#it just feels like I'll never find a job that suits my interests as well as accomodates my needs

[poetrysmackdown]

some informal thoughts

hello! hope the holiday season has been kind to all of you. and i hope all my jewish followers had a lovely hanukkah! anyways, since i said a few months ago that i’d pick poetry smackdown back up sometime around this time of year, i thought i should make a post. the gist of it is that i’m still quite busy, i have a break that’s about three weeks shorter than I was planning on, and i don’t currently have the mental bandwidth required to read, contemplate, and sort through poem submissions in a way that does justice to them, even if i were to recruit some friends to help out. since running a tournament format requires at least five weeks of continued engagement once it’s underway, and since i’m not at capacity to offer that right now due to the change in my schedule, i’m gonna have to bow out for now. sad bc i was looking forward to it!

my hope is that i’ll have some more time over the summer to hunker down with it, in which case you’ll be hearing from me. it’ll frankly depend on the kind of job i land in for the summer, but i find that my unemployed spirit can typically keep me doing stupid shit regardless of workload...to a point. i don’t want to make any promises because i don’t want to get anyone’s hopes up just to let them down again LOL. i do admit the amount of exposure the first tournament got has made me feel like more of a perfectionist this time around, doubly because i don’t feel that i’m very suited to being a public online presence (even a relatively quite small one)—i’m bad enough at responding to emails for my own real life responsibilities, let alone tumblr asks for the silly responsibilities i invent for myself lol. that’s not to say i no longer want to do it, or i don’t enjoy it, or even that i don’t feel capable of making a really interesting bracket—just that if i am working to put something new together, and if people are taking the time to submit poems they care about, then i don’t want to half-ass it.

my second admission is something like this. I made the original bracket as a celebration of poetry and our relationships to it. yes it was silly and competitive, and the poems were very tumblr, but still, celebration was the intention—I wanted to have conversations about poetry. I stand by the bracket format as a fun and valuable way to foster conversations about poetry, but truthfully, the poems i’m wanting to have conversations about right now—the poems that we should be talking about right now—are ones that i'm not comfortable putting in a bracket. I reblogged The Baffler’s Poems from Palestine collection on here earlier, and Najwan Darwish’s “Who Remembers The Armenians?”, which I still often find repeating through my head when I'm traveling from one place to another, walking home or riding the bus. I came across this beautiful thread recently where people have been translating Dr. Refaat Alareer’s “If I Must Die” into their own languages (this just makes my translator's heart sing!!!!!!). @havingapoemwithyou has been posting some great poems from and for Palestine as well—check out their tag here.

There's always more to add, and I'll be posting more on here as I come across it, but that's what I feel anyone should be focusing on right now when it comes to poetry. i think poetry can be an escape but it should never be a distraction. does that make sense? i wouldn't be against doing a one-off poll here or there, but it feels weird to be making a tournament for poetry right now, or anytime soon. i feel like what free time i have right now is still best utilized helping my friends with organizing in the real world. and god, a bit off-topic but while I'm talking, fuck poetry foundation—I have so much respect for all the poets keeping up the boycott, because while i think it's a simple decision, it's not always an easy one (Aurielle Lucier discussed that here).

anyways, if you read all of this, thank you for your time!! I could go on and on, but really this was just meant to be a message telling y'all that there won't be another tournament for a while lol. even so i'll be trying to use this small silly platform as best i can until palestine is free because that's the absolute least i can do.

#not a poll #also i'm closing my ask box for now because i know i don't have the bandwidth to answer anything rn. sorry :( #but feel free to reply here with your thoughts and any resources and i'll do my best to respond #or even messages might be fine. something about the ask format just gives me anxiety sometimes lmao #cannot stress this enough i am so so so bad at responding to things #even when i want to or enjoy doing it

[eirabach]

An End Has a Start [1/1]

An episode coda for 7x04. Bucktommy with implied Buddie, rated T for language. Also on ao3.

You don't work for the city, any city, for long before you realize there's a lot of money changing hands. Money that possibly, even probably, shouldn't even be in the possession of the first pair of hands, never mind wherever it ends up. It's just part of the daily drag of poverty wage civil servants; watching men in tailored suits gamble with their jobs and lives and communities, rolling the dice on whether the local elementary really needs a pool when their own pockets are only triple lined.

All of which is to say: politicos gamble.

Firefighters gamble more.

And from the moment Lucy had clocked Tommy's new and sudden interest in hanging out off duty with the 118 she'd had opinions.

Opinions that used to make Tommy laugh, but now, actually – kinda don't.

“You're late,” she says. She's sitting with her elbows propped up on the canteen table, a plate of greasy fries and half eaten sandwich in front of her, and with a twenty dollar bill dangling loose from two fingers that he very studiously ignores.

Tommy makes a show of checking his watch as he drops into the seat opposite her.

“By – oh, one minute!” He reaches over to steal a fry, but she slaps his hand away. “Crosstown traffic.”

Lucy hums. “Still a minute later than Mr Military usually is. You were crosstown?”

“You my mother?” He hooks a fry from the edge of the plate. “Yeah, I was crosstown. I had basketball with Eddie today.”

“And that's all you've been up to?”

Tommy raises an eyebrow at her. Her eyes are glinting, her smile slyly fox-like. She's his best friend in this place and a walking fucking nightmare.

"He's got a girlfriend," he says for what feels like the hundredth time this week.

Lucy narrows her eyes and rips another bite from her sandwich.

"And? You had a girlfriend once."

Tommy concedes by nodding and swiping another fry from her plate.

"I did," he hums, letting his eyes go all glassy and wiping a fake tear from under his eye. "And she had a seven inch dick. I miss that girl."

Lucy rolls her eyes. "Besides the fucking point. So Diaz has a girlfriend so you think he's straight? This is bisexual erasure, Thomas."

Tommy doesn't think anything about Eddie, actually. It's not his place. Not when there's a girl with a pretty smile and nothing to say watching him leave night after night. Not when there's the faintest tang of beer still lingering at the corner of his mouth, the ghost of stubble against his lip, any thoughts at all struggling to surface from the sheer, thrilling oh of hearing your attention.

"If I could erase you, Donato, I would have done it years ago."

Lucy sticks her tongue out, crumbs and all, and he throws the half chewed fry in her smirking face.

"Buckley's single," she offers, chucking it straight back. "And kinda easy. In a cute way."

Tommy scoffs, but he must pause for a half breath too long first because Lucy's eyes go wider than he thinks he's ever seen them, the twenty fluttering from her fingers as she slams her hands down on the table between them.

“Buckley?! Christ.” She sits back, blowing her fringe off her forehead with an exaggerated huff. “Well damn. I'm not surprised, I guess.”

Tommy takes a deep breath. “I think – I think he was. So don't –.” Tell. God, he really thought those days were behind him.

“Who the fuck do you take me for?” Lucy asks, sitting back and crossing her arms over her chest.

Tommy offers her a sarcastically sympathetic head tilt. “Gee, I don't know. Someone who's been betting on whether I'd fuck his taken best friend?”

She rolls her eyes extravagantly. “Please. That's different. Diaz always looked at me like I'd crapped in his bed. Buck's sweet.”

Tommy reaches out and pockets the twenty. “If you say so. I'll take this as an apology shall I?”

Lucy's nose crinkles up in disgust. “Put it towards your medical bills when Diaz finds out you've touched his man, that's all I'm saying.”

Tommy narrowly avoids sticking his tongue out at her. “Believe it or not, we're actual grown adults. Eddie's not going to have a problem with it.”

Lucy laughs, and it must send bits of half masticated sandwich the wrong way because she launches into a coughing fit so violent Tommy sees a couple of the paramedics' heads pop up from their hiding places like so many meerkats with medical fetishes.

“Jesus Christ,” she moans once she's caught her breath. “Rather you than me.”

Tommy quite agrees, honestly, because he's had exactly thirty four seconds of Evan Buckley’s mouth and he's already not particularly inclined to share, but he waits for her to knock back a couple of gulps of Powerade because he's a good friend.

He thinks he's a good friend.

He wants to be.

“You think – you think he will have a problem with it?”

Lucy wipes her mouth with the back of her hand, and sighs.

“I think the 118 is – a different kind of place to what maybe we're used to, you know? When I first started there I thought it would be great, and it was, but I never – I never really got it. The family history.” She shakes her head. “Diaz wasn't even there then. And yet he was everywhere. ” She fixes Tommy with the same sharp, searching look he's used to seeing beside him in the air. “I don't think it's going to be good for you.”

I don't think Buck's going to be good for you, she doesn't say, but Tommy's been closeted longer than he's been out. He's learned to read between the lines. To know when to lean in. When to back away. When it's his lips or his mouth or his teeth or his fists he needs to be quick with.

Evan's aren't the first pair of pretty blue eyes he's ever seen go shocked and wet and desperate. And maybe Evan's ribcage is going to be far from the last he's felt still and shudder and expand under his hand. Maybe he's setting himself up for the inevitable fall of being first.

Maybe, in the most important ways, in the ways that matter, he isn't first at all.

But it's not his place to ask. And if he doesn't ask – well. He can't see that Eddie's ever going to tell.

And sometimes, hey. It's better to seek forgiveness than permission. Fake mouth static or no.

He pulls the twenty back from his pocket, and adds another on top. Just because he can. Because he wants.

Because he's a minute late, but damn. What a minute.

“Wanna bet?”

#911 spoilers #bucktommy #buddie #implied #911 abc #clare vs writers block

[fireemblems24]

Scarlet Blaze Ch 15 (Final)

Last one, everyone! After this, I finally get to play Spiritfarer which I got on . . . Christmas 2022.

NARRATION

Last chapter. Finally. Killing so many people in this route is really awful. Especially since you just . . . don't in the other two.

I think the last chapter will take place at the monastery.

Oh, great, does this mean I have to protect Bernie's dad in this route? I hope Rhea kills him, like gets this badass cut scene where she cuts him down for perverting her faith by using it as a propaganda tool.

So TWSITD showed up and is attacking Rhea and the Empire.

They're mostly after the "beasts" (aka Nabateans? Or humans?)

I wish this meant that we teamed up with Rhea, but we know Edelgard would team up with TWSITD first.

Catherine and Rhea got a cool moment together though.

Yep, we have to protect Count Varley, gross.

MAP

No side battles! This final chapter will be super quick, which is nice.

I'm VERY curious what the Golden Deer students say after Claude's moment last chapter lamo.

And if any Lions mention Sylvain :((((

OMG, Ignatz is savage. He only cares about painting the battle. No mention of Claude.

Yuri wishes he could kill Varley instead of save him. Good for him. He really feels more suited for AG/AM/SS/VW than SB/CF/GW.

Well, at least Mercedes mentioned Sylvain. And Ingrid and Annette. Saying they died for what they believed in and admires them for it, since she could never.

Poor Ashe is having a crisis. Still had no idea wtf he's doing in the Empire's war camp. Honestly, this game made him so much more interesting.

Linhardt also has no fucking clue why he's here. I swear he does nothing but complain every map (in a funny way) and wish he was doing literally anything else.

Lorenz is more concerned about his future bc of Claude than worried about him. Man, guy really has no one loyal to him lol.

DOROTHEA & CASPAR C

I swear I did a much better job getting supports in GW and AG.

Caspar has a bunch of books, and Dorothea's horrified by the idea that he'll use them in training.

Caspar plans to read them. Dorothea teases him. Apparently Lin made similar comments.

Dorothea makes him promise not to hurt the books. A woman after my own heart.

Caspar's like, did you know my dad reads! Dorothea's like, yeah . . . how do you think he got his role if he didn't.

Dorothea tells a story about an unlearned commander who studied strategy in books and improved to become legendary.

The only stupid part of this is thinking you can read and understand complicated books in 5 days and become an expect in 5 days. For once, Caspar was the smart one being like, uh, I need more time.

MERCEDES & LYSITHEA B

This support is SB locked, but neither characters are Eagles. It may be the only support like that in the game. But, hey, new Mercie content, I'll take it!

Mercedes comes across Lysithea in the kitchen, trying and failing to cook.

The fruits she wanted to use are moldy though. Lysithea has an idea to use something else for the fruit - a sugar syrup.

Lysithea has dedicated her time to learning how to cook because of how good Mercedes' cooking was, so she credits Mercie for the sugar syrup, which she learned because of that.

Baking also helped Lysithea learn the importance of taking breaks.

Mercie calls her a wizened old grandma, lol.

They arrange a tea party.

SHEZ & LINHARDT A

It starts with Linhardt saying they haven't learned anything about Shez's powers. I wonder how funny this sounds if you get it after the special chapters.

Linhardt says it's find because the war is almost over, so there's less need and chance for the powers to go out of control.

Shez pretty consistently wants to continue working as a mercenary after the battle.

He also seems to have no desire to stay in Enbarr lol.

Linhardt wants Shez as a personal bodyguard. Honestly, not a bad choice.

Then Linhardt says something like "spending the rest of my life with some random bodyguard" and then makes an excuse to leave. so he wants to stick with Shez for life. It's kind of sweet.

EDELGARD & PETRA A

Their only support

Edelgard comes across Petra praying to Bigid gods. In Brigid they pray in nature rather than in churches in Fodlan.

Edelgard asks Petra why she's risking her life in the war because it's bad for Brigid.

So Brigid will only be freed if Petra remains alive.

To be fair, it's because she doesn't know the new leader. Still feels a bit icky for Petra.

Edelgard warns about "tricks" the enemy will use. She really has a beef with anyone using tactics.

Petra just says she's happy to fight and can't run while everyone else remains and fights.

Edelgard says she can't back out, which true, but she could've just not started one. But that's in the past I guess.

Overall, came across better than the Houses one where Petra didn't seem like an equal.

EDELGARD/LYSITHEA/HAPI PARALOGUE

My plan is to have Edelgard and Shez make the other two adjuncts and see if I can't beat the paralogue that way.

It's about TWSITD, which isn't surprising given that character list.

God, I've made SB Shez so fucking stupid. Never understanding anything. It's so funny.

So is this about Cornelia? They found one of her old hideouts.

I had Shez shrug about joining. Hapi got offended.

They're talking about Hubert. I wish he was here. He's my best unit.

I wish Cornelia showed up. She's so fun, but sadly she did not.

They didn't find anything. Hapi was mostly chill about it. Edelgard and Lysithea were more bothered.

Shez could show concern or change the subject. Obviously I made him change the subject since SB!Shez is not intelligent.

CASPAR/LINHARDT PARALOGUE

Like the last time, I just plan to adjunct Caspar and let Shez and Linhardt do all the work.

They're arguing if Caspar saw a ghost or not. Linhardt remains unconvinced.

Lamo, their dads showed up and Linhardt's dad called him a "fountain of positivity" when he brought up their could die any day.

Linhardt is also upset that he has to help.

We're hunting down Empire people who've turned against Edelgard.

I had Shez not want to go lol.

The main battle changed to defeating their dads. I don't think I'm supposed to take this paralogue seriously.

Linhardt had no fun.

Bergliez gave Caspar some gaunlets, and I could either be happy for him or jealous. I obviously picked jealous since it's fun to pick the dick answer lol.

FINAL BATTLE

Why is the S rank reward Edelgard's axe? This is the last battle, right? Is there some post game stuff? Because I'm so ready for this to be done (I don't think I'll do it).

Funny, Edelgard is the one defending the monastery this time, and Varley. Imagine your final battle being about protecting Varley. Ugh.

Only 40 points for the final battle?

Just killed Catherine :(

Cyril just showed up. Rhea's so concerned. Not looking forward to killing a child :((( He died too. This is by far the bloodiest route. I swear no one even dies in AG, and in GW it's only Sylvain's dad.

This can't be it, right? That was too easy. And Cyril as the final boss makes no sense. I'm betting it's a Thales and Rhea fight.

Rhea turned into a dragon. Badass. Glad she was the final boss poper and not Thales.

Spoke too soon. I think they're both here now.

Think I beat it. We're at a cut scene now. Thales is doing magic shit. Rhea attacked him and just ignored Edelgard and Shez like they weren't worth her notice lol.

Wait, that's it?

Rhea pushes Thales off a cliff? So RHEA's the hero??

There's no way they could've survived that - Edelgard. My girl, Rhea is a fucking dragon and Thales can warp. I have bad news from you. Also, Byleth survived a fall too so . . .

What happened to Dimitri? I don't think I killed Claude either?

Is that really it? The war just keeps going. The war just keeps on with no end in sight. Hahahaha. You mean I played how many hours for THAT? I'm going to laugh my ass off if all 3 routes end like this. What a cheap way to avoid killing any of the lords.

OMG. What a stupid ending.

Except for Rhea. She got the big hero moment lol.

I kept waiting for another battle. Esp since there's an S rank reward that's Edelgard's axe, so Idk what's going on.

OMG, this is going to take FOREVER. They're showing the MVP of every single side battle and not just the main ones. I'm only at ch 6.

There was a lot more variety in MVP than I thought. I thought it would be the Hubert show, but it's pretty varied.

Ok, so around ch 10 turns into the Hubert show. I like seeing battle data though, so I sat through it.

Ok, so you get a letter from the person you get a whistle from. Aww, I eventually won Hubert's trust, and he admits he and the army needs us. Glad I picked him.

Wait, no paired endings? That blows. I hope this isn't a new trend since Engage didn't do that either (I love paired endings)

Ok, so it looks like some stuff would carry over to another playthrough on this file. So, in the future, I'd replay AG over my GW or SB playthrough to at least get 2 on the same one. I can't see myself replaying SB or GW. It's not like the story would matter since I could just skip it, but the gameplay is pretty much the same, so why not play the route with my favorites and the most unit choices on top of that?

So you can carry over supports and even unit level. So I could play Dimitri as the absurd level he's at in level one if I saved over my AG file? Because that would be funny. Probably boring. But funny.

Still feels good. One down. Two to go.

xxxx

#fire emblem #scarlet blaze #fire emblem three hopes #three hopes #scarlet blaze spoilers

[hotwaterandmilk]

I started writing this last week, then my tonsillitis floored me so @bunnymajo beat me with her own post on the topic (it's v. good, check it out!!), but I still wanted to share a few of my thoughts about why y'all should consider picking up the Discotek release of the Kaitou Saint Tail anime series on blu-ray.

I'll be honest, Kaitou Saint Tail wasn't my favourite magical girl series growing up in the mid-90s, I found myself far more drawn to Sailor Moon, Wedding Peach, and Kamikaze Kaitou Jeanne (in that order). However, as I've grown older and re-watched the anime series a couple of times, I've grown to appreciate a lot about it that perhaps I didn't so much when I was young and had a million anime series vying for my attention.

The anime

If you've never seen the Kaitou Saint Tail anime, Haneoka Meimi is regular teenage student by day who rights wrongs by night as the thief Saint Tail. How does she know about what bad things have gone down in the local community? Why her BFF (Mimori Seira) is a nun-in-training, of course! So when Seira hears about things being stolen etc. she relays this information to Meimi so she can set things right.

Complicating the situation is Asuka Daiki, the son of a local detective who notably failed to catch a previous phantom thief (hmm!). Asuka Jr. wants to stop Saint Tail no matter what and luckily the local mayor is cool with giving him the status required to do so. Meimi slowly finds herself torn between how she feels about Asuka Jr. (whom she bickers with but ultimately cares about) and how Asuka Jr. feels about the thief Saint Tail.

So obviously if you like magical girl-type series and you're keen on a cute lil tween romance with some wacky kids' show thieving then you're going to be keen to watch (or read, the manga is adorable) the series no matter what. If you're on the fence, here are a couple of things I found to be stand-outs in Kaitou Saint Tail that you might like about it too.

Saint Tail = Seira & Meimi

Saint Tail the thief is really a team of two people. You've got Seira who gathers all the intel & helps plan, then you've got Meimi who acts as the muscle and executes the scheme. If you removed either of them you wouldn't have the legendary phantom thief everyone talks about in the series. Seira is never magical herself, she goes between God/Meimi/the community to help save "lost lambs" but her role is vital and Meimi's feats as Saint Tail are truly part of a team effort.

I've honestly always loved this about the series, that Seira isn't some friend kept in the dark nor is she another magical thief to team up with, she's got her own unique role to play that utilises her skills just as much as Meimi's role relies on her talents too. Together they are a phantom bigger than any one tween girl could ever be.

Meimi is physically adept

There's room for all types of magical girls in the genre imho and these days we've seen lots of magical girls who can land a solid punch as well as those better suited to intellectual challenges. However, in the mid-90s at a time when Tsukino Usagi and Hanasaki Momoko said it was OK to be clumsy and not great at athletics, Meimi said it was just as OK to be athletic and have excellent fine motor skills.

One thing I didn't note in my above summary of the series is that while Meimi does a whole lot of VISUALLY magical girl things like transform in the anime, she doesn't actually have any supernatural abilities. Meimi is instead adept at stage magic thanks to her father's profession and she plays a lot of tricks to get the job done (while following in her mother's footsteps as well). Meimi can't punch a bad guy through a wall like a Precure, but her strength allows her to frequently save other characters or pull herself out of tricky situations.

Asuka Jr. provides a great contrast

While Asuka Jr. can ride a bike pretty fast he's not that physically strong, which is a contrast to a lot of love interests in the genre who are tough enough to give the heroine enough time to finish the job (Tuxedo Kamen and Limone, for example). Asuka Jr. is more of an intellectual who despite managing to figure out a lot of what's going on with Saint Tail's capers, can never seem to get pin her down (and yeah yeah we know Meimi looks like Saint Tail but this is a cartoon for kids, being in on that while Asuka Jr. goes mad trying to find Saint Tail is part of the overall charm of the thing imho).

I think a decent chunk of what I like about Asuka Jr. as a male lead in Kaitou Saint Tail is that he's not some older, mysterious guy who helps solve problems; Asuka Jr. is a brat who causes most of Meimi's problems and because of his clueless youth he's also quite oblivious to her burgeoning romantic feelings for him. But I love that? They both feel like they're young kids challenging each other on an equal playing field.

While Asuka. Jr doesn't necessarily disagree with Saint Tail's objectives (to right wrongs), he doesn't support her methods (stealing is baaaaaad) and he's following his own moral code which is perhaps a little more conventional than hers. Meimi and Asuka jr. certainly bicker, but they have a lot in common that becomes apparent over time and their differences do indeed prove to be complementary to each other's in the long run.

The stakes are fairly low

Wait, isn't this a bad thing? Shouldn't the stakes be super high in order for us to care about the series? No, I don't think every magical girl series needs to have high stakes to leave an impact or be meaningful. I love that Kaitou Saint Tail isn't about a potentially world-ending event or magical abilities that could change reality as we know it. Heck, there's an episode where the entire goal of Saint Tail's elaborate scheme is to get back a notebook that a classmate gave to her crush accidentally before he can read it.

In that sense, it harkens back to a lot of older majokko shows that, while having some supernatural gifts for the heroine that Meimi doesn't technically have, still chose to focus on the lead solving personal problems or issues in the local community rather than fighting to save the planet.

This isn't to say there are no stakes at all or anything. Meimi's greatest problem lies in her diverging identities and the fact that, as ostensibly a criminal to those not helped by her talents, Saint Tail being unmasked would ruin her life. I know they're not huge stakes compared to galactic evils, but Saint Tail being an outlaw and the way the persona is both a blessing & curse to Meimi certainly is present throughout the series.

Kaitou Saint Tail's stakes might not be as high as those in Nurse Angel Ririka SOS, Tokyo Mew Mew, or any number of Precure seasons, but there's definitely a place for that in the genre and if you'd like something a little more laid back (that's still plenty of fun & with twists and turns a plenty, mind you) then this series might be worth checking out.

The anime doesn't overstay its welcome

The Kaitou Saint Tail anime is a fairly tight production that deftly balances fun filler (remember when we were allowed to have filler eps???) with more emotional story touch points and doesn't feel at all drawn out, which was certainly an issue even for some of my favourite series of the period. While I wouldn't say the anime is perfect or anything, it really doesn't have any majorly weak arcs or huge dips in quality overall.

Kaitou Saint Tail has lovely music (I'm partial to the first OP/ED combo myself), some great 90s animators at work (Abe Junko, Ishino Satoshi, Kadonosono Megumi & Gotou Keiji, Watanabe Nobuhiro, Ochi Kazuhiro, Motohashi Hideyuki, etc.), and a cast of talented seiyuu (Sakurai Tomo as Meimi and Inoue Kikuko as Seira being the stand outs).

While there are some changes to the source material and a lot of the cute, whispy beauty of Tachikawa Megumi's original artwork is lost on screen, the animated version of Kaitou Saint Tail is worth picking up not just to support the release of magical girl titles in the US market, but because it is a solid little series that I know I always appreciate spending some time with.

Anyway those are my rambling thoughts on the series. It won't be for everyone, but if you're interested in magical girl classics then you might want to check out the upcoming US release from Discotek on blu-ray.

#kaitou saint tail #saint tail #magical girls #magical girl anime #ramblings #long post #i could ramble about light christian motifs or how cute meimi's parents are #but you get the picture #fun series #the remasters look gorgeous #it's a classic for a reason #etc. #very tired #sorry for any typos etc #obviously not everyone can afford to preorder the bds #even if they are interested #however if you do have the money and want to support the title #i think you're getting decent bang for your buck

[girlwithwolftatoo]

Hello sweet how are you? So what do you moon boys react to a catwoman!reader?

Our bois surely won't have an easy time...

Steven Grant:

He's not very aware of the hottest topic in the news about this thief-cat in London, though he'd heard to B.J mentioning it. His life is getting better since he met you, one day at the Egyptian gallery, and he's not in mood for dramas.

Your favorite thing in the museum? That gorgeous Bastet statue with gold ornaments. You simply explained to Steven you're a fan of cats and even show him pictures of your little pets in home.

The thing is, one day, the statue dissapeared and everyone is pointing at the mysterious thief, and Steven, being loyal to his principles and workplace (not Donna, just the Egyptian stuff he loves) secretly joins the chasing as Mr. Knight.

And with the unexpected Khonshu's help, he ends up finding you...

"(Y/N)?" he asks, heartbroken. You need some time to discover who's the man behind the white suit. "Oh God... Steven?"

He feels hurt, he though the best of you and feels betrayed. You try to not give importance, but actually after some days, you remember the nice moments you spent together and how nice and sweet Steven was to you, unlike all the men you've step into before, and for once in your life, you felt guilt.

One day, the museum finds the Bastet statue back with a note attached to it nobody knows what means. Nobody but one person...

"I'm sorry S"

Jake Lockley:

He met you in the middle of a robbery. He's not the kind who has the "no hitting women" rule and will fight you with all his might, and trust me, that's a lot.

In the heat of fight, he makes you an offer you can't refuse. It's just a small change of vision, why not working for him? he needs more eyes and ears than he has and you look perfect for the job. You're not sure if it's a good idea, but this man, though unhinged, looks true, and besides... you can't deny he's handsome.

"Once" you accept, and even give him your price. "I'll contact you" he answers and dissapears in a white limo. You chuckle, thinking your next step will be find out who's this guy and, with such an obvious vehicle, it will be easy...

Well, you're wrong, Jake can be practicaly invisible if he wants to (and don't doubt he vanishes with the help of his bird god), so while you wait and wonder how that man will contact you...

"Buenas noches, guapa" Oh. My. God. How could he find you? You were like extra aware of any weird move in your place but now he's here and -okay, nevermind, he made his promise and gives you a mission.

You actually receive even more as a reward for your job, and choose to be an ally for this strange Lockley guy. Eventually you forget your robbery nights 'cause you're too busy doing stuff for him or hanging out with the rest of his gang.

It's funny how you don't know each other beyond your "night jobs" and yet, you've never felt so connected towards other person. Yes, Jake can be a red flag, but not to you, you feel deep inside he has something different, something soft and kind... the sort of things you were denied since a young age and you secretly crave for.

But true takes place. You're not normal people, therefore, you cannot have a normal relationship. And though you enjoy the time working or making out with this man, your heart aches. There's one thing you both can't get, and it's a true happy ending.

Marc Spector:

You met him one night you weren't doung your stuff, just walking by some of the ugliest streets of London. He though you were being harrased by a large group of men and went to your help, just to find out you managed to k.o a couple of them.

"It seems you didn't need my help" he apologized after giving the last man a sleeping punch. You felt interested in him immediately, he was such a gentleman and sexy too. "Don't say that, I appreciate your help very much, mister..." "Call me Marc" "Oh... I'm (Y/N)"

You chatted a little as Marc drove you home. You passed the night thinking of him with this teenage-like obsession towards a new crush. He was handsome, and well-mannered, but also ready to fight and now you're fantazising with the way he put the harrasers down.

Marc feels troubled. He and Layla got an agreement in which they were free to see other people as long as the Moon Knight thing wasn't over, but yet he had the sensation flirting with you was cheating on his wife. Anyways, you end up meeting again and he accepts going with you to a bar.

You're obviously very into him, but you still are focused in your "work" and keep with your robberies in rich neighborhouds. It doesn't seem like Marc's problem until Khonshu reminds him he must protect every night traveler, including those who are robbed.

You've heard of this phantom like figure chasing criminals at night but never though it was real until he approached you. Unlike Steven, Marc doesn't freak out at the very moment he sees you, but he frustrates your robbery and leaves you tied up at the nearest police station.

"I though you were different" you hear him say. You got confused, do you know him? And then, he shows his face and your eyes go wide "Marc?" He won't say anything else, leaving you there with a crushing feeling in your chest.

BONUS: So you're jailed while the police arrange an order to check on your place. The station goes dark, you listen a little uproar and... Moon Knight approaches your detention cage.

"Came to apologize?" you ask, pretending to not being sad for how things went between you and him. Marc doesn't answer, instead, his hands go to the lock and break it. You frown.

"A friend taught me some people are who they are because they didn't know better" he says, puzzling. He stretches one hand to you "I'll give you this night. Tell me everything, and then..."

"Then what? You'll take me back here?"

"Let's find out, shall we?"

#moon knight #moon knight series #moon knight headcanon #marc spector #jake lockley #steven grant #jake lockley x reader #steven grant x reader #marc spector x reader #mr knight x reader #moon knight x reader #steven grant headcanon #marc spector headcanon #jake lockley headcanon #oscar isaac #marvel series #moon boys

[tarysu]

REQUEST TIME !! can i pls request a university tachi? what major would he be, what would his hobbies be, how does he meet reader? etc

THANK U SM FEEL FREE TO IGNORE AND REMEMBER TO DRINK LOTS OF WATER I HOPE U HAVE A GREAT DAY EVERY DAY

<Babi i love you smmsmmssm I WILL HYDRATE MYSELF TO THE POINT I DISSOLVE INTO WATER, I've been away and off from tumblr since I'm pretty crazy and rotting in bed (school holidays is getting to me really hard). BUT BUT LET ME WRITE YOU THIS SAHHAHDUAUSD. Small reminder that I'm NOT a university student myself, as you can see I'm pretty young a still a teen girl so I have no knowledge abt uni majors (I pre-prepared majors for my future so I think I have a thought or two on how tachi would work in Uni) ANWAYSYYY SRUMDELI YUM YUM YUMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMM!!> 𝐔𝐍𝐈𝐕𝐄𝐑𝐒𝐈𝐓𝐘 𝐅𝐈𝐄𝐒𝐂𝐀 !! | 𝐓𝐀𝐂𝐇𝐈𝐇𝐀𝐑𝐀 𝐗 𝐑𝐄𝐀𝐃𝐄𝐑 (𝐇𝐄𝐀𝐃𝐂𝐀𝐍𝐎𝐍𝐒)

✦ ─ ˗ˋ ୨୧ ˊ˗ ─ ✦ ✦ Michizou would most likely be doing criminology (I can vision him studying crime, courses like psychology and law) OR a stem major (his ability could be proven useful, Mechanical Engineering would suit him a lot!!! I mean this guy would be establishing some cool machineries). ✦ I'd say Michi would be a well organised university student, given how he can balance his military identity between his Mafia persona. I'd say he'd cope with his schedule (rip all the other students dying of no sleep.) ✦ Tachihara doesn't get regular sleep (not that he gets less sleep just...not a regular sleeping schedule), but I'm 100% sure he's alright. He'd sometimes nap randomly, bro would nap at the most random time anyways LOL. ✦ What extra curriculums he'd do in Uni? BRO WHEN I TELL YOU HE DOES SPORTS FOR SURE!! Basketball in particular. He'd be the star of the show, with his good build and pretty feisty look. Girls on the basketball stadiums would be head over heels. What can I say? He's a popular fucker amongst his peers. I'm positive he is someones hallway crush on the first year of Uni. (definitely the readers.) ✦ He's talkative, always blabbering about dumb shit or shitty jokes. He laughs before he could say the joke, he starts getting an aneurysm on the spot for laughing so hard. ✦ What does he do in his extra time? Hangout with his mates or fuck around a lot in game lobbies. He would be spending hours and hours grinding for a fortnite skin or honestly just pay 2 win (bro bought the whole jjk skins on fortinite). ✦ Michizou takes studying pretty fucking seriously, he failed countless times in his junior years during highschool. He only took his grades seriously once life was hitting a little TOO hard. ✦ Tachihara wasn't interested in any romantic relationships, not until he gets a stable job and house in future. He just wasn't ready for that kind of commitment and he stuck to that style until he met you. ✦ He's friends with all kinds of people and would honestly vibe with all of them, his social battery can get drained pretty easily. ✦ You were doing a medical course and hardly had any rest (I mean any medical majors in my opinion are pretty hard from my perspective). You and Tachi tend to study together, though both of you have different courses. ✦ You two actually knew each other back in highschool. Though you've never TALKED until a certain event in uni. (a small disaster I'll write a fan fic abt it) ✦ You two go on dates once in a blue moon, given how passionate you are about being a doctor (or nurse, you're a pretty tired person.). ✦ Sometimes Michizou would find you cheering the loudest amongst the girls when he plays on the basketball field. (You're definitely the number 1 cheer girl) ✦ After winning the game, he'd run over to you. Cool sweat trickling down his face. He'd hug you and give you multiple of kisses, you'd also give that in return. ✦ EXTRA : Tachihara would always let you stay the night (or two) over in his dorm whenever you have fights with your parents. You live with your parents but sometimes they could really get on her nerves. You'd usually come over frustrated with tears, but hey!! he'd pamper you, coop you up on the couch and just kiss those silly tears away

#bsd #bsd season 5 #bsd tachihara #bungou stray dogs #sos send help #tachihara michizou #bungo stray dogs tachihara #bungo stray dogs #bungo stray dogs x reader #bungou sd #BRRR BRAMAMMAMAMAMA #hehehehe i love uni tachi #thank u for this silly request anon <333 #GRAHHHHHHHH LIVE LAUGH LOVE TACHIHAARA MICHIZOUUU #michi babe #zimzalabim zim zim zalabim

[common-grackle]

Winnie Foster and growing up

@claireverlasting @marinesocks You guys wanted this?

Here's the thing about Winnie Foster. She's not dumb (anything but), but she is naïve, especially at the beginning of the show. From literally the first time we see her on stage, we know a lot about her home life and her motivations:

She's obedient, especially to her mother (who is...pretty stifling)

She wants to go to the fair (and she's hopeful that her mother will let her)

She's unhappy with her life (she can't "live like this forever")

There's some other stuff too, like how the setting is casually dropped (August 1st, 1893 in Treegap, New Hampshire), which I love because the music is catchy and it's an excellent way to get the audience to remember stuff. I'd also point out "I wish I had wings, I'd look good with a pair" - we really get a feel for Winnie's whimsy and youthfulness, but also that she has her expectations set pretty firmly.

This especially comes to light with Mae's verse. Mae's plotline is about her finding that youth again (Tuck actually does a great job of developing plotlines for each character and I appreciate that greatly). In her part, she also talks about feeling stuck (duh, that's what the song is about) and about anticipation - her boys will be home by the end of the day. But that excitement feels more mature than Winnie's for the fair.

Miles and Jesse have a really interesting part that deserves its own post. I'll skip over Miles's lines for now because there's too much to unpack.

Through the lens of Winnie's character arc (or at least the fragment of it that I'm focusing on), what I notice is the parallels between her and Jesse. Jesse is 102, but he really does seem 17 here. His enthusiasm aligns perfectly with Winnie's - it's more childlike, more free. (We'll get there later, but it's my personal theory that that's why their song sounds like it does.)

After Good Girl Winnie Foster, we see Winnie shouting at her mother ("No! I hate you, and I hate your rules!"). It's implied that she doesn't have outbursts like this often (if at all), which is...really interesting with what happens next. My favorite part of this scene is Winnie's line when she's talking to her toad: "Why should I apologize? I don't want to just be 'good.' I want to be daring."

She then has a short reprise of her song, and I think these lines are the most significant:

If I don't leave now I'll only wish I had

How can I know good without trying bad?

Winnie knows exactly what she's doing: she's breaking the rules. She goes directly from being a "well-behaved eleven" to literally running away from home. That escalated quickly.

Let's pause before we meet Jesse to talk about the plotline the show has set up for Winnie. She wants to go to the fair, wear a bright color, have fun, and then she gets in an argument with her mother and runs away. Honestly? This could've be the plot of a story on its own, if we hadn't also been introduced to the Tucks and the Man in the Yellow Suit. Winnie really is just a kid who got caught up in the plot (and proceeded to stir up a lot of drama herself).

One of Jesse's lines right before Top of the World is "There's no use running away if you don't make it an adventure." Jesse and Winnie's friendship took off because they shared the same view of the world, and neither of them had ever known someone like that before (or, not in a long time - part of me wants to know what Winnie's father was like, but again, topic for another time).

Winnie: Everything looks so different, up here!

Jesse: You ain't seen the half of it.

She really hasn't. All of these scenes have been setting up who Winnie is at the start of her story, but where it gets interesting is when she's faced with more things that she's never thought about before.

Winnie: I can't believe you tricked me. I trusted you. (As if they got engaged.) We climbed a tree!

Yes, that's the actual text from my script. Climbing a tree with Jesse was The Biggest Deal to Winnie, because she'd never done anything like that before, with anyone.

There's so much I could say about The Story of the Tucks, but the gist of it is that Winnie has no idea what to do with this information. The first thing she asks after they finish is "where is this cat?", and the second is "How can I be sure you're not just telling me a story?"

There are two other lines here that I'd like to mention. First, the bit where Winnie asks what else they can do, and if they can fly. She's picked up the immortality thing (which is likely something that she's read about), but she's assuming that it's some kind of superpower (positive connotations - keep that in mind).

The second is "It must be so fun to be you!" Winnie, you sweet child, no. Winnie just isn't grasping how eternal life could be a bad thing, and I don't think she really does until the end of Act One.

(Also, the way that Angus says "Not natural, how much that boy has lost" when Miles exits? This is why Tuck Everlasting causes audiences pain. It's because we already know more than Winnie does.)

Okay, let's talk about Partner in Crime and Seventeen. Like I said, I'm pretty sure that (besides it just being the right tone for the song) Partner in Crime is fast and upbeat because that's the mood that Winnie and Jesse share. This song happens literally directly before everything goes south. I also love all the echoing and overlapping that happens in this number, because they feel the same way but they have different contexts for it.

There's a line before Seventeen that haunts me when I'm trying to sleep: "Listen: Ma and Pa and Miles? They don't know how to enjoy anything anymore. They're stuck in the past. But you? You thought it was amazing to climb a tree." Jesse is still optimistic because he thinks he's found a way out (and it is a solution, just not the right one).

But do you want to know something? Neither Jesse nor Winnie sings anything upbeat for the rest of the show. All of their songs up to this point were fast and cheerful, and that doesn't happen again after Partner in Crime. Actually, none of the Tucks sing anything upbeat after this point. The Man in the Yellow Suit, the Constable, and Hugo are the only characters who appear in the faster songs in Act Two.

Why?

It's because Winnie is finally learning how negative immortality can actually be. She's still herself, just more somber. Jesse's already losing hope, and with our two most optimistic characters (not counting Hugo) finally getting hit with all of this, it travels over to the rest of the Tucks. (Miles, Mae, and Angus all have their own reasons for this too, but there's too much to say about those.)

Time is a song that most of us have cried over at one point or another, and I think it's this scene that starts to solidify Winnie's decision not to drink from the spring. (It's also the most insight we get into Miles's character, I think. I love this song.) However.

The Wheel doubles as a Winnie and Angus bonding moment and the moment where Winnie finally puts everything together. She echoes Angus's words, and she strings together her own in Everlasting.

Not to ruin the mood that I've set here (whatever that may be) but I think that seeing the Man in the Yellow Suit dead (killed by someone she knows and loves) also probably contributed to Winnie's sudden maturity.

The effect that Winnie has on the Tuck family is made very clear throughout the show. She shows Mae how to live like she used to, and remember the joy that she's lost a bit of. Winnie and Angus have one of the sweetest dynamics in the musical, this father-daughter relationship that develops between them. Miles and Winnie have...a lot going on that I will save discussing for later. And Winnie is Jesse's first real friend in pretty much forever. But this experience also has an effect on Winnie, and that's what I'm trying to get at here.

Right after she says goodbye to the Tucks, Winnie sings Everlasting. It's a song about a decision, and although a little bit of the suspense is kept, we as the audience already know what Winnie is going to do, because that's what's been set up the whole show. (And we're right: she gives the water to the toad.)

Winnie starts her story as an eleven-year-old girl who wants to get out of the house and go to the fair. Throughout the course of a few days, she grows up and learns a lot about the nature of life and humanity and everything Tuck Everlasting is trying to teach us.

Remember how I said that Tuck hurts because the audience knows more than Winnie? I really do think that's the reason. We know early on what's going on with the Tucks, and we see Winnie figure it out and sort out her emotions on her own time. We basically go through that pain twice.

(I'm not sure if this is significant, but going back to my thing about how the music changes in Act Two, I did notice that the ensemble carries the fast part of the end of the show. It's not the Tucks anymore. Oof.)

If you made it this far, please discuss this with me because I am desperate to hear more theories.

#gracie writes overly long media analysis #all the quotes came from my copy of the script! #tuck everlasting #tuck everlasting the musical #winnie foster #jesse tuck #musical theater #analysis

[bolters-and-rivets]

You know, I've never spoken about my history or the place I'm now at, let's remedy that

I first made this Tumblr during a very turbulant part of my life and I kept putting off some form of formal introduction post, telling myself I'd get round to it later when I was good and settled Well, it's now later, and I'm settled

OK, so, for the past, IDK, 5 years? I'd had a deep seated feeling of wanting to escape my home without realising what I was wanting. I'd plan ambitious holidays exploring europe or just cassually wonder how much I'd have to save to move abroad and buy a house. it took a lot of searching to come to the realisation, but the gist of it is I was being emotionally and financially manipulated by my mother.

if folks are really interested in exactly what I went through, then I'll post a follow up, I have no problem talking about it, but I'm happy to move on for the moment. long story short, I came to the realisation that I was stuck in the situation I was. I was also EXTREMELY lucky enough to have freinds who got me in touch with freinds and collectively were able to offer transport, accomodation, and financial support whilst I got back on my feet. I'm not mentioning names, but those on Tumblr know who they are, and if you're reading this, you're family to me and I love you. In a blindingly quick timeframe we planned a get-away, I like to joke that it was like the great escape, but it honestly consisted of a month's serious planning whilst I subtly gathered everything I needed and wanted together, my actual getaway driver popped round for a visit to collect a few things and meet the folks I'd be staying with early under the excuse of going to visit a railway (which we did, it was very nice too), and then on D-Day they drove halfway across the country to wait until my parents were out the house to pick me and the last few items up. and we litterally drove off into the sunset. cue 4-5 months of sleeping on a sofa whilst I looked for a job and a place of my own. Understand I was never under any risk of being thrown out, but none of us expected I would be hanging around there for as long as I did, it was leaps above what I was used to, but it was a frustrating and stressful time for everyone involved, and I can only aplogise for the inconvenience involved in accomodating me for that long. From there I basically lucked into finding a place where I didn't need a job (a requirement for many renters for bullshit insurance reasons) that I could also afford even on universal credit. I can assure you it all happened rather mundainly and everything quietly clicked into place. for additional context, this building consists of a rather nice brick built construction, I wanna say 1930s, the hallway has a nice tiled floor, there is a spacious living room, and a communal kitchen which is very much the social heart of the building, everyone stays in seperate rooms which feature en-suit showers Dear reader, allow me to clarify how fucking blessed I feel to be in this current living situation.

Before I moved here I had two underlying fears that I would go from sharing a space with two other people to being completely isolated, which had the potential for some serious problems later down the line.

The second is admittedly more of a quality of life, but I was also scared, due to my own social anxiety and problems forming freindships in the first place, that I would be unable to source a bit of weed every now and then to try and milk some dopamine out of my abused brain.

within 30 minutes of being officially moved in I went down to the kitchen, where I proceeded to get very high whilst getting to know two of the other tennants and being introduced to the alien-to-me world of darts. consider that mission acomplished on day. I'll liken this place to being like the "frathouse beef wellington" video personified (without all the rubbish littering every surface, mind), we drink, we smoke, we listen to club and reggae, we play darts at least weekly, and we chow down on home-made food that has no rights being as good as it is coming from an enviroment as hectic as this, but that's what happens when one tennant is half-Jamaican and another is Marrocan. There also happens to be a fish & chip shop right next door, which let me tell you is a fucking dangerous prospect when you find yourself newely independant with cash to burn and no one to tell you no. I've even played DND for the first time, and I'm very eager for the next session. I'm not joking when I say this has become well and truly mission fucking acomplished for me, at this point I want for nothing more except for the current living situation to endure, and maybe to fall for someone at some point, but I'm doubtful on the latter actually happening. Don't get me wrong, my journey is far from finished, I still have a lot of healing particularly in regards to my mental health. My self-esteme is well and truly shot, but hopefully now I have the space to heal. I may have depressive episodes, but the thoughts of "I need to do X or my life is over" and "no one likes you" are gone for good, because I have the experiences to prove those thoughts wrong. Dare I say it, I feel truly safe and at ease now, which is why I feel the need to reitterate how truly grateful I am to the people who have helped me get the far and continue to help me. You know who you are, but you all showed me what family truly means, you showed me that I do have worth just by existing. I have no way of truly expressing or repaying my gratitude, but thank you.

[ilgaksu]

sorry that you're having trouble sleeping. I was going to ask you about heihua insomnia hcs but I feel like you had something about hxz playing violin at hours that neighbors wouldn't appreciate in one of your fics - is that an insomnia thing or just ending up on weird sleep schedules on purpose (for crime reasons or some such)?

(Also did you want non-fic related asks and if so, on what? I feel like you've set up something of an air of mystery on purpose so I don't want to interfere with that)

For the Hei Xiazi violin question: it's actually insomnia, probably sometimes as a result of weird sleeping schedules! I honestly think spending so much of your job in places without natural light has got to RUIN your circadian rhythm, right??*

*I have a ruined circadian rhythm without this excuse.

I think violin has such a full-body requirement to play that it's soothing for overactive insomnia, and also honestly looks like it can get physically exhausting.

With more headcanons, I tend to think Hei Xiazi gets much worse insomnia than Xiao Hua does, and I have no clue why I think that, aside partially from the fact I think Hei Xiazi stays up overthinking a lot more than Xiao Hua. Xiao Hua overthinks literally all the rest of the time. Also, I have a long-standing headcanon that neither of them are really compatible with the idea of sleeping in the same bed in terms of actually sleeping well a lot of the time when they first meet, but genuinely stubborn it out because they both like the intimacy aspect (lbr, Xiao Hua went from behaving with complete off-putting, wooden confusion about being cuddled post-sex, never mind any other time*, to straight up pulling a Miette-level of glaring if it Doesn't happen). Also, to be blunt, I genuinely think Xiao Hua's very mercenary and unsentimental about a) his body/bodily needs and therefore b) solo insomnia and just gets out his vibrator and tries to use that to relax enough it'll knock him out.

*Sometimes for my own dopamine, I imagine the first handful of times Hei Xiazi tried outside of specifically afterglow scenarios, and Xiao Hua stared at him like What Are You Doing, Actually? because I like to laugh at him for sport.

(That sounds fun! Uhhh, I am trying to think, and I'm like. I love being asked about writing process, and why I made decisions in fic I did, but that's.....also fic. I think questions about other interests I have, like history or, idk, favourite tea, or something are fine. I'm less comfortable with questions asking about my job/personal life in terms of the specifics/that kind of thing, and if I don't want to answer something, I'll just not and make up a new question to reply to. I'll also let you know if this changes, since I hadn't really considered that too deeply before you asked and I find having a degree of privacy now suits me a lot, but some more neutral stuff feels like it could be fun? This is really sweet of you to check and as a fandom cryptid, I appreciate it <3)

#inimitablereel #asks

[aurik6]

Makoto's route. Dark 07

Characters mentioned: Makoto Aomine, Yui Komori, Ruki Mukami, Ayato Sakamaki, Laito Sakamaki

Monologue: 

So things are going like they are... Nothing interesting, but Ruki sometimes recalls what I should to as far as I'm "snake" like the Mukamis. Honestly, this role doesn't suit me at all. But who asked me? Who asked them if they wanted to do all these things? They didn't have a choice if they wanted to be alive again.

And I... I also don't have any alternatives. Can't turn around and step back. I'm already into all this bloody nightmare...

***

Location:  school

Makoto : How will I know who Adam is  among them? There're six guys!

Ruki: Simply, because one of them is Eve's choice.

Makoto: Still... If I'm wrong and "seduce" the wrong guy? 

Ruki: That's impossible, otherwise — just stupid of you. It's being said, watching them is in your best interest.

Makoto: *soffs* Puah, you see, I've never liked probabilities at math, so I won't calculate the variants...

Ruki: You're testing my patience with this foolishness. What do you mean by... that?

Makoto: Oh, I just gonna ask them straightforwardly : who's dating Komori Yui? That's all, bingo! It's safer to check everything "manually".

*Ruki's slowly covering his face with hands*

Ruki: ...

Makoto: Hey, why are you so disappointed? 

Ruki: Sometimes I think of doing a skull  tripanation to you, just to check if there's a feature of some brain... 

Makoto: *waves her hands*

Makoto: No-no! I still need my brain for some important things!

Ruki: No doubts, really.

Ruki: However, I assume if you fail, you'll be just replaced and don't even notice this. That's all, now go. Do your job.

Makoto: It's too sad to say bye, Ruki...

Ruki: Don't embarrass me with your bluntness! And it's better for us not to walk together. Ideally for us to pretend that we don't even know each other.

Makoto: Oh, I'd like to ignore Kou-kun for eternit, nut not you. I know you're not proud of me and Kou fighting. So, sorry for that, Ruki. See you.

Makoto: *walks away in some direction*

Ruki: *watches her going in annoyance but also with some melancholic glimpse in the eyes*

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Makoto: (What now? I don't fucking care if I'll be replaced, I'm  here for not thinking about it! I only need my piece of reality, in the end of this mission, wether it's going to be successful or fail for them, I'll know facts about my loved ones' weird deaths...I'll find all the answers! I hope...)

*The bell rings*

Location: *History class*

Makoto: (another boring-ass subject. At least I'm lucky to be with Sakamakis in the same room. But with whom? Of course the damn triplets. Three faces of God, cor blimely! )

History teacher: Well, our history course of the semester is ending, so before we move to philosophy course I highly recommend you to prepare for the next lesson and devote some of your time to Plato's Republic book 7, especially the Allegory of the cave. I'd like to think about the concept of this allegory.

Makoto: (Ha, does he really think I'd read it?)

History teacher: Perhaps reading this book will change your attitude to knowledge and truth's concept.

Makoto: ! (Hm... it sounds like it can be useful? But not now, not now, man...)

Makoto: ( Better to return to my "mission". Oh, I'll write a small note for... Ah, Ayato. It'll be an easier try than the others..)

Makoto: (Okay, now one minute before the bell... Please, please, notice that silly note!)

*she throws a piece of paper on Ayato's desk*

Makoto: (Then keep watching him...)

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*The scene shifts to the hallway*

Makoto: ( So where's my Eve-bait? Oh, here's she is.)

Makoto: Oh, Yui, good to see you! Where are you going?

Yui: Ah, hi, Makoto-san! Well, I'm going to the cafeteria... Kanato-kun asked me to...

Makoto: You know, it's great! I'd like to join you here, but I have some deal... You mind me joining after?

Yui: (Why is she so excited? I have a bad feeling of it...)

Yui: Y-yeah, sure..

Makoto: You're the best!

*Makoto runs away to the hallway*

???: He-he, watch ya step!

Makoto: Huh?..

*Thud*

Makoto: What the –

*she falls down*

Ayato: Yo, Chichiari*, resting here on the floor?

*she looks up.*

Makoto: (Fuck... he's not following my plan! I wrote to come to the infirmary!)

Makoto: Wow!... What a coincidence, Ayato! I was on my way to find you, but seems you did it first!

Ayato: Tch, did you write this stupid note on behalf of Chichinashi? Are you that stupid? Anyone is able to get this trick

Makoto: Chichiari, chichinashi. Are you still in your damn puberty? How long does it take you, vampires, to overcome this? Hundreds of years?

*She stands up*

Ayato: Ye don't wanna answer my questions?

Makoto: Why if you already know the answers!

*Ayato grabs her wrist*

Ayato: You still so upset about the past? You want a revenge? Why are ya spying on me, ha??

Makoto: Spying? Are you crazy? I just wanted to ask one little question, that's all! I thought you'll help me. That's sorta "revenge" I want from you if you like to call it like this.

Ayato: Well I don't owe you nothing.

Makoto: You deceived me, man I count it as a betrayal, so you do.

Ayato: I didn't deceive, huh. It was your fault to think I'm also a human.

*Laito appears from behind*

Laito: Hmpf~ It feels like you two had a common past together? How could I miss it... Oh, but hold on, I remember this Little Minx*, once Ayato-kun couldn't stop talking about some attractive girl with blue eyes and big bo–

*sounds of violence*

*PUNCH PUNCH PUNCH*

Laito: Ow-whaaa...

Ayato: You're fucking pervert, shut your filthy mouth up!!!!

Makoto: ?... Honestly, I expected you were treating me like a friend and not like a woman from playboy's cover.

*She goes closer to Laito and squats in front of him*

Makoto: Are you okay, you...? Laito, right? Your Uh... Fedora fell off...

Ayato: C'mon I don't recommend you to even look in his side, Chichiari...

Laito: *stands up*

Laito: Oh, this little minx is acting way more nicer than my older* brother ~ You know, Ayato-kun, for now it's okay for you to misbehave since this girl is so kind to even give me my hat.

Makoto: (He.. winked to me. Gosh, it seems like I'd never do my thing and go home!)

Ayato: You know what, you  both are like a pain in the ass, I don't wanna be there anymore.

Makoto: Hold on! Tell me... Who's among your brothers dating Komori Yui?

Laito: Eeeeh? Ooh, seems we're gonna have a love-triangle here? How interesting... What do you think, Ayato-kun?~

Ayato: ...

Ayato: Oi, Chichiari, what do you even mean?

Makoto: ?

Makoto: Are you deaf? I mean what I mean. Who's her boyfriend?

Laito: Ha-ha-ha-ha! You two being so funny!!!

Ayato: You know what, it's none of your business, Makoto.

Makoto: Oh, then if you respond like that it means you are.

Ayato: ...

Makoto: Laito, can't you help here? You look like a guy who's keen on this stuff, aren't you?

Laito: Fu-fu-fu Bitch-chan of course it's perceptive of you, I don't hesitate to say it, but I consider not being helpful here too.

Makoto: No? (It's..bad! They won't tell, yes?.. Oh, man...)

Ayato: You did all this just to annoy me, the great Ore-sama? And what you got by it?  Nothing! You're a dumbass, really.

Makoto: Well, maybe I am, but not as big as you, huh! I kinda wanted the easy revenge tho, but not as much as I wanted us to reconcile.

Ayato: Ha?..

Laito: Fu-fu-fu... Bitch-chan has a secret for sure~ What's she planning out here?

Makoto: *steps closer*

Makoto: (Wish Laito bit his tongue)

Makoto: I wanted a talk with my ex-friend, that's all.

Laito: About Komori Yui?~

Makoto: ...

Makoto: You guys are vampires and I'm not sure that the gossips about her dating with one of the Sakamakis is... a sane idea for a church girl like her. You know, we're friends, actually. Not close, but stil. I was worried that if it happens to be Ayato for her love-interest, she'll be in troubles.

Laito: *smirks*

Laito: How convincing. Well, sorry, Little Minx, but I can't stay here any longer. I have some... Buisness~

We'll meet again.

*He walks away*

Makoto: Is he like that all the time? I mean... terrifying.

Ayato: Tch, he is. I don't wanna talk to ya, tho.

Makoto: (Shit. After a year of silence from him I see Ayato like that and can't even be sincere. I'm also lying to him at some point, so im not better than him?)

Makoto: I... Have to say sorry for making this scene in front of your brother and all in all.

Ayato: You have to? Tho ya see, I need no You after all. It's in the past. I thought you've forgotten about it, a year passed. Isn't it quite long for a human? But you keep this shit in your head, I wonder why.

Makoto: Because it was too good to be true...

Ayato: ?

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Author's notes:

1* – "Chichiari" is the antonym of "Chichinashi" and as far as I remember it is "has boobs" literally. This "term" (lmao) was pointed by several ppl in Fandom so I'm not saying "I've invented this stuff"

2* – Idk, it'd be a bit boring if Laito called every girl "Little Bitch/Bitch-chan". So, "Little Minx" is somewhat of alternative. Maybe "Little Slut" would be also a good idea

#kirua9 #dark07 #makoto route #makotoaomine #diahell #dl #diabolik lovers #diabolik oc

[tsuki-sennin]

With Tycoon back in the game, this presents us with an interesting question for future episodes: "How long can Keiwa play by the rules?" His and Neon's sudden reintroductions to the DGP seem to set the stage for a grand status quo shift, doubly so when paired with the staff actively going against Geats and the steadily growing prominence of Jyamato's gardener Archimedel. ...great name, by the way.

I hear there's a new Buckle introduced this episode! ...so soon after Slot Fever, kinda odd but okay!

-Well of course he won, you guys didn't exactly sabotage him in the smartest way. Besides, no way he was gonna die with a kid relying on him for protection.

-Undefeated Ace.

-"Why doesn't Grandpa Game Master like me, I do what he tells me to :("

-Like an episode of Boundary Break, Ace is peeking behind the curtains and loading zones to see where all the spawns and events are stored.

-Awwww, Tsumuri-neesan does care :)

-Okaaaay!

-Shaddap Win, jnmljmhb

-Hello, Archimedel! I really like your Jyamato Rider Troops, they're really cool.

-Ace, you sly fox! Trying to get yourself a date so soon?

-Soba...

-Ayyy, Keiwa!

-He's got a jorb!

-Who dat?

-Free Core!

-Hello, Naoto. I... forgot your first name Mr. Kurama, but you're always gonna be TimeFire to me, so.

-Aaaaaand off Neon goes!

-Michinaga too!

-Ah yep, it's game time!

-Jesus, aren't you a smol one?

-Aaaaand here comes Punkjack with the jump.

-Jurapira!

-Don't gotta say Henshin there.

-Got robbed by a little girl. Good job, Hareruya!

-"Wow, you're shit at sabotage, huh bear boy?"

-Driverless behavior.

-M

-Musical chairs.

-So, does the girl just... exist as a member of the Jyamato?

-I'm gonna be real with you, Tsumuri, it kinda seems like these games are just being made up on the spot.

-...I mean, they might be!

-"You're only getting so far ahead because your dad is the admin! And as a mod, I am very angry about this bias!"

-Are you that thirsty for Tsumuri, Win?

-Reeeeeeed hat.

-Awwww, Neon-san :)

-Catch!

-Riders should help each other out!

-Good job, you guys!

-Hot damn!

-Love these untransformed fight scenes, love them.

-Michinaga says "Where the FUCK is that kid?", whereas Ace says "Now, how can I find that little lady?"

-Welp, if you say it like that, it was nice knowing you, Punkjack.

-Best laid schemes of mice and men, they say.

-"Fine, help me, I don't even care!"

-Sick ninja beats.

-Yeah, this episode's really been spiling me.

-Oh?

-Who're you?

-Jet!?

-Jetto, Jetto, Jettoman?

-Oh!

-Ohhhh, hacked item.

-"Can I like... rent your driver for the rest of the episode? I'll give you all my rare drops for it."

-KEIWA MY DUDE

-Great!

-Ready!

-Fight!

-Ohhhhhhh, theme song time

-OHHHH SWORD

-One buckle at a time, huh?

-Hot damn, that's good!

-Love Rider Swords, love them, love them.

-Twin Set!

-Take Off, Complete! Jet and Cannon!

-Ready, Fight!

-Hooooly shit, that's a cool suit.

-Now this feels more like a proper first upgrade!

-Daaaaaamn, those cannons!

-Too much even for you, huh Ace?

-Pawn it off on Keiwa then, gotcha!

-To be fair, he'd absolutely want a crack at it too.

-"The players aren't respecting my DM authority."

-Purajira.

-Ahhhhh, the ID Cores make the Rider. ...y'know, obvious

-WHOOAAAAA THAT SUIT

-GIROLI WHAT THE FUCK, YOU HAD SUCH A COOL RIDER FORM THIS WHOLE TIME

-AND YOU NEVER TOLD US?

-smh, I thought we were friends.

-Giroli... Girori, meaning "glaring"... That's where Glare, of course, comes from. Kinda gives me Para-DX energy with this name.

-Where'd you even get that, though? I mean, I expected you to be able to bend DGP rules a bit, but this?

-Did you make that yourself, or did you have that commissioned?

-No, better question, when am I gonna see Tsumuri throw down? Kamen Rider Blink. Her name comes from "Tsumuru", "close one's eyes", so it'd make sense if that were here Rider name. In the fairly likely event that Toei doesn't let her kick ass, that's gonna be the universe I live in.

-...y'know, unlike the Tsuki who talks endlessly about Kamen Rider Shinobi, that's another another universe.

-Right, so. That totally threw me for a loop, but I very much enjoyed this episode! Can't wait for shit to get real soon, that'll be very fun to watch. Until then, I'm gonna take a little power nap, yeah? Have fun now, drive safe, don't get eaten in the Mirror World, don't eat suspicious fruits, all that jazz.

#the world's next round: trick shot of desire for the grand victory #kamen rider geats #kamen rider #kr geats #geats spoilers

[fourseasonsfigs]

It's Raining

This is a very cute set that is a real handful (literally!) to deal with.

We'll get to everything that makes this set more work than I bargained for, but first, let's present the inspiration for these two rainy-day cuties.

Here we have Gong Jun looking tall, handsome, and casually outfitted for a rainy day.

Here we have Zhehan, looking tall, handsome, and dressed like he belongs on a luxury yacht. Which he does. He deserves at a minimum one luxury yacht!

This white suit looks incredible. I'm in love with this belt because of the beautiful design, and how it really shows off his figure and slim waist.

This was the Marie Claire shoot in July 2021. Since Tumblr allows 1 video per post, let's use it on the BTS of this shoot, shall we?

Ahh my eyes and soul feel refreshed. What a man. What a look.

On to the figs, shall we?

These figs do not stand on their own - here I have them propped up against the back wall. Either the umbrella overweights them and they topple over instantly, or the umbrellas detach and fall off.

The interesting thing here is how the umbrellas fall off.

That's right - these figs each have one detachable hand.

The hands, come to find out, are the same size as Nendoroid hands. Nendoroids are small (originally) Japanese PVC figures that have interchangeable parts. Depending on the fig, they can have swappable hands, legs, torsos, face plates, hair, accessories, you name it.

So this means that you can easily swap out their hands for any number of fun items. I actually have a couple Nendoroids, so I experimented:

Here's Zhehan and a new friend. It can get a little more silly for sure:

I really like the coat cape I put on Junjun here. He looks good, doesn't he? Very Xu Si / Rising with the Wind.

I've seen all kinds of fun things that people use (other than weaponry, what the heck Lelanthe) like ice cream cones and leaves and other very wholesome items. So it's nice to have options.

You can see I stuck them both with some fig stickers onto a little acrylic stand. They can stand up just fine if the umbrellas (or uh, the gigantic hand cannon) doesn't overweight them, but I like the original umbrellas on them, so on the plate they go.

Zhehan's hand connects fairly securely. Junjun's hand, on the other hand, does not - you can see it's coming loose already from the weight of the umbrella. I'll be at my desk working away, and all of a sudden I'll hear a clatter and Junjun's hand has fallen off!

Since I have a mini heart attack whenever I hear things falling from my fig displays, it's just no good for my continued health. I'll need to glue his hand in permanently to keep it from falling out.

You can also see that the umbrellas themselves are not exactly perpendicular to the handle. When this set arrived, they just came in pieces (on purpose), and there was no way to snap or connect the the handle into the umbrella in any way. I ended up using some of the included fig sticker to stick the umbrella to the handle, which worked really well in the sense that the parts have never fallen apart, but less well in that it's quite flexible, and moves around quite a bit. It definitely lends to the overweight problem.

I'll need to also eventually remove the sticker and glue the handle to the umbrella so it's straight up and down.

The fig maker did a nice job with these suits. Obviously this is the worst angle for them, but I realized I've been talking so much about other stuff I hadn't even gotten to talk about the nice detailing (I really like the silver anchor buckle on Zhehan's suit) or the moon and stars in their eyes.

Here's the view from the perspective of the rain - not much to see here!

The box cards are very cute:

There's also this double-sided art card:

All in all, this is a cute and clever little set. It's also a huge pain unless you enjoy the interchangeability fun, which I actually do not, despite the laughs I got with the various weaponry. There is a lot of gluing to do with this set for me in the future, which is fine because I love it. No regrets. Just be forewarned, figthusiast friends!

Material: PVC

Fig Count: 86

Diorama Count: 7

Snowglobe Count: 1

Rating: It's raining men - hallelujah!

[link back to Master Fig Index for more posts]

#junzhe #zhang zhehan #gong jun #shl cast #word of honor cast #figthusiast #bg photo credit valantine müller at unsplash

[falseapostle]

✥ @fangedstories asked: ✥ ✥ Well, I can't say there are any of your muses I don't like....But I really enjoy Abe, Decaf, and Aku.

Abe is such a rich character who has so much redemption and starting over, plus his position makes him suited for taking on two broken souls that would have seen no growth of their own had he not taken them under his wings. He is daddy! Abe and nothing will convince me otherwise. His snarky side always gets a chuckle out of me as well!

Decaf...Decaf is so fun to write beside and though he has trauma, it only makes him that much richer as a character. I also love how you seem to use him as a source of stress relief and your interpretation of Hanekoma is the first I encountered, and it clicked for me immediately. Good work!

Aku...when a character punches your gut saying 'please I need a hug and a friend' it's a real treat. OCs are tough to get off the ground sometimes, but you've done well making her identifiable and relatable, and several of my muses can mesh with her personality wise.. My only complaint is she needs more spotlights dammit!! ✥

Your Favorite Muses

♝~✺~♝

{Thank you so much for your words, lovely! I really had no idea Abe would persist so long as a muse. He was really supposed to be a temp character who never saw much of any real interaction, just a figure to talk about from time to time. That everyone has enjoyed interacting with him to the point of his blog lasting this long, it something that still blows me away. How? XD I'll try to keep writing good work for him.}

{Honestly, I never intended to use Decaf as any kind of stress relief. I think getting to write at all is sort of cathartic to me, and Aku is the one that I put most of myself into. She's the one that I try to use as like a coping muse. I feel like if I can get her through hard times, I can get through hard times as well, and the same for if she can find any bit of happiness, it just gives me hope. Decaf I really just wanted to write the most interesting stories with and really explore his character. I sort of fear that he's become more like a canon-divergent "This is an OC wearing the skin of a canon character" type of deal, but I'm glad people can still connect with him and say, "Yeah, that's definitely Hanekoma." Thank you and please keep proving my insecurity wrong.}

{I need to post more stuff for Aku, really I do. Maybe I'll fill out some refillable memes for her soon and try to like starter calls and stuff. I just have to catch up with what I owe first. I am so glad that you like her because I really feel like I haven't done a good job promoting her. I'm glad she's still making an impact on some people. ^^}

#✥ whispers from the higher plane ✥ ➺ ooc #✥ well if you want to know what i think . . . ✥ ➺ answer #fangedstories

[maniacwatchestheworld]

Hi! Just wanted to say that I don't think that you were in the wrong for the Audio Adventures "i sleep, real shit" meme. I kind of took it as to mean that you preferred Harvey's story over the Joker's... not that you hated the Joker.

Still, I thought that your response was very well thought out and articulated in your reblog and I wanted to congratulate you on that!

On the other hand, drama in the Batman: The Audio Adventures fandom means that it is growing haha... so maybe that's a good sign?

Yeah. As I had detailed in my second reblog, I don't actually hate the Joker at all. I'm mostly apathetic to ambivalent about him...? And if you actually look at my blog, the entire reason I made that meme was because I was entertained by how I fell asleep while listening to the season 1 finale of the Batman Audio Adventures. I thought that was amusing, it made me feel like the meme, and so I decided to actually make the meme for real! You can see that the post I made immediately before I posted that meme was me talking about how I fell asleep while listening to the season 1 finale. I sleep not out of malice towards the Joker and his fans, but rather because I'm just not as interested in what's going on with the Joker when compared to what's going on with Two-Face! There wasn't really any malice behind my actions, and I think it was a pretty tame meme regardless. I didn't think that anyone would actually get offended by it, as it's all in good fun and people are perfectly within their rights to disagree with my post. So needless to say, I was surprised to see someone reacting SO adversely to my post!

I'll be honest, I was very tempted to just ignore the response post. But I do always try to treat everyone I can with respect and courtesy, and it bothered me that they were accusing me of having attitudes that simply don't reflect who I am at all. To stay silent, I felt, would only make that person feel like they were correct in their snapshot judgement of me. That I'm just here to pick on Joker fans, when that simply isn't true! I have preferences and am biased towards those preferences. But generally speaking I'm not interested in openly bashing things that I dislike publicly here on the internet! This blog will never become a hate blog. I may express frustrations here and there, but I tend to ignore things that I dislike, and prefer to discuss things that I do like. When something bothers me, I prefer to think of ways to fix it, or find a way to engage with it that suits me better than to just spread anger and hatred towards it. And I don't want people to think that I would ever be the kind of person who wants to spread hate on my blog! I have better things to do with my time and energy on this blog. This is just a place for me to share thoughts and ideas I have for my own sake and enjoyment. And I just don't find engaging in hate or discourse to be very fun.

I've been here on the internet and Tumblr specifically for a very long time at this point. I'm a Tumblr ancient. And I've always found that people acting in the way that I saw tends to be the result of someone just having a bad day and lashing out because of it. I will never begrudge someone for having a bad day. And if the Joker community really is a chronically bullied group like that person was implying, they have nothing but my sympathy, and I would not want to exacerbate the problem! Again, I have no interest in bullying other people on this blog of mine, and if I do something wrong, I am always happy to try and change my thoughts and behavior to make things right. I want to learn and am always grateful to anyone who's willing to work with and teach me! It's always good to hear people's thoughts and opinions that differ from my own! And the fact that you think that I did a good job with my response is hopefully an indication that I'm on the right track. So thank you for the compliment. I'm just trying my best. >.<

And yeah... I've been very surprised with the amount of interaction the Batman fandom has been giving me in my short time here so far! I'm always craving interaction! But if this is a sign of things to come... On one hand, I am REALLY enjoying the Batman Audio Adventures and so am glad that this is a sign of them gaining more popularity! But at the same time, discourse is just... Exhausting and I'd rather not be forced into engaging with it if I don't have to. >.<

#batman discourse #joker discourse #tumblr discourse #maniac life #maniac muses #answered asks #answered #anon #anonymous #long post #sorry this post ended up being so long lol. I did not intend for it to end up this length. But I feel like that always happens with me. XP

[thatalicornstallion]

Kicking off my Delta Host super interviews, I interviewed Goatman! Here is what the mighty goat had to say.

“So, is there anything you’d like to start off with that you’d like the readers to know about yourself?”

Goatman: "Well, I mean, the basics: My name is Runner Shell, I've worked for Delta Host for a few years as the super known as Goatman. I'm an A-ranked damager and I use a gold constructs core."

“How did you get your start with Delta?”

Goatman: "Well when I joined, there was no Delta academy. You sent in an application directly to Delta and they'd reach out if they were interested in pursuing a partnership with you. I did that, and a few months later they called me up and said they wanted to speak with me. A few months after that I was in training. It was actually a friend of mine that prompted me to sign up, she thought I had a sense of responsibility that would make me a good super."

“I see. Did you have your name chosen before you got your core?”

Goatman: "Nope, the identity comes last. First, core. Then you train. Then you get your suit and name."

“I see. Can I ask about the reasons why you chose Goatman as your name?”

Goatman: "Because every time I battle, the first thing I construct is a set of goat horns I can use for ramming."

“I take it that it just came naturally that way, then. Did you pick your core or was it assigned to you?”

Goatman: "We get some say in our cores when we go in, but ultimately the decision's up to Sequence. I had a bit of say. They asked me about my combat style and what kinds of powers I'd like to have, then they gave me a shortlist that I could pick the best options from. Sequence made the final call."

“I see. If you can remember, could you tell me more about the cores you had in mind going in, and the list you picked from? I’m sure the readers will be interested in what possible other forms of Goatman could have existed.”

Goatman: "I honestly don't even remember anymore. It was years ago. I know it was a lot of tanky stuff though. A lot of manipulation and construct abilities."

“How about moving from the basic stuff for a bit. Have you had any fan interactions that stick with you?”

Goatman: "Oh, I mean, for sure. I'm from a pretty small town where nobody really gets *known,* so any time a fan comes up and tells me how special I am to them and how much they look up to me, that feels pretty amazing. I never thought I'd be much of anything beyond the peanut farm I grew up on. People talking about how I inspire them is surreal, even to this day. I'll never get used to it."

“I see. Aside from your horns, what are some of your favorite constructs you’ve made?”

Goatman: "I mean, I stay pretty consistent with my constructs. I go for defence first and foremost. Battering tools are also pretty good to have."

“Your partner Pokemon was Gogoat, was that your decision or was it someone in marketing that picked it for you?”

Goatman: "Pfft, I dunno anything about Pokemon. That was a collaborative effort between the incredible people in our event department and the incredible people at Skeebtendo."

“I take it then the other events would yield a similar response?”

Goatman: "A lot of them probably would, yeah."

“Are there any that you provided input on?”

Goatman: "Off the top of my head? I don't think so. I don't really go into the event department and start acting like I know anything about marketing or design. They do ask me questions sometimes if they're having trouble with my theming or if they want my input for something, but yeah."

“Do you have any moments you’d consider highlights for your career, in battle or otherwise?”

Goatman: "Kind of a tricky question. It gets ingrained pretty hard into us by Sequence to not think of our battles as big conquests or wins to be celebrated, but more like a job that needs to be done. It's the mindset that keeps us from becoming corrupt or doing any of this for the valour, so I don't think you'll find any supers who list a specific battle as some sort of major high point in their career. Cuz I mean, at the end of the day, lives are at stake. People get hurt, property gets destroyed, there's no real happy ending when you need to fight another person. Definitely not my highlights. But in terms of my other work, I think my biggest highlight would probably be seeing the Nova Squad animated series come together. It really felt like the pinnacle of everything I've done. Consulting on that show has been an amazing experience."

“I see. Does it feel strange to see yourself as a cartoon character?”

Goatman: “No, it honestly feels amazing. The animators working with us at Whammy are incredibly talented. Seeing them bring me and my teammates to life is super special.”

“Do you own bits of your own merchandise?”

Goatman: “Hah, not really. It would feel kinda vain to have that stuff around the house. Some of it, if it’s really special, but not really.”

“What do you consider to be really special?”

Goatman: “Well like- I dunno, one-of-a-kind event stuff or special convention stuff.”

“How has being in Delta impacted your life?”

Goatman: “It’s changed everything. Delta *is* my life now. Every day I wake up as a super, I live as a super and I go to sleep as a super. I revolve my entire life around how I can improve myself to be a better super for my team and for the world. Everyone’s eyes are on me. I always keep that in mind.”

Goatman seemed at first to be quite the intimidating person, though I feel that most of it was just the intimidation that one feels when meeting a celebrity. I found that he was quite the humble person, and it was a great experience, and I see why the fans love him so much.

#Delta Host #super hero #goatman #ThatAlicornStallion

[morbidmeatbun]

If I were being honest, I actually don't want my page to be full of rants ... but guess here we are.

I can't find any place to confess besides writing. And that's the only way that can keep me flipping sane.

I don't know how many times I've said this.

I hate myself so much.

To the point I just don't care anymore of my wellbeing and eventually breaking down over anything.

It's so painful to even think about it.

I'm not trying to be dramatic or emo, it's just how I am. I tend to overdo things until it suits my vision.

Maybe that's why ... I'm self-sabotaging.

I'm a hardworker and master procrastinator. A bad combo if you think about it. Usually I'll work to the fullest when given a task or pursue something that I take interest, but because it's overwhelming I'll end up postponing it until who knows when.

It's a bad habit I want to break ... but it's so hard to do it alone :(

Well, all this time I do feel I'm dealing with everything alone. Whenever I asked help it just ends up disappointing. Mostly because they can't actually help me and I'll always be the one taking reign to end my problems.

That's why I absolutely despise group works and projects. It's me, me, me, and always me.

Project 1: I'm the leader and do every job.

Project 2: same as before.

Project 3: why would you even bother?

I just can't. Seriously, I'm at my fricking limit. Even if I tried to cooperate with them, they just don't understand what to do .... They always needed to be guided, while I have to do my own work too :(

It slows me down tbh. I feel I'm being pulled upon many parts, I'm so tired. I wanted to scream.

I think they just have little self-awareness.

Acting as if they know everything and understand everything in life like adults, while they're the ones who needs enlightenment.

I don't mean I'm the most righteous here. It's based on observation.

As far as I know, it seems they do not know what they actually want to be later on. Trying to find identity in contradictory.

It ends up slowing people around them.

Hah ... I don't know anymore. I also don't have a clear vision of the future. Sometimes I feel it's better to just die.

You know, I usually got these odd illusions of comfort. Like when I'm feeling sad or just having a bad day I reenact a scene where there's somebody who came to me and asked what's wrong. Or when I'm crying in my room I imagine somebody saw me and hugged me with affection that melts me away.

Though those are just pure imaginations.

And maybe will never happen.

But it does seems nice to experience it.

I think I'm actually touch-starved. Although I don't want to admit it.

I'll just stick to my fictional world and writing more.

#ChocoMeatbun #MocaVent