#it doesn't make me any less passionate about it LMFAO

[my-reality-my-rules]

hello! I am wondering why do u want to shift in El Filibusterismo or Noli me tangere? Just curious to know.

[thanks for this ask!]

HOLY FUCK HOLY SHITTING FUCK SOMEONE FINALLY NOTICED I'M SO HAPPY LMAO

i have so much to say about this oh my fucking god-

first things first, with the el noli fandom being very small, and the novels' author being very dead, i feel obliged to say that i have been desperately craving for content for the past how many years. much of this is due to the fact that the story itself is unfinished (don't even get me started on Makamisa)—but what really takes the cake is that i, along with my friends, have some thoughts on the two main novels.

[immediate apologies for this rant,, i tried to keep this short as i didn't want to get too into the topic lmao]

[TW: major spoilers for Noli Me Tángere and El Filibusterismo by José Rizal]

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(1) character disappearances

basilio was a major character in el filibusterismo not only because of his involvement in the story, but because of his past. he knew simoun's true identity, and likely had an idea what happened with elias (there's no way he wouldn't know this—especially when the scandal with crisostomo was such a big thing with the nobility, not to mention basilio being taken under captain tiago's wing after). while i wouldn't yet call him an accomplice to simoun's formation or development as a character at this point in time, when he buries his mother and elias with crisostomo, it's one of the points of interest in his story because it's how he gets involved with one of the main characters in the first place.

moving on to the sequel; he becomes a main character himself. for his story, he could've used his position as a lauded student of medicine to his advantage, especially after julí's death. I'm of the opinion that even if his reputation was ruined due to the arrests, there's no way he couldn't have pulled a favour or two. basilio was angry enough to agree to simoun's offer of revolution, and we don't see much else in the last few chapters save for him trying to stop isagani from going to the party. we don't see him at all after that.

and placido ))):< mans had a whole chapter to himself and we barely ever see him again. the one time we do later in the novel, it's a mere footnote. we don't know the specifics of what he did under simoun's command, we don't even get to witness him in action. what happened in the time between his meeting with simoun and the botched explosion? what happens with his mother after the debacle? what did padre millon do after his outburst? i have so many more questions crammed in one of my oldest google docs lmfao. overall, i really like placido's character too. i felt a kinship with him when i read his chapter—so that factored into my interest in his character.

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(2) unfinished story + literature

i understand that the author died before the last novel was finished, but after getting so invested in the series, it left me wanting as a reader. don't get me wrong—i love reading about the theories being made on both official research and on fanfictions when it comes to the stories. but with the fanbase being so small, and some documents unavailable for perusal (at least for me), it's hard to cope with the knowledge that we won't get much else.

additionally, from what I've heard, the novels are being treated as homework, and just that. just research for a subject. perhaps it's my obsession with the stories peaking through, but i stand by that. as a fan of classic literature, especially of works that aren't as globally recognised, it kinda hurts my soul lmao.

alright, listen; material like Les Misérables, Crime and Punishment, The Count of Monte Cristo, The Picture of Dorian Gray, Pride and Prejudice, and et cetera—they deserve their acclaim. I'm not downplaying any of the author's successes nor the legacies that those kinds of works have earned. but stories such as Noli Me Tángere, El Filibusterismo, Wives and Daughters, The Setting Sun, Doña Barbara, and more—i enjoy reading lesser known literature. they have fewer analyses, lower recognition, and are generally more obscure. shifting for these classics is the true immersion, the true experience, in my opinion. it's a chance at finally getting the worlds I've only imagined fully come into life.

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(3) personal reasons

a few days ago, a friend of mine remarked that we (the three of us who's in the group) might have had a chance at being called attractive had we lived during the time period the novels were written. this isn't to degrade my friends or myself in any way—just simply stating that there are always better people when it comes to things like beauty. i agreed with her. growing up, i never really fit into that category of conventional attractiveness; and while I've often been told otherwise, i know i still had to grow into my looks, and earn my place into the middle hierarchy with peers, not like the people who've had the privilege of money and breeding to comfort themselves with to actually pay to be attractive.

I'm not saying that to sound misogynistic—i genuinely don't give a shit about the peers who gave me trouble in the past—but i do want to experience that too, you know? everyone's always dreamed of a better life, and what finer way than shifting to experience that?

#forgive me for the rant #but this was building up for years #i had an obsession with these books #and while some of that faded over time #it doesn't make me any less passionate about it LMFAO #shifting #shifting realities #reality shifting #desired reality #shift #shifting shenanigans #shifting to noli me tangere #shifting to el filibusterismo #noli me tangere #el filibusterismo #josé rizal #philippine history #Esther's shifting posts

[preeningpisces]

Nanami NSFW Headcanons

Lemme know if you want me to elaborate/write something about any of these

18+ content below the cut, mdni, implied chubby fem!reader

Enjoy! 💙

☆ Starting controversial agaaaain, but like I said with Toji, I just don’t see him being a hard dom either. This man will never call you a whore, would be offended if you requested he call you a bitch or cumdump—I think he’d be okay with slut, but he wouldn’t say that unless you ask

☆ Very firm about his boundaries, he won’t do anything he doesn’t feel comfortable doing & you won’t be able to change his mind. Very respectful of yours & will never push them

☆ Lowkey loves to be praised & doted on. His ears turn very pink when you tell him how good he’s making you feel, or how big his cock is, or if you tell him his voice is sexy

☆ The fact you find his voice sexy confuses him—he thinks it’s too monotone, and he isn’t exactly the smoothest guy out there with his words. He’s not very talkative in general, and that extends to sex as well. Once you express how much it turns you on, however, he will dirty talk more, and more often as he builds confidence doing it (dirty talk is hard you guys, be patient with him!!!)

☆ Nanami is stiff, and awkward when your sexual relationship begins. He doesn’t have a ton of experience, and his stoic nature can make moments of passion challenging for him. If you’re more experienced, you’ll probably take the lead, and it’s something he’s very thankful for.

☆ If you’re less or equally experienced, he’ll take the lead. He’ll be honest about his own lack of experience, and the two of you will explore uncharted territory together—so sweet

☆ Even during the early stages when he’s awkward his intensity, observant nature, generosity, and thoroughness have an allure of their own

☆ He definitely warms up with time though, so don’t fret. Sex has never been at the forefront of his mind, so he discovers his kinks/preferences through your relationship

☆ As I said before, Nanami is a very generous lover; making you feel good makes him feel good. He’s the type that can come from eating you out, which is especially hot if he’s dressed in those formal clothes of his

☆ He loves toys, uses a vibrator on you almost everytime you have sex. Nanami is a very practical person; the vibrator makes you feel so good, and allows him to put more focus on other ways of pleasing you—why wouldn’t he use it? The notion that some men hate them bc they threaten their egos bewilders him

☆ Your vibrators are basically never dead because Nanami is on TOP of those things; he’s gotta make sure it’s ready for whenever the mood strikes you guys. The days you’re home and he’s at work you’ll occasionally get a ‘is the vibrator on the charger?’ text, reminding you like a parent would their kid about the chicken they’re supposed to thaw LMFAO

☆ Not a tease at all. If you say please he’s gonna do it!! If you tell him you want to be teased in the bedroom he’ll try his best but it doesn’t take much before he relents :/

☆ Breeding kink yes, but I just KNOW he’s a vasectomy man (unless yall decide to pop some kiddos out). He’s just too responsible to be risky, & doesn't want his partner to feel obliged to take on the responsibility of birth control all alone. Perfect man, truly

☆ Nanami loves some good ol’ fashioned missionary—who doesn’t? But he also really enjoys positions where he can just hold you close, and focus on the intimacy of the moment and the physical sensations rather than the visuals. Prone bone, and cuddlefucking are prime examples; when he rests his head in your neck, his free hand squeezing all your softness, he’s in heaven

☆ Nylons, pantyhose, stockings: wear them if you want to get destroyed. If you got thigh-highs that pinch your leg? Hoooooo boy. He’s not typically a biter, but the squishy parts hanging over the stocking will be gnawed on. Just accept they’ll be bruised, you’ll be ok

☆Nanami is very appreciative of lingerie, and does not tear it off, he’ll have you keep them on the whole time

☆ Huuuuge sucker for scents. Perfume, soap, laundry detergent—he appreciates good smells, and once he starts associating certain smells with you they get him going

#Nanami smut #nanami x reader #nanami x you #nanami x chubby reader #chubby reader #idk why I have so many thoughts for him he isn’t even my favorite LOL #dreams of nanami ☁︎ #headcanons ☽ #nanami headcanons #dreams ☽ #wet dreams ☽

[rizaposting]

bff help 😭😭😭😭 i look up to you so much (and a lot of other royai/riza fan artists, but you seem the most friendly) and i wanna start posting my own riza art, but im scared ill be booed off the app 😭 any advice for first time fma artists? 🥺 i mostly plan on just making riza fanarts, a little riza x oc, stuff like that. thank you 💕

WAAAHH anon you're so sweet!! First and foremost GRABS YOU you should absolutely post your Riza art! Everyone should post Riza art forever because I'm starving and slurp it up. But you should ALSO post it because it's fun to create and share with people! No one is going to boo you off of the platform, and frankly if anyone tries to they probably need to take a long walk in nature and say hi to some people they pass on the street.

As far as advice, the biggest thing is to try to avoid the "# notes = success/good quality" thinking. It's totally natural to want feedback, and Internet Validation Numbers is encouraging! But if you post something and it doesn't immediately get attention, don't beat yourself up about the quality of your work. Some of my favorite pieces (drawings and writing) are "flops", but I try not to let that discourage me or sour how I feel about them. Sometimes it's just bad luck with timing; or good luck, oppositely

Okay now for more technical advice:

Schedule your posts on tumblr. I usually schedule my art to post at 7:30pm EST kind of arbitrarily, it feels like a good compromise of time zones. Please do know that you might flashbang yourself with your art every time (I do lmfao)

Reblog your work again the next day; mix up your timing and don't be afraid to do a few self-reblogs.

Tag your posts thoughtfully but not excessively, afaik only the first 5 tags are will be where it shows up (EDIT: apparently I'm thinking of 2014 tumblr and it's now the first 30 tags! But I would also posit you absolutely will never fucking need 30 tags. Over tagging will not help, so only tag what's relevant). Series name and acronyms, character name(s), and ship name are good. Also include a tag that you put on all your art so you and others can find it easily!

Comedy usually has more reach. People love silly memes and shitposts and frankly who can blame them! That's not to say serious posts don't also get attention, but just something I noticed

HAVE FUN!!!! this sounds so patronizing, but honestly it's best to do things that appeal to you and have fun with likeminded people. Your passion and enjoyment with telegraph through your work and it will make people smile!!!

I also just want to say that a lot of other Rizalikers are super friendly!!! It can be intimidating to talk to people, but we're all just freaks on the internet rotating a fictional character in our heads. The best way to get to know people is just to reach out and comment on their art/writing/silly posts. It doesn't need to be anything crazy! You can also join fandom discord servers to talk to them on a more casual (and frankly easier) platform, with less pressure because it's less 1-on-1. If you want to DM them (discord or tumblr) def go for it, but I would recommend against just saying "hi!" and then not following it up with anything else, because then I just go "hi!" and then I don't know how to push the conversation forward lol

I would love to see your creations and hear your Rizathoughts, Anon! I believe in you! I hope you decide to come play with us in this rizaspace. Feel free to message me off anon or send me a DM if you want to chat :]

#answered asks #everyone is formally invited to talk with me about riza!!! #not even just 'invited'. perhaps im just grabbing you and sitting you down and staring at you with my Big Green Eyes. you WILL rizapost #the power of yapping about a shared interest in Character is so strong. Pack bonding.

[azrielgreen]

any tips for getting better at writing? love all your fics, your style, your dialogue, etc.

Thank you so much!! Tips for improving writing, well, mine are probably not especially popular or commonplace in the writing community, but here they are anyway!

I wholeheartedly endorse reading as much as possible, doesn't matter what, doesn't have to be books (fanfic is literature, say it with me people). That's about the most middle road advice I have to give.

From there, I recommend OBSESSION. Passion, wild enthusiasm, the desperation to write and the confidence that you're gonna write the FUCK out of this. Lean into your poetry, your inner weird. Go with the flow of what feel right in your imagination. If the scene is full of love and passion, let those sentences run on. If it's action, karate chop those paragraphs up into line-break sushi. Symbolism, symmetry, foreshadowing, onomatopoeia, go WILD. For me, MORE is more, not less. "If it doesn't advance the plot, cut it," is literally my least favourite advice. You have to let your garden grow wild and thorny around you to boost and craft that gorgeous confidence.

This degree of confidence, bordering on delusion, is what I find helps the most. No insecurity, no worries about what anyone will think, just me getting into it and making pretty filthy art and building towards something heartbreaking.

So.

Have fun with the formatting and line break wherever you want. Lean into your authentic intensity, everyone has it and that is what resonates with readers most, I've found. Ignore the "rules" about which tense to use, avoiding tropes (lmfao) and only advancing the plot. Speak your dialogue aloud, play scenes in your head, become invested. Whatever you're writing is the most important thing you've ever written. And then you'll move on, write another. Art, style, dialogue, language, the more you do it; the better you'll get.

💜💜💜

Az.

[lindszeppelin]

it's funny that my words get twisted and passed around like a game of telephone and make it appear as if i said something when i clearly didn't.

if you're gonna go out of your way to talk shit about me then you might as well know wtf you're talking about in regards to what i say, sweets. so let me recap for ya. you gotta make sure that your minions send you a direct screenshot of this post so we are all on the same page, otherwise they are doing you dirty.

I never insinuated nor said outright that I wasn't happy that Bikeriders was premiering at Telluride

I literally only said Telluride was a lesser known "indie" film festival to those that are not in the industry, who closely follow the industry, and to regular folks who know the household names like Cannes, Tribeca, and Venice. It was not any sort of dig at Telluride or Bikeriders being shown there. It's one of the few film festivals that's still going on during the strike which i respect.

If Jeff Nichols himself said he had never been to Telluride nor has he ever premiered a film there then why should we all be suddenly expected to know what the hell Telluride Film Festival is? It's okay to say you never heard it until now lol. It doesn't make you any less of a fan

btw that comment about Jeff i made where i said "how dare he never go to telluride. it's one of the most prestigious festivals. top 10 apparently." was SARCASM HELLO lmfao

I'm happy the movie is premiering there. I literally just said the festival was indie in a passing comment and that is it lol.

I don't need to prove my passion and love for Austin to anybody. I know that I do and that's good enough for me. The movie will get fantastic reviews as it deserves, and we will all move on with our days until December 1.

and after all this if you still can't get it right then there's no hope for you.

[zer0psd]

never used photoshop so im curious to see your opinions about photopea vs photoshop

ok things to be known: 1) adobe can suck my cock and balls theyre evil and i wish that the corporate entity that is adobe would go up in flames, a corporation shoud NOT have that much insight in your privacy, files, sensitive info, etc 2) photopea is great and built off a small dev team as a basically a passion project, which is awesomesauce! i'm not knocking them at all, and i think ppl should support them in anyway they can

i've been a graphic designer and photographer for years now, and in hs i became adobe certified. i literally spent four years of my life learning on an industry standard. it becomes muscle memory after a while. beside that i was a roleplayer so i became VERY familiar with edits and gifs and all that. again everything became muscle memory. adobe suites are the industry standard for a reason, and for GOOD reason. i think they have an amazing interface and work hard to update the experience and make shit easier for artists; like i will give them that even if i sound like a bootlicker. i never paid for it tho lol as a student i got it for free and i would use cracks/torrents.

when i got my new computer it wouldn't let me run bootcamp so i couldn't crack the adobe suites like i used to :/ new mac processors or whatever don't rely on intel anymore, so not intel = no bootcamp. most cracks are pc based so i just couldn't find one that worked for me. apple went ham on protecting IP and combating torrents so it's like impossible to crack without an extensive VPN or else adobe will literally send a cease and desist to your internet provider. its sincerely fucked up.

i switched to photopea bc of this. i really liked it, but im autistic so having to relearn my own workflow that ive had for years made me want to hashtag die. the interface is VERY close to photoshop, so it wasn't hard, but it doesn't have the same capabilities i was used to w ps. i do NOT like edited photos in photopea; i think its way too laggy and glitchy to work with giant raw files, which really sucks!!! for making small edits and doing my graphic design tho??? i do really like it. it doesn't have the same capabilities as ps sure, but once i just fucked with the filter galleries and different plug ins and worked my process around what photopea could accomplish, i was good as gold. i've been producing quality work on commission through photopea. it's a learning curve for sure, especially if you have zero experience with an editing interface like that, but the more i use it the more i learn.

all of that being said, i think photopea is fucking awesome for being completely free and open source. it has its issues —— sometimes its way too glitchy for me and pisses me the fuck off, i have to frequently save my psd files and hope that they don't fuck up, and then reopen so it's less laggy and rinse and repeat bc some of my stuff takes hours lmfao —— but i think its pretty darn close to the photoshop i was using like less than a year ago. its glitchy, its laggy, the ads are annoying and clog up the screen, but i simply cannot complain to much when its a smallish dev team working on a shoestring budget (last time i checked) and for FREE. like its open and usable on any browser and computer and i think thats rad.

if i could go back to ps without giving them money i would in a heartbeat. ps is awesome for the work i do, and i like that there's constant improvements and updates. it just boils down to look, feel, and workflow to me; ps is rarely laggy and glitchy, its meant to handle giant projects, there's so many plug ins you can find online, etc. i just wish it wasn't a subscription based software; honestly if i new adobe was less like the elf on the shelf and i could make a one time purchase, i would. but alas.

anyways i'm pro photopea all the way. idk if any of this was helpful its mostly rambly lmfao. but yeah. i don't do much photography anymore, so i don't have to work around the glitches and lags and all of that with photopea; i focus on graphic design for event fliers and social media content + rp resources. it has room for improvement for sure for sure, but it's lovely and helpful in its own way.

#i typed this with a broken hand i deserve a purple heart for this

[saetoru]

Imo the only thing worse than a privileged white person is a white washed poc (coming from a South Asian) 💀 it fr irks me to no end. Who are you trying to impress?? It really rubs me up the wrong way when people fr disown their own culture... and for what? The very same group who basically tried to stamp it out in the first place dbrhebr 💀😭 the irony. And its nearly always the ones that grew up in money I've noticed. Like calm down being rich doesn't make u any less brown, Mo 😍

I get it when you're from a really "white" area and it can genuinely become alienating to embrace your culture (as sad as it is)- a lot of people get harassed for it. But I'm witnessing this atrocity in LONDON DJDBDHDBD ONE OF THE MOST DIVERSE CITIES. SOME dude was insisting i pronounce his name in a certain (white washed) way which is whatever since that's a personal preference but then turns his nose up at curry 💀 sorry u enjoy boiled chicken but I'm not gonna pretend its nice

Sorry for the rant BDBJXHDV I am so passionate about this topic LMFAO

idk personally i’m kinda on the opposite spectrum i think. i don’t have issues with “white washed” poc bc i’m not a fan of the term white washed in general bc i feel like it’s very desensitized to the way poc grow up sometimes having to reject their culture to fit in and i think that’s a trauma in itself and it’s a valid trauma tbh bc i’ve seen some insane bullying in my time over culture so if a kid grows up conforming to western culture i don’t hold it against them im just … sad for them ?? i suppose. and wanting to fit in with white people is not something i can blame anyone for they’re literally favored in society and with the way poc are depicted in media and stuff, it’s only natural for insecure poc struggling to accept themselves to want to be the cool white kids that society seems to love so much. everyone’s journey with culture is rly sensitive to their own experiences and trauma and i don’t enjoy shaming ppl for being disconnected w their culture when it’s not their faults in the first place if u get what i mean. plus a lot of times it’s inevitable to slowly become “white washed” bc as the generations pass, the culture kind of dies bc i certainly can’t pass down the culture as well as my parents have to me, and my kids in the future won’t be able to pass it down either and sometimes it’s not even rejecting the culture it’s more like they just don’t have someone to teach them and it slowly simmers out. ANYWAY ramble aside i think there are a select few poc here and there that are a bit condescending of their cultures while trying to fit in and i definitely don’t agree w that it kinda pisses me off but yeah overall i’m not rly a fan of the term white washed or like getting onto ppl for being as such

#asks! #i should have a culture counter #how many times does tee say culture in this post ‼️

[daarka]

Obligatory: The situation, if you're not up to speed. Courtesy of CritCrab. Shout out to the anon who said I was spreading misinformation lmfao; the OGL1.1 leak has been validated by one of the higher-ups at Kickstarter, who confirmed WotC reached out to them to discuss their upcoming royalty fee. o/

The Twitter post was not the reassurance they thought it'd be. Also cool of them to have the @.DnDBeyond account post it instead of @.Wizards_DnD -- make DDB take the heat like a meat shield. That was intentional.

It was also intentional to word it the way they did.

"We know you have questions about the OGL and we will be sharing more soon. Thank you for your patience."

This is the statement you make when you are going to plow forward with your plans, but can at least commit to explaining those insidious plans soon (once your lawyers and PR team get done finding ways to rephrase things so it's the least overtly shitty it can possibly be).

This is not what you would say if you are making overhaul changes to the license you had written based on community feedback. Maybe it's just me, maybe it's things I've heard from my own very reputable sources, but I'm sorry man--if I was WotC rn, and I was intending to heed the community backlash, my statement would look more like "We know you have concerns about the OGL. We are listening and making sure your voices are heard, and we will have a formal statement in full for you soon. Thank you for all you've contributed."

Hear the difference?

Whatever. My optimism has dimmed significantly in light of various things. Hasbro's stock was down 40% in 2022, and D&D is by far their largest-earning franchise. But despite it making over $1 billion, Hasbro only saw a little over $100 million in profits. Hasbro is feral.

WotC/DnDBeyond doesn't have a choice. Trust me when I say that the people working at WotC/DDB want to deliver a game they're passionate about--but it's not up to them anymore. Hasbro is the new ownership, and Hasbro is sinking financially. These OGL changes are Hasbro clawing at the person holding them afloat, and drowning them in the process.

There might be a way forward for 3rd party creators in spite of OGL1.1. If so, I'm not smart enough or knowledgeable enough to know what it is. But the more I hear, the more rare insights I'm granted, the less optimistic I am that any amount of community outrage will matter. And holy fuck is that depressing lmfao

We'll just see, I guess. I'm very tired :)

#very grateful for my little birdy but also god damn its bleak #remember hasbro is the villain here. wotc and ddb dont have a choice. and those employees are just as upset as us. #if what i think is gonna happen is what actually happens #its getting worse before it gets better. if it actually even gets better. #opendnd #fuckhasbro #dnd #dnd5e #wotc #ddb #dungeons and dragons #onednd #ogl #daarka gekkers

[kingdomoftyto]

IwtV movie script ‘92 early draft, liveblog, part 6

Okay so we've met Armand, and Claudia expresses concern that she's in danger. Louis goes to confront him.

A little surprised this line was in the original draft, knowing how easily Rice likes to throw around the word "lover"... Thank god he says it at all, I guess.

... In both versions, Armand confirms that she's in danger, and why.

CLASSIC Armand. Their conversation is pretty much the same from here. Armand admits he needs Louis "to make contact with this century."

Louis pls

I do like Armand's line in the film: "A vampire with a human soul... An immortal with a mortal's passion." Errybody hot for the New Orleans sadboi

... This is where the film decides to reveal that Armand and Lestat knew each other.

🥺🥺🥺

... Next in the script, there's a random detour of a scene where Louis kills a painter after getting his portrait sketched? Why not

Then we get to the Madeline scene

^A slightly extended version of a line that stayed in the final version, but I like it

Haha gross

:(((((((

The final cut includes quite a bit more dialogue in this scene. Louis speaks directly to Madeline several times, which doesn't happen in the draft. "How do we seem to you? Do you find us beautiful? Magical? Our white skin, our fierce eyes? Do you have any idea the thing you will become!?" She gets at least a tiny bit of agency/character before becoming irrelevant lol

... The scene where Madeline is dying/turning while Louis and Claudia talk on the balcony is also not in the draft. "Bear me no ill will, my love. We are now even." / "What do you mean?" / "What died in that room was not that woman. What has died is the last breath in me that was human."

It's a lot more solemn and final than the early draft, where it instead cuts to Louis brooding silently while Claudia and the newly turned Madeline dance.

Some upsetting kissing shots in both versions of the scene, then the theater vampires come to kidnap them all

... Interesting, Santiago sentencing Louis to "eternity in a box" is an invention of the final cut.

Interesting

Love this blatantly revisionist history lmfao. It's necessary for the rest of the series to exist, though, so unless the first book is in a vacuum, we must allow it

That shit hurted

... Ah, okay, Santiago does put Louis in a walled-up coffin then.

The original script does not let the audience know what happened to Claudia and Madeline until:

In the final version, as soon as Armand breaks him out, he walks straight to Claudia's cell and finds her remains directly. :(((

At least her ashes definitely get scattered in this version... ಥ_ಥ

The final film jumps back to the interview with Daniel. Louis sheds a tear, and Daniel comments on it. This scene doesn't happen in the early draft.

Ye ye ye ye get him, Louis. Much as I appreciate Armand as a complex character, I can ultimately never forgive him for allowing Claudia to die so gruesomely, and therefore will never accept his so-called love for Louis. Actually kind of pisses me off that Louis spends so many years with him later lmao.

...Anyway.

Then in both versions, we get Louis burning down the theater and killing all the vampires inside with a goddamn scythe.

In the script, Louis then spends the day in the metal coffin they'd tried to entomb him in. In the film, he just walks outside into the morning sun before Armand rescues him off the street.

In the final cut, Armand instead says Louis had done something to show him their failings. "They were doomed, stuck in their decadent time. They had forgotten their first lesson: that we must be powerful, beautiful, and without regret." Louis finds the idea of being without regret amusing.

💔

That's more or less the end of their conversation in the script, but the final film version they continue talking about regret. "What if all I have is my suffering? My regret?" / "Don't you want to lose it?" / "So you can have that, too?"

This is also the point in the movie when he confronts Armand with the knowledge that Armand let Claudia die, and Louis rejects him by saying, "You, who regrets nothing? You, who feels nothing? If that's all I have left to learn, I can do that on my own." It's very empowering and I'm endlessly proud of him for it. That whole scene is a legendary shutdown, tbh

In the script, though:

Gross. I know it's canon, but still. At least he clarifies "Armand followed me" and not that they were traveling together. He just stuck to Louis like a leech and Louis didn't stop him.

Hmm

*RECORD SCREECH* you WHAT

I guess that... makes sense? Sort of? What the fuck

Louis.....

The sequence from the final cut where he talks about seeing the sunrise in films is not in the original draft, btw.

Then Louis sets out to find Lestat. He tracks the scent of death to a ruined mansion, littered with the corpses of rats. In the script, he also sees a few desiccated human corpses:

:(

In the film, the skeletal husk that is Lestat greets Louis with "I'm so glad you're here" and starts apologizing for what happened to Claudia, which Louis dismisses as being in the past. His primary emotion for Lestat in the scene appears to be detached pity. Lestat is afraid of him, but still wishes Louis would come home to him. Louis says his goodbyes and confidently leaves Lestat behind.

In contrast, in the early script, Lestat is surrounded by mountains of old books, reading aloud to himself in a crazed mutter. He acknowledges Louis' presence, but only barely, before he goes back to his magazine.

I think this is straight from the book. If I recall correctly, Lestat was so delirious he wasn't even sure if Louis was really there, and couldn't really bring himself to care either way.

So yeah, since this is something of a fix-it fic AU version of events, we're more interested in them reconciling than in Louis finding closure and moving on lmao. ENTIRELY different tone from the final film.

Ah okay, they tie the motion picture thing into their dialogue here instead. Lestat says seeing the daytime sky in the films frightened him and he fled back here.

:(

It still sounds so weak and contrived. There was no GOOD way to retcon it, since she'd written herself right into a corner, but it's still dumb.

Oh, he actually comes to take Lestat with him in this version. :o Yoooo...

I DIE

OH?????

Yeah okay that is what happens in canon. I am curious when Armand found time to sneak off and push Lestat off a tower when he was supposedly escaping the city with Louis, though

..... dAMN this image limit! (╬▔皿▔)╯ One more post should do it!

#Tyto reads IwtV92 #🥺

[dadbodsandbots]

Round 2: 3, 6, 7, 15, and 16 for Digs and you because can’t get enough of y’all! (via @me-myself-and-my-fos)

3. What would their song to each other be?

please know that I've been listening to 70s/80s Oz rock the entire week to try and build a Catarang playlist, but god do I just not vibe with 99% of Aussie rock lmfao • "Come Back Again" - Daddy Cool • "Send for the Man" - AC/DC • "Up to My Neck in You" - AC/DC

6. What small quirks do they love about each other?

I love Digs' confidence, even if he talks a lot of shit and usually gets rocked for it, but sorry it's just sexy! His Australian pride is also charming because he'll shit on his hometown but no one is allowed to make fun of Australia except him. He's not used to someone actually encouraging him to talk, much less about things that make him happy and reminds him of the few good things of growing up, so he'll soak up any attention I offer. He really loves that I came up with an affectionate nickname for him - makes "us" feel more real, more official. I'm the only one who's allowed to call him Digs - no one else! He also likes watching me verbally dress someone down until it's aimed at him lmao We're the She Yaps / He Can Fight couple

7. Who makes the other laugh more?

Digs is consistently the funnier of us as a pair and lives to hear me devolve into snort laughs. He can't get enough of my sarcasm and we will playfully roast each other over the pettiest things. Someone who wasn't aware of our dynamic would think we despise each other, but those in the know are painfully aware that this is also a barely concealed form of foreplay.

15. Who has a hobby only the other knows about?

Even though his intelligence gets downplayed or straight-up mocked, Digs is really smart from a technical standpoint even if he isn't eloquent in his execution. I'm not math-smart, but he can explain the physics necessary behind aerofoils and how certain scenarios influence his boomerang designs (wind resistance, velocity, etc.). He learns from every encounter with the F.lash and has a genuine drive to improve and be recognized for his hard work, even as a criminal. He's actually really smart and I'll never not be impressed by his work!! Also has a passing interest in stick-n-poke tattoos which he started doing as a kid and picked up again in exchange for cigs/snacks whenever he was in prison. His lines are shaky as hell and his hygiene is questionable, but he hasn't gotten Hep C yet so he must be doing something right, right? On the other hand, Digs can't stand traditional academia (" 's too damn stuffy") and zones out if he thinks he's being lectured at. Whatever I'm interested in, he's happy to kick back and listen to me yammer about whatever interests me at that moment be it a show, a cool bug fact, or a vacation I've been saving for. He loves that I'm a planner like him because neither of us are content with coasting by on the day-to-day. Digs appreciates that I'm passionate about a lot of different things, even if I don't necessarily make money from it. Hell, he might even respect that (doesn't stop him from stealing tho, someone has to fund these daydreams). He interrupts very rarely because the one time he did, he wished that he had a teacher like me when he was young because he might have actually stayed in school, which activated my Crybaby Mode ;;

16. How do they hype each other up?

WE GAS EACH OTHER UP SO HARD 🗣️📢 Digs gets a MASSIVE ego boost when I cheer him on and either absolutely solo's Barry for once or completely eats shit; it's literally 50/50 whether or not it works in his favor, but he's not about to flop when his girl is watching! Whenever Digs gets in his head about his losses or bad childhood, he knows that I love him too much to patronize him with soft support but can kick his ass into action by reminding him that Captain Goddamn Boomerang is a household name for a reason and never those hick shits who gave him hell.

This man WILL NOT SHUT UP when I get dressed up, he's howling and whistling like a Tex Avery cartoon even if I'm not wearing something outright sexy. He's weak for the librarian/teacher look, ESPECIALLY on me. He is sooo loud when cheering for me I'm just like "thank u babe 🧍" get this man a muzzle he's gonna get us kicked out of every possible public venue

#ship: catarang

[unproduciblesmackdown]

some threads woven together flawlessly. or fumbled with intently until it's like Look [holds out a cat's cradle] but no. it's good & real

smthing "i can't believe it's this Telling!" about Romance(tm) being multiple times hearing this sentiment like. "okay talking about relationships right. dating has always come easily to me / i've been lucky / i'm Good At romance: i was not single for more than 5 consecutive days from the autumn of '34 to Now. but it wasn't until my late twenties 90 yrs & dozens of Romantic partners into it that, for the first time ever: one of those relationships was actually like, good." and it's like damn i can't believe it's that Telling. that the remarks have this would be twist / punchline (not actually delivered as such. it's not unexpected to them?) that still gets framed thusly as being Successful in dating. spending eons with a bunch of people involved in bad relationships, but you weren't Not dating

also reminded in terms of [i don't really have any podcasts i'm listening to] like one i was like "hm i've heard some episodes. i'll put this one on in the background" then dropkicking it out the window like 10 min in b/c irrelevantly this Guest was like "real talk. ugh it's sooo cool to be poly nowadays 9_9 everyone has to be poly but i'm Naught into it!!! i guess i Feel too much. i want PASSION and DRAMA!!! this is just like how pop in the late '00s / '10s was all 'feminist' telling you to be independent sluts well i care about true LOVE" and like. i don't remember but i don't think they were a man, i'm quite surer they were queer, it was just so fucking lmfao like would you get thee fuck out of here. we actually don't live in "it's like it's illegal to be monogamous :(" world you're not Edgy now b/c you're insecure about what you see as "trendy" but don't Get / don't want in on. you're not going against the grain for being like "maybe i Do want to settle down with my soulmate" like great news that's normative. pick another queer group to Project on b/c they'd rupture your idea of the Bounds of queerness where you're like "ugh they're so mainstream & ruining it for us True queers disrupting the cishet agenda (arguing for queerness to be on The Terms Of said cishet agenda)" e.g. ohh the cishet agenda is pro asexuality!!! (it is not. even if it was? is the Queer Agenda for some people to have to deny their own sexuality & "have" to have sex a certain kind of way with certain people? up next "bi women: gender traitors, why not Choose to (have to) have only certain kinds of sex w/certain people :)" trans people gender traitors We decide what everyone's gender is, bit fucked up of you to be deciding your own huh, what Assumptions are you making you sicko?? you Have to identify / present xyz certain ways or you're failing to be the gender vanguard like we are) like what if the queer agenda was about everything we Can do. we Can have this sex w/these people sure, & we Can: Not do that w/them. like oh no what if cishet men were able to get their hands on the gay resources only when we recognize Aro/Ace identities can ppl Say "yeah i'm....hehe....Not cishet"? legitimate question Yeah What Then. oh no. god's wounds What If you can just say you're trans now & change your pronouns every day. like yeah let's let everyone do that. what if we all did. oh no lol. oh my god more people are talking about polyamory like they're allowed to talk about polyamory & if my monogamy isn't Assumed ""normal"" & i might feel like it's thus more in question?? well don't mind me as i get defensive by way of Derisive & start scoffing & spitting at the queers making the rest of us look bad but we're Really fighting the fight out here (doing what we were already doing but now feeling extra smug & self satisfied about it?)

like "ohh i have too much Emotion for that" like who said you didn't. why do you think polyamory involves less emotion or passion or desire or commitment or whatever. it sure doesn't posit it necessarily requires More either. it posits that it is not monogamy. & like christ Congratulations then. congratulations on having too much of a heart. that is then used to sneer & backbite like i forgot that this person on this damn podcast also brought this up b/c a friend or acquaintance who was poly made whatever kind of proposition & here they are on some podcast going Ugh & talking about how they have too much passion, despite years of top40 telling them, according to them, that feminism is sluttiness now (again this is. according to them. Groundbreaking circling back to bog standard misogyny) & isn't it so groundbreaking in turn if a woman were to sing love songs? imagine. you can have emotions & passion & drama taking the parking spot a stranger wanted. You could've brought the monogamy with a poly partner, when the Agenda for it is always distilled to Exclusivity, like, bring your own, huh? like your own Feelings & Passions & Commitment. but obviously it is the assumption that the poly partner is the Inadequate one there who would be causing any relationship to be Lacking. b/c they sure didn't frame it as some matter of fact Mismatch or else try to start being outright about how poly people are, like the bisexuals, these sluts (feminists!!) who are only giving you Part of themselves when you deserve All Access to your exclusive, locked in partner!!! & like good lord do you ever? with your Reliable kinsey endzones binary gender soulmate for life, do you?? locking them in what, why. excluding what, why. accessing all of what, why.

Romance(tm) being defined by Exclusivity defined by entitlement to as much of this other person as you want, to ensure that exclusivity: compare w/the boundless potential Threats or already Violations to thee proper romantic relationship. spending too much time with other people, sharing too much with them, getting too much support, feeling too much towards them, valuing them too much, to say nothing of what could be considered "intimacy," which then yeah sure includes "well no kissing or sex" but yknow again that does need to be a bound you even accept, monogamy style, & even if you do, that All Thee Rest of it can be attributed to "well you shouldn't be talking to them / having these friends / doing these other things b/c that's a slippery slope to Romance (kissing, sex)." that the exclusivity is so often inevitably defined by, when pushed to it, Exclusion, e.g. like if everyone i loved was held at gunpoint & it's like only One of them could be Not Shot baby it'd be you like tf is this scenario?? gee it'd suck if everyone else died but baby as long as it's not you like The Hell. that it's about Everyone Else being shut out & Less & Lacking & deprioritized thusly in specificass hypothetical winner take all tournaments of disposing of loved ones like what in the christ. & this being an Isolating logic like well that soulmate should be Enough. & the instruction like, yeah any & all feelings passions desires wishes wants needs hopes dreams? file that away under "to be fulfilled by the One True Romance." it'll fulfill Everything in your life!! if it doesn't umm cough must've been doing it wrong. turn your discontent into Passion. philosophically muse on how Fulfillment may have eluded you but maybe just maybe we all still come closest in struggling through a marriage for a few dozens of years & also perhaps parenthood! surely. and don't even think of considering if this cosmos of the nuclear household is not in fact the distilled essence of all that one's life can possibly contain

of course two people can have a long term intimate relationship w/each other exclusively & it not all necessarily play into some nuclear family cisheteropatriarchy agenda moment lmao, but this is just the same as like. yeah people Can exist in ways that some rando today could look at & deem "are they not cishet" but where this is also not of the cishet agenda(tm). b/c ppl Have to be cishet(tm). & Have to be finding their monogamous cishet lifelong spouse. & sure Have to Not do otherwise, so why Wouldn't there be the narrative that all passions & emotions & desires & wants & needs & chance of fulfillment is a matter of the domain of Romance(tm)? the idea like oh you enjoy talking with someone? Love. you're excited / interested / affectionate? Love. you're dtf? either Love or else held to be the other side of the same coin: marked Lack of love(tm). wild that Stimming in enthusiasm is used in this Romance framework lmao as like a recognized Normal nd moment. love the enthusiasm. you could be stimming even more, about more. you could be enthused even more, about more. you Could. you don't Have to, But You Could. you don't Have to be involved in a way you consider some degree of intimate enough to have a particular classification on that basis, but you Could. you don't want to? alright awesome how many versions of a person there can be on this earth. why would one want to define it as "having" to be monogamous though b/c you're Too Legit to be poly. Too Legit queer to respect asexuality. Too Legit trans to respect someone's gender expression/identity being a casual, dynamic, easy experience.

also always noticing like "oh right, another day's work giving Others' feelings legitimacy & priority, & not my own" back in college times when like a couple of times having to outright or gradually* deflect acquaintances whom i'd interacted with trying to go for the dating route. & then nominally having to presume that they are the uniquely burdened one here like oh way to go (did not do fuckall), what is more Legitimate than disappointment re: Romance right. except it's like now hang on i'm also the one going "i thought someone was interacting with me trying to be friendly :/" like lol, no. & as though then taking on this impossible unilateral responsibility to demur from seeming [i want to hang out & interact] interest now on the terms of both neurotypicality (also normative) & amatonormativity. & being like "??" like what would someone even have particularly strong feelings about when i prommy i did not yet feel comfortable bringing even like most of the range of my personality, or comfortable in general w/what i Did bring, what's the basis of this lol. making up a guy. & like we are all performing we are all perceiving & interpreting without a direct channel into someone else's interiority. but like where's Any genuine intimacy leading into this lol? like still a No even if so but at least it'd be less perplexing. & if there isn't even expected to be any then also still No. tf was this one guy trying to start shit over buying textbooks & by start shit i mean keep trying to talk to me when crossing paths on (community college!) campus until i'm like no i don't wanna go to a movie b/c i don't really know you from adam, & he's like "well isn't that the point of dating, to get to know each other" like No this isn't cishet amatonormative marriage speedrun "i'm so good at dating i wasn't single for 93 years! each relationship was shit btw!" central get out of here. luckily he did. rando guys in public & semi public barely count yet also fully count

another thing that's different but the same is it's kind of jarring like another thing you Can do but it rankles within me like i hope to just like. someone being like framed as Superlative Exceptional....like great lmao such a broad thing & common thing & i am fully aware like "Uh Oh Eesh when i am imagining it applied to Me. i do not like it" like how we are [it takes all kinds]ing and [no accounting for taste]ing & all these things we sure Can do. but i do tie it to just like. arguing for people's worth as A Thing on this bitch of an earth where some people get to see others' lives as less than theirs & the supposed cure for this appealing on Merit. where even the Personal, Individual protection against this is "well, just find the one person who is like 'you're Everything & btw i'd drop dead without you like what would be the point of Anything'" like now what tf is reassuring about that lmao....this Other audio experience i forgot where i was already just not that interested but it grated hearing someone assure us that like oh this person's webpage is so Intriguing i Have to talk to this person. another thing much more formal & established being this ode to someone being like So undeniably extraordinary & incredible & superlative etc, like, lovely ode to someone, but i do reflect like eesh i just really do not want that. no ironic "xyz would've hated this!!" like just do not. i'm so Not about merit(tm). i'm so not about anyone Needing to be considered superlative or extraordinary by even One other person. so not about rising Above anyone else as the evidence of worth. so not about praising anyone by assuring people they're Not "Just" [another xyz. a victim. passive. content to abc.]....so not about being stuck in isolation with the immediate Family as one's only support (against The Family: as like. a political deal) until the only other way to exist is to escape, &/or be pushed into, the marriage, aka thee romance (against Romance: also a political deal)

where in romance(tm) is there Not this narrative about how you'd better find all the support & fulfillment you need in your whole self & life & being in This. where is there not "ideally" isolation. where is there not exclusivity as the definition. with this also ofc assuming the "correct" monogamous approach. & the cisheteropatriarchy. like yeah sure people Can do xyz that would resemble like ah the cishet lifelong monogamous partnership, & Not be of that agenda. like there Can be ppl who would be perceived cishet by someone to whom "cishet" has any meaning but like, without that agenda. we had & can have all our phenotypes without the concepts of white supremacy / antiblackness around which to categorize "race," we have all our bodies w/o there necessarily, inevitably being ableism. & in the meantime against the [we Have to xyz] & the Normative & the assertion of "merited" deservingness & the isolating & authoritarian & controlling & extractive & prescriptive & limiting, & plenty of other things....polyamory like supposed "opposite" of aromanticism but it's peak harmonious when like, it is also very much outside how romance is "supposed" to be, to the extent of like ohh it doesn't count b/c it is so uncontained by any Definitions. ohh i could never be polyamorous b/c they're Diluting themselves (there's the Isolating & Exclusivity definitions....the Most romantic relationship? baby idgaf if everyone else in my life died. you wouldn't either re: all your loved ones, right. why are you talking to them again. or hanging out with them again. or saying Love to them again or changing your plans for them or listening to them or etc etc. & of course you couldn't kiss anyone else, why Wouldn't this relationship crumble away if that weren't the case??? lol) like okay you're not polyamorous, that others Are is good for you. ppl being trans is good for cis people; no genders as constraining classes. ppl being ace is good for allo people; no compulsory sexuality. people being bi is good for everyone; same. etc etc etc. that They can exist as themselves unhindered = you can; that they can't, you can't. you're not Too Good to be them; acting/doing Better than someone else is acting/doing is like, about choices lol. versus [oh it's not even a choice i Couldn't be poly....b/c i'm too good for that] like. now what does this do for anyone exactly. but make you feel more secure through feeling superior b/c you're hearing more often more casually more proximately about different choices people are making for themselves

anyways surfacing from [my god. writing a post now] & i would like to emphasize "aromantic sure but & also anti-romance i mean it. like politically" & "lovelessness let's gooo. politically as well like can we Not with the affective-centric"

#long post qpqp like middlingly but i'm not reading all that; i only wrote it #remembering i could've touched on [o7 tales of like ppl who Would want to date but know they can't count on it b/c of societal/cultural/ #structural obstacles / isolating factors] relevant...why exactly should it be miserable meaningless kys territory to be single for anyone #again truly amazed like no Lol XD from ppl going ''my very successful love life. i was in bad relationships nonstop for 19 yrs'' WHA? HUH? #also it's a Zzz for ppl who Supposedly are like ''ohh if you're not happy single you'll never be happy in a relationship'' #like...vaguely in theory but this is just invoked to place individual blame & still say You Gotta Get That Relationship Though Still #dipping sliiightly outside amatonormativity to still bolster it ''if you're not finding Success(tm) in Love: idk it's your fault ig?'' #like saying ''ooo ppl don't love/respect you if you don't love/respect yourself'' (a) why not? (b) yeah ofc ppl Should be able to be happy #w/o a partner they Should be able to appreciate themselves w/o anyone else's judgment & approval. but they shouldn't (i) have to assume #they'll be otherwise unsupported in this? do it All Yourself (ii) shouldn't be blamed(tm) for the lack of support they already have #& then that these sentiments Are then like ''haha but find that partner though. don't be Too happy single lol'' & ''hey don't be That self #confident no wait stop Get Approval'' like ohh Now people will like you :) you're still supposed to theoretically care about Needing that #you just need to also be blaming yourself if it doesn't happen! b/c Good People are guaranteed being personally liked & loved to the max #& the max might be 1 person of a particular gender agrees to fuck around w/only you. maybe some cazsh friends from work/school exist. whew

[blueboltkatana]

JESUS FUCKING CHRIST

GUrll ur so sexy... Like you're Hot. I don't care if you were bullied in school, you're sexy, they lied.

Also bitch I KNEW i related to you too much our ascendants are both in leo we're so hot.

Ok ok no now I'll stop complimenting and start with the roasting here we go:

So the sun is your sense of "self" it represents you on the more base level i guess you could say, like what most people think you're like is represented by your sun. With Sagittarius being your sun it means you're very energetic Especially for those things you are passionate about, you might have gone through a LOT of hobbies, only a few of them stuck around but you like to try things. You're curious about the way people's minds works, you wanna figure them out. If the conversations you have don't involve some form of psychoanalysis or philosophy you might loose interest. You are a Talker, maybe you talk very fast or you are often told to lower your voice but you don't do it on purpose you're just very very animated. You are kina volatile, in the sense that you value freedom in everything, love, work, hobbies. You have a huge rebellious streak and you kinda like testing your luck. Think adrenaline junkie. It's cliché but with this much Sagittarius in your chart you prob love traveling, like i said you will chase freedom because you associate it with happiness. If you find people that make you feel free then you feel happy. Rules don't go well with you. You don't really like being involved with fights per se but you LOVE debating, if you can beat a motherfucker with nothing but facts and logic you will and you will enjoy it.

Your way of flirting or making friends is "lowkey bullying" or my favourite "verbally throwing hands". If they shoot back you get heart eyes (my mars in sag agrees). You can be tactless as fuck tho. Like you will say some outrageous shit that MIGHT be funny if the timing is right or MIGHT make everyone in a 5 mile radius mad.

I NEED to talk about your moon in sag bc Babe, babe the moon tells us about our emotions and how we deal with them, how we express them and how they shape us. But BABE. Sagittarius moons are so bad at comforting people it's embarrassing, trying to make them think of smth else or do smth else to distract from the situation is NOT a good way to deal with your emotions... Avoiding your emotions like the plague is not gonna invent a vaccine... Saying "everything is fine :)" DOESN'T MAKE ANYTHING FINE PLEASE GO TO THERAPY. ok to give you some credit, you don't let shit bring you down, no matter what you always get up and that is a *strength* that i admire, but love you're burning the candle at both ends, especially if you get yourself in More problems by trying to distract yourself from One problem.

Also you've had a horsegirl phase or a dog obsession phase or both huh. AND your love language is sarcasm but the type that you will make someone laugh when you're insulting them. You're also hilarious irl you're prob the "funny friend" but with that scorpio mars and venus baby inside ur sad and dark as fuck ripp.

I also wanted to talk about your mercury in sag... Babe... Do you know what a brain to mouth filter IS?! do you recognize that word?!?! Cuz you have never used yours i think. Like you are hilarious but that's because you have dolphins in the head cavity baby. Not trying to say you're stupid, you're actually very smart and opinionated, probably have been told that you'd be a great lawyer or smth. But miss gurl please think before you speak for the love of god ur gonna make someone cry. Also ur mouth is foul. Have you ever spoken a sentence without a "fuck" or a "cunt" somewhere in there?! God bless.

Now for your scorpio Venus I'm just gonna say, more confirmation that ur Sexy as Fuck, scorpio venuses are just sexy, amazing partners, VERY passionate, whoever dates you will never forget you, for better or for worse you'll forever be on the back of their mind. You had a harsh emo phase huh, maybe loved some obscure shit like witchcraft or just love dressing all black like someone's mother died, i bet you wear silver jewelry a lot, maybe necklaces or rings or chockers. If this isn't how you dress now it was prob a major phase in your life. Or maybe you just love horror movies idk

Being as passionate as you are you don't take well to being mistreated or lied to, you might like to plot revenge and things like those, you wouldn't do anything... You actually prefer letting things go but you WILL make an elaborate scenario in your head at 3am or even as you stare right in the persons face.

With mars in scorpio you might be kinda passive aggressive, maybe you act like things don't really bother you but you throw a comment or two once in a while just to stir the pot bc you can't move on lmfao.

You are attracted to people that are introverts or generally just mysterious, like i said above the nature of the Sagittarius is to Learn and to Study. People that you can't immediately figure out intrigue you. All your crushes are either on geminis or water signs lmfao.

The best careers for you are the ones that allow you some freedom of either movement or expression and something that can keep your mind from flying away, something that keeps you intrigued, like research or writing. You're a very "all or nothing" person and it can sometimes scare people away, i advise you to work on compromising, being less stubborn and more open with your emotions and desires.

(part one bc I'm taking too long and I don't wanna keep you waiting so much) I'll reblog this with part 2

Alright here we go part 2 of Roasting hella until she finds out I'm hiding in her walls.

I will skip over some planets that are Very slow moving and usually don't talk about you as an individual but refer to your generation as a whole.

I wanna focus on lilith for a sec bc worstie lilith talks about our fears, our more "darker" side that we hide from ourselves as well as the people that we love. Lilith in aries in the eleventh house tells me you might be afraid to take charge, you gravitate towards positions of leadership but you let go on the last second, almost afraid to have too much control, very often self sabotaging your own success. Your anger and you own ambition might scare you, you might be afraid of appearing too aggressive bc under your skin you have a deep rooted anger and rebellion that you wish to relieve but you can't find a good enough outlet, some things soothe it but you always feel like it never leaves. It might be related to some form of resentment that you never truly dealt with and now it sits uncomfortably with you and you just can't get over it and it bothers you. You might have been shy in groups as a child, maybe you talked a lot but it was always from a fear of the silence not always because you had something to say. The eleventh house is that of groups and friends and social awareness, technology and your hopes and wishes for the future, having lilith in this house talks about someone who had a hard time feeling comfortable around people OR someone who wasn't very accepted. You might have desperately wished for friends but have found it hard to find any. Or if you did, you deep down felt very alone. I would advise to learn to accept your anger and deal with it in healthy ways instead of brushing it off and repressing it.

The north node talks about what you need to focus more in your life for example in your case with Gemini in your North node you need to focus more on your communication letting go of anxiety and your relation with other people you need to become more interested in intellectual pursuit and growth. You need to let go off the need to always be right and look more at details instead of focusing on on the bigger picture all of the time. When your North node is is in Gemini then your South node is in Sagittarius which tells me that what you should focus less on is your pursuit of freedom and your rebellion. Be more aware of your words and use them with maturity.

Now let's have some fun with the ascendent in leo which we share and now i see why ur so relatable. The first house or the ascendant is that very superficial layer of our personality, it includes the way we carry ourselves, our style, the little habits or quirks we have. One thing about leo ascendants is that we have an obsession with our hair. Hair is important to us, some have huge hair that might remind you of a lions mane, others just have very unique style or color but we ALL are lowkey or highkey obsessed with it, either constantly touching it, pulling it, chewing on it, cutting it or dying it in unique ways you name it. You might have a rather large nose or cat like eyes.

This ascendent is full of life and light, very funny, light hearted and luxurious, you want to live that good life and i don't blame you. A negative aspect is that we come of as intimidating to others. ALL of my friends AND my ex have at some point told me I was intimidating to them. It makes us prone to overcompensating for it later in life so maybe now you're super outgoing and extroverted and you approach people first and try to be super friendly. Also you're an attention whore (affectionate) with a flare for the dramatics, very flamboyant, you basically fill the room with personality, it attracts attention and you love it. You're what people would call a "sunny" person.

You're hella competitive (get it lol) and you LOVE fighting your way to the top and crushing the competition. You're probably a weirdo that low key likes school. Not the way it's run or the teachers or whatever, but the "idea" of school. If you could just learn all your life you absolutely would.

Second house in virgo. The 2nd house is the house of money, work, income, daily routines, values, material possessions, habits, work ethic ect being in virgo it means you can have an extremely good work ethic, you put a lot of thought in planning and mapping your work, you might get overly critical on your work though and often undermine your own success and efforts because they didn't fit your impossible standards. You can be very organized in your work, you want things to be a certain way and if they don't follow your plan you will Make them. Its a good position for virgo but yoh need to be aware of not overworking by trying to do Everything on your own. Let others help you, and let people in your work do their own things don't try to help if not asked to because you will overwork yourself.

The third house is that of the mind, thinking, communication, siblings, interests and early education, in your case it is in Libra which means that you're early education might not have been very stable or it was a period of time that you look back with a lot of fondness but not much substance. You are a good talker but you get lost when it comes to details, you are indecisive when it comes to settling on an opinion on something if you don't have All the facts first, you always want to be right. You are pretty open minded and easy to talk to but you might have the bad habit of rambling off topic. You change interests constantly and you prob like to talk about others, you wanna know the tea if it kills you. You prob had a crush on a childhood best friend or on a hot neighbor. Your relationship with your siblings might be pretty good, friendly, no particular resentment or anything like that, you might be the one that everyone treats a little better, people let you get away with things more often, you might be the one that takes 2 hours in the bathroom lol.

Oof fourth house in scorpio babe how are the mommy issues? 😬 How is your relationship with your femininity? Having trouble with keeping secrets? So the fourth house is the one responsible for your home roots, your family, self-care, emotions, your mother, women and your femininity and having Scorpio here tells me that you might have very strong ties to your family, but they weren't healthy or emotionally supportive. You have grown with people that might have undermined your emotions, people that didn't teach you to set healthy boundaries and maybe even manipulators and gaslighters. You might have been the type to put your foot down a lot a home, assuming a very dominant role as well as the defender. You're very private about your family life and don't want to let people too close.

Ah i just noticed u have like 3 planets in this house including ur Sun and Moon, babe this house is what you need to focus on when you go to therapy. This almost secretive, guarded approach to understanding your own emotions is very prominent in how you see yourself, how you feel and with Pluto there, how you change. I could say the biggest changes in your life have happened in these areas and they have left the biggest impacts on you. Yes you are passionate and protective but don't let bad feelings marinate forever, address them and then move on from them because they're just weighting you down.

Fifth house in sag, also the house of your mercury. This house represents Love, romance, creativity, self expression, joy and childlike spirit. It tells me the way you express your creativity is through words which makes sense since you're a great writer, but not only, the way you express Love is also through your words, expression and free thoughts are your way you tell your loved ones how much you mean to them, think poetry, long rants, music recommendations bc of specific song lyrics, you have been writing form childhood and it's one of the ways you express your view on beauty as well, to you love is freedom and freedom is expression.

Capricorn in the sixth house paired with both uranus and neptune being in it tells me there is something about your knees, joints, bones or teeth in particular that stands out when it comes to your health, maybe you tend to break your teeth, maybe you like chewing on crunchy foods, maybe your joints crack a lot, idk but I'd drink my milk if i was you, take care of your joints and bones. Also for you, being emotionally unwell often translates to being Physically unwell as well, so be mindful of your emotions because they do affect you physically. You need to keep hydrated also and your health plan needs structure for it to work bc that neptune makes everything very chaotic and uranus constantly makes you bored and wanting to spice things up. Take care of your emotional needs just as much as you would with your physical ones. And for the love of jesus be CAREFUL with alcohol or smoking because that neptune in ur health house could mean serious trouble if you let it become an addiction, don't push it.

Aquarius in the seventh house of relationships, marriage, contracts, business partners ect means you are untraditionally traditional. That makes sense in my head let me explain. Aquarius is a sign that seeks individualism desperately, it likes to feel like a special person, impossible to understand. Yet always feels comfortable in the structure of traditional and safe paths. So for example you might marry someone in a way that is not traditional but at the end of the day you wish for your marriage to have a stability you would feel safe falling into. Also it says ur gay. Air signs in the relationship house says ur gay i Make the rules.

Pisces is in the eighth house of sex, intimacy, shared finances, inheritance, taxes, loans, property, mystery, partner's resources. This tells me you fuck with feeling lmfao. Or you simply make your love life something "special", a connection that only you and ur person can share, it's what makes you an amazing lover and an unforgettable one as well. But as amazing as you are at creating a otherworldly atmosphere, ur just as shit at setting boundaries and saying something when you don't like something. You don't like to see things that you love ending and a failed relationship makes you blame yourself too much, you have the tendency to stay in situations where you are being mistreated but you tell yourself It's on you.

A recurring theme I'm seeing is some weakness when it comes to liars or manipulators in your life. So either you irrationally fear people are lying to you because you "lie" to them about yourself or a lot of people in your childhood might have used lying or gaslighting as a way to keep you under control. I would advise to try not to overthink and become paranoid, people love you and they believe in you and they aren't deceiving you, they don't secretly mean something different from what they have said. Listen to your intuition about people sure, but don't confuse it with anxiety.

With lilith and aries in the 9th house of travel and higher education and religion I'm gonna assume you might have religious trauma. Religion might have been a way that people used to try and control you, if not religion then some form of system or government law. Being queer i completely understand the sentiment but in your case it's take a step further because you Value the ideals of this house so much, with lilith here, it's like at som point in your life you were finally awakened to how much injustice there was in the world ant that has made you very inclined to take action, you cannot stand unjust government or non tolerating religions. You might have felt crushed under an unjust system and it took you a lot of will and conviction to find your individuality and build yourself how you wanted once you were free.

Your midheaven in taurus tells me you are one that will achieve any goals you set your mind to. It might take you time, you might procrastinate around it, but at the end of the day, you will do it and you will do it well and it will be rewarding. If your father isn't a Taurus then he was a stable figure in your life, very much a rock for better or for worse. In your career life people will see you as very competent, very down to earth and helpful but you know you just procrastinated till the last second possible and stayed up all night do finish your work... You will seek careers that you believe will guarantee you stable income and a comfortable life. You might indulge in luxury from time to time because you think in order to get the position you want at work you need to look the part. Ultimately it's your sheer stubbornness and spite that gets you all the way up to the top of the food chain.

The eleventh house of groups, friendships, humanitarianism, and social awareness is in your case in gemini. It tells me you value friendship extremely and you surround yourself with a diverse cast of friends, you couldn't mix your different friend groups if you tried and you have tried. You have the habit of being too friendly to everyone which makes you end up with more friends than you know what to do with. You are approachable but people can get the impression that you are putting up a show or a facade and your emotions arent genuine, it's not always the case but you need to be more truthful and assertive, put some boundaries and don't let people get away with shit you don't like. Your public persona is very well liked, seen as fun and bright and smart and overall a joy to be around.

Now that last placement... 12th house cancer, i have the same placement and babe I'm sorry for all the shit you have been through. You deserve the freedom to be unhappy and to express that unhappiness in healthy ways. You deserve to be given unconditional love and support no matter how many mistakes you say you have made no matter how overly pessimistic you are about yourself it doesn't matter you're amazing and i love you and you deserve the world.

With jupiter the planet of expansion in the 12th house of endings, spirituality, solitude and karma?! Gurl i did say u were a cult leader but i didn't think it was astrologically backed up rippp. But it also says you might have a hard time getting the motivation to finish things, you might take a long time to finish a project. This house placements also tells me you're amazing at writing emotional ass fantasy stories which by now we have confirmed, but if you have like, an original idea for a book don't hesitate to get it started babe bc u have a very promising placement for that. Don't get too dragged into a sad whirlpool of emotions and daydreams but bring your creative ideas to life and you'll be fine.

This is all I'm doing today and i think it's enough lol. I'm posting this I'm sorry to my followers for the long ass post I'll tag it so you can filter it. This was a whole psycho-astrological analysis of our favourite writer Hellspawn1975. I have wanted to study her like a new lizard species for a while and i finally got the chance thank you hella for the opportunity.

Final words to @hella1975 i hate you and I'll fuck ur mom tomorrow, gn babe <3

#warning long post #long post #i am sorry #after intense study of this species i diagnose her with #gay homosexual gay #thank you everyone