucking we were sitting there and a group comes in and whos #in that group?? someone i have avoided seeing for like a loooong time. the guy who tried to be in a relationship with me back when i 1st #started as a grad student. i say relationship. i was explaining to him why i couldnt do any sort of romantic e tanglement and he was very #firm abt not wanting a relationship. and im like bro im explaining u why no romanticly adjacent thing is gonna work. u literally asked me #to physically hold ur hand thru this. u r somehow more emotionally invested in this than me and also are telling me that u just wanna fuck #me. so like u r not slick. whatever. it was so fucking stressful at the time. which i feel bad abt bc it wasn't really his fault #i was just less self aware so i didnt kno i have bad awareness in the moment. like i dont kno a lines been crossed until a week later when #im laying on thr floor falling apart. so like i wish him the best. didnt kno he was still around. hopefully this doesnt trigger stress #dreams. all this to say i was very fucking tense. and when i got back in my car i was like shaky and panting lol #idk looking back its just such a weird situation with that dude. if i was anyone else it woudlnt have been a big deal but #my brain just doesn't process physical touch right. so now ive got these horrible touch memories that like on paper r literally nothing #but for me they were so unfathomablly awful when i 1st aquired them. i literally could not deal with any romantic stuff for like a month #bc it would like trigger me. now thst its been like 3 years its not bad tho. just like gives me thr ick but i dont get #stuck in the memories too much. its so dumb. whatever. point is im all sore now from sitting all tense haha #unrelated

[starlit-mansion]

i don't really look at tumblr on the weekends now for avoiding life series spoilers so this will also serve me for fnaf movie spoilers lmao

#i haven't decided if i'll see it thursday (is anyone seeing like a huge amount of showings available on thursday?) or friday #tomorrow i have a really early doctors appointment so i will likely be zonked but. it's just going to sit in a dark room so maybe #either way. i'm not going to post about it for a while (maybe tagged nonspoilery fanart starting monday) so no worries from me #been seeing the fnaf blogs i follow start to be really upset about spoilers and i'm not going to contribute or anything #but also it just generally means that i won't get the 'day of' energy that i like when a highly anticipated thing comes out #but also. like i said. life spoilers piss me off because they're always like. from people who are already writing angst ficlets #so it's a sacrifice i must make to not see a funny joke in a video already spoiled by someone's stupid fucking headcanons lmao

[whoviandoodler]

I sometimes feel bad for skinny people bcs they'll gain a bit of weight (often via natural weight fluctuation) and immediately have a system failure and thirty two identity crises and then start weeping instead of considering their relationship to fatness and the implications of being terrified to no longer be skinny like. this your first rodeo bud?

#weight mention #dan talks #this is half genuine bcs it sucks to be so insecure and scared of a natural and morally neutral thing #and half patronizing bcs like. they never reach any kind of self awareness??? #its just cycles upon cycles of hating fatness and contributing further to how our society views fat ppl #had this girl who was like skinny skinny start complaining abt how she was getting fat after eating #and i was just sitting there like hello??? u gonna. u gonna think abt that??? #eds aside skinny ppl will just cradle the status thinness gives them and never consider it aside from how to keep it #and then absolutely implode when it's threatened #like being fat sucks bcs of fatphobia but once u unlearn shit u get rid of such a huge burden of constantly trying to grasp that status #and then u just see ppl who have always been skinny and like. they never had to have that journey??? #theyll just keep perpetrating diet culture and all that bs and forever be trapped #even if theyre the privileged ones #idk where im going w this exactly its just a thought thats been circling in my mind today while going to the grocery store lmao #and where better to write down half-connected thoughts but on tumblr.com w/ replies turned off

[teddybeirin]

I am a normal student you can trust me with library access I am allowed to be there

#yvette #if I could only get out of here #for good & not just as a temporary freedom that is taken away #I can feel it all the time straining in me - there is so much I need to learn & do & see & experience here. there is so much I want to #contribute to the world - to other people. But that is not ever enough #it has never been enough to overcome these things. for so many before me & after me & with me who could do so much if only #they could be housed & fed & free from abuse & allowed entry into these institutions. I know among the dead to be uncountable people #just the same as I in this. it is not a marker of it being untrue - that there is so much to be contributed - that one would be stopped #one way or another from being able to participate in life. being here is very much just the same as being deadened #but the knowing of this - the unfairness & lack of guarantee & the lack of meaning especially w/ regards to the outcome #does not make it any less. the wanting & the hunger for it.. #when I am not doing what is possible while still stuck here the hunger eats at me instead #were it only so simple as sacrificing one thing or the other even just to be free to *try* #I could sacrifice damn near anything - sad that demons never seemed to want my soul!

[vilevampire]

it's so funny how I've seen multiple jazzllocer shippers say something like "I'm the biggest jazzllocer fan (because there's no one else to take this spot)" like I swear I've seen at least a few people say smth to that effect or something that implies it and I'm just like . guys . guys we can't ALL be the #1 jazzllocer shipper that's just not how it works

#lucasings #jzlcr has a funny phenomenon going on bc it's such a small ship that the few fans there r hadn't been able to find each other really #nowadays I have my trusty discord people to talk about jazzllocer #I'm very happy actually that I managed to find a bunch of other ppl who also like jazzllocer a lot #like when I made a forum post for a while it was mostly just me talking #and sometimes 1-2 ppl would chime in #but MOSTLY me . I had to start the conversations #and it's slowly becoming lesser and other ppl r contributing more and more ideas even when I'm not around #makes me happy #so nowadays jzlcr fans have that little space if they wanna talk abt the ship #but before that ? I don't think they really had any sort of group or even communication #like if I search for jazzllocer stuff on the jp side of the fandom #I always see the same group of people talking to each other abt jazzllocer #they have their own little community there #we had none for a while until I kickstarted the battler #all of the jazzllocer shippers just existed in parallel to one another #I think some might have like . been active on and off in the fandom too or aren't active in the fandom anymore #and by the time shipper A stopped talking abt mairuma/jzlcr shipper B had just joined or something like that #that'd explain why I found multiple of those kinds of posts