#im. this sucks babes

[autisticlancemcclain]

lately i’ve been on this kick of hating everything i’ve ever written and will write which is crazy bc like 🤨 girl you’re writing this for YOU with skills YOU DEVELOPED INTENTIONALLY where do u get the nerve

#like?????? #@ my brain babes this is all by design #where is all this bleh coming from hm #ugh #it sucks so bad bc i have ninety ideas per minute and i so desperately want to see them written out but???? every time i try i just get #frustrated bc it doesn’t look write and i give up???? um?? #im even struggling to read my OLD FICS which is crazy bc i eat that shit up usually #why am i only seeing the flaws #?????????? so rude #personal

[hurglewurm]

me: keeps drawing random one-off fanarts from things that aren't currently big at all

also me: why no notes on my arte

#grateful for all of u lol #but why no notes !! lol !! i want attention i want engagement #i need to be LOVED and sharing my art is the vessel through which i ascribe my self worth... #it's like how if you have a long list of movies to watch ur still more likely to just. #watch some random movie you heard about 2 minutes ago that seems interesting. if u have spare movie time #bc it's lower pressure or smth #idk brother ! idk #im just chillin here in my cave drawing things apparently only i want to see and like maybe 5 other people #welcome to my cave #alligates says things #yo being an artist on the internet is genuinely awful. social media is not built for my delicate ass #even popular artists (i might technically be a popular artist) like i Know it sucks babe. i know #anyway 'no notes' generally in the past i could hit like. 500 ? with relative ease ? sometimes #yall i'm struggling to hit 100. why 7 reblogs and 35 likes. this is not the way #i'm a creator on the internet complaining about numbers ! not really gonna stop me tho #let's be honest whether or not i'm getting attention my ability to draw or not is contingent on. my own psychological ass. and little else #thank u for listening. it is my bedtime. goonite #if you read all these tags... idk. tell me the name of your favourite flower !

[rockoblanco]

i kno in a lot of ways im v lucky but the whole “ur brain wants to kill u & wants u dead !!!!!!!!!!!” thing does end up being an incredibly annoying thing 2 live with after a few decades 😭😭😭😭

#like i wish i was one of those ppl who like could just go to work #go to sleep go home do things #but instead my (clinically diagnosed !) severe insomnia married with my severe depression is just like #‘wow! Life is so tiring . work sucks! dying’s always an option BTW 👍’ like shut up babe im trying to make it thru this shift 😭 #like what tf is even the biological explanation for this why am i alive like this like wtf 😭

[kris-py-president]

I like "Dean is a repressed bisexual"

I like "Dean knows he's gay and just doesn't want to talk about it"

I like "Castiel was dean's gay awakening and he didn't have any experience with liking men beforehand"

I like "Dean has always liked men and women"

I like Dean so much, and I like all of you creative people, and you should all interpret media the way you wish to babes ♥️

#like yes babes #this character was made for you #treat him as you wish #supernatural #dean winchester #bisexual dean winchester #gay dean winchester #repressed dean Winchester #blorbo #fandom #spn #destiel #as always if you dont like something you should either keep it to yourself or just refrain from insulting other people #unless its harming themselves or other people obviously #like for example #i HATE wincest i think its awful #but im not gonna send hatemail to people who write it #and im not gonna say they suck at watching shows #just because they interpreted the brothers that way #because everyone has their own thing #you never know whats happening in someones life that they feel they want to write things like that #anyway #ill leave the tags now bye

[theosconfessions]

me everytime i load into riv/blakes house

river:can i be cheerful ?

me: no.

#like no my child #youll be paranoid af like usual #i think blakes responsible for that #but then again rivers sister has the same trait. #growing up with theo does that to you #text post #also im decorating their house today sweet babes #wish me luck i suck at decorating

[iholli]

glaring directly into the sun as I write them into my unpublished f/o list

#i was already in trouble w Donnie but I've been spending so much time with Leo fic I'm just like oh. well. shit. #plus I've been on the Leotello fence for. A While. so that hasn't helped #unfollow me now babes im officially coming out as a tcester #i don't have a tag decided yet #but yeah #au where rat stays w them 👏 #ive been violently fixing on the show again to cope with the BATSHIT AMOUNT OF BAD IN MY LIFE RN #this year fucking sucks. i am going to kiss some goofy ass turtles instead. #plus they're both biters. stay winning ✌️ #aight how am i tagging this #sorry in advance to whoever i piss off with this post #¯\_(ツ)_/¯ #ficto tag #proship selfship #leotello #tcest #i will probably be putting up an updated pin post #at some point #fr tho what should their tag be #i was thinking like #two's disaster. three's chaos #or something #i dunno im still brainstorming #could just do emotes for this tho? #💜💖💙 #that kinda fits tbh #olay sorry im done

[sqlmn]

by the power of modern day AU, I am delighted to announce that Fulj can have a girlfriend ! I haven't named her yet but have a few in mind so ... soon (TM). She is the one that she loved in canon before the whole memory wipe and as you can see, penchant for black, black hair, brown eyes, and prone to weird statements. Perfect balance to Deacon's weird questions.

HOWEVER ! I mentioned the problem of Deacon still having facial blindness to someone and how there is no glow from the deities for him to identify them. And her solution is the funniest thing ever so I have to do it. He identifies people by smell. So when he is in the same room as Ymber and Oh when they first cross paths, he doesn't really think about it. But later when he sees Ymber alone and gets the same kinda scent, same cologne or something, he knows that's not the taller guy therefore that's his scent ! Perfect!

So... unfortunately.... Deacon really can't beat the weirdness allegations in AUs...... he's stuck like that. Fulj has referred to him as a guard dog in canon and now he's a tracking dog. RIP to him.

(and because Deacon gets my facial blindness I am giving Fulj's girlfriend ANOTHER trait of mine I wouldn't wish on anyone because it's also really funny. She can't smell. She can taste ! She just can't smell. So she loves talking to Deacon because he explains smells as foods for her to get the vibe across. Which are REALLY weird conversations no one else wants to hear.)

#the daily life of a deity sucks #modern deities and their weird lives #im gonna actually make that the tag #also The Girlfriends live together and so they have the same kinda scent to Deacon but even if he only has one around #he can pick them out which weirds Fulj out even more until hes like #but if I smell you and there is no greeting its you and if I do get a greeting its the other #and Fulj is just baffled that THATs the tell ... flipping greetings #also since Oh is just one person in the AU since they were never split to two #they are delighted by the funny scent tracking and is just SO happy to tell Deacon and Ymber #Hey Ym I need to borrow your boyfriend so he can pick out a nice cologne for me so he knows its me #and Ymber is like weird but okay whatever you want if hes ok with it #and Deacon is too ??? over being referred to as Ymbers boyfriend and not having it outright denied so he agrees in a daze #to go help pick out their cologne and just question his life at this point #because he cant not be weird he has to go above and beyond while explaining how a cherry smell tastes #and everyone except the girlfriend who hears it is just... kinda.... weirded out by how he describes things #while the gf is absolutely delighted to have such descriptions #Fulj is just ... i love you babe but hes so weird how do you do it #and everyone else except deacon is just whispering to each other about who has to break it to Fulj #that her gf and Deacon are basically the exact same levels of weird and no one wants to because she will get so defensive #the gf just wants to dress deacon up like a goth or emo and he doesnt really know how to interpret the interest in his clothing #and just they are so precious and never woulda met in canon even if Fulj didnt have her wiped from her memory #she was alive centuries ago

[tiny-huts]

Really fun how many time Matt tries to do anything with the gods or religion the fandom refuses to engage with the narrative and starts foaming at the mouth in barely concealed unprocessed Christian religious trauma.

#i got therapy for that babes!!! #critical role #cr discourse #im not watching c 3 #cause i dont like kt #but this was just as annoying eith calamity and the Beacon in cr2 #it was so funny eith Asmodeus #people fell for it hook line and sinker #like Matt is not interested in gods wholly bad edgy atheist shit #go watch fantasy high they unpack that if that's what you want #but like the cultureally christian #edgy atheist shit in this fandom jumoed out #i was raised catholic and it sucked #but i went to therapy about it #instead of frothing at fictional dnd gods #im still not over poeple calling the Luxon a cult #made me want to die #fellas is this religon that encourages questioning it and stresses the power of choice a cult #also to even compare a polytheistic system... #and like we are playing a campaign whete the gods are imperfect and thats a theme #you can do it #im not against it #the gods don't need to be wholly good #but god is the fandom annoying #and also you are all so culturally Christian and should acknowledge that

[rearranging-deck-chairs]

13, trying to prevent yaz from spiralling when they get separated: i need you to do a deepdive into eschatology

#fghgjhjhggh #'yea i know this sucks babe but we'll figure it out the fate of the world is on your shoulders i believe in you kisses <3' #like thats where you'll end up right #'find out when the aliens come try and take over' #eschatology and death cults and conspiracy theories probably #forced to sift through like centuries of that stuff for years on end trying to find the Real in all of it #and you cant.......stop. bc the world will end #i dont think you come out of that.................normal #even with the best starting condition you dont come out of that normal but yaz is like #functional only by virtue of her circumstances i think #she looks fine bc shes standing next to 13 #i dont think shes normal under the surface #i dont think 4 years of apocalypticism left her untouched #dan either i mean i dont think anyone comes out of that untouched but these two are like barely keeping it together beforehand #can you imagine how WEIRD theyve become #can you imagine how obliviously and kind of unsettlingly weird they'd be in support groups #the others would get it like sure none of us are really normal anymore but like #i think they'd be weird #4 years of having to depend on each other and not knowing if you'll get back home and having to take The End Times seriously nonstop as a #matter of urgency and duty #and then losing the third member of your party? #dan and yaz will be so weird and fucked up #iknow im repeating myself but im just trying to put myself in the frame of mind of #having to take intepretations of the end times seriously for 4 years #when youre already like a lowkey suicidal person to begin with #i think if yaz hangs out with 14 she'll say such weird and fucked up things entirely obliviously and he'd be like O.O #she probably still has 1900 habits that show up unexpectedly #or like just miscalibrated. has to take a trip to another country and takes a train bc she forgets planes exist #has to look up somethign and just goes SIGH. gets her coat to go to the library. and ryans like ??? ive googled it #and shes like oh fuck google

[qeyond]

Death Note but in the helicopter scene we get to follow L's perspective and the moment after Light kills Higuchi, L looks Light over suspiciously. The noise of panic outside the helicopter trails off and all we can hear in L's head is a building, but still faint, slow tinkling noise. Like a crack in glass slowly spreading. He asks if Light's alright and he responds with some fake, panicked remark. We pan back to L's eyes, still on Light, deep and searching. Knowing. There's a final sharp loud CRACK.

#qeyond sucks #that was his heart babes :( #lawlight #death note #L lawliet #light yagami #i just woke up and i dont even have my glasses on yet but im yearning im YEARNING IM LONGING IM IN ANGUISH #idc idc idc the pounding of his heart muffles the world out like a bomb went off #tinkling tinkling tinkling he feels cold like hes watching snow fall #hes consumed entirely #kira!light is celebrating that night in his room #and L is picking out his church outfit #not the one he wanted to be married in but the one he gets buried in

[shidouryusm]

woke up and shawty is the first face I see🥹🫶🏼

#sams.shit #calling him shorty like he aint ten foot taller than me #but he’s my babe I can call whatever I want #looks so juicy #im getting all disrespectful looking at you #IM SO EXCITED FOR YOU KUROO TETSURO #gonna eat and gobble and suck you up #thank you 🙏🏽

[skeletalheartattack]

i need someone to hold me and feed me playstation 2 discs

#sorry. im yearning for playstation 2 games so badly. #theres no retro game stores close enough that id want to drive to #and my laptop is soooo bad at running emulators around the 6th console generation. it sucks girlies. #its so bad i constantly have dreams of finding retro game stores in my city. or going to a super market and finding a used games aisle #gamestop here use to sell used ps2 games but NO MORE #my brothers use to have a lot of PS2 games but. i think they sold a lot of them???? #that or they were forced to give them away? #i was too young to remember properly #it sucks babes....

[nik-the-bik]

This passage - coupled with the fact that Guest was able to so easily match the handwriting later - makes me think that Jekyll was gambling on Utterson not wanting to damage his friend's reputation.

It also feels odd to me that he'd send Utterson a dinner invitation that same evening after seeing the state Jekyll was in here - unless Jekyll wanted Utterson to make the handwriting connection in the first place.

"Oh, Utterson, I trust your judgment so much!"

Don't show this to the cops don't implicate me you'd never do such a thing, would you?

The only reason the letter from Hyde exists is so it will either placate Utterson or scare him into absolute silence. Jekyll wasn't so sure he'd accomplished the first, so he made sure Utterson would know how damning it would be to him if Utterson let any connection get out.

The worst part is that we've already seen Utterson cover for Jekyll with the cane at the Carew murder. He was already willing to hide Jekyll's connection to Hyde. Jekyll's frantic lies are unnecessary.

#the strange case of dr jekyll and mr hyde #jekyll and hyde #dr jekyll #mr utterson #henry jekyll #gabriel utterson #utterson your friend sucks im so sorry babe #jekyll and hyde weekly

[furballfaggot]

still no proper dni but if you watch turkey tom get away from my blog

#champ talks #saw the 'HUGE TRANS DRAMA' tomdark video come across my feed and after watching it i can safely say he sucks ass #trying to say that transphobia and someone using slurs against a trans coworker was 'silly' and 'not a big deal' shut the fuck up #'i got a new haircut so im nonbinary im going by zim now my pronouns are je/jer' being the opener is a bad fucking look babes idk! #especially when in the same video you then go on to only refer to a nonbinary character with she/her and be like 'no thats a girl' #and then TRY AND CLAIM THATS NOT WHAT YOURE DOING #ive always had bad vibes about him bc he just genuinely seemed like he was obnoxious at best and a bad person at worst but like. lord #and he just lets his comment section fill with bigotry because he doesnt give a shit like way to go dude nice to know you dont care about u #he didnt say anything outwardly transphobic so a red mark on shinigami eyes would probably be a bit much but oooooh he needs it SO BAD #he also makes some sketchy comments about a trans furry in that 'gamers won the war' type way #so. what a wonderful time

[hard-of-death]

What i thought was gonna make me uncomfortable when i started signing in public spaces: people that don't sign staring at me and my companion, awestruck. The "omg such a beautiful language!!" comment

what actually makes me uncomfortable: people that do sign eavesdropping in from afar

#goooddd please stopppp #specially interpreters i know they do it cause they see it as *practice* #cause u know #they only see it as a conversation in a SL btw deaf and hoh people #but like #honey 😭this is a private conversation stop staring #also im just a beginner my grammar sucks please it makes me feel so judged just let me ve a private conversation in peace #hoh #deaf #sign language #actuallyhoh #actuallydeaf #deaf culture #deaf community #(if people that don't sign stare at you...babe you SIGN BIGGER ok?) #i don't care so much when other Deaf people stare but it does make me feel shy #sorry im butchering ur language i don't know better yet :( baby steps and all that #actually disabled

[thekidsarentalright]

consider the possibility of a show with last of the real ones into save rock and roll into so much for stardust

considering this and oughskdjfd my god i need to hear this now so bad... fob please you wanna do this on 2ourdust so so badly you wanna bring lotro back you wanna extend the piano section pleaseeeee

#the implications of lotro being a true love song to the world sucks but im gonna keep fighting u are what u love not who loves you #to in another life you were my babe most depressing crushing song ever is. insane. fob please. for us #asks #nightisonlynight