#it was fun as fuck tho makes me sad

[cathedraldecay]

bullets songs as ‘00s DVD menu screens

#this was so fucking fun to make #wish i finished it on bullets day tho :| #ive never done these before i cant believe they came out so cool #it made me sad theyre not actual movies #my art #bullets #mcr #my chemical romance #gerard way #frank iero #ray toro #mikey way #i brought you my bullets you brought me your love #fanart

[luck-of-the-drawings]

"I think this is the most inhuman; and human, that I've ever felt.." MUCH CAN HAPPEN IN A YEAR. IN FIVE YEARS. A DECADE. imagine how much can happen in a century. just ONE (1). How will you grow? what phases do you find? even in 5 years, you will find patterns.

#jrwi fanart #jrwi show #jrwi suckening #jrwi suckening spoilers #jrwi the suckening #arthur bennett #HEY SO THE REALLY FUNNY THING THAT THE CHARACTER DID THAT SEEMED RLY SILLY N GOOFY IN THE MOMENT? #LIKE THE WHIPLASH BETWEEN SERIOUS N SILLY ALMOST PISSED YOU OFF? WHAT IF I FOUND A WAY TO MAKE YOU SAD ABOUT IT #this was meant to be a scribble that would be a bigger part of a bigger page.might leave it on that page. #but still. bc o that i nearly posted it onto my wacky side blog.BUT NAYY I SPENT TOO MUCH TIME N ENERGY N YOU GOTTA SEE IT #ARTHUR BENNETT DRIVES ME CRAZY. I FEEL LIKE ITS ODD FOR HIM TO BE SO TECHNOLOGICALLY OUT OF TOUCH #WHERE HAS HE BEEN. HAS HE BEEN IN WAR? IS THAT WHERE MAGNUS CAME FROM? WHERE WAS HE WHEN HE WAS WITH EDWARDS CREW? #ARTHURRR I HAVE QUESTIONS ARTTHUUURR!! HEY CAN I ALSO ASK; WHAT THE FUCK HAVE YOU BECOME #DO YOU THINK HE HAD ANY IDEA HE WOULD VEER CLOSER AND CLOSER TO THE MONSTER HE DESPISES. ALL BC HE DESERVES IT. OR WATEVER #HE FASCINATES ME SO MUCH. TO LOOK AT THE STONE COLD STOIC FOOL FROM THE START OF THE SHOW #AND TO FIND OUT THAT HE USED TO BE A BAD BOY.. A DELINQUENT... A LIL PRANKSTER.... MY GODDD THATS ADORABLE #I WOULD LOVE TO KNOW MORE.... BUT I DOUBT THE LAST EPISODE IS GONNA ANSWER THOSE QUESTIONS..i love arthur bennett so much.... #AS FOR THE ART!! i mostly used the fire alpaca watercolor brush. tbh im not a brush guy. anti aliased default pen tends to be my main game #but LATELY IM SQQQUIRMIN OUT OF AN ARTBLOCK so expirimenting like this is helping #DONT LOOK TOO HARD AT IT!! im still proud tho. colors are fun :3 im also very proud of the backgrounds #I LOVE THE CARTOON THING where the background looks all fancy n painted but the characters are solid colors #what else can i ramble abt. OH YEAH. i looked up the bikes to make sure they were time accurate tehehehe. 1913 to 2012. #almost a century apart!! isnt that neat? ALSO FUUUCK CAN I JUST MAKE A QUICK CONFESSION. DOWN HERE IN MY TAGS. #only the strongest can read my tags anwyay. SO I REALIZED WHY I LOVE ARTHUR SO MUCH. TIME IS A FLAT CIRCLE #while arthur is a Stoic and Cool vampire w a knack for being playful/silly; who alsos been alive fora century thus witnessing HORRORs #THERE HAPPENS TO BE A ROBOT FROM A BAND W A TITANIUM ALLOY SPINAL COLLUMN #WHOS A Stoic and Cool ROBOT w a knack for being playful/silly; who alsos been alive fora century thus witnessing HORRORS #the fuckkkiiinnngggnn The Spine from steam powered giraffe. WHATEVER. i cant escape from my heart. i guess. #i think The Spine and Arthur could be friends. Arthur saw the band perform back when they were the Steam Man Band #EDIT: WOOPS I DIDNT REALIZE THIS WOULD END UP IN THE SPG TAG. HI GUYS DIDNT KNOW U WERE STILL ALIVE SORREE 4 THE CROSS CONTAMINATION

[anatomical-puppet]

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[reblogs appreciated! id in alt]

#this took SO LONG. URGH. #it’s not quite a study bc it’s still my style #i just kinda painted it in a leyendeckeresque fashion #it was fun tho!! just very time consuming #puppet scribbles #puppet ocs #ivan young #theodore burke #i don’t think ive ever posted about them . i should talk abt them sometimes they make me so fucking sad

[halscafe]

anton: i’m not good with words

also anton: you deserve words. words as beautiful as you. words as wonderful as you make me feel everyday…. but, all i find inside myself instead is this. the beauty in just being at your side. feeling your touch. your warmth.

babes that was straight up poetry just, the way i MELTED (╥﹏╥)

#just fucking anton man #how is it that avior aka mister sad man got a nice fun hbs video and anton got straight ANGST #me being optimistic for anton thinking it was gonna be some gardening video NOPE THOUGHT WRONG #23 minutes of sad™️ #it’s all good tho the content was tasty and it’ll make his reunion with his listener even better 😍😍 #<— me choosing optimism instead of dread for the future of project meridian #redacted asmr #redacted audio #redacted anton

[fridaynight--saturdaymorning]

SPARKLEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE

YAYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY

#Bestie stepdad pulling through as always thank you sjonners #I just ate a whole punnet of raspberries and I’m feelin funkey 😎 I’m gonna drink 1 of my fancy waters now bc I need drink and I think it’ll #Make me feel a bit better cause I sadded myself there for a sec #It’s a dash water they’re so a scrummy nobody ever believes me on that tho #Tomorrow I mighttttt buy one of those overpriced lime flavoured liquid death drinks from the co op #I will deserve it after my extra shift during late night shopping #I’m gonna buy some liquorice at work I have a cute little jar that I can put it in which is fun bc I fucking hate packaging and bc it’s all #Traditional style in there the sweets all come out the big jar and get done by weight before they go in their lil bag #It’s iconic I wish everything still worked like that refill shops are my best friend

[ghost-proofbaby]

ghost. i literally just got back from my classes today and hopped on to check my dash and saw the eddie being jealous abt astarion fic and oh my god… when i tell you that might be my favorite thing you’ve ever written. genuinely. it was so soft and sweet and i LITERALLY GIGGLED OUT LOUD WHILE READING IT!!!! i’m going to cherish that so close to my heart im literally obsessed with it

😭😭😭

i literally adore you so much thank you oh my gosh

i just needed it. between that and my wip about eddie reacting to you getting the mind blown achievement…. they just make me giggle. like yup. i’m taking him, shoving him into my modern pocket, and he’s gonna play bg3 with me because i said so <3

(btw eddie talks big game for someone who definitely fell for astarion’s charms his first playthrough. he vowed up and down he’d romance shadowheart or karlach but then- oh shit, oh no, that pretty vampire wants to spend the night with him? he can’t possibly say no. and oh shit oh no, he’s suddenly meeting him in the forest? baby boy definitely had to reevaluate his priorities and save scummed to be back on the shadowheart romance path)

#thank u ily <3 #it was truly so fun to write #writing it made me sit back and realize how the two characters that live rent free in my mind tho are… kind of similar #like they both have such tragic narratives #it’s kind of heart aching #it feels like their writers knew i existed out here with my cursed savior complex #and they knew id experience their stories and say ‘fuck i need to protect them from all the sadness’ #the intense need to make eddie munson and astarion experience real and pure love #real and pure happiness #i’ll hop off the soap box i just think my fictional boyfriends deserve the world

[todayisafridaynight]

i went on a walk and came back 60% more evil

#snap chats #you know that meme of spiderman holding back the bus while a kids walking across the street thats me @ myself right now #STOPPPP STOP BEING SAD STOP THINKING OF SAD THINGS TO DRAW OUUUUUGGGH theyd be SOOOO nice tho.. #NOOOOO STOPPPPP its JUST angst for Everyone involved #this is what i mean my dad a fucking LIAR he be like 'go on a walk to feel better :)' father i came back with the intent to harm #with the intent to harm all ten people invested in the arakawa family i have come to be cruel #but NO. NO i said no more. wheres that electric fly swatter i need one of those #i have CUTE and WHOLESOME things on the menu THAT is the OBJECTIVE #my mental health keeps getting worse and it shows im trying to fight it with family fun time #who tf made that graphic of the mate in charge of ghibli movies and he's depressed as all hell im tryna live like that #i might be dying inside but let me make something pretty at LEAST #okokok let me actually start drawin onea them sweet things. the urge to lie down all day is strong but i shant i must be stronger #also dont walk outside it hot as hell out. im built like a lizard though thats perfect for me #but tryna sit in a cold place afterwards No Thanks. #ok my head hurts bye lets see if i come back with anything or the apathy wins

[cirillafionaelenriannon]

i cant even lie 2 u all i am so pretentious abt everything like i was listening to cigarettes after sex eway back in 2017 and i was listening to phoebe bridgers in 2016 & i liked the coquette style when i was thirteen maybe not that that is acceptable or appropriate But i digress. im just saying that at the end of the day everyone on earth is copying ME like all those girls w that one specific spirally ikea bed that they all stole from eachother WELL I GOT THAT BED IN 2018 BEFORE ANY OF YOU EVEN THOUGHT TO. bye. 

#text #valkyrie.txt #and also very very very weirdly my experience of #being an original lana del rey fan because i was a child & she was not a great influence on my perception of life #but i remember being like 11 years old and being made fun of by kids at my school because lana was 'whiny' #and then she came out w that album i forget which one the one after honeymoon came out #and everyone suddenly liked her BUT ID MOVED ON!!! and i was like now what the fuck #because its like tumblr went thru its sad girl lana marina phase that was SECLUDED to tumblr #and then all of that migrated over to like freaking tiktok and suddenly its a big thing again only now its even deeper #in ed culture & weird pedophilic themes #tho id say the pedophilic themes were stronger way back in 2014 lol #so now its like i dont like lana anymore lol i think shes a little fucked up in tha head but #i dont know it was so strange 4 me to go from everyone making fun of her all the time to suddenly shes regarded as more than just #sad girl pop artist like people care..like ok guys go back 2 making fun of her shes a freak shes a weirdo shes 30 and weird #shes a leo moon tho and so is marina and so that is all i can say 2 explain my Attraction to hers and marinas musick

[batfamfucker]

Tell the truth comic fans challenge. When's the last time you read a comic and how many have you actually read?

P.S. This isn't me being gatekeepy btw I'm being genuine because I'm gonna be honest I've probably only actually read about five series and every thing else I've gotten from movies/series, online, or fanon. I know all the important events. Have I actually read them? No because my ADHD just wouldn't. And I can't be assed having to read important events if it's in a shit run by a bad writer.

#Also ngl I was determined to read from the very start but. I would not have the time for that in any life so lmao #I have read quite a few of the early Batman comics and do actually hope to read as many of his as possible #But I have not actually sat and read all of the Batfam origins yet tho I intend to #I know them all and I've seen the panels just never actually sat down and gone through it all #I also have read a lot of the Golden Era Batman and Superman team up comics where they basically act like parents #Taking Dick out on family day trips. It's a fun read tbh #And back when I was a early teen and couldn't afford comics I watched YouTuber who would read them for you and tell you about them/show you #So I've read half of Batman Eternal from that but he stopped uploading vids about it which made me really sad lmao #So I need to get around to reading the rest myself/rereading it because it's been a while #I think I liked the story but wouldn't canonise it in my mind #I also read a bit of Suicide Sqaud that way I think? So that too #I totally don't pirate read Injustice #I like it but I think some of it is iffy. But that's the case with comics in general #Batman: Wayne Family Adventures is the only I actually keep up with #Probably because it's more accessible but also because it's the kind of comic I've wanted about the Batfam for ages #There's room for improvement and I would like to see how one similar to that style would be made like. In the fully canon mainstream comics #Because I'm aware it's very fanon/fan servicey but honesty after all the DC chaos we deserve it. But I would like to see more family #Urban Legends is really good. But Idk. I'm very particular about my vision lmao #Let me be a writer is what I'm saving. Or make a competant TV show *Glares at Titans* #Titans is good but God do they fucking butcher Jason and Bruce. I am sick of DC TV and film adaptions doing the Batfam dirty #Like. The animated movies #Tim just is never a thing ever. Why #Titans does have him and I like that. But I haven't watched that season ngl because I don't like how they write Bruce #Like. He doesn't. Look for cjild soldiers bruh. I'm disappointed with Titans because they coulda done so well #But Bruce is far too old and they made Dick almost murderous with him and they fucked up Jason. I haven't seen Tim's- #-Characterisation yet but I'm scared to at this point #Alfred must be fucking dead because he would be SO OLD if Bruce is already like 60 bruh. No offence to the actor but yeah. #Chella Man is the best thing about the show. Tbf I adore the cast other than Bruce. But everyone is just so OOC and it doesn't- #Stick to the comics at all #Idk it just. Isn't it lmao

[opens-up-4-nobody]

...

#srry for the continued pause in scribbles ive been feeling not very good at all #idk something just broke in my brain after our last sampling trip idk y bc it wasnt that bad but when i got back #it was just a couple days of my brain being real crazy in terms of thought patterns. it still kinda continues to b like that #but idk i haven't had a session of hysterical crying today so maybe im on the mend. its weird i haven't felt this bad in a really long time #i dont even have the energy to complain about it its just no joy. burned streight thru that. bruned streight thru my desire to draw #i mean i still draw every day but its like shitty i dont have time scribbes bc idk it all feels so fucking pointless. and im terrible at #hiding how i feel abt things so my boss is like: maybe u should take a break this weekend i dont want u to burnout. like. lady we crossed #that bridge way back in March. u r speaking to a ghost. i just. i dont kno if i can stay here until like next july at least if not longer #and it sucks bc i kno someday ill look back and this time in my life will make me real sad bc im laying here choosing to make myself #miserable and i somwhere halfway across the country my mum has tumors growing in her abdomen. and i cant go home for Thanksgiving and idk #how long ill get at Christmas. not bc anyone is telling me i have to stay. my brain just wont let me do things. i just lay here in my #increasingly chaotic apartment not taking the steps to get refunded for travel expenses worrying over deadlines and agonizing over social #interactions. worrying about all the things my brain wont let me do that need to be done and not taking the steps to get better #its stupid and annoying and i know its only going to get worse when i have to start taking measurements in the lab #ive at least been practicing a lot of german tho lmao. someday ill look back like: lol remember when u got super depressed and filled the #void with learning german? literally today my dyslexic read the word albeit as aber and it was v disorienting #idk its just fun and i feel like im at least being productive. so yea idk when ill b able to post scribbles again #but i thought id at least post something while i had the energy i accumulated by taking with a happy Canadian lab group #maybe ill join them in a year idk idk decisions decisions and so many applications the cost of which is trying to dissuade me from #getting a tatt0o :-P ay ay ay live a little! pls i beg u. but no prob not. against the rules #unrelated

[ei-mugi]

my main hurdle with my dcaf fic is my depression but my 2nd task-related hurdle is not knowing what eichi should be doing at my ambiguous and butchered chosen place in time--- nvm see the notes

#i already fucked up the start of checkmate but its fine the details dont have to be perfect #its so early on i can write a way around that. who cares #whats important is that it stays like thematically coherent. and characterisation needs to be consistent #but also liiike. whats----------- oh. #okay. i just thought of a solution to my problem #thats really easy why didnt i think of this months ago #ok im gonna write that down somewhere for after i finish my BB fic #and then several yaers down the line once i have a nicely wrapped and finished dcaf i can rewrite the whole thing to make it #accurate-er to the canon timeline of events. making a timeline just isnt fun to me sorry #the goal with dcaf wasnt to make it perfect it was to make it done yknow #i wanted to prove to myself i could write a longfic (or medfic at least) & that i could have a bare minimum satisfying narrative #so staying entirely true to canon isnt high on my priority list #learn how to make the thing THEN learn how to make it well u get me #i love roleplay but ive never done a whole lot of individual writing lol #i still need to reread those reminiscence events though... sigh... and ideally fluff out with some other stories too #i gotta manage my expectations on what i know im able to get done tho. sad but true #thank god i actually wrote notes when i was reading rocket start #i started writing notes when i started obbligato too tho im not far into that yet ive got other stuff to do #im totally distracted ok wrapping post up now

[orcelito]

Guys I think the writing for fire emblem engage is somehow worse than fire emblem fates. Im a longtime fire emblem fan, I've played every recent game, and this... this is just Awful lmfao

Im still having plenty of fun & I have my handful of characters I love soooo much. But God fucking damn this writing is just some of the worst I've ever seen in a game

(Major spoilers in tags. Ran out of tags so I can't spoiler tag hfkshfj.

Final conclusion (since I ran out of tags): What Even Is This Fucking Game. Definitely my least favorite fire emblem game in many respects, but By God I'm going to finish this bitch and I'm gonna have plenty of fun as I do so. And I'm also going to make fun of every narrative choice it makes along the way bc the writing in this game is just SO fucking bad holy shit. I just need to finish this game and get on with my life already. God fuckin damn.)

#speculation nation #ive been critical of it from the start. bc it really isnt good. tho ive softened in some respects #it's plenty of fun thankfully. i enjoy the battle system a lot & the maps can be challenging in a fun way #but the moment i stop to think about Anything it all just feels so ridiculous #there have been a few moments it's surprised me. plot twists that were Almost cool. #but most of the time it's just throwing a bunch of shit out of left field at me and expecting me to be invested (im not) #so it's like. the 'plot twists' are either things i saw coming from a mile away OR things that r just so fucking insane it's not satisfying #like. the game saying 'oh man this thing you need to get to is at the bottom of this biiiig frozen lake! however will you get there?' #'how about... you trust the woman who has been an antagonist THE ENTIRE GAME UP UNTIL NOW to be telling the truth & to be helping u' #'heres a magic item she used the rest of her life to make! how sad! dont you feel bad for her? she wanted to be a mother!' #'no dont think about all the times she hit your little sister :) she feels bad about it so it's obviously ok actually :)' #'anyways take her magic item. itll get you to the bottom of the lake. how you ask? underwater breathing? PHHHSH' #'NAH your ass is going a thousand years into the past to break this thing b4 it fell into the lake OH ALSO you meet your past self #from when you were evil. good luck! :)' #im. not making any of this up. im not making ANY of this up and i really wish i was. #i was just rubbing my temples for that entire stretch of story it's so fucking stupid. #i think one of the most interesting things it did from a narrative standpoint was take away the rings 12 chapters in #so you hit rock bottom and have to crawl your way back out with the help of some unexpected allies #like. yea that's interesting. EXCEPT from a GAMEPLAY standpoint it's one of my least favorite fucking things in the game #you get used to this set of mechanics but halfway through you have to switch gears to an entirely different set of mechanics #and by the time you finally get everything back & ur army is full and whole. the game is almost over. #itd like that narrative choice SO MUCH MORE if it didnt set me back in such a major way & restrict total gameplay access to the End #every game has a slow trickle in of new characters so you dont have everyone until later in but EVEN THEN #you generally have everyone by 2/3rds way thru the game. then the last third you pick ur favs and u train them for the end #in this game. you dont get everyone until fucking chapter 23 of 26. my army is full and veyle is such a delight to have #but i only got her in CHAPTER. FUCKING. TWENTY THREE OF TWENTY SIX. #i just finished chapter 25. im nearly at the end. i love my main army but it feels like ive barely gotten to know them as a whole #bc it only finally formed TWO CHAPTERS AGO. #im just. god this game is so frustrating in a way ive NEVER experienced before. and ive played a lot of games!!!!! #like dont get me wrong im still having fun with it. i love a lot of the characters and the gameplay (now that i HAVE all of it) is So fun

[vlkodddlak]

i was complaining about how stupid those people on the Oceangate submersible are to my sister. and she didn't really agree with me when I told her that rich people are horrible because they don't think with their brains but with their money, which means safety and consequences come last. what matters is that you're having a good time right? and my sis, a grown adult, was like "oh but if i had that much money, i would go there too" like....girl u are proving my point

#keta talks #btw the whole situation makes me so upset #idc about the people on the sub they should have known it was a really bad idea #it's still sad tho and its weird to make fun of someone's death #then again its also disgusting that people gave so much of their time to study this case just because its 5 rich dudes #meanwhile theres refugees drowning everyday #idk #i just hope we will forget this very very soon #or not. make it be a lesson #just dont bother me with it #cause everyone's attitude is so fucked up