#it certainly isnt Great

[whimsicmimic]

also thinking about how legato is a really good example of how it can be really easy for survivors of abuse to escape one abusive situation, only to fall into another abusive situation

#or……..whatever the fuck is going on bt knives and legato #idk if ‘abusive’ is exactly the Correct Word for it necessarily but if there is a word for whatever the fuck they got goin on i dont know it #it certainly isnt Great #but it Is compelling though. it is deffo compelling.

[aeondelirium]

My gift for @crownlessliestheking in this year's @officialtolkiensecretsanta. Happy, happy holidays to you!

#i just kinda went ham on one of the ships and the whole spooky valar thing #i know melkor isnt necessarily technically a vala #but he certainly has spooky potential #i had a great time with it! #and i hope you enjoy <3 #silmarillion #morgoth #maglor #tss2022

[tiggyloo]

I....think this is cherry

#phoebe be quiet #the lighting is kinda orange but even without it the color isnt great #certainly not whats on the box #food

[jrueships]

pg really had THE wag jarebear on his show and proceeded to dish out all his personal onions on his teammates i 😭😭

#it's like watching someone try to therapize harley quinn off her love of the joker #pg does like. zero research 😭 im so #he just relies on his experience to help connect the interviews all interestin-like #but other than that u think hes gonna look into the PAST??? when it's not INTERESTING?? or CONNECTIONS??? no!! #that takes away from playstation 5 p!!! #if the podcast had a normal interviewer... i dont think 1 a lot of players would wanna come cus no duh no selling point #but 2. those that did would be bored #i mean normal interviewer as in like if pg didnt have the status and was just some dude who liked basketball sorry too late to edit #like he really banks on the fact that Hes Pg with alot of these questions/talking points 😭 #that jalen green interview... #NOW I COULD BE ACTIN A LIL RUDE. my attention span isnt great so long videos arent my forte #i have SEEN seen em n certainly not ALL of the podcasts #i dont like listening to podcasts in general they scare me but #i watch a few while working out but thats sometimes bcs mainly i like music #BUT FROM WHAT IVE SEEN.. #theres been some frequent disconnects that couldve been avoided with just a Little more depth #a Little more diving #good thing paul always has another podcast friend to help 😭 but pg LOOVES asking questions so #sometimes he just be chitchattin 😭 #jarens eyes getting all wide when pg brought up d*llon LMAO #im ngl it's kinda entertaining LMAO only bcs it's for the better jarebear!! if pg thinks hes in the right (which he always does) #he WILL speak his perceived truth! they either hit hard or miss harder (..coughdameconflictcough) HE WILL NOT BUDGE!! #and he is actually correct with this one! someone had to say it jaren!! just sorry it had to be pg 😭 #but if he pulled that with anyone else and their friend i would be a lot more uncomfortable lol idk #i love the concept of being messy but i could never commit like. i got other shit to do 😭 yall have fun

[pepprs]

today is the last day of one of the hardest and heaviest years of my life (i.e. my first year in this job) and also the last day of me being contractual / contingent (i.e. not a permanent employee which has been fine but also fucked me up just in the wording of it). i don’t think the horrors will relent just yet but i hope so sincerely that they ease soon and that this next year will be kinder and less turbulent and that i will be stronger for what i experienced this year

#purrs #it’s like emotional a little bit. i keep crying. im proud of myself and im also so frustrated that this year was so hard and that there isnt #an end in sight to the hardness and that actually in some ways it’s only going to get harder. but like yeah. i survived this hellish year. #it MOST CERTAINLY wasn’t all hell though like there were some really good and important things that happened. but one year ago tomorrow was #the (known) beginning of one of the worst things ive ever experienced and im so lucky i haven’t experienced worse things but it was… pretty #fucking terrible. and it’s emotional coming up on the anniversaries like im going to be such a wreck next wednesday lol and like the entire #rest of july. but im proud of myself for surviving it even though i have not healed from any of it and am watching with horror as the wound #widens and gets infected and whatever lolllll. i just have to keep telling myself im here for a reason and all of this was supposed to hapen #and i can handle it. but the number of times i want to burst into tears every day im in the office is….. not great and i probably should be #medicated about it LOL. but i made it through one year. i can do things like that and survive. that’s cool and important to know. 🥲 #delete later

[ccervidae]

It is only in hindsight that I realize that of course Legrasse (Actor feat, went to Fantasy Juilliard, formed warlock pack by picking up Faeruns equivalent of The Yellow King) would look at the mysterious man who introduced himself by reciting poetry and only answers questions cryptically and decide "Yes, I like him" and then not think critically about it even after learning Raphael is a devil.

#'insufferable thespian' was not part of her initial characterization but it certainly wormed its way into the foundation #probably why she immediately clicked with gale too honestly. man said he liked poetry and she was like 'oh hey me too' #bg3 tav #the crypticness honesly isnt even a red flag for her given all the warlock dialogue options (especially Great Old One) #thats her normal state of being

[ironasss]

i am going to hate on Around The World in 80 Days (2021).

Not because of any "woke bullshit", in fact the only reason i chose to watch this version instead of another was because of the woke bullshit the negative reviews had promised me.

No, I want to complain about three things.

A) i was most definitely a Fix/Passepartout shipper when i read the book. however when they gender swapped fix, it was like oh. You've gender swapped this character for what? so you could make them heterosexual? Gender swap both, cowards.

B) Phileas Foggs whole personality... As well as some others, but we'll focus on him as he's the main character- the negative reviews had of course informed me that the show had "sucked out all his testosterone", but as an enjoyer of loser men, i was almost looking forward to that. No, but they've taken away everything that made him act like himself, he no longer acts cold, he acts like... Well, he acts like any David Tennant character (thats not a murderer, that is).

C) other then the personality, it was very inconsistent with the book? Again, not talking about Passepartout being Black or Fix being a women, I really dont mind that other then them being heterosexual, but I mean, what the fuck happened to Aouda?

Anyway sorry for complaining about this, im sure it was great to a lot of people, but as someone who had literally finished the book the same day i started watching, it was really annoying.

#No hate to any of the actors they did great #Its just that specifically david tennant wasny even playing the same character #Sorry mr tennant i love you and all but #Around The World in 80 days #phileas fogg #passepartout #abigail fix #Detective fix #jules verne #atwi80d #Passepartout x fix #Oh my god guys you should 100% read the book tho it is actually most certainly gay #david tennant #ibrahim koma #leonie benesch #Sorry but here me out Jude Law as Phileas Fogg #Im so right guys #Aouda #Isnt even a fuckin tag #Wheres the godamned book fandom

[istherewifiinhell]

[ID: Picture of my grey cat, sprawled across my lap. His paw curled around 3 of my fingers to bring the pencil I'm holding closer to sniff. His head is tilted almost 90 degrees sideways and his large fangs are visible. The paper he's on top of is blurred.

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Demanding...

#some shit #hes cute. dont worry at the other stuff. he certainly isnt. #adventures in. room cat. getting him to chill in my room. going great.

[backwardblackbyrd]

I'm doing better but not well :')

#I'm avoiding people #like. actively #which...isnt great certainly

[sonicunleash]

watching the stuff thats going down with twitter with the layoffs and christ twitter might actually die as a website. like hoping for ya'lls sake that there's some way to pull up from this but either way those thousands(?) of people arent going to probably be getting their jobs back. You can't really come back from that.

and honestly I've never been a fan of twitter and definitely am not a twitter user but its still crazy and sad to me that it might really go out like this. I wonder if any new social media platform might rise from those ashes though. maybe

#that could be interesting though i think thats thinking very far ahead #it certainly would be great karma if the old twitter staff got to form/work on a new social media platform and leave twitter to rot #robbing elon of his money he spent on it #on another note though i do think that like #everyone running back to tumblr and causing a tumblr revival isnt really the best solution either though #yeah yeah closed ecosystem jokes aside the staff of tumblr arent great ppl. #wont specify for fear of losing my account (lol. normal to be worried about) but you know. starts w a t ends w a f. #also the rampant racism in how they treat black bloggers v literally white supremists on this site #so yeah i don't think tumblr becoming a huge main platform is a great ending here either #we need more options that arent run by you know whats

[unclerippuascension]

>Capcom has said they have no plans to add Lagiacrus because its animations and snake-like body are ‘too hard to program’ or some similar shite I don’t pretend to know anything about programing but don’t leviathan monsters all have snake-like bodies? We have Royal Ludroth and Mizutsune in the game, and Lagiacrus’ body isn’t terribly different in terms of shape to theirs. I dunno I just kinda don’t really entirely buy the whole ‘too hard to program’ thing. Maybe they could have used the time to program the fucking giant crab to program Lagiacrus, but what do I know?

#monster hunter #monster hunter rise #well that certainly doesn't insentivise me to buy the expansion day one and further decimate my funds #seriously why the fucking crab though?? i've fought shogun ceanatuar before and its gear isnt that great

[ocpdzim]

BTW if you need a part time job and are alright with kids, you should look into becoming a substitute teacher. In my area you need some college credits but not a degree, but I would imagine requirements are probably sometimes more or less in other areas. If you’re qualified, though, it is a really fun job with extraordinarily flexible hours and at least where I live it has full benefits (insurance, retirement, etc), plus there’s a major shortage right now in a lot of places so if you meet the basic qualification requirements you are near-certain to be hired.

#the pay is just like. Fine. #it isnt great but as far as part time jobs go it's pretty good you know? #i am in the united states. this stuff will almost certainly all hold true here #and i would IMAGINE that conditions are probably somewhat similar elsewhere #i couldnt take advantage of the insurance myself bc i am still on my parents insurance #but if you need insurance? it has full benefits. healthcare vision dental and life insurance. kickass

[gibbearish]

80 years already feels short as hell but it also feels long as hell yknow. whereas if i instead say 29,200 doesnt that feel so much shorter

#ignore me am in a depression bout doing math to make myself feel worse #something about how life is exhausting cause like say i live 80 years total i still have abt 60 yrs to go which is abt 22000 days #which means i have to take 11000 showers and brush my teeth 44000 times and buy groceries 3143 times #and doctors appointments and get a job and pay rent and pay phone bill and pay credit card bill and pay and pay and pay #and clean the litterboxes and clean the bathroom and feed the cats and feed the lizard and clean your room and do laundry #and fold laundry and put away laundry and hang up laundry and get dressed and do laundry again and again and again #its EXHAUSTING #and i have suicidal thoughts repellant aka a severe phobia of death and the afterlife or lack thereof #which sounds great and is certainly helpful however it also induces a certain level of hopelessness #cuz no matter how shit i feel theres no way off this ride for me. i just have to keep goinf #the way i explain it to myself is like. i feel like im limping towards a finish line so i can collapse the second i cross it except #there is no finish line‚ the race is just life and it doesnt matter if i dont have the energy to keep going because #not keeping going just isn't an option #i have no energy. im so tired. n i dunno whats gonna happen when i run out of money but am still out of energy #i suppose i go back to overdrawing the tank again probably n just. hope the drain isnt so fast this time and i #can get to a rest point sooner #one way or another i continue #whether thats a pessimistic or optimistic statement is up to you

[vilelittlecritter]

I got my work timetable and I am slightly panicking as it overlaps with my college timetable meaning I'll be late for work by just under 20 minutes.

Uh oh...

#it shouldn't be too much of an issue #BUT IT CERTAINLY ISNT GOOD. #hopefully its an easy fix but still not a great note to fall asleep too. #random rambles

[d0ggym0nster]

I always make chicken and then throw the scraps in the trash and forget like a fuckin idiot. -_-

Why do i always do this to myself..

#its not awful smelling but it certainly isnt great #it's wayyy too late to throw out some trash now too dammit

[arosebyan0thername]

Okay yall it’s finally time I’ve finally written something in this book that I’m so excited about I have to share it.

context if you haven’t been paying close attention to every single thing i say for the past several months at least (why not?): I’m in early stages of writing a novel that is, very very shortly, cinderella but trans. It is not anywhere close to being finished, I’m talking years of work left to do, so this isn’t so much a promotional post as just damn that’s very good and I’m good at what i do. So here is one teeny tiny excerpt, and yall are the first to ever read it, of the main character coming out to her best friend (and love interest’s brother)

“I don’t know how else I can explain it, I just… When somebody calls you a man, when somebody says, ‘Oh, him? That’s Prince Andrew, he’s the king’s son’ - when somebody calls you sir, you know that that’s right. It doesn’t feel wrong to you, that’s just what you are, it’s who you are. But it’s not right for me. It never has been, it’s never been right, I’ve never…” her trembling voice trailed off. “My whole life I feel like I’ve been wearing a disguise that I can’t take off. And nobody has ever seen me, nobody knows who I am – they look at me and they see Dominic, they see this- this man but that’s not who I am! I don’t know how to express it more clearly. It’s so plain and so obvious to me, I don’t know what else I can say. I know that I am a woman. I know that that is who I am. Every time that somebody calls me sir, every time somebody has called me a boy or a man, every time somebody says Dominic. It’s not right. And I feel it and it’s crushing me.”

#personal #3lla #it's not that andrew doesn't believe her hes just like literally never heard of being trans #hes gay tho it's fine hes cool with it #they're besties #yall i love these guys so much #i cannot fucking wait to actually share this book with people #and i just really like this passage because i think it does a good job of expressing dysphoria to a cis person #and i really really want people who didn't understand us to be able to read this and understand us better #i really want it to be good representation #and her being trans isnt what the whole story is about #like tbh she comes out maybe halfway through the book #maybe a little earlier #certainly before the main conflict #which has very very little to do with her being trans #insofar as the antagonist is transphobic and does use that against her but thats not like #the main motivation or anything #it's great youre gonna love it