#im talking spiritually and mentally

[mueritos]

its crazy how coming into clinical social work, i really just thought I was up against systems and cycles of trauma....but it turns out i'm up against those two things AND other therapists. the amount of work spent correcting mistakes from other clinicians--whether with clients or during the classroom--is fucking crazy.

i totally get we're all on different journeys in terms of being clinicians. but it is insane finding out day after day of therapists and clinicians saying the worst things ever to clients. demeaning them, telling them "it's all in their head", the racism and the ableism and harm that is caused. like no fucking wonder people are afraid to seek therapy (on top of the accessibility issues). while i'm a little biased and think that at the very least clinical social work training focuses on viewing people within their environments (so not engaging in the medical/individualist models of practice that a lot of counseling programs focus on), that doesn't mean it gives every person the skills to be an effective therapist. i'm also not saying i'm the best clinician ever--I'm literally in training--but boy! it is jarring seeing how some of my peers interact in class and wondering...is that how you are with your clients??

my social work program at the very least also has a focus on anti-racism, but i know students from other programs and some of them don't even mention racism AT ALL and focus entirely on diagnosing people "correctly", or finding the perfect form of therapy to use on a client. but man, what none of these programs teach are basic life skills. wanting to be a clinician isn't enough, especially considering that an inhumane amount of people in my program are 1. so nervous about making mistakes that they lose scope of their practice 2. have so much internalized racism/white guilt to work thru 3. or they have absolutely no listening skills.

again, im not trying to make it seem like I am the number 1 clinician in the world ever. I don't even have a psych background or bachelor's in social work. my reasons for going into social work are quite selfish (I want a job that is very flexible, easily transferable, and can be done in different contexts), and the helping people part is just a plus. i'm just saying it's very jarring seeing other people in training and realizing they too are working with clients. i have conversation after conversation about these issues with other BIPOC/queer/marginalized clinicians, so I know i'm not the only person worried about some of the people that will be out of this program in a few years practicing on their own or with vulnerable populations.

#muerto talks #just rambling #maybe im just a hater virgo with a strong sense of justice #i am just forever perplexed #learning that some of my classmates believe that you can be racist to white people is crazy #learning that some of my classmates are rude and dismissive to BIPOC students but they work in BIPOC communities #learning that some of my classmates weaponize their mental illnesses as an excuse to act shitty to professors classmates or clients is craz #there are zionists??? trying to be social workers?????? #i literally have classes with zionists #some people r doing a whole ass career change because they had a spiritual calling to help people?? #again not saying im such a great clinician im in training just like the rest of my program #but you cannot like tell me to even try to be hopeful about some of the people who will be my collegues in a year #because i have no hope for them #and its going to take making serious mistakes for them to maybe snap out of it #and that fucking sucks #nothing in my body feels safe around those people #like idc maybe im an elitist with impossible standards #maybe im the one asking too much from these people..... #the cognitive dissonance is real in these people man

[seaweedstarshine]

Eleventh Doctor Chronicles: Sins of the Flesh is really good. Really really good. Experience with certain attitudes can be so isolating, surrounded by people who won’t bother to understand the impact of growing up in that environment (because the world's so progressive now, right), and so — I'm so glad it exists. I also liked the discussion in the interview commentary about how being a monster and doing monstrous things are not mutually exclusive. Like most things, homophobia is pervasive because it is structural. Religious fervor is not inherently bad — “your god is love,” Valarie says to Lily — but as soon as hellfire is brandished around, it's used routinely to empower monstrous things, in a way that becomes unsafe to debate. Especially for young & dependent people who can't escape it.

Conditional love. Moral panics. Purity culture. Self-hate. Mob mentality. This audio. It's timely.

I appreciated what they said in the interviews about not only about the research, but the four rounds of sensitivity readings. I wish the TV show had that level of care sometimes…

#actually the whole Everywhere and Anywhere boxset is excellent #tw homophobia #valarie lockwood #eleventh doctor #so I listened to the second audio in a muggy headspace when it came out and comprenhended none of it and thought what. #then I listened again today and understood it perfectly and cried the whole way thru. I love Valarie's husband ngl #they SHOULD have a poly marriage with Roanna on Medrüth to add to the timey wimeyness. totally normal to the Doctor #the Doctor emotionally saying Rivers death breaks his hearts in the same episode where he says- #'she looks drained. I guess marriage does that to you'. honestly all of the yowzah refs in eleventh doctor chronicles are kind of gold. #and the first story!!!!!! Valerie's dead mother!!!!!! the Clara mention in the summary was fully clickbait tho #oh and the Doctor telling Valerie about the Ponds at the end? SCREAMING- he didnt tell Clara about the Ponds! #in other audio news im slowly gettin thru eighth doctor audios while working. Neverland/Zagreus/Scherzo were as great as ppl say! #the anti time arc made me finally love charley (and find her interesting) #words by seaweed #this post just lowkey a subtweet at rtd. no offense to rtd for always thinking hes right without consulting the groups he talks about #in ADDITION to the story being cathartic. Cybermen running gay conversion therapy is a *chefs kiss* concept. I'm so glad it exists #I might delete this post later its making me feel low key vulnerable *ramble ramble* #by the way I don't think religion is mostly or uniquely responsible for homophobia. #I think it's like any bigotry or hatred. plus religion is an easy way to claim that god is on their side for ANY hatred they have #which means religious homophobia is a form of homophobic abuse that's not only mental and emotional but spiritual as well #it hits different when they invoke god. the entity who made you the way you are #finally watched Barbie and cried because even tho the message was simple my parents will never understand it #my dad who thinks patriarchy is exaggerated and my mom who thinks god made women to serve men #I’m in my mid 20s now it’s fine. I feel so alone its fine #im fine :D or I wouldn't be subtweeting RTD :D :D :D #I should sleep I have work in the morning ~time to listen to some eighth doctor and charley in the divergent universe~ #why is 2024 busier than 2023 #anyway sins of the flesh was kinda surface level ngl but I don't think anything deeper would've worked as well #it got the emotional beats (and it doesn't need to be a complex argument to point out the hypocrisy long as the listener aint brainwashed) #the doctor telling the homophobe his hatred killed his daughter and he'll never be forgiven

[rottenlittlefink]

What do u do when u feel like you’ve hit an invisible wall in your recovery? What do I do when meditation and affirmations feel pointless? How do I keep assuming when it’s hard to stay positive?

#existential crisis #law of attraction #law of assumption #neville goddard #I don’t think I need to keep drowning myself in toxic positivity when practicing Neville Goddard’s teachings #I don’t rly fw law of attraction but law of assumption has drastically improved my mental health #but will experiencing negative emotions eff up my progress????? #where can I reach out lmao #I can’t do it irl cus I live in a small Protestant Christian town #and everyone thinks meditation and empathy are the devil #my therapist is more like a dad to me than my actual dad but #he’s Christian and I’m too afraid to talk about my struggles in figuring out the next steps in my spiritual journey??? #im having a bad time lmao #this is incredibly frustrating #I was doing so well #I came too far in my recovery to hit blocks like this

[donghuamuqing]

Vecna is the father, el is the son, and will is the holy ghost

#my post #i think will could also work as ‘the son’ seeing as hes more tied to vecna than el technically is #however el is directly related to what happened to vecna and the upside down while will is a victim of that #hes the spirit theyre chasing in s1 and gets possessed by the mindflayer is s2 #which is a very mental/spiritual… thing? like its not physical #will is not a physical actor until id say s3 when he gets to help out to get billy and the flayed #el is the son. it makes sense To Me #vecna is of course the father #id say it was papa but thats too on the nose and he also isnt a major character #hes major to the narrative and to the development of others but hes only present for 2 out of the eventual 5 seasons #and even then only works to develop el #vecna is the father since he made the upside down into what it is now #hes the original. papa did not have powers. he induced els powers #also disclaimer. im not christian. i wasnt raised religiously christian. i am talking out of my ass rn #my catholic headcanons ❤️❤️❤️

[doctapuella]

this third cup of coffee is gonna cure everything I just know it

#not thriving!!!!! #i have absolutely nothing that is just mine and its driving me insane #just dumb shit like no specifically Me space in this apartment #my markers are no longer my markers #my desk is no longer my desk #my cutting board that i took from my moms stuff? that too!!!!+ #and ive been talking to my partner about this whole new spiritual/mental journey im trying and how great its been #and hes been exploring something similar #which is great yay good for us support #but at some point he said 'so we are on the right track' and i just.... its MY thing man #and now its not even fun anymore #nothing is fun and nothing makes me happy #almost every recent music spiral just makes me angry????? #IDK WHY i like it all still but i just #have no clue who i am as a person #and without anything mentally or spatially thats just for me. I don't know how to figure it out #also im leaving my job in may and its the only thing ive ever done and ever worked toward #and i am getting real fucked up over that even though it was my decision #ive lost every trace of who i thought i was

[haunted-catboy]

Even if it leads to nothing but convos, this is the year I start flagging. I need to start being gayer in visage.

#like if it leads to gay sex thatd be fucking stupendous #but i feel like so lonely & afraid & worried & a good solution is like. finding other queer folks & talking to them #not to rag on queer convos btw im just like. so fucking lonely it goddamn hurts physically as well as mentally emotionally spiritually etc

[onereallygoodlambonastick]

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#i get that theyre scared but im so tired of family members saying they want more guns n more shooters sent to prison n see how they like it #every time i hear anybody close to me speak up about this i get geniunely so drained. no boundaries to speak of rn. and still i want to #pipe up and mention that maybeee consider not that. but i realize even that one intervention of a 1sided convo will not get them to wake up #it takes a process. it takes slow and long. #and i know i have a responsibility to intervene when possible. but like rn? im exhausted and miserable and not resourced enough to take care #of myself and these other people at the same time. they really are out here hushing each other whenever they talk ''political'' in fear ill #keen over and die from the additional mental strain as if i dont think about these things on the daily #idk the ppl surrounding me are so intolerable to me rn. at least a function of that is how much im intolerable to myself and how shaken i am #mentally spiritually emotionally intellectually. whatever #im so tired of being a women like how they think a woman or a man should be. im so tired that im just sucking it all up and unable to #turn it into direction towards more useful ends. now it just sinks to the pit of me and stays congealed and im stuck. im stuck. im stuck! #i miss being in a place where i could see all this and move forward anyways without getting knocked out of alignment. #it rly feels like rn im crushed into either a fetal position spiritually or on my hands trying to howl toothlessly and w/o clarity #i have so much trouble trying to stay in my body and letting myself talk shit. any kinda shit. im starting debates im getting run down im #getting mired in the pointlessness of being right or being better or being more correct than ever. im starting shit i dont have to in the #name of glory or betterment. and directly tied to this is getting so mired up in the guild and dread and panic of proving and being a talksp #erson #i get threatened much more easily and i get intimidated much more easily. i try to take up as little space as possible. as if doing so will #actually do something to help me breathe. what a joke! #what a default state return to patterned meanness. sorry. im trying to collect myself and step down without hurting myself. #it doesnt feel like im moving at all from where im at but im probably crawling. im probably inching myself along. #keep making room for being watched though. i feel like im being watched. i keep thinking im letting down all the people ive talked to b4 abt #such things. i wonder if they would sneer at me? i keep looking towards how i was few months ago when i had more energy/presence/okayness #and i miss having fun. i miss the knowing that we would be okay we would figure it out as we figure it out #i miss not falling into the trap of proving myself to ppl and if i did to climb back out. #rn if its not flattened and a distant dissociated state im generally embarassed to exist. to speak. to know its never now/never. #i miss knowing and believing concretely that there are people many people doing this work who are thinking hard and doing hard things #and offering contempt to myself is like condemning myself to burn out farther and farther and the best i can do rn to counter that is #acknowledging i have indeed done the bare minimum; which is wise. #acknowledging i have indeed thought ill and i can follow that up w a bringing back to an acknowledgement of my efforts.

[lost-prince-x]

Fucking hell I'm about to fight a bitch

#k got a gf and a bf. gf (let's call her Thea) is a witch. cool great thats cool #the problem is: Star has DID. Thea is one of those assholes who thinks DID is just some witchy spiritual thing. and straight up said she #doesn't believe Star has DID and that its spirits instead of her alters. #im sorry i dont want to cause issues but my bpd makes me extremely protective of my people. #Thea is not my person #Star very much is. #i have to very much consciously control my feelings so I don't snap at her rn. but i Want To. #i lowkey feel like an angry barking dog foaming at the mouth #trying to protect my loved one but having to be locked away so i dont cause injury #'english is the universal language in the spirit realm and all Star's alters know english so they arent alters but spirits instead🥺' #bitch stfu i will literally kill you #god bless Star for being able to have a civil conversation with Thea about this #coz after just listening to them talk for like 15 minutes i dont think ill be able to ever trust Thea again. #if someone told me my bpd isnt real but its caused by spirits instead id just straight up have a mental breakdown #i hate it i hate having to be kind and quiet i want to tea her throat out #but I'll just talk to Star abt her thoughts abt all this nonsense instead. #fucking bitchass i can explain all of Thea's claims w biology w no problem whatsoever and i barely know shit abt neurology so like. stfuuu #personal

[potato-dragons]

I just love it when the things I'm interested in (ancient astrology, tarot cards, ghost, spirits, religion, etc) is weaponize against me when trying to have a serious discussion or to just justify shitty narcissistic behavior to the point now that I want to rip my ears out just that the mere mention of them.

#thanks dad #gotta write on a sticky note to never ever talk about mental health problems with him #cause hes just going to go on about how im not spiritual strong and that i have darkness and need to health #like.... yeah no shit thats why im trying to talk to you #i wish he would go back to being a fucking angry pot head #personal post

[sassyandclassy94]

So I was just booted from a Timothèe Chalamet discord server and can you guess why? Yup. My beliefs, lol. My beliefs made those poor little angels feel ‘unsafe and uncomfortable’.

But here’s the funny part: those little snots were bashing Justice Thomas and, like good little followers of the Marxist cult, didn’t seem to care how their comments were making me feel. Nope.

It’s okay though cause honestly some of their comments about Timothèe himself made me really uncomfy🥴

#honestly I knew this day would come and I don’t even care🤷🏻‍♀️ As an unapologetic conservative im used to it #They were so brainwashed too it was disgusting #and so… h*rny and inappropriate. And one or two of them was MARRIED?! like hello! your comments are a form of cheating on your husband🤦🏻‍♀️ #honestly they weren’t good for my mental or spiritual health so I’m really glad I got kicked out💁🏻‍♀️ #I felt a little funny anyway - like God didn’t really want me associating with those so-called women. #Howerver… what’s bothering me is the fact they’re possibly talking about me right now🥺 That hurts a bit… #personal #liberals and their logic

[itgirl-111]

Embodiment of love

She looks just like a dream.....

I am literally the prettiest dream girl ever. Looking at my face means instantly getting serotonin and adrenaline, dopamine rush. Just being in my presence is itself a present. My presence alone has value in it, feels like a literal nostalgic Deja Vu like dream you never want to wake up from. I embody love and beauty, physically, emotionally, mentally, spiritually, energetically.

The prettiest stars in the world.....

My beauty is unrivaled, I look like the prettiest angels and stars of the galaxies. I am simply so breathtaking, irresistible, and unforgettable. I embody the prettiest sunsets, prettiest stars, prettiest skies, prettiest oceans, and prettiest art. My beauty is otherworldly, the one that you'd want to capture it so badly. Even the camera couldn't capture a tenth of my beauty, because I'm just way too beautiful. I am a living, breathing work of art. I am so mesmerizing it's insane. Every single day I wake up looking a billion times prettier than I was yesterday. My beauty knows no limits. I am just naturally and effortlessly beautiful. My beauty is the one that is once in a blue moon, it's rare, it's too precious. The moment you lay your eyes on me the only thing on your mind is "wow". Seriously, how is it even possible for someone to look this pretty that you'd take their breath away? But it is possible for me, yes, because I'm the ultimate dream girl.

Embodiment of love.....

I am the embodiment of love itself, you don't know true love until you see me. One look is enough for you to fall utterly in love with me. I am the first love, I am the definition of love. I'm the embodiment of love in the purest form. If love was a person it would be me. I'm immensely in love with myself inside out, and this love only keeps increasing. I act, walk, talk, like I'm a blessing because I literally am!!. There's something so lovely, adorable, otherworldly, ethereal, magical and angelic about my aura that people simply cannot help but to fall in love with. I have 0 haters, I mean come on, I'm literally the best of the best. I'm simply loved, respected and admired by everyone. I am everyones favourite everything. I am the dream girl, the one that you dream of. I'm the typa girl you wish you had. I'm the typa girl you wish you would become. I'm the typa girl who you see once and never forget. I'm the typa girl who you can't help but to love and adore. I'm the typa girl you want to protect and cherish with all your heart. I'm the typa girl you wanna see win. I'm the typa girl that takes your breath away. Im the typa girl that makes your heart race. I'm the typa girl who reminds you of everything. I'm the typa girl who reminds you of love songs. I'm the typa girl you miss when I'm not around. I'm the typa girl you wanna spoil. I'm the typa girl who brings the soft side out of you. The only one.

A dream....

I would just be sitting there and doing nothing and everyone would go crazy over me. Everything about me, my aura prompts people to smile uncontrollably like an idiot in love. Even the coldest of people turn soft for me. It's like everything around me just turns into that one romantic and dreamy shoujo manga. Being in my presence is strangely addicting yet comforting. The world is literally a happy, ethereal and magical dream when I am in it. People automatically feel better in my heavenly presence. I literally embody makoto shinkai's movies, so breathtakingly beautiful, dreamy and the literal embodiment of love. I embody all the majestic love songs. My beauty, presence, aura, vibe, personality, mindset, my voice, literally everything about me is so dreamy, perfect and lovable. It's like I walked right out of a love struck, euphoric dream. That's right I'm a dream you never want to wake up from.

#vaunting #vaunts & affirmations #beauty affirmations #manifestation #manifesting #loassumption #affirmations #affirm #affirmyourlife #affirmdaily #manifestingreality #manifestyourreality #master manifestor #neville goddard #dylan james #dream girl #desired reality

[famemonsterrr]

- Astrological observations part 18

- you might not agree with me but air signs are really good texters because they love to communicate in any form. (Most of my friends that have air placements they text a lot)

- Pisces and Sagittarius are the same thing but in different fonts. (Both are spiritual, look for positivity, prone to addiction, low key hippies and both pretty delusional if something bad happens to them)

- I have often seen that Pisces are the ones who are the different in a friend group,unlike Aquarius who is known to be the "different one" (Im not saying necessarily standing out but maybe be a little bit outcast)

- Gemini will get along with everyone naturally and make friends without even trying (I know it’s over said observation but it’s true)

- Water signs are the driest texters or the slowest (I have noticed by myself and other water signs that we tend to forget text back or not caring to text back)

- If you see a Scorpio talking and sharing a lot consider that they might have libra mercury (my male best friend is Scorpio sun with libra mercury and everyone knows his drama)

- DONT YOU EVER debate/argue with air & earth mercuries EVER! (Earth signs: are calm and collective so when it’s needed can smash you with their words. Air signs: are smart and fast to find something to say and because always have knowledge on their heads they will hit u with facts that you can’t even try to prove they are false)

- libra women are adorable no matter what. (For real all the libra women I have seen they look so sweet and approachable)

- as a Pisces myself I will advice you to never believe the innocent “I’m confused” persona of a Pisces (they are the best to get what they want and learn all the shit but also make you feel so special and loved only to destroy you mentally)

- I have noticed from myself that I tend to laugh or find funny people who have the same mercury as me (it’s might not be the same for for the rest of you but that’s my personal observation even tho I found funny some people who don’t have the same mercury as me)

That was it 🤍

i hope you liked my post and im really greatful for you liking it and reading it. Also i want to start writing something new in my blog i hope you will like it the same way as my observations posts.

stay healthy,hydrated and peaceful guys.

#astrology #astrology notes #astrology observations #natal chart #air signs #water signs #earth signs #fire signs #astrology opinions #horoscope #astro notes #astro community #pisces #aries #leo placements #virgo placements #libra placements #scorpio placements #sagittarius placements #capricorn placements #aquarius placements #gemini placements #taurus placements #cancer placements

[plutonian-moon]

random astro

observations p6 !! ☆° ✩࿐

take what resonates leave what doesn't!!

▪2H aqua/cap (both saturn ruled) can have bad self esteem !!tw : ed!! : they can even struggling with food & body image !!end of tw!! ☆

▪we 12th housers need alone time to process thoughts and feelings ! ☆

▪4H gemini/IC-mercury/4H mercury can mean that u r oversharing family issues that u have or ur childhood trauma ☆

▪mutable dominants can changing their personality alot even without meaning this its just comes naturally to them !! ☆

▪u cant change minds peoples who r fixed dominants lmao ☆

▪3H uranus/aquarius mercury/mercury-uranus have very chaotic minds ☆

▪3H moons/gemini moons wants venting 2 someone when feeling bad about how they r feeling or just about this situation 2 feel better or u maybe like writing ur feelings alot bc this can help u ! ☆

▪3H placements (esp venus) + gemini placements in big 6 have pretty hands ☆

▪4H saturns/4H cap have parents that never allow u to have fun bc they were very strict :-( ☆

▪pisces placemets/stelliums can have artistic gifts ! ☆

▪5H is telling u about ur hobbies so here r some examples which hobbies u can have based of ur 5H placement/s , 5H cusp + 5H ruler :

5H pisces/5H neptune - drawing, spirituality/occultism, paranormal things, psychology, music, astrology, numerology ☆

5H gemini/5H virgo/5H mercury - writing, literature, history, sociology, mbti (u can like finding who u r bc u can struggle with this or just 4 fun) also with 5H virgo im thing of health relating topics like u can b very interested in reading about mental health issues for example also u can b very picky about ur hobby hmm with 5H gemini u can change ur hobby alot or have many hobby at once lolol and u can be very open 2 new hobbies ! ☆

5H scorpio/5H pluto - occultism, psychology, criminology, taboo topics (traumas etc), astrology, mbti, horror movies/games, with this placement u can b secretive about ur hobbies or only small group of peoples close 2 u know about them yea ☆

5H libra/5H taurus/5H venus - fashion, designing clothes, makeup, drawing ☆

5H sagittarius/5H jupiter - learnings new languages, others countries/cultures, philosophy and u can also b very open to trying new hobbies i think its just mutable signs energy lol ☆

5H aquarius/5H uranus - games, astrology, mbti, hmm im thinking of some unique hobby with aquarius energy like ur hobbies can be very different from others peoples ☆

▪aquarius placements/dominants can makes that u will fighting for lgbt+ rights etc u just cant stand homophobic, racism etc !

▪6H uranus + 10H uranus can changing their jobs alot ☆

▪u can relate to ur draconic chart more if u dont relate to ur natal chart ☆

▪persona charts can tell u alot more about specific placement than looking ONLY in this placement in ur natal chart ☆

▪12th house rules hidden enemies .. when u r like me 12th houser then u need to b careful with peoples bc they can b ur hidden enemies hmm (esp when u have 12h sun, 12h mercury, 12h venus, 12h lilith, 12h pluto, 12h mars) ..

when u have for example ☆ :

mercury in 12h then ur hidden enemies can be peoples that r "friends" with u .. they will b just faking that they like u but .. they will b secretly hate u and talk shit about u .. ☆

▪when u r 12th houser then peoples energy can draining u alot .. so thats why its important 2 have alone time ! ☆

▪chiron in 1h, 4h, 7h and 10h can makes that others easly see ur pain (this can apply also 2 asc-chiron and sun-chiron peoples (esp. conjunctions) ☆

▪virgo 2h/aquarius 2h r picky when it comes 2 eating food ☆

▪3h also rules school hmm ur 3h sign + 3h ruler sign and house + aspects can give u how u r in school, how others see u in school !! ALSO CHECK 3H PLANETS IF U HAVE ANY ! ☆

#astro observations #astrology #astro placements #natal chart #zodiac signs #persona chart #astro notes #astrology observations #asteroids #degrees #astro community #astrology notes #astrology blog #astro tumblr #astroworld #12th house stellium #stelliums #planets #sun #moon #gemini #5th house #mercury #draconic chart #venus #ascendent #uranus #saturn #neptune #jupiter

[anemoiashifts]

“pretending” to be your desired reality self.

“pretending im in my desired reality.”

“dressing like my dr self.”

“editing my dr self”.

that’s just yourself. you are already in your desired reality. all you need to to is believe that.

⋅˚₊‧ ୨୧ ‧₊˚.

if you’ve been on my tiktok (and tumblr, i guess) account long enough, you’ve probably heard the term “act as you are” or “live as you are” said in a handful of my videos.

what act/live as you are means is you need to be in the mindset that you already have those things. “pretending” is simply the first step…kinda.

⋅˚₊‧ ୨୧ ‧₊˚.

♡ how have I shifted if I’m not in my desired reality ?

“i’ll be delulu & pretend im in my dr!”

not quite.

knowing something by seeing it & knowing something spiritually are two different things. think knowing something because you experienced it vs knowing something spiritually. when you believe something spiritually, your world will mirror your thoughts & inner world. your brain likes to be right & look for visual proof to confirm your thoughts. your mind will be constantly looking for exterior validation.

imagination is the most important thing we have the ability to do. everything begins with imagination; the shows you watch, the content you consume, the clothing you wear. everything starts with imagination. “living as you are” is you imagining that you are in your desired reality.

⋅˚₊‧ ୨୧ ‧₊˚.

♡ imagination ≠ visualizing.

imagine you’re going for a walk. you can visualize yourself out in nature but what does it feel like? is it hot? cold? imagine the hot sun against your skin or a slight breeze blowing through your hair, feet against the pavement. the noises you’ll hear while on your route.

it’s not just pretending to be something, it’s mentally becoming that version of yourself even if your exterior doesn’t match your interior, yet. it’s physically feeling it.

⋅˚₊‧ ୨୧ ‧₊˚.

♡ ”i haven’t shifted.”

applying this to shifting, what if you haven’t shifted ? like I said before in a previously, if you keep saying “i haven’t shifted” your brain loves to be right & affirm that to you through the physical world by not seeing your desired reality. wanta know what else you don’t see ? air ? wind ? particles ? but you know it’s all there because you believe that to be fact & that fact has been persisted since birth.

you must form an unbreakable, unchanging belief that you have shifted. that you are your desired self & in your desired reality & your beliefs will manifest into the physical.

⋅˚₊‧ ୨୧ ‧₊˚.

♡ persistence.

persist. persist. persist.

“…the quality that allows someone to continue doing something or trying to do something even though it is difficult or opposed by other people.”

okay another example. lets say you’re a kid & you really want a puppy. you’ve been asking for one for years everyday since you could talk & you were always met by a “no” from your parents. maybe you’d imagine what it was like having a dog curl up beside you in bed & picking out a name & imagine what it was to give it treats & play with it, before you fell asleep every night. flash forward to now, you have a dog.

how did you get the dog ? by persisting. you would have never gotten the dog if you hadn’t persisted & imaged what it was like to have one.

that also applies to shifting—manifestation in general too.

⋅˚₊‧ ୨୧ ‧₊˚.

#reality shifting #shifting #desired reality #shiftblr #shiftok #shifting motivation #shifting realities #shifter

[c1oud999]

hi

i just wanted to come on here and talk about my experience with spirituality. warning: longggg post ahead.

basically ive been in the spiritual community for YEARS now. ive had existential crisis since the age of 11 and ive gone through many phases of many different spiritual trends. from law of attraction, to witchcraft, to religious devotion, to law of assumption and now finally non dualism. i read books, meditated for hours and hours, talked to spiritual ppl from all walks of life and watched all the episodes of ganga upanishad (a show i still highly recommend, you can watch on youtube). all this childhood trauma and mental illness made me crave for sweet relief. but nothing really made sense until law of assumption. i thought that that would be it yk. i thought i was done searching but i think that was when i was searching for things the most. i do know i have it in my 4d, when will i see it? i thought i would get all my desires but did not meet success. and then the non dualism trend began and i hopped onto it like pretty much everyone else. i was bewildered at the stuff teachers kept saying. what do you mean everything's an illusion? there's no way that's true. my very real surroundings are causing me VERY real pain and suffering. oh no no there must be a deeper meaning behind all this. and so i read all the books in 4dbarbies drive, but nothing clicked. yes it made sense intellectually, but i didnt want to believe it bc where is the materialisation satisfaction here? also i felt none of the euphoria that was supposed to come with self realisation. which means i must not be a realised being. and then i cried and cried and cried, isolated myself, literally stopped going to school and just lay in bed all day. but ofc, i continued to read the tumblr posts like i had been doing for the past several years. and yesterday i read 4dkelly's post about giving up. it made sense. by the time i had finished reading the post i had truly given up on everything. on wanting, hoping, fearing, striving etc etc. i was SO tired. so i gave up. fell asleep. i woke up really late as usual and missed the school bus. i ate breakfast in silence, switched the tv on and lied down on the couch like always. and like always out of compulsion and force of habit i reached for my phone and looked up non dualism on twitter. and then i came across a tweet that said a simple sentence only- "nothing is ever actually happening." woah. that kinda drove me to the edge of the cliff i desperately wanted to jump off. i turned on some dnb background music and turned the shower on. i stood under the boiling hot water like some dramatic bitch and started piecing together the "puzzle". it all made so much sense now. i got out of the shower and left the house for the first time in months with a cute outfit and makeup on and everything. i went to the mall, bought candles, stickers, eye masks, coffee, and a doughnut with absolutely no social anxiety at all. i sat by window, read some poetry on my e-reader, cried, peered down at the floor below me and cried some more at the sight of little kids sitting on santa's lap and taking pictures and marveled at all the christmas decorations around me. it was insane. i decided i was going to be neutral towards everything but im in love. maddeningly so. in love with this dream that i thought did not love me back. but love is all there is. I AM ALL THERE IS. and i need you to take this literally. there is nothing happening. there is nothing here except you. nothing to fear, nothing to desire. ik a lot of people are going to dismiss this post because it's not a "materialisation success story" but i honestly dont think i can ever want anything physically bc in all its true essence, what is there to materialise? i am already whole and complete. i am lying on this cold hard floor, but i have never felt warmer. also ik there may be a lot of things ive written you might not agree with but again, this is NOT REAL. I AM. i hope this post helps you.

thank you to all the blogs ive come across and all the pointers they have shared: @se1f @realisophie @itgomyway @4dkellysworld @4dbarbie-backup @infiniteko @iamthat-iam and many more i cannot thank enough.

lots and lots of love (more than you can ever imagine), and good luck.

#nondualism #consciousness #advaita vedanta #awareness #advaita #non duality #law of assumption #manifestation #manifesting #neville goddard

[genuspsittrichas]

Sfw and nsfw boyfriend headcannons for albedo, Baizhu and Dottore ? Plz

After a very long hiatus I finally am publishing my drafts, sorry about all that personal biz that kept me from actively writing and posting. I plan to keep posting and writing as I am now in possession of more free time.

Warnings: nsfw below the cut, PDA, jealousy, GN reader

SFW Boyfriend HC's

Albedo

As a boyfriend, Albedo is incredibly caring and sweet, he knows that he may come off a little cold im so funny and he wants to ensure that you know he doesn’t feel that way towards you

He loves to cuddle with you, and frankly just wants to be touching you if at all possible

Long and deep conversations about anything and everything that piques his interest or yours are a staple of a relationship with Albedo

When you aren’t around for Albedo to cuddle and talk to he’s always thinking about you, about how you looked when you laughed at a joke, what you said to him before you left, the outfit you were wearing, and you in general

He might even begin a spontaneous project to capture your likeness in a sketch or painting if he has the time

When you get back he might act like he didn’t spend all day thinking about the moment you would get back but kiss him and he will fall apart eagerly telling you about everything he did and discovered in the day.

Baizhu

Ever the doctor Baizhu might find himself a little too worried about your wellbeing

He will always check in on you and your physical, mental, or even spiritual health he only wants the best for you and does anything he possibly can to preserve that balance and health

Baizhu adores talking to you about various problems he encounters. He enjoys speaking about things with you and the way you listen to him and reassure him or help him if he needs it

Baizhu isn’t the kind of person who loves PDA; he might hold your hand or give you a chaste kiss on your cheek or hand while in public. Even though he doesn’t touch you constantly he relishes in every moment that you are touching

In private his demeanor seems to switch on a dime, he adores touching you, a random kiss as he passes you, stroking your hair, massaging your shoulders or arms, anything he can get his hands on really

When you two aren’t together Baizhu buries himself in his work or finds something to distract himself from your absence

His mind might wander every so often to you, missing your presence and the comfort that it provides him, but he easily turns to his work to pass the time by until he can see you again.

Dottore

Dottore as a boyfriend is quite different from his working personality. Gone is the eccentric scientist persona that he seems to assume as a harbinger, he retains some of his eccentricity but is a much softer person

He likes to lay on the floor for random intervals either contemplating a new project or sleeping. He adores it when you join him for these sessions loving that you choose to be with him

Thanks to his job he is in public a majority of the time and he never misses the chance to have you with him. He loves to flaunt you to other people, showing off his amazing partner and ensuring that the world knows that you are his

Dottore is also a very jealous protective boyfriend, if he catches someone flirting with you or looking at you with the slightest hint of affection he pounces. The poor schmuck who decided to turn their eyes towards you is now gifted with an incredibly imposing harbinger staring them down and possibly already brandishing some kind of weapon he had hidden somewhere

When he’s alone he is usually on some kind of mission that you weren’t allowed on and is entirely consumed by his work. 

But he still thinks of you whenever he is given the chance, and if he sees something he thinks you’d like he buys it without a second thought. No price is too much when you’re involved, and seeing you happy is all that matters to him no penny pinching bank miser could make him use money responsibly if your name is attached to it NSFW BELOW THE CUT

NSFW Boyfriend HC's Warnings: Rough fucking, roleplay, ropes, lmk if i need to add more

Albedo

Albedo while sweet at all other times becomes a freak in the sheets

The man in into almost anything you could possibly think of or he’d be willing to try anything, whether it's for observation or scientific “study”

Albedo who would go crazy for watching you work yourself on him as he sits back to enjoy the show

He would 100% draw you like one of his french girls in a favorite pose or position of his and completely in the nude

He’s more of a laid back type of person prefers to be a dominant bottom, sitting back and ordering you to move this way or that

As he nears his climax you can count on him gripping your hips or desperately clinging to your shoulders and rocking you on him

He would probably try to get a grip on any part of your body to better rut into you and at the “perfect” pace

Would definitely be down to roleplay with you i mean look at him

Baizhu

A gentle lover, Baizhu is not the type for rough sex unless you specifically request it from him

Baizhu would want to ensure that both you and him are feeling good throughout and would try his hardest to make sure you’re feeling good

He would be extremely cognizant of whether or not he's hurting you if he's thrusting too hard or making you uncomfortable

Baizhu is good with his hands i mean he spends his days gathering herbs and mixing medicines

Despite his sickliness Baizhu can still be a rough lover and as he nears his climax that definitely comes out

Baizhu would chase his own release unforgivingly, thrusting you into the mattress or whatever surface you happen to be bent over as he feels his climax nearing

Baizhu is the aftercare king, he checks in on you gently massaging any scratches or bruises he left behind in the heat of the moment

Cleans you up lovingly with a towel before carrying you into a bath hes drawn and tends to you until you fall asleep in his arms or end up doing more fucking

Dottore

Ever the scholar Dottore would be willing to try anything with and for you no matter how kinky or different from the norm it is 

He would be the type to vent his stresses through fucking, bullying you into the mattresses or simply bending you over and taking you wherever he finds the  most convenient

Dottore would chase his own release with reckless abandon

Dottore likes to have complete control over your shared bedroom activities, whether that involves being on top, keeping his hands on any part of your body, or tying you up so he can work his own magic

#genshin impact #genshin fanfic #fanfiction #wow i need to start fixing my posting schedules on my socials aha #genshin #baizhu #albedo headcannons #baizhu headcanons #baizhu x reader #albedo fluff #dottore headcannons #dottore fluff #dottore x reader #dottore smut