#it’s been a rough road

[cosmicpoppies]

What a difference a year makes....happy birthday Peachy 🍑 💞🎉

#i dont think i ever formally introduced her #partly bc its been tumultuous times for a long time #but this is Peachy Steve!! she is 1 year old today #we got her to be my partners ESA (along with Mitzi becoming one too) #shes my first dog and first puppy and the road to 1 year has been rough but i wouldnt trade her for the world #peachy

[coldzonkprofessorturtle]

This was definitely not the announcement I was expecting from the Warrior Nun saved countdown. I thought maybe one movie but three sounds incredibly ambitious. Listen, I very much want to be excited about this but I would caution everyone to just be very aware that the industry is in an incredibly tumultuous period. The strikes probably won’t end before the year is up and I don’t know what that means for the production/story/casting of these features. By all means this is huge but also it’s important to stay pragmatic. Celebrate the win but until more is confirmed I’m still hesitant as to what this actually will mean.

#warrior nun #save warrior nun #avatrice #ava silva #beatrice #it’s just we’ve been down this road before #I have more faith in this then say juliantina #but still #the industry is in a really rough spot #and I’m wary of the idea of announcing three movies #I hate to say to stay guarded but I think that’s important

[hella1975]

my mum picking me up this morning: you're not as hungover as i thought you'd be

me, just yacked in an alleyway: yeah haha

#it's 3pm now and i still cant believe that happened that was. an experience #basically my mate's 21st coincided with her sister's 30th so they both had this big joint Event last night #where they literally rented out a farm house and the field nearby and set up a whole campsite and barbeque and everything #it was really random but also really good esp bc ive been friends with this girl since we were super young #and our mums were friends so ive just got. lots of connections to her family and it was nice seeing them all again #but there was fully like 60 people at this thing and i DID drink more than i meant to but i wasn't paralytic which is good #and my hangover ISNT that bad in terms of how bad my hangovers can get #it's just that my mate's dad picked us both up at 9am this morning which was already going to be... rough #and then proceeded to do the bumpiest drive down the country lanes ive ever experienced #i was literally grinding my teeth like i am NOT about to throw up in this man's car please if there is a god do not let me throw up #and i didn't! my mum picked me up from this (thankfully very quiet) road that has this rickety old alley coming off it #and i had the very humbling moment of 'im actually going to be sick aren't i' and had to WAIT FOR AN OLD WOMAN #TO FUCKING MEANDER OUT OF THE ALLEY AND WALK FAR AWAY ENOUGH FOR ME TO AT LEAST HAVE A SHRED OF DIGNITY #and proceeded to throw up. in a public alleyway. at 9:30am on a sunday. so of course i needed to tell you guys about it #im now force feeding myself garlic bread. im going to manchester tomorrow. i have a flight at the crack of dawn on tuesday #what is even going on anymore #also fully did just do nos last night with some 30 year olds. i cannot express how fucking odd a thing that is for me to do #actually no i can express it bc youse know that im funny about drugs so for me to not even be that drunk #and get offered a fucking balloon of all things and be like 'yeah why not!' is.... odd #i know i inhaled wrong though bc it didn't do a thing which honestly im happy about <3 #hella goes home

[memes-saved-me]

The shift from Joel calling himself and Tess good people to Tess telling Ellie they're not good people years later

#its been a rough road for them #tlou #the last of us #joel miller #tess servopoulos #tlou spoilers

[devilfic]

I’ve had this idea for vampire!bruce for a few days and uh. hm

#I also apologize for being mostly MIA….. it has been a rough past week #little one crossed the rainbow road last week and I have been self-soothing with baldur’s gate sjdhdjdh #mjspeaks

[netripper]

actually now that i think ab it johnny wouldn’t get pissy over vic’s driving. he strikes me as a joyride kinda guy. i’m like 100% sure he grew up around a bunch of car rednecks with these crazy ass hotrods in the 90s, then hotrod culture died down, then he got to NC and lo and behold it’s fuckin flourishing

#johnny silverhand #vanta rambles #source: both halves of my family have car rednecks #they regale me with tales of street racing and souping up these beautiful cars in the 80s #i think partly the 90s too #there was such a rich and vibrant road culture back then in FL and i’m kinda sad it’s all been sterilized #good to be safe on the road but ykwim #it’s like the death of malls to me…… #the proximity of the cyberpunk setting to the 80s is what makes this whole thing work #ok i’m gonna ramble more ab florida roads hi guys #there’s also more ppl here than ever (Stop it. Don’t move here! It tooootally sucks!) #so it’s just untenable to do some crazy shit on the road like u could 30 years ago #i can’t even pull out of my neighborhood without having to play fuckin frogger waiting for the right moment to go #even going out the BACK is rough #if it was as quiet here now as it was when my parents moved to this neighborhood we wouldn’t have a problem #now literally the car line for the elementary school reaches our neighborhood AND ppl park in our neighborhood to pick up their kids #WHICH IS EXPLICITLY NOT ALLOWED #anyway. point is god i wish the roads down here weren’t a fuckin nightmare #driving is fun and i like it even if it exhausts the hell outta me #wouldn’t be so exhausting if all the dang ol orange groves weren’t squashed to make way for subdivision no. 287

[benicebefunny]

Burning Man has been rained out and Jimmy Buffet is dead.

Please spare a thought for the white boomers.

#burning dad #my dad just texted me from burning man saying that the roads in and out are closed #all events are cancelled and people are told to stay in their campsites until the playa dries out #it has been a rough first year at sleepaway camp for my dad #he lost (and then found) his phone yesterday #he wasn't allowed into the campsite early due to rains #and now this #i haven't had the heart to tell him about jimmy buffet #he isn't a parrothead but i can only assume he bears some bizarre affection for the man #i fear the news may break him #(to be clear i find this all very funny #he went to cosplay homelessness in the middle of the desert #forgetting how poorly actual homelessness worked out for his own father #let's not tempt fate here pops)

[paradoxrealm]

(I'M ALIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIVE! Well- Mostly alive- But! I'm here to chew gum and torment characters, and I'm all outta gum :) So! Time to get my smooth brain back into gear before work kills it again-)

A Return Worth Waiting For...~

The strange new fragment seemed to straighten up a bit, a shy smile on her lips as her fiery button eyes seemed to shimmer and flicker like a candle flame, so full of life and spirit and power. It almost makes Moon wonder if her eyes looked the same way.

...Y-Yes. ...My old name was Mesánychta, but... I suppose a new life meant a new name, and I think I've taken quite well to the name "Midnight" now though.~ ...It's nice to finally meet you, Moon.~

She gave a respectful bow in return, her manners seeming to match Moon's in a sense, feeling a bit more... old fashioned almost, though the more modern mannerisms of Astel and Eclipse seemed to bleed through as well. The Beldam could almost feel her true age despite the influences of her reborn light and shadow, her ancient soul finally showing its true colors as well as its age, power, and knowledge that was once lost on the girl that was her rebirth.

...Please forgive me if I'm a smidge quieter than my light and sister shadow. ...I'm... still finding my way, I guess... ...I'm still a little lost having two, technically three, sets of lives inside my head so... it's a little rough. ...But I know your face. ...From Astel and Eclipse's memories I know your face. But... what's even more strange is that I know you, wh-what you are. Even after eons that knowledge has yet to be lost on me. Though... I've never seen a Beldam like you before. Last I saw one of your kind their power and they themselves took on the form and image of wooden marionettes rather than dolls, and consumed blood rather than eyes. Strange fellow, but still rather kind, so long as you never fell under what they defined as "food". And they had the most wonderful library with books and scrolls spanning Ages. Rumor had it that they even had parchments from Alexandria itself before it was burned. ...You remind me a bit of them.~

...

...Huh. Suppose they weren't kidding when the girls said that Midnight was ancient if her depth of knowledge just at the surface was anything to go by. Eons of knowledge spanning worlds upon worlds.

...

...

...this world is still so young, this dimension still taking its first steps, still forming its own identity. And it seems that it's not quite finished with said identity.

Creation is not yet done with this little world.~

This world? It is waiting to make a few unique changes, and those changes are just moments away as the very fabric of this reality slowly begins to quiver and quake, preparing to rearrange and rattle the very threads that define this world.~

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He could feel it- the anticipation of change teetering around his realm. It was strange to be sure, though not entirely unwelcome- so long as the changes kept from troubling him, of course. He could of course blame the feeling on the appearance of his dear old friend- he knew better to think it was just her, but some part of him hoped that it was.

He shifted slightly at the mention of another Beldam, his curiosity clear. He was a recluse at the best of times with no desire whatsoever to run into another of his own, but he still found it interesting to hear of them nonetheless. Not to mention hearing of one that was clearly far older than himself.

Moon quite liked his own cozy little realm, young though it may be, it was his. He had bonded himself so tightly to the very fabric of the place that he had doubts for how long he could properly stray from it without consequence- not that he wanted to.

“… How very curious,” he smiled, offering the slightest tilt of his head “I do hope your time with them was peaceful. They can be such nasty little hosts at times,” he chuckled, somehow managing to sound both like he was making fun of himself yet not at all grouping himself with them at the same time. “What terrible taste, blood…” he hummed, making a face that failed to pull his smile down. He of course only sought after the eyes of his prey- to make an entire gorey mess just to make use of their innards sounded beyond distasteful as far as he was concerned.

#submission #yo my brain has been so dead- #hey I've been recharged by time with my partner tho! #so let's get this show on the road :) #oh hey welcome back!! and mood dndndn it’s been a rough little while to have a brain #glad to hear your partner is helping though! #a return worth waiting for #Coraline au #ic

[swordsonnet]

on the off chance anyone on here followed me for my jonmartin fake dating au, currently standing tragically unfinished at 7 out of 8 chapters: i'm still working on the last chapter! i would love to have it up this year, but unfortunately i can't make any promises, because i've started a new medication and the side effects are wreaking havoc on my mind and body. haha isn't chronic illness fun. but rest assured the fic is the beating heart under my floorboards, and i WILL finish it one day

#i feel pretty bad about it because my update schedule has been really inconsistent for the whole fic :/// #and now the final chapter is going to be even more epically delayed than the other ones #should've probably finished the whole thing properly before i started posting it but you live and learn i guess #my chronic illness really messed with my ability to write and i hate it #like the chapter is almost done. under normal circumstances it wouldn't take me long to finish it #but it's like my brain has forgotten how to make words happen. ugh. #i don't want to let people down by making them wait so long for an update #but i also don't want to let them down by giving them a mediocre chapter y'know #if all goes well the new meds might help with both the chronic fatigue *and* the depression which would be an absolute godsend #but ngl. the side effects are rough. and they can apparently last for up to six weeks #and i've only been taking the meds for about 2 1/2 weeks so i've still got a long road ahead of me #i also started my period yesterday which certainly doesn't help lmao #delete later maybe #just needed to vent for a lil bit. and as everyone knows there's no better place to discuss your private business than tumblr dot com

[floral-hex]

woke up at 4am feeling the weight of my life crushing me, so I’ve been sitting out in my car for the last couple of hours because I just need. to. be. somewhere else.

#tumblr ate something like this but I think I deserve to shout uselessly into the void #shits rough dawg #I know it’s rough for everyone. I feel shitty even talking about myself. still… compelled to vent… big butts #haven’t really been on here much since it hasn’t really scratched that itch lately & just makes me feel lonelier #it’s cold #saw the Jazzercise studio open across the street. 5am for Jazzercise? wow. early. #and then everyone left an hour and a half later. lights out. everybody gone. weird schedule. I am perplexed. #went down the road and got a soda and I’ve been sitting in my driveway contemplating for the last 2.5 hours #guy at the gas station tried to talk to me but I just half assed a smile and nod and left #even though I know I’d love to just… talk to someone. I suppose it has to be ‘on my terms’ whatever those are #I miss having a therapist. or even just when my little brothers would talk to me. when anyone would. blegh #my insurance is still a mess and I’m about to run out of one of my blood pressure meds this week #maybe I’ll have a stroke. scary to think about. I think about dying a lot but that potential feels too real. just… pop! and I’m done. #I’ll try today to finally push to straighten it out but everything feels daunting #woke up with so much anxiety. about my health. my hearing. no money. my life. had to get out of the house even if it’s just right outside #hate to say it but I need(want) thc. haven’t wanted to spend money on it but I could have really used it this morning #can’t be sad if you can’t feel anything (jokingly but also not. whichever is less sad sounding) #actually treated myself to Dune 2 last week and it was so so good. wish I could go again. but it’s drugs food or movie right now. so… #I know. dumb priority but BIG SCREEN. maybe it’ll hit theaters again for the next awards season hopefully. just a real nice loud experience #anyway… I should go inside. almost 7am. need to take my brothers to school then drive my mom to her daily appointments #I’ve felt so hollow and angry and sad for so long it feels like. I feels so weak and sad and I’m tired of it. I’m so tired. #I’ve been eating about 1 meal a day and sleeping a lot. this is the worst my body has ever been. I feel like I’m just waiting to die. #is this relatable? #just have to look past it. it is nothing. this body is nothing. just enjoy your soda. #gonna look at pictures of butts now #ok gotta go I love you goodbye forever #you can ignore this #text

[rinnysega]

Hot girls cry after therapy while drinking tea out of a “🐝 Bee Happy 🐝” mug

#self love is the hardest shit to be ok with #and how to live authentically when you’ve been conditioned not to #it’s a rough road but I’m glad I’m on it

[mishwanders]

It’s May. This month makes it three years since I left the toxic religion I was raised in. This month makes it three years since I’ve felt like I was able to take control of my life, to make decisions for myself, to write and make things without fear of my writing or creativity being taken away from me or manipulated again.

It’s been three, very long years of unpacking all the baggage, going through it and all the trauma that surfaced when I was finally able to look at it and not just force myself to continue on for the sake of surviving.

It’s been three years since M passed away, the man I stood next to every week for years as we played music together, the man who really became the catalyst for my decision in the end.

It’s been three years since I bought my first cane. It’s been three years since I truly began to accept myself and the way my body works, since I really began to show myself the love and care I knew I was worthy of, despite what I had always been told.

It’s been three years and to be honest, I never thought I’d get this far, I never thought I’d feel this free. I never thought I’d get to actually live and enjoy my life, and it just feels so damn good.

#mish rambles #I’m feeling emotional #it’s been a long road to get to this point in my life #and I’m god damn proud of it #even if shit is still rough around the edges #but it’s my life now it does belong to anyone else #and that feels so freeing

[nanlanmoarchived]

Another life update: I'm graduating to every other week in therapy in just about a year and I'm so 🥹🥹

#ooc #its been a rough fuckin road brethren #but im doing the damn thing

[redstarfish-art]

AJLskjawleal;kedj okay, I never saw the official translation for Law’s hobbies but what? WHAT?

No not the coins thing, I knew about that.

But vagrancy!?!?!?! WHAT!!!?!?!?!?!?!

#laughing my head off #Trafalgar Law #he makes me laugh he's so random #must have been all those times sleeping rough while Cora-san was taking him to all the different hospitals #I'm just imagining Law randomly lying in the middle of the road for no reason now #like lol #omg #One Piece

[pyreshe]

I'm nervous as hell. tomorrow I have to go see a specialist about the stuff I've been dealing with and they'll hopefully figure out what's going on. and then on thursday I'm going to officially give my job 2 weeks notice

#its been so rough these past few months #✧･ﾟ: *✧･ﾟ: ooc / [mothman vc] take me home country roads

[kazoologist]

I actually really fucking hate how anything in my schedule not going the way I initially Intended For It To just automatically makes me a massive fucking crybaby and or a raging bitch. Like dude. The grocery store does not hate me. It sucks that my schedule requires me to get there an hour earlier no matter what but like. They didn’t do that to me. Why am I always so upset whenever I have to change plans. I change plans too! I’m a living person!!! Why am I so fucking upset about this!!!!!!

#personal #im gonna delete this later I’m just venting #I’m also fine I’m just having a rough day and I can’t figure out why my emotions have been so fucking volatile. It’s so frustrating that #I can’t figure out how to get a handle on my emotions. I know I need to feel things but the problem is if I let myself feel them too much #Then I’m going to spiral or lash out at some random bystander and both of these make the initial feeling worse #I just can’t pull myself out of that quickly enough recently. It’s not an issue of ability bc I can. I just can’t do it. #wait that’s contradictory. I’ve been really struggling too recently. There we go. There’s accuracy. #Either way. Didn’t I spend all year in therapy last year trying to get this shit together? What the fuck. #Why is it the second I show a modicum of progress I immediately hit a single pebble on the road and get sent ass over teakettle #Progress isn’t linear but it also sure as hell isn’t meant to be a time loop. That I’m pretty sure of. #God everything’s just been so difficult this year. Shit that used to be almost instinctual to me now is a nightmare. #Maybe it’s growing pains and I guess that’s valid but how long do I have to have them #The good news is that thus far I have not snapped at anyone so at least right now we don’t have any casualties of my bad attitude #I feel so bad being so worried about that but like seriously no one needs me to be snapping at them. Even if I feel catharsis in the moment #We all feel bad immediately afterwards #It’s literally not even been a bad day today. I cannot emphasize how this has been the only problem today. Literally so much good happened #Ugh #dont look at me