#is this abt will toledo?

[transminimoffs]

favorite bands shouldn’t be defined by how much u like their music but instead how willing you are to have gay sex w the singer

#is this abt will toledo? #gerard way? #yes ❤️

[iaf]

"Are you familiar"

"with the concept"

"in which selected candidates"

"adopt the personality"

"of the Process Leader?"

- Aline, S1 Ep1

#The parallels between Michele and Ezekiel are pretty obvious #Gloria and Marcela both seeking parental validation and being part of Marco's life #Xavier and Andre and their relationship to Michele #i couldn't find a good gif but Andre joining the Offshore's military #and Xavier joining the militia #something abt resorting to violence when you sister (figure) is no longer with you #however I wouldn't say they 'adopted personalities' more like share experiences? maybe? #3% #3 percent #3 porcento #3% netflix #*spelled Ezequiel's name wrong sorry #michele santana #marcela alvarez #gloria ribeiro #andre santana #xavier toledo #gifs #cw blood #cw stabbing #iaf.post

[lvcky7]

'i love you but i can't stand the touch' is a lyric that hits so motherfucking hard. mmm.

#something about autism and hating physical comtact #probably also abt being trans or whatever #car seat headrest #csh #will toledo #teens of denial #cosmic hero

[pikslasrce]

i have come to the conclusion that the moment an artist is recognizable enough to become a "celebrity" they should just delete their entire social media presence and not talk abt anything except their art in public the world would be a happier place

#the will toledo sufjan stevens diss was the nail in the coffin for this thought like. i am CERTAIN now. art ppl should stay in their lane #they arent allowed to express thei opinions i do not want to hear them. be it politics other ppls art favorite food etc #keep it to urself buddy and ur friends that you have groupchats and private accounts for #like if i went famous. id just not be problematic <3 and if i were. i wouldnt let anyone know abt my personal accounts and blogs #like never. ever. #the way that i got thinking this bc of a 6yo post. which was deleted and half assedly apologized for... wow #piksla.txt

[musicfag]

eating a pear and the juice is dripping all over my hands and blanket.

#listening 2 will toledo talk abt his massage gun on the patreon livestream from december #if any of u guys ever want links 2 the csh patreon streams lmk btw :3 im not hogging these for myself

[horrible-oracle]

the first music video for something soon by car seat headrest is everything to me. its so important to me it's probably one of my most favorite videos on yt, if not the most favorite. and csh is probably my most favorite band actually

#ive been getting into them again these days #just added revisited a song and liked it so much and showed it to my friend and have been going on abt them to her for a few days #damn i love csh i love will toledo #evgesha's thoughts

[cicadangel]

my dad has 5 mixed kids and it's interesting because you can really see how the genes or whatever plays out in each of us... like i'm clearly half asian half white, my brother is racially ambiguous but mostly precieved as latino, my other brother looks like a white boy with really hooded eyes, my other other brother looks full asian except for his blond hair, and my little sister looks exactly like me ^_^

#i know one wasian who has two wasian parents so she actually looks full asian bc like yk genetics etc #i know one wasian who. looks white ig like def has white privilege but like theres something abt her thats like hmmm r u white actually #like will toledo

[lord-here-i-am]

Hl. Ildefons

gefeiert am 23. Januar

Hl. Ildefons Erzbischof von Toledo * um 605 in Toledo in Spanien † 667 daselbst

Ildefons, eine vornehmer Spanier, war Schüler des Isidor von Sevilla, wurde Mönch und später Abt im Kloster Kosmas und Damian in Agalia bei Toledo, zuletzt 657 Erzbischof von Toledo. Seine besondere Marienverehrung brachte er in der Schrift Liber de illibata virginitate B. M. V. - Buch der unverletzten Jungfräulichkeit der seligen Jungfrau Maria zum Ausdruck.

#heiliger ildefons #erzbischof von toledo #spanien #mönch #abt #religion #glaube #römisch katholische kirche #gott #christus #christ #jesus #betrachtung #christianity #christentum

[mclarenyaoi]

list 5 songs you've been enjoying recently — tysm @albontology for the tag!! apologies in advance for the yapping lol i like my tunes ^^'

"andy, you're a star" by the killers — there are two different interpretations of this song and i enjoy both of them but i enjoy the one where its abt gay yearning WAY MORE

"agnes" by glass animals — how to be a human being is one of my fav albums OF ALL TIME.. anyways agnes is an incredibly sad song but its fantastic and a great ultimate song for the album

"死にたがり" (shinitagari) by 梨本うい (nashimoto ui) feat. hatsune miku — first heard in a homestuck pmv when i was in my homestuck kick a couple years ago but its surpassed that (the pmv is still great tho lets not get it twisted)

"i want you to know that i'm awake/i hope that you're asleep" by car seat headrest — 8 minutes and 43 seconds of realizing i relate a little too much to 2014 will toledo. and like the whole album is good, car seat headrest is good, i <3 csh. honorary mention to my boy, the song of all time (true)

"kitty kat" by megan thee stallion — idk how many of yall watch rupauls drag race but. yeah morphine fucking bodied dawn rip i was rooting for her and more importantly that lipsync reminded me i LIVE for megan thee stallion. loveee body ofc but ive been listening to kitty kat more =^u^= meow

very sorry if anyone im tagging has already been tagged!! no pressure @box-box-blorbos @oscah @solitaire-enthusiast @inchidentally and if YOU are seeing this... consider letting people know about your enjoyed tunes

#tag game #simon says #for reference no one needs to talk abt every song i did tho bc i like talking

[beachd0g211]

I see you are a will toledo enjoyer, I also love car seat headrest so I was wondering what your favorite songs were or albums were 👀,,

OMG!!!!

well my fave album is twin fantasy(mtm version),,, uhh its just a very meaningful album to me & all that but besides that album i really love 'how to leave a town' & 'teens of denial' !! (but honestly i enjoy a lot of the songs off every album- & usually my fave albums change a lot 😭)

alsoo my fave songs are(in no particular order :3)

just- every song from twin fantasy

destroyed by hippie powers, 1937 state park, cosmic hero, its only sex, maud gone, the ending of dramamine, you're inlove with me, hey,space cadet, romantic theory

+ i really like portrait of the artist as a young fag & its one of my fave songs ever,, :3

there are more songs in my little playlist :3 tysm for the ask!! i like talking abt music a lot :-))

#asks #not art #ask dog stuff

[lostlosersclub]

i dont think will toledo knows anything abt girls

[unproduciblesmackdown]

more deconstruction of "normal" as an obfuscating curtain around supremacy & its concomitant oppression more more!! (an interview by george yancy with subini annamma abt DisCrit, the intersection of disability studies & critical race theory)

some excerpts:

"These scholars were naming the ways ableism animated who we center as the “normal,” and how we draw boundaries around that conception of normal, and punish those outside those walls. In schools, we seek out youth we position as “abnormal” and try to cure, segregate or funnel them out of public spaces."

"Those intellectual ancestors, both those who have passed on and those still with us, created a space for DisCrit to recognize that racism and ableism are interdependent, that they depend on and inform each other. That is, if racism is the ideology for situating specific people in subordinated locations, then ableism is how that goal is achieved — by situating the learning, thinking, and behaviors of Black and Brown people as “less than” and “inferior.” Racism and ableism are mutually constitutive because they need each other to survive; whiteness needed to “other” Black and Brown people, and did so through ableism. Both CRT and DS scholars and public intellectuals left space for us to do this work; to seriously consider how racism and ableism inform one another and are normalized, not aberrant in society. DisCrit uses specific tenets to build on this conceptual foundation to name how, in a system of white supremacy, anti-Blackness and settler colonialism, whiteness defines the normal and desired individual; and positions all Black and Brown folks as abnormal."

"I know you’ve engaged in a discussion with the brilliant T.L. Lewis, and they have described how mass incarceration is a disability justice issue. So I’ll focus on how mass incarceration is a racial and disability justice issue because it targets disabled Black and Brown youth specifically. In other words, age does not protect disabled Black and Brown children because they are not imagined as innocent (what Black women and other women of color scholars, such as Jamilia Blake and Thalia González, have named as adultification) and they are also imagined as hyper-strong and aggressive. Instead, disabled Black and Brown kids are targeted and punished because of their disabilities. Moreover, Black and Brown youth are disabled by prison conditions, which cause trauma. Family separation through incarceration — whether in the name of rehabilitation, child welfare or mental health care — are all forms of punishment for perceived deviance. The abuse and neglect in these systems is well documented. We lock up what we are afraid of — if justice is what love looks like in public, then mass incarceration is hate institutionalized. And in the worst cases, our babies die in these hate-filled cages, babies like Cedric “C.J.” Lofton, Loyce Tucker, Cornelius Frederick, Gynnya McMillen, Elord Revolte, Andre Sheffield, Robert Wright, and more unnamed babies. Or they die while being rounded up to be put in these cages like Ma’Khia Bryant, Tamir Rice, Iremamber Skyap, Adam Toledo, and [others]. Mass incarceration is a racial and disability justice issue for Black and Brown disabled youth because it targets and creates disability, all while trying to eradicate their power and resistance."

"Moreover, disabled Black and Brown girls are experiencing higher rates of these negative outcomes than their nondisabled peers. When these disabled Black and Brown girls are abused by the system and their stories become public, their disabilities are often erased. We imagine them as what scholar Michele Goodwin discusses as “too intersectional,” when their disability or queerness is viewed as something to disassociate them from, trying to cleave their identities into something closer to the norm. Yet, this misses the fact that these Black and Brown girls are being punished because of their disabilities, and that disability labels and laws are not protecting them. We must recognize that Black and Brown disabled girls are not broken, our systems are broken. Carceral geographies threaten Black and Brown disabled girls. We must respond by loving Black and Brown girls in their full humanity."

I want to end with what you envision as hope. Like W.E.B. Du Bois, I am not hopeless, but I am unhopeful regarding the racist attitudes, racist practices, racist habits, racist ideologies and racist structures within the U.S. This includes how racism toxically lives intramurally or extramurally, and this includes how racism functions through ableism — or conversely, how ableism functions through racism. This is another way of saying that racism exists within every nook and cranny of U.S. society. I can’t begin to express how angry I feel as I write about racism and other forms of injustice. This anger is not misplaced, and it has its place. You’ve worked as an educator in both youth prisons and public schools. You’ve been able to observe directly how forms of discipline negatively impact girls of color, how they suffer under panoptic surveillance and pathologizing discourses. I can only imagine that they have internalized such racist and pathologizing forms of captivity. How do you find hope in what you do without being seduced by a neoliberal sense of hope that fails or refuses to think critically about systems of racism and pathology? Does anger help?

"For Black and Brown people, our anger is the antithesis of white supremacy and ableism that centralizes docility and compliance masquerading as kindness and civility. I draw from Audre Lorde who wrote about the uses of anger and Brittney Cooper who writes about eloquent rage. Lorde describes the power of our anger when it is focused with precision on the systems that harm us. So, I try to focus my anger on dismantling those systems, like the abolition of youth prisons, and all prisons. I draw from Mariame Kaba who reminds us to practice hope regularly; I practice hope by being in relationship with disabled Black and Brown youth, many of whom are being pushed out of public schools, and/or are currently or formerly incarcerated. I work to support our community as we labor in violent systems. We can create a world that is less violent, more humane, and even joyful. I believe in abolition, so my anger and hope are rooted in the ways I show up, I experiment and fail, and keep showing up to be in community with Black and Brown disabled youth. And those Black and Brown disabled youth are constantly pushing me to be more radical, to develop a clearer abolitionist imaginary. That is hope.

Hope is recognizing how our fights are all connected and cultivating solidarity. The attacks on trans that are so prevalent right now are built on ableism, misogynoir and white supremacy. Therefore, we must be in solidarity with our queer and trans siblings. One study found that 20 percent of youth in detention centers identified as queer and trans: 13 percent of boys and 40 percent of girls. Eighty-five percent of these incarcerated queer and trans girls are girls of color. Trans and queer youth of color often stay longer in family policing systems (known as child welfare) and juvenile incarceration systems, increasing the likelihood of negative impacts of both systems. Queer and trans Black and Brown youth deserve our solidarity and our protection. These same systems are harming Black and Brown disabled kids; our struggles are connected, and liberation means fighting together. Solidarity, the kind where we recognize our common fights and allow our differences in oppressions and experiences to inform our resistance, is what gives me hope.

Also exciting is the work of my contemporary colleagues and earlier career scholars, public intellectuals and activists who are also thinking critically about race and disability while not stopping there, like Jamelia Morgan, Mildred Boveda, Hailey Love, Maggie Beneke, Jenn Phuong, Tami Handy, Adai Teferra, Ericka Weathers, Sami Schalk, Jina B. Kim, Therí Pickens, Liat Ben-Moshe, Kay Ulanday Barrett, Keah Brown, Akiea Gross, D’Arcee Charington Neal, plus a whole host of students who are doing it better than us. They are thinking with less binaries and more interconnected systems. They are more radical and hopeful. And those of us who are developing a sharper analysis because we are listening to them, filling in gaps of our work we missed the first time around. I wanted a theory that centralized the lives of Black and Brown disabled youth, and DisCrit is what grew. DisCrit isn’t the best theory, it’s the one we created when we needed something better. We have always said we want to see it expanded and pushed until its borders break open and something better is born. That’s the beautiful thing about theory, it must continually evolve. As long as we are listening to Audre Lorde and focusing our rage with precision, our theory will evolve to meet us in the moment."

[theehorsepusssy]

Tell us abt your first relationship …

A friend had collected a bunch of insurance money after his mom died and was on a big cocaine bender. He convinced me to move back to Ohio but by the time my bus pulled into the station, the well was running dry and the cocaine party was coming to an end. Wegot high on coke and mushrooms and went to some "party" where we sat in a corner and shroom giggled in this esotericly decorated apartment. There were hand painted Patty Hearst collectable plates. Sacrilegious art. A metal stencil of John Lennon inserted into a light fixture that when you looked up (and especially when you were tripping) made a heavenly visage complete with rays of light. It was fucking hilarious. Everywhere you looked. The owner of the apartment developed a bit of a crush on me and I would go on real grown up dates with him to see a Ken Russel retrospective series at the art museum. And then we would make out all night and Jack off. He was 30 and still in college. I was 19 and in the midst of a nervous breakdown that my absolutely enormous daily intake of narcotics was not helping. My 20th birthday party was a BAD TRIP and he took me to a mental health crisis center and was like "here, take him away from me" lol. He was a nice guy and I often wonder whatever happened to him. Bob. His name was Bob. I think he was from Toledo.

[shambonkel]

get 2 know me!!!!

basic info

name : julie / sarah

age : 19

pronouns : she / her (tranny)

interests

- car seat headrest

- alex g

- music that sounds like it was recorded on a toaster from 1978

- playing guitar and making music

- reading

- watching the sopranos 50 times over

- car seat headrest

- will toledo

- william james barnes

- ethan ives

- andrew katz

- seth dalby

- car seat headrest

things 2 know

im autistic as shit and i will never shut up abt will toledos gayass

can be problematic so dont follow if ur a pussy bitch!!!

dats it bye

[aercnaut-archived]

followed bc i didn’t know anything abt the character but i was intrigued by hdm (thanks to tumblr user viciousgold) and um hello??? cowboys are cool?? i stayed bc holy toledo what a writer u are!!! how much love u have for the yeehaw man and his lil buddies! and ofc bc i adore lee and cherry as a unit and wish them happiness in every universe and want their adventures to continue always 🥺 also idk gabriel seems cool 🤷‍♀️

tell  me  why  you  followed  my  blog  and  tell  me  what  made  you  stay. 

DO U THINK ITS FUN TO MAKE ME CRY???? HUH??????

#*001. ham is my jam // ooc. #*002. hire yourself an aeronaut // answered ask. #daemondaes

[iagreewithlilithsrightsnwrongs]

do u think when lilith went through the portal a second time, she finally understood/remembered what happened after she got taken by the tarask in s1??? n why she comes back validly shaken n desperate for ANYONE to understand? 

do u think she understood that adriel n reya know each other n he was her best bet at understanding her monster nature? i think thats why she went to him, scared out of her mind but hiding it well, n just going with whatever he was doing cuz she knew, as much as her sisters love her n care for her, they got no fucking clue whats going on. its not their fault, but she did leave toledo n her mother’s house knowing she needed to find answers fast, knowing she could never be the warrior nun and what that entails, knowing she shouldve made peace with that a long time ago but fuck that was her WHOLE LIFE thrown away by a complete newbie who made her like this!!! the very monster she was supposed to hunt!!! 

my bby knew jack shit of what she was doing either, she just traded a bad situation for another bad situation that she could at least understand. i think thats why she trusts adriel so blindly, he SOUNDS like the answers she needed, she feels understood. but its also why at that ava n lilith scene where ava ends up hurting lilith on her face at the end, lilith is so fucking emotional n angry n scared when ava tells her to go back. 

how can she go back when she fucked up like this? how can she go back n act like shes truly at their side when they cant n will never understand hers? how can she go back to a place where it felt like home, like her destiny, when she failed them so horribly? she can never go back. she doesnt believe she can or should. shes heartbroken, n she cares so deeply abt ava n her sisters but those hours spent on the other side showed her some truth she cant ignore. n now she has to live with it. 

she wants to do what the warrior nun would do, save the world of evil, help her sisters. well, sometimes that job has difficult decisions. sometimes ppl die. im thinking abt the first ep when lilith tells mary that she knows what needs to happen. n shes right!! if they want to get rid of evil n save ppl, they need to be objective n follow the protocols. i think her siding with adriel n then her, at the end after he dies, when she warns beatrice of the war, helps ava to a place where she knows she can heal n survive, n literally does not give a single fuck abt adriel afterwards, just needed to warn her sister n go away, maybe to prepare herself for this war, was lilith’s way of doing what a warrior nun would do. 

she thought adriel could actually give her the tools n maybe even help her save the world. but then he died n she understood that maybe she needs to do this shit by herself. so she flies off, no fucks given. her business here is done, n now there’s war preparations to be done. i dont think she was ever in love with adriel, they were using each other for their own goals. 

would i have preferred if lilith found her new monster identity by herself n with the help of her sisters?? yes. do i like that she trusted a crusty white men to do it?? no. but i cant stand when ppl say that lilith loves adriel or smth. bby she didnt blink when the guy died. she was like “oh well, time to help beatrice save ava” like??? that scene shocked me n gave me hope that maybe lilith matured in a way that made her harder to manipulate. doubtful, but im hopeful. 

that girl is still very much driven by ambition but also by praise. those are her weaknesses for sure. 

also im pretty sure shes gonna get killed off next season cuz im used to shows like these to disappoint me so. yh.

#warrior nun #sister lilith #oh hey im #hello hi i love her have u noticed?? #VERY much giving the writers too much credit btw im so sure they were just like yh lilith is gonna get manipulated to do evil again ig #why? shes lilith its in the name shes like an evil woman or whatever #they wanted to make one of the sisters evil so bad n they had to choose the one that had a redemption arc before for the same reasons #really. just. really???? #tbh make shannon a lil evil. did u see the way she looked at the halo when it rejected susanna?? that look was weirdddd #no one is talking abt it. i forgot s1 when i watched s2 n i didnt have all the context n i legit thought shannon was revealed evil in s1 #because of the way she looked at the halo after it came out of susanna's fucking back. now that would be interesting #shannon not being as good as everyone thought. having some secrets. maybe knowing more than we think. thats would b juicy #anyways this is the version of lilith that i have in my head n if it isnt canon thannnnn idc the worlds my oyster i do what i want :))