#im too done with this to remove it

[ctomsy]

everything stays (but it still changes)

#tommyinnit #c!tommy #ctommy #c!tommyinnit #dream smp #dsmp #dsmpblr #tommyinnit fanart #dsmp fanart #ignore the watermark #im too done with this to remove it #tommys art

[skunkes]

ok posting it here bc im not sure if its going to stay in the doodle page

#delete later #deleting soon bc eyes on me #for those of you who kept asking about Something last year LOLLL #sorry this is too entry level vent comic ykwim i jst needed to get it out #im over it in the sense that like ok yeah whatever #but not in the sense that i came out worse than before. i was already Small. ive been further Smallened #i was a rebound and lied to and discarded...which thank god i was Set Free but wow! #all my personal fears reinforced. it is embarrassing for me to want and need...i get it neow. i was a stepping stone i am an npc #idk that i could do it again! im not sure its worth trying i am too much of a...project. #as i was told from day 1 but still ran directly into it #and i was too much of a coward to leave myself. if it happened again i wouldnt be able to leave then either. #im happy that i dont think it could get much worse than all that for my first experience but it was also exhausting #and weirdly at the same time i dont think i cld ever expect better #its almost been a year since its been Done and the words and treatment linger <3 #this is also why i had to enlist talon as imaginary bf number 2 LOL need extra reinforcement and love #cringe as fuck but it rly will never be as good as whats in my brain...i know that neow. i will spare everyone the trouble #and remove myself from the dating pool (<- implying he was ever even in it) #i dont even hold any ill will toward em bc they were right...its just hurts ykwim

[heliianth]

weird way to find out

#have another art . my job is done u wont see anything outta me for another 2 months #heliiart #sth #REMOVED MAINTAGS im too scared... sorry

[waxflowerwoes]

obviously chandrilan fashion is influenced by traditional east asian garments (the first time i was watched andor i was thinking about how much it reminded me of korean hanbok but that bias is probably indicative of how i grew up near a koreatown) and i saw someone somewhere say that it's odd that the shirts are crossed right over left (the way to dress a dead person) instead of the traditional left over right

now this could be a cultural oversight on the part of the costume designers. it wouldn't be the first time hollywood (or even star wars) appropriated an aesthetic they didn't understand. but with the line "play it how you want. but i'm going to assume i'm already dead," also existing in this show, maybe it's not.

#star wars andor #andor #kino loy #andor analysis #i don't know if im brave enough to tag this as star wars #anyways i find it super interesting if this was done on purpose #and tho i don't love that it's a bunch of white people in these costumes i do think it adds a sense of separation and removal from heritage #that a more european style wouldn't have communicated to the audience (at least as well) #and yeah yeah i'm mainly thinking about a particular style of stereotyped european clothing #and honestly it probs could have worked if you went back a couple centuries or went into the less western parts of europe #but honestly i think that's expecting too much at this point in time and in a nicer world we wouldn't need to bother with talking about thi #im not an expert tho just some girl who's having Thoughts #i'd love to hear other opinions #stuff like this is almost always going to be a mixed bag but as long as we recognize it as such maybe we'll stay a little saner

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

i want nothing more than for Ezra & Thrawn to be not enemies, not friends, but a secret third thing - roommates

#sorry to be star wars posting on main but im star wars posting on main #i just think it would be so fucking funny #if they all get to thrawn and he & ezra are just chillin with space martinis #sabine: where's ezra 🔫>:(🔫 #thrawn: literally just turn your head to the left #but fr though has anyone... Asked if thrawn wants to be Involved??? #maybe hes done. maybe hes retired. #same with ezra #theyre busy stealing each others leftovers and fighting over the thermostat #whatever goes on in the galaxy is none of their business. they have Removed Themselves from the situation #i hope they Genuinely Dislike each other but theyre like... bonded like stray cats now #thats what trans-galactic purrgil travel does to a mf #ultimate roadtrip arc.... #i hope it made them both simultaneously worse and better <3 #i hope ezra does literally anything and thrawn is like 'this fucking kid... (derogatory. annoyed. tired. somehow emotionally attached)' #ahsoka and sabine turn up and thrawn is shoving ezra at them like Please Take Him Back Let Me Have Peace #while ezra is like 'awwww youd miss me too much (malicious. snarky. tired. somehow emotionally attached)' #of course its not gonna go like this. theyre gonna have thrawn be all like 'muahaha finally i have been rescued so that i may be eeeevilll' #not my thrawn but Whatever.... #hes a bad bitch but let him be. let him slay in retirement #and ezra's gonna be this wise jedi sage who's unlocked the secrets of the force blah blah blah #not MY blueberry boy but Whatever.... #i hope he's cloud-surfing with purrgil. living his best life #absolutely unprompted #ahsoka series #WAIT NO I WANT ONE OTHER THING #i need zeb & kallus to be gay married on lira san thankyew <3 #(also for ahsoka's lekku/montrals to be longer but we all know thats not gonna happen....) #(every day i look at live-action shaak ti and sigh) #(at least we get a stellar loth cat animatronic instead of weird cgi <3)

[muppetbyers]

idk man but i think theres such a connection between will being possessed in s2 and like 'what happens when my boy is gone' and will giving the painting to mike under el's name. just like... will being replaced and then replacing himself. and like his entire person was being replaced by the mf, but also everything that he said was from el with the painting and speech was intrinsically his and his alone. and how his arc since s1 has been about hiding but also being right there. and how its all tied to his queerness. and how ideally in s5 this should lead to will not hiding/moving on from his identity and his feelings, but instead embracing them.

#like what happens when will has given away/up everything that he is. hes already Come Back Wrong and he just like. keeps removing himself #from things. even after it was done To him by the mf/vecna. and like the only people who can 'bring him back' are jonathan mike and joyce #ship of theseus moment (not really) #but also really. i mean idk about actual philosophy but will is the heart of the show like its literally about how people love him so much #and like. his identity and queerness is to integral to it all. and like okay some of his parts were replaced but the love brought him back #time and time again and it will in s5 too. #or whatever that means idk #which is also why will should kiss mike. not the other way round. and i will die on this hill even after it doesnt happen #and also why will just moving on and 'accepting' his feelings are unrequited would be a dogshit resolution to his arc with mike but wtv... #what im trying to say is in s5 will not hiding and being loved and not replacing himself with anything else and kissing boys is not just #smth that should happen bc he deserves happiness. but smth necessary to complete his arc. okay? okay #will byers #byler #i feel like ive made this post 5 times before but its just smth i feel very strongly about sorry #wheww... category 5 will byers moment. #me vs being coherent and concise #mine

[saturnniidae]

I just found my old ass Toothless build-a-bear and I'm so glad I got him in like the post httyd2 pre thw era bc he still has the red tailfin and that's not available anymore 😭

#hes rlly dusty from being in a storage bin #and for some reason younger me took his wings off (theyre removable kind of like a harness) and. i cant find them #hes wearing a shirt too??? i think its stolen from one of my other buid-a-bears #ALSO i have a barf & belch build-a-bear #i got him secondhand so his necks kind of floppy but im planning to ask if i can get him restuffed :) #toothless and barf & belch r imo the best looking of the httyd b-a-bs the others werent done justice. #the felt on barf & belch's wings is kind of scratchy tho hes mostly rlly soft i think that might be why i removed toothless' wings? #httyd #toothless #plushies #dragon autism #moth.txt

[toontownportraits]

i don't get a choice in the matter / why would i? it's only the death of me

#the lyrics in caption is from doomsday by lizzie mcalphine #the bagel draws #fanart #hannibal #hannibal nbc #hannibal tv series #hannibal fanart #hannibal lecter #blood #eye contact #(s2 spoilers from this point) #i hope its not too grainy i ran it through a remove background thang bc i drew it on a canvas with other doodles so #lol! hannibal writers you're sooo funny!!! mizumono you're soooo funny!!!! (tears in my eyes snot dripping face red) #me and my cousin got to aboutttt. season 3 episode 3 before we had to stop and im watching the rest of s3 except the finale on my own #and im rlly excited...... #she said that s3 is kinda boring but it has chiyoh in it so. i disagree!!!!!!!!!!! #ALSO. i find it incredibly interesting how hannibal handled everything. beat the shit outta jack chased alana. #the implication of him making abigail almost kill alana :( and then will coming and seeing her only to lose her AGAIN #hannibal really likes stabbing doesnt he... freak #he wanted to run away with will and abigail. there was room for abigail in will's world. fuuuuuck man #i wish abigail had been given the same ''mercy'' that will had been given of the surgical cut. #well. it's not truly mercy he quite literally gutted him but thats why im putting it in quotes isnt it #OK IM DONE YAPPING. HEART. REBLOG MY POST BOY

[skitskatdacat63]

I will read the most inane and useless stuff for hours just for my own interest/enjoyment, but reading academic papers is like pulling a tooth 😭😭 like I genuinely think I'd find the info interesting but the fact that ik it's in pursuit of doing an assignment somehow manages to kills my motivation 100%

#step 1. you pick a research topic you find genuinely interesting #step 2. you have to research and read papers abour this topic. hey dont you remember you find this interesting?? #i just remember going on deep dives learning about random historical figures #but absolutely god forbid i read anything in the pursuit of actual schoolwork #i think its mostly that i feel constantly under duresss when im reading it yknow? #all i can think is: im going to have to write something about this #lol just need someone i can blab to about politics and maybe it would actually work out for me #but ugh yeah theres just such a palpable difference btwn reading smth for enjoyment and reading something 'for work' #here is an example! #in my one class i think my prof put The Prince as a reading #i didnt even look cause im liek yeah i aint reading all of that #fast forward a year later: oh my god! i wanna read machiavelli so bad! i wanna feel intellectual 🥰🥰 #literally bought myself a copy of it ..... #i think im too self aware. id like to remove all sense of context from my brain #literally spent hours today watching documentaries that are actually pretty relevant to my one course #<- but note. they werent FOR my course. i was just doing ir for fun! i wanted to learn!! #but if i got assigned a hour and a half docu for class....that shit would not be getting done #ugh yeah anyways i have two research papers this sem #and its so fucking annoying bcs its so open to my choices. like here. you can pick smth you find genuinely interesting #and you guys literally witness me constantly learn info and want to apply it #but the thought of having to write a paper for school(god forbid) literally keeps me awake at night #its just yeah. wish i could remove that particular barrier from my brain #bcs some of the things i do for fandom are literally borderline research papers #like. read and research a bunch. write about it to other people. apply the info(in fic/drawing/meta) #and really the topics are not so different from my actual coursework #but when i contemplate having to research and write for school it just flatlines my brain #need to start forcing people to watch me borderline seminar so that it feels more fun and in-line w what i do on here #the fernando card post???? practically a research paper. god. my brain is so bad #catie.rambling.txt

[brehaaorgana]

Okay so: Does anyone know of a good book or resource explaining the best types of fabrics, cuts/patterns, etc to look for when thrifting, when knowing that you will probably need to tailor the thrifted clothing?

And maybe also "how" to do those smaller alterations yourself, although I think I would be fine just taking pieces I find to a tailor.

@readandneedle do you know this? I want to know what I should just get rid of bc tailoring wouldn't be worth it vs like, what I can alter easily without the seamstress wanting to murder me.

I have a generally good sense of major brands and their construction quality, but less so "what is a total bitch to take in, let out, or otherwise change up."

#no one come at me about thrifting clothing that is too big for you is stealing clothes or whatever #im not going to intentionally buy anything vintage and plus sized to chop up for the views or w/e #i just need to modify clothes to make them fit properly #man theres this one skirt i bought off etsy and it's got a huge hem allowance so lowering that will be easy #BUT the waistband is honestly too small/tight so i need it removed and then replaced with something #i think that can be done bc its aband of fabric at the top? #and the rest of the skirt poofs outwards from there so theres no other issue BUT the waistband

[llumimoon]

Agree with you forever about hermie death your tags on that post are correct 10/10

WAUGH THANK YOU !! I've had like so many thoughts abt this. It's just really unfortunate !!!

#ask #mispelled #sorry for the short answer im abt to go to sleep #but im just so. AUGHFHFHDFF #its like hermie death felt like kicking normal while hes already down #like it obviously affects the other characters too but I feel like we didnt get to SEE that in their behavior or dialouge. #we did get ​a little bit from Scary at least #but its like. it would have been really interesting if they had Taylor react more strongly or something bc of their association #but Freddie isnt that kind of player which I'm not gonna hold against him. Hermie death came out of left field !! #i just feel like there was also more interesting ways to kill him or remove him from the story #maybe have him die while serving as a distraction or when he's in disguise during the final fight for extra tension #since we were apparently THAT CLOSE to the end #or throw him in for contender for the hell throne bc hes Jodie's son and have him die in the ring #or just have him fucking !! leave !!!!!! like Mae Hales did !!!!! #IDK its so . its disappointing. i understand that anthony didnt like him and apparently neither did the rest of the crw #but the fans DID and i felt like if he had to leave they could have at least done it properly #i liked the afternath funeral episode but im still disappointed . #dndads

[alukaforyou]

hooooly fcking shit i have to tell yall smth nuts, WARNING there r semi detailed mentions AND A PIC of HUGE SYRINGES / NEEDLES

oookay so last month nyc got a heat wave and it was SO hot i was a sweaty gorl and not happy abt it, like hate summer too?? and then i remembered watching korean tv and these celebs were talking abt how they got underarm BOTOX cuz that stops you from sweating??? and i was like huh should i try that? but after doing some research, its not permanent. like hello im not gonna spend $ and have needles in my PITS for it to last a few months u kno?? but then i found this laser thing called miradry which is permanent, like its mainly used to treat hyperhydrosis which i dont even have so i thought the results would be stellar for regular ol' me right?? and they make it sound soo painless like "u can do it in ur lunchbreak and go back to work!" bruh u absolutely cannot go back to work after this LMFAO so i went to this veteran nyc med dude to do it today and HOLY SHIT IT HURT LIKE A MF-ER LIKE ACTUALLY WTF

so before they can go in w the laser they have to numb ur whole ass pit by injecting numbing fluid(?) which also protects ur nerves ok got it. i was expecting like. a normal shot right? hell no. so first i think they prelim numb u with a normal syringe shot business it was fine. BUT THEN THEY TAKE OUT THIS SHIT?

i swear to GOD it was the biggest mfing syringe i have ever seen in my LIFE i wish i took a pic so u guys can believe me, the needle was THICK AS FCK and also like TWICE as long as the pic above like for real it was at least a 4 inch needle i wish i was exaggerating but it was comically long & big i was like what the f? obvs i couldnt SEE what was going on but it FELT LIKE the whole 4 inches was going INTO my skin over and over again cuz u have to inject that fluid all over everywhere it was sooo crazy, the doc was basically f*king my armpits with this needle, AND!!!!! THEY PUT 3 FRICKIN SYRINGES WORTH OF FLUID!!! ON EACH SIDE??? HELLOOOO!!!!!!! from a scale of 1 to 10 that was a solid 15 😐😐😐 the actual lasering part wasnt bad, it felt like a crazy hard pinch with HEAT in some parts but i was so taken aback by that needle action, the laser part was negligible. i was such a champ for it tho like didnt even bat an eye outwardly, the tech was like wow ur the first person i've done that didnt even flinch. yes i didnt show it naruto ninja style but that was nuts yall u guys rly Did That LOL

needless to say, since a FCKTON of fluid is in my damb PITS they are sooo swollen, like the upper inner arm, the pit itself, underneath it nxt to ur b00b its frickin whack over there 😐 like tell me how my armpits have jiggle physics. thats full of water babey!!!! oh my god they are sooo sore and painful kms the hubris of it all i shouldve been ok w a normal amount of sweat LOLOL like appropriate levels for the heat but dambbb i rly tried it🤣🤣🤣🤣💀💀💀💀 yall there needs to be a disclaimer do NOT get this shit done UNLESS u ACTUALLY have excess sweating that is actively ruining ur daily life because rn it feels like my armpits are in LABOR :) i just paid 2.3k to torture myself, but since its done & all, i hope im an armpit-sweatless bitch for the rest of my life

#i had laser hair removal done too that felt like nothing #i hate recovery period this sucks so much me icing my pits like a baka #just rly solidifies how im never gonna get plastic surgery i am being such a pussy rn #.txt #SEND THOUGHTS & PRAYERS FOR ME BRUH

[kosher-salt]

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#netanyahu sucks and is evil but idk about saying he is exactly as evil as the leaders of hamas #he hasnt done what they've done and i dont think he would #he sucks yes #awful corrupt blindsided idiot #but i wouldnt stab him on sight #or ever #hamas tho i would stab on sight #see the difference #i dont respect netanyahu that doesn't mean i need to compromise on truth to appease the antisemites and say look im just like you #that i too believe he is The Most Evil #they think hes that evil because of antisemitism and propaganda bs #if you remove that bs youre left with an idiot who should be in jail or fined and never respected #not someone who needs to choke on their own esophagus on facebook live #he sucks but you put me in a room with him were both coming out because hes not a genocidal terrorist #hes just a corrupt liable coward #as opposed to hamas who are in fact genocidal terrorists who love to rape and torture #i have zero problems saying this #the fact this will be seen as a defense of the man im actively insulting too instead of the critique it is on #our problematic tendency to concede to liars and antisemites #its ok to say hamas is worse #and you should because that is the priority.

[softerhaze]

cas tools is literally so useful, what the heck

#i was trying to fix the slot rays on those masculine jorts lmaooooo #sims4studio's slot ray fixer made them worse but cas tools? beautiful amazing spectacular #i did have to go back and open the file in s4s to remove some extra slots that the shorts didn't need to have (like shoulder/forearm/etc) #i probably could've done that in castools too but im not too familiar with the interface yet #but YEAH i wish i'd started to use it sooner ;-; #dl

[southernvampire]

uterus has been yeeterused

#so i had a hysterectomy about two weeks ago and it's insane how much better i feel not only physically but mentally #i havent felt this in tune with my body since i was a kid #i finally feel like im on the path to how i want my body to be like and i never understood just how much i was affected by #both gender dysphoria and physical disease (endometriosis) until i got almost everything removed in there #im solidly sure im nonbinary now instead of having conflicting feelings about it #i feel much better about expressing my strange femininity and being perceived as feminine #i feel more spiritual too?? idk how to describe it #im just confused a little about why this had such a big impact on me since yeah it did give me dysphoria to a degree but i didnt think it #was THAT bad #i feel more in tune with my child self; like i feel like a grown up version of my 9 year old self and more confident #my mind is much calmer and i just feel so present and one with my body. i finally feel like i could meditate comfortably withouf wanting to #escape my mind or body?? idk idk it's so so weird #anyway im also in much less pain despite not being able to do much of anything and still healing from surgery #and i know that having this done isnt a cure but god i hope i get lucky and that the endo doesnt come back anyway #it's amazing to be able to love my body instead of being mad at it because it causes me pain and does things that i dont want it to #idk if that's a fully healthy mindset or not but that #that's what's been going on in my life so far

[girlscience]

well. I added my recent work stuff to my resume today, but then got stressed and didn't even manage to edit it. the day isn't over so maybe I'll get more done, but aaaghaghghaghag

#I thought I just needed to add my new experince and call it good #except it is definitely made for applying to a job not a school #and i dont know how to change it or what all i need to change to make it better #like i feel like i should remove things but then it just seems really empty?? #and i am also trying to plan a trip with my mom to go look at one of the schools tomorrow #because i completely forgot that was a thing i should maybe do? #i just started applying places without even thinking about the schools themselves #outside of if they were good/had the programs i want #i didn't look at price or the campus or how big they are or what cities they are in #and the one im looking at with my mom has two campuses and i have to pick which one i want to go to #and trying to figure out which one would be better is very confusing #wish they would just be like you will have access to these facilities at this campus and these facilities at this one #but they dont have that #and then also i need to figure out TA/GA positions and applications #and i am so stressed about that and keep putting it off #but like. i have basically given myself two weeks to get everything done and haven't done any of it yet #and i am going to cry and puke #do i actually think i can do this if the application is making me feel like this? #but i cant back out now because i have told too many people and asked for refernce letters #and also i do want to do it #but then i am also supposed to look for even more schools and have to do all this for them too #*sobbibng*